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Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Tuesday, March 31, 2009

"Hey."

I love Livejournal because they can private your posts.

Finally ranted out some of my feelings there. Can't take it anymore.
Since someone once said my blog was too.. open?

(EDITED)

I wanted to spam this post. I mean, after what Eileen told me during recess, plus my dad's thing.. I really got damn upset.

Then halfway thru my Angry Post, I read thru my old Livejournal private posts..

12th October 2008, my posts started talking more and more about my feelings towards _.

And the post just before 12th Oct was the post when we were still quarreling about the Iggy and Maple shit.

The only people I REALLY talk to now are Kerrie and Justin Law.

_.. he threw away our friendship just like he'd throw rubbish into a bin. Its all just that easy to him.

He just has no idea how much I treasure our friendship; how much I miss him right now.
I tried making him and Iggy alright, but in the end.. now they're good friends again and me?



So.. we're going thru what we went thru is it?

Eh, funny.

22 August 2008, still emo posts on my Livejournal.. like a whole long bloody post, about the sec3 sailors in particular, and how they treated me like I was invisible (well only people like Ryan and the juniors didn't?). Hahaha.

9th December.. reading that post made me smile.

I'm crying like eff now, if you wanted to know.

1st February, 5th February.. all about the same person and how happy I was. My posts never complained about how pissed I was. Why do I never do what I truly think inside?

Then suddenly jumped to 31 March 2009.

"Fuck youuuuuuu."
.

.

.

"EFF-"

All the vulgarities came back, and it was all about how I hated my upcoming birthday this year and how I will never look forward to it except the clubbing with Alex.

I amuse myself, seriously.


And how this was a Angry-Post-Turned-Nostalgic-Post-cuz-I-read-my-livejournal's-private-journal-entries really makes me feel like crap, cuz I'm once again swayed from my focus.

I was so close to thinking I'd hate that person.. but reading those journal entries on my Livejournal just made me think wrong, AGAIN.


This journal entry of my livejournal.. seriously the best.
I just said, "Haha, good luck then. :)" not realising it was me.
Then after a while of my typical Gwen-slowness, I smsed him again,

"I guess she'll wait. Don't worry. :)"

"Allrites. she will nt be waiting for v long ~"

I hope not. :)

Cherish, dear.




(for someone who just got into an accident.. you take good photographs with your handphone, Dad!)



My dad's car is the black, smashed up Matrix.

I'm gonna pray for his checkup to be alright before I sleep later.
G LOVES SAMIR NASRI. says:
cuz this morning when my dad sent me to school (omfg rare)
i saw a lot of funerals on the way
belle says:
haha
G LOVES SAMIR NASRI. says:
as in like
ya
belle says:
as in the omfg rare part
G LOVES SAMIR NASRI. says:
then when i was on the bus home
i saw a few more funerals
belle says:
uhhuh
why
so many people died today?

My dad sent me to school, which is REALLY rare now cuz he leaves the house at 4:30AM. Saw funerals here and there. On the bus home from Queensway too.

Then I had this.. bad feeling.

While walking home, met Mom and Dad. I was like, "Where are you going? Its late leh."

My mom said, "Aiyah we're going A&E. Your dad got into an accident and he feels pain around his chest area."

o_________o

My dad was trying to show us how fit he was, doing stretches and all. My heart kinda sank, cuz he might not notice that I noticed this, but he kept pounding at his chest every time he stretched and tried to show us that he's fine.

On the way to the bus stop, *poundpoundpound*.

He decided not to go cuz it takes hours for a checkup in A&E and he has work later since he's gotta go to the store to do stock taking.

He then reminded me of my most memorable hospital stay thingy:
My parents had to rush to my ahmah's house (they went to some function) at 10pm plus, then drove me to KK Hospital. We were there till 5am? I had to stay there for them to observe me as I slept. Then my dad carried me to the car, and I puked on him. LOL.


Okay bad memories aside..

The taxi driver blamed my dad! I know his driving is sometimes fast, cuz I used to sit at the center seat all the time and ALWAYS made sure the speed meter thing didn't go above 90, but doesn't mean you can blame him! LOOK AT THE PICTURES!!

SEE WHO'S AT FAULT?????!

IDIOT.
If that's the idiot, well, YEAH.

See how the car is smashed up at the driver's side?

I can't believe it.

My parents are like, car accident magnets!

(FLASHBACK:)
When I was pri5 or something.

The bloody driver sped past the traffic light when it was red and my mom was crossing, chionging for her bus! Thank God the car only ran over her foot, cuz my mom said she felt it at her waist or something but fell backwards. Loads of witnesses. She couldn't walk properly or something for a while..

I could only keep thinking what if she was just two steps faster?

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I feel like I'm almost close to tears.

Feeling worried but yet so thankful!

I mean, imagine what it would've been like if the taxi had rammed my dad's car A BIT lower down? EFFFFF.


