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Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Friday, October 31, 2008

Happy Halloween!

BOO!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
And if you didn't think the picture above was gloomy/I-wanna-eat-you-up-cuz-I-buey-song enough, then think again.

Cuz...

...Okay fine, I just had my hair cut.
(hears people muttering: "finally!")

And yes, the wonders of the camera phone shall show you how my hair turned out..

I MISS MY LONG FRINGE,
I MISS MY LONG, THICK HAIR.

I love my fringe now, but I hate how thin and short my hair is!

:(:(:(

And I SPECIFICALLY told the lady I wanted to keep my hair length AND thickness, and told her not to layer my hair.

Watching her snip off all my lovely hair strands by inches made me feel damn xin tong!

So, byebye messy, curly, disgusting long fringe.
I won't miss you TOO much, but I miss my hair.

Should've just told her not to touch my hair AT ALL, and just cut my fringe.


Sigh, I kinda regret not going to the Night Safari.
David called me at like 6 to ask me if I wanted to go with my heartshaped juniors, him, and others. I think Lianghong went too.

DAAAAAMN,
I was broke.

T_T

And ya, cuz some other people were going too.
And also cuz they were going till around midnight, and I didn't tell dad I wanted to go like, a few days back.

He won't get mad but he won't like it.
See, I'm such a thoughtful/considerate/lovely daughter! ;)

But whatever, next stop: SENTOSA!
We've been wanting to go since like, the start of the year?

But I guess sailors see beaches so often we get sick of them.
Okay, not me.

I wanna do something tho..

.. lie under the stars and stargaze for a whole night till morning!
Sadly, Singapore has like NADA/ZERO/NIL stars in the sky at night!
Bummerrrr.


shake it!


Okay I think the mugging sessions for me is back.
This is what you get for not working hard in sec3.

If anyone wants to study with/tutor/coach me, tell me okay!

I would be happier. LOL.


p.s. I got nominated by Sally and Debbie for the Channel U show: School Flower School Grass (校花校草).

Okay just joking, they said the show in English is called Hey Gorgeous.

Don't ask me how, but the story to how I even realised it was a SHOW was stupid enough.

Sally's reason was that I was chio.
Darling ah, are you blind or just blind. :\

You can go vote for me and waste your time. :)
Ahhhh bloody hell.

I was dumb enough to turn off my modem yesterday night!
YOSH! *redownloads Granado Espada for the 4th time*

Okay I'm off to school nowwwww for lessons.
Yay 3E only has Chinese and after that we're free! :)
So I'm gonna go cut hair.

JA NE~!

p.s. otanjoubi omedeto Azhar gege!
SOMEONE RECOMMEND ME A JOB!

Cuz I got something else on my wishlist now..

Nikon D60.
Or D40, since its hundreds of dollars cheaper and almost identical in functions to the D60. Haha.

My silly Sony T200, since you've been gone all I've been thinking about is getting a DSLR camera! :\

Thursday, October 30, 2008

我会在电脑上打华文字喔!

Heehee, I'm testing out the Chinese typing function.
Daaaaang, I had it for so long and I didn't know I could type Chinese till now.

生日快乐 dad!
老了多一年,但是担心的事也多了很。

今天想和爸爸和妈妈出去吃晚餐,但是我觉得让他们两人去吧。
现在不知道为什么,但是我只想待在家里。。。

懒惰虫! 哈哈。

我认为我打出来华文字在我的blog上有一点怪怪的。但是满好玩的!:):):)
可是我觉得我的华文成绩和讲话文的技巧实在太差了吧。

哈哈,明年的华文考试一定要比经年的好!
不然,我的 "O" 水准考试会不及格!!
一定要加油喔! 哈哈。。

SMAP vs. Arashi!

LOL.

I just chanced upon a performance/music video by SMAP, and since they both debuted from Johnny's Jimusho, I was like comparing them.

Arashi! :D

SMAP


SMAP: Debuted in 1991 (.__. I wasn't even born yet.)
Arashi: Debuted in 1999 (I'm only 6years old!)

OLDIES VS. YOUNGSTERS!


The members of SMAP (like Takuya Kimura!!! :heart:) are like 40+ years old, married with kids etc, Arashi members are like in their late 20's.

I know things about each Arashi member, but I don't know much about SMAP's. Except for Takuya Kimura and Kusanagi Tsuyoshi from their ドラマ [doramas] which I used to watch as a kid in 2000 and 2006.

Food Fight (Takuya and Kusanagi), HERO and Engine.


Okay whatever.

I can't wait till my mom gets the electronic dictionary for me and Gerald.

In Singapore its like 700+bucks? Cuz its touchscreen etc and has English, Chinese, Japanese, Korean.. so yeah. I won't use it for English or Chinese but for Jap! :D

Teeheee. I love my limegreen mouse. So much easier to use the laptop with it.

And oh, going out with the sailors tmr for a movie outing! :):):)
CAMMIE, YOU'RE GNA MISS OUT ON ALL THE FUN! :(

Daomin called me earlier to tell me about it, since I wasn't well today and didn't go for training. Ack, I missed the first session of archery! :(

Now I'm waiting for Granado Espada to finish downloading, which takes me about 14hours more to be able to play it! I reinstalled Diablo 1 yesterday man. The graphics suck. :( I wished I still had Diablo II!

I wanna play SIMS2 so badly now, kinda miss it since I'm so bored with the internet. But installing it into my laptop will be the same as killing it cuz its already so laggy.

Ah whatever, can't wait for tomorrow!
SAILORS! DON'T WATCH THE COFFIN TMR OR I'D KILL YOU GUYS!
(DAVID ESP AH, I KNOW YOU WANTED TO WATCH IT.)
Okay, my mom and I sent my beloved Sony camera away for repairs after dad's birthday dinner.

:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

I am a very, very sad girl now.

They'll only call me in one week's time!
And that might be when they inform me WHEN I can get back camm-ie. :(

Carlo has agreed to lend me his DSLR. Hahaha. Its scary tho, a 1,300bucks camera. So I decided not to borrow it, incase I damage it by accident. (my hands and feet don't like me a lot you know you know!)

