G E E B E E ▲ ∆



Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Thursday, July 31, 2008

The End,


You know right now, my computer is being sibei guailan?

I can't access any website EXCEPT mf.commontown.com, MSN shitz and blogger.
Fun right? Now I've got nothing to do.


RANTINGS SO (YOUR PROB IF YOU READ.)

I hardly rant about people on my blog soo yeah.

Beeyatch who lost my lit file DOESN'T deserve my respect. (not Ms Martin.)

She lost Winteng's lit file, English hol homework and Nicolette's English hol homework and insisted that Winteng and Yuenman redo their hol homework cuz she say they never hand in.

"I don't know what you're doing here but can you return to your seat and disicipline yourself?" yeah pffffft. I went back to my seat, she nicely handed Jiaqi the oral practice paper and
slammed one on my table. Rude much.

HELLO? I TOLD YOU ALREADY. I FINISHED IT LONG AGO, BUT I LEFT IT IN MY ORANGE CLEAR FOLDER WHICH I DIDN'T BRING TODAY.

IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME, ITS SERIOUSLY YOUR OWN DAMNED PROBLEM!
STOP TELLING ME ABOUT MY SAILING SENIORS AND HOW GOOD THEY DID FOR O'S CUZ YOU WERE THE ONE WHOM THEY WERE UNDER!

Bhb much plz.

She has no idea how much the class hates her. Treat us like we're retards who don't understand English, saying we're pathetic and crying when we don't use bombastic words in essays.

END OF RANTING-


Performance for Mr Lam's retirement.
Donald Quacks was WOAAAH! :o

And oh! Wooyoung plays the piano too.

I'm in love!
With his playing. hahaaa.

Had to take lit test during recess till after next period.
(Weiming's damn mean to Syafiqah! Hahaa. SHORT UH.)

Wooyoung and Atreya came to kachiao me! Someone was playing e piano. Thought it was Zack!

So nice and relaxing can, hearing the mleody as you do your test.
My favs like Cannon in D and bu neng shuo de mi mi! ;D

Finished, walked upstairs and Wooyoung caught up with me.
He was sweaty :\ yet he accompanied me back to class instead of going to e library!

Okay, seriously hating.
GUYS DON'T NEED TO PLAY THE PIANO! :(

He's agreed to teach me and play for me tho. :P teehees.


Lessons = boring. SS, English..

Waited for Mr Lim to give us e class photos and donation cards after school,
but he took too long so the sailors and more than half the class zhao!

Couldn't sleep on the bus to NSC cuz Wenfeng was playing techno songs.
ARGG. buay tahan!

Headaches cuz of the techno. :\ but still sailed.
MOE sails suck. REALLY. :o
Reached shore 5th but was the last to get my boat up cuz I helped the rest. :\

Tehbing-ed with Quin while Wenfeng ate.
:P I'm in love with Quinnie's new car. Touch screen siol! Thank you to Quin's dad for fetching me home.


Studying for chem test tomorrow now so, ciaos!


Suddenly remembered me as your friend cuz you remembered the A-Cash?
You got it already, and I'm suddenly not a friend? Not even a word of thanks from you. Maybe I'm just a person that you wanna get off your back, cuz I keep feeling that way from you.
Well, good for you if its true cuz I don't really dare to sms you much now.
I seriously wonder why you decided to sms me that day.
You were curious to how much a bad state I'm in maybe?
You've already got someone to replace me as a goodfriend, yes?

I bet you'd forget about me again after a while.
Thought I actually existed in your life as a friend.


..Maybe not.

:(

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

What is time? Is it the autumn leaves that change? Or the snow that floats from the sky.

Watched this clip of Neil and Lacey dancing contemporary from season 3.



Made me tear again. This time its not only me! The audience start wiping their tears off, even Mary (judge) and Mia. :(:(:(:'( I srsly feel so sorry for Mary cuz he dad was diagnosed with cancer at that time.

Fav choreographers are NappyTabs (Napoleon and Tabitha) and Mia Michaels!

That clip also made me think of my granpa suddenly.
How he passed away a while after my granma did cuz he missed her so much.
How he doted on me so much.
Also the friend whom I'm worrying about.
How are you? I srsly miss you.
Also about relationships.
:'( so I just kept crying.


At least, today's E-Learning was good.
I stopped doing my geog powerpoints at around 6-7, and it seems to be doing nicely.
Might do more later.

Copyrighted to ME. >:\

p.s. why aren't you happy? Or at least happier than I am. You have good friends, a special someone who cares for you, a good CCA with supporting mates.. you even have people who care about you when you're down.

I'm wondering, how did I manage to comfort you when my heart's slowing tearing itself into a million pieces. Can't I live past ONE miserable day without crying?



.. saw the sailing blog.
And I started crying again.

[EDIT] Interschools photos up on the school gallery. Looking thru the 112 or so pics srsly made me smile. So, can I bear to let go of them? Maybe now I'm willing.. but I doubt in the long run. I just gotta keep myself together and pray this will be over in a bit. [/EDIT]


Haha. I can imagine me and Quin are like,
"Mmhmm. *eats*"
"Mmhmm. *drinks*"

Bestest.

So You Think You Can Dance


One of my two absolute favs! JOSHUA ALLEN.

My girl fav is Katee Shean, but her profile picture didn't compliment her too much. :\

Twitch Boss! :D

Courtney Galliano ;D

All my favs, minus Mark.

(aaaand sometimes maybe Chelsi.)


I love this pic! :D Courtney and Gev dancing contemporary.

MY ABSOLUTE FAV PAIR- KATEE AND JOSHUA, dancing Broadway.

Sadly they tore them apart when it came to the top 10. :(
WILL SUCKS.

Chelsi and Mark, hip hop.

*squeals* Joshua and Katee dancing my fav routine for the whole Season 4. :D (hip hop)

Kherington and Mark dancing Krump. Ahhh ITS BUCK!

Joshua and Katee dancing Viennese Waltz.

Sorry but I am now a SYTYCD huge fan. Hahaha.