I took time to think. Maybe this is God's way of telling me to WAKE UP! and treasure everyone around me, and to stop being how I am now?

Life is short.

Too short for me to remain sad for long, too short to do things I would regret, too short for me to make mistakes.

We all have to live our lives to the fullest.

We only have one lifetime, so treasure it and make full use of it before its too late. Especially when it comes to people around you, you never know when they might be gone suddenly.

Love them for who they are. They love you for who YOU are, right?

Well, I kinda decided on one thing now.

Focus on my studies. Focus on solving my current problems. FOCUSSSSSS.
ommmmmmmmmmmmm..

A friend once told me to treasure everyone around me. Eh, well, it only hit me now when I found out I was this close to losing (both) my parents. Gawd!

Like, I keep feeling something bad will happen now. Okay, so gonna pray for Dad before I sleep later!


ON THE OTHER HAND..

Went to Queensway Shopping Centre with the sailors today to check out the jerseys! :)

Very happy, cuz the one we decided on, tho its expensive, its CHIO.

I saw the Arsenal home jersey, freaking 111bucks!

At first I was in a bad mood after SS remedial cuz the theatrette was so stuffy I spent the whole 30+mins trying to breathe properly. And I kept sweating. Finished, had a bloody headache. So when the guys couldn't make up their minds about going, I started PMSing. Can ask Belle, I was cursing all the way!

It felt weird.. its been so long since we've hung out together. Haha.

Took a bus to TP then changed to 855. Walked around and rackied, cuz Iggy and Teng thought the jersey was gone.

After walking up and down, they found it at another location in the same shop. Found a nice spot to sit at nearby and started calling all the sailors.

Got everything, took a while to order cuz they had no stock. Note, if you want someone to help you bargain, ask Ryan! He did a pretty good job, except it started to get annoying after a while!

And I find it very annoying when people put you down infront of others.



Reminder of the day to self: Learn to be less vulgar.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

I am the camwhoring queen to the max.


When you are bored at home on a Sunday, and its raining, what do you do?

Yes..

Yes.....

You're getting warmer..
CAMWHORE.
Hore.

I am so random. Supposed to be doing the English assignment but till now I'm not even near 1% of completing it!

Supposed to go to Queensway Shopping Centre with Iggy, Teng, Mubarak and Yuanlong to find jerseys for the sec4 sailors, but was stuck at lao gim's place for lunch till like 3 (eating popiah! After sooo long) and I didn't bring my phone since it had no batt and I couldn't be bothered anyways so..

SORRY IGNATIUS THIAM! Hahaha.

He called and told me they found one. And wtf, "limited ed. and I think its green and yellow and Teng thinks its blue and yellow and YL thinks its.." eh shit should've gone!

Wtf me and Ryan still want our red jerseys.. I hope?

ITS NOT SHIT RED. MAROON IS NOT SHIT RED.
Ryan has issues! Especially with colors that are associated with Arsenal.









Woah I just had a long chat with someone I least expected to talk to about this kind of thing- Faris! Haha. He just asked why I was so upset and we ended up talking till now, like we've known each other for damn long or something.

Its good to finally found someone who's.. going thru the same pain I feel now?

And it was funny seeing how much we understood how it feels man. Totally going thru the same things. Its like, I can give him advise on moving on etc.. but if I were to tell myself that it'd never work. How stupid, right?

OKAY GO DO YOUR ENGLISH ASSIGNMENT ALREADY, GWENDOLYN NEO!

Wordy post, lots of reflections.

(BEFORE READING: Sorry about the lengthy post! My mind suddenly connected everything I blogged about to something else so I blogged about it too. :) you can skip this you know!)


I'm like, sitting at the little walkway in my parent's room to blog!

As usual, their mahjong khakis came over to play again. We played with my PSP while it was connected to the TV outside, feels like a makeshift of a PS2 or something.

The screen colors come out in B&W and green. And it lags. $36.50 wasted, Dad!

Played football downstairs with the kids at 10.15pm. The feeling of playing at night is damn shiok, no wonder the sailors always play after the bbq during sailing camps. Playing under the stars? Just amazing and breath-taking.

I expected to be a righty since I'm right-handed and all, but I'm a lefty when it comes to football. My dad was shocked too, cuz he and my bro are both rightys in football.

I found out why I enjoy it so much. When I play, I spend my time thinking about where to kick the ball etc. I don't waste time thinking about other things and get moody 'bout it.

It takes my mind off things for just those few hours. So yeah, guess thats a reason.

Think after I settle some stuffs, I wanna ask the sailors to stay over at my place then go play soccer downstairs at night. Will be damn fun!


It occured to me that I can't change who I am. Infact, who can?

I am who I am.

Emotional, impulsive, rough, hasty.. just like what they said in the Holland Code paper. Artistic people are emotional etc. I depend a lot on my emotions (I won't deny this), and I play as I go. I don't care if one moment I'm smiling and the next I'm crying and getting emo, cuz thats who I am.

