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Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Saturday, May 31, 2008

Quizquizquiz! 911th post

Got this quiz from Rebekah on friendster!
I'm so bored I decided to do it here instead. Hahaa.


Hi, my name is:
Gwendolyn?

But you can call me:
..Gwen?

My fav. color is:
Orange!

My high school was:
Eh. Mayflower Secondary?

My hair:
Dark brown.

My birthday is:
8th April

My middle name is:
Uhhh. Do I have one?

When I look down I see:
My legs. Haha! AND the floor.

If I were a character on ‘Friends’:
Been too long since I watched that show LOL.

By this time next year?
It'd be the June hols and I'll be slacking, mugging, and sailing.

I have a hard time understanding:
Why people find tattoos gross. :\ MIAMI INK PEOPLE!

If you spent the night at my house:
We'd all fall asleep! Hahah not really. Oh I have a hard time understanding why people think my house is really nice. :o

The one person who can drive me nuts is:
JONGHYUN FROM SHINee!

(I'm still nuts over the fact he has the same bday as me. LOL)

Most recent thing I’ve bought myself:
Uhh. Not sure.

Most recent thing someone else bought me:
3x3 and 4x4 Rubik's Cube. :D

In the morning I:
Wake up and go "urrrrh? I wanna sleep. x.x"

If I was an animal I’d be a:
Idk. :o

What’s your top friends name:
I've got no besties! Haha. I'd guess Celine :D

There kinda used to be this other person too. Hohums..

Do you get along with this person all the time:
Yeah. We only quarrelled like, idk. o__o k once in primary school and once when we were in secondary school. HAHA. Beat that ;D

How old is the person:
15.

Has this person ever cooked for you:
She can't turn on the MICROWAVE for nut's sake. [;

Have you ever kissed this person:
OH COME ON! SHE'S A GIRL!

Are you really close to this person:
Yeah. :D

Could you live with this person:
Definitly! But she sleeps too much. :X

How long have you known this person:
Since primary 3. But that time we weren't close then cuz we were only tuition classmates.

Have you ever had a sleepover with this person:
Yeah duh. x] fun times!

If you ever moved away would you miss this person:
Mmhmm! I can't live without her can.

Do you know everything about this person:
Not everything but we share a lot. :D

Have you ever made something with this person:
Nope. Hahah.

Ever been in love:
... yeah..

Believe in love at first sight:
.. yup.

What is your bed size:
Single. :( sad right!

Do you prefer writing in pen or pencil:
Pencil. Or depends on which pen. Haha.

What’s your favorite season:
Winter! :D

Favorite radio station:
98.7FM? But I rarely listen to radio now. :3

Coke or Pepsi:
None! >:P never drank gassy stuffs since pri4 I think but Iggy's influencing me to drink Coke.

Favorite subject in school:
Literature. But not when its Mr Tang teaching. When its MR JAMES LEE! :D

Last book you read:
Queen of Babble by Meg Cabot. OH SHIT ITS BEEN OVERDUED FOR A MONTH!!

Do you prefer cats or dogs:
Dogs. Can walk 'em. ;D

What’s your dream job:
Freelance photographer, interior designer. Choreographer too. ANYTHING but an office job.

What kind of car do you drive:
I don't drive but if I did I would drive Lexus or Porshe LOL.

Are you a better talker or better listener:
Depends. Haha.

What do you miss most about childhood:
The easy exams, the love-less life, the problem-less life.

AND being cute. :D

How many times did it take you to pass your drivers test:
I don't drive! :\ idk but in the future it might take me many. Hahaa.

How many kids do you want:
Two? Maybe one. Its painful giving birth!

Can you cook:
Yeah ;D

Have you been to Disney World:
Uhh. The small one SG used to have? Or whatever idk.

How many TRUE best friends do you have:
.. uhh? TRUE best friends? Is that possible =.=

Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth:
I don't really get the question but it really depends. Cuz I do both.

Who’s the last person you got into a argument with:
=.= Peckkhee?

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move:
Australia.

How much do looks matter to you in a guy:
Not much. :D

Whats the best feeling in the world:
Having things the way I want it, not like now where I'm so problematic.

Are you close with your mom and dad:
Not really..

Do you tell your parents everything:
Nope. I'm more dependant on friends lol.

What’s your favorite color to wear:
Black? Blue? Red.. orange? Idk haha.

Who was the last person in your bedroom:
My bro. Using the laptop.

What’s something that someone can do that really bothers you:
Uhhh. I just watched iCarly on Nickelodeon AND THIS GUY CAN SQUIRT MILK OUT OF HIS EYES! Like wtfwtfwtf!

What are you freakishly obsessed with:
The internet. :D LOL. K uhm, the internet!

What piercings do you want:
NONE. :o painpainpain.

Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass or fail:
Pass duh. :3 I don't do drugs yo.

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now:
Nope. Haha. Cuz no one would be :]

♥s and misses my pri school friends-

Talked to Junhao on MSN when I saw his PM was that he's playing NEOPETS!

He told me he remember in pri school we used to play it too, and he always show off to me. So modest! Can actually admit you show off to me hur. LOL.

I'm beginning to miss my pri school friends.
Despite the hatred they had for me cuz someone framed me in pri5, we were fun and laughter at the end of the day tho there were tears. :D

s and misses the 5EE/6E people!

OMG MY HP JUST VIBRATED. Ohh its Celine. HAHA she fell just woke up.

I swear I'll go shop with her soon man.

I wna get new jerseys. I'm in need of those! Haha. I want a black one.. keep using my white one. Rather use the 3Endeavour class jersey cuz its FBT lol! Adidas is my precious!

Still waiting for that jersey I've been eyeing since start of the year. (but its WHITEEE)

I think right now, I'd rather have a really sweet boyfriend.

Can talk to him everytime about anything. Hahaha. I'll have so much to say, so much sadness to pour out to him. Haha. Talkative Parker. :D

(better to burden someone else with my problems than keep everything to myself then slitting like what I did when I couldn't take it right. LOL.)

Yeah.. I really want someone to listen to me right now. I hate doing these dumb things that hurt myself.
But seriously, I can't help it.

Sorry Xinyi for scaring you when you read that I wanted to eat panadols & sleeping pills! Haha.

i love the (OLD) blogskinners

Hmm. No point crying over split milk! :D

Thats the phrase I got from The Cat In The Hat interactive game when I was a little kid. Haha. I can still remember the phrase till now!

Anyways, sad things aside. (seeing Kiahhong's tag made me cheer up. Idk why but it made me look thru my OBS post and I cheered up! Haha)

Celine's mom did my eyebrows today. x.x I think I look weird cuz she made it super thin. AHH HURRY GROW BACK EYEBROWS! :S hahaha. Even my mom thought it was hard to look at my eyebrows cuz she wasn't used to it. >:\ hmph!

Tuition on Sundayyyyy. D: OMGOMGOMG. I thought I told my mom I didn't want Emath tuition. ITS AT BUKIT MERAH! :o thats just... far!

Had a blogskinner's chat just now! The OLD blogskinners. Haha, not the new "n00biieshx" ones as quoted from us during the chat ;D

We might meet up for lunch or something at Botak Jones! Sweet! :D I MISS THE OLDER BLOGSKINNERS. Hahaha we're saying ever since we left and the new noobshit blogskinners came in, blogskins sucks! Cuz the skins have no standard, and every skin the noobs see are nice. =.= "they've not seen the nice skins during our times" quote Ben. :D

And I was teasing Ben about the hairstyle he had when he was in secondary school (while I was in pri 5. So you can tell. Its been 4-5 years buddy since we knew each other from Blogskins! :D). I miss the good ol' times. Haha.

K Mad, Bessy, Ben, XP (Xiaoping), Szehoe, Valie, Biying (.. anyone I missed out?), I'll see you guys soon. xoxo!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANDY CHOWWWW! :D
Ex-classmates in primary school and now secondary school-mates! [;

Friday, May 30, 2008

Its none of your business what things I do.

k that wasn't intentional. But everytime someone cares and asks me about hurting myself and my problems, I just feel like telling them that. My mood lately has been.. not good. Not good.

I thought that well, after the whole business with * died down, things would be better when I took it in a new perspective.

But ALAS! I had to be wrong.

Infact, life went topsy-turvy after that. Hur. So fun right?

Its like, the problems may seem little, but I've got more problems than stated. Piling up, one on top of the other..

I can't even eat well.

Guess what I told Elie?

"guess what I feel like doing?"
"POPPING PANADOLS :D"

And no Elie, I'm not doing Atiqah's AA thing. I've got a reason. Nono, infact, its reason(S).


CELINE! WHERE ARE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU GIRL.
Omg I miss you like hell. :(

Its like we shouldn't have stopped tuition. Cuz tuition is considered our bonding time. And just now I finally saw you during your AMKSS N.O.M.A.D.! (Night of Music, Arts and Dance) felt so good.

But you were backstage-ing and too busy to talk. Even had to call you cuz I was afraid of going there. Felt so weird to be non-AMKsian while everyone there was amksians. :o

Even had to call you to talk. But you couldn't talk for long cuz you needed to tell the modern dancers to standby. :((

Like, you're the only one who understands me. About everything.
You're the only one who consoles me when I need it, instead of adding salt to the wounds.


Maybe, maybe. What if I had used volleyball to DSA to AMKSS in the first place like I had wanted to?
(that was after getting back my results of which school i'm in during pri6. My dad talked me out of it cuz "Mayflower's a GOOD SCHOOL Gwen!")

I keep thinking about this you know, whenever I pass by AMKSS.

