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Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Monday, June 30, 2008

Germany Germany..

I'm totally in love with this song that I think I should introduce. Even though its totally old and all, but its still awesome.

I couldn't find it on imeem.com so I had to upload it myself. :\

And now I can't find it.


I'm seriously getting myself a headache just thinking about the choreo of 4 counts of 8. Well, I had a song in mind already, but I think Crystal meant to choreograph to the current song, which is Take It To The Floor by B2K. So my ideas and visions were completely changed. :(

CME today was totally weird, cuz Mr Lim said he has BoA Kwon's number. That sent me squealing cuz I know it is SO NOT TRUE/POSSIBLE. He doesn't even know her surname!

And yeah, it got so retarded that me and Ruixing kept looking at each other while giving the "=.= this is lame" look. Including the *roll eyes and stick out tongue* look that Gwendolyn Neo can do awesomely! *grins*

Then Ruixing went "If he has BoA's number, I slept with Michael Jackson before." no link at all but I find it so hiliarious! Lianyi was sleeping so CME without Ruixing and Jon Ha making fun of stuffs / me would have been fairly boring.


Had some prep talk for interschools tomorrow during PT. Watched the guys play a "no rule" soccer round before PT with sec5 Daryl's classmates and it literally sent me ROFL-ing when Joseph did the header and the ball ended up in his own goal. HAHA.

I finally got to play Dota today! Which is, simply enthralling- NOT.





I CANNOT BELIEVE GERMANY LOST FOR THE UEFA EURO 2008!!
MY BELOVED!
TO SPAIN!
1-0 SOMEMORE. Ballack you disappointed me.


Oh well, nevertheless I still wanna save up faster to get that Germany home jersey!

But my heart just aches when I think of Germany losing. :(


My parents are just total jerks.

Now that their precious Gerald's not home for them to care for, their attention has suddenly turned to me. When I wasn't home by 6 today, my dad called me asking where I was and all the crap.

And I usually disappear on Mondays till after dinner, they should know. This is the first time in like, 2 years that they called me when I wasn't home before dinner.

Or maybe they were paying too much attention to their precious son while I was just invisible. Suddenly the daughter who's always locked up in her room has her peace disrupted.

GERALD NEO JIN KAI, YOU BETTER COME HOME FROM CAMP ASAP.

And its like, my mom called me 4 times when I wasn't home by 9. I fucking told dad I'd be home before my curfew! Like omg. Yeah, so now that their son isn't home they ACTUALLY BOTHER to care for their daughter?


Total bull.

I hate my parents. They should just effing leave me alone to die or something.


Good luck to the juniors tomorrow for interschools!
All the best lovelys!



Nah, you won't understand a thing about how I felt.
Anyways, hello again, friend. [:

Sunday, June 29, 2008

thanks a lot Bryan.. =.=

Edmund Hillary appeared on the $5 NZ banknote, making him the only New Zealander to appear on a banknote during his/her lifetime. says:
juz a reminder... to spoil de final portion of ur lovely weekend...

gwen i am. ♥ a sardonic stare, screaming epithets. says:
?

gwen i am. ♥ a sardonic stare, screaming epithets. says:
what thing

gwen i am. ♥ a sardonic stare, screaming epithets. says:
llol

Edmund Hillary appeared on the $5 NZ banknote, making him the only New Zealander to appear on a banknote during his/her lifetime. says:
"bile dun digest fats, dey break it down to increase de surface area to vol. ratio"

gwen i am. ♥ a sardonic stare, screaming epithets. says:
AHHHHH

gwen i am. ♥ a sardonic stare, screaming epithets. says:
the presentation!

gwen i am. ♥ a sardonic stare, screaming epithets. says:
okay we'll work on it tomorrow


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*sigh* You really spoiled the remains of my lovely weekend, Bryan. LOL. Now I'm thinking of funny ways to make our Bio presentation rememberable since Ms Dai told us she wants each group's presentation to be in a way it can make everyone remember.

Lightning's flashing really brightly behind me. Its kinda scaring me. Cuz the light reflects on the cupboard in my room. Amazingly bright! Hahaa.

Remembered how I used to scream at night and jump from thunderstorms.


OH WELL!
I'm off to bathe and then study now.

The weather's getting colder.

Yum.

SOMEONE SEND ME PATAPON!

Someone download/send me Patapon for PSP!
I downloaded it, but its not working on my PSP. Ugh.


Hip hop today was picture-filled!


Crystal, my oh-so-cute instructor.

:P better than Maqrius. OKAY JOKING.

Crystal made us practice controlling today! Omg. Killer I tell you.