We are only human. Sometimes, you don't even realise you're doing it. You just do. After that you'll be thinking, "Oh shit, that was fucking stupid of me!" like me.

I'm the kind who will always show how I am feeling- an open display of emotions.

When I'm sad I'll just cry. When I'm happy I turn so hyper my friends think I'm nuts. When I'm frustrated and mad, I take it out on walls or anything solid nearby.

But thats me; I can't change it.

Tho the venting of anger on the walls.. yeah I think I need to change that cuz honestly, my knuckle hurts whenever I touch it and its making me worried. :(

p.s. I PMS a lot.


Idk why but I suddenly feel like blogging about the sailors. Haha.

Maybe because it suddenly occured to me that I'm sec4, in a few months time I'll never see them often, and its just not gonna be the same without them, especially the sec4s.


Seeing pictures of our Dec camp in Krabi really made me nostalgic.

I miss every single nonsense that happened there- the kayaking with Belle (and capsizing, wtf!), the mozzies we all tried so hard to avoid, the Truth or Dares in the guys' room (well I fell asleep), walking around with my group at night when it was so chilly that I kept wearing my jacket around..

Heh!

If the trip didn't have them, well, it'd be sucky.

Suddenly I miss them a lot! Haha. Most of my fond and sour memories were from sailing, I just realised.

Maybe its just this strong bond we have (or used to have) between us that makes this bunch of nonsensical people so special to me.

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.

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Suddenly I'll be finding myself missing them shitloads.

Suddenly, I'm graduating with an 'older' brother, gwen-daughters (their pun)..

And people like Donovan, Ariel, Daomin, Yanling, Ning and Siungee! In every batch there is an ex-Aitong student in it. I was pretty amazed at that fact and till now I still am.

Eating recess everyday together with most of the sec4s last year.. one of the things I will never forget. Was so much fun being around them so often. Like, I don't give a damn. Unglam then unglam lor, out of the 10 of us 8 are guys so why bother. They've seen me, my stupidness AND my center parting since sec1 and we can't change that LOL.

So I guess I'm used to them. Very.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey. You'll never know dear, how much I love you, please don't take, my sunshine awayyyyyy~

Well. I just miss them a lot. We're not as close this year (obviously). Well only a few I guess. But still.

I really don't wanna graduate cuz I'll miss people like them. So heartbreaking right!

Friends I've gained.. and lost.. along the way. Well.

They'll just always be my dears whom I love very much! :):):)

Aww, I'm so sweet right? ;)


I just searched up the lyrics for You Are My Sunshine, and was quite shocked.

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and I cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy,
If you will only say the same.
But if you leave me and love another,
You'll regret it all some day:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.
But not you've left me and love another;
You have shattered all of my dreams:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

In all my dreams, dear, you seem to leave me
When I awake my poor heart pains.
So when you come back and make me happy
I'll forgive you dear, I'll take all the blame.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I miss you.

Gawd if I could just turn back time.
I would've done so many things differently.

Me, I may be emotional but I actually struggle to express myself most of the time. When I feel like that I do something that shows the total opposite. I don't know why. I think I'm a weirdo too, no worries.

I always do things to regret them later..
How true of my situation now.

Ning was trying to tell me her good news yesterday, but I just cut her off when I couldn't pretend my "haha's" anymore.

Thanks a lot for talking to me hun, and yeah I guess I shouldn't have done so many of the things I did but like I said, I do things rashly without processing the consequences in my small, puny brain almost 80% of the time.

(You still haven't told me WHO?!!)

Its so stupid of me. I found someone I really like, someone who meant everything to me and treats me so nicely. But 1., I didn't show how happy I was just to have him and 2., I did stupid stuffs to ruin everything. So now here I am, wallowing in self-pity, AGAIN.

What happened?

Not even talking now. I'm like, stuck between situations.

My dad told me that guys aren't as emotional as girls are in relationships. Once they don't want, means they don't want. They don't think too much about it. Like, its good for me so its gotta go, NOW kinda thing.

Well..

Just, take it one step at a time and start from square one again. Tho its kinda hard since we're not even friends?
What will be, will be.


Shit you laaaaaa, I really miss having you as a friend!
Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?

Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it

So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget

I want you back. Hard, isn't it?

Well, I'll live with it.

I still have my studies, football and dance to focus on and love. Looking forward to so many things after O's! FREEDOM! OFFICIALLY!

Take one step at a time,
there's no need to rush.

At least.
I fight for what I want.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Eat! Not.

Woke up on the sofa again -.-

How? I had a damn bad case of gastric again so I went outside to tell my mom. Then I just lay there cuz I couldn't move since I was getting giddy. My mom asked me to eat sweet stuffs cuz I was like fainting like last time, but I refused to so she let me try to sleep. Dad was like nagging at me, "Whatever problems you have in your life now, can you just look after your health? Everyday you sleep so late, later than 2am. Now you refuse to eat?" and I started crying.

