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Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Mm

I hope you're doing well.

I'm sorry I wasn't around much, but I'm trying.

I'm sorry about how I'm always sorry, if that even makes sense.

Crap, I'm turning into Gil Ra Im from Secret Garden.


p.s. A glimpse of my Skype IM convo with Min. This is why I love Shermin Sim, thank you bbg haha for making me cry in the weirdest of situations (due to your nonsense).

Me: i feel bad sia
Me: cuz its like
Shermin: why not b omg
Me: i have this thing where i don't like being happy around my friends who aren't
Me: like rubbing my happiness in their faces
Shermin: i am like so happy
Shermin: whenever
Shermin: you tell me things
Shermin: DON'T BE AFRAID TO TELL ME OKAY
Shermin: cause it actually makes me happy more than anything
Me: wow
Me: you know you just made me tear
Shermin: gwen rt if u cryed
Me: RT
Me: RTRTRT
Me: crying now
Shermin: HAHAHAHAHAH
Shermin: gwen pls. rt if u cryed

-A while later..-

Shermin: SIDETRACK
Shermin: Tambi: dei u kno mikrosoft ofice
Shermin: Anjek: no dei but if u gif mi teh adres I can find 4 u da
Shermin: Tambi: anjek y u do dis
Shermin: Rt if u cride everitiem

................. and this, ladies and gentlemen, is my friend for you.

Monday, May 20, 2013

Did (Not)

I don't know what to feel.

Just saw the results and I don't know.. I really don't.

Sigh what is wrong with me.

I don't even understand what the hell's going through my head right now. It's a mixture of relief and regret but for now the emotion that hits me most is most definitely regret.

The best part's that I didn't even try. I didn't even bother giving it a shot. Told myself from the start that I would regret it if I got in, but now I regret not even trying so bad.

This is prolly why I always try out for anything and everything without questioning myself.. and the one time I did /not/ try is the one time I finally understand why I always have the "Just go je! Do only je! Try je!" attitude.

Gotta keep my motto in mind: Everything happens for a reason.

It's too late to regret now anyways. I was dumb enough not to give it a shot, totally passed the opportunity up.

Ah well, there's always next year.

All the best to the team! Will be rooting from the sidelines.

At least the start of June has a possibility of being fun, what with the hotel stay with some of my batch's sailors, and Paul – happy graduation! – finally found time to jio me out for L4D yayyyy gonna shoot all those zombies in da head and get the frustration I have at myself done and over with. Herey, herey! Calling all who play L4D and not feel that it's a girl's game! 2 more slots left (to join us)!

And tomorrow I'm gonna see Ryan Higa at the YouTube Fan Fest! Thank you Sicafaise for asking me along even though you won the tix! Love you to the moon and back bbgurl!

I finally saw the 2013 Hip Hop audition video Richard made and even though I spot myself a lot (downside of being one of the few helpers is that you get filmed quite a bit), boy am I proud. The video's so good! Defo chose the right guy to take over my role.


Fell asleep too many times while I was out with the Legency girls earlier.

Left school early only to head straight to SGH.

I even fell asleep during the FYP briefing with SingHealth while we were at SGH.. my actual clients oh God. Thank goodness the other groups were there too but I was in the guy's line of sight sigh.

Steffi took another photo of me sleeping and I finally decided to collate my sleeping photos from just my groupmates alone. Steffi sent me at least 9 photos of me sleeping either in school or while I'm out with her.

Posted a collage of some of the photos and it has almost 60 likes on Instagram eh HELLO GUYS WHY Y'ALL LIKE MY UNGLAMNESS SO MUCH.

I think I'm known as the girl who always falls asleep during Agency mass lecture from last year hahaha oh well I'm sorry that I get really sleepy when the airconditioning's too cold.

Man.. so much to do, too little time.

Gwen, now's not the time to be all OCD and perfectionist all.

Terribly demotivated now.. and a bit feverish.

Till next time.

xx

Friday, May 17, 2013

I am Happy(er)

When life gives you lemons and unnecessary stress, dance it out.

When dancing gives you lemons and unnecessary stress, join an outside studio recital for the first time and feel free for once while dancing.

I missed the joy and freedom I used to feel while dancing, and how I used to laugh off my mistakes instead of stressing over them.

But I felt and did the opposite today.