Her shoes have those diff colored stuffs you can clip on for color, and she made us put it on our hands and legs. Then we had to do stuffs like chest pops or whatever without dropping the things.

Stupid Bettina didn't dance today so she had all the fun watching me and Pam suffer.

*roars*

Hahaa. But thats cuz she got hit in her eye by a soccer ball, so she can't jump around too much just incase her whatever ditaches.


And today we played this game- Crystal bought these sour strawberry sweets for us to eat. And apparently I'm so prone to sour stuffs my face literally cringes the moment I eat the sweet.

So at the end of the class we each had to eat 3 at one go and see whose face cringes up first.

Guess whose face cringed up first?
.
.
.
.


MINE.

(kinda expected, yes?)



My crazy hair after lessons when I untied my hair.

I'm so in love with Bettina's hat. (sings)

Bettina bought for me a blank hat from Hongkong! YAY!

Thanks yo. *heartshape*


Hip hop people. Plus Pris and CY kor.


Stupid person who clicked with me from day one. *grins*

Stayed back and carried on freestyling while Bettina carried on doing her choreo. Oh, guess what, Maqrius actually asked us girls to do a performance! He asked Crystal, and she told him we weren't ready.

Oh well, thats kinda true. I need to practice controlling. Hahaa.

Couldn't decide on whether to take bus or MRT, but it got so hot I just didn't care and decided to take the MRT home.


My brother's going for camp.

HAHAHA HOPE HE SUFFERS THERE. :P

Gogo Gerald! Haha.

I think its at Sarimbun campsite, the one I went to for pri5 camp and sec2 camp. Oh boy, I miss that place so much! Haha.



Obsession's kicking.
I'm gonna continue pretending I'm nonchalent about this.

When paranoidia kicks in-

Went out with Ker yesterday.

Its been so long since we last talked or anything, so it was good to go out with her again. But I kinda got sleepy by 5pm. Hahaa. So I guess I must've been a bore to go out with.

I want those clothes she picked out for me from Dano!

(no money.. *frowns*)


Watched my family have dinner at the Queenstown hawker center, then went to ahpeh's place to visit my gran.
She looks much better now! *grins* thank God.

See who I caught in the pool in the backyard!
(okay this will be a post flooded with pictures of my cousins.)


Jiaying.

Jiaxuan.

Jiawen copied Jiaxuan. LOL cute.


Wen Xuan Ying.




LOL after Jiaxuan saw this pic and realised the swimming cap left a red line on her head, she started covering it everytime I took a photo.


See what I meant? She's covering her head. Hahaa.



I absolutely adore this photo of the two twins.

Gwen = didn't bring extra clothes = cannot swim = only legs can go in water.

*grunts*


My gung ho brother has extra clothings so he could swim.







Lao gim came over with a huuuuge bucket of koropoks..

And ahpeh's gots the durians.

Me and Timothy ate two each. *grins*

Gung ho dad of mine opening it with his hands...

.. and he ended up using the spoon to eat the durian.

Watched a bit of LOTR on tele upstairs and went to the room to watch the kiddos.

Timothy was teaching Jiaying how to play softball. Haha. Obviously it failed! Maybe next time I should tell her to try sailing. Teehee.

Yingying (I'm the only one in the family who calls them "xuanxuan" "wenwen" or "yingying" =.=) got so distracted by the com. So it ended up with me and Timothy playing volleyball with the ball. Haha.

He kept restarting the score! So it ended up with 13 all. Sigh. But he played with one hand. Dang.


Mel and Amanda came so we watched some Loco Roco vids on youtube and Pata Pon vids.

Omg absolutely cute games. I want them on my PSP! :o

No wonder Justin Ong (my junior) liked Pata Pon and was telling me and Quin about it the other day after training/washing boat/whatever. CUZ ITS REALLY CUTE!


Stayed there till about 1 plus with Mel. Amanda went back first already. Ahpeh's tv room sofa is so nice so sleep on! I'm telling you. Hahaa.

Homed and immediately fell asleep after changing out and washing my face.

I've not read Eclipse for a while now. :(
Oh well, I'll go read it soon later. *grins*

Friday, June 27, 2008

Pick me up-

HAAAAAAAVE you met my new best friend?



Weiming found the little buddy out at sea last training, and gave it to Wenfeng.

I finally got my hands on it today. Its so fun, looking after it while washing boats and all.

But I started talking to it. Inanimate objects, you know..
So I decided to stop holding it first.. just in case it starts talking back.

I think I'm going crazy.

Elmo's going to be following me to school on Monday. Its so unique its orange in the front and red at the back. How interesting, yes?