Then mom scolded me after finding out I skipped dinner.

Eh, how was I supposed to know that you need to eat after playing 2hrs of football.

And I haven't eaten breakfast. Don't ask me why. Like, if you don't like eating, and you're not in the mood to, you've got that perfect reason to not eat.

Why force yourself?

So I did my tuition homework. I like factorization.

Re-installing my Microsoft Office and Home Student. Need to do the English assignment on my ambition. I still haven't decided between 2 of my choices, and its getting frustrating like hell. Everyone else in English class decided but not me -.-

So my laptop now is lagging since I'm appearing offline on MSN and everyone's signing in. I hate my laptop! Think someone bought the secondhand Macbooks :(

Think I'll go watch Spongebob Squarepants now.

Tuition in 1 hour.


Xoxo,
G.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Football.

Damn bored so I'm blogging now even tho I don't feel like it.

Just played football downstairs from 4.30pm+ to about 6pm. Then slacked with Mel. Played with these two indian boys. The younger one's damn cute! He has a V.Persie Arsenal home kit! And his voice is damn high pitch. Haha.

OH HE HAS ORANGE SOCCER SHOES. OH MY GOD!

Made my mind up to like, play everyday or something if I can spare the time.

Thought of going Queensway after tuition tomorrow to check out the jerseys with Iggy but he wanna go on Sunday! Wth.

Was supposed to use tomorrow after tuition to go downstairs to play football la but thought might as well go Queensway then now Iggy say Sunday wtf.

Didn't feel too happy in school.

-THOU SHALL NOT TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT MAKE THOU UNHAPPY-

Okay shall not talk about him, shall not talk about him. Will get more pimples, will get more wrinkles, will look older!!

Did CIP today.

Whoo got this sense of achievement after seeing how much we collected man. We got block 252 haha just opposite school. 4E collected a hell lot! Then we sat down to chat and just go crazy since we finished at like what, 9-10am plus when we were supposed to finish at 11.30am?

Mdm Loh asked some people to go to the sweet shop to collect stuffs. Thought I heard "rafia string" but they came back with boxes of sweets, chocolates and snacks! WHOOOO! Mdm Loh bought them for us to eat haha. THANKS MDM LOH! Still have two bars of Cadbury chocolate, 1 packet of apple gummies and 1 packet of the pizza biscuit thing.

After being dismissed from the hall went to library to meet Ms Balan. Rehearsed and Jani asked me to recite the poem thing since the drama people won't be around.

Went to Thomson Plaza and ate with Mel and Cia at the place I'd least expect to go to- SWENSENS.

Thanks to Mel la. Told her Lianyi going Thomson Plaza then she was like, "OMG. I want.. BAKED RICE! SWENSENSSSSSS!!!". Shared one meal with them and icecream. Fattening, gosh! Went to Popular and finally bought all my stationery :)

Homed, changed into AGEK jersey, went to meet Mel with Aunty Tun. The badminton court was coated with cement or something? So went to the makeshift basketball/football court since someone took the street soccer court T_T

And now I'm home. WE BOUGHT ICECREAM WHILE I WAS RESTING FROM PLAYING WTFWTFWTF FATTENING!!! Shiatttt. Tomorrow gonna play at night I DON'T CARE.

Okay I think I need to do Emath now or Vincent will make me do them during tuition again.

Kor I'm gonna call you YOU BETTER COME ONLINE.

Xoxo.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Oh em gee!



Holy shit! Look at the kid play. Madin Mohamed, only 6 years old and his skills are like wtfomghuh! And the country's flag at the end.. HE'S FROM ALGERIA TOO!! OH MY GOD THE NEXT NASRI! If you can see the comment in blue, Arsene Wenger seems to be eyeing a new player for Arsenal already hahaha.



And oh, this picture is of a U-17 match! SO NASRI WAS ABOUT 16 OR 17 WHEN THIS PHOTO WAS TAKEN OMG. He already looked so mature and cute then :D

Time to pick up French if I ever wanna know what Nasri's saying on his interviews! I can only pick up familiar words time and time again ugh. (Stupid gf of his, Tatiana Golovin. Beeetch, Nasri's mine.)

Can't wait to see what he'll look like and be when he grows up man!
NEXT SAMIR NASRI WOOT!





2:57- he's doing his flying thing again awww ^_^ and 3:38- CHIOBU GOAL!

And I got so bored I created a Viwawa account and started playing.

Don't know how to play the mahjong there. Better to play in real life right?

Ed Westwick is hotttt.

Just occured to me that Leighton Meester (plays Blair Waldorf) shares the same birthday as ge-pek, which is April 9th, one day after my birthday.

See what I meant when I said its not fair?
Ah again, its okay cuz I got Jonghyun.

