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Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Tuesday, August 28, 2007

KIM HYO YEONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!


I think I'm like, obsessed with her already. Haha. More than I'm obsessed with Hyun Joon and Minyoung! :D

Sucky unlucky

Yes Pam, I'm talking about DBSK ;] don't go crazy.



Oooh I just realised the video can play in my blog post space while I type lol. So can watch it while I'm blogging. Okay nah just joking.
DBSK had BETTER thank Black Beat for teaching them dance man! :D

I'm starting to like the songs in the Maroon 5 album "It Won't Be Soon Before Long" which I got from David's thumbdrive. :D

I'm feeling really sleepy now.

I think this is another unlucky day for me. It rained the whole day, we didn't go to NSC to sail, I didn't get to do what I had meant to do, got wet when I walked in the rain cos Drey's umbrella (you can stand under my umbrella, ella-ella-eh-eh.) wasn't big enough to cover me, Belle and herself, got locked out of the house again (should have remembered to take the house keys since mom's allowing me to take the keys to school :D), I'm not talking to someone I'm meant to, and I'm feeling really tired out and I got tired after just dancing for a while.

And oh! Did I mention that I GOT BACK MY REPORT SLIP?
And OH! Did I mention that MRS SUPRA WANTS TO CALL MY PARENTS DURING THE HOLS?

And my class is most probably the only class in the sec2 level that got it back. Why did Supra give it back to us today, making most of us upset? ):

I wanna sail so badly. D:

I DON'T WANT TO GET GROUNDED FROM SAILING OKAY. OMG LA. IF THAT HAPPENED I WILL CRY MAN.
I must work 10000000times harder for EOYs. I must work harder. I must work harder. I must work harder.

I needed Special Attention for 5 subjects.
Guess what? ENGLISH is one of them.

I was supposed to go emuuu the whole day la but heck care la.. I'm too tired to. Cried when walking to put our bags at the foyer before heading to the bus. Heng the tears never roll down. There were so many people around me.

Mr Lee dismissed us cos there was no wind at NSC. Me, Isabelle and Audrey were meant to go study at I&E Studio but we went to Central's Macs instead. Ate lunch and chat till 4 and realised we didn't study. But we wanted to go home so went home instead.

Oh, during Science today Mrs Supra taught more on chapter 6. Wuahhaa.

All the boys (or most) got HORNEHHHH. Especially the dude beside me. WU YUXUAN. Haha. He kept asking Mrs Supra questions la. Like what happens if the fallopian tube is cut off? o.o

At one point of time (I think while we were drawing the front view of male reproductive system =.='') dunno which guy said "walao! the sex glands like angel's wings sia. later the sperms can fly sia!" guess what Mrs Supra replied?

"If sperms could fly then many of us girls would be getting pregnant by now. I wouldn't wanna get pregnant by some random guy. If thats the case I'd better protect myself from the sperms to prevent myself from getting pregnant!" somewhere along the line la.

Like omg la.

I'm really tired now. I wanna see a doc.. like, there's something wrong with me la. For the whole week and more I've got headaches almost everyday. Even if I DO tell my parents I don't feel well, they'd just "Aiyah nothing big la, just headache lor.. haiyoh! So weak!" and not bother. I don't think I should either.


Another misery song-
&you're not making me feel any better about today.

Monday, August 27, 2007

I'm gonna do what I said I would and promised. Can't let you down, can't keep you waiting-

I think I'm pretty unlucky today.
  1. Got caught for fringe.
  2. Had headache and almost fainted while running during PT.
  3. Found out there's no training from next week onwards.
  4. Went to AMKhub and saw someone I DIDN'T want to see.
  5. When I checked my phone I had a missed call. When I got home I realised that when I took out my hp to check the person just put down D:
  6. Got locked out of the house.
  7. Felt feverish when I wanted to sleep.
  8. Had a phone call end in a harsher way than usual.

I HATE the fact that from next week onwards theres no training.

Especially since I just got better at my sailing skills after I found out where I went wrong and all, and that I'm really enjoying sailing.

Damn you, exams! D:

I'm going to piaaaaa for EOYs already. Soon, pretty soon. Anyone wanna go out for study session with me? I need to study somewhere that's NOT my house. And that somewhere would most probably be Macs.

If I'm lucky enough, someone will accompany me.
(Which I do hope someone will.)

I'm beginning to hate the class. Especially someone. I'm not gonna list names.

During lessons, especially Math, you'd better SHUT YOUR MOUTH.

Its like, today during Math lesson, Mr Gan started a new topic, which was Probability (he kept pronouncing it as "porpapility"). It wasn't new for me cuz I already learnt it in tuition but I didn't get my basics right then, so I paid attention during Math.

And I answered a freaking load of questions Mr Gan asked. Like woah, I'm a changed person when it comes to studies! :D good for me!

Public Speaking was goooood. The slacker didn't come again, as we suspected. Everytime we have public speaking instead, she won't come. Always like that. The uhh, Mr Goh (I forgot his surname) showed us some Toastmasters vids. One was super funny! :D sent the class LMAO-ing.

ILOVEART. OH MS YEO I LOVE YOU FOR BEING OUR ART TEACHER.

Painted a vege (which I kope-d from Carine last min cos Yuxuan and I didn't bring one), which was a carrot. The sketch was nice and Ms Yeo said it was very nice! :D she didn't correct me except for the fact the outline was too dark and that I needed to make it lighter before painting.

Ms Yeo has lovely painting skills. Like really awesome painting skills! I totally destroyed my carrot cos my shade of orange was way too dark. So she helped me touch up. It turned out so pretty after she touched it up for me :D THANKS MSYEO! :D

While running the timed rounds during sailing PT, I think I scared Isabelle quite badly cos I almost fainted. Like, I saw black spots and refused to stop running cos I thought I was okay.

At the 4th level, I ran with her then suddenly stopped and fell on the floor, haven't faint yet la. She was like "OMG Gwen! You okay?! 0.0 Gwen!" she already knew I had a headache but she didn't know how bad it was.

Then I carried on walking. 2nd floor I collasped to the floor again, this time refusing to get up cos I was dizzy. She was like "Want me to get Mr Yeo up here?" then I "NO! Nono belle don't need." then she helped me up and I walked down and immediately crashed into the metal gate thingy at the staircase. Justin was like sitting at the stairs la. Wonder if he got shocked. Haha.

So I didn't run the 2nd timing round. Heh. But I still did all my pumpings and crunches later outside the PE store.

Walking to the bus stop was nice. :D people don't know why but I know. Heheheeeee.

Got to central with Peckkhee cos she needed to buy sunblock. Then she tempted me to buy Subway cookies! Damnnit I'm growing fat la.

Then got home, bathed in super cold water (i dunno why...) and slept cos my headache was still there.

Now imma go my gran's house for dinner. Prayer month! :D hahaha. Okay gotta go. Feeling full tho ugh.

And I feel feverish again la wth... I'm not having a fever but my whole body's just very hot now.. and I dunno why. Shouldn't have bathed in cold water sia.

Anonymous.

You gotta hear this song. Its the song used in the vid of Hyoyeon and Jaewon dancing together :D LOVELOVE-





I love this song. Keep listening to it today. The lyrics and beat are nice. Very nice.

>>Anonymous by Bobby Valentino

For a minute it was looking like
I'd end up one of those guys,
spendin my whole life
looking for a special lady who'd save me
maybe i'll never be satisfied
had a couple ? and a couple dimes.
(Now I'm looking for you,) why are you so hard to find

I thought I took one step, I took two back
I'm not even close this time and that's a fact
All I know is that we'd be the perfect match
So where you at love?
I just gotta find you here.

I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
Why you gotta be anonymous?
Baby I want you so much
Wanna hold wanna feel your touch
Go fast girl i'm in a rush
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
Why you gotta be anonymous?

What's your name? (Anonymous)
Where you at? (Anonymous)
Think about you I getta a rush
I wanna meet my miss Anonymous.


Then I see you when I close my eyes we all on both times with the delay to sunlight.
Everything I tried to tell you I fell to maybe I'll tell you another time.
How you keeping me so free I get tied.
Gotta strung all on me and aim me, oh nevermind.


I thought I took one step, I took two back
I'm not even close this time and that's a fact
All I know is that we'd be the perfect match
So where you at love?
I just gotta find you here.


I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
Why you gotta be anonymous?

I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
Why you gotta be anonymous?
Baby I want you so much
Wanna hold wanna feel your touch
Go fast girl i'm in a rush
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
Why you gotta be anonymous?


What's your name? (Anonymous)
Where you at? (Anonymous)
Think about you I getta a rush
I wanna meet my miss Anonymous. [x2]

Is your name Mary Anne
or Cathy Lee
Wanna hold my hand? come get with me
Which dime wanna ride
everything on me
girl you aint gotta lie
Tell me what its gone be

I gotta know... (I gotta know)
I gotta know... (I gotta know)
I gotta know... (I gotta know)
I gotta know... (I gotta know)
I gotta know... (I gotta know)
I gotta know... (I gotta know)
I gotta know... (I gotta know)


I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
Why you gotta be anonymous?
Baby I want you so much
Wanna hold wanna feel your touch
Go fast girl i'm in a rush
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)
Why you gotta be anonymous?


What's your name? (Anonymous)
Where you at? (Anonymous)
Think about you I getta a rush
I wanna meet my miss Anonymous. [x2]

Sunday, August 26, 2007

dI hated dance today. For one thing, Maqrius was hard up on me cos I missed a lesson last week. So my moves were like not perfected cos I missed that lesson.

Before we ended he made us do the moves without music one by one. After I did mine he said it was bad. Very bad. I was like ya I know.. I mean I didn't get to perfect my moves last week so duh. He was like stressing on me a lot today. But I understand la, missed a lesson, gotta catch up and do better. Its hard to bear with such lessons but oh well. To pursue my dream! :D

When I left the house to head for the MRT I saw my neighbour, and he offered me a lift to around City Hall, cos his friend was dropping him there. Haha. But I felt paiseh so I told him its okay. He's so nice la.

After dance I felt terrible.

During the last half of dance I was feeling giddy and a bit faint, so my moves became all sloppy. D: I guess its cos I sweat a lot when dancing, then there's aircon, and I'm already sick. Adds on to everything.