School.. nothing much.

____ came back since there was no musical rehearsals today. My mood immediately fell to chagrin again.

Its so disappointing, but oh well, enthralling as it lasted.


Double Sciences today, killed my shoulders.

Chem was okay, I managed to do the ionic equation for the pop quiz. Supposed to conduct experiments, turns out there wasn't enough time cuz he spent such a long time explaining ionic equations and doing the chapter7 pop quiz.


Stayed back to teach some guides the choreo. I had an epiphany- and it turns out I'm a bad hip hop teacher! Its just so amazingly awkward being around them, besides Aishah and Lianyi.

Washed boats at NSC!

I'm using MOE B10. The one Justin uses.

I realised he's not doing a real good job at keeping his boat clean and whatsoever. If we were still talking, I'd get him to thank me. No need to thank Aaron J. cuz I was "your highness" for a day.

Chuckles.

Its like as I scrubbed the boat I told him to make sure he scrubbed, and I kept ordering him to scrub harder and to make sure all the black stains were gone. Hahahaa thanks Aaron J.!

Sharing sail SIN870 with Zac Lim.

Thanks Ning for half a padded hiking strap! *grins*


Had dinner at KFC with juniors, David, Iggy, Weiming and Mubarak.

Didn't have money, and didn't want to eat tho I was starving. Till David, Chiaee and Daomin surrounded me with their food and kept tempting me into borrowing money from Chiaee.

She even wanted to treat me! I was like omg nooooo cuz I'd feel guilty.

Went to AMK Hub cuz Weiming and Iggy wanted to buy their G2000 shirts.


I SWEAR- GUYS CAN SHOP LONGER THAN GIRLS!!!
And they only browsed one measly shop!!

Me and juniors Daomin, Chiaee and Joey went walking around that level, and back to sit down and wait for them.

And they weren't done. =.=

Went in to find them, and they were telling me the shirt Weiming tried made him look super shuai in it. So I was like lol woah cuz he went to withdraw money to get it. Pants too.


I hate my parents for however way they're treating me now.
You insult my sailing friends, you insult me.
What's with saying they got bad behaviour just cuz they 'lounge around'?

Thats so effing retarded, yes?

Gawd.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

I promised you a heart you promised to keep-

Seriously beat.

Training today... sigh. Now I know what it feels like to almost faint out at sea. Its like my body was falling off the boat and my boat was gonna capsize. Seeing black spots freaks me out now.

See what I said when my headaches aren't meant to be taken lightly?

School was.. fun.

Sometimes, the 'sarcasm intended' thing just can't work too often. Cuz today I was happy. Really, really shocked AND happy.

... thanks ;D


And half the class was gone due to the musical rehearsal! *sad face*

No noisy Jiaqi to perk me up again. Gags. Hahahaa. Oh well, it was alright. None of the teachers really allowed us to slack, anyways. (frowns)

But I'm really Ms Martin more. She's a fab literature teacher.

BUT I'M HAPPY I'M STILL 3ENDEAVOUR'S LITERATURE REP!

Almost late for school, and I got minor offence for forgetting to bring the Chinese jian tie (Lee laoshi's like f**king bias. She didn't give the boys MORF for that, but instead gave all the girls).

My perfect record!!!


Ruixing pointed out to me during SS that Mdm Shanti has a folder on her laptop called "Teachable Moments". And it got me chuckling, cuz its interesting.

And for one fact, I can't see the words on the screen at all!

(People who wear specs really have got the advantage.)

And oh, Ruixing and Jon Ha's answers for the literature self-reflection thing were really funny to read. I was like, looking at Ruixing with my jaw dropped, literally. Monkey. Haha.


Almost felt like punching ****(ass) today while David, Iggy and Iggy's friend Iggy -- no I'm not insane. He HAS a friend called Iggy too -- had dinner.

Such a sucker. Who'd you think you are? Pedo.. its like, you don't know how insulting your words were to all my darling juniors during the holidays. Telling them to give up their lives just because they give up on/cannot run?

Thats total bull.

Sarcasm doesn't hit me hard. Not that hard, anyways..


Time for dinner! Tata!

Prelude 12/21
>AFI

This is what I brought you this you can keep,
This is what I brought
you
may forget me.
I promise to depart just promise one thing,
Kiss my
eyes and lay me to sleep.

This is what I brought you this you can
keep,
This is what I brought you may forget me.
I promise you my heart
just
promise to sing,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Kiss my
eyes and
lay me to sleep.