Would I have met a guy who totally ruined my life?
(Or someone who wouldn't hurt me for nut's sake.)
Would I have gotten so tanned doing something I love but at the same time have mixed feelings for?
(Or remain my old color and not be teased about being 'black'?)
Would I have so many problems, AND problematic teachers?
(Or more freedom and fun?)
Would I have met fucking lousy people?
Would I have met people who don't care what fuck nots, and therefore I'm literally friendless while everyone else has a best friend?
(Or would I have met the best family I could ever get, since most of my best pri school classmates/friends are in AMKSS like what Celine's experiencing?)
WOULD I ATTEMPT TO TRY SOMETHING??!
(Or would I just lead a secondary school life of laughter?)

I guess not.

I feel like transfering out. But whats the use of "feel"? My parents wouldn't understand me anyways. Hur.

Seeya around.

Mgosh pepurs.

I find something really ridiculous. If someone bothers putting in the effort and you don't, do you actually deserve me?

GOD DAMMIT.
bleah. slit slit slit and hope one day it gets so deep I die. Which is theoradically impossible cuz the council badge refuses to help me in that.

THE WORLD WOULD BE A BETTER PLACE WITHOUT ME ^^

Kk back to matters. I'm going out later! Haha. Wheee. (sorry, I got really tempted to do that)

Going to Celine's mom's shop. Hopefully Celine will be there cuz I've smsed her but to no avail D: Somerset Somerset.. what can I actually do there with 5bucks? Mgosh if I'd known I would've saved up more money. At least I'll be able to shop.

I need earsticks! The one Chiaee gave me on my left ear dropped off while I slept. Rawr!

Might not go training on Tuesday. Depends. Cuz Rebekah my longgggglong time no see pri3-5 classmate's meeting us up! It'll be good to see the 5EE girls again. Good or bad times, I still love them loads despite the incident that haunted me for 2years LOL.

Chem remedial got cancelled today. Bummer. I was like ready to go to school when I saw Nicolette's SMS. I knew it, cuz Pam told me yesterday that Mr Lim cancelled their remedial cuz he had high fever.

So I was telling Quin and Aaron confirm today won't have remedial. Too bad I was right. A tad bit too much too right. Haha.

My ba-la-ku from yesterday's training hurts damn bad! OWWWW. D: stupid boom and PMS-ing boat! :grouchyface: and the bruise on my left leg from slamming into the clip's like.. mgosh pain!

I love JONGHYUN opa a damn lot yesyes?

누난 너무예뻐 (Replay)'s got a Play Count of 55 (56 cuz I'm listening to it now) and is catching up with the song below it in my iTunes: Your Love Is a Lie with PC of 61. LOL. [:


Effing taking me for a fool boy.
Seriously not looking forward to sailing camp anymore. =.=

Thursday, May 29, 2008

feels so bad to be wronged.

You left me alone to fend for myself.
But no matter what, I'll try to shine as myself without you.
The lone star shines the brightest. Tho skies are grey now the storm will pass.
(thanks Drey for this image. Edited the colors a bit tho :D)

HELLO! Finally got my 4x4 Rubik's Cube jumbled up today by the sailors after sailing :D Cheeteng, Weiming, Iggy, Quin.. were all trying to solve it. Hahah. Really need someone to teach me! :o

PT was a killer. Hyperventilated again till I got myself dizzy. Wtf thats so dumb right?

Plaster on my wrist where I s***. Those who saw concluded me an emo person. Haha! Dumbbb.

Sailing today was nothing fantastic.NSC B10 was PMS-ing today. :\ it had moodswings and hated everyone including its newest owner: me. The boom hit my head 3 times today, a record cuz my head's never been hit for a long time?

Wind was okay, then terrible, then okay and strong till idk what nuts cuz a storm came! :D WIND WAS OH-SO-GOOD okay. Category 1 was sounded (D:) and we back to shore-d. :( after that me, Cheeteng and Nic Yeow were complaining cuz the wind was so good and the storm was passing. What luck =.=

And oh, when tacking, I landed with my left leg slamming onto the clip, so now I think I'll have a bruise soon. Hahahaa.

Derigged, bathed (my plaster fell off when bathing so I had this tan mark for a while. Pretty dumb) and headed back to school. Two seperate mini-buses! Haha. Played AB-C with Quin, Aaron, David, Ryan and Iggy the whole trip back.

I hate how some people always seem biased towards me. I mean, when others shout and scream they don't get scolded, and knowing I'm naturally loud, I get ticked off? :(
I'm beginning to hate sailing cuz people treat me like that..

Did sets and slacked with the guys at the fitness area when we tried to do pull ups on our own accord. Watched bball boys play. LOL uppersec VS. sec1s! :] nice match tho. They all play until damn shuai la, stunts and all. Haha. :o

Dinner at KB Macs with the dudes, Quin, Daomin, Chiaee, Joey and Zaki. [; needed so much time just to decide on whether to eat etc. Hahah sorry girls!

Tied my hair in a bun and Aaron said I looked like a China Doll. ZOMG DON'T LINK ME WITH ANYTHING LIKE THAT! :o omgomg. Ehhhh. :\ thanks Chiaee for your earsticks! Quin really scared the eff outta me when she thought my earhole closed, and Iggy had to help me put in the earsticks instead. LOOL!

Homed after slacking with them till around 9plus. Hur. Quin and Joey were making a new sauce.

The ingredients: fLies, french fRies, curry sauce, chili sauce, ketchup, creamer, pepper, salt, sugar, ice cubes.. anything missing? LOL. Gross! [x

Thanks Iggy for the taxi ride and yes, you proved to me & Quin you know our houses better. ^^


Hey ________. You know who you are.

You told me you believe me. But the way you told me was so.. cold? I really doubted you believed me. David told me that someone could have used a IP changer to take my IP, and cuz I'm using broadband, my IP address changes even as I refresh my internet page.

I really hated the feeling. After reading your blog post I felt you thought it was me based on what you said. Even so, you could have told me, rather than be cold the whole day right? I don't think I'd confront suspicions with friends by being cold to them, ei?

I hate being wronged.

Like wtf, you know no matter what I'll never say something like that! I feel so wronged, so framed. And it really sucks. I was at my gran's place for dinner the whole night! When I came back I saw the tag. Why'd you think I'd go kaobei "haha" if its me? Doubt I'm actually THAT dumb to scold myself.

You camwhore, and I won't hesitate to admit I do too. Me and Belle are always joking when we tease you for camwhoring, you should know that.

And even if I were to tag, I'd use my name. I'm not such an effing coward unless I really scold the person till damn cham? Which I only did like, ONCE, when a person went overboard with everything.

Like seriously, I was freaking out the whole sailing session? Ask the sec3 guys. I was jumping about asking them for help cuz I had no idea what to do since I'm wronged. It might be my bro since he knows my com acc pass and since he came home before me, but idk either. (infact, how would I?)

So yeah. I just had to get this across. IT. WASN'T. ME.
Fuck the person who tagged. Fucking framed me. Mgosh luh.

2012 DECEMBER 12: dooms day yo.

DEC 12, 2012



Do you believe it? K this is freaky cuz just Tuesday when we lunched at MOS Burger we were making fun of 2012? Till Iggy let me see this vid. I was like okaaaay wtf.

I wanna live I wanna get married I wanna earn my own money I wanna buy my own house I wanna know who my future husband is I wanna see my old primary school principal go bankrupt.....-

-.. opps. :P

But seriously lor.

gwen i am. 누난 너무예뻐, REPLAY. says:
i dont wanna die in the painful way that i have buildings crushed ontop of me
gwen i am. 누난 너무예뻐, REPLAY. says:
i wanna die the painless, natural way. the way you would when you're 90 years old
gwen i am. 누난 너무예뻐, REPLAY. says:
you just faint and die like that
poiuytrewq iggy : D says:
wont la
gwen i am. 누난 너무예뻐, REPLAY. says:
what wont?!
poiuytrewq iggy : D says:
you think 80 year old they wont suffer before they die is it?
gwen i am. 누난 너무예뻐, REPLAY. says:
aiyah somewhere there la
gwen i am. 누난 너무예뻐, REPLAY. says:
you wont get the pain of somethings crushing you
gwen i am. 누난 너무예뻐, REPLAY. says:
i see myself dying on the hospital bed
gwen i am. 누난 너무예뻐, REPLAY. says:
NOT UNDER RUBBLE!
poiuytrewq iggy : D says:
lol
poiuytrewq iggy : D says:
lame lame
poiuytrewq iggy : D says:
nobody say rubble
poiuytrewq iggy : D says:
maybe you drown :o

What I told Iggy on MSN. Hahaha hilarious.

K gtg go sleep. Training tomo morning ugh. Doubt I can sleep now with all the 2012 jazz in my mind. UGGGGGH!

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Was browsing blogs.. and I saw Alex's blog. Pictures from CCA leaders' camp.

Hur. It made me suddenly get the hate feeling. Well, I seriously can't hate something just cuz I don't get what I want even tho I worked my ass off for it, y'know? But it sucks. Maybe, kinda. It just does.

Talking to Drey made me realise so much has changed in the whole sailing team. Do we laugh as usual on the bus? Are we still the hyper bunch?

3Endeavour's loosing its hyperness as a class. And that already sucks. Everyone's like emo-ing here and there cuz of broken relationships, results.. anything!

Yet it has to happen for sailing too?

Listened to the recordings of the uppersec dudes (Justin, Weiming, Mubarak and Cheeteng; a bit of Ryan and David here and there) singing and shit on the bus back to school. I could actually laugh listening to those 3 recordings! Ha.. just brought back memories.