Looking forward to every week's Recognize Studios Recital (girls' hip hop) training. 9.30pm-11.30pm may be late but what is sleep when I get to truly enjoy what I love doing again?

Finding someone who genuinely cares about and wants to improve your welfare as a dancer makes a lot of difference, so thank you Chun. My legs still burn from all that stretching but hey I now realize I can actually split with my right leg infront too! 

I CAN SPLIT BOTH WAYS NOW MUAHAHAHA CAN YOU FEEL MY EXCITEMENT I AM TYPING IN CAPS. Must've been from all the stretching AnAn used to do with us. Wait till I train my center split... I will brag like crazy then.

Training for standing splits too but okay, one side at a time Gwen.

I might have a sprained shoulder + burning knees right now from today's waacking session, but it was worth it. Thinking this way – how the pain's actually worth it – was actually how I was like when I was so 'on' about dance. I could have a sprained ankle, almost-faint and yet still find the willpower to carry on.

Please save September 13th and come watch R! Recital Vol. 2.

Things/people that make me happy: Chocolate, chocolate, chocolate, macarons, dance, sleep, games, family, friends.. and now my fellow girls' hip hop item people 

That is all.


p.s. Whoever has been on my ask.fm, giving me advice about my knee and telling me you know how it's like dancing with a bad knee, I may not know you, but thank you :)

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Rant

I have no idea what the hell is up with me.

Been blogging here a lot recently.. kinda realised that writing here feels kinda therapeutic. To write and think about anything, anything else – that's honestly all I need right now.

People keep asking what's up, what's wrong, etcetera.

The best part? I feel as if I can't talk to anyone about this because I know some will never understand how I feel, while the others would just judge.

I just.. need a break.

Or I just need to stop doing things for the sake of others/pleasing them. I'm so drained but I continue on how??

I sometimes wish this were still the holiday period. Could just coup myself up at home playing games, reading, sleeping, watching movies/shows..


Or play with Baby M. She never fails to make my day and I was really happy that I got to see her when I went to my grantaunt's for dinner. She was sitting snuggly in my lap when I told her to press my camera button herself, and she did!

Well this smart girl can even go around 'taking orders' for coffee from my older relatives at the dinner table, asking, "Total how many people?" and asking how many want coffee only to scream to the maid in the kitchen, "10 COFFEE!!" even if there were only like 5 adults at the table.

So okay hi I'm back.

I've always snapped people out of shit, why can't someone just be straightforward with me and tell me to snap out of this nonsense? It's been going on for too long, and for once I've hit my own limit. I can't be smiling 24/7.

Y'all always think I'm some happy person, always smiling, cracking jokes, making a huge fool out of myself.. But the hardest I've laughed since a few months back was when Arynah showed me the faceswaps she did on that app today.

I miss laughing so heartily.. genuinely? Could do that for 15mins straight in the past (Mdm Suhailah's English class in sec 4, I still remember. Just cuz she said "ahpunehneh").

God I miss being in secondary school.. everything was a lot easier back then.

:'(


Oh well.

Was quite bummed out that I couldn't send dad to the airport today but the bro did! My mom refused to go cuz she didn't want to stand there crying again.

I heard my dad telling her when she went off to work, "Aiyoh gia la gia la, ho la." ("Aiyah just go la go la can one la.")

I went out of my room asking him what that was all about, and he said my mom was crying when she went into the lift.. :'( my parents are such a loving pair that I find myself wanting to marry someone who would be just as sweet as my dad or love me as much as my dad loves my mom.

Silly, huh?

Then again I guess the relationship between your parents indirectly affects the kind of relationship you would have/allow yourself to have.

Spent my day with The Legency girls + guy (hehe sorry Glenn you know I love you bro) talking cock, joking around, trying out faceswaps (Ms Wang – Media Law lecturer for those who've forgotten – took my face, Arynah and her bf taking each other's faces.. priceless!), eating Arynah's cupcakes, watching Shinhwa's tour clips with Steffi..

..and working on our FYP. Hehe.

I'm glad we're almost there, and we have a month to spare to touch up and add on more research and analysis. Hate how we're doing it on organ transplant awareness though.

I have so much to do in terms of visuals and I'm running out of ideas which is really sad?

Oh yes thanks Aruah sayang for the cupcakes! Hehe she always gives me this face when I call her Aruah, like how I call Jessica 'Sicafaise' and Steffi 'Stoof de Doof'.

