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Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Sunday, July 29, 2007

Back to using my desktop

Haha yes I'm back to using my desktop. I moved my laptop away for a while.

I'm suddenly not used to this keyboard. BUT I CAN PLAY BEATUP IN AUDITION! :D

Thats the reason why I decided to use my desktop btw. Too tempted while playing Audition with my laptop. Unless my dad buys me a laptop-friendly keyboard / numpad. And the bigger screen is nicer lol. But the keyboard suddenly feels like damn hard to type with. Ugh!

All my songs are here lol. I missed them so much for the like 1 week I was using my laptop. T_T but using the mouse is so much better.

Tomorrow is MONDAY.

BORINGBORINGBORING!

PE. Ugh. Boring/tiring. Run 2.4 again. My LAST chance. Omg la Mr Lee will kill and suan me again if I don't pass. UGH.

Zomg I left my handbook in school I think. Oh well. Just asked Aaron - there's English, Chinese and Math tomorrow. And maybe some more he doesn't know. LOL.

Must talk about my dance lesson today. It was funnnn! :D

I went there like half an hour late >< cos end up last min my dad couldn't send me all the way to Somerset, so I dropped off at Bishan MRT station and took MRT there instead. I reached there earlier than expected.

When I reached there, Maqrius was like "Haha thanks for joining us.. like at this time." I was like "omg paiseh sorry sorry!" Then I quickly stretched and got ready. He thought us only 1-8 today la. Two weeks ago he expected us to be able to do 4-8s today. Ugh.

He kept having to turn off the lights during the trying of the first step cos all three of us (me, Pam and Priscilla) were too paiseh to dance when we're like looking at each other.

The steps were like.. ugh. So hard to do. Cos we practiced a lot on the popping moves like hip isolation and chest isolation. I hate isolation shiats! RAWRRRR D:

But it was fun. Really fun :D I can't wait to learn somemore of the moves next week. Maqrius showed us a bit before we ended the lesson and what can I say..

IS THIS A BEGINNER'S CLASS OR NOT?!

Its like super advanced. The moves we're doing next week is like.... hard. Very hard. DIE!! Theres a lot of popping involved. OMG I DON'T WANNA PRACTICE ISOLATION AGAIN. Dammnit. But if now how to get better?

Dance is like my ultimate love. And I'm taking one step closer to being able to go for hiphop battles and performances and competitions (okay wait hiphop battle and hiphop competitions mean the same thing ><). I must REN ZHU with these practices.

To get better! :D

And oh I kept hunching during practice when we doing one of the moves. He kept correcting me on that but I couldnt stop hunching! UGH. I should really stop. I do that in sailing even. Now while I'm typing this I'm trying real hard to sit up straight. UGHHHHH. *cracks back knuckles*

It was like he thought I stopped hunching.. then he started the music and we tried the moves we learnt again before we ended lesson. Then I hunched a lot at that move again.

Maqrius walked to his laptop, then he turned back and saw me hunching and he practically ran (tho he was like right infront of me) to me, grabbed hold of my shoulders and pushed it forward and he was like "Gwennnnn! Stop hunching! Gahhhhh! I wanna like kill you, you know!" (cos despite the number of times he told me not to hunch I still did) then he like pounded my back a lot of times. "Don't hunch!"

Can't wait for tomorrow - most fun day of the week!

Like heh heh heh. Sarcasm intended okay! I'M BEING UBER SARCASTIC. :D

Stupid back problems.

Coming back again, ever since yesterday. Pain. PAIN. I need to see the Chinese doc again. Geez.

I HAVE PESTA SUKAN NEXT WEEK OKAY. STUPID BACK DONT RUIN MY COMPETITION.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Complicated and unlucky shiats-

Complicated shiatsss! I think today's like, the kind of day that makes me think so hard but yet I can't think hard enough for my brain to sort out stuffs. Like ugh.

I don't know what you want either. So bahhhhh!

Anyway.

Later I'm going to lao gim's house for dinner! I hope she cooks western la. Like her cooking.

My mom should really try cooking western more :/

All my cousins are like gonna be there. Fun la! :D I kinda miss seeing them, even tho its like only 2 weeks since I've seen them. Hoho.

Believe it or not, I didn't lag out after one game of AuditionSEA! ;] happy la. Last time I always lagged out after one game.

AND BEATUP IS AVALIABLE TO PLAY AGAIN! They finally fixed the fcking bug that deprived me of my beat up pleasures.

Unluckily for me, my CPU refused to work for me, some fan thingy inside of it failed to work. Just nice la, when beatup can play le my CPU doesn't wanna work.

So I'm left with my laptop.

Which, doesnt have a numpad.
Good for me.

I want to go and buy those full-length keyboards that can attach to the laptop. I think I've seen one somewhere around Popular.. but then I'm not sure about the cost.