GO KATEE AND JOSHUA! TOP 4 TOP 4! ;D

Cuz when you're down you'll know,


our friendship's always there.


Going out with these three "cuckoos" are like the most fun I've ever had in a long time. Okay, not counting the powerboat ride with Jhing.

I was super shagged, and Ker and Eileen were tryna talk me outta staying home. Wanting to go yet tired like fag. :\ hahaha. Then Cia smsed me and I immediately went to get my clothes.

Cia's got the power. LOL!

But anyways. Kerrie you cuckoo! (Eileeeeeen. I'm picking up your word and thats baaaaad!) I'm waiting for the pics from your camera. :\


And oh, E-Learning's fun. At least, the geog homework is. [:
Super happy with what I'm coming up with. Hopefully I'm the only one in class doing that category. Yayyayyayyayyyayyayness.

I've still got Chem to do. Mdm Shanti uploaded the History till it can't be opened! Arrrgh. If anyone can manage to save the file from Mdm Shanti, send it to me plz! Thank youuu.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Cuz thank you for today,

Got this from Alex's blog.
Finally. Gawd knows how bored I was.

Thanks black for the conversation earlier. [:
Amazing, you actually knew I didn't sound well.
Suddenly talking to you after like 4months of being ignored,
everything felt normal again; like the months didn't happen.
Point is, thanks for cheering me up, so quickly too.
THO YOU DIDN'T GIVE ME AN OPINION!


1) Who is your best guy friend?
Can I say its still piggy/black? :\

2) If someone were to tell you they like you right now, would you care?
Depends. I think I would just "Wth??" and run off.

3) Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
Uhhhh. We kinda just talked earlier..?

4) Where did you last sleep other than your house?
My bed! LOL hmm not sure.

5) Do you have a best friend?
I used to, but maybe not now.

6) Do you smoke?
Noeps. Makes your breath a weeeee stinky! >:\

7) Do you remember what you were like a year ago?
Yeah. Happy, much happier than the state I am in now.

8) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Aaron, Belle and Jack. Okay and maybe Nic and Ryan if they noticed my tears flowing down the side of the window on the bus.

9) Can you vote next election?
Noeps.

10) What are you listening to?
"Is It You?" by Cassie.

11) When will your next kiss be?
I can't really predict my future, you know.

12) Who do you love right now?
THE WHOLE WORRRRLD!
(and Kenny Wormald. Teehee!)

13) Who was the last person to call you handsome/hot?
Does babe count? Then some guy on Maple who wanted Mithril ores.

14) Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
Yep. :( I miss you bro. (not my real bro)

15) Where did your last hug take place?
The only one I can really remember was with the sec3 sailors at NSC during sailing camp.
Oh! Drey sweets hugged me, at NSC.

16) Do you date smart people?
I don't date dumbasses. Hahaa!

17) Where were you at 2:02 this morning?
Buying a Ice Lemon Tea at Plaza Singapura's Macs?

18) Last place you took a plane to?
Shanghai. Cheeeeena.

19)How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
Grateful cuz he saved me from a night of emo-ing, and well, loved.

20) Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Yeah but I try to cut down on it. :\

OPPS!

21) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yup. Tell me who hasn't?

22) Who did you last go out to eat with?
Bettina and her dad.

23) Do you have unlimited texting?
Nope. Sadly.

24) How old will you be in 13 months?
16, Sweet Sixteen.

25) When is the last time you took a nap?
A proper one was like, weeks ago. But I take short naps in class. :P

26) If you like that person will you talk about your feelings or hide them?
If that person tells me he likes me, I'll talk about my feelings.
But before that, HIDE. [;

27) Do you wear glasses?
Nope. Okay actually yes but for astic.

28) What are you looking forward to in the next month?
Nothing much really, cuz its the common tests.
Okay and birthday..s.

29) What are you thinking about?
Loads of things. *sigh*

Cuz we say a girl can dream,

To sailors:
PLZ BRING SAILING FUND (2bucks) TOMORROW, FOR THE MONTH OF JULY/AUGUST.
Thank youuuuu.

PICTURES OF RACIAL HARMONY FROM JIAQI'S BLOG!
Lazy to upload the photos I took. :\

garland making!

(absolute failure.)

Zul plays Chinese chess! but he can't beat Ruixing.
see the pig pillow! me and Lianyi's places. her pig saves me during Chinese.

SORRY TO EMBARASS YOU, JINHAO! HAHAA.


Watched The Dark Knight with Bettina and her dad. Lido's cinema was huge.
And her dad threw a piece of popcorn at me. Hahahaa.

Was late for dance, and we didn't do much, not even sweat. Watched the battling parts of You Got Served. KENNY WORMALD IN #5 RED SHIRT! *grins*

Medium cup of Ice Lemon Tea from Macs and half a fried fish from Long John's for lunch.


And oh! We're going to Crystal's house next Saturday for a "free lesson" from her. 3 HOURS OF HIP HOP! Can you believe it?! I'm like super excited.

Crystal's so nice cuz next Saturday is her anniversary with her boyfriend! :S
THANK YOU CRYSTAAAAL! muchloves!

Trying to pack my room's a bitchass failure cuz I keep getting distracted.



I need opinions now. NOW. Bastards and Bitches. (okay wasn't calling anyone, just felt like the word)
I srsly miss you la dey.

Welcome to Newyork Newyork,

Welcome to Newyork Newyooooork!
tsktsk, absolutely fattening place.


belated birthday girl. with love!

yummy chocolate fondue (that was totally worth the mooneh),

and my (half eaten) ice cream waffles.


the guy told us that we can only refil a bit of chocolate for the first refil..
..and he came back with the bowl full.

faked candid. [:


like kids do.


two (out of the three).


and yes, it was raining at the playground,


But who cares?



HAPPY BELATED, RACHEL PHUA EN LIN!
plz eat more and get fat thankyougoodbye.

Suddenly felt like uploading the long due photos from the dinner at Newyork Newyork with Rach and Celine.

Maybe cuz the previous post was just upsetting, so here's something to digress.

Its funny, how Rae kept thinking I was having problems in school thats why I wanted to have dinner with them.