I can't get enough of the video of Kim Hyo Yeon and Jaewon dancing together! (refer to bottom few post) They look so good together. And they're both talented dancers. Awww~! Jaewon looks cute la. :]

Imagine, if that one dance could let two people feel if they were meant to be with each other, or in this case made for each other. It'd be so nice! *goes into dreamy state* it could bring two people together, and it'd be so cool to express thru dance.

*snaps out of dreamy state* awwwww~!

I wanna be Hyoyeon during that time la. Imagine dancing with Jaewon like that. AWWWW! Haha okay I gotta stop aww-ing. But its super cool right! :] Jaewon's not too cute looking but he has the dance skills and dressing sense.

Okay I'd really better stop talking about Jaewon or Hyoyeon. :D haha. Imma have dinner now.
Here's a crazy vid of Jaewon popping. He's awesome right? My future husband/whatever should be able to pop like this. HAHA. Joking.. joking.

Ciaos! :]

I think I'm going nuts. I was so hardworking during tuition! I hardly talked to Celine and Junhao, I just sat there and spent the whole time listening to my songs while doing my graphs.

And I kept going up to ask Mr Phua about stuff I don't know how to do, which is amazing cos I'll usually just sit there and keep quiet until Mr Phua goes thru the answers. I saw Ricky as I was leaving the tuition center. Where's Chikheng? Haha.

I was right about getting my weekly dose of Drummania. I DID get it today after tuition, played 3 rounds only tho. Celine left earlier so I played alone. Talked briefly to some guys who played Drummania - I was the only girl player in the arcade that time! :D

I've managed to get a slight idea of a routine to Woman Friend by Chromeo. A Korean girl was poppin to it. So I watched it a few times and caught on with the routine.

If anyone has the song Woman Friend by Chromeo, do send it to me. Greatly appreciated! :D

I think Imma go practice my routine for class and the routine I learnt from the video. I don't wanna get killed by Maqrius. D: haha. Gotta practiceeee! ;]


Ohyea. The small routine to "Woman Friend" that I'm trying to kope/learn xD

Funny how I've been falling sick so often the past few days. Funny how I can actually love drawing graphs.

Funny how much I feel like studying now even tho its 12.06am and I've got tuition tomorrow morning.. hmm.

These few days I've been down with the usual flu, cough, sorethroat, headaches.. ya especially headaches. Maybe its the weather's fault. Bahhhhh.

I'm like, really looking forward to watching Secret (mimimimi!). Ahhhh! Even tho I'm not like a big fan of Jay Chou, I still think this movie would be awesome, and a really sad one too D: nevertheless! Imma watch it ASAP!

And I'm so NOT looking forward to Maqrius's dance lesson tomorrow. Maybe cos I've not been practicing the routine and instead I keep doing freestyle at home. ): not good if he asks us to show him the moves again. He'll surely point out like a million flaws of mine, which I bet I've got more.

1 more month 'till exams. I'm still not even half prepared.

Think given my common test results its gonna be hard for me to make it to even 3E. Sigh. I've got to work doubly hard during this period I guess. Pull up my EOYs result and at least show my parents they're sending me to school for a reason. Heh..

Went PCBunk with Audrey, Quin, Jody, Bernice and Cheeteng today. Bahhh, lets just say it wasn't what I expected la. I've always thought PCB was some super huge and nice place. It IS huge, but crammed up and the computers are like not the number I imagined.

But before that we went to Macs to eat. Okay THEY ate. I watched and kope-d some ;]

Our tower of Cheeseburgers and sea of fries! :]


Still, the place was freggin' cool. Like the sign at the PCB counter. And the Zone-X beside it seemed super huge too. Drey told me the Drummania people literally camp inside there. Aww I wanna go see them play! D: but Bern didn't like arcades and I dont like the idea of making her go in since she doesn't like the place.

Tomorrow after tuition I'll hopefully get my weekly dose of Drummania madness. And oh! The crazy (to me it is) EXTREMEMEMEME mode of Believe In Love. I still can't believe I got an A the 2nd time I tried it. Dude its crazy for me.

I wanna get Celine to go and study with me tomorrow. Like at Macs. She's the only person (maybe not) that I can actually study with at MACDONALDS. Everyone else is like "Gwen you mad? That place is like super noisy!"

But thats the only kind of condition I can study in. Seriously. Music and noise. If its too quiet like the library I'll get distracted.

No computer, nothing. Just music and a notebook and loads of coloured markers. :D

Can't wait to get tomorrow's Math tuition over and done with. 2 hours.. a long 2 hours.... ugh. And I'm thinking of getting Science tuition soon, before I fail Science. Sigh.

Still on cold war with my dad. Ugh. My parents always seem to take turns having cold wars with me.

I kinda can't wait for tomorrow. If you can go, then good for me lor haha. :D

Feeling sleepy already. Ciaos! ;]

<3>


[EDIT]
Oh yeah! Me playing Believe In Love EXT (extreme, duh) mode. I got an A okay! Don't playplay! :D


Might try it again tomorrow if I go arcading with Celine, as usual. Haha. Its like a everyweek routine after tuition. We'll go straight to the arcade at Jubilee after tuition on Sundays ;] then I'll go siao over Drummania while she watches. Haha!

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Friday, August 24, 2007

Hyoyoen and Jaewon <3

Hyoyeon (from SNSD) dancing with Jaewon from BlackBeat dancing to Bobby Valentino's "Anonymous"! :D
They look damn nice together la :]


LOVE HYOYEON! :D

send me stuff; songs and whatever shit.

WHAT THE FUCK. I AM LIKE BLOODY MAD NOW DAMNNIT.

Sorry for the usage of vulgarities. But I am seriously in a bad mood now.

Everything in my CPU is gone. GONE. Its all freggin' gone damnnit! Thanks to my dad. He came home, and was like "I have good news, the CPU might be ready by Saturday. The bad news is one of the system crashed and the guy told me that he needs to reboot the whole thing."

I was like, wtf did you just say? Then I told him I got a whole load of photos, music and videos in there!

Then he told me "Serves you right for saving it in your computer. Who asked you not to save it somewhere else? Did you delete it from your camera and everything?"

SERVES ME RIGHT? GODDAMNNIT. WHO'S THE ONE WHO DIDN'T WANNA BUY ME A THUMBDRIVE WHEN I ASKED FOR ONE. BLOODY HELL LA.

If I don't save it in my computer, WHERE ELSE DO I SAVE IT? I don't have a thumbdrive, don't have a portable harddisk. Where the hell you want me to save it in la?

He's like, just ask your friends for all the photos that you need la.

Like its so simple liddat?! WTF LA.

1. You took the CPU to get it repaired without telling me. I WOULD have done something like make a backup before you took it and told me only AFTER sailing.
2. You told them to go ahead and reboot the whole fucking thing without telling me. So what if I was in school?! You could have told them to wait until you got home so that you could ask me before you give them the go ahead.

You think its so easy to get back like more than a thousand photos and like 700+ songs?!

I have a lot of personal pics my friends don't have, and all those damn nice photos and abstract photos I wanted to submit to Deviantart and all that shit are GONE.

I even had to use limewire to get some of the songs I needed okay, especially those for dance. So lets see, I'll just use the bloody limewire, the bloody programme that has so much bugs, to get back the songs, ei?

Let the computer crash again. I don't bloody give a damn.

Why do parents like trying to make up to their kids only after they've done something wrong?

Like, just now after knowing I'm fucking disappointed since all my things are gone, he came into my room and used the "i'm-sorry-for-doing-this, would-you-like-a-present-to-make-up-for-it?" look and used this super nice tone to tell me,

"I know you're disappointed after everything's gone, so.. I'm going to buy you a harddisk. How big is the space you want?"

WTF.
That just makes everything a whole lot worse. Okay?

I just ignored him and told him I don't know and I don't want to get one. Then I just resumed to the work I was doing on the laptop.

Then he got bloody fucking mad and told me "fine then I won't buy one if you're going to talk like that" and slammed my door shut. Wtf? You're getting mad at me for something you did to get me even mad in the first place?

When I told you I wanted a thumbdrive to store my stuff, you didn't want to get me one. Suddenly after you realise I'm crying over everything gone (speak of crying over spilt milk. damnnit) THEN you want to get me a fucking thumbdrive and even offered to get a harddisk instead?

I hate it when parents are like that.

HYPOCRITES!

My day didn't start out good. Just as it got better you made it a whole lot worse. Oh, thanks dad! You're always like that. ALWAYS!


P.S. gonna play o2jam now to vent my anger, finally downloaded it on the laptop and the patch's done.
&LEE MIN YOUNG, you're my newest idolised dancer :D I just lovelovelovelovelove! Lee Min Young! :] even tho you're not as cute after losing your baby fats on your face and you're 2 years older than me but with debut of your album out soon..

Hate the fact that Koreans can dance better, are prettier and cuter, look much younger than anyone else.

No more EMU.

Rargh. Ate a cold lunch today again. Left it outside cos I had no appetite to eat. Haisssss. I really dont know what to do le.

I feel so guilty. As if I'm trapping you. I'm such a shitass person la.

Oh yeah. Wanted to blog about lessons, again. Dunno why. I just blogged about it but I wanna blog again.

Supra didn't come today for Science! So went canteen. Had to do the theory workbook, chapter 6. Afiqah was like, BUSY GOING SICK.

Cos had to label parts, then she went all sick la, talking about the parts. Interesting hor Afiqah! HAHA.

My dear Alicia went all sick too.

I have a clean mind, trust me.

For DnT finally finished up the mould thing by pouring in the polyester reisin, or whatever. I did a colourless one :D SPECIAL OKAY. Everyone else in class did coloured ones.

Then I forgot to put in the hardener before pouring it into the mould. I was like "Oh God. JOEY! I forgot the hardener.. -_-" then Shanai quickly help me put. Damn funny la she was like slowly drop it in.. "1.. 2... 3, 4.. 5... 6.. oh that was two drops ah? Okay 7.." until 30. Hahaha!

THE SOLUTION THINGY WHY LIKE NO BUBBLES DE?! If no bubbles my final project thing will look like shit you know. D:

Saw some people's projects. Like Bernice's (she put 10cent coin inside la!) and Joshua Gay's. All quite nice. Got one damn nice star la. :D

MAQRIUS! Must hurry move on to bboying. Dude I wanna stop doing my 6-steps only la. Super sian. I WANNA LEARN HOW TO FLARE AND DO AIR BABY! Whoooo!