Then comparing it to yesterday's training.. everyone was just quiet. Not hyper at all. Hardly remember myself laughing from ANYTHING. As in, seriously laughing hard.

I used to laugh like crazy EVERY training session. I used to love sailing because of these MF Sailors yeah.

The old sailing family used to rock more.
..the fun's just gone.

Sickkkkk. :o

Yayyayyayyaaaaaay! Got the lyrics for Noona Is So Pretty (Replay) in both the romanized and English translated versions! :D JONGHYUNNNNN OPAAAAAA! ♥♥♥

Sick today. mygosh. :( woke up at Yokeching lover's Wake-Up-SMS at 6.30AM and I was like Owwww my head. :S worse than yesterday's headache. Then my stomach hurt badly too. :(

Sorry for not going for LDC, Yokeching and Nic Wong! :((
It seems that suaysuay every year's LDC I will fall sick. Last year it was fever I think. =.=

Quin's Mapling! Hahaha. So I might maple with her. :D new world coming out! Been wanting to play ever since I redownloaded it (Maple anni!), but there's no one to play with. D:

IZZYYY! I'm earning 4mil per hour on Mob Wars! Hahaha. Catching up with you already yo! ;D

I'm so bored. Should've just gone for LDC and heck care how sick I feel. I agree with Lover! I wished there was school D: anyways, Chem remedial this Friday (and its hip hop instructor Crystal's birthday too!). :\ hope its actually a REMEDIAL and not like the last chem remedial we had in the theathrette with 3D. Not remedial-ish at all.

Thou shall not play Delph in Maple! QUINNNN! D:<

I want my earpiece sooooon :( I think I'll go get the pair Cheeteng has? Its super nice. But you REALLY can't hear a thing when using them. :o hahaha.

I NEED A NEW WALLET! :o

Council badges might not be sharp, but it still left a mark after ________. Hahaha... and remember me getting stabbed by it during the fire drill? Yeah. The dead skin thing's still there! :o that's really long. I guess its natural cuz I bled when it stabbed me. =.=

Don't do dumb things you dumbass.

Noona Is So Pretty (Replay) / 누난 너무예뻐 (Replay)

I'M IN LOVE WITH JONGHYUN'S VOICE OMGOMG. K total hottie! ;D same birthday as me wheeee. ♥♥♥


누난 너무예뻐 (Replay)
>SHINee

[Jonghyun] nuh nan neo muh yeh bbeo seo nam jah deul ee gah man ahn dweo
heun deul ree neun keu nyeo ue mam sah sheel ahl goh eet seo

[Onew] keu nyeo eeh geh sah rang eun han sun gan ue neu ggeem eel bbun
mwoh rah hae doh nah eeh gehn salm ue everything

[All] ah mah keu nyeo neun eoh reen nae gah buh dang seu reo uhn gah bwa
nahl pah rah boh neun nun bee chee mahl hae juh jahn ah
and I think I'm gonna hate it girl
kkeu teh dah gah oo neun geol
[Jonghyun] gah seum ee mahl hae jun dah nuh gah mwoh rae doh

[All] nuh nan neo muh yeh bbeo
( [Tae min] keu keu nyeo reul boh neun nah neun ) mee chyeo
( [Tae min] hah hah jee man ee jehn jee chyeo )
Replay Replay Replay
chuh eok ee nae mam eul hal kweo eoh
( [Tae min] ah ah pah seo ee jehn mam eul ) goh chyeo
( [Tae min] dah dah gah oohl ee byeol eeh nan )
Replay Replay Replay

[Onew] nuh nan nah ue M.V.P buh reo uhm eeh bbu deut haet jee
[Tae min] neul shee seon jeep jong keu nyeo wah ham ggeh eet neun nan So cool
[Jonghyun] jeh bahl ee son eul noh jee mahl jah deon nah ue dah jeem eun
[Onew] eoh neu sun gan buh teo geo jeet een geol ahl ah

[All] ah mah keu nyeo neun chak han nae gah byeol jae mee eob seot nah bwa
[Key] nahl dae hah neun moom jeet ee mahl hah goh eet jahn ah
and I think I'm gonna hate it girl
kkeu teh dah gah oo neun geol
[Jonghyun] gah seum ee soh ree chee dah ee byeol ah peh seo

Make up Shake up Break up
[All] nuh nan neo muh yeh bbeo
( [Tae min] keu keu nyeo reul boh neun nah neun ) mee chyeo
( [Tae min] hah hah jee man ee jehn jee chyeo )
Make up Shake up Break up
chuh eok ee nae mam eul hal kweo eoh
( [Tae min] ah ah pah seo ee jehn mam eul ) goh chyeo
( [Tae min] dah dah gah oohl ee byeol eeh nan )
Make up Shake up Break up

[All] ah ah ah reum dah eun keu nyang neun ah ah ah jeek ggah jee nuh guh wah
jeen sheel dwen sah rang ue mah seul bun jeok ee eob neun geh nun myeong hae
ah ah ah seup geh doh keu nyang neun ah ah ah jeek eoh reen nah eeh gehn
sheen sheel dwen sah ran ue mah eum eul bah deul suh eob neun jee

[All] nuh nan neo muh yeh bbeo
( [Tae min] keu keu nyeo reul boh neun nah neun ) mee chyeo
( [Tae min] hah hah jee man ee jehn jee chyeo )
Replay Replay Replay
chuh eok ee nae mam eul hahl kweo eoh
( [Tae min] ah ah pah seo ee jehn mam eul ) goh chyeo
( [Tae min] dah dah gah oohl ee byeol eeh nan)
Replay Replay Replay

[All] nuh nan neo muh yeh bbeo
( [Taemin] keu keu nyeo reul boh neun nah neun ) mee chyeo
( [Minho] uh keu nyeo wah nah ue love ) mee chyeo
( [Taemin] hah hah jee man ee jehn jee chyeo )
( [min ho] uh I just go crazy 'cuz )
Replay Replay Replay
( [Minho] I I I love you girl )
chuh eok ee nae mam eul hal kweo eoh
( [Taemin] ah ah pah seo ee jehn mam eul )
( [Minho] uh mah eum ee ah pah seo ) goh cyeo
( [Taemin] dah dah gah oohl ee byeol eeh nan )
( [Minho] Yo I wanna hold U girl )
Replay Replay Replay
( [Minho] I I I love you )

[All] nuh nan neo muh yeh bbeo ( I keep thinkin ' bout you )
nuh nan yeh bbeo ( I keep dreaming ' bout you )
[Minho/Key] jeen sheel dwen sah ran ue mah seul bon jeok ee
[All] nuh nan neo muh yeh bbeo ( I keep thinkin ' bout you )
nuh nan yeh bbeo (I keep dreaming ’bout you)
[Minho] jeen sheel dwen sah ran ue mah eum eul


ENGLISH TRANSLATION:

Nuna you are so pretty,
Boys won’t leave you alone
Honestly, I know your shaking feelings
To you I know this love is one moment, one feeling
But no matter what is said, this is my life’s everything

Maybe you are worried about my young age
But look into my eyes, what is it telling you?
and I think I’m gonna hate it girl
if the end comes
Your heart will tell you, regardless of what others say

Nuna you are so beautiful
Looking at you I go crazy
But now I am tired
replay, replay, replay
Memories swipe at my heart
It hurts, when will my feelings be fixed
The ever drawing day of good bye
replay, replay, replay

Nuna you are my M.V.P
I know your nerves makes you a bit stiff
Me with you is so cool
Don’t let go of my hand
this promise I made to you
i know that it became a lie

Maybe to you, I am a little too boring, too kind
Your body is telling me
and I think I’m gonna hate it girl
when the end comes
My heart is yelling in front of the goodbye

Nuna you are so beautiful
Looking at you I go crazy
But now I am tired
Make up, shake up, break up
Memories swipe at my heart
It hurts, when will my feelings be fixed
The ever drawing day of good bye
Make up, shake up, break up

Ah ah, beautiful you
ah ah, I know has yet to find
with anyone a sincere love
ah ah, Although its such a waste
ah ah, I have given to you
at such a young age sincere love
can you not accept it?

Nuna you are so beautiful
Looking at you I go crazy
But now I am tired
replay, replay, replay
Memories swipe at my heart
It hurts, when will my feelings be fixed
The ever drawing day of good bye
replay, replay, replay

nuna you are so beautiful
Looking at you I go crazy
Uh, Our love
Crazy,
But now I am tired
Uh I just go crazy ‘cuz
Replay, replay, replay
I I I love you gurl
Memories swipe at my heart
Hurts so much my heart
Uh, my heart hurts
Fix it
The ever drawing day of good bye
Yo I wanna hold U girl
Replay, Replay, Replay
I I I love you

Nuna you are so beautiful
(I keep thinkin ’bout you)
Nuna so beautiful
(I keep dreaming ’bout you)
Have you tasted sincere love?
Nuna you are so beautiful
(I keep thinkin ’bout you)
Nuna so beautiful
(I keep dreaming ’bout you)
Have you seen sincere love?

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

two lines, a birthday and a warming smile.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY KERRIE!
I know its awkward. I would have said more.. but yeah. Hahaha. Its weird cuz its the first year in three years that I'm not celebrating your birthday with you? Mmhmm. Anyways, thanks for always being there for me whenever I cry, even tho we're not exactly talking.

Training today was slack. I ran 2 lvls and already didn't have enough breath to talk to Chiaee! Amazing right. Lunched at MOS Burger (AGAIN, lover)! Tried the Ebi Rice Burger. Hah!