In my defense I have a lot more nicknames given to me this year alone than all the nicknames I've given them combined over the past 2-3 years.

Monday Steffi started calling me "Gwon" (prolly cuz I always try to say simple Korean phrases in the UGLIEST slang anyone's ever heard). Peemeelee heard and started calling me "Igwona".


Brought Stoof's Wacom Bamboo tablet home to draw graphics out for the vodcast's opening sequence! It's gonna be gooooood hehe looking forward to it. I would love to get a tablet after I start working again.

I think I'm gonna die a horrible death. I have to work with After Effects for both FYP and Space Media when I'm still horrible at it.

Wish I could rely 100% on just Photoshop and Premiere Pro instead.. but oh well.

Time to get started cuz I've been procrastinating like crazy.

(Though.. to be honest I think I'll continue sitting here, rotting away.)


Hi and bye from Gwendee and Sicafaise!

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

想当年2。。。

So I came home today and unpacked everything from my bag only to notice this..

No extra points for guessing what my favourite colour is!

I still have my red pouch from my mom and extra red notebook from Joey (for Christmas! Think I've yet to properly thank you so Joeyeyey if you ever see this – thank you! And I miss you and your face that are now in Aussie boo....).

Tried to clear some stuff and while looking through my folders I found lots of old photos. Just had to post these up:



I looked so derpy (but cute) with my short hair + center parting.

Still remember how we took these during our field trip to Little India in pri 6.. some of the best times of my life thus far.

Ironically, Rachel P. and I hated each other back then. The silliest argument we had – so silly I still vividly remember it now – was when we had some sort of a free period? It started like this if I remember correctly:

Me: YOU STUPID PREFECT!!!
Rachie: YOU THEN STUPID LA.

And we continued hurling stuff like that each other while squatted around a table (I think we were discussing class work or something with one of our classmates.. might've been Cel). So the person seated at the table was all "o_o" at us haha.

Rachel has no recollection of the argument whatsoever though.

Some best friend huh?


But all's well.. hehehe Cel and her lion hair.

I really miss the both of them. We have a Whatsapp chat group that we hardly use now cuz we're all so busy just being in SP/NUS – both my bestfriends are smart. Hurry back from New York with our Princeton University tees Rachie! :>

"Yeah I got into Princeton University.....

.. to sightsee."

That's my bestfriend for you. Think I know where I got my errrrrrrrr ok moments from.

Since I have nothing better to do, I shall revise what we've learnt last year in Design Thinking/The Agency since my group was working on it today for FYP:

PERSONA

GUILTY GWEN

Age: 20 (boy am I old)
Education: Student of Diploma in Media and Communications (DMC) in SP
Allowance: $80/week

LIKES:
  • Dancing
  • Reading
  • Aesthetically pleasing things
  • Photography + Videography
  • Hands-on learning
  • Having personal time
  • Hanging out with friends
  • Playing games
  • Sappy dramas
  • Being free
  • Slacking at home

DISLIKES
  • Morning commute to school
  • Ugly powerpoint slides
  • The fact she hasn't signed up for BTT
  • Theory-based learning
  • Being too busy
  • Lack of sleep
  • Sloppiness
  • Last minute arrangements
  • Being constrained
  • Camping in school for projects
  • Having too much to worry about

Need Statement:

"I need to not be late for Monday's FYP classes."

Okay jokes aside, I really need to find a way to be on time for Laura's Monday FYP tutorials. I think she has this impression that I am #foreverlate cuz last year when she took over for Ms Sherin, never once was I on time.

I think it's the Curse of Ms Laura. I've improved a lot in terms of reaching before the 15min grace period when Sherin was still teaching us SOCM!

MUST. BE. ON. TIME.

I think she only marked me present for our first FYP tutorial. Other than that I've always ran in after the 15-minute mark so she always marks me absent. Sighpie. Technically I can't "skip" anymore Monday classes without MC cuz I've already used up my 25% attendance?

Ah well.


Can't wait to see The Legency on Wednesday at Steffi's for group discussion cuz Stoofee De Doofee bought cupcakes from Spatula Bakery while her Writing Lab group was there to conduct the interview with the owner!

Hehehe she got me the Milo Dinosaur one (knowing my love for chocolate).

And Aruah (Arynah) baked/got(?) us pretty cupcakes too from yesterday! I LOVE MY GROUPMATES HEHEHE.