But yeah, she's right. I DO have loads of problems now.

I'd prefer to tell somebody who would totally underand,
but it seems that that somebody's.. someone I used to find so easy to talk to,
yet now its so hard.

Friday, July 25, 2008

happy racial harmony!

Happy Racial Harmony Day!
(and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BRYAN LIE! I got so carried away with my post yesterday I only typed this today)


I loved 3Endeavour today! Not counting the boys cuz they weren't in enthic costumes. Grr. Neither was Quinneh lol.

Was almost late today packing all my stuffs.
All the 3E girls were so pretty! Esp Jiaqi and Sera's costumes. *ahem*

I now know why I'll never wear a qipao.


I brought my bio and chem textbooks to school. Turned out Mdm Loh gave us Bio free and Ms Tan made us do SS! I should have brought SS and left Bio behind.

Jiaqi helped me to pleat my hair during Bio, and Aaron told Ruixing I looked like a Vietnamese!
"Gwen kinda looks like some Vietnamese girl leh. Haha."
"Really meh? I've never been to Vietnam so I don't know what they look like."
LOL!

And I proved to Mr Lim that I actually DO pay attention in class! *grins*


Learnt how to make those flower garlands and the ketupat thingys without rice.
I killed a lot of flowers today. Opps! :S haha. I seriously can't tie Indian flower garlands!

The programme we had in the hall was.. *hmm*.

Elie expected the picture Mr Nara took of me and Jiaqi to be in the slideshow. Turned out the only picture with me in it was the one he took of me doing the flower garlands;

AND THAT WAS ONLY MY HAND.
(LOL Elie, you shan't get what you want.)


Had Chinese remedial after school.

Accompanied Bern to 4Justice with Jon Ha cuz Bern had to return her senior's sandals.

Sitting beside Jon's weird! Haha. Cuz he was suddenly so quiet. Rachel and CS were sitting infront of us. BLACKIE-WANNABE! CS keeps calling me WHITEY-WANNABE. :\

My name wasn't in the list of people who were supposed to turn up. Wtf? Lee laoshi made me come when I didn't need to! D: *grunt*

The remedial was so fun I decided to write my name on e list like Jon and CS contemplated to do. Teehees. I'm so going back next Friday- LIANG LAOSHI OWES ME A SWEET!

Stuuupid (dieting :P) Louis shan't get thy sweets!


Okay, wordy-wordy posts suck so I shall carry on transferring all my stuffs into my external hard disc before deleting my account from the laptop.

If you're wondering, yes, it seems that ONLY my account was infected with viruses.
:\ tough luck.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Long post, your problem if you wanna read.

They're the reason I hate being a treasurer;
__'s the reason I hate sailing.



Today's like, the most fun yet most upsetting day of the week.


Went on Jhing's powerboat with Belle. Its super fun when she goes at almost full speed and races across the blue waters- nothing can beat the feeling of that!

Nevertheless me and Belle were going crazy as usual, and we started taking turns to bob up and down the sides of the powerboat. Drove Jhing nuts maybe.


Watched as the rest unrigged. Ryan took MOE B10 that Justin (Law) thought of letting me use after he stepped down so I was like, shit, the rest of the MOE boats are crap.

(See, even among the sec3s I'm just a total pushover.)

But NSC has some new rules now which are good. Hahaa.


_____ is really damn bo tua bo suay. Its like, she's our junior and she argued with a senior over a boat which we rightfully were meant to use cuz I've been using that boat all along.

Infact, when did the juniors actually start respecting us, the way we used to respect Tzuling's batch? They asked, we do, WHOLEHEARTEDLY. That way we were close and they were fun.

Juniors now are like, a killer. Not all but majority. They disrespect us like we were THEIR juniors. Ask them for a favour: "What? You ownself do la!" =.=


Talked to Aaron, Jack (surprisingly) and Belle about some problem. Ended up being a water tap again cuz it hurt so much to talk about it since I've never openly talked about this problem.


Thanks for the kind words guys, it really helped.

Well, most of it.


Cried while bathing, which was ridiculous cuz how often do I actually do that?

Maybe its cuz I was contemplating if I should be the 2nd Yixuan.


Below are just some things I just feel I have to blog out, so you can skip reading this portion.

I've had setbacks this year, too many to count infact. That doesn't mean I can't be given a chance to pick myself up and give my 110% in sailing. But yeah ___ ________ musn't think I'm up to it and the position I've been working my f***ing ass off for, for 3 years.

AND I was given a position that I totally hate. The ONE and ONLY position I told myself since sec1 I musn't take.


Yet, I had to accept it with a smile knowing its my doomsday.


I've been trying really hard to make the best out of what I'm given, but seriously its so hard to watch my goals flow down the drain as someone else who doesn't wanna be it takes that position.
I mean, I know I can't hate him.

But at least Aaron understands me, he knows I can't help myself.


Worse still, that person seems to hold a grudge against me for some unknown reason. (yeah, a freaking game called Maple, maybe)

I tried talking to him today, and he was all cold. F***. I've already tried and he's like that? Gave me all the more a reason to hate, which wasn't what I was looking for. I've been trying really hard to bury the hate, but what he's doing now just makes it WORSE!


Gosh. The world's never fair.

Thanks Aaron, at least now I know someone else understands what I'm going thru.

--------------------------------------------
Okay nevermind. I shan't keep complaining.

Sigh. My parents aren't sensitive enough to feel that I'm in a bad mood is it? They just keep bugging me, keep being lame. Its so bloody annoying.

Why, when I'm in a bad mood, I can't be left alone to cry at home?

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew, right off the ground to flow to you.

But how, do you expect me, to live alone with just me?
cuz my world revolves around you,
Its so hard for me to breathe.


Okay. WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH MY LAPTOP OMG.
Its like freaking lagging on me! Omg stupid virus. *gasp*

And it seems that both Firefox and Internet Explorer hates blogger cuz they refused to let me into blogger.com for a long time. >:\ grrrawrs!

Sorry for not blogging for the past few days.

One word:
LAZY.

And yeah now I can't even upload pics cuz the damned thing is so darn slow!