Really bad headache when I got back, but I kinda wanted to sail? It got worse and I bought panadols from uncle at NSC. 60cents :o ate one. Heh.

End up we didn't launch at all. Category 1 after rigging, and it stormed. Windsurfers were like, struggling? JIAYOU! Hahaha. So fun to watch them.

Briefing with Jhing on some rules out at sea etc. I've learnt something new. :D hehheh.. slacked around, derigged and bathed. Finally got to buy my chicken wings yayyayyaaaays! :]

Tried sleeping on bus back but my HEADPHONES wouldn't let me. :S Ryan was giving me this funny stare. Was listening to Cry by Rihanna. And I cried, again. :(

Forgot my phone, and sailors were like "Gwen! Look what I found, FREE PHONE! :D" :o Justin wanted to take it? But it seemed like a germ, ain't it? (Its my phone, so what? I bet I'm like it, a disgusting germ of some sort. So disgusting, you won't dare to come close. HAH! Much less talk to.) So Weiming took it. Stupid Oei-ming! x.x

After PT he passed my phone to Nic Yeow. Then Ryan, David, Joshua Guo.. they used my phone to get me to the coffeeshop! Hahaha.

How did I get it back? USE DAVID'S PHONE TO CALL IT! Ryan had my phone under his own phone the whole time! And I thought that phone was his other phone. Grrrr. They were busily laughing away. D:

Homed, had dinner, and tried to study. Mgosh. I really can't concentrate! And I totally have no idea what the 9pm channel 8 show is about. Why's Zhiling alive again? Anyone care to explain..?

LDC tomo. Gotta get details from Nic Wong, since we're GMs for the same physical game! :D


Seeing you again made me realise I really miss you, and all I was doing was pretending I forgot all about you. Stupid idiot, why did you make me realise that fact? Cried so badly when I got home. My gosh. I'm such a dumbass.


When someone enables someone to forget the very existence of another person, is it a good thing?
Maybe everyone else is right. And do I really seem happier whenever a conversation strikes up?

I really don't wanna know so much.
Cuz two lines across the wrist ain't enough for me. It just doesn't hurt enough. Council badges suck, always choosing the times you'll bleed.

Monday, May 26, 2008

900th post!

Yay! I've hit my 900th post. Hahaha.

Friendster's been screwing up on me, majorly. :\ all other websites work normally so its not the internet's fault I guess. Hahahaa.

Caught The Arena finals on channel 5 over dinner (mom bought MOS Burger's beef rice burger for me, yum! Yokeching you must be happy) and 2 1/2 slices of raisin bread, and I'm so happy Raffles Institution won! :D was happily cheering for them. ^^ gogo!

The Nanyang Girls' debaters were like.. so hot headed the whole episode la. NICHOLAS QUAH was so calm and composed compared to everyone. Amazing! :o and he's pretty cute too haha.

K oneENDEAVOURians! If you've not received this MSN message from me..
hi please check the 1Endeavour blog and give suggestions for a JUNE class gathering! ;D thank you!
http://oneendeavour-ohsixties.blogspot.com/

Yeah yeah yeah. Lets play a game; lets pretend for a second you don't know who I am and what I do, lets just put it do the side.

Shall go bathe now and study for at least an hour? Which I doubt I will cuz I'll just be hogging the com. Sailing tomo! :D happyhappyhaaappy me. Whee-ness. ;D
"At iCarly (dot) com, NOT iCarly (dot) net. (dot) net are for weenies!" - Sam

SHINee! <3 JONGHYUN! :3

Omgomg I just watched the MV of Replay by SHINee, and I found this guy that's super hot? Then when I checked the SHINee website, the guy's JONGHYUN! Omggg.

And yes he's born on 8th April too! :D exactly 3 years older than me. So cool la.



Their song is nice right? :DD SHINee!!! :3 they've got fab shoes in the MV too. Hahahaa. Taemin and Jonghyun opaaaaaaa!!! (sounds all fangirl-ish) xD

K first day of June hols. Rawr. Very bored, since I woke up late for the LDC rehearsal. :S opps! Sorrysorry. Hahaha. Training tomorrow yaaaaaayyayyay!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARINEEE! ;D
15 years old liao oh! :D jiayou for everything yeah sweets. [;

Sunday, May 25, 2008

I'll need some reason..

Went for accupuncture at uncle's place just now. Didn't see Jiawen! Sad.

My uncle did it too. Then when the 6th needle went in he shouted "OUCCH!" o__o me and my aunt tio shocked sia! Then my uncle didn't want anymore needles. Lol. So now we're like doubting the doctor?

Mom told my aunt I liked the English style carrot cake (its a CAKE and not the cai tou gui you see in hawkers) and she made some and gave me 1/4 of the cake omg! :D was like smiling and smiling when she handed me the tupperware. ;D

Homed with gran and her maid. Got a ride from granduncle and grandaunt. Walking to my lift was like.. ohmy. Cuz my head was spinning and it hurt a lot. :S

Got home and watched Making The Band 4. I DON'T LIKE DAN! He sucks for causing the two guys to be out. And Dan suggested them cuz they went to a Strip Club to celebrate the fact that Diddy didn't eliminate anyone cuz everyone did so well when he was meant to eliminate 2. WTF??!

I'm still sad I didn't know MTB was showing on MTVAsia D: if not I would have caught MTB3 with all the Danity Kane girls (cuz they came together thru the show) when it was aired. :(

My maid's sick D: poor thing! I had to take care of her just now. She wanted to make me dinner some more! Silly :o its like she ask me that time, she was crying. Then she told me she coughed till blood came out, then when I touched her forehead, wakao! Its like damn hot. :((

So I guess I'll cook fried rice. Cuz I told dad I'll cook my own dinner when he asked :S but I want something soupy! CAN LOSE WEIGHT K. K I think I shall call him again.. hahahaa.

Can't wait for sailing this Tues. Except the PT.. I think I'd rather die. :S
I wanna go jog tomorrow! Asked David already hahaa. Oh shit, reminds me. I forgot to check his sms! :S daaamn.

And oh, sailing camp's 17-20th June! YAY. Will finally be able to celebrate with my mom her birthday since I've not for the past 2 years. LOL. Looking forward to camp tho lalala.
Head underwater
And they tell me
To breathe easy for a while
Breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me; but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to


Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me


I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin',
Imma need a better reason
To write you a love song today

Check yes Juliet are you with me?

Check Yes Juliet
>We The Kings

Check yes Juliet
Are you with me?
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won't go until you come outside
Check yes Juliet
Kill the limbo
I'll keep tossing rocks at your window
There's no turning back for us tonight

Lace up your shoes
A O A O ah
Here's how we do

Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me

Check yes Juliet
I'll be waiting
Wishing, wanting
Yours for the taking
Just sneak out
And don't tell a soul goodbye
Check yes Juliet
Here's the countdown
3... 2... 1... now fall in my arms
Now they can change the locks
Don't let them change your mind

Lace up your shoes
A O A O ah
Here's how we do

Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me

We're flying through the night
We're flying through the night
Way up high,
The view from here is getting better with
You by my side

Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be...

Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me
You and me
You and me

Saturday, May 24, 2008

BACKBACKKK.

BACK FROM SEC1 STUDENT LEADERS' SELECTION CAMP!

Super tired! The comm memebers didn't sleep, except for like 20mins at 2am+ for me? :\ and we all fell asleep at the theatrette during debrief. We all sat in the front row and all our heads were on the table thingys. ;D

First day was hectic. Rushed home to pack my stuffs and buy the biscuits and bread for breakfast with Sally. Lunched at school since the uncle gave Lianyi 10packets of chicken rice free when she went to buy chicken rice for the sec1s.

Had to go for Meet-the-Parents session at 6.30pm, which didn't go well? "Which school can my daughter go to?" "ITE." wtf, no studies means no RIGHT path in life ah? GTFO.

Saw Winteng downstairs and immediately burst into tears. Fucking parents saw and tried to talk to me. Whatever. Stop comparing me to Mel. She so zai then ask her go be your daughter la! Cousins so what, doesn't mean I can be compared to her right?

AND NO WAY WILL I STOP SAILING JUST CUZ MR LIM WANTS ME TO. Health reasons or not, interschools is my priority now and I'm training so hard for it. I'm NOT gonna let you talk me out of it, EVERRRR.

Got all sweaty and shit, then went to bathe after AAR at about 1.15AM. I think Gengtao and Jiamin kept turning off the bathroom lights! We were so scared since it was 1AM plus that we bathed in twos.

Ate chicken rice for supper (and for lunch and dinner). Wanted to order Macs but there was so many leftover packets of cheeeeken rice! D: slacked and caught about 20mins or 30mins of zzz on the sofas in Student Council room then went to put e lightsticks for the Night Walk after Cheryee smsed us that the CCA Leaders were done.

Me, Derick, Wanling and Jace had to disperse the sec1s and mentors. x.x it took us 2hrs plus oh! Thats damn long. SORRY TO THE BOY WE "KIDNAPPED" to pretend he's missing! ;D

And surprisingly, the night walk worked more on the mentors rather than the sec1s. Damn funny. Like I disperse 5 groups to only hear one scream. For mentors, you'll hear EVERY group screaming ;D teehees!

Slacked in control room in theathrette and went to conduct PT. CCA Leaders down there playing tug-o-war. :P it looked fun k. D: made sec1s do 200 success claps? Hahaa. The mentors caused e sec1s to do more la. =.=

Breakfast at 8plus (committee members all love DONG GUA CHA! ;D) and played basketball with the comm. :D Meiting said when I threw the ball for 3-pointer, I would jump like Melody. "Where can say you two not cousins sia!" hahaha.