  1. I love my new limegreen and black mouse,
  2. I am happy I got a new storybook,
  3. I am bleah-ed that I ate icecream and spagetti for dinner,
  4. I am tired and sleepy,
  5. I am sad cammie got sent away to repairs! :(
If I had cammie now I would take a pic of my LIMEGREEN nice lil' mouse to show you how chio it is.

Eh, for a 13bucks mouse its fine la, except when I just plugged it in it gave me problems so I told dad, "This mouse is crap!" and he lectured me.

Resession, blah.

I hate Wall St. now for their filthy-rich-turned-bankrupt businessmen!

Thanks to you I feel guilty for the fact that my dad promised me an iPod Nano!

BUGGER(S).

And oh, there's archery tmr! Hahahaha.

I remembered how I used to think it was silly, standing there in the hot sun trying to be like those Japanese shrines people who rock in archery, whenever the St. John's people did it in the field..

.. little did I know my time was to come. *dramatic sigh*

K I'm gonna take a peek into my new storybook, Queen of Babble: In The Big City (its a continuation of Queen of Babble, so I'm damn excited!) now and catch some Major Zzzzs, cuz Iggy wants me and a few other sailors to meet him tmr morning at 7am, KB Macs!

Bugger, I don't eat Macdonald's anymore, and I don't like waking up so early!!
(even tho PT is at 8am.)

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Me and my brother bear no resemblance to each other!




HAPPY BIRTHDAY NING! :):):)
Finally Sweet 16, and yes I do owe you a hug! :glomp:

Tmr's dad's birthday.
Me and Gerald were thinking of baking him a nice cake, asked Ker for suggestions.
And we decided on Strawberry Shortcake! :)

Looks easy to bake and looks good.
(hopefully it'll turn out good.)

I wonder if we'll see Azahar gege, cuz its his birthday the day after tmr.
So on my calendar I have 29th, 30th, and 31st marked with birthdays!


My aunt gave me this biscuit, from Japan.

I haven't eaten it yet since my parents only left me this one MEEEASLY packet. But its so long, its as long as the width of my laptop screen!

Gerald said it tastes nice cuz it has some seaweed thing.
Okay, we both love foodstuffs with seaweed!


And oh, I didn't go to school today for real! Hahaha.
Idk why I'm still so drowsy! Its been DAYS since I recovered from my fever.

Its not like I don't take naps now and then, so yeah.


YOSH! We're going out for dinner with me mom and paps!
To celebrate his birthday I guess, cuz I've got sailing tmr.

He's an old, old man with a belly. :P
Its so weird to think that in future your husband will also be like that.

Headaches and goodnights.


Heeheeee.

I found this icon!

Photobucket
DAMN CUTE, NO?

Okay my headache's been like, painful shit.
And MSN Messenger is putting up ads of BREATHE.sg

Reminds me of the competition.
And ugh! It keeps popping up. Damnit!

School tmr!

Combined Humanities and Chem.

Think I'd better sleep soon. But I have a feeling I won't go to school tomorrow leh.
Been too tired these few days, and I sleep for a while and wake up again, only to feel even more tired out.

Its kinda stupid.

Stupid fever! Like, now that I'm better you're not letting my drowsy-ness off huh.
OKAY MAJOR HEADACHE, THE BITING FEELING IS BACK.

BLOODY SMART ASS.
(Ryan would say "my ass very smart what, you jealous?".)

I wanna get away from being sick all the time.
Think tmr going to see polyclinic. Anyone wna pei me?

We can just smile,

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Disappointed,

I am proud to present to you..
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PUBLICITY!


Eh I don't know why, but I just found Vir and Jinli damn nice in this pic..
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So I edited it! :)
I like this colouring k. But it kinda turned out wrong.
Still got light around them!

I LOVE LIGHT TEXTURES.


DAY 2 CREATIVE COOKING-




I'm telling you, you can hire Publicity as your professional chefs.

We cook food within 30+mins, provided they are canned food, spagetti and whatever nonsensical items you see above.

Disclaimer:
We do not garuntee you will not have diahhrea after eating the food cooked,
nor do we garuntee that the food will taste good.

Okay la the food DID taste good. ;)


(sorry, creative editing juices flowed again.)

Hey, at least from the photo above, I judged that my photo refining skills are much better!
The unedited version is on top!


AMAZING RACE-

Sailors going:
"What", "ever", "loser", "loser".

David and Nic la!

They were supposed to do "major" and "loser", but they couldn't decide who to do what so they both did "loser".
yeah like what Meiting said..
"David! What ARE you doing?"

This playground reminded me of the Bishan playground I used to go to as a kid.
My parents used to go to the old NTUC there.

Hurhur, fond memories.

Final group pic taken by Ken.

Infact, all these pics were taken by Ken.
Edited by me.


Thanks Ken, you were seriously the best!
Sadly, you weren't in any of the photos with us. :(


This blog post is titled, "Disappointed".

Well duh I am.


My first hiphop competition and I got trashed..

..by my own crew members.

No wonder Aaron said, its hard to be a team leader.

I stayed up till 3AM every night to watch videos for inspiration and choreograph moves.
I put in so much yet what's this?

Thanks a lot, Afiqah and Bettina.

I cried till my eyes are puffed up till now, and the sailors even had to worry!
Thanks Crystal, for believing we could chiong the choreo..
But sadly the people I needed to believe in this the most, didn't.

Extract from my DeviantART journal:

Well, what else can you say when you're disappointed by two people you put so much trust and confidence on?

I relied too much, got back too little, cried till my head hurts. And I just recovered from a fever so its nowhere better.

Firstly, its insulting and heart-tearing to check with your dance crewmates whether they are free tmr for training, and they reply you:

"Yeah. Didn't we drop out? O.o like, no hope liao."

1. INSULTING.
2. DISAPPOINTING.
3. FUCKING HELL.
4. WHO THE FUCK MADE THE DECISION TO DROP OUT? WHO THE FUCK INFORMED ME? WHO THE FUCK TOLD YOU "Eh, we dropped out alrd"??!!

Secondly, its insulting to get your other crewmate thinking the same thing.