Ugh. My headache was better till just now. Thought a lot about stuffs and it got worse. Finally broke down for a short while just now. I can't stand myself anymore. I don't know why I'm like that, ALWAYS.

chi qing de ren.. always like that.

Drey, I know you're right. You're totally right, from the start. I don't know why but I just won't let go. Oh fuck myself for that.

I feel like some selfish bitch.


I don't even think you remember what's on?
Bahhhhh. Just changed off the Breakdance Megamix. Super sian of hearing the laughter at the start. Replaced it with my dancesongs playlist.. zzz.

Oooh! Just realised Blogger put up a "Add Video" function. :D Imma upload a whole shitload full of videos on my blog now okay. Can sabo Joey Tannnn ;] zhaogeng'd laughter woman!

Uhh. School was uber boring. Dunno what to say la.

Almost didn't go to school due to some freggin' headaches I had this morning. Its still lasting. D: so went to school, during Math I took panadol....

..and spilt water on my graph paper cos while I was taking the panadol Carine and Chuxian kept looking at me and I almost laughed... heng I only did the table and haven't draw and plot the graph la.

Mr Gan was like "Garl you so slow. Why you slow? Huh?"

"I realise I give you homework, you not bother to go home and do the work. What for I give your class homework you tell me?"
"Class, stand up, now. Usually your class can be very clever, but I don know why today you all take long to settle down and quiet. Why today liddat huh you tell me?" (I remember this line cos I was wondering what was the link between "clever" and settling down and keeping quiet)

Woah. Great English Mr Gan! *sarcasm intended*

Oh ya Mr Gan, for the last time, I AM NOT A BAND MEMBER! Just cos I didn't do question4.. -_-

ILOVECURVEGRAPHS!

Dance was fun. Dude, dance was always quite fun. See "quite". Haha. Now the other showoff teacher like never teach us le, which makes class a whole load more fun cos the other teacher more patient :D

Finally over with the dance test la. ;] I think I did quite well, cos the other teacher gave me and a few others bonus marks during practice.

Was supposed to go buy Zach and Joseph's birthday present after school with Quin, Drey and Cheeteng. But end up Cheeteng had remedial and Drey was sick. So Quin and I went home la. Sian..

Tomorrow I HAVE to go for CIP. Double sian can. Don't like CIP cos we're not doing in the library. But oh well, cycling is fun :D Then maybe go arcading with Aaron. Oh ya must ask Cass! DRUMMANIA! ;]

Thursday, August 23, 2007

I'm like, back to using the laptop again lol. My computer's been sent for repairs.

Hopefully getting it back by this Saturday D:

I'm super tired now. Ugh. I feel so tempted to sleep on my table again la. Let my dad come in and wake me up.

I hate --- --------. She never taught our class well, she only knows how to slack. When my class has failures, she scolds us like she was the best teacher in the world and that she did her best while we did our shittiest.

Well, I'll let you know that you've not taught us on ANY punctuation shit. So what if my class has failures for English? You claim you taught us so much on whatever shiats, but you think the worksheets you gave us really helped that much? You don't even collect them back to mark!

And other teachers already long calculated the marks and marked finish the papers. You mark them during our Public Speaking course, and you can still tell my class that you'd count the marks TODAY? PLEASE LA. You dont even know where are those worksheets we did when you were absent. Only know how to come to class late each lesson. Waste of our time.

You deserve the long-awaited "most slack teacher" of the year award. Agreed?

Nevertheless, I still got a fucking B4 for English. ENGLISH. OKAY. GODDAMNNIT. I GOT A B4 FOR ENGLISH. I want to kill myself.

When I got back the paper I almost cried la. I was like 20.5/35?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! While everyone told me at least I passed, all I could think of was where was the A1 I aimed for? D:

I really feel so upset.

There goes my only hope for getting another A this common test. I feel like exploding. I intended to emuuuu for the rest of the day today actually. But with the people in sailing and in my class being so.. themselves, how could I not smile for the rest of the day la?

I LOVE GRAPHS. not straight-lined graphs.

Those curve graphs! :D Super fun to draw them. And finding the equasion shiat is super easy. Mr Gan didn't scold me or gimme the "Garl wth are you doing during MY lesson?!" look. Shuang. Never felt so guai during Math lesson before.

DURING SCIENCE MRS SUPRA TAUGHT US A BIT OF CHAPTER 6.
lololol to all you sickos out there-

Qihua and Zul were like, HORNAYE in class okay. Kept looking at me and Carine and they were like "ahh this one la this one. Think so annot? This one la." when Supra talked about changes in girls.

Sailing was fun. But the wind died down on my upwind to Bedok buoy D: sadded. Linjie was a heck of a sore loser la. I launched like dunno how much later than him, and I caught up and won him. So he got up and rocked his boat, making him go faster. Like wtf?

He says he does that during regattas and jury dont catch him so I shouldn't care la. My foot. Bullshiat!

Then since the wind died down I couldn't round the Bedok buoy. So went to gather with the rest at where Aunty Yvonne was. Big Nic capsized again la. And the wind was freaking light. I wonder how he capped (4 times in total somemore) la.

We had a race up to Keta buoy. A buoy I was more familiar with. I did pretty well this time :D After I rounded the buoy I was like 10th? Yep. Shuang bo?

Then went downwind back to shore. Nic was infront of me, and I watched him capsize like another 3 more times. Overtook him and he capsized another dunno how many times. I ALMOST capped but managed to prevent it. Kept sheeting in to go on reach to wait for someone behind la. Caused my almost-capsize. :] heh joking! ;]

Oh ye! I saw YESHEN before launching (I just noticed the corny-ness of the oh YE and YEshen thing. Haha). When pulling my boat up I said hi to him, while unrigging I talked to him. Seems like the Pierce Sec sailing captain won't quit afterall? Good! :D can compete with him sometime.

Unrigged and rigged super slowly today. I don't know why la. I feel so super useless when everyone's done and I'm the only idiot left in school uniform rigging up. D: sad.

On the way back to school I slept throughout the bus ride. Was super tired and I also dont know why la. I was semi-asleep, like I always am on the bus.

Could hear the guys going crazy over whatever PSP game they had at the last row, and Jack's voice kept booming in my ear like throughout the ride. He just kept yakking to Aaron lol.

I'm super sad today la.
1. STUPID ENGLISH RESULTS. where's my A1?!
2. I feel damn pangseh-ed in class and during sailing. ): (and we hardly talk too D: need to talk to you more!)
3. I feel stupid and idiotic. Sorry for causing you hurt, again. Anyway, it ALWAYS is me.

I want to feel happy. But now I feel sleepy and sad. Wanna cry over those 3 stuffs but I can't. Sigh. Cried myself dry already I guess.


I love you. Why won't you understand?

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

ILOVELITILOVELITILOVELIT

I finally got rid of the ol' jukebox thingo and replaced it with the imeem song thing. The song is Breakdance Megamix. I'm gonna put up a playlist soon. Right now I'm just lazy to change it. And I changed the video. Right below. :]

Today I'm sick D: didn't go to school.

And I-
DIDN'T SEE MY LITERATURE PAPER!

Rargh. I wanna see it so badly. Heard from Aaron (in order of the names read out) I was 2nd in class. But I got 20/25, so I tied with like 6 other people. Highest was 22, Tiffany.

I'm gonna fight for at least 3 marks. They haven't gone thru the corrections yet so I've got a chance to fight next week! :D

I'm like, finally! AN A1! I knew it, I would score well for lit. I'm happy la! Haha. When Kerrie told me my lit results I jumped around like mad. Like I was suddenly well again, heh.

Oh THANKYOU MS GOH!! :D

Shanai even told Ms Goh read out one of my answers, saying it was good. Ahhhhh! I'm like freaking happy right now!

Hope to get back English paper soon. I hope I do well for it too. So excited to know my results la. Hope I can maintain my topping of the class for the comprehension.

Tomorrow there's sailing. WHEEEE. My SIN412 is finally back with me.

Oh yeah, during one of the training races I got 4th :] after so long of like, getting last few la. On the first upwind I was actually first, till I slowed down and Cheeteng tacked up. His side got like more wind la. Then I got 2nd.

While rounding the buoy I hit it and Wenfeng made me do my penalty. Then I dropped to 3rd. BAH! WENFENG I HATE YOU LA. Grr.

Then I was 2nd again, till the last downwind, Wenfeng and Nic go and purposely sandwich me la! D: RARGH!!!! Then they keep like banging into my boat to block my wind la. Then they both got faster and infront of me while I became 4th T_T

And on the last reach, Quin almost caught up with me. Wth is wrong with my reaches man. I keep slowing down on reach and I dont know why la. D:

Oh well. Everyone was like "Gwen you tyco la! Suddenly so fast!" haha.

Thats cos I got a super good start while all of you guys were stuck at the buoy ;]

Monday, August 20, 2007

Loves POWERBALL!

Oh God. I think I'm having a fever now. Ugh.

Thanks for your concern :] I'm really sorry for being so sarcastic.. I will try to sleep earlier :D

Its like so cold now la. I even have to turn off the fan. I'm having a headache too now and I don't know why I'm suddenly like that.

Maybe cos today I played the powerball for interhouse today in the rain.. but it was just a light drizzle...

Oh ya! I must talk about the powerball match.

GRATS UNICORN TEAM A AND B (mine's B) FOR GETTING 3RD AND 1ST! :D

I'm so happy la. Team B won 1st! :D All of us were like high-fiving each other on a good game after the match. Next time powerball must play with the same people again lor! :]

Kangwei, Edwin (Poh), Zhien, Jacelyn.. plus me. Plus Rachel and Wenfeng la but that time they reserves.

Unicorn was the only house with 2 teams! :D gogo Unicorn!

Super fun. The first round we were against Pegasus and we had a tie of 3-3. Then Edwin or Kangwei threw me the ball and I scored the tie-breaker point :D happy! Haha.

2nd round was against Phoenix, and 3rd round against Unicorn team A. Last round against Pegasus again. Haha.

Ugghhhh. I'm too tired to carry on typing la.