Interview in the theathrette after that! :o poor things. Hahah. Wanted to interview since the comm for the selection camp could interview, but I was so sleepy I fell asleep in the super cold theathrette. :( missed my chance! Thanks BRYAN KOH JNR for lending me your super nice jacket! [:

After that, debrief by Mr Chng where all the committee members sat in the front row and all fell asleep, and then AAR by Ms Sim. Then went to council room to sleep and eat biscuits! ;D thankyou Meiting's sister for e snacks. Hahahaa!

KFC-ed at Thomson Plaza with Tzuling, Ryan, David, Zhien and Joshua! :D

THANKS FOR TREATING ME SINCE I HAD NO MONEY!! Haha. After eating I wasn't sleepy, but after we started talking I fell alseep, AGAIN. Oink. [; then I kept getting up, falling asleep over and over again. Hahaha.

When walking to the bus stop, Ryan said I sounded like I needed water cuz of my voice. Hey, what to expect man! I couldn't drink water the whole time the night walk was on in school so I got a sorethroat. Haha.

Homed and yeah.

Mom and dad scolded me cuz I gave them bad attitude. Whatever.

Stupid puffy eyes. Makes me wanna sleep even more. Hahaha.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

omgwtfbbqsauce my email acc was hacked into! PLEASE READD ME ON MSN! (just incase)

K I now know why I saw those stupid 119 adds from my MSN messenger contacts. Cuz my email account was hacked into! And yeah they sent out an email about some electronics. Wtf?

ALL MY MSN MESSENGER CONTACTS, PLEASE READD ME ONTO YOUR CONTACTS LIST!! THANK YOUUUUU.


Wakao. Now I gotta add back my 1E, 2I and 3E friends! :o

And I gotta hunt for other deleted contacts, cuz I realised that when they were removed they were blocked. Wtf?

thank you!


What I saw when I signed into MSN! :o I think something's wrong, its some of my contacts readding me! And some contacts went missing from my groups!

So tired today! :( came to school to want to sleep, which I did a lot today. Couldn't sleep last night cuz of the ghost stories. :S

My muscles at my shoulders hurt super lot! :o do so much pumping.. sigh! :(

I slit myself on my right wrist today! Kidding. During the firedrill, I used my right hand to press my shoulder when it hurt only to be STABBED by my student councilor nametag/badge =.=

Mr Ho didn't teach during History cuz he needed to conduct spotcheck for sec4 boys, Mdm Loh didn't come during Bio! Mr Chng tried to teach me how to solve the centre for the 5x5 Rubik's during Emath.

He brought his Chinese Chess set! :D watched Ruixing trash the dudes in it, & when Mr Chng played, Ruixing tio trashed. LOL. Justin and Quin took played English chess. I watched them and fell asleep k. So boring! :P they played even when Mdm Faridah took over for IPW. I was still sleeping.

Could hear Hianwee commenting on their play and shit, then heard Ruixing commenting how boring it is ("So boring that even Gwen fell asleep la!") and how he didn't understand a shit. Hah.

The guys played this "AB" game during recess! ;D they whacked each other's hands so hard!

Louis wanted to put his hand beside my face so that if any one of them whacked hard enough it'll hit me, which it almost did. >:\ and they were asking my height and weight omg.
LOUIS, RYAN, ZHIEN, WOOYOUNG: YOU'RE ALL FATSOOOOS!


Had firedrill after recess (which I "slit my wrist" HAHAHA) and went back to class and then to the library with our stuffs cuz we were gonna watch this play by 3 guys on Shakespeare's plays, which they made mordernised and funny ;D

Kept getting caught by the librarian there cuz I was teaching Ruixing the Rubik's Cube!

SORRYSORRY! Kept screwing up e cube for him cuz I mixed up the algorithms! :\ but I managed to teach him some :D I'm a good teacher ;D

They kept pulling up the front row audience to participate, and Ruixing told me "Omg I'm never going to a play ever o__o" hahaha. And he actually got the sick joke la omg. When he explained to me I was LOL-ing away.

At the end, they had an encore of their Hamlet play done very fast. Then they did it EVEN FASTER, and they came out to collaspe immediately (everyone dies in Hamlet) xD funny k!

Then this guy said that they'll do it BACKWARDS! Loool. His two friends doing the play were staring at him la. Hahah. Then when the 'ghost' was supposed to say "BOO", he showed a paper which read "OOB". Like hahahaa wtf.

We all ran out cuz when we were dismissed cuz we were shivering in the cold library since we watched it during Lit and English periods (3 periods). :S

Lunched and went for sailing! Was a bit upset after that. Ryan and David asked Quin to whack my butt when they thought I was emo-ing. She poked me. Only me and Quin sat on the high council row, and I was so tired I fell asleep.

I find it a pity I let my two 2nd postitions during the last 2 races slip away! :( we started on downwind instead of upwind! For e 2nd last race, I was the 2nd to round e mark and for the last race I was the first to round the mark! ;D

Back to shored, and found it very funny when Cheeteng told me the funny things PLs said about *. I know its bad, but I found it really funny k. :X

Hitched a ride from Quin's mom. :D thanks aunty! Teehees.
Sorry Ryan, David and Jack for pangsehing you guys when I wanted to go Macs with you all! :S

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

tireddddd. super.

I swear the Sec 1 Student Leaders' Selection Camp Committee is seriously freaked out right now! I didn't even dare to come home since my family was at gran's place for dinner and no one was home.

Today was tiring. I was right when I said "tomos will be super tiring". :\

Had PE! Height and Weight taking, then it was POWERBALL BITCHES & FANATICS OF 3ENDEAVOUR! Hahaha. Ergh, I swear I'm not gonna touch much rice this hols. Gained weight! :( but I grew 1cm while many people shrank a few cm, 165cm now people! I'll groooow!

Ms Chew wanted us to play Power Rugby or Power Basket (powerball + rugby / basketball). But we begged her out of it :D guys played basketball tho. Almost all the girls in 3E played, and we used one whole bball court! So you can imagine me running like a mad dog. :\

Sinhui strained her nerve too much or something! :o at least she's better. Feel better yeah? :D

Had Bio remedial till 3. Straight after that me, Lianyi, Bernice, Gab and Jingru went opp to eat. BAO ZAI MIAN for me again ;D teehees can't get enough of it yo. Sinhui and Cyndi joined us too.

A very full me and Lianyi had to go back to school for Student Leaders' selection camp comm meeting after that. I was super tired and we spent about 1hr 30mins planning the *. Sorry! Can't be revealed what. ;P

We were all sweaty and tired from burning brain juice in the hot school so went back to council room to discuss. And by 6pm we kept digressing from the main topic. Went to talking about current events in our school, stead-wise. Hahah.

CCA Leader's * is more hiong than ours, as Gengtao told us what they'll be doing. Wtf, we all tio shocked can. K shan't talk about what Welly talked about, I'm getting scared.

Went to Macs with Ling, Sally and Derick. Watched them eat. Didn't dare to go home since there's no one home! :( then called my mom and just nicely she was at AMK Hub's NTUC! :D homed with her. Thanks mom!

So the 2 periods of crazy powerball during PE, the 1hr 15min Bio remedial and the 3hrs+ of SLSCC meeting got me all sweaty and sticky now. Gosh. Tired out already.

SAILING TOMO WHEE! ;D

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

You can tell me that there's nobody else, but I feel it.

Before I officially start this post:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY(S) JODY, DAOMIN, FELICIA LAU THE GREAT & AZIZUL! :D
Andand, happy belated birthday to council senior Felicia. :D

So many birthdays, and more to come. x.x gna die of memory overload! :o

*gasp* I'm listening to trance songs! :o Melbourne Shuffle Soft video really got me hooked onto It's A Dream by DJ Dean. :[

School today was.. well, slack! Had all the periods before recess free. If Mr Tang didn't let the temp English teacher take over, and if Lee laoshi didn't come, WE'D HAVE THE WHOLE SCHOOL DAY FREE! (except assembly)

Oh and Jiaqi, Kerrie, Sinhui, Bernice, Justin.. didn't come too. So the class felt pretty empty.

Watched Melbourne Shuffle videos during English! :D LOVE MELBOURNE SHUFFLE! :]] Winteng and Yuenman were going mad. I was teaching them how to C-Walk V and V-Variations.

Watched Mulan during Chinese. The sound system SUCKED so many people fell asleep ya?

Sat behind Ruixing and beside Quin. Ruixing and Jon Ha were gaying again! Laughed like mad when both of them started squabbling. "You Rui-rui-xing-xing-gori-la-la!" "You Jon-Ha-Ha-Ding-Ding-Quan-Quan!!!" then they'll "xing-xing!" "quan-quan!" and it goes on and on.

Then, "You, YOUUUU Niu-Yuan-Yuan-Qi-Qi! ROUND BALL OF AIR!" T_T why me! Quin did her movie dubbing, and I was sent into hysterical laughter! ;D

Assembly was boring. Waterbodies and how 5cm of water can kill you. *spastic gasp*

Weiming was like "Waaah why she today talk to me liddat ah? *points at my face*" when I bushuang him. :\

Felt like biting his finger when he did that... =.=

Sailing was gooood! :D didn't have the mood to sail cuz it was freaking hot and there was like no wind? Then the wind picked up!

First race I started 4th last, and my position was like 7th? :D
super happy k. Like, I've not sailed for over 2months? :]] then 2nd race also start late cuz my rudder's string wasn't tied T_T and my position was 8th! :D omgomg.