School's been fine.

But I've been so sick the past few weeks that I'm getting an MC like, once every week! :(

THATS NOT GOOD.

Today the weather turned all nasty and I turned feverish through the whole morning. I got drowsy from my medicine I slept in class, tho I couldn't cuz 3Endeavour's so DARN NOISY. *grins*

Homed, watched Gerald play Maple and POOF! I was sleeping on my comfy bed. Was so tired I told my bro I didn't wanna go out for dinner and continued sleeping :P

And there's training tomorrow. My mom was like, asking me if I wanted the doctor to exempt me from CCA.


I kinda like my choreo for No Air. Its getting along nicely.
Infact, I really wanna take up lyrical/lyrical hip hop now. :( I've been wanting to for so long!

I gotta reschedule hip hop. *grunt* cuz I'm going for Sunday's SingFest to celebrate Zahra jiejie's birthday. Its her bday and yet she's treating me to a 180bucks ticket. THANKS!


Okay, much loves to late nighters cuz I'm off to bed now.

TTFN, tata for now huhuhu!
(Quin, remember T-I-DOUBLE-GER-ERRR = TIGGER!)

Sunday, July 20, 2008

No Air

Omg I'm in love with this song. I almost cried when watching the MV and when I watched Joshua and Katee dance to this song for hiphop during So You Think You Can Dance I cried and cried T_T




No Air
>Jordin Sparks ft. Chris Brown

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus:]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It's no air, no air

[Chorus x2]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

3 sentences. /happy 980th post!

Not hoping nor thinking about much-
I just never want to lose sight of you..


I like the song Kenny Wormald made his dog (ahhh cute bulldog!) Bruschi Wormald boogie to.
You have to watch it and then you'll be admitting that Bruschi's cute, too! [;

I seriously have no idea what time to report to school tomorrow for the race. *grunt*

Someone gonna tell me? :\ whywhywhy..


..yet I never wanna fall in love with you again, EVER..


I'll be hitting the sacks right after this post.

And a happy belated birthday to WEIMING!
Shit, I kept forgetting to confirm if the number in my contacts is still his number cuz I wanted to sms him happy birthday. :\ I went to edit the post with all the birthday wishes haha.

Oh well, eyes are 'a-closing.

Seeya around, tomorrow morning!
NOW you can wish me good luck for tomorrow's race.


..then again, I already AM in love with you.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

I fell too deep.

What happens when you fall too deep in love?


Ohhhmygawd. I'm so yawnish today! Whywhywhy..

Was doing a quiz I got from Alex's blog, when I realised I already had it in my blog!
:\ I'm seriously veryveryvery boredddd.


Oh well, I'm off to Maple in a bit. :\ gotta catch up! Hahaha.
(yes, Qihua, Aaron, Iggy, you may all laugh your hearts out.)


Oh yes, dinner yesterday with Rach and Celine was fab!

Rae kept thinking I had problems in school, thats why I suddenly asked them out. Actually, yes, I do have problems. But I've been keeping them to myself for such a long time already.

I can do better than that. ;D meaning I'm just gonna keep my problems to my shit-ass face.
*grins*

We had Newyork Newyork desert. Okay technically me and Celine cuz Rachel was having dinner. Her spagetti smelled nice.. D:

Chocolate fondue! (go ahead, be jealous.)

Its awesome k. And they give a lot of the stuffs in Newyork Newyork for you to dip inside. Ahhhh. And I had icecream waffles. *gringringrin*

Photos up another time.


Wish me luck for the races later!

Don't stare!

Yes I love Kenny Wormald. Hahahaaa for you!


[EDIT]
Didn't sail today cuz I was sick. :S stupid flu from Thursday till now roar!

The Tecktonik dance (yes doofs its a form of dance, think of shuffling and jumpstyle) website is so cool. :o

[EDIT]

Friday, July 18, 2008

Birthday(s) and goodbye(s).

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIMING,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PREETHI,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DANIEL! [;

We sang happy birthday like more than 3 times. 1 for Daniel and the rest for Preethi.

GOODBYE MS DAI,
GOODBYE MR FONG.

Sigh. All the good teachers of Mayflower are leaving. (e.g. Mr James Lee. D:)

But Ms Dai gave us some really nice notes (and lollipops!)!

Went around after recess collecting sailing funds. :S rargh! I gotta go buy museli bars later. Anyone wanna pei me?

Came back, Ms Yeo still wasn't here. Did chem worksheet on acids, bases alkali yadayada and she came.

Did that stupid "spelling" shits with groupies Lianyi, Daniel and Jon Ha, then Ruixing was gonna present his powerpoint when the bell rang. Hahaha we were all cheering. I'm beginning to find his BABY PINK Zen Stone mp3 (he uses as a thumbdrive) nice. :o


Did the MF Cheer while Sera and Manda filmed it and homed! :D

Shanai: "Wah? Gwen going home straight? NAN DE WOR!"


Going out with Rach and Celine later! Its also Rach's belated birthday ahahha.

Guess what!

(What.)

I'm gonna do up a Scene hairstyle later. LOL. Okay if it doesn't turn out nice I'm gonna go bathe and wash off all the teasings in my hair. (don't know whats scene? Go youtube and find. Volumnous hair will sum it up)

Wanna catch Get Smart, but only GV in Vivo's showing it. D: J8's GV ain't! Why??!


Fun facts: My bro's friend got surprised when he came into my room & heard music playing from the speakers attached to my laptop. "Computer? This is computer? She playing meh? Got music coming out one leh!"

Aaaaand, he's pri 5.

Gawd!

It don't feel right, it don't feel right
It don't feel, it don't feel, I can't feel it no more
It don't feel right, it don't feel right
It don't feel, it don't feel, I don't feel it no more
Things don't feel right over here
Lately I ain't been seein' clear

Don't Feel Right by The Roots
So, loving's that hard, huh?

Thursday, July 17, 2008

She'll happily scream that she misses you-

SAILORS:
PLEASE BRING 2BUCKS TOMORROW FOR SAILING FUNDS JULY+AUGUST!

Thank yoooou.