Don't come giving me 2 smses-long of excuses, if I am willing to be committed, if I am willing to try all I can to get training conducted, why can't you?

You guys promised to be a part of something, to be committed.

I didn't know this was the definition of "Committed".

If you didn't wna be committed, why not tell me at the start?

That way, you wouldn't have to be committed for something you didn't wanna, you didn't have to disappoint someone whom you shouldn't have.

If me and Crystal could believe there was a way to trash, why don't you guys?

I try so hard to organise meetups to train, to get things done.

I FUCKING STAYED UP TILL 3AM OR LATER EVERYDAY FOR THE PAST MONTH TO WATCH YOUTUBE VIDEOS TO GET INSPIRATION, TO CHOREOGRAPH.

EACH DAY I WONDER IF YOU GUYS HAVE DONE YOUR PART.

IF I COULD PUT MY HEART INTO CHOREOGRAPHING, WHY COULDN'T YOU?


"Huh. I was supposed to choreo?"

Thats even more insulting. I know the choreography was meant to be left to me, but Crystal DID tell you two to choreo at least 4 counts of 8.

When I went for SL Camp, I was even thinking so much about the dance comp.

Yeah Ker, you are right.

I shouldn't lose a friendship over a competition, but at least now I know their true colors.

Team WORKING (un)TITLED can have crew members,
BUT THEY'RE NOT GONNA BE YOU.

Truely but greatly disappointed.
(check out Bettina's reply to my sms and let your jaw drop.)

I don't know how to tell my mom "Hey mom you don't need to worry about if you can make it this Saturday, cuz my own members backed out on me and didn't tell me."

I tried to prove something to people,
yet now I can't.

Well, nevermind,
"No point crying over spilt milk."
How true.

Thanks Ker and everyone else for the encouragement and comfort.
And Quinnie for her shoulder when I was crying so badly while talking to Ker.

I'm so tired out now, and my headache and giddyness is back.
I think Ms Cheng is right, its time I see a doctor.

At least, on a positive side,
I'VE GOT NEW FOUND FREEDOM!

Now I can plan the long-awaited 1Endeavour'06 class gatherings, the steamboat I wanna have with the sailors at my place, the movie outing Wenfeng has been bugging me about.

I have so much time!

And oh, I can go to Quin's place over the weekends when Guitar Hero III: World Tour arrives in her hands! *excited*

I love myself.
Kitto Daijoubu ne~!

At least Publicity's camp photos cheered me up a whole lot.
I love you guys! Its like you're a new-found family of mine.
:):):)

What did I do to deserve what I got?

Monday, October 27, 2008

Help yourself out, and no one cares.

Had the STUPIDEST and most KUKU conversation with Nic Yeow:
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
aiyoh bgr dude change your msn nick la lol
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
ya la
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
lol
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
lazy to change
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
still end of years coming sia
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
too far
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
hahaha
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
xD
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
don't copy your boyfriend la
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
hahaha
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
who ar?
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
your boyfriend david what
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
you got how many boyfriends!
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
omg
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
i hav short term memory
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
i need to notify david
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
YOU TWO TIMER!
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
whut?
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
you dont even know david your bf mah
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
haha
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
when did i hav a boyfriend?
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
hmm
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
how time flies
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
from camp
gwen i am. ♥ 飛び出て ジャジャジャジャーン! says:
your "darling"
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
camp?
EnD yEaRs CoMiNg, tImE tO MuG says:
wat camp?
So ya that was just random.

But David, now you know what to do. x) HAHAHA.

Anyways, I love playing Wii! Hahaha. It made my bro sweat like hell.
Played Cooking Mama and Super Mario Beijing Olympics thingy.

And had tom yum steamboat at Aunty Belinda's place! :)
Alaska crab you know you know! Mmmmm..!
But the tom yum was too hot for me, ruined my meal! :(

Next week next week!

I have no confidence already of the competition.

I felt I shouldn't have gone for the SL camp? Yet thankful I went.

Sigh.


[EDIT]

Got this from Drey's blog! Hahaha she has like, tons of quizzes.
I'm bored, and yet too lazy to install my Diablo 1. :'(