Last race?

4TH!!!
Wuahahhaa. My start was okay, but not good since I drifted down and everyone blocked my wind. We had 3 general recalls! Worst ever! xD

I know how weak I am now ever since I fell sick. :( hiked out for a while, and I start panting and my legs start to shake damn badly. Pulling up my boat from the shore made me tire out. :(

Back to school trip was funny. :D sat at Jack's "high council" place with Quin, and they started singing! They kept saying I was the "on-tune Mubarak" of the new "choir". LOL.

Went opp. with Quin, David, Ryan and Jack for dinner and tehbing. Homed with Quin. [:

Note to self: Jack's really sadistic and is all gore. NEVER have dinner with him again.


Should I just find another guy like the rest are telling me, and just forget about you?
I really love you, I really do.
But I can't stand how we are right now.
You've fucking got time for everyone (and her) but me can.
& I don't get why I get xin tong when Peckkhee told me she slapped you before =.=

HELLOHELLO,
If you hate me, can you just say so instead of dragging it?
I hate being given false hope when they were lies, only to get them smashed harder and more hurtful yeahs.
Thank you.

[EDIT]

Wow my mom bought me this month's Teenage magazine, and I actually said "Thank you mommy" o__o shocked.

[/EDIT]

I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool

You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that i trust you
And do you think about me when he fucks you?
Could you be more obscene?

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know,
Your love is just a lie
(Lie)
It's nothing but a lie
(Lie)
You're nothing but a lie

Monday, May 19, 2008

T_T byebye Nike school shoes.. :(

Roar. So pissed off! >:\

I could have gotten my Nike Dunks Low shoe as school shoes but the size HAD to be a guys size 9. Like wtf? :( then the other pair of Nike shoe which was similar was like, it had all my size and shit?

BUTTTT. The dumbass Nike tick is SILVER!!!
K ya this was supposed to be the shoes I would have gotten. I can wear but its like 1 and 1/2 a fingers' spacing so my mom won't let me buy it. :(

Then the other Nike shoe's design is somewhat like a mix of Nike Women's Vandal Low and Dunks Low, but the effing Nike tick is a light silver, and the back of the shoe's line down is also silver. So Mrs Sidhu told me cannot, since the tick is so fat =.=

If I were Mubarak I would have gotten the shoes and not cared. Hahah!

So now the people at Sports Link gotta help me call all like, 20 of their stores to check if any one of them has this shoe? Or I follow what Mrs Sidhu asked me to do : PAINT THE NIKE LOGO WHITEEEE. :o a bit impossible can.

They're like $69.90 and $79.90 lol. But my mom said since it was so hard for me to find a sports shoe thing cuz my Adidas and my North Star shoes are all spoilt and shit, she didn't mind. Hah.


Went for lunch with my parents in the afternoon at the YES Asian Cafe thing around AMK Hub. Supposed to meet Jiaqi and Sera but cuz they had to meet Amanda for the dance notice board thing we couldn't. :(

Went shopping. WITH MY PARENTS ZOMG. Hahaha. Changed my Everlast flats for Everlast sneakers! :D super happy. But the design is damn boy. T_T tho my mom says not leh..

Don't care. If next time cannot wear then I'll just give it to Gerald. His shoe size like around my shoe size liao wor. Hahaha. Amazing la! He's like only primary 5? BIG FEEEET! Hiakhiakkk.

Then went to Taka to shop at MANGO. :D lovelove. Wanted to get this white skirt that costs 65bucks? But I didn't like the cutting. So yeah :\ ended up spending time at this segment with all the sports stuffs on sale?

Only, they got every brand BUT ADIDAS. Like wtf I was so pissed >:\

Me and mom saw this Nike bag? Its super nice and can be carried as sling or tote. Straps are like Quin's bag, so I guess they're like under the same design thingamajik. But it costs 111 bucks! Like wtf? And its like up to 40% off. So, daaaaaaaamn.

Bought Aunty Anne's, while my mom went bread hunting at St. Leaven's. :D brownieeeees! ;P

Went to go school shoe hunting cuz my Adidas shoe's sole is coming out T_T and my North Star shoes are like.. torn and worn and whatevr. And YA. Thats when the whole Nike Dunks Low and Nike whatever Low's silver logo/tick fuss came about? And I'm super pissed.

WHY CAN'T I JUST FIT INTO A MEN'S SIZE 9 >:\


I don't care la, if really cannot then I'll just buy that men's size 9. Hah! Who cares man, my Adidas sneakers are like, MEN'S SIZE 9 TOO K. Hahahaaaa.

NIKE AND ADIDAS FTW HOHO. ;D


And I did a "good deed" today maaan. Spent 1 buck to buy this stupid paper clip heartshape thing? When its like worth 10cents I bet. Cuz he and his classmates on a entreupreneur (whatdhafck spelling please???!) course and by 9.30pm they must hit 100bucks by selling those.

Didn't wanna seem stingy tho I only had 6bucks and even tho he told me to set the price myself.. So I gave him 1buck. Gosh Gwen, you're so nice.

ALL SAILORS GO SAILING TOMOS KAYS??! :D mustmust. [:

Sunday, May 18, 2008

안녕하세요!!!

My overplugged life.


Ahn Neyong Ha Seyo!!! :D

Sorry to start the post with a picture like this! But I'm proving to the world that I'M OLD. I'm dropping hair! Loads and loads of 'em k! Hahaha.

Was jumping around when I spotted loads of hair around so I just clumped them together. :o must've been over 30 strands of hair.

Bro woke me up this morning thinking I had dance. :S forgot to tell mom that Pam cancelled it haha. Went back to sleep and refused to wake up even tho I already did. LOL.

Washed up and used com for a while and Aunty Esther (Quinneh's mom) came over for a while to pass my mom some stuffs. Hahah she bought for my mom this dress thing? My mom was sweating cuz she was in the midst of cooking when she tried it on. Hah.

Family went over to ahma's place with the laksa my mom cooked and all for the family gathering. I stayed at home for a while longer to spend time with my computer darling. Haha! Then bathed and went over.

Hehe. Finally wore my Elmo shirt that I bought from Winteng. Eh Wintenggg! XL's too big! Hahaha. But its super comfy, so I just wore it with my FBTs lor. Hahah.

Timothy looked different! :o and he was sweating over the bowl of laksa he was eating. LOL. Like, his face was red and all? And his new haircut made his face look longer and more matured. Like haha Timothyyyy! :D

Watched this super lame show after lunch with all the cuzzies. :\ super lame man the storyline.

Timothy went for tuition and Johnathan went to study with Brandon. Ah-peh was like asking me and Melody: "When are you two girls going to study?? :\" then my dad was like "Hahaha their exams just finished la give them a break man! HAHAHH."

Chatted with Mel in the room, then homed with her and her mom.

Family went for badminton, and mom told me uncle Stewart and the rest are gonna come over after badminton for mahjong session. LOL its gonna be super noisy later. Hohums..

Yeah. Yeah, sexy, huh? How 'bout this for a number? Six. That's how old my other daughter is, eight is the age of my son, two is how many times I've been married - and divorced; sixteen is the number of dollars I have in my bank account. 850-3943. That's my phone number, and with all the numbers I gave you, I'm guessing zero is the number of times you're gonna call it.

- Julia Roberts, in Erin Brockovich

:D

Saw this on Elie's blog an decided I had to kope it. :D thanks girl! Like, how long has it been since you've last saw these kinda questionaires on someone's blog? LONG TIME right? Teehee.

(psssst, Elie! Cheer up dearie. I'm always here for you, if you ever need me. [;)

HERE GOES!


Hi, my name is:
Gwendolyn Neo YUAAAAAN QI! ;D

When I'm nervous:
I tend to fidget and laugh, A LOT. (so when I'm loony, you know why)

By this time next year:
I'd be sweet 16 a month and 10days ago! Hahaha. And mugging for O's.


PART 1: YOU

Were you a planned baby?:
I guess so?

Were you the first?:
Yeah. Lao da ;]


PART 2: YOUR PERSONALITY

Do you have low self esteem?:
Yeah, I guess. ^^

Are you happy right now?:
I think my life's screwed up and I wished I never let someone complicate my life.. so there. :]


PART 3: APPEARANCE

Are you comfortable with the way you look?:
AHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA...... no.

Describe your hair:
Quite long despite the fact it looks super short when its tied.. frizzy.. layered like crazy. :D


PART 4: RANDOM

Ever been arrested?:
I'm a goodie two shoes. Hohums! ;D


PART 5: THE OUTDOORS

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?:
Outdooooors baybeh!

Do you like walking in the rain?:
SURE THING! :D and I love playing in the rain too. :P someone used to think I was childish when he saw me playing with the rain outside my class. Hahaha.

Do you like thunderstorms?:
Uhh, tho associated with the rain, no. :\


PART 6: FOOD

Are you a vegetarian?:
I wish I could be. Hahah. Can't imagine what the chickens look like before they're slaughtered.

Anything you absolutely could eat forever?:
Chocolates! And I agree with Elie, SUSHI too yo! :D


PART 7: RELATIONSHIPS AND LOVE

Do you like where your are with ur romance?:
.. no.


PART 8: RANDOM QUESTIONS

Where is your cell phone?:
On the table, beside my laptop, to the right, near my camera wires, one palm's width away from the Rubik's Cube, two hands length away from me. ^^ thats where it is! :D

Cheesecake?:
I have some in the fridge. You want some?

Your dream last night?:
Surprisingly, I didn't dream last night.