The day they get me a box of macarons will be the day I officially declare my love for them and their haram-ness. Tak halal ah sia babi!

Shall bake soon, but I can't figure out what to try.

Maybe I should work on my frosting skills again? But frosting's a bitch to play with really.

Here's my annoying face before I head to watch K-On and hopefully fall asleep while doing so.


Ah well. Goodnight from my stuffed toy dog and I!


p.s. WATCH THIS!! Steffi and I couldn't get enough of it.


I LOVE YOU LITTLE MIX

Friday, May 10, 2013

The Very Best





So I just saw these photos on Facebook from Edward's album.

"The very last sailing inter-school for MF"

Looking at the photos of the juniors placing their medals on Jhing.. heh I don't even know how to describe how I feel right now.

I really miss her. She was honestly the best coach ever out of the 2-3 coaches my batch had. Can't believe she still contacts my batch to go down and help officiate the regattas (and we get paid, yay).


SIN442 guys! Old sail, old sail hehe


Gotta love this photo of Jack and Justin helping pull a boat back to the wash point. I miss the sails I used for interschools!


Did a photoshoot with my practicum groupmates today for the visuals of our video podcast CA1.


Once again, surviving a long day on 3 hours of sleep!

(The fact that I came to school with my dress on backwards prolly proves that I lack sleep. But whatever biatchez I am cool like that hurhur.)

Dad sent me to school today though. His first day back in Singapore and he's already back to his old routine of sending my brother and I to school. Really glad that he's back for the week!



P A L E T T E  P R O D U C T I O N S 2013

Hamka: "Do you know why people urinate in private?"
Arynah and I: "No, why?"
Hamka: "Cuz urin-secure, don't know what for!"

I can gladly announce that I have found someone as lame as I am.

C'mon people, match my sense of humour HAHAHA.

And now I'm actually contemplating going for the blood donation that the SP Red Cross has on today. 

I'm absolutely terrified of/abhor needles though so I'll just sit here and freeze to death instead while waiting for my classmates to be done with their individual group discussions. Then I won't have to put myself through the horror of thinking about the whole thing (I'm such a weakling ugh).

Yeap.. that sounds like a good idea.

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

YES!!!!!


I MADE IT

I. MADE. IT!!!!

*does a little happy dance in room*

Well I did mention on Sunday that I would come here to brag if the results were satisfactory.

So hello Recognize Studios Recital Vol. 2, girls' hip hop item!


When I got G48 as my audition number I had a hunch that I would make it somehow, or that my day would go well. It's stupid, I know, but there's just something special about seeing my favourite number during important moments. I guess I really love/am fated with the number 48?


I mean, look at what number I got for last year's Waves auditions!

It's fate I tell ye!


On Monday I was helping out with the hip hop auditions (300+ people signed up wow I can't even find the word to describe how exhausted we were) and Geisel suddenly came to me in the middle of it to share the good news cuz she got in for the reggae item.

We were just standing there infront of all the people auditioning, squealing (in our usual oh-we're-in-our-own-world fashion) and hugging.


On the downside, aku was down with fever from Monday night.

Haven't felt so shitty in a while, but I guess I deserve it. With all the late nights and stress, t's no wonder I gained 2kg since school reopened. My body definitely reacts to bad treatment 'well'.

Guess Monday was the trigger point. 

Here's how my crazy day went (if y'all even bother):

Went to school on 3hrs of sleep. After class, The Legency had FYP discussion from 11-1pm before consultation with Ms Laura. Had lunch and caught Shinhwa's SNL Korea skits with Steffi (hehehe) before sleeping for like, 10mins in The Agency. THEN I had SPACE Media CA1 discussions with my group from 3-5 before heading off to meet some of my batchmates to learn the choreo from AnAn for the hip hop auditions till 6.30pm.

After that the first batch of auditionees came in and we taught, and taught, and taught, and taught..

And danced, and danced, and danced, and danced...... till the last batch which came in at about 9pm?

As if that wasn't a hectic enough day, my batch then had AGM training till 11pm WITHOUT STOPPING. We were all dying (especially those who helped with ze auditions), starving and whatnot. 

The moment I got off 74 and trudged back home.. I totally felt like I was gonna collapse. Then I found out I had fever so yay me!

I really do deserve a slap cuz I even went to school today for performance rehearsals.

Sigh.