I need to rest more.. wah. But I can't sleep yet till I get a reply yeah. Sigh.

Finally for art we swapped over to be under Ms Yeo! I'm gonna love art. Cos I can mostly score in visual art la.. haha.

Stupid Math results. MR GAN I HATE YOU TO THE CORE and I'm making this public. Grr! You still scold my class and held us back from recess for 15mins and still tell us hurry pack our things and leave the class once he 'release' us and leave.

I WANT MRS RAM BACK! Shanai why you saw Mrs Ram and we all didn't?! D:

Then he last one to leave the class and he left the lights and fans on. Heard from Daniel cos when we came back everything was on. Wth la.


You're all thats on my mind now-

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Ms Phua we'll miss you! D:

Oh yeah. I didn't blog about Friday, 17th August! Heh. We went to meet Ms Phua at ICEKIMO! :D Long time since I've been to the place. Like, last time was near EOYs in pri6..



The scones that Kerrie and Alicia baked, saying "We love Georgie"
A flying-kiss goodbye D:
Our artsy-superstar :D

Aww. Jingyi won't let go la :]

The famous Ms Phua pout! ;]The balancing thing at the playground near Winteng's house. Super fun la haha.

"You can stand under my umbrella"

Funtwo - SUMMER

Funtwo's the LOVE! :D


If Johnathan or Timothy learns how to play this song with the background music imma make them teach me. ;]

Bored for the 1millionth time-

Agian, at my uncle's place. Bahhh. I'm getting super sleepy and tired le la.

I've been listening to music like 5hours straight la. Its a wonder why my left ear hasn't spoilt yet. Heh!

I've concluded what you can never catch me out of the house without:
  • Watch
  • Black rubberband (to tie hair in school but outside its a bracelet lol)
  • Handphone
  • Earpiece
  • Wallet
  • Converse sling bag (for going out)

Wahaha. This is what someone does when she's superb-ly bored. :D

Tomorrow I've got tuition again. Sian. MATHMATHMATHHHH.

MADE AN AGEEK TEE TODAY AT QUEENSWAY! :D

This afternoon went to meet Alicia, Kerrie and Eileen at the old Pierce Sec bus stop to go to Queensway. AGAIN, I was late. Sorry loves! D: Was about an hour late. Sian. I don't know why I will always be late la. Gotta change! *determinded look*

We went to eat laksa at the Queensway building instead of Macs. Should have not eaten the laksa la super waste of monehhhh $$$ T_T 3bucks for one super small bowl. Wasted! Last time it was more can.

Walked around and saw this really small printing shop. This guy was busy printing tees inside. Then this other guy walked in. Nice la his hair. I liked it. His fringe he go like highlight green streaks.

His name's Weijie. :D friendly dude okay. I won't mind working with Weijie and the other guy la they seem quite fun to work with.

The shop didn't have much nice Adidas shirts so we went to the other shop which Weijie knew the owner and we got 4 of the same Adidas jerseys from there. I'm wearing it right now.

Even tho its like white I like it la. Heck care how transparent it is la haha. Its white, black and red. Super nice.

Alicia picked out this jersey and I realised its the one I chose for Justin for his birthday present. But Kerrie and Eileen (the two guniangs of us ;]) thought it was damn boy and wanted something more niang.

So we got the white one. Spent a super long time choosing the font for the name and number.

My shirt's GWEN 08.
Alicia's ALICIA 07
Kerrie's KERRIE 15
Eileen's EILEEN 16

So our numbers are like 07, 08, 15, 16. And we didnt chose those numbers on purpose la. After printing and when we were walking to the bus stop then we realised the numbers were quite nice.

Alicia and Eileen got the same font for their numbers while me and Kerrie got the Nike font for our jerseys.

After that went with Kerrie to J8 to walk around cos she needed to get something for her mom. Got the present and decided to walk around. While deciding what ice cream I wanted from Macs we saw Sylvia and Debbie.

Sylvia said we looked like we were going for a football match! Haha. Same jerseys mah.

Walked around then my dad went to fetch me from there. He didnt tell me he was going to fetch my bro first la. Tell me hurry across the overhead bridge then I waited so long for him. Then he told me he go fetch my bro from Thomson CC first. D:

Reached my uncle's house around 6 plus. My earpiece was still playing music then la. Now at 12:15AM it still is ;] nonstop.

Saw the fireworks from here. Stupid two buildings la so tall then block all the lower fireworks. It was super pretty la the ending. :D

JIAWEN IS MY LOVEEEEE! :D uber cutenessssss. Rahahaha, can't get enough of her. ;]

I wanna go home now. But my parents are still playing mahjong. Rargh, lousy la D:


Gwen, reflect. Reflect already-

Saturday, August 18, 2007

When the sun shines, we’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella-

Friday, August 17, 2007

I was bored.. so haha. I did these two other quizzes. :]


Testriffic.com



IQ Test Score
You're all I want; all I need.
You're my everything ♥-

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Raffles Marina & SMU Western Circuit Sailing Regatta anyone?

Omg anyone free on next Saturday to go with me to go to Raffles Marina to see the Raffles Marina & SMU Western Circuit Sailing Regatta? :D

ClickHERE to go to the website for more details.

Its like 11am-8pm. If there are gonna be KEELBOATS I'd go crazy! :D

Sleepy now... zzz.

EXAMS ARE OVER!

Yesyesyes! :D haha. So happy. Finally gonna be free till EOYs start. Bahhhh! ;]

I feel like I'm gonna fail Art. How can I fail ART?! Its a subject I can pass so damn easily la. But, oh! this time, the school decided to test art by using writing instead of drawing. How? ANCIENT GREEK AND ROMAN ART.

Ugh. I this morning then study la. Quickly grabbed notes from Shirei before I did duty then chionged the notes. Didn't study all the sculpture names and crap.. I just read the points Shirei highlighted LOL.

DnT was not too bad la.. a lot of common sense needed like Cass told us. But the pictures were super blur/not clear. Can't identify how this product is better and yadayada. D:

During Chinese I got back Common Test and Class Test papers. Bahhhhh! did super badly for both. Okay la Common Test I needed a freggin' little bit to pass, Class Test I failed like there was no worse shit in the world.

Liang laoshi even asked me what happened to me, cos I'm doing super badly in Chinese. D:

During Math me and Atiqah and Eileen sat at a corner at the door and kept talking. Mr Gan is getting more whatever and more shitty la! Wtf la I miss Mrs Ram a lot! ):

Its like, "how you do when you got no flexur curve", "and then how you find this answer when you no have the constanrnd?"

Flexi curve = FLEXUR curve
Constant = CONSTANRND.

I hate this teacher. He's so gonna be the cause why I fail Math. Gah. I really need your help, teach me Mathhhhh! D:

After school slacked a bit then went to the foyer. All the sailors were there :D haha. I didn't eat lunch again, surprisingly I didn't have any appetite, so I just bought Lemon Barley while Ningxin bought some drink and Oheyas! :D lol.

Went up on the bus super early with Quin. Only Justin and Weiming were on the bus la. Since Quin promised to show me her phone she took it out and showed me.

OMG ITS HELL PRETTY. And the menu button is like, the one that will vibrate when you press the left, right up or down key la! The menu that's newer than mine! D: I want that menu, so fun to play with the phone menu la. Always play with Kerrie's :D haha.

Then suddenly when everyone saw her phone everyone was fighting to see it. Haha. Super funny la Quin spent most of her time on the bus trying to ask who's got her phone and for the person to return it lol.

Sailing was demoralising. I don't know whats the problem with me okay! MY SAILING SUCKS NOW. And I don't know why. So irony. So funneh. HAHAHAHA I wanna kill myself. I feel like crying whenever I think how badly I'm doing now la.

Its like upwind I slow down a lot. I dont know why! Check everything and its fine. Aunty Yvonne told me my sail's slack was more than a palm's length, it was like one ARM'S length.

Tightened it and it seemed to help a bit and I was happy again. Until I realised before we sailed back how much faster everyone was. T_T

When pulling up my boat after recovering it, Justin and Weiming ran out of NSC (they already pulled up their boats D:) and then I heard Weiming tell Justin "Eh Gwen, Gwen there!"

Of course knowing them I knew they were up to something. They were even holding some long branched seaweed I think.

Then Justin ran past me, anyohow swing swing that stupid thing and it slapped me on the right side of my neck real hard. I think even tio-ed cut or something. It hurt a lot la! D: pain... rah!

At least he asked me if I was okay. If not he die sia. Haha. Chased him to hit him for a while then was like better go unrig first let him kachiao me when I'm not so flustered about sailing lol.

Then when I was unrigging Weiming and Mubarak come kachiao me! Like lol can! The sec3 guys taking turns to come and bully me la D: except Cheeteng. Thank you Cheeteng! LOL.

The two of them used the hoses to spray water at me till I was soaked again la lol. Then I can't hide cos got two hoses and both spraying at me. Combine forces la.. good la! LOL. Then Weiming was like aiya Mubarak don't waste water la aiyoh! in his sarcastic voice haha.

Was gonna rain le so all of us hurry up and unrig. Can see all the dark clouds and can hear the rain sound or something from where we were la. So all kanchiong le haha.

I went to put my rudder and daggerboard back into the MOE cage there, then JUSTIN GO LOCK ME INSIDE! rah you Justin! haha. I was like stuck there. So paiseh and fustrating la. Then I go take my B12 tiller extention and gei like I wasn't bothered and asked him hurry let me out. Then he really did lol.

Then he went to help Wenfeng with the sail so I go whack his back but someone told him I was behind la then he zhao-ed. SADDED! Haha.

During debriefing Yvonne used my boat (again. Everytime she teaches us this knot she always zhunzhun use MY boat de lor) and taught the rest the knot for in case of emergency when we need to get towed back cos the knot comes out easily not like the bowline we use when we get towed.

Then Justin kept asking her "again again!" and she asked them try doing the knot - using my mast and my mainsheet! Then they purposely go be so rough with my mast la. Kept shouting at them to be gentle with my mast or they die! LOL.

On the way back I slept on the bus. I wasn't that tired but I decided to sleep. I wasn't really sleeping actually, I was more of eyes closed, can hear what's going on but don't wanna open my eyes kinda thing.