Don't care, imma drag daddy there to see a laptop-usable keyboard there. I have loads of spare keyboards at home but NONE of them can be used with the laptop. Stupid la, the USB thing can't insert into the keyboard.

So shitty.

Friday, July 27, 2007

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.


Its like the whole day I've not really been myself. I don't feel happy. Now I understand why sometimes Jody feels this way.

AVRIL LAVIGNE'S SONGS ARE TOTALLY NOT FOR THE MOOD I'M IN. Goddamnit!

Life's stories are never like drama serials, nor romance books. Always never with a sweet and happy ending. Always miserable.

We end up hurt.

So do I.

If only I could run away, if only I could run away.

I want to escape this pain.

I want to forget!

But I can't.
I really can't.

I'm sorry.



I really am.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Again, random much.

All the pain
I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away-


Zomg I just ate something at around 10.30pm. Gosh, I need to stick to the dieting tips in my guidebook.

I miss having dance lessons with Maqrius! D: and I only missed one lesson with him so far, which, was cancelled cos Pamela's sis was sick. I didn't go cos I had competition.

Oooh tomorrow I have dance period in school. With that stupid assed showoff dance teacher which shows off all his dance moves and goes "I wonder why your class can't keep up. And you're lucky I'm not asking you to do all these moves! *starts to show off by popping, locking*"

LIKE UGH. It was my first dance class with that dance-during-ciriculum (dont know how to spell la) thing (1st for me, 2nd for my class) and I already hate him. Oh well, at least me and Pamela can practice the moves Maqrius taught us. We'll be in PE; much better than uniform :D

I'm so sleepy now.

I cried myself dry earlier this afternoon after PT. Now I'm tear-less! LOL.

And now all that crying made me tearless. So sian. I think I'm gonna die. Still got a lot of homework not done yet.

Tomorrow I hope I go Science labbbbb! I like doing experiments there. Like its damn fun. I wanna try heating wax and all that again lol. SO. UBER. FUNNNN!

Retarded much.

I think I'll go shower and then chiong some homework.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I FINISHED THE TWO CHINESE WORKSHEETS LIANG LAOSHI GAVE US THIS MORNING! :D

I finished it within the two periods. Didn't slack! Okay I did rest a bit, then I got up and wrote so many Chinese words (I wonder how I'll survive without my Chinese electronic dictionary). I even exceeded for most of the questions lol.

Geog, BORING.

Ohoh! Did I mention?

MS CHENG CAME BACK TO SCHOOL TODAYYYYYYYY!
(to visit the sailors. See, we're such special people)


Like wuahhaha! So nice to see her again. I wonder if she did go to Malaysia yet.

She's like "Technically I'm not meant to be here cos I'm not a teacher here already but today Mrs Sidhu and all the other sailing teachers have something on and Mrs Sidhu asked me to cover them today *grins*"

Then I heard some of the guys say "Then Ms Cheng! Since you're not a teacher here already, YOU CAN'T SCOLD US! WUAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAA!" *evil laughter booms*

Like, damn funny can.

And Quin pangseh-ed me on the bus. Uber boohoo-s! Haha.

Okay. TTFN.

Gonna shower and chiongggggg homeworkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

CHIONG AHHHH!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007




A few more pictures of my uncle's new house that I found on my cam lol. My absolute cutie Neo Jiaxuan! :D
And the last pic is the kids' playroom which is about the size of my bedroom. Or maybe bigger o.o

Hello. Still bored and at home.

I'm like, really bored.

Maybe cos the laptop has no games for me to play.

Okay, technically, it has. But I play one round of AuditionSEA and I'll lag out cos the internet's ram is too small to handle the game. =/

School's gonna end in a while, like, 20mins? Yeah. And at around 2pm everyone's gonna start coming online and flooding my laptop's screen with "-someone- has just signed in." popups from MSN Messenger =/

For now my online list of people are still limited and small. (at least I think it is. I havent checked yet lol).

And now I'm hungry for lunch already. I think my appetite is back. Haha. After a few weeks of surviving on only 1 or 2 meal(s) a day. Not cos I'm forced to but cos I dont get hungry. LOL =/

I dont know why I keep doing this smiley =/ today. Like uhhhh.

And Quin, I know you are like damn pro can. After 4 years of not playing basketball, you can do a 2 POINTER on your KNEES! :D

We played ABC yesterday during PT. Cos there was no cher, so we jogged 5 rounds around the field and played our own games.

Apparently basketball and soccer.

The guys first played soccer while the girls and some other guys played basketball.

Later the guys playing soccer changed their mind and played basketball.

Apparently another basketball appeared from nowhere (but its from the PE store) and the girls played basketball. We played ABC. With some sec1 guys and Jack. The rest of the guys were playing a basketball match lol.

Me, Isabelle, Quin, Bryan, Edward and Jack were like playing ABC then we moved on to just shooting from where we wanna shoot lol.