Didn't go to school/training today. :\ woke up with a really bad headache that lasted thruout the night (see mom, told you one single panadol won't have any effects), sorethroat, cough and sneezing.

Infact, I've been sneezing throughout the night too from dinner till now. Which hardly happens to me. Haha.

I had this really weird dream tho...

Not like I wanna tell you. But its very.. Sims 2 like. :o like I was a Sim!
(laugh all you want..)

Ooookay.. I just sneezed twice.


Had extra for dinner and aunty Tun said I've been eating more recently. o__o
I shall cut down on my diet! Roar.

Oh well, school's tomorrow.

So I guess I'll be seeing you around, yes?
SAILORS:
PLEASE BRING 2BUCKS TOMORROW FOR SAILING FUNDS JULY+AUGUST!

Thank yoooou.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Gawd. I got so bored I played Minesweeper, the hard mode. 13 bombs left. *grins*

Kinda reminds me of life. If we take the wrong path, make the wrong decisions, won't it be game over for us?

All that polytechnic and JC chitchat session with Ms Dai and Mrs Koh has got me thinking so much roar. But they're smart people who went to RJC and VJC. :o


Training tomorrow! And my headache's killing me enough to make me not wanna go.
Even tho it IS the only training before the next regatta this weekend. *grunt*

COLORS Award this sept! *winkwink*

I'm reeeeally excited.

And right now, I'm actually thinking of what to buy for my ex-guybestie's birthday.
Which is really dumb to say that cuz I don't even know if he is my 'ex guy bestie' or still my bestfriend and that his birthday's a month away.

It all depends on what he considers me as.
(definitly a 'nothing', I guess.)


....I AM too nice for my own goody-two-shoes.

Mrs Koh's birthday has got me wondering about birthday presents. DANG!


I wanna go live in Melbourne with Nadya jiejie, so I can leave all my troubles behind, all my problems, everything thats made my 15th birthday life hell..

..and attend Fall Out Boy concerts where all the audiences are sweaty and crazy, drinking and smoking and all hyper.. (NADYA JIEJIE WENT FOR FOB'S CONCERT IN MELBOURNE! *angryface*)



And I'll go get some cute ang moh boyfriend that looks and dances like Kenny Wormald.

HAH!


Reminder: GWEN! Please collect 2bucks from each sailor tomorrow for sailing fund. Thank you! PLEASE REMEMBERRRR!

Major headaches gives me the creeps.

I've been trying to abstain myself from blogging but it seems that that ain't possible.

Infact, right now I'm having this major headache which I really cannot tahan.


Today's PE was AWEEEESOME! We played HANDBALL! Like, the best game (besides powerball), ever!

Me, Nicolette and Jani were with Ruixing, Aaron, Qihua, Izzy and Yiok An, and...?

Actually Justin and Jon were with us! But cuz the other guys' team was super imbalanced (teehee all the not-so-sporty ones), they went over. D:


From today we know:

Ruixing is a good goalkeeper (like, reaaaally good! *grins*),
Justin is a good scorer (total imba-ness okay),
Izdihar is a good any-o-how scorer (LOL cuz he scored 2 goals by anyohow throwing it in),
and I can scare opponents by screaming into their ears (I screamed infront of Daniel and he got a shock).


And the funniest goal was when Ruixing came out of the goal-area, Jon threw a far ball from one end of the hall to the other, Justin caught it and scored.

=.=



My cousins came over for dinner earlier and just talking was fun with them. Suddenly I was the littlest cousin again. Ah.

ZAHRA JIEJIE'S BRINGING ME TO SINGFEST!
And she's paying for my ticket. :o


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MRS KOH!
The best Pure Geog teacher in the world. *grins*
You know 3Endeavour's pure geog students love you loads.


I'M STILL HAPPILY IN LOVE WITH KENNY WORMALD.
My dreamed-of boyfriend.
(wuahahaha.)


And I am the new (and hopefully temp.) treasurer for sailing. :\
Hopefully temp cuz I CAN'T FREAKING WORK WITH NUMBERS FOR NUTS.

Okay. I'm not in a good mood so, seeya.


I love you.
We promised, but you broke that promise. I'm painfully keeping mine.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Kenny Wormald ♥

I LOVE KENNY WORMALD!

And I'm dreaming of him too. But DAMN! He's dating Ashley Robert from PCD. *sadface*


Shit, those water bubbles are forming on my hands again! :(:(:( ITCHY! AND ANNOYING! :-(

Hip hop was fun today. Did more than 3mins worth of continuous crunches and another maybe 4mins worth of pushups! Then got graded on our solo choreographies.

I may not have downloaded DJ Max Portable 2, but I downloaded Harvest Moon: Back To Nature Boy and Girl!

Sadly, I read some webpages and they said if you play the girl char, your game will end after your marriage whereas for the boy, he will go on to have babies etc! Wth is this?! *grunt*


Lunched with Bettina at Burger King. Had the aweeesome Double Whopper cuz I was so hungry due to not eating breakfast, but turned out I ordered Coke as my drink (surprise much) and just thinking of it made me full! :(

Ended up I brought home the half-eaten whopper burger. Hah.

Homed, got HM: BTN Boy and Girl downloaded into the PSP and played it till now. Infact its on while I type. Haha. I was so tired from hip hop that I almost fell asleep on the bed while playing, till Iggy called! :P savior!


AHH THE WATER BUBBLES ON MY HAND ARE ANNOYING MEEEEEEE!!! *double grunt*


I'm so not looking forward to school tomorrow.



I SAID!

"I KENNY WORMALD."

good morning!

Wellwell, good morning!

My mood's going to be driven to chagrin slowly. Grrr. I'm so upset! Left my laptop on overnight to download DJ Max Portable 2 (cuz my bro got Max Port. 1 deleted from my PSP!) and I think my laptop has no space or whatever.

So the download wasn't complete. Either that or the WinRAR just sucks.

*face turns puce*

Oh well. Even the Patapon USA demo I downloaded doesn't work. See, mom? I told you Patapon doesn't work in my PSP! I downloaded 4 diff times and it all. Doesn't. Work.