I woke up just when the sec3 guys at the back were just starting to sing the vagina song. Stupid person who composed it la. So sick can! And Justin was the only one saying vagina la. The rest will keep quiet when the song says vagina, except Justin..

So I was telling Quin "I woke up, just to hear them sing this song?! Ughhhh!" and I couldn't go back to sleep. But they were funny so maybe my brain told me to 'wake up' at the right time ;]

During PT Mr Lee killed us la. The pushups he made us wait longer and go lower, so it was like super tiring. I sweated like hell can! D:

After sailing my parents brought me to IKEA to eat at their Cafe/restaurant there! :D

We passed by this eatery in the car near Thomson Imperial or whatever (the one I always go the Chinese doc there xD) near Thomson Plaza and my dad almost wanted to eat there instead haha. Not Long House la haha.

Last time I ate there was when I stayed over at Timothy Neoneoneo's (xD) house for the supposed movie marathon, then we went IKEA for breakfast since IKEA is like right opposite the condo he stays in haha.

Bought like loads of food. When I finished the soup and ate half of my chicken thingy I was full le =X so much! haha. And I didn't eat lunch la. I was hoping I'd be super hungry can. I was but I easily got full D:

Walked around and then me and my bro wanted to get the ice cream we hadn't eaten in such a long time. But then the ice cream was too frozen la wth. End up didn't eat it, my mom helped us cancel the order. Waited there for like 20mins+ la.

I was super tired, dizzy and wanted to go home. I didnt tell my parents la I just told them can we go can we like go? and we went home since it was quite late le.

Almost slept on the car also, if it wasn't for the fact I was listening to my music.

Oh yeah. Exams aren't over. THERE'S DANCE TEST TOMORROW OMG AND I FORGOT THE WUSHU STEPS! Tomorrow morning must try to learn from Joey and remember it le omg.

I really want you to talk to me again. Only one day and I miss you so much. Ahhh cannot take it, you're suddenly damn cold.. Sorry I made you so mad love. ILY & IMY-

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

SCIENCE AND GEOG IS HECK EASY! :D

WUAHAHHAA.

The Geog and Science paper today was not too bad! ;] GEOG WAS EASY OKAY. Really, it was like hell easy. I actually found Science quite easy too.. o.o maybe cos for electricity I paid attention in class :P

I just hope my results for these two papers would come by as easily as I said the paper was. :D

I finished Geog in like 35mins. The paper was done by 8.30 okay. Super easy! :D Science I didn't do a few questions, but so far I think I only lost about 5 marks. Not too bad for someone who failed Science la ;]

Lessons were boring.

LITLITLIT! Ms Goh let us do our own revision, but I didn't have my DnT textbook nor Art notes so I was like, stone with Shanai.

Ms Goh kept threatening to send my class for detention la, cos of the boys, AGAIN.

I spent the 1 period (Ms Goh wasted one period shouting and scolding us and telling us to read out loud this poem for EOYs or something) talking to Shanai, who changed places with Eileen.

Joey and Chuxian sat on the floor at Carine's place la. They were like talktalktalk and Ms Goh didn't realise they were actually sitting on the floor till she thought Carine and Eileen were making a lot of noise, then when she went over to check she found Joey and Chuxian on the floor xD

I was like, throwing my pencilcase in the air (one time I didn't catch it properly and it landed dead center on my forehead. Ouch).. stare at the Science notes I had.... then Shanai sent me the AiTong graduation song that Lin lao shi made our class sing over and over again in 6E! :D

Shanai told me to listen, then I kept laughing. The song brought back many memories. Can hear Derrick's voice in the background, purposely zhao-xia-ing at the high pitched parts. Super funny la!

I miss all you 6E'05 dudes! D:

Sadly, not all of them go back to ATS to visit. Only us faithful bunch xD Derrick Koh Jia Ming (omg I can still remember that extra kia's full name) you slacker!

Both me and Shanai wanna see how Derrick looks like now. Celine's like "Still the same bastard la Gwen." Shanai wants to see Junxian spike his hair! o.o

The whole lesson I sit at my place with my bag on my table like some super siao chor-lor zha bor :P haha. I'm wearing FBTs! Cannot anyohow sit one okay.

Math... slept again la. Mr Gan was teaching nonsense. Uber shiats. He doesn't KNOW how to teach.

Then he anyohow scold people la! Like Yayun. Poor person, talking to Eleanore and Bernice about Math then Mr Gan don't believe her la.

"Garl, you tell me you liked people treat you liddis?"
"No- noo. You dun tell lie to people garl."
"No you dun tells lie with others garl. I dun believe you garl."

I'm not going all twit and all. But I'm typing the words as how he pronounced it.

Seriously. Girl sounded like garl. Seesh. Brush up your English a bit more Mr Gan.. half the class don't even understand what you're teaching you know..

In class Shanai (during lit she changed with Eileen to sit infront of me and during Math she changed with Joey to sit beside me) asked me how many periods of Math there was and how much longer and what other subjects we had later.

I told her today only 1 period, gonna end soon, about 20mins. Then next was two periods of CME.

I thought of CME and what Quin told me about the sec2s having sexual education the day I was absent. Apparently all the CME lessons I attend now are nowhere near that. "Loving yourself" and "Suggestions on how to improve the school" (today's) are nowhere near right. xD

In the middle of Math I went a bit sick in the mind (for fun only okay). So I was like "Wah, LATER GOT THE SEXUAL EDUCATION SIA." loudly enough for the front row people (but not Mr Gan) to hear.

Atiqah heard (she's in the front row) and she was like "0.0 WHAT?!" in a omg-gwen-I-can't-believe-you're-that-sick way. :P Mr Gan already noticed her so he scolded her and told her to go attempt the graph question he had on the computer.

HAHAHA.

Even PRIYA reacted to what I said. She was like "ohh then they'd be teaching us all about ahems yeah." or something similar. While she was saying that her eyebrows went up and down! OMG so she's THAT sick too. xD Haha.

Then I felt a bit sleepy, so I slept for like less than 5mins and Math was over. Yawn. Super boring.

When we stood up I noticed Carine stained her skirt. Damn alot. So I was like "Carine! Pssst! Look, below. Skirt..?" then she realised, went OMG! and we were all accompanying her to the toilet. Like me, Joey, Chuxian, Shanai, Eileen. Then Cass, Atiqah and Afiqah came in too.

9 of us in the toilet helping Carine la haha.

Went to the other girl's toilet at Science block to use the dry Carine's skirt. We spent like a hell long time in the toilet la. Cass was afraid Mrs Supra was thinking we pon the CME lesson.

Atiqah, Afiqah and Chuxian already went back to class to tell her about Carine's skirt la so should be okay.

When we got back to class Mrs Supra was like "Why need so many of you? You must have had a lot of skirts to wash huh girls?" Like uhh. I dunno wth Carine and Joey told Mrs Supra to have her say that okay o.o

Its like there are GUYS in the class.

And our class not as open as 2D, where dunno who (heard it was Amos) stuck Chuwen's pad (from her bag and unused duh) on his fullscap paper, used a red marker and wrote on it "I LOVE PADS!" and went around showing the class that.

Mrs Supra should know we're not so open bah? D: Then she go say about Carine's washing of skirt until so obvious can.

After 1 period of CME we went to the canteen cos Supra had to go for some oral thing. Canteen was like super boring la.. watch the school staff eat and we talk only xD

After school we went to Joey's house! :D to practice dance before the test on Friday. I totally forgot the wushu steps already la can. Blahhhhh-

Stayed there till 4 plus. Walao its like we went super hyper there can.

SHANAI I WANT YOUR PHONE TO TAKE VIDEOS LA.
Super shuang can your camera.

My camera in my phone is just as good but when it comes to taking videos its like shiats. D:

I didn't board 265 with Shanai and Eileen and just nicely Joey's mom was gonna fetch Joey's bro, so she fetched me home too! ;] haha. Joey pei me there. Carine didn't wanna hitch a ride la ): hahas.

And my bro's got a friend over again la. Omg I hate it. Now I know how he (might) feels when I have friends over. And his friend is like super noisy with my bro la. Can hear them knocking down the chairs and stuffs outside. Wahpiang! D:

-Iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou loads ;] missed you; You really looked nice in it :] wear it more often ;]

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Sighsighsigh!

I'm gonna mug into the early morning later.

Can't help but feel freggin' guilty that I didn't study for Science and Geog today.

I have more confidence in Science but for Geog I'm pretty much at a loss. Mrs Davids also didn't really teach my class much/well. I'm on my own..

Today its like, another hell boring day. Imma fail my Math D: I really give up on Math. I can't do anything. ANYTHING. Damn. Okay, I'm like super helpless in Math. It just won't go into my head.

Formula for volume I can actually remember. Till I see the paper, that is. Its like I'm so scared of Math I see the paper I'm all blank.

Fuck it. I just screwed up my Math common test. And I can't do anything about it. Hurhur. Gwen is self-humouring herself at a time like this.

The most I can get for this common test is 9/35. Yep. Thats how badly I done. Me and Eileen and Quin are on the same boat la.. not literally. Haha. I already can confirm I can get 2 marks. But how much can that help me?

And the other so-called "marks" I can get are most probably method marks. Most of the questions I attempted have no final answer. All halfway. I spend so much time on each question, but I just stare at the paper and tap my pen on the question trying to figure out what to do.

How much worse can I get?

I have confidence in Literature tho! :D even tho I last min then chionged the notes Ms Goh gave us. But I could remember most of the answers that she stated in the book we use for Lit for the poem in the exam. That helped a lot in my answers. But I wrote so much until the last question I only had 5mins left la D: so I chionged and only wrote about 3-4 lines for that question? Ugh...

Tomorrow is Science and Geog. DIEDIEDIE.

Sigh. I hate tests. But what to do?

Today's sailing, UGH. I just wanna bang my head on the wall till I literally bleed. Like really. I feel so fucked up about the fact that I'm not sailing as well as I used to. And I don't know why!

I suspect B12 has some unknown hairline cracks I cannot see or something. Or I think, well, its just me.

I love the boat like hell la. Everyone's like "Gwen?! Whats wrong with you? Its just a BOAT. You treat it until like its you ownself buy la... every little bit of dirt you clean until liddat."