Name: Gwendolyn
DOB: April 8
Location: Singapore
Pets: (soft toys) Doggone, (deceased) fishies, hamsters
Siblings: one younger bro
Favorite Day of the Week: Saturday
Favorite Color: Orange
Favorite Movie: Too many to name! :)
Acoustic or Regular: Regular.. sometimes acoustic.
CD or Concert: CD.
Coke or Pepsi: Neither.
Coke or Dr. Pepper: Neither.
Spiderman or Superman: Spiderman. Who wants to see a grown man in undies unless its your husband.
Book or Movie version: Book, but if I'm lazy.. movie ver. ;o
English or Science: Englishhh duh.
Cat or Dog: Dog! (Doggone I love you!)
South Park or The Simpsons: The Simpsons.
Fall Out Boy or Senses Fail: FALL OUT BOY 100% FTW MAN!
Senses Fail or Atreyu: Neither.
Fall Out Boy or Matchbook Romance: Fall Out Boy.
Emo or hardcore: Neither.
Beach or a Garage: Beach.
Chocolate Milk or Regular: Regular. Infact, I prefer Dark.
Quiet or Loud: Loud.
Music with some screaming or all screaming: Some screaming.
Pop or Techno: Pop. I hate techno.
Techno or death: Neeeither.
Friday or Saturday: Saturday.
Going to the movies or Blockbuster: Movies!
Walking or Riding the bus: When its humid, the bus. Rainy days, walking.
Short hair or Long hair: Long hair.
Water or Tea: Water.
Propel or Gatorade: Erm, neither.
Toasted or Regular bread: Toasted.
Does the guy have to be taller than the girl? Duh!
Does the guy have to be bigger than the girl? Uhm, maybe.
Do you always shake or fix your hair? Shake. Infact I don't even comb my hair. x)
Is hair important? Yes.
Would you date out of your race? Not.. really...
Do you get attached easily? Nope.
Do you have an MP3 Player? My PSP. (sobs)
Do you wish you could have one? Duh. Dad allowed me to get one! :D
Do you have a job? Nope.. getting one soon hopefully!
Do you have a car? Nope but in the future I'll get LAMBORGHINI GALLARDO.. or a Lexus/Mazda.
What makes you like someone? How sensitive he is, how thoughtful, how mindful.
Do you spend an obscene amount of time on the internet? Hahaha. Ask my MSN Messenger.
Are you ready for death when it comes? If it comes in 2012, no.
Are you religious at all? I believe in God but I don't like church.
Do you listen to rap? Yeaaah.
Do you like school? So-so.
Do you love your friends with everything that is in you? .. huh?
If you have or had a dog, do you talk to it about things? I talk to Doggone everyday! :)
Do you go to concerts? Once in a blue moon.
Do you scream and dance hard? HAHAHA when I feel crazy.
Do you sing in the shower? LOL, "twinkle twinkle little staaarrrz."
Do you type slow? I type faster than you. And no.
Favorite holiday? New Year?
Do you like to tell everyone about your birthday? Nope. Lazy la.
Do you drink coffee? Only those canned ones.
Do you listen to music during your classes? Hahah when I get the chance.
Do you have a MySpace? Almost set up one, but no.
Do you like when you get mail? I don't check my mail. Infact I got 7112 unread mail to-date.
Do you like when random people IM you? WHO THE SHIT ARE YOU!
Do you like one parent more than the other? Nope, I don't choose. :):):)
Have you ever been in a chatroom? Yeah.
Do you work out? Sometimes.
Do you like the rain? I walk and dance in the rain if I have the chance to!
Do you like the Matrix? Besides the fact he shares the name "Neo" with me, no.
Do you shop online? Yep, I just don't buy anything.
Do you play video games? Mmhmm.
How many people have you kissed? My mommie-dearie, my daddie-kinz when I wuz a whittle babieee.
Do you hate yearbook pictures? Yeah. Unless I was a supermodel.
Do you have a digital camera? If I said no would you believe me?
Do you take far too many pictures of yourself? Nah. (I guess.)
Do you like VH1? All depends on which segment it is. I like those on singers and billionaires.
Do you watch award shows? Only certain segments.
Do you label people as preps or goths or emo kids? Sometimes.
Do you turn your pillow over a lot before you sleep? Yeah.
Do you wear glasses? Nope. But I own a pair cuz I got astic.
How do you like your pizza? Hot with sticky cheese, Hawaiian! *hungry*
Do you change your layouts often? Once in a blue moon. Too lazy to redo images and recode the whole thing from scratch.
Do you have a cell phone? Yes.
Do you check it far too many times a day? Yeah.

[/EDIT]
Why do I not feel afraid, Why do I not feel like telling, Why do I feel like shunning,
when my EOYs overall was just 51.2%?
when my feelings are about to explode out?
when I know that ain't possible?

Mysterious Chocolate,

For all you people who hated my Arashi songs I put up,

YOU'RE IN LUCK!

Cuz I just removed the songlist, for the benefit of those who kept complaining that the songs were like, disruptive etc hahaa.

Anyways, I added a comment box too, below each post. That way you can comment on individual posts if need be. :P

And I added back my Site Meter! Hohoho. Now I know who visits my blog ah. Spam my tagboard and YOU DIE. >:D okay la kidding. But I thought it was a waste to let my uniques (means the individual people visiting and not the number of refreshes on the page) stop at 28,000.

Okay so this post is all about adding. Blah.


Yesterday night I know why I was so sick already!

I had a fever, or according to mom when she came back la.

Then she woke me up to go to her room to sleep. Gave me panadol (my saviour!) and the Japan ice pack-like thingy we had since I was a kid.

I want the SL camp pics, nowwww! *acts like spoilt brat*
D:

And oh, if possible, click on my nuffnang ad. so that I can earn some cents.
Hahaha!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Having gastrics and headache now ahhhh!

Peckkhee just dug something out of me. Idk how she does that! :o
But ya, now you know.


Anyways, lets see..
  1. I don't go steady with someone who goes to another person like its all a game.
  2. I don't go steady with jerks.
  3. I don't go steady with bastards.
  4. I don't go steady with people who thrash my feelings as and when he likes it.
  5. I don't go steady with people who only know how to make fun of his stead and means it.

Got that?

[EDIT]
Okay shit I'm feeling damn giddy now and I'm seeing black spots. Gosh.
I'm slouching over my stomach like I'm having menstrual cramps wth.

I'll just go lie down.

DON'T MAKE ME MORE PISSED OFF, YOU BASTARD.
You're gonna get it when I find out the truth.

[/EDIT]

SL camp! Publicity rocks so bad we rock your stinky socks. :)




I feel so dumb.


OKAY TIME TO BLOG ABOUT THE SL CAMP!
Meiting can't send over the pics yet cuz her MSN has been problematic.
She didn't reply my email! :(:(:( so I asked Ken to send them.

Day 1


Gathered at school, thought I was gonna be late!

Wondered where David was cuz Mrs Nathan was asking around for him.
LOL, always late one ah you! :P

Bus trip there was tiring yet stupid cuz me and Meiting were absolute retards! x)

Activities were okay, started with rope entanglement. Stupid la, we thought we got the ropes untangled and we jumped around screaming like siao but in the end it got worse than before.

HAHAHA, we were like a bunch of retards!

KENNETH WAS OUR MIGHTY INSTRUCTOR! :D

Our group was pretty quiet till Ken told David: "David, go to the bbq pit now and push it and shout "Help! Help! The bbq pit is falling!" now." BLOODY FUNNY LA DEY.

It is now Publicity's well known sentence, besides "Thou Shall.."
(insider's joke.)

Overall it was boring? Till the flag-painting and potrait-drawing activity at night. :)

I loved our lovely PUBLICITY flag!
Major thanks to Zoe for drawing it! :)

Drew my potrait, and David ruined my pretty thing by writing "You look like my father - From David", he and Nic Yeow la! Nic pushed me aside so that David could grab it from me :(

In the end I grabbed David's and wrote "You look like my mother - From Gwen".

Got room 33.