Did hardcore studying with Ker yesterday! She came over at 8.30AM and we studied for 5hours.

Yeowloong came over slightly earlier. He looks so shuai in his NCC uniform! :D <3 his voice broke already and he's 160cm. T_T didn't see him for a while he grew so much.


Went to DOVER to meet Bettina and Pam after that. Damn far k. Took MRT down with Yeowloong to City Hall then he took to Tampines. The sillything didn't have any idea where City Hall or anything was! Aiyoh. His parents hardly let him go out.

Slept on the train cuz I was so tired, and missed my MRT stop! Woke up and realised I was at Jurong. I was like omg oh shit. Called Bettina and took the train back.

Many little kiddos in red NDP shirts at the MRT stations! Hahaha.

Bused down to a factory outlet to get our stuffs. Betts got her pants, Pam her shirt and lovely Puma jacket.

I GOT A NEW ADIDAS JERSEY! :D (and pants.)

GUESS THE PRICE! 15bucks. *grins* I'm so happy. And its the kind I've been looking for. Tho slightly oversized but its still awesome.


Walked down to CoffeeBean where we drank ourselves silly. Pam bought this awesome and delish cake thats pure chocolate! Jiaqi would LOVE it I tell you. Cuz I know I did. Bettina got Chicago cheesecake. Yum. She forced the other half of it to me. D:

Went to Bettina's place. Its so homey! And now we know why she's so tall. Her dad and mom are taller than her, and she's slightly taller than me. Omg. D:

My mom's already shorter than me! Bettina! THATS. NOT. FAIR!!

Hmph.


Homed after that with Pam. Took 165 cuz Pam didn't wanna take 166 and suffer a super long ride. Bought stuffs and Pam bought chocos for her Pris before she homed. :D

Awesome.


And I gotta go shower cuz I'm meeting Bettina and Pam like, soon. :\ damn.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Kenny Wormald!!!




Kenny Wormald's so hot!! K yes obsession much, but he's just DAMN FREAKING HAWWWWT! Hahaha. Agreed, yes? *grins*

My future boyfriend shall look, be and dance like that. *gasp*

Fat hope, and carry on dreaming Gwen..

Dancing is like dreaming with your feet.



A video Bettina showed me, done by Eddie Uehara. Its pretty inspiring.
Props to Eddie Uehara for doing this. Awesome! ;D



Accompanying Celine to make her IC later on. She's not replying my sms! I hope she didn't accidentally fall asleep or something. Hahaa.

Oh, speak of the devil. She just replied me hahah.


School today was freezing. Its been the first time in a long while that I had to wear a jacket during morning assembly in the aircon hall. I borrowed Yokeching Lover's jacket!


English was hell funny. Ms Yeo made us play 'Blow Wind Blow' a few rounds and I ended up at Sera's seat. And my original partner Lianyi landed in Jiaqi's! So we were partners again. ;D

Justin and Izzy were behind us, so we grouped with them for English.

We gave many crap answers la. Haha. Then Jani was like, "My group got almost all correct till your group shared your answers xD" hahahaha. Cuz Justin la! Gave all the joker answers.


Part 3.5 Q8:
The first report of a UFO was filed by a police officer at ten pm. In the next two hours, more than twenty other residents reported sightings. One resident videotaped the object, which appeared as a bright light moving across the sky.

Question: Why would the resident have videotaped the UFO?


Your answer would most prob be like "Because it was the first time they have seen the UFO sightings.." blahblah.

Our answer: "Cuz he didn't have a camera." xD drove Ms Yeo to laughter with all our answers for Part 3.5. Then Justin and Izzy left their places to move away cuz they got so paisei. JUSTIN ONG ITS YOUR ANSWER!


Supposed to have literature remedial, but turns out more than half the class ponned it so Ms Martin only talked to us.

Ker and Ruixing were like "Ya la! Stay for lit remedial la, YOU LITERATURE REP LEH!"

T_T stay back lor.. End up wasted my time with Ms Martin talking to us.

Ruixing was the worst. Tell me I should zhao then I saw Ms Martin outside so I came back into the class. Then he was like "There, you should stay for class. All guai de. :D" =.= bull! LOL.


Lazy to go out later! But oh well, since Celine already asked me and she accompanied me to make my IC last week.. hahaa.


I don't wanna love you.
(but I do.)

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Home is the last place I wanna be.

I think I'm going crazy soon.

My parents drove me crazy with their sudden you're-a-juvenile-delinquient treatment and I was trashing my room quite badly (for someone like me who doesn't trash her room) and I almost thought of throwing my glass photoframe at the wall too to take the glass shards.. uhhh. Ya..

.. to pierce my arm. (not slit)

I decided to ask Ker to call me (thanks Ker!) and talk. [: she reallyreally calmed me down.

But gosh, I took my pen holder (filled with all the pens and some had their inks leaky!) and flung it at the wall. All the pens flew out in a line like some slow motion film. And my bed's leaning against the wall..

*prays* don't let my bedsheet have any ink stains!

And now I gotta clean up my bed cuz I threw literally anything I could find within my reach at the wall.


Following Celine to make her IC tomorrow after school. Might go get the shirt that we both wanted, then head down to the library to meet Ker to study.

Went to Iggy's place after school today and I think I lost my council badge there. :(:(:(

I'm not really keen on using the new one! Cuz its shiny.

Oh well, I've cried myself tired and went hysterical talking to myself for one night. I'm really tired. So I guess I'll just go bathe now and like.. catch some sleep.



P.S. yay! Prelude 12/21 by AFI has been my most listened song on my iTunes. No more Victims of Love or I Don't Wanna Be In Love (Dance Floor Anthem) by Good Charlotte.

But the play counts are 175 for Victims of Love and 174 for Dance Floor Anthem! *grins*

My phone's ringtone (Dance Floor Anthem) rocks. (even tho I've been using it for like a year)

Tho.. I am listening to Victims of Love now. :D

If you are what you say you are, a superstar
Then have no fear, the camera's here
And the microphones
And they wanna know, oh oh oh yeah

I <3 Inverts!