Didn't feel like going to school from yesterday night and just nicely when I woke up today I had a damn bad sorethroat. But who cares. I ate chocolate biscuits and drank Milo before having my breakfast, which totally killed my throat. Anyway who cares?

Watched Gossip Girl ep 18 and 19. Aww now Chuck's gonna fight for Blair. They're like taking turns to give up on loving each other. How sweet.

Since ep 20's not up yet, I just started on watching 90210. Its taking a while to load so I might go take a nap again, I'm feeling damn tired out. Which I have been very recently, I guess.




LISTEN TO ED WESTWICK'S SEXY BRITISH ACCENT OMG. He's damn hot when he speaks using his real accent gosh! And I thought he wasn't really that good looking on Gossip Girl. Hahaha.

Reminds me so much of Nasri when he speaks! Cuz Nasri has this cute factor when he speaks. French guy.. what to expect. :)

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Wants.



Omg. Damn cute and funny!!

I want a dog ahhh then I'll love it like hell and it'll grow old with me like Marley in Marley and Me but I won't name my dog Marley and my mom would scream cuz she's scared of any animal even da-yi's cats Ah Neo and Lingling.

So my future husband must love dogs and want to keep a dog (cuz I want to!!!) and likes bigger dogs cuz even tho teacup dogs are cute they're not as fun D:

Had so much fun with 4E during the career sem.! The aircon wasn't on at first and all the sec4 classes had to sit within the one badminton court? Like what the hell, we were all squeezing and it was so bloody hot and stuffy!

Then they turned on the aircon when we started and it got too cold. Great.

We earned the most money for the needy students while at the selling of lemonade game whoopiedee! Total of $92.50 (I think they counted 93.50.. where did that 1buck go?!)! Never expected 4Endeavourians to be such entrepreneurs eh!

Super fun going around asking people to buy the drinks from us. Our most expensive cup was sold for 1 @ 10bucks. Who bought it omg..

Ryan and Louis kept coming over to try to sell the drinks to our class LOL. "Gwennnnnn, Gwen you know you wanna buy from us la. liang mao qian er yi!" I just shoo them away and after a while they changed target and kept forcing Qihua to buy it. Could see them running after him in circles around us.. literally.

Did the Holland Code thing and I got ASE, meaning I scored most for Artistic, second for Social and third for Enterprising!

Got none for Realistic, Investigative and Conventional. Got full score for Artistic, 6 for Social (all are out of 8) and 3 for enterprising.

Whole class stayed back in the theatrette to talk to Ms Balan and we're performing a poetry slam on Monday for the school! Rehearsing Justin's poem tomorrow.

We won so many snacks. Everyone went for the Hello Panda. :( but there were two packets left so me and Cia took 'em and I'm eating one of the Yupi sweets (got letters one!) and it tastes like bubblegum! Reminds me, I still have the Juicy Fruit chewing gum from Eileen.

Had lunch with Cia, Mel and Qah then went to find Mr Lim for Chem but he wasn't there so I went back with them.

I lost my wallet without realising it! Super cuckoo (Eileen used to call me that). Hahaha. The person at AMK bus interchange called me cuz my CCA card had my info. Thought I put it back into my bag after boarding the bus? Maybe it dropped hmmmmm.

Supposed to go eat with Quin and her mom later hmm.
Raining now whoopie! :) my window's open, which hardly happens when it rains.



Christian Owen's choreo is sooo sick omg.



Alyson Stoner and Shane Harper's choreo in less than half an hour!

OKAY I WANNA DOGGIE.

And a DSLR, and my Arsenal home jersey with a Nasri #8 on it. Can't wait till my dad gets it for me ahhahahahahahahhahahaha!!!!

Birthdays.

I knew Nasri's birthday weeks/months ago.

I just checked the Nasri fanclub on Livejournal since I left a comment when they commented that Nasri's birthday was 15th March (and I found it hiliarious, some fangirls you girls are man!), and I realised my comment was "Isn't Nasri's birthday on 26th June?"..

And it just occured to me that its one day after Dee's birthday.

WHAT THE HELL WHY DO ALL MY FRIENDS SHARE (or almost share) BIRTHDAYS WITH THE COOLEST AND MOST AWESOME PEOPLE ON EARTH!

Okay, I DO share the same birthday as Jonghyun from SHINee and we're only about 3 years different? Haha!

But Jun shares the same birthday as Lover (Yokeching), and now Nasri almost shares the same birthday as David? SO NOT FAIR!!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Breakeven.

Today started off damn phail-y.

Had prize presentation. Got all sweaty ugh.

Went back to class and Qihua decided to start the day by going "OH MY GOD ONE OF THE HAMSTERS DIED!". You could see half the girls standing up after slamming their bags down, about to chiong to the cage at the back of the class when he surrended, hands in the air, and went "OKAY NO WAIT JOKING, JUST JOKING!!"