Loved sleeping on the top bunk! Suwen slept below me. But it was freaky staring out of the window tho, in the night somemore!


Day 2

Gladys woke me up, and she said I scared her cuz people usually slowly get up, while I just shot up the moment she tapped my shoulder.

See, who said I was a pig? :P

Forgot what we did, but it was a lot of time spent in the auditorium.

Thanks David for the jacket! Eh its thicker than my black IP Zone jacket la walao.
My hoodie's too thin to keep me warm. :(

Oh I remember now, the activities were fun!

Except for the blindfolding one. STUPID LA, I di siao Ken then he sabo-ed me to play alone when I thought I was playing with David and Nic. Hahaha.

But I was wondering why my sense was telling me there was no one around me.
Cuz you know, when people are standing near you, you can feel it?

Then Ken said "Do you feel you're being sandwiched by two people?" I was like "HUH! .__." and quickly took out my blindfold. Everyone started laughing. Then I noticed David and Nic sitting on the floor. BLOODY HELL!

Then the other game was this game that felt like manual pinball. Haha.

David damn joker luh, kept throwing the ball at me and Nic.

Chased him around and our dept teased us saying we were a couple.
Somemore say what, only both of us got "blusher", face damn red.

=.=


Day 3

Time flew by fast!

We started out the day with horrid PT. Ugh.

I started feeling damn dizzy but I didn't wanna say. Didn't wanna eat breakfast so I just lay my head on the table.

In the end Ken said if I didn't eat he wouldn't give out the camp tees.
HORRIBLE GUY! Hahaha.

Mrs Nathan insisted I go on the safety car and not do the walk from Sembawang back to Mayflower Sec. Publicity tried to persuade her but she didn't give in :(

Ken helped me in the end! With a few words she was nodding her head. Hahaha.
Mrs Sidhu wanted David to make sure I drank lots of water LOL.
Got put infront with Ryan (not the sailing one), who was having phlegm {?}.

Quite fun! Walked till my shoe came apart, literally.

When we were reaching school we ran all the way and I had this damn sharp pain in my chest like I couldn't breathe? But aiyah don't care, I know my limits.

Felt good to be back in school! :) we were all sweaty and tired.

But we got an achievement:
We started out last, finished third.


You have no idea how happy and proud we were of each other.
But its also thanks to Ken, right? ;D

Prepared everything for the item, had a fun day.

But my headache spoilt it all.

Ended up crying when we got to the theatrette, cuz Lianyi's group started cheering when they were rehearsing their item.

Thanks Virginia for helping me calm down. :)

Headache all the way till sleeping time. Talked with Ken along with David, Nic Yeow, Virginia, Jinli, Meiting, Eugene and Landson. Ken's like the most fun and nice instructor luh!

Was supposed to wait for Mt and Sally before sleeping, but I was so tired I slept.

Slept at 2.30am leh, don't play play.


Day 4

Woke up feeling damn cold. Overslept! We were supposed to wake up at 6.30am?

Went down by 7.10am. Was late! But thank God there wasn't anything much to do. There wasn't PT. :)

Had debrief, took some photos with all the SLs who attended (David and Nic Yeow totally spoilt the pic! They both poked me and I ended up screaming and jumping up and down) and some SC things and we were dismissed at 8AM+! :D

Went opp for breakfast with Meiting, Virginia, Sally, Jody, Katini, David and Nic Yeow.

There were like so many Nicholas's in this camp la!

Nicholas Cho, Nicholas Wong, Nicholas Yeow, Nicholas Tan.

So Nic Wong thought Mrs Lim was talking about him during our theathrette thing on day 3. Hahahaha.

Ate at the usual pace I eat at besides when I eat rice.
Kena nagged at by all of them x)

Meiting said I am exactly like Mel, eat damn slowly.
Also damn blur. Hahaha. We're cousins mah! :P

Dad fetched me and I was so damn tired.
Saw gran on the way to the lift, she went to the market! :)
Felt so happy to know she's gotten out of her lazy state.

Homed and used com till about 3 or 4 plus?

Got damn tired and slept, aunty Tun woke me up for dinner and she said it was 8.30pm.
I was like wth I slept for so long??!

But ya, I didn't eat dinner.
Fattening to eat past 8pm! Hahahaa.

Never Again (tagged by Belle!)

RULES:
1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
5. Tag 6 people.


Are you male or female?
Signal Fire /Snow Patrol

Describe Yourself:
Smile Again /BoA

What do people feel when they're around you?
L.O.V.E. /Ashlee Simpson

Describe your current relationship:
One More Time, One More Chance /Matsumoto Jun

Where would you like to be now?
Inspire /Ayumi Hamasaki

How do you feel about love?
This Is Why I'm Hot /M.I.M.S.

(okay for this one the song title was a Japanese instrumental from Hana Yori Dango, so I clicked next again.)


What's your life like?
Geek In The Pink /Jason Mraz

What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
We Are Electric /Flying Steps

Say something wise:
(DAMN I got one of the list of Japanese Hana Yori Dango instrumentals again. K I'll just put it down anyways.)

二人の行く先 /山下康介


If someone says "is this okay?" you say:
Nothing Lasts Forever /Maroon 5

How would you describe yourself?
Ride For You /Danity Kane

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Long Way 2 Go /Cassie

How do you feel today?
Carols /Ayumi Hamasaki

What is your life's purpose?
Untouched /The Veronicas

(LOL Belle got Everytime We Touch and I got Untouched!)


What is your motto?
Unwanted /Avril Lavigne

(First Untouched and now its Unwanted. :\)


What do you think of your parents?
The Music or the Misery /Fall Out Boy

What do you think about very often?
I.O.I.O /B3

(okay, HAHAHAHA)


What is 2 + 2?
Thnks fr th Mmrs /Fall Out Boy

What do you think of your best friend?
Neverland /F.I.R.

What is your life story?
Hero /Arashi

(HAHAA! Omg Arashi songs rock. I'm a Hero!)


What do you want to be when you grow up?
Feedback /Janet Jackson

What will you dance to at your wedding?
The Potential Break Up Song /Aly & AJ

(WTF NO WAY I DO NOT WANNA DANCE TO A BREAKUP SONG AT MY WEDDING!)