Oh. My. God.

I was just practising doing Inverts (or Hollowbacks) (yeaaaah. Bboy stuffs again.) and now my back's hurting like a bitch.. especially at my shoulder blades. Its damn funny practising Inverts in the middle of the night.



Some uber pro Invert transitions. Omg. But I'm aiming to get my invert as low as possible. Like to get my legs to touch my head. That guy's inverts are really damn high.

I think Imma go to school tomorrow with aching shoulder blades/back.. oww. Oww. Owwww...

And p.s. I finally made my IC. *grins*

The world is happy for me. And my picture is freggin' ugly, yes? Yes. (wait till you see it, you'll be yes-ing all the way)


OWWWCH. NOW THERE'S A BITCH PAIN IN MY RIGHT SHOULDER BLADE.

Shit, should've stretched. =.= I forgot about stretching. Hahahaa.


P.S. its 20mins after the invert practice and now my arms are hurting like a bitch too. Cuz I practiced doing freezes..

...WITHOUT my hairband this time.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

B-GIRL OR DIE!

Guess what? I'm in love with this teeshirt! I wanna get it tho its like $24.90. And I don't even know if its USD or not. Hahaha.

Met Weiming at the bus stop after school. He said "Quin, you taking 262 right? Ei youuuuuu! *looks at me* you taking 262 also right. Stop same stop as me right? I remember." I was like, "Eh? I don't remember taking bus with you leh wm."

Then he kept telling me he took bus with me before. But usually he takes at Bishan Park bus stop, IF there is someone to go home with.

He was like telling me not to get off at the same stop as Quin cuz he thought I was going home. But too bad! I was going to Quinneh's place today. *innocent smile*


Quin's house is so homey! I really liked it. Especially her messy storeroom/makeshift 'bedroom'.

I went back to my place after she was done, wearing her Vans school shoes! Aweeeesome. Its so comfy tho its like, only size 8. I'm wishing I could kidnap her shoes. I'm beginning to like them a lot now...

After I finished bathing we went to Iggy's place to eat our Macs that Iggy ordered. Qihua and Patrick were there. Ate and watched them play CS, Maple and o2mania.

Stayed there till 7plus and went to J8 to get *'s present.

Patrick was like "Aiyoh Iggy! * treats you so badly and you still wanna get him something like that?!" before we left and Iggy was all "No la its okay.. not like I wanted to fight with him anyway."

Homed while Iggy and Quin went for dinner.


I'm not going to school tomorrow cuz I'm going to make my IC! Which has been long overdued by 3 months. Patrick's birthday is on 26th April and he's already made his.

My birthday? 8th April, and I don't see my IC anywhere. Hahahaa.

And I'm going with Celine! Best! Hahaha. Might have dinner with our moms, another catching-up session. Gawd knows how much I missed her.

But cuz her mom can bail her out of school while my mom can't (well, she can. Except when that happens she's gonna be at my school at 8.30AM) so I won't go to school at all.

I envy AMKSians! Hahaha. And their greeny uniforms.



You know whats the dumbest thing someone could do while practising breakdancing?

Do a freeze with her hairband on.

Yes, that idiot was me. My hairband just poked into my scalp the moment I did the freeze. And I didn't even react fast enough. Just remained there and "Owwww"-ed while slowly coming back up. =.=

Monday, July 07, 2008

What, so your life's screwed.
.
.
.
Mine isn't?

What, so I'm stating what the other person said, trying to hear your story.
.
.
.
I'm biased?

Well, French Connection United Kingdom off.

-------------------------------------------------
Anyways. I've got my own problems.


  1. 1. you don't know how it feels to be wanted by another friend just cuz the other people don't want him/her, after all the time of being abandoned by him/her.
  2. everytime your dad scolds you he accuses your ex boyfriend for all your attitude changes. And he says it as I stated, except with a "Whats with your attitude change?" infront.

    (and how it hurts you so bad you need to hold yourself together when he's mentioned, but yet your dad still mentions him and you have to pretend everything's alright. Especially since you don't want him to be blamed at all.)

  3. your parents treat you like a prisoner.
  4. and that your dad literally thinks your dreams are bullshit, and that it'll make you a lousy person.
  5. I hate seeing two of my closest friends saying stuff about each other behind their backs OVER A FUCKING GAME.
  6. It feels miserable to suspect you've got mild depression cuz you keep contemplating to kill yourself, like you've seen it in your mind that you'll die, like it was an epiphany.
  7. you're worried about your gran all the time.

8. And well, guess what?

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO HAVE YOUR LIFE SCREWED UP.
(or at least, what it feels like when it was DAMN screwed up.)

Cuz I've got more problems than that.

It sucks when you keep smiling cuz it happens automatically, when you'd rather be frowning really hard to show people that you're upset. (and that every moment you're actually secretly contemplating your suicide.) (double lol.)

But you can't.






Cuz, you can't.

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mindOr I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
A guy like you is impossible to find-
You're impossible to find.

Cool Mint!!





Don't watch the whatever Miracle Cats. Wait for the whole thing to load and jump straight to Cool Mint's dance. :D





Cool Mint vs. Spectacle! They lost omg D: but okay la this vid I gotta admit Spectacle was better. Haha the intro for Cool Mint was damn funny cuz they showed all the clips of them while dancing, which of course they got the scary punk look la. Then they show them without the makeup and the guy's like, "Mmm. Kawaii.." LOL.


Go to this link. Cuz this is like the best vid but then the person disabled embedding. D:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dAO8OsMQDj0



Watch the part with Quattro Dimension (the group with 2 girls and one girl does a backflip and stands ontop of the other girl)! :D AWEEEEEESOMEEE!

i'm not even close this time- and thats a fact.