Mdm Loh showed us this video of a ocu-something-logist (person who makes artificial eyeballs for people), and the empty eye socket was.. disturbing. Me and Manda were eww-ing over it for the rest of the period.

Grouped with Lipkoon, Maruay, Sinhui and Jessie for English. Before that Mdm Su. said we'll be rebanded so me, Beanie, Jiaqi and Alex kept holding hands.

After sending two people out, Mdm Su was like "oh I forgot someone.." and we held hands again. "Girls, you can let go already, theres no more elimination rounds." and she was close to laughing. I'd miss them like hell if we got rebanded man!

Did this group work then you had to go tick other group's work. Lipkoon destroyed every group's paper but Jiaqi's group by putting one BIG tick. Alex's group used 3 papers so he combined all 3 papers and put one tick across all. Damn funny!

"The bag was big enough to put Lipkoon's pimple in it." -Maruay.

Lit was fun with the performing of poetry again.

Me and Manda did it this time with Post-Its!

(picture from Manda's blog)


Wrong backing tho. Note: Post-Its DO NOT stick on whiteboards.
And the next period was the debate on if C's father was a bad father.

Sailing in light wind today was suckish. Light wind, SUPER low tide and strong current. Used MOE 6! Its been long since I used an MOE boat, and I'm gonna be sticking to it. Feels so much nicer sailing an MOE boat though the conditions at the MOE side in NSC sucks. I got 6 mosquito bites in less than an hour?

Had dinner with Quin, Ariel, Jack and Wenfeng opposite. Met Ms Chew and Mr Tan halfway, and Ms Chew said Ms Cheng was back! A while later Ms Cheng herself came! So excited to see her again.

Damn funny doing mass convos with the sailors. Supposed to talk about camp tee but me and Ryan kept sidetracking to soccer. More like me. Fun talking to him like that! Sad we support rival football clubs. :( just hoping all the best

Anyway, to whatever shit is going thru my mind now. Got my wake up call, and now I swore to give it my best and let nothing affect me in my studies.

Meeting Mr Lim tomorrow for extra outside-lesson Chem remedial when we don't have remedials! Need to relearn our sec3 stuff.

Career seminars are boring I bet, cuz it made Weiming, Mubarak and Teng fall asleep. Gosh, 3 days! OUR PE DAY INCLUDED! Wasted.

SAILORS, OWE MONEY PAY MONEY!
10bucks, 10bucks!

Breakeven - The Script

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

p.s. MY DAD'S GETTING ME A NASRI #8 ARSENAL HOME JERSEY!



See this! IT WILL BE MINE IN A FEW WEEKS TIME.

Oh gosh I'm so excited. Couldn't believe how easily my dad agreed tho. I asked, "Daddy buy me and yourself an Arsenal home jersey okay!"

"One jersey about 50-60 dollars right?"
"Yeah around there. Maybe more. I want a Nasri #8 one!"
"Haha, okay lor. Then during home matches we'll wear it, okay?"

OH. MY. GOD. DAD I LOVE YOU!

THERE'S A MATCH ON APRIL 4TH AND MAYBE ONE ON APRIL 7TH! AWESOMEEE. I cannot miss a match man. So excited for their match against Manchester City! Saturday night so I won't miss it. :)

Sunday, March 22, 2009

I can't believe I fell asleep while waiting for the second half of the match to begin.. STUPID ADVERTISEMENTS I HATE YOU!!

Well at least I managed to see Nasri play. :)

I was damn awake till I went to get a pillow and hugged it. Then the first half was over, they took a break, and hell lots of advertisements played on the Football Channel till I drifted off to sleep.

Van Persie's playing isn't up to standard :(:(:(
Nasri almost scored but he got blocked. Was damn sad la!

WHEN'S THE REPLAY I NEED TO WATCH IT!!!!!


(EDIT) Okay just found out that the replay's tomorrow at 6pm. Gonna catch it cuz the results are Newcastle United 1 - Arsenal 3! :)

And Man U. lost again! WUAHAHAHA. Wanna see Ryan's raction about this since they're only leading now by what, 4 points (?) In the EPL. Chelsea and Liverpool are 61 points while Arsenal's 55 now I think. Hurry close the gap Gunners!

p.s.
NASRI SCORED AT THE 67TH MINUTE!!!
*screams and tears out hair*

OH MY GOD. I AM SO GONNA WATCH THE WHOLE REPLAY TOMORROW. NASRI SCORED THE FINAL GOAL!

*fangirlish* I LOVE YOUUUUU!!!!!!
They would quickly recover. Robin Van Persie set up goals for Abou Diaby in the 64th minute and Nasri three minutes later as Arsenal cruised home.
- quote from Arsenal.com on yesterday's match.

http://www.arsenal.com/match-menu/3005148/first-team/newcastle-united-v-arsenal?tab=report

Heart.