Its still the same. I miss NSC14 a lot already D:

Everytime going upwind, I just seem to go slower and slower while everyone goes faster and faster. I keep a boat flat, I hike out properly most of the time, and my control lines etc are all okay. But why do I slow down? During the most recent regatta also the same.. Aaron just zoomed past me. I keep looking around, anything wrong in my boat? NO!

But its still as slow.

I don't know whats my problem. I never had such problems with NSC14, which upsets me a lot la cos I'm having such problems with MOE B12. And I love the boat so much. Dang! D:

I'm suddenly doubting my ability in sailing, a lot. Like, I'm now paying more attention during briefing, and I'm training harder, or at least I think I am. BUT I'M STILL SLOW. Always last few. ALWAYS. Whats wrong with me?!

Before the next regatta I'd better be better. Or else I'm so gonna kill myself. Not literally, I'd find some ways similar.

Haha just joking. But really. I was quite upset when I sailed so badly la. Besides Linjie and some random people with super bad starts, thats all I can win. Suddenly, Aaron and David become much better than me. Wenfeng and I (I feel la) are currently on par. But he still wins me more often than I win him.

Sigh. Double sigh. Triple sigh.
Sighsighsigh! UGH.

I don't know wtf is wrong with me. Really. I don't know.

Monday, August 13, 2007

To hell with exams..

Today was..

SIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIANSIAN!

Ugh. Imma flunk the papers we had today D:

Which was English and Chinese. Dang. But I know I won't fail English, just score really lowwww or something for it. I feel depressed (emu kid side shows)..

While doing the paper I suddenly felt very dizzy. That was for English. Everytime I looked at the words more than 10seconds or so I'll go dizzy and my eyes would hurt. I was so pissed off la. Then I couldn't think properly. Damnnit. I hate days like that.

I DIDN'T EVEN THINK THAT "PASSIVITY" COULD MEAN "NEGATIVE THINKING"!

Like, "passive" and "passiv-ity"?

Gwen, how much more stupid could you actually get?

I kept thinking why does "passiv-ity" sound so familiar..? But I couldn't figure out. After the exams Chuxian they all were asking about that and most of them wrote negative thinking. I wrote cover up the fact. <- dumb answer.

Eileen's one was the cutest! :D

"Huh? Oh. That on ah? Uhhh I wrote "self-destruction"! :D"

*moment of silence*

HAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA! *everyone around her who heard that broke into laughter*

Damn cute can she! :D but its like "Self-destruction and self denial of-" like uhh. But cute answer Eileen! :]

Now cos of the common test arrangement, I'm sitting RIGHT at the back door again. Everytime its the same thing lor lol. I'm always at the back door. Quite paiseh cos so many people walk past all the time. D: but I got Joey beside me! ;] Now I can just stare out of the door again.. see.... hmmmm. Later liang lao shi thinks I'm daydreaming again, like today. o.o

Tomorrow's Lit and Math- I HATE YOU MATH I HATE YOU LIKE HELL GO AWAY!- and I've not even read up the poem for literature. I feel even more depressed now can. Gah.. D:

This time I must do better for literature. As for Math.. well, I kinda gave up on it. Even tho I know no Math = die in JC/Poly.

Art.. art.. Ms Gan I'm starting to hate you too. You're just sitting down there at the teacher's computer slacking for art lessons at the com lab. Then you've only taught us theory once, and suddenly 2 weeks before common test you dump a whole load of shit notes on us telling us all the answers to the test are in it and that we must memorise every word. Still want us to treat you a 5bucks meal if we fail.

WHAT CRAP.

I can't wait to switch over to visual art. Aaron told me Ms Yeo is damn nice. She seems fierce to me la, but if AARON actually says a TEACHER is nice, you'd better believe him. LOL.

After school went to com lab to study with the sailors. Didn't get to use the I&E Studio. Sad la I like studying there lol. The com lab 3/2 really no space on the table la. ZZZ.

Attempted to complete my art assignment, then Mrs Sidhu asked me to do Math. I was like "0.0 nyuuuuuuuuu no math nyuuuuu! D:" but still have to do la. Sigh.

Chapters on Mensuration, Graphs and Statistics. I wanna die okay. Why not simulateneous eqns? ): sadded.

Tomorrow there's gonna be sailing! :D happy. But I wanna study. Heh. Fancy me saying that. But honestly, how much studying can I actually do at home? NONE. Sigh..

I really wanna be able to mug hard enough to be confident for the EOYs. I need to exercise my self disipline man.

Wtfwtfwtffff!
DAMNNIT. Pain.. pain... pain.

Over the woman who spoils everything you're telling me that?
SO COMFORTING.

Listening to teachers is always a good thing huh? Teachers can be wrong too sometimes.

But thats just my effing perspective.

That paper doesn't mean anything anyway. Hor?

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Dislocated shoulders-

Maybe its a good thing you know about my blog ei? ;] I feel more open when I talk to you la, and I feel that you feel the same way towards me.

So, hoho! :]

RARGH. Stupid dance. Maqrius I wanna kill you already can. Haha. My shoulders feel damned dislocated. Ughhh. Super pain can. Scarly Tuesday I again cannot sail I cry sia.

Which reminds me to go check on my baobei if its okay at the repair thing annot. I can't sail properly without it can. Super shiats.

But now seriously my shoulder feels damn suan/pain/dislocated. Harlem shakejkfbgsedkbg la. Seesh. Very pain. Came home and sat down, I was like "oww. Damnnit!" I feel uber tired too.

Like I can fall asleep any minute (omg I don't know how to spell min in full. Damnnit)! I want to study after dinner okay. Damn.

Thanks to someone la. Keep telling me to do something about my results ;D

I WAS LATE AGAIN for danceeee. Haha. Maqrius was again super sarcastic to me can. I was like run there, so many people along OG there and whatever the place was, then when I rushed inside class and opened the door he was like "*comes shake hands with me* HELLO GWENNN! Nice of you to join us! *super sarcastic smile*"

I really must force myself to be on time now la. Shiats.

After dance went straight home with Pam. We didn't go walk around cos we were both super tired already. So we went back together with her sis, mom and aunt. Heh.

Omg its gonna rain. AGAIN?!

It was like today when I was walking home I could feel water on my hand. Realised it was drizzling -_- haha. So I purposely walked slower. It was nice to walk in the light drizzle la. Its so light I know I won't fall sick. But I feel sick the past few days le la. Zomg I can't fall sick! D:

Okay I already am can.

My parents and bro came home super early from badminton. Then they say cos Aunty Jill they all having some celebration over at their house. Must be some company thing again la haha. So they came home early today lo. o.o

You'd better be able to wear L okay. I hope its not too big. *bang wall*

You know, if I didn't have a mindset that the shirt is for him, I would totally use it for myself xD haha. If I liked white shirts myself I would have gotten the white one la D: it was nice can.

I want that freakishly expensive black, orange and white one. Super nice. RAHHHH. Too bad my mom won't get me Adidas jerseys. D: sadded!

KERRIEEEEE! Hurry and check the prices on the jerseys okay. I want one super badly now la LOL :]

I keep listening to the songs "Coming For You" and "The Way You Do Me" by JoJo. Addictive songs. Blehhs!

OMG I JUST TYPED THAT FREAKING TWIT-SOUNDING WORD.

Quin, you REALLY have to save me from becoming some type-in-act-cute-way, twit-sounding beyotchhhh! :D and to whoever wanderer is, beyotch is a good word to use ;]

Raining already. Sigh.. too bad that stupid concert thing is still on downstairs. FREGGIN' NOISY CAN. Rah! Not like they sing damn nicely like that man. (haha oh shit I sound so mean ;P) Its raining REALLY heavily.

I wish I were downstairs standing in the rain now. It's gonna be nice :D


You mean everything to me. &&LOVES-

Stupid catfights, stupid JUNHAO-

Woah. Stupid. Damn warm. And it just rained la o.o

Stupid beyotch. I'm so gonna hate you for _______ __ ______! I'm not much into bitching about others around here but you're just some bitch okay.

Jing you're a bloody chicken neh la you. I wanna slap you can.
But forget it, I'm a nice and gentle girl. I'll just get back at you using some other methods. Btw, stop saying hi to my cousin for no reason you fucking hyprocrite.

At xiao gu ma's house me and Melody sat at the piano chair like the whole time we were there after dinner, just talking crap. Then I suddenly mentioned something I totally didn't know, which she thought I knew. Then she told me what happened. BLOODY JINGXIANG.

Just forget about him. He's not fucking worth your time. Seriously. Okay?
LOVES-

I'm now at Celine's house, again. Hah. Its like since yesterday I didn't go to her house, might as well come today. I love her sofa. Dang it! (haha Igg I know you dont like people who use dang, but whatever)

OMG oh ya must blog about tuition. Damn funny.

Stupid Junhaoooo! After being 2 years of classmates and 1month of tuition classmates I now then realised you're just as childish as before ;] haha.

Its like today in class, instead of that freaking clique (th ones who tried to throw a balloon full of powder around class) being noisy, it was me, Junhao and Celine that were making a hell load of noise xD

Super funny la. Its like first cos Junhao took my phone, then he called my dad and MY DAD CALLED BACK. Rah! Then cos Junhao's bag was on the floor I grabbed it and passed it to Celine, and she took out his wallet.

You freggin' rich kid! Got like what 150bucks in there for a baggggg!

Then cos Celine kidnapped his wallet he kidnapped my phone and held it hostage! Rah you Junhao! Haha. Then he used my phone and called my dad AGAIN. My dad picked up and Junhao was like "Hellooooooo? HAHAHA helloooo!" then my dad (or me) cut the call. STUPID LA! But super funny ;]

Mr Phua was like "Wah I never give you two enough questions to do right? Want somemore annot!" then we were like "Noooo Mr Phua you give a lot le!" then we carried on our cat fight. Mr Phua was like laughing already la cos we even stood up and walked around where we were sitting as I tried to take back my phone-y! D: lolol.

Everyone was like, looking at us. Celine was laughing like shit can. HAHA. i gave junhao his wallet back but took out 50bucks and kept it with Celine before I returned it. LOL :D

Mr Phua finally came over, laughing, then he took my phone from Junhao and he asked me and Celine for the monehhhh $$$. I passed it to Mr Phua, and Junhao was like "My MONEHHHHHHH!!" haha stupid guy. Then Mr Phua gave us back our stuffs la lol.