What will they play at your funeral?
Coming For You /JoJo

What is your hobby/interest?
サクラ咲ケ (Sakura Sake) /Arashi

What is your biggest fear?
Temperature /Sean Paul

(haha true, "wo pa re" - this is Chinese la dey.)

What is your biggest secret?
Into The Night /Santana Feat. Chad Kroeger

What do you think of your friends?
Chasing Cars /Snow Patrol

What will you post this as?
Never Again /Kelly Clarkson


Okay not bad. Some of the titles ACTUALLY make sense. Hahahaaa! The funniest and weirdest answer was the one asking what song I will dance to at my wedding! :o

If my future husband is reading this.. omg!
Hahahhaha.

And oh,

iTag:
  1. Kerrie
  2. Daomin
  3. Chiaee
  4. Virginia
  5. Eileen

Shall blog about the SL camp (yesyes, if you're wondering where I mysteriously, last-min disappeared off to, its the camp) later, if Meiting does send me the group pics.

I'm missing camp a bit now, but its so nice to be home.
So nice.

KEN IS THE BEST CAMP INSTRUCTOR YO! :):):)
I am one lucky girl to keep meeting awesome camp instructors!
Tell me,
Should I back out?

I believe that person is still stuck.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

BA-A-A-KING bake-a-boo!

I (was) eating sushi in my room earlier! Hahaha.

And my mom was the one who passed it to me.
First time she auto let me eat in my room k!

Today I tried baking..

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No la, not sushi.

But BROWNIES!
:):):):)

Doesn't it make your mouth water?
(i know its making mine!)

Ya la ya la, I know it looks like some cheapo cake from a bakery..
I thought brownies turned out flat when baked! :o

Okay whatever.

Here are some pics of the process!

(chocolate-melting, batter-licking.. mmm. Don't drool on your computer ah!)

YOSH! My brother trying to melt the butter with 2 spoons.
He was like, bloody eager to help me bake la!

I wonder why..


Hurhurhur! Delicious HERSHEY'S dark chocolate (for baking).

...I wanted to kope a piece but.. aiyah better not.

The batter after mixing! :) woohoo!
Looks damn good la.

YOU WANT SOME YOU WANT SOME??

Nahhhhh, don't give you.

:P

Wootslala, the cake yo.
Looks good looks good?

OF COURSE IT DOES.

Okay but my mom and maid left it to bake longer than the recipe.. so ya.

"Can eat one annot? Won't die right. Got poison annot?"
Suspecting if the extra choco chips mommy added in were swapped with poison.

Hoho. Stupid imagination of mine,
WHICH ROCKS SO BAD IT ROCKS YOUR SMELLY SOCKS!

It smells good.. so I. AM. SATISFIED.


My mom told ji-m over the phone that I baked brownies.

And she's like "huh Gwen bake brownies ah! MY FAVOURITE LEH. Tell Gwen that, she'll know what to do."

Hahaha sneaky! Of course I'll rebake if this batch is effing successful. ;D

I'm gonna try some now! HAHAHA 12AM ALREADY shizzzzzz.

Who cares.

If it tastes good I'm gonna bring to school tomorrow to give AGEK and my close Student Leaders friends! :):):)

Don't think its poisoned la, just think this:

"OMG GWEN BAKED DELICIOUS BROWNIES FOR ME!
I AM SO LUCKY, LIKE, EFFING! :D:D:D:D:D"

and give me one million smiley faces.

:)

Like that.


I keep getting pissed off with my mom nowadays.

I think its cuz of the time when I stayed over at Beanie's place, and she called to scold me when I did nothing wrong and dad smsed me to tell me she had a bad day at wofrk.

The past few days I was like, effing tired? Then she's like scolding me over and over for giving a pekchek face.

Whatever la, you angry can vent your anger on me.
I angry and expect you to leave me alone, then you scold me.

Its sometimes very hard to think of David's treasure-your-family thing when my family is like that. Confirm if I tell him about this he'll "=.= what did I tell you about this? >:\"


On to better things,

TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
You happy or not, you happy or not I ask you???!

Hahahaaa, joking. But ya, I'm not going for the SL camp. :(:(:(

So I'm going for sailing, which.. the bus leaves at 1pm. Gawwwd.

I shall think of this as GOD'S WILL, as I always think of other things that happens.

Bernice told me she'll go for the SL camp still.
Okay cuz she wanted to give up her space for me.

But ya she really had an ear infection today, so she called me after she seen the doc and said she's going, but most prob for a day then she go back.

Aww! Might as well give up your place. :P
Nah, joking.

But she's really a nice person!

Idk why, but ever since she became Exco, I saw her in this different light. I mean, I've always been close to her, but I think due to this whole exco thing, it made me see her as hardworking, which she has really been! :)

Everyone makes mistakes, Bern.
So take your mistakes as a learning point, and jiayou!
Don't feel so stressed out anymore okay.

Open House tomorrow too! Hahaha.

Awesome, wearing my lovely black SL tee.
:( I will miss my dark blue SC namebadge thingy.

Won't be using it next year.

Sigh, we used to complain we hated it so much cuz it kept "stabbing" us.
But now that its gonna be gone, we're wanting it so badly.


Okay, still broading over the SL camp thing.
But its GOD'S WILL!

God will lead me on to better things. :)

I feel like going for service soon. Jas said that this Saturday is special service, but I got hiphop training, if not (it would have been) the SL camp.

Feel like asking someone to go with meeeee. I really miss my shepherd and sheepmate!

But I'm like Timothy, we believe in God and all but we don't like the way some churches use certain methods to get more freethinkers to be Christians.

Oh well.

Gonna wash my face and try the brownie! :):):)


GOODNIGHT!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

wakey wakey!

I just woke up!
Hahaha, see how tired I am. Finally managed to get time off to nap.
Gerald said I slept from like 8 - 10.30pm. Aunty Tun woke me up. :P

I realised I have A LOT of red and black things.
Handphone, bag, shirts, pencilcases..