Car you want?:
Lexus, Porshe? :D

Your fears?:
Ghosts (I'M SERIOUS ABOUT THIS!!), INSECTS. :S , injections, and my laptop crashing. And blood sometimes.

Did you grow up?:
Grow up? I'm 15 heyyo!

Tattoos?:
Never getting one. DO YOU KNOW YOU BLEED WHEN THEY DO THE TATTOO??! :o

Tomato Sauce?:
I used to eat rice with it. Hahah.

Your friends?:
Uhh. Screwed up friendships..

What are you thinking about right now?:
Someone.

Your work?:
I'm a student. :]


Part 9: LIFE

Who knows the most about you?:
This person who doesn't wanna talk to me now? Aiyah mainly my friends..

Who do you blame for your mood today?:
.. someone.

What is making you sad right now?:
.. SOMEONE LA.

What was the first thing you did this morning?:
Refuse to get up. Hahah.

Last person you went out to dinner with?:
I have no idea. Not gone out for dinner for like weeks.

Do you drink lots of water?:
Not really? Hahaha.

What toothpaste do you use?:
Colgate? I don't bother. I just use =.=

Are you a mama's child or a daddy's child?
Both maybe? More to my mom. Hahah.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?:
My Elmo tee? Hahah I think Yokeching and Lianyi. I've not taken pics with anyone recently.

Last person you went to the movies with?:
Quin, Iggy, Nic Wong and Mubarak. STEP UP 2 THE STREETS YO!

What did you do/will you do for your birthday this year?
Received many smses :D, 1E'06 sang for me, 3E'08 sang for me, played powerball during recess, sailed after school, had "surprise" ice cream cake from the sailors, and brought home loads of presents from minitoons. :] pizza with my parents, and uhh, cried in the night cuz of someone. ^^

What are you looking forward to right now?
FOR MY DAMNED HICCUPS TO GO AWAY!! *hiccup!* OWWWW! :(


Part 10: IF YOU HAD TO:

If you HAD to dye your hair a color what color would it be?
Light brown? :] typical..

If you HAD to get a piercing (not ears) what would you get?
Eeeeyucks I don't want. :o

Saturday, May 17, 2008

KONBAN WA!

GOOD EVENING~!

Yay my income in Mob Wars is 1mil+ per hour. HAH Izzy! :] finally 1mil. I'll soon catch up to your 7mil (or something)!

Not hungry for dinner leh. I ate my leftover breakfast for lunch+dinner just now. :\ eeeeh. Infact these few days I can survive on like 1 1/2 meal a day or something. Hahaha shiok. :P

K sorry, I'm feeling really random today. For some reason I'm looking forward to Tuesday. :D sailsail! Hahah. And also to lesson time. :]] and I reallyreally can't wait for June sailing camp. Then can sail everyday. LOL loony..

Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles on anime6.org stops at episode 26! :o ended like the way Inuyasha did.
If I'm not wrong this user called Thyeseng or whatevr uploaded episodes till 40+ and waaaaay beyond? So yeah go youtube after watching on anime6. :D


I'm in love with Fye-san and Syaorannnnnn! :3

I wanna go do hair treatment and shop with Celine tomorrow leh! My bestie for like 4yrs :]

[EDIT]

Hahahaha just realised that this is my 888th post! :P wheeeees!
[/EDIT]

T_T SYAORAN-KUNNNN!!!

Omgomgomg I'm watching Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles now andandandddd!!! T_T (sorry, ultimate spoiler) HOW COULD SEISHIROU-SAN KILL SYAORAN-KUNNN! D:

I gasped out loud and at the same moment Sakura gasped. Hahaha. :((( and Sakura ran to hug Syaoran, joining him in disappearing to somewhere else! So touching. I'd do that too for my boyfriend! Haha :D

Took me a few clicks to get episode 24 part 1 working and now it is! So sayonara~! I shall go watch it now. [; aww-ness! :]]

Go to anime6.org for anime episodes! Even got the (bleah cuz it SUCKS) Maple Story anime. =.= don't watch it I tell you. Sure vomit blood de!!

Will update later [; I'm off to watch Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles! <3 :DD


:( I hate you.

Friday, May 16, 2008

Lets play a game..

Lets play a game.. and its F L A M E S.

Jiaqi's been playing them in class during Lit with me. Can't believe Jiaqi's "pushing" me to him. =.= ah ah ah. Like noooo Jiaqi and Sera we're not pei and no I'll say no. To sha zi's (:P) Aaron, David, & Jiaqi and Sera and whoever else, I don't. >:\

Do I REALLY seem happier whenever I talk to him? :\

I'm really bored. I feel like sleeping.

Its like I've been so tired and worn out recently that on Wednesday, even tho the only thing I did was teach hip hop and go for the Sec1 Student Leaders' Selection Camp Comm meeting, I went home and slept 3 times in a row? :\

Eh, I'm not sure what new phone should I get! >:\ been considering Samsung, since the newer models are quite chio and functional? But I'm so used to Sony Ericsson. Mom told me to get a normal, non-slide-up phone, since my current one's got so many problems already.

As for my iPod.. Ahhhhh..!

I need to go back to Heeren to change my Everlast shoes. I'll change them for canvas sneakers! :D yesyes.

Celine's exams are like, finally over? I think they started same time around mine, and they end like one week after mine! Hahaha AMKSS's got a weird system.. finally can go shopping with her! :D *happy*

Can get a new pair of shorts, shirts, shoes.. whee! :D and mom's bringing me to do treatment for my hair or whatshits before uncle Collin's wedding. :]] happy duh. I don't think I'll rebond tho.

Kk I shall go groggily stare at the screen a while longer then sleep.

Can't believe I'm sleepy at 11.40PM on a Friday night. :o


I'm outta time and all I've got are 4 minutes, 4 minutes to save the world.

..hey, I've been missing you of late. Like wtfbbqsauce.. =.=

new iPod AND new hp? :D missed school T_T

My FireFox's screwing up on me! :o so I'm back to using Internet Explorer for a while.

Anyways, missed school again cuz my stomach hurt real badly when I woke up. Since this wasn't the first time mom let me stay home to rest. :\

Talked to my mom from 7AM plus to about 8AM. Hahah. Just sat there and talked, esp about my results hahah. Prepare her for the heartattack. She wants me to get a new phone using her contract instead of repairing my phone! :( eh but I like my current phone a lot.. despite its kinda spoilt.

She asked me to choose between a new iPod classic or a new handphone. In the end she still told me to make getting a new phone my priority. =.= and she told me to check the Saturday newspapers. Its like she wants me to get a new phone immediately hahaha.

Just as well, since I refuse to put my current phone aside..

Maybe I'll get the 5 megapix cam phone that Wenfeng has. Its laggy tho. :( but hey it has a Walkman and a 5mp cam. :D

Kerrie smsed me earlier and when I asked her anything happened in school today she told me Jon Ha got caught for spotcheck along with Aaron and Qihua lol! Its like Jon's grooming is okay? Till you look at his shirt.. =.= hahahaa.

I bet you my phone bill this month won't exceed the bill. Hahah. Since I've not been smsing anyone much anyways. LOL.

Listening to Victims of Love now and its like.. I WANT GOOD CHARLOTTE'S ALBUM AHHHH. :\ I've been saying I wanna get it but till now I haven't. Oh well.

I need to save up for a new wallet too hahah. Mine's like ancient? Haha.

Cry

Yup this was the song Alex (love!) sent to me that made me cry in class while listening to it heh. And the stupid song that made me cry on the bus to sailing when I listened to it over and over. Hahaaa.

Cry
>Rihanna

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

[Chorus:]
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

[Chorus]

How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

[x2]
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Its cut me like a knife, when you walked out of my life. And now I've got the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart.


When in doubt or in emo, SAIL.

I REALLY need to catch up with my studies. Cuz my L1 R5 is like what, estimated 31points? :(

Slacky day.Watched Youtube vids during Lit. :D watched a lil' of NigaHiga. LOVES!

MORE vids during English. Girls in the class all laughed so hard at the photo booth prank in Universal Studios!



Ruixing was like watching me laugh like a loon and going "Ehhhh whats so funny =.= its like I don't find it funny leh why you laughing like that o__o" and oh I won him overall for Lit! :D wheeeeee.

Alex sent me the song Cry by Rihanna :D she seemed reluctant, since I cried listening to it. :(
its really sad and it got me thinking cuz its kinda like whats happening to me now?

(listened to it over and over on the bus to sailing and I cried like 3 times or something haha!)


Actually I'm not supposed to sail? Even tho the winds weren't as good as Tuesday's, I just couldn't resist the sun, sea and waves!

Used Wenfeng's boat, he used his MOE B8. HIS BOAT HATES ME!!! Roarrrrrrrr-ness.
Ning used NSC 14, so I had no chance to use the old darling since Justin uses it when he's here.

I saw my SIN412 on Tuesday!
AND its new owner (GRRR! you). Wanted to cry looking at it. Speak about sentimental values.. I really missed the darling...! I really want it back. :'((

3rd race back to shore, many people screwed up. Most forgot the starting was a practice start and didn't come back when Yihong did a general recall. He was blowing his whistle over and over la and no one was coming back. Hahaha!

Bus to school broke down. On the bus something funny happened at High Council xD
(hint: * forcefully kisskiss'ed ____ & _____!)

Had tehbing opp. Walked to bus stop with Ryan.

The 169 infront of me broke down lol. It was damn noisy as people scanned their cards out? And the ticketing machine was just writing those ticket thingys over and over. =.=

Thought of how I was gna get a new iPod classic for myself if I have no time to work during the hols. :\

My phone's worse now, the menu button can't work! But I really don't wanna service my phone since my warranty's over. :\ and also cuz I wanna keep some memories so there.
And my earpiece's spoilt too!
:((( I CAN'T SURVIVE WITHOUT MUSIC!