Oh well, after AGM on the 15th I solemnly swear to get some rest.. or not. That's when FYP will be crazy for me so yeah here we go again.

Gotta be up in 4 hours to go for another round of rehearsals before our performance for DMC Connect 2013, so g'night folks!

Sunday, May 05, 2013

Team Mayflower Sailing

Hi all!

Did something for the first time in my life today. Can't believe how nervous I was. I even blanked out ugh but I hope everything was.. okay?

Tomorrow. 7pm. The most crucial moment in my life thus far.

Gonna check and check and check and pray that we've made it! Went there half-hearted and not even anywhere near serious, but the moment I set the ball rolling I felt like I wanted to follow through and boy am I extremely determined to! Only when the results are satisfactory will I come here and brag about it hehehe.

And we have 300+ people auditioning for SDZ's Hip Hop side tomorrow, and I'm one of those helping out from my batch. Oh boy, it's gonna be a tiring day with training before and after the auditions.

I'm back to the Wave-period days. Felt extremely exhausted all the time.

Sha asked me about my knees today, told how he used to run marathons on top of dancing and one day his knee busted after a marathon. He ended up being hospitalized for 2 months :( I don't want to get to that stage with my knees :(:(:( I promise to stop jogging ok?

Laoma told me the only way it'll be okay again is to completely rest, then she thought about it for a while and said, "But actually as dancers we all know we will never actually get that rest la hor." to which Sha agreed.

So okay..

A little warning: This is a really long-ass post dedicated to my CCA in secondary school.

Since MFSS Sailing has closed down I decided that I should prolly write about it. As much as most of us are all hurt that the sailing team is now.. gone, I was just thinking about how much there is to be proud of.

For one, it has shaped me to be who I am now.

And I. Regret. NOTHING!


So I recently had a reunion with some of the Mayflower sailors.


T'was so good to see Mrs Sidhu again (green)!

These guys were my first bros, the first people to protect me like a little sister (my batch did, at least. Well hey we only had 2 girls), the people that taught me to cuss, the first people to actually physically fight infront of me, who mocked my soccer skills, who ran by my side during sailing PT when my fitness and health were damn shitty..






These people were my first 2nd family :')

It felt amazing seeing them all once again. As we gathered around the bar and talked (as I, in my usual unglam-ness, sat on the bar's counter by the sink like a boss), it was obvious we all missed our sec1-4 days. Especially those from my batch.

It's amazing how fast time flies by cuz the guys spent most of their time talking about the army, while the females talked girly stuff and how we all thought of signing on to the army.

I knew it. 

Sailing females are prolly some of the females in Singapore who would wanna sign on and I have no idea why. Are we that gungho??! I know we get tough from all the physical training, carrying our heavy, water-filled boats back up to shore, putting them on racks taller than ourselves and being out at sea for 5-6 hours every time.. BUT STILL.



Guys, a byte (the class of dinghy I sail) weighs roughly 45kg when it's empty.

Add on the sail, mast, daggerboard, tiller and tiller extension, ropes and oooooh let's not forget the seawater that the boat loves to collect in the hull while out at sea, it'll prolly be 51kg or so by the time we come back to shore.

So yeah we are tuff alright :)

We used to love the fact that in MFSS, it was only the sailing females would do proper pushups and not girl pushups during stuff like.. say, PE. Thanks to Mrs Sidhu who made sure that the guys and girls got equal treatment in terms of physical training. I remember how I felt when we had our first PT and she told us that sailors weren't allowed to do the female style pushups.


Look at Nic Wong and David doing pullups after coming back to school from NSC. Think this was from the 2008 June sailing camp.

The scene one would see after the bus reaches school at 7.30pm from a typical day of training out at sea would be:

1) Sailors grab bags, barang barang, sails etc. and run out of bus
2) Sailors drop bags by the pond at the foyer and sprint to the fitness corner (sailors love sprinting)
3) Guys start doing their pullups, while girls partner up to do 20 assisted pullups each and at least attempt 2-3 unassisted pullups
4) When done sailors will sit at the parade square and wait for the remaining sailors to be done with theirs
5) Teachers i/c would make us do after-sailing-PT and we would make so much noise as we all went "DOWN! ONE. DOWN! TWO. DOWN! THREE." like some uniform group.


I remember how David once tried to be funny by being weatherman while we were on the way to NSC from school and they predicted that it would rain and/or have no wind.