Even if its not red AND black in one product, I still have red and black individually.
And I keep having red + black on me anywhere; infact its my major color! :o

Okay show you pics next time. From interschools '08, to staying over at my gran's place..
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Even my favourite soccer team is Arsenal!
(and yes I changed from Frank Lampard to Samir Nasri!
ADMIT IT, HE'S HAWT YO!
)

Those must be my favourite colors!

(Subcontiously, I mean.)

K time to shower and sleep.
My face feeling damn oily alrd k.

Scalded. My. Hand. (owwww..)

I don't get why we have to FOLLOW.

Seperating Environment into two groups and then taking me out of it and putting me under Admin Assistant was already torturing enough.

Ask the councilors:

How many of us want this change?
How many of us are agreeable to taking off and never using the badge we've worn for a year?
That we've worked our bloody asses off for 2 years to earn??

I talked to Lianyi today about how many councilors would rather carry on wearing the councilor badge with their name rather than change back to a cloth nametag.

Got quiet after that cuz I started crying.

Heard from Likiong that Derick cried when we realised next year we won't be "councilors" anymore.

And now we're disliking a nice teacher like Mr Chng because of things like this.

Like Jody said, SCs have a strong sense of feeling for the council board; we all feel damn greatly about it. And seriously, Mr Chng should have held a mass meet with the councilors too to discuss this, or so we felt.

But whatever, like Lianyi said, "ADAPT".
Lets see how far we'll adapt.


Just got home at like 6:50pm. Stayed back to help Bernice with the arrangements for the Open House 2008 and stuffs. Hahaha.

Loic was super funny la k.
SORRY LA, BUT YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS ALL THE TIME! :P


And oh, something idiotic happened today at the coffeeshop opposite school.

Bought my chicken rice, and there were no more trays so I had to carry the soup and plate with my hands.

Walked infront of the fishball soup store, and the uncle was like, chionging? And he bloody crashed into me.

The @$#%^%!#$@!!! hot soup spilled onto my hands luh, duh!
Damn hot, so NORMAL human reaction is to drop the bowl right?

Eff, when I dropped the bowl, not only did everyone look over, the uncle turned around and STARED at me.

"AIYAH YOU GO LA YOU GO LA! I'LL CLEAR THIS UP MYSELF LATER." he said in Chinese.

BLOODY !#$#%$%^$!@#???!

I wasn't in the wrong cuz he ran into me, and didn't even ask if I was okay. Still scolded me. I already scalded my bloody effing hands, what else do you want??! "Sorry uncle, sorry sorry!" and went back.

My hands were hurting like shit so I literally threw my plate of chicken rice on the table where Quin was. The Mayflowerians I knew were like, "Gwen are you okay? D:" as I walked back to my seat.

The moment I sat down I immediately started crying.
EFFING PAIN LA DEY, WHAT ELSE YOU THINK I'M CRYING FOR.

Thanks Quinneh, Drey and Belle for your help! :):):)
They immediately found ice for me and tried to calm me down.
THANKS! <3

And everyone else for the loving concern. Haha.

My fingers had this ringing pain for the whole day. :( PAIN!


Went for SL thing with Jody and Joey instead of sailing. Slacked around pretty more or less, and stayed back to help Bernice. JIAYOU! You can do it! :)

So now I'm damn tired.

I miss the times we spent organising for Student Leaders' Selection Camp.

I really wanna do it again, like organise orientation 2009?

Oh wait,
I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THE CHANGES IN STUDENT LEADERS'.

*denial-like laughter*

midnight bugs!



I am bored while waiting for my lovely hair (just slumped with blobs of lovely conditioner) dries.

So. I. Am. Blogging!

I'm still stuck with the whole centered font thing tho.

And guess what!
(what.)

I just found out 80++% of my site traffic comes from Singapore,
11++% from United Stares,
7++% comes from Korea (??!)..

okay thats just weird!

I was just doing some midnight camwhoring when I saw a bug on my guitar.
Okay it was like, HALF MY INDEX FINGER!

Idk if this is an exxaggeration but yeah it seemed that big cuz I went "EEEEEP!" in this high-pitched voice thing and ran out to call my dad, the Hero whenever I have bugs in my room.


Now he says the reason why bugs come into my room is cuz my lights are on.
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.
.

Okay I just closed all my windows.


And guess what!
(again, please say "WHAT.")

I'm not staying up late today cuz of choreographing, but bcuz I'm slacking!
WHOO!

I'm gna bring poker cards to school tomorrow to teach the class how to play Indian Poker and Mafia k. If not I'll teach the sailors.

COUGHS.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Excuse me, you are stepping on the top of my world-

SOMETHING AMAZING HAPPENED YESTERDAY!
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Actually no I am just joking.

My hair just started curling by itself like I used a curling iron and when I tried pulling it straight it would spring back into a perfect curl.

Okay I am determined to perm my hair soon. LOL.


Went to school today to have a dry run for Open House.

Apparently I am too late for the SL camp. Idk why but I really don't mind skipping Saturday's intensive training to go for camp! D:

I WANNA GO!
*prays for vacancy*

(actually no lor, they told me if I could replace a person last min it would be no prob cuz half the sec2 girl SLs aren't thinking of going.)

Waited for David when the thing was over. Was damn fun chatting and making stupid jokes with people like Loic, Joshua, Zhien and Welly. :)

Don't you people feel honoured that your names are on MY blog??!
(bhb-ness in action.)

Loic, Joshua and their porn! :P
Okay this is just a joke, cuz they were staring INTENSIVELY at the Macbook's screen, so Derick joked that they were watching porn and me and Joey joked about it too.


But ya they weren't watching porn k.
K?? K??! KKKK!!!!

@#$@!#$~%$&*#!!!!

Walked across Bishan park to take bus down to J8 with David instead of taking a cab there like he insisted.
Okay, big mistake.

For me it was sweet memories of the 7-11 store, the bus stop and the park itself from my times in Aitong.