For the little things, I CHANGED MY BLOG'S PLAYLIST!

Can't wait for the Newcastle United vs. Arsenal match later.

Oh, before I say anything else, I just came back from my bro's badminton bbq. Yeah horrible, stuck in a room full of little kids my bro's age and down. They kept making so much noise.

And at least 5 kids wore FULL SOCCER KITS! Wtf, rich kids!!!!

1 Arsenal home kit, 2 Man. U. home kits, 1 Chelsea away kit, 1 unknown slash forgotten kit.. Like wtf to the max they're just kids and they got full kits? Original somemore, not those bought from pasar malams! Horrified!

Well, the kid with the Arsenal kit was wearing..

LAST YEAR'S ARSENAL BARCLAY PREMIER LEAGUE'S KIT. HAHAHA OUTDATED TO THE MAX. (I have no idea why I keep using "to the max" nowadays. Pardon me.)

The kids reminded me of this year's sailing team. Cuz whenever Coach Alex talked, the kids made so much noise he couldn't continue. The moment he said, "ONE, A PEN-" they'd be like, "HUH A PEN COACH ALEX GFTHFEOHFEFHEKFHE??!! GFUEHFUEWHF!#$#%^$^y$%!" "WHAT PENSswDOWJFIEJFEI"

All the random letters cuz everyone was shouting/speaking/screaming at the same time, so you can't make out what they're saying.

Yeah, reminded me of the sailors.
Primary school kids vs. Secondary school kids.

Coach Alex was doing the lucky draw. I was playing Patapon and my earpiece was plugged into my ears, volume up so I didn't realise that everyone was looking at me cuz Coach Alex was calling me to help him draw a lot till my dad tapped my head.

"Whoever wins this prize must love her okay!"

"OMG EWWWWW AHHH YUCKKKKS EEEEEEEEE OOOOH AHHHH EHHHHH OHHH LA LEH LI LO LA LEIIII!"

"Love her as a sister la!"

"Ohhhhhhhhhhh." then, "EEEEEEEEE!!"

=.= kids.

Yanjing came over to offer me food. He was like, "Why you never tell me you playing DJ Max!! *looks at screen, realises I'm playing Patapon* Why you never tell me you're playing Patapon!! All the games I have and I play!" my mom asked, "You're bbqing food outside how to play?" "For games, I will heck one la :P"

He's quite cute I guess. After that he came back and was like, "You should've told me earlier la. I cannot play now, my PSP mei dian cuz I was chionging level just now :x"

Before we left, Gerald came to me and told me "Jie, my coach say next time he'll versus you in DJ Max." okay coach Yanjing, we shall see! Should pick my bro up from his next training with my parents then HAHA.

Btw the heart ontop is a stress ball I got from the bbq haha!


Weird unknown people say weird things. :\

Newcastle United vs. Arsenal started exactly 30mins ago but since I'm already feeling so comfy in my room I'm lazy to go outside to watch it. :( sorry Nasri!



Shall get details from my dad tomorrow and watch the replay!

No worries, I have faith you'll score!
YOU'LL FOREVER AND EVER BE ARSENAL'S WONDERBOY.


Cuz you're the cute I-love-to-spread-my-wings-and-fly-when-I-score guy whom I fell in love with which made me such a bigass Arsenal fan! :)

Gogo Gunners!

HEARTS FOR YOUUUU!


(I'm sorry I look like a Chelsea fan, it wasn't intended! I gave up on Frank Lampard loooong ago I swear! Need to save money for my Arsenal NASRI #8 jersey soon!)

Xoxo,
Proud to be a Gooner.

(Yes, Gooner is another nickname for Arsenal people)


p.s. OH FORGET IT, I'M TOO TEMPTED! I'll just go outside and watch the match already, haha. Tempted to see my Nasri!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Quadratic to the max.

Haha this is funny. Yesterday night my mom came in to give me my medicines and I told her about what happened recently. Then she sat down and we talked till 2AM!

She even called in my dad. They ended up about responsibility, my dad's ex-girlfriends (LOL!), about my relationship, and how if I don't study now in future I can't keep to my husband's standards and he'll be smarter than me and he'll dump me blah.. it was nice tho.

Just saw Sylvia's wall comment for me! Can't wait to take lessons again. But anyone free next Saturday? I'm still keen on going for Studio Wu's GO EAST! free workshops. Limited to 3 per adult, so its worth the time.

Found this picture on Tzuling's Facebook! Aww, memories. I miss Mr Lee! Wonder if we'll see him this December camp. This was when Belle had the sec1-not-matured look! LOL TO THE MAX.

Okay maybe I should stop blogging now cuz I have tuition in exactly 2 hours till tuition starts and I'm not done with all the quadratic equations Vincent gave me to do. And I kinda forgot how to do some oh gosh.



I never got tired of this video.