Its like even those guai guai guys from the front row turned behind and laughed as me and Junhao were like cat-fighting la. Super funnehhhh :D

See la, primary school classmates end up in the same tuition class is liddat.

Chikheng you super slacker! ;]

saw him before I went up to class. Like 15mins late already. We said hi, then I thought he and Ricky's tuition classes started same time as mine. I was like "Eh your tuition start same time as mine then what are you still doing here? o.o" then he "Aiyah nevermind one la.. its okay one!"

Next time I follow your good example okay Chikheng! :D follow the presidentttt! Muahaha. Be late for tuition! ;]

Rah, later I got dance class again. I don't feel like going this week lor. The weather is like super warm and I'm lazy to go Somerset.. Seesh. No choice la still have to go. Sian!

After tuition I went to AMK Hub with Celine again.. sian of that place la but its the nearest. What to do? Haha.

My mom didn't wanna get me that super nice heart necklace from 77th Street again la! D: saying what I won't wear it. Who says lor, I can wear it with the black shirt can! Heh.

I finally got something for Justin! :D see dont say I won't buy a birthday present for you okay :]

oh ya you finally know I have a blog.
Eh heh heh. Cannot blog bad stuff about you already! ;] haha joking. joking!

-Loveyou! ;]

Happy birthday(s)!

Haha saw this at Tzuling's blog and decided to do it for fun xD


Testriffic.com



Ugh. Today was like totally sian. Started off the day like real badly.

Supposed to go out to celebrate Justin's birthday. End up didn't. Sian. Sorry.

Spent the whole afternoon playing Granado Espada. I made a new friend there. Raymund! :D he's like super nice to me. He let me join his SG Faction and helped me buy loads of armour till like lvl 40+ armour for my characters! ;] he's from SG too. So I joined his squad and we fought together till 5+. I WENT AS DEEP AS AL QUELT MONZARE (or monzera or whatever)! Never been there before. Spooky but leveled quite quickly cos of the level.

Got ready and went to xiao gu ma's place for dinner/Dione's farewell party. She's going to New York to study soon as she got a scholarship to a university there D: will miss you!

Surprisingly before everyone wanted to leave, we started singing happy birthday!

For JOHNATHAN NEOOOOOO.

I was like huh? Then ge-m told me that it was Johnathan's birthday tomorrow. Like zomg same birthday as Justin. Haha. I was like quite shocked. Too bad Johnathan's one year older if not they born same day LOL. Irony much-

Supposed to go Celine's place for housewarming, but end up didn't go. Heh. Sorry Celine! D: my mom told me she was really hoping I could go. Let Celine down again. Sorry m'dear! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN AND JOHNATHAN!
-Happy 15th and 16th! ;]

Woah I feel like I'm saying happy birthday to TWINS sia. Both 'J's. Uhhhh-


Baby you're loved -

Friday, August 10, 2007

Sailors- total loves!

Imma go broke already! ;]

Today went to watch RUSH HOUR 3 with some of the sailors. I think me, Quin, Siungee, Lianghong, Justin, David, Weiming.

We went arcading before that lol. Justin almost didn't wanna come la haha. He didn't get his PSP today cos not many people came today D: poor guy. Cheer up about it la! ;]

Both of us wore all blue today la. We were the only ones wearing blue and only ones wearing jeans lol. And only white Adidas sneakers! Blue-yyyy! ;)

Lianghong and Weiming made me waste like 2 bucks over DRUMMANIA la! WASTE MY GAME. I forgot auto-pedal for one stage, David anyohow choose Torocatta (forgot the title) and I stage fail cos the song I never play before, Lianghong also anyohow choose song when I told him not to touch the machine, Weiming anyohow help me hit the drumpads till I kept missing lol!

After arcading Justin went home, until we realised the movie started in a while and CHEETENG STILL WASNT HERE! Then Lianghong called him and he said he was still at Donald's house la omg! Then I quickly called Justin and asked him to come back lol. Heng sia he was just about to board a bus la! :D

The movie was totally funny! :D I kept laughing (and coughing) throughout the movie. I bet the two people sitting beside me were suffering. Sorry Quin and Justin! LOL.

I got cold damn easily in the cinema la! D: Sad la. Its like among all of us only I took out a jacket to cover my arms while the movie was showing. Was like at the last fighting part then I took out jacket le lol.

After the movie Justin went home cos he had to eat dinner with his mom as it was her birthday, then Siungee also had to go home for dinner. So Quin, David, Lianghong, Weiming and me ate dinner at the foodcourt.

All bought Japanese foods! ;] loveee-

Quin ate super slow. Gahhh you, you super slow eater! :D haha. Then David didn't finish his food and kept sniffing liddat. His nose was super red. He said the Tempura was lousy lol! Sad la I almost tried that.

Then he got all sick and started sneezing and walking sideways like he was gonna collaspe soon. Omg la! I was so scared sia. Kept walking around and waiting for him. Then we went home by taxi. Only Weiming took uhh bus/taxi from across the road. We pangseh-ed him! D: sad!!

Dropped off with Lianghong at AMK Central there. He stays so near to Celine la! Only one block infront lol. So we talked and walked lol.

I want another day like this, where we can all watch movie together ;]

Uber fun-ness! :D

The sailors are total loves man! :P


-You're the center of my attention.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY S'PORE!

In another 14 posts or so, imma hit my 500th post! :D happyhappaye!

I needa blog about stuffs. Today and yesterday (meaning uhh aug9th and 8th).

Shall blog about today first (while I try to recall more of 8th aug. Sigh. Old liao)!

TODAY-
I spent a really boring national day in the usual way - first at home, then go Aunty Belinda's house to celebrate Tri's birthday.

Its the standard every year during national day. No surprise hurhur.

Woke up damn late today. My mom was staring at me while I was sleeping. I woke up and saw her staring at me then I was like "UGHHHHHH!!" and went back to sleep. My mom threw a pillow at me ;P

Woke up around 11.40am? LATE man, late.

Then my dad passed to me my hp after I finished washing up. Guess who the call was from. Cos of the contact's name, my dad questioned me until I ignored him lol :P

Justin asked me to chip in for a PSP instead of getting him a wallet! LOL. Lucky guy.. getting a PSP for his birthday. Uhh okay la mine was more expensive :P haha. Mine's a hp! Muahaha!

Watched I Not Stupid Too on youtube. Half of it, to be precise. Like after lunch I took over the com from dad and suddenly I listened to the I Not Stupid Too theme song Celine sent me on my hp during tuition. (I'm listening to the song now too ;P)

And I watched the movie after watching the MV for that song. SHAWN IS THE LOVE MAN. So shuaiiiii! :D

The movie made me think stuffs. I even cried while thinking about it. The part I watched till was talking about parents not appreciating their kid's talents, and instead, looking and pin-pointing out their flaws.

It happens to me too. Especially since I have a younger brother.

They don't appreciate my talent I had for piano (signed me up for classes last year since my aunt pressurised my mom and since I wanted it so bad), they don't appreciate I'm the only sailor in the family, they don't appreciate anything. Not even my artistic talents. A1 for art is not a big deal huh D:

Same as Tom (in the show la), he had blogging, webdesign and computer tech talents. Same goes for me, but in both scenarios both parents don't appreciate the skills. D: my parents know I have the skills but to them its just shit.

On the other hand, my bro plays badminton quite okay, and they praise him all the time even tho I am (or used to be) a much better player than him.

They compliment my bro so much and whenever I improved for sailing results its just "Oh okay." "Don't go near other boats next time lor." "Nothing damaged? Haha!" Sigh.

I ask my bro to try sailing, they tell me don't force him.

They know I love sailing, they ask me join badminton with my bro and go for Saturday practices with him. What happened to "Dad, if I don't have tuition on Saturday can I go for weekend trainings for sailing? :D"?

When I tell them no for badminton they sigh and frown and tell me reconsider JUST COS I HAVE THE POWER FOR GOOD SMASHES. Oh God!

Parentsss. Sigh.
Double sigh.

Then my dad chui-ed me to bathe cos we had to go Tricia's place there for her birthday. LOL.

Couldn't wait to see the Mayflowerians on NATIONAL TV for NDP! :D

While eating dinner there NDP started.

After I sat there stoning and waiting for the MFSS part to come out, Justin called and we just talked. He was watching it at first till he got really bored of watching it.

Suddenly they put "-dunnodunno what the title is- By Mayflower Secondary School", then I was like "OMG MAYFLOWER IS ON OMG JUSTIN GO WATCH!!!" he quickly chionged to watch and was like "I'm there I'm there.. starting liao!" then we laughed as I pointed out who I recognised. ESPECIALLY WEN YI AND YINGHAN AND DANIEL! I spotted Aishah too ;]

Wenyi and Yinghan's faces were like, BIG. Cos there was this breif part where their faces just got smacked on the whole TV from side view, cameraman zoomed on into them :D I was like "OMG WENYIIIIIII! HAHA OMG YINGHAN'S THERE TOO! :D"

After the MFSS part was over the whole NDP just got boring again :P

Stoned around, yadayada. Then Troy started on TV! Around 10 plus?

So I watched it with my relatives till most of them who weren't playing mahjong left le. The movie still haven't finish.

It ended just nice as I was about to leave - Yerp, 1 ONE AM. Like a more than 3 hours movie. Sian. But it was hell nice.

ORLANDO BLOOMMMMMM && BRAD PITT! <3
ULTIMATE HOTTIES SIA.

LOL joking la. But Orlando Bloom's totally hot. Just that among all the guy actors who fought in the little war, he seemed.. skinny o.o all of them had muscles okay. Huge ones which Kerrie and Alicia would love haha ;] I still prefer skinny guys. They still don't know why sia, always disagreeing with me what our future bfs/husbands must be like LOL.

Tomorrow imma catch Rush Hour 3 with the sailors! <3

Totally looking forward to it. Its gonna be hell fun ;] and I'm chipping in 20bucks for Justin's present. Sigh. Then getting another present. Sigh, I'm gonna go broke can D:

I'm in love with the wallet I'm thinking of getting him sia ;D its BILLABONG and totally nice. Awws. But its more for guys. Who cares? I'm like a lil bit of a tomboy haha ;]

Talk about 8th Aug another day okay? PROMISE!