For him it was just.. bitter memories from The Gardens condo.
Sorry buddy! I really didn't mean to. :(:(:(

Our little walk in the park was filled with regrets for me the moment he reminded me.
So I got damn quiet when we were approaching the bus stop.
Let him take a breather and let him think his thoughts.
I shan't interupt.. :)


Reached the bus stop, saw none other than Chong Cheeteng! :)
David asked him to Swensens too so he went.

410-ed down.
I love the bus number!

FOUR-ONE-OHHHHH! (remember Step Up 2?)

Got there and sat with Ryan and Louis who waited for like what, 2hours?


Stupid idiots drank hell lot of Coke.

We ordered food and they kept refilling the Coke!
Thank God I don't drink Coke, so embarassing to be associated with them! :P

They really got thick skin luh, it was FREE refils since they got the student's offer thing..

WHEN IT WAS OVER HOURS AGO. >:\



And this picture, my dear friends, was even before they finished their refilling madness.

We left with a total of about 15 cups on the table!
(of course the people cleared it, but after they did Ryan asked for more refils.)

Kept laughing like mad, but it was embarassing can.


Walked around and around and around Junction 8.

where else could be more boring!

Was getting super tired already, thank goodness they decided to leave.
David dropped me off again, thanks. :)

He and Iggy keep saving me bus trips! Hahaha.

Got into the taxi and was like *PLOMP* with my head against the seat and my eyes closed.
Damn tired already.

Dropped Cheeteng off first and we just talked about random stuffs.
Hahaha, not like the previous cab ride with him when we were still at loggerheads.

THAT was damn awkward!
Thank God we're back to being good friends again. :):):)

Seriously, I can't imagine how terrible sailing life would be without my circle of sailing besties.
:D


And don't ask me why this post is centered. I just felt like it cuz of the first sentence which was already in the center LOL.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

DoS banchou des!

17th OCTOBER


Finally going out with Rach and Celine again was like.. a really good feeling?

Caught up with what we missed out in each other's life,
Complained about MOE and the frustrating topics in school.

It was just good. So fun that we lost track of time and was out till 11pm+.
*dies*

And yes, I ate Korean food again! I seem to never get sick of BBQ beef. But this time I ate BBQ chicken! :) dunno-who said that beef makes your boobs bigger wtf. LOL. She used an example: the Americans. "See they eat so much beef, most of their boobs damn big!"

Thanks ah. I'm damn scared already.


18th OCTOBER

Haven't seen my relatives in a while, and it totally rocked to be spending (half) a day with them again! Hahaha.

Spent the night watching the Johnathan, Timothy, Gerald and David play HALO2 (which Jiaying cutely pronounced as "HA-LO"), playing a new game ji-pek called Mafia, playing Indian Poker and watching ARSENAL TRASH EVERTON 3-1!!

(whoo!)

We ate super sweet grapes and longans during our Mafia session,

And look! They're as big as Mel's head. :P

OKAY I'M JUST KIDDING.

Timothy explained how "Indian Poker" was played..

And TADAAAA, look at how silly ji-pek and Aunty Mavis looked! :P but we were all laughing like hell cuz we forgot to take out the provided calendars and the jokers, and we kept getting them.

See the cutie sa-pek was carrying! Aunty Mavis's son Jayden. :):):)

Damn cute, you call him "naughty boy" and he will smile then laugh.
But Timothy tried and guess what?

Jayden smiled for like half a second and started crying.
And it happens everytime Tim calls him "naughty boy"! :P sad for you la Timothy.


TODAY
Ahem, I've not eaten the chocs but I will take a small piece soon!
So tempting. *mouth waters*

Went to Afiqah's place to discuss and prac dance.

Was 1hr late! Hahaha cuz I slept so darned late the previous day, so I ended up oversleeping again. And the bloody Doomsday, last-day-on-Earth, being-chased-by-assasins-or-monsters themed nightmares I've been getting continously..

ITS JUST TAKING AWAY MY PRECIOUS BEAUTY SLEEP! :(

Sigh. I always wake up clutching my bedsheets damn tightly and with my heart pounding furiously.

Afiqah's place was nice! :) but her maid sucks. Hahaha she would agree.

Cabbed back with Bettina and was beat!

But we slacked most of today, ahah. But Saturdays and Sundays are allocated intensive training days, and perfecting moves days. Stupid Bettina, going Bangkok while me and Afiqah meet for intensive training!

HMPH.

K gotta sleep soon, before I die of tired-ness during tmr's rehearsals!
:P gonna cut hair too I guess.

Nowhere,

Its still dark out;
but I'll find a way - because I'm GWENDOLYN!


Okay, I've choreographed 1min+ of Cry Me A River!
HURRAH.
I know what its like to be nowhere,
I love that song. Its so.. inspiring.
Bubba Sparxxx has good songs, but no one listens to them!
They're terribly stepped on yo.

And please luh, Timbaland worked on Bubba's album and the beats are sick.
So the "cry me a river, oh, cry me a river" part is not what Bubba copied, but its just.. Timbaland included that in Bubba's album.

Oumffmph, look at zee time. *acts retarded*
Spent much of my time from the prev post looking around for inspiration, nothing hit me. So I just played around with the lyrics.

I don't listen to the beat of the song;

I listen to the feel & flow of the lyrics.


My FREY CLASSIQUE Noir 72% Cacao Extra Dark Chocolate is sitting there on my study table tempting me. UGGGH.

I love Isetan and their offers, especially for Sushi.

Going to Afiqah's place tomorrow to teach them my choreo.
Then practice like hell, and dance more.


I need more time, more time!

Crystal dedicated Saturdays and Sundays before the competition our "Intensive Training" days. Gawd, I'm gonna die of exhaustion.

My eyebags are heavy and I am tempted to post up the pic of the panda bear I posted up when we did midnight mugging for P.Geog but I can't find it.

So this will do.

You're looking at the crew leader of WORKING (un)TITLED dance crew yo.
Bettina made sure I became crew leader.

(pssst, she's just scared if CLs get picked to freestyle battle. :P)
Cause I’ve come to far for my own mistakes to quell me
Cause looking back at self-inflicted wounds that ache and ail me
Cause nothing they can tell me get me somewhere in a hurry
If I’m nowhere, then that nowhere will leave me no more need to worry