AH SHIT I REALLY WANNA GO FOR THE OVERSEAS MASTER INSTRUCTOR SERIES TO LEARN A PATRICK CHEN CHOREOGRAPHY WHAT THE HELLLLLL!

Friday, March 20, 2009

When everything is wrong, we move along. Just give me some time. :)

Quinnie and Aaron came over today.

Helped Aaron do vectors. At least I did some work.



My favourite lime green mouse that doesn't really work. Wasted..
When did I start liking lime green? Actually I don't remember. Was before buying my iPod Nano I think.

Was challenging Quin to minesweeper since my modem refused to connect her.


Used my grey slow mouse in the end to play.

My calender tissue holder thing.
Me and Quin were both having runny nose still.


Wore the new AGEK jersey again.
I wanna get our names printed soon!


Aaron came like, 2 hours later than he said he would. So me and Quin watched failblog videos, the "Catch My Heart, Very Melon" video Darren posted on Facebook, etc.

Aaron tried Hotel 626 on my laptop and it was epic phail cuz it lagged too much.

Webcammed with Belle. Sometimes I wish I had a laptop with a webcam.

Went out for dinner at around 8.30pm. Aaron didn't know where Sumo House was. Quin was like, "1. You've never played Hotel 626. 2. You've never been to Sumo House??!"

Walked there, they scissor-paper-stone-d and decided on S-11.

Today besides in the morning, I was alright. Then on the way to Sumo House, well, Aaron finally confessed the little group I found last time on Facebook. He said it was to talk about me and David's relationship. So I was right about the whole "Lets Bet How Long They Will Last" event thing. Their codename for us being Pacman and Ghostie.

I knew it.

Then I emo-ed (according to Aaron) and cried while eating dinner.
Ate like less than half my dinner and lost my appetite so I didn't eat.

Realised today I didn't eat much either. Whoo. Again. Skipped breakfast (since it was cheesecake) and lunch but had the cheesecake at around 4 instead. So yeah.

Sorry you two, guess I made you guys feel damn oh shitttt or something.

Couldn't help it. A lot of things..

Went to Virtualand arcade. Watched Aaron play Beatmania IIDX while I just stared at the guy and girl playing Drummania. Walao, I felt really, really, really horrible.

I just realised that in the 3 months, we never went to play Drummania tho it was like, our favourite arcade game that we used to spam whenever we could.

Bet I suck at Drummania now, should be very rusty.

Quin's mom sent me home. Walked under my block.. remembered so much. I really hate myself, why did I let myself fall so deep? Really should've known better.

Intended to talk to Mom when I came home from dinner but she was going to Celine's house. Still remember in February on Gerald's birthday, they told me I must know how to handle relationships as in if we broke up..

That day seemed just like yesterday tho it was a month ago.

I LOVE SAMIR NASRI!!!!!!!!!


Yeah,
"I want nobody, nobody but you~"

Tomorrow, Arsenal vs. Newcastle United.
I have faith in you Nasri! Watching you play is the thing now that would make me smile. :)


My head fucking hurts right now.


And oh, an old choreo of Ian Eastwood's. (aka DJIcon)


Used to love his old style. He changed a bit but oh well.

The song used is well.. Grown Apart.

Sigh.

Now to just.. focus on hip hop and studies.

G you're just plain annoying.



I love Samir Nasri, the bloody cute #8 Arsenal footballer. Fullstop, period.

No one else kkkkkkk k k k kkk k k kk k kkk kk k kk kkkk.

Should've known better. Why did I let myself.. shouldn't have let myself.

Fell so deep in it, hit the ground too hard.
Now I'm just hurt all over again.

Like Ker said, what for I think so much about it when he's not even thinking about it at all?

Fuck. This hurts.

Memories are SUPPOSED TO FADE.

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best
I know it is
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Memories supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back
Yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, ohhh.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you

Not over you, ooh.

Fuck it. Who am I trying to kid?

Thought I was okay. Well I'm guess I'm not.

Can't sleep cuz.. well yeah. So I just turned on my laptop again, blasted Little Too Not Over You on my iPod and cried to myself for like 2 hours.

Wth, waterworks powerhouse is me.

I wanna hug. I wanna go to mom's room and get a nice hug from her and cry everything out.

Fuck.


Actually, that dream now makes me snort.

Dreams never come true don't they?
I know mine didn't cuz it just ended today.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


(edit)

3.14AM. Still can't sleep. Still moody. Still broading.

Can you see my tired eyes? :(

Went to search for photos of Nasri to make myself feel better.

He does the PERFECT "Loser!" sign.

Just like me.

This is of course bloody cute. Kept smiling whenever I saw this picture up close.

Uh Bendtner? Can you not be so tall? My Nasri's having trouble keeping with ya.

NEWCASTLE UTD vs. ARSENAL - 21MARCH!
Go for it, Gunners! Especially Nasri.

I wanna chop off my toe and the stupid ingrown toenail that made my toe swell up!