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Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Wednesday, November 14, 2012

The Diary of an Insomniac


G'evening folks.

It's currently 4:25am and I'm finding it extremely hard to fall asleep even though I've successfully managed to switch my body clock back to the point where I'd start getting sleepy by 11pm.

I guess it's also because my right eye hurts quite bad now.

Not a 10/10 kind of pain, more like the pain that annoys you and I'm tearing nonstop because of the pain in my eye. It's as if something's pressing down on it and I can't afford to miss a whole day tomorrow really (but at this rate I see myself missing the only morning class we have) because 

1) my group has CA consultation at 12:30pm
2) Poly 50 and I'm running for CASS Club

I'm feeling really insecure about my weight.

I've gotten comments saying I look like I've lost weight? Which might be true because I am eating clean now and I train whenever I feel up to it.

Of course I still indulge and the past two weeks have been cheat weeks. Totally binged throughout and gave in to my cravings!

Oh wait, did you hear that? Yeah, that's my effort going down the damned drain.

Gwen, it's time to be more disciplined!

Body's not on my side now. Its repeatedly screaming "REST! REST! I NEED REST!"

Sorry body, I would love to treat you to some TLC because it's after Waves.. but right now I have so much to catch up on and I can't afford to rest even though I would love to.

Time to try getting some shut eye before TA consultation later on.


Laters, baby.

xx

Monday, November 12, 2012

Waves 17

...... is over. 
A huge thank you to my friends and family that came down to watch the production - I hope it wasn't a letdown!

Out of the two Waves I've been a part of, this was definitely the most trying and tiring. Well I guess I can't say for sure because I've only been a part of two Waves production and not more? But I can dare say I'll never struggle this hard again for other events I'll be a part of.

Broke down so many times, lost myself in the process.

I fought an internal war with myself. All everyone saw were smiles and joy slapped over my face but I died inside with each and every practice, every rehearsal. I isolated myself, made myself more lonely, becoming this person I am totally the opposite of. I was depressed everyday, and nothing I did could make me feel better about myself or my situation.

I hated myself for being this weak.

But I'm thankful I have good friends that brought me back - or rather, slapped me back (not literally) - to reality.

Just in time, too. I worked my ass off for the shirt and the booklet, even though I'd say 90% of the work was all Geisel. She stayed strong when her pub partner crumbled, so thank you. No one else but her saw the struggle I went through but she stuck by me through it all.

A huge thank you to my fellow main comm members, whom I can never thank enough for being such an awesome committee.

I am thankful to be in this batch, this committee.



x

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

Anything could happen, anything could happen..



Ellie Goulding LIVE in Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!

The day I've been waiting for is finally here - ELLIE GOULDING IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!

3 years.. and my wish is finally coming true. So excited! Can't wait seriously. I honestly feel like I'm about to cry as I type this and I can imagine myself doing the same when I actually get to see her LIVE in person.

I wouldn't even mind paying extra to see her backstage or something if they have VIP passes and all.

Help I think I'm gonna faint from excitement hahaha oh my.