Ms Cheng said that if it came true he would owe her pumping, and true enough when we got to NSC the flags there weren't moving at all! Plus there was a storm while we were out at sea, so he owed her 240 pumpings hahaha.

And how we once owed the 'chers 200+ too for being late + rigging up our boats really slowly. We were supposed to launch by 2pm or so but most of us only got our boats in the water by 3 or so. When we got to school Ms Cheng made us sprint and counted, for every second we had to do 10 extra pumpings T_T

Think the last person took almost 6 seconds to reach the fitness corner ugh.

Our arms died that day, like we had to break it up into sets of 60.

(Speaking of which, I can't even do 60 in one shot now)

Okay there's too much to share so here's a quick trip down memory lane.

Anyone remembers what seems to be THE worst 'buang' case in MFSS sailing history?


This.

Goodness I remember how this would've cost him a horrifying $700 or so to repair right? It was as long as his forearm and we could see (and smell) the inside of the hull. Wonder how his boat didn't sink, and  he must've had a fun time sitting there draining his boat. We used to say stuff like, "My boat's peeing la." whenever we emptied our boat after removing the bung.

It's as if the bung doesn't help cuz in the end the hull still collects a shitload of water and makes our boats damn heavy.




And how we had to study together at night during camp as our teachers in-charge always emphasized on how we had to excel in both our studies and in sailing?


Farhana took this photo of us during camp. I'm right at the other end in blue HAHAHA. 

This was prolly 1/3 of the girls (guys always slept in the classrooms). It's no wonder they changed the recruiting system for sec ones so that we could get more females in.



And how we always took part in dragonboat regattas every year?

Majority of the girls in the photo aren't actually sailors. We didn't have enough females to send out, so Mrs Sidhu had to recruit some people from other CCAs.


Best part was that we won something almost every year so yay us!

And our Krabi trip back in 2008 or so for camp.

It was my second time overseas with the sailors and we absolutely loved Krabi.





...and this photo of me which gave everyone a good laugh.

We had to abseil down this mountain after trekking through it, bat shit and all. It was way higher than the usual abseiling wall we would do in Mayflower (see, who said sailors were just sailors? We wakeboarded, abseiled, dragonboating, windsurfing, swam.. so thankful for teachers who tried to make our journey so much more amazing), and I was panicking like hell. I almost cried!

Then they went ahead to print this photo and happily pasted it on our sailing CCA board. Very funny guys.

So many memories from the Krabi trip. First time I jumped into the sea from about 2 stories up too. It really hurt though!




And all the medals we won every year.

Man.. I think most of the medals and trophies in my cupboard are from sailing and from running for Unicorn house during Sports Day.

Oh here's a random story:

During this year's CASS FOC, I was some crazy mother/makcik during our nightwalk. Syara and I got bored so we went to find Nasir and Gab at their station.

So as I was there scaring the freshies at camp, this girl who had to do the task at their station came to get the envelope from me and I started running away from her, screaming "YOU'RE NOT MY CHILD. GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME, YOU'RE NOT MY CHILD!!!!!"

She suddenly told me, "Please!!! PLEASE GIVE ME THE CLUE I AM FROM MAYFLOWER ALSO!!!!!!" and I just totally dropped character and stood there not knowing how to react.

Nasir had to come over to take the envelope from me to continue and he was like, "Gwen, Gwen, give me give me." I was literally standing there, mouth open and all. It was damn funny I swear.

Later I went to ask the junior how she knew me cuz I didn't recognise her at all, plus I don't know anyone from like, a batch before her onwards. And she was saying how people do mention my name plus like the sailors still talk about me.

Syara was like, "Cheh cheh someone's a popular kid ah!"

-_-

It was funny how that girl just used the whole Mayflower thing to stop me being in character, thinking I would pass her the clue. Oh well thanks Nasir for saving me and my makcik self HAHAHA

Okay here's another abrupt ending cuz I realised I've spent about 2 hours on this blog post and I have school at 8am tomorrow. Attendance hasn't been good for my FYP module tutorials ughhhh.






The one batch that made life so much so much more enjoyable. I love you brudders!

These were the people who were always there for me, whom I ate during recess with, talked nonsense with and learnt loads from. They made secondary school life so much better :)


"The race is never over 'til you've crossed the finishing line"

Better to cross than to DNF, DNC or worse.. OCS!