If I talk about it in this post, its gonna get too long and boring for you guys lol. So TTFN! Ta Ta For Now huhuhu! ;]

p.s HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE AND TRICIAAAAA!

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

BAD headache. BADDD-

I really hated this day.

For one, I DIDN'T SAIL. Like surprise surprise! Lol. I had a stupid freaking headache today, which was not so painful in the morning.

After Science periods it just got worst and cos in the hall there was this Indian dance thingo and the music was super loud and had some bell-like beat sounds, the headache just kept pounding in my head.

Like everytime the person shook that tambourine or whatever, the sound would seem to have an effect in my head and my head would throb and stuff. Eek.

In the hall I tried to sleep cos my headache hurt a lot, but Mr Ho caught me and got Peckkhee to wake me up, which I wasn't sleeping yet btw.

In the canteen, I was hungry but not hungry enough to eat a full meal. So I just sat beside David with the other sailors in the canteen and tried to catch 15mins of zzz. Not working. I went to buy lemon tea and some crackers before boarding the bus and Mrs Sidhu saw me.

She was like "You look half dead! o.o" I blurred-ly leaned against the wall and was like "I think I AM half dead Mrs Sidhu. Haha." then she wanted me to drink more water.

I felt like I was gonna die. Hurt like some shit. At the foyer while waiting for the bus I sat at a corner as Audrey and Isabelle stood around me chatting and I chatted with them :D the wall was a bit dirty so I didn't wanna completely lean against it.

On the bus I chatted with the guys along with Quin for a while, then caught a bit of snooze.. eyes closed but I was aware of what was going on. But I felt... asleep o.o someone from the front of the bus kept playing the mosquito sound and I got so annoyed cos I was already having a headache I just shouted "SHUT UP LA! STOP IT CAN?!" while my eyes were closed. Maybe some people thought I was sleep-talking ;]

When we got to the saiing center I woke up to realise the people around me within my sight were asleep. Quin, David.. etc.

I slept for a few more mins and we turned in so I woke up. While walking down the bus I felt quite weak, then walking to the girls toilet I was like looking on the floor, just incase I fell. When I put down my stuff inside the girls' toilet I came out and Mrs Sidhu asked if I could sail annot.

Of course I said yes la duh! I wanted to sail loads. But I felt super weak and tired. She was like "sure annot?" then go inside. I was literally holding on to the wall as I walked past the guys' toilet and the lockers to go MOE side and rig up.

End up I decided not to sail as I was so tired, so I went to tell Mr Lee, and he was like "What kind of headache? A headache that comes and goes just as you need to sail??" then I was like "Noooo! I wanna sail okay, but I feel too tired.. incase something happens out there la." then he found out I was having flu and he knew why I got the headache.

I helped Peckkhee and David to rig up, helped Justin take his rudder and daggerboard. Weiming called me Madeline cos of the TV show yesterday at 9. There was this girl who asked this guy to call her "Gwendolyn". The guy couldn't pronounce her name and called her "Madeline" instead.

So Weiming's calling me that now. Grr.

And cos I keep responding he thinks I'm admitting I'm Madeline. Ugh!

I sat at the step and leaned against the gate before Aunty Yvonne gathered us for briefing. Peckkhee changed, I helped her pull out her boat and watched them sail out. Ahhh I miss sailing! ):

I stayed on land with Iggy Thiam Thiammmm (:D) and Jack. So yep.. Iggy was studying Science, and I wanted to study Science so we studied together as Jack slacked. Oooh it rhymes! ;D <- learned from Thiam Thiam! :D

I'm surprised what we had in common for the day. Like, how much more we got to know each other since the day he DSA-ed over to MFSS using sailing. We talked a lot and it was as if I was as close a friend to him like I was to the sec2 guys. LOL.

We both had Science textbooks on the table, both studying the same chapter (please, chapter 9NINE and not 6/7 okay!) and we both bought EXERCISE BOOKS from school - only to open both and realise both exercise books were empty. LAWL. So we decided that we must quickly do notes. Haha.

Wenfeng and Ryan sailed back, but as soon as they were about to reach shore, they put back their daggerboards and rudders and then tacked back out to sail.

Then Justin came back (he was using David's sail - INA126 ;D) and Audrey, Justin Ong and Edward came back. After Justin pulled his boat up to near the ramp thingy, he went back to talk to the optimists and suddenly he was sailing Optimist411 back out to sea with Edward.

I ran out to watch them sail off lol. Then I asked Audrey what happened, then she said the wind picked up so they went back out to sail LOL. Justin Ong tried to collect water with his booties and splash it at me! D:

When they came back they came back with the team, so its like all of them came back le. So I went to help them unrig.

It was DANGEROUS okay. All of them were wet, so were their boats. I was in school uniform! Cannot get wet okay! LOL. Then a few of them like Justin and Wenfeng tried to get me wet. Both tried to get me wet by emptying the water in their masts on my legs! D: hahaha. But quite funny.

Then Justin asked Peckkhee to spray him with the hose, and he was standing like infront/beside me. I was like "huh?? *looks at Peckkhee* OH SHIT!" and I kept darting left and right as Peckkhee told me to siam while she tried to spray him. I didn't get wet la thank goodness if not I kill Justin ;]

Went to bathe and talked a lot with the girls while bathing la. Damn noisy lol. There was like only 6 of us. Sad la.. suddenly so little girls le ):

On the way home the guys at the back (Justin, Cheeteng, Mubarak, Weiming) started to sing again! But this time not as loudly as the first time. Still quite funny tho. Me and Quin just kept singing along too LOL. Influential! ;D

I didn't sail today but at 10plus I already started feeling tired D: I dont know why. And I was talking to Iggy on MSN lol. Stupid suanner! ;]


Together, doesn't feel grand at all.
Togather, together we build our wall.
Together, holding hands with fall.
Hands with fall.

Monday, August 06, 2007

I feel like I'm drifting away from all the 1E'06 people.. sigh.

I don't wanna lose my good friends from 1EEEE! D:

GO. TO. HELL!

Last chance for one last dance-

I am so @%$^&*# pissed off. Who is she to say such stuff about my family?

Okay she's my aunt. So yeah who cares?

HOW COULD SHE FUCKING SAY THAT MY PARENTS ARE NOT LOOKING AFTER MY GRANDMA?!

Like, yeah! Thats hell nice of her.

After hearing what my aunt complained to my other aunts/uncles about from my dad (my mom is busy ranting off to one of my aunts right now about how she feels about this), I was like damn angry.

I still am now. How could she say that?

I love my grandma like hell loads and I would never let her come to harm. We make efforts to go to her house to dinner since she's alone with her maid and confirm she's lonely.

Why does my aunt still say we're not looking after my grandma?!

I have always respected my aunt as she always talks to me and my cousins in such an inspiring way that makes us wanna strive even harder for our goals.

But this is just INSULTING.

She doesn't go to my gran's house for dinner on weekdays and she says such stuff. I feel so insulted and pissed off la!!!

Worse still, its my parents that she's refering to about not doing a good job of looking after my gran. Wth la, if she has something to say about this she should discuss it with my parents instead of complaining to my 2nd uncle right?

No wonder my mom talked on the phone until so pek chek. She was talking to another one of my aunts I think. I could hear exactly what my mom was saying from the living room even tho the TV was on.

I feel like crying and screaming now luh. Its like, us? Not taking care of my gran? YEAH RIGHT.

Like hiring a maid and giving my gran money for stuff would actually be really considered 'looking after'. SO COLD CAN. Yes she does look after my gran, but she only visits my gran like once a week!

UGH.

I'm gonna talk to my mom and dad to see what happened. Now my dad is talking to my mom to get her to cool down and take this as a small matter.

Why do families always have such problems?

At least they're not thinking looking after my gran was a bothersome thing. If not I kidnap my gran and bring her to my house to stay forever.

Quizzeh! :]

Kope-d from Peckkhee's blog! Was reading thru her posts and in the first post for January 2007 I found this! :D


NOW*
01. Is your hair wet?
Nope!

02. Is your phone right by you?
Yesiree ;]

03. Do you miss someone?
Yuppadupski. (haha i meant yup)

04. Are you wearing chapstick?
You mean lipstick? Nope.

05. Are you tired?
Umhmm.

06. Are you excited?
Yeap.

07. Are you watching tv?
If I was, would I be typing now?

08. Are you wearing pajamas?
Never did since primary school.

*HAVE YOU*
01. Recently done anything you regret?
Duh. Sorry love.

02. Ever lied?
Ohhh nono! I NEVER did lie! *scarsm intended*

03. Ever stuck gum under a desk?
Gross. Tells you anything?

05. Ever tripped over your own feet?
Surprisingly, yes.

*TODAY*
01. Have you sworn?
Hell loads! :D

02. Have you yelled at someone?
Yeah. Out at sea, "WINDWARD BOAT KEEP CLEAR!" "STARBOARD!!!!"

03. Have you gotten mad at someone?
Nope.

04. Have you cried?
Almost did.

05. Have you called more than 3 people?
On the phone? Nope.

06. Have you IM'd more than 3 people?
Nope.

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
Yeap. ;]

Q: Where is the last place you went?
Schoolsaye!

Q: Do you smile often?
Yeah. I guess. I laugh so easily.. so yes I guess?

Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
Maybe? I do hope so :D

Q: Do you wish on stars?
Used to.

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
HAHA lazy to!

Q: Do u like your handwriting?
Ehh. Halfhalf. Yes AND no.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
DUH! HELLO MY NAME IS GWEN!

Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Whadda whadda? My own duh.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
Blueeeee <3

Q: Do you have any pets?
Used to T_T

Q: What are the color of your bedsheets
Stripes; white, red, dark red, orange and pinkish-red.

Q: What were you doing at 3pm yesterday?
Computer I think o.o

Q: Look to your right, what's there?
The fan.

Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yeap.

Q: Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
Don't really recall. I think so?

Q: Movie that makes you cry or really emotional?
Some movies. I Not Stupid Too, etc.

Q: Are you normally a happy person?
Yeap. If I get mad I will be my normal self in a while ;D

Q: Has anyone ever said 'I love you.'
Yeah. I got loads of lovers ;]

Q: If yes, do you think they meant it?
Yeah. THEY LOVE ME TOO MUCHHHHH!