I just can't survive without my sailors! :D you guys really brighten up my life. We're gonna stick together as a team no matter what. [;


Last but not least: a reminder:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAQI DEAREST!! ;D

K back to watching Project Runway season 4!! Gogo Christian!

happy birthday qi!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAQI!
Be honoured, cuz I'm blogging at 6.23AM in the morning.

You're finally 15FIFTEEN dearest! So must jiayou okay, grow talltall and let the world see. Hahah. You've always been there for me for 3years now! :D and I'll be there for you too if you need me ;D gambatte! I love you loadsloads k?

I was so shag that after dinner at my ahma's place I slept there, the moment I came home I slept without realising in the living room, only to be woken up by my dad. :\

Sigh. Why am I so worn out these few days?

Reading the tags really made me cheer up more. And oh well, I guess I'm determined to prove to them I'm not a sucker like it seems, and just work harder and harder for everything.

But I have this feeling I'll just emo..

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

leave me alone to fucking die k?!

Today SUCKED.
SUCKEDSUCKEDSUCKEDSUCKEDSUCKED!!!!
Oh, so now that life's screwed up I've got it even harder.

School started out fine. All the sec3 express students moved to the theathrette {SP?} for this Social Studies thing. It was like damn boring and like almost half the heads in there were on the table thingy, or simply, they were just asleep.

It was super boring till they moved on to the debate part? Each class sent representatives, and each of them got a ministry. 3E got Ministry of Foreign Affairs. Damn funny. We had to talk and see who was responsible for the Mas Selamat escape? And none of the ministries pushed the blame to us. So I only got the mic twice to add points, nothing to rebutt hhaha.

So we spent all our periods in the theathrette till recess. And it was freaking cold on the stage cuz its like aircon + fan =.= the debaters were all freezing.

I kinda cooled down about the whole thing yesterday night during recess so there.

Then had geog, got back my papers. I improved! And Mrs Koh said it was a good thing, and to buck up and get A1 for the next exam. Yaaaay! :] this was the only thing that made me really happy today? Or at least kinda.

Halfway thru the 3rd period for geog we went back to class to get our Bio papers with the Amath students from our class. But Mdm Loh wasn't there for like the whole time. Then Sinhui gave them out.

Got back history and SS papers too. Like shit, I failed history and just passed SS. Wth? I got A1 for SS the last time k! I was damn upset. Bio also failed like crazy. And I thought I'd score cuz I remembered so much shit.

I emo-ed the whole day lor. :\

And soooo, Ruixing won me in all the subjects. Eeyer! Hahah. It was damn funny when he thought Aaron owned him for the bio paper. And oh grats Aaron, for not studying but managing to score so high for bio.

After school stayed back in class to slack while waiting for Lianyi. Saw Lianghong! :D and saw Derick's bio results too. :o their paper need to draw graph! Stupid Kenkiong, XIAOBAITU! So fat luh you.

Then went to teach her and Aisha choreography, which was quite fun. Then Derick and Jace came to find me and Lianyi for the Sec1 selection camp comm. meeting (I suggested SLCC, nice right). Meeting till 6.30pm then homed.


What I'm pissed about?

I'M NOT THE EFFING GIRL'S TEAM CAPTAIN FOR SAILING NEXT YEAR.

Its like, having high hopes and getting them dashed so hard? I've been wanting to be captain since sec1 and I've worked hard in sailing for that. I put in so much effort to go for training when I could be ponning cuz I'm sick?

At least I don't pon just cuz I no mood right. At least I stay on shore and help right? At least I go on powerboat right??!

So what have I put in all the effort for? TO GET THEM SMASHED?

And Peckkhee knew it all along but didn't tell me? Oh so I HAD to find out from Ms Chew to get myself all upset la is that it?

I mean even Belle said that if she were me now she'd heck about sailing. I mean do you know how hurting it is to put in so much effort for something and not get it?

I'm a hater now.

Just leave me alone la eff.
BYE.


You got what you wanted I guess? I'm not talking to anyone I used to be close to now and my life's fucking screwed.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

sailing problems aren't impossible..

I can't be more disappointed.

At a time like this when interschools are approaching, I get this feeling the team's falling apart. And the sec3s, its like this is the time we must stick together and train hard and motivate each other? Instead what are we doing?

We are getting pissed off with each other, we have problems with each other. Either that or we get lazy and don't wanna train! Like wtf is this? We're falling apart at this point of time?

If we have problems, WE ARE A TEAM. JUST SETTLE IT LA! Whats so hard? We've been friends for 3 years. Whats so hard about settling some things we're not happy with about each other? And we're not gna train cuz of the fact we're letting something like this get in the way? Or we're gonna let laziness get in the way izzit?

Maybe you guys don't care. Maybe you guys don't give a damn.

Like fuck it. I'm really tired of being the person to always put in so much effort to pull the team together.

Talked to David on MSN till I got so fustrated and cried. Dude, please, settle your problems with Ryan already. I'm really damn pissed off that you're letting this get in the way of training. He even smsed me and called me after I blocked him on MSN but I just turned off my phone.

See how pissed off I am?

I can seriously see the B Div girls' 4th placing fly away..

Where is my "pusher" who used to push me all the way for training? Who nagged when I was sick? Like wtf, why the 100 degrees change in you? "Hey ____, are you going for training?" "No." "Why?" "No."

And I'm really trying to get my stamina back now that I know its dropped so much since I got sick and couldn't do physical stuffs. Infact I'm still sick, but what to do?

I miss the old sailing team..
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Nevermind, on to school stuffs..


Didn't get E-Awards this month while 4Justice got it for the third time. Our two-time streak got broken and tho its a small thing I guess I was a bit sad?

Got back lit paper. I cried as I stared real hard at Mr Tang the whole lesson. He's the second teacher to give me lower than 70 for my literature, and the ONLY teacher who gave me such results two times in a row.

I tied with Ruixing after I fought for 2 more marks. Aiyoh, like why I tie with a Math genius haha. We're both comparing marks now tho, and its so far all he win me, except Lit and English he tie with me :o and he's so happy about that =.=

So there goes my first humanities I can always expect to get an A1 for..

Got back English after recess. New temp teacher took over Mr Tang. Damn my class was so happy cuz we thought we'd all fail since 3A had quite a number of failures {?}.

Got 22/30 for letter writing, and 17/30 for compo. =.= we all hate the person who marked our compos cuz the person is like, BRUTAL! S/he was like, when I wrote capital "I" and "O"s, its quite obvious, then the person still wrote LAAAARGE capital "I" and "O"s over mine. =.=

Still scribbled on my paper: "Write larger!" like zzz I know a lot of teachers complain about my handwriting can.

Got 35/50 for my main paper? Quite upset, cuz my A1 was gone too. :( I really depend heavily on my humanities.

Actually got 34, but Ruixing got 35 and he was like "Haha Gwennnn I won you by one mark." cuz the teacher gave him my paper and he thought it was his? Then he knew my marks and I was like grr-ing him the whole day for winning me. So I fought for marks, which the teacher gave. ^^

IN YOUR FACE, RUIXINGGGGG! ;D

When I came back to class for Chinese, Ruixing like emo liao. o__o head on table. Then I noticed we all got back our Chinese papers, and he said he emo cuz it was the second time he didn't get A for Chinese. Eh, same for me but mine's lit..

Cheered him up and then me and the guys had "campfire". We were like those old people who go coffeeshop have coffee and chatchat. Hahaha Winteng said that. We just sat outside the backdoor of our class and chatted. Ruixing wanted to drop Chinese just cuz of this paper. Stupid can?

So me and him are comparing combined History and SS tomorrow! MUST WIN THE STUPID RUIXING HAHAHAHA. He won me for everything and tied for only English and Lit, which is damn shocking cuz I'm supposed to own him for those. Thats why he said he damn shuang =.=

Jiaqi asked me to go for student's forum with her. And it was quite okay.

Went down and Belle played the Jay Chou song! Super nice la omg her fingers are godly o__o


Upper sec who went for training: 7.

Me, Quin, Ryan, Jack, Linjie, Nic Wong and Cheeteng. Ohhhh boy.
I so want Mrs Sidhu back :((

Helped the juniors since I'm not allowed to do much. Actually, I'm not even allowed to go under the sun for like 30mins... :P

Ended up they dilly dally, so I taught them how to rig up a byte quite late. And majority of them weren't even paying attention? Had to keep reminding them. Was quite disappointed la.

So they didn't sail. I didn't sail. :( THE WIND WAS LIKE DAMN STRONG THE WHOLE DAY??! Like goddammit I wished I just joined the seniors and hecked about everything and enjoyed the winddddd...

They did land drills instead. Practising jybing and tacking on the byte on shore. =.= like zzz. Wasted time just doing that one by one for them la.

Seniors came back, I helped juniors unrig. And like when each of the seniors came back, they'd be like "Gwen! You didn't sail? Like omg the wind today was damn good la!!" and, "I came back quite near Cheeteng during the race leh!" and, "I'm tired from trashing Cheeteng too much today." LOL! Gogo Cheeteng don't let them trash you hahaha.

:( really regret not sailing today!

And I'm not prepared to teach choreography tomorrow to Lianyi and Aisha for their Girl Guides campfire thing. :\ how am I gna teach like most of the Girl Guides in our school the dance like that then?

Kk shall go prepare now.


Leave all sailing problems for Thursday..