Why not be happy when you can be, and let go of the memories.


going out with sailors later. Shit. I also don't even know whats the plan with them.

guess what! i'm trying to type a whole blog post without using capital letters. which already failed cuz i used it 3 times. teehees.

i'm seriously so bored!


and i think i've gotten a veryveryvery mild depression. cuz i'm like, f**king getting upset over every little minute detail that happens in my life. and i keep wanting to take something like a knife to end my life or something.

but nah, there are people who care.
who (ACTUALLY BOTHER TO) care.


i don't wanna go out. iggy thiammmm. spare me man. today's a holiday.

sorry bettina! about me and pam cancelling on you. and by gawd its raining so heavily. i seriously don't feel like going out at all. lazy bumness much, but yeah who the heck feels like going out on a rainy day??!


there's a she. but she's not me.


i was thinking about what jiaqi told me. hahaha. am i supposed to get upset? jiaqi thought i would, i think, cuz she seemed shocked when i wasn't all "omg?" and instead was nonchalent. hahah. i don't really like him anyways, so yeah why should i care much about him.

Hi. Hi. Hi.

I'm bored.
I'm eating McChicken burger bought 2 days ago.
I'm in the clothes I wore to sleep.
I'm not done reading Eclipse.
And I'm starting this blog post with a quiz.
(yes these quizzes are all from friendster, but I don't really bother)



ARE YOU
1. Perfect:
Noeps. Are YOU?

2. Tall:
165cm, which translates into SHORT.

3. In your pajamas:
PE shorts and blue shirt, so maybe yes.

4. Left handed:
Righty.

LAST
1. Friend you saw:
Hip hop friends.

2. Talked to on the phone:
Uh, Celine Xie XJ. *grins*

3. Person to text you:
Pam.

4. Was today better than yesterday:
Its only 1:14pm, so I can't really tell..

FAVORITE:
1. Number:
48.

2. Color:
Red, orange and black.

3. Food:
Idk. Chocolate!

4. Place:
Places where no one'll actually bug me to death.

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q. What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: Look around for my Eclipse book cuz I slept while reading it.

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: Uhm, yes. (not like YOU could do anything about it.)

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
A: Kungfu Panda. *dies*

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: My aunt's place in Eunos.

Q. Do you smile a lot?
A: Do you see me frown a lot?

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: Yeah. Okay sometimes.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: *looks at self in mirror* Obviously, duh.

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Not sure. Very recently thats all.

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: Something like, "if you don't bother, what for initiate talking in the first place?"

That's all I'll say.

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad ten being great?
A: 3.

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: Rain pouring outside my window, What You Got by Colby Odonis playing on my iTunes..

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
A. Yeah.

Q: What's your favorite month?
A: April, and December.

Q: Are you missing someone right now?
A: Yeah, not like its your business.

Q: Are you tired?
A: Tired of life.

Sunday, July 06, 2008

F**k! I dropped my husband the 5th, the darling camera!

And now the freaking battery compartment lock broke/chipped off, and the batt compartment can't lock anymore! *whines*

And my mom freaking over-reacted when I told her I dropped the cam and the batt compartment broke. She was literally almost-screaming at me la! "WHAT?! HOW DID YOU BREAK IT?!!!" then I was like "ITS A SMALL PIECE LA CAN?!?!" and she's all "Oh... *gives a thoughtful face*"

Bullshit overreactor.

Now I need to register for my warranty, and I don't have the freaking warranty serial number! FREAK! I think I'll need to pay for the repairs.. sigh.

It only makes me stronger.

I love you.

Thats my secret.

No hearts, no pretty drawings.
No poems or cryptic messages.

I love you.
-laneyyx613 on photobucket


I'm seriously bored to tears now! Home alone drinking my small 320ml bottle of Mogu Mogu. Its pretty nice, idk why da-yi said that the strawberry one tasted like medicine.

Its so good to see Nadya jiejie again! And she's going back to Aussie next week damn. She's skinnier now. Had lunch with da-yi and family and my own family at some restaurant in Paya Lebar. A lot of Bangladesh workers around that area (with maids!)! Wth man.

1 hour bus ride home alone from Eunos to AMK. Played Grand Theft Auto on the way and fell asleep at around Thomson. Almost missed my own stop! Hahaha.


Hip hop today was aweeeeesome! And I got a vid of Crystal dancing. She made up the dance in her head in the moment that I was fiddling with the MP3. Awesome, no?

But she dyed her hair black again! :( I miss her blonde hair. Haha.

And oh, try doing crunches for like, 3mins plus straight. Then immediately after that do pushups again continuously for 3mins plus straight!!

Its like woah, the song was 3min 33sec and we did crunches thruout. Then Crystal made us do pumping (fast), pumping (slow) and plank (means hold it there but elbows on the ground) when she replayed the song. KILLER! Hahaa.



Some pictures after Bettina's choreo to Whine Up by Kat Deluna. This was just her "rough draft". [:



And Crystal's version of the dance, since she wanted to dance to this song when we asked her to think of a choreo and dance for us. Teehee.

Gawd its dark now. Shopping with the hip hop people tomorrow for clothes. Hahahaa. And late breakfast/early lunch at Holland Village! [:

Everyone's asking me out tomorrow grr. I should just split myself up, cuz Jack told me David wants to go Sentosa tomorrow! Damn.


OHOHOH! Celine's AMKSS NOMADS is finally over! OMG FINALLY. I miss the girl so much man. Finally can do some catch up with her. Yayyayyayyayayayaaays!


I GOTTA SHIT!

Baby, what doesn't kill us will only make us stronger.
Booooo.

I'm gonna wake up super early tomorrow morning so I can go down to the studio to polish my choreography with Bettina. Yayness.. so I'll wake up aaaaat.. 8.30am!

And I seriously hate/am jealous of people who wear Nike Dunks/Vandals to hip hop. Grrr. Why must my Dunks Low be white! :(:(:(:(:(:(

My new aim shall be to.. SAVE UP FOR A NEW PAIR OF NIKE VANDALS!

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Stunned.

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything
that I have to live without
Omg I'm so sleepy. But I'm not happy/done with my 4-counts-of-8 choreo that I'll be presenting to Crystal and the hip hopers tomorrow! Ugh!

Its the only thing standing between me, my Eclipse book and a good night's sleep. :(:(:(:(:(:(

Jiaying asked me the weirdest question earlier: "Why do you alllllways call me Yingying?"

And we had a little chat. All cuz she got so pained