This is what I thought,
I thought you
need me,
This is what I thought so think me naïve,
I promise you a heart
you'd
promise to keep,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Kiss my
eyes and
lay me to sleep.

Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Gawd.
Trying to remember was so hard.
Reading and reading.. screaming and screaming..
If I hadn't stiffled my screams my family would have thought I was hysterical.
Yet I carried on reading.. despite the fact my hands were trembling.
I don't want to lose sight of the light,
Not now when I've lost much already.
That invisible hole in my chest hurts everytime I think about it.
It hurts so badly whenever I do.
I didn't even want to eat.
When mom came in to suggest a whole list of things I could have as dinner I just continued staring at the screen as I carried on mumbling no.
These memories- I just don't wanna lose them, don't wanna let them go.
I'm tired of pretending,
Too tired.

..When will I ever swim far enough to surface from the dark waters
I've been trapped so long under?

Baby, I know.

I'm trying to keep it together-
but I'm falling apart.


Hearts all over the world tonight need cheering up!
Cheer up David and Yokeching lover.

Back to happier matters, yes? *grins*

Okay, maybe this isn't happier. But common tests are coming closer and closer.

It was stated there Aug 12th-15th were the common tests.. I've got exactly 47 days and 3 hours to mug and study.


Oh, I had detention today!!!!!! *grunts*

Omg, I almost killed myself. I was like.. MY RECORD!

Its the second time in my whole Mayflowerian life that I've got detention. And why?

OM Han thought I didn't tuck in my shirts! Just because the corners were hanging loosely!! GAWD! Doesn't that just make your blood boil. If you were caught for something that you did right, I meant.

And David got caught for not throwing away his bottled drink. *grunts*

Lunched with David and Quin. When I told David to stay and wait for me and Quin to get our food, I rushed off to Q-Bread to get him a slice of birthday cake and a doughnut to make up for the be-earlied birthday celebration I missed.

At least he liked them. Haha.

Saw Yeshen and Desmond while getting my food! Got my rice and suddenly Yeshen went "Gwen.." and I whipped my head around, slipping in the process and almost toppling over my food in the tray. Embarassing much..

Desmond still remembers my name! Tho I've not talked much to him during the times I was still a faithful Christian in Y-Hope Church.


Bought stuffs at Popular, and finally, a new pen! *momentarial smirk*

Gawd, I've become really animated and full of expressions recently, haven't I?

They came to my house after that, so that David could work on his Twilight recommendation. STINKY FEET! Hahahaaaa.


Anyway, something Kerrie said to me today really cheered me up and made me smile like anything. I miss you too Ker! Gosh, I can't believe how long its been.


School today.. was okay. Except Ms Linda Yeo cried in symphaty for my class, saying something like we were pathetic. Well, no thanks to Mr Tang. He totally wasted my time as a Literature rep!

Its like we're all happy he's gone.

Do we only connect with subjects like that?

It felt nice when we talked again, tho. School's been awkward ever since it reopened cuz it was freaking quiet. Haha. I'm not meant to be disappointed. Haha.

But thanks, those few words of momentarial discussion were.. nice.

(grins)


Anyway, guess what!

I'm going to shower after talking somemore to Yokeching, and then finish up my homework.

Its just even amazing for me to have such thoughts.. *smirks*

A sardonic stare. Screaming epithets.

I'm done reading New Moon! The ending was fab, especially where (WARNING: MAJOR SPOILER!) Edward proposes to Bella.

Isn't it cute. Like imagine yourself getting engaged at 18.

Woah.

I've learnt a lot of new and cheem words from the last few chapters, too. And I only bothered looking them up cuz I was infront of the computer. Hence there were loads of tabs opened (at least 7 on each Firefox browser) and loads of new words jotted down on my students' diary!

And I'm feeling.. smug about it. LOL.

Anyway, this means I can happily move on to reading Eclipse! *happy face*

I WANT THE NECKLACE/RING VERSION OF THE CULLEN CREST! *pouts*


Didn't go to school today. Woke up with gastrics so bad that I couldn't stand upright. So after resting longer on the sofa I told my mom and she let me skip school for the day.

Btw, its now 12:02am on my clocks, so...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY D.H.L.! (David Hartanto Lembono)
You know we love you much. Hahaha.

One year older already, yes? *grins*

I owe you a present since you got me my Eclipse. Tho its a super be-earlied Christmas present. Hahaha.

I'm eagerly awaiting the arrival of Breaking Dawn!

AND I'M GOING TO GET THE HARDCOVER VERSION OF IT -- NO ONE'S STOPPING ME!


Wait, I'm having an epiphany here..
You love me.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008