Then like around 4.30pm we resumed playing ABC. This time Quin wanted to do the whole ABC thing on her knees.

AND SHE COULD DO IT LA OMG.

All her shoots that went in were done on her knees, and she got to the 3 pointer stage while still on her knees. It was almost possible to do 3 pointer while on her knees, but she didnt use enough arm power (see, sailors have enough arm power to actually do that sia) so she stood up and did a 3 pointer goal :D

Mubarak was like "wah sei, pro sia you Quin."

Finally-

Like haha. My sick-ness-es that have been hidden under the shadows (omg sounds like some pathetic drama) has finally unleased itself (yup, corny much) and attacked me on whole!

Okay wth am I talking about. LOL.

I'm not in school now! I'm at home! See? See! Its a Wednesday morning, look at the time of my post! Like HAH! And its not a school holidayyyyy! See? See?

*Uses the Ron Weasley-tone* Bloody hell I think I've gone mad.

Anyway; so ya. I woke up at 6AM this morning just to realise I've got a headache, stomachache, and I felt quite cold. Not cos of the weather thank you very much. But I think I was like..

SICK.

(not in the mind you dumbasses)
(dumbasses if you WERE thinking that way)

So yeah. Now I'm at home. I wanted to go to school la. Kept debating whether to stay home or to go to school. Then I realised the only "major" subject I needed to attend during today's lessons is MATHEMATICS. Okay fine its only one.

There's Geography, Thinking Skills (ugh uber boring), Literature, Math and CME. (does recess count? LOL)

The only few that are more to important are Geog, Lit and Math.

Which, I'm missing today. Math isn't double period today but Geog and Lit are! D:

I actually hate Math lessons. And don't like Geog lessons. But I quite like Lit, if it wasn't for the fact that Ms Goh sometimes got irritated by my classmates and flared up. I really like lit (as a subject) lor.

The class should sometimes just shut up. Its like a lot of the new teachers are hating my class already!

Btw, I'm using my laptop now. Heh. My com broke down. Just cos the stupid fan in the com won't work. Sucks.

Tomorrow there's training! I dont wanna miss it~ like haha. I wanna trainnnnn. Rah.

Pesta Sukan is like next week or something I think. According to Audrey.

WUAHAHAHA I talked on the phone yesterday for like 2hrs 2mins. LOL. Like broke my record la. But usually I talk on the phone lesser.. except for when its with Kerrie/Alicia la :D can talk damn long wit them.

I wonder whats going on in school now..

OH. RECESS.

Uhhhhh.

Imma go eat breakfast now-

Its MY recess at home too 'ya know.

Tata!

Monday, July 23, 2007

I feel depressed.

And suddenly its hard to breathe.

The weather seems to be matching my mood tho. Like, its gonna rain and its really cold.

Btw I'm not one of those emo freaks to just feel emo cos they wanna show the world they're emo. I really feel depressed now, and its for a reason.

All I can do now is sigh.

I dont feel myself.

OHAIYOOO gozaimuzta!

I'm so boredddd.

I'm finally using my laptop again. Like hurhur. But now my laptop also like quite slow le. Sad. I think cos of the virus I tio-ed last time.

So now I know what my blog looks like to people using 1024x768 resolution. Haha.

And my laptop is boring. Cannot play auditionSEA cos of the small RAM, and theres only 197 songs here. But I'm adding more now by scanning in my audio CDs.

I woke up at 8.30plus this morning la.

And oh, did I mention that theres no school? :D

So shuang. Thanks to Project Cool Running, its a school holiday for Mayflower Sec.

They had a Guiness World Record Breaking attempt inconjuction with Kebun Baru CC.

Mayflowerians go Bishan Park runrunrun then raise funds for the aircon in our school and some for Kebun Baru I think. Haha.

The school has enough/so much money to give away throphies and stuff after some mini competition during assemblies etc. but yet the school isn't rich enough to use a bit of the money wasted on throphies to builld some aircon in school.

Like geez. Everyone will agree with me on that lor. Yokeching thought of what I typed lol. And we were like *nodding heads in agreement* kinda shit.

The school's rich enough for minor stuff but not the major stuff that we really need.

I feel blurry-eyed.

I AM blurry-eyed.

I think I'll blog more later.

Shall go eat breakfast and later at around 12 imma pick someone up around school to come my house.

Like lawl.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Overture 1928 by FUNTWO

I'm starting to think Funtwo is like freakishly cute can. :D

Haha. Really lor! Must find the video where you can see his face. A bit nerdy, but cute! :]

I love his guitar skills man.

I think I'm gonna be his next like 5th biggest fan dudes! Hahahaha. But for 'arts', Nam Hyun Joon will still be the best man. AND Poppin' Bora! Ahhhhhh Hyun Joonnnnn!

But no one will replace you. And so I say.

PHOTOS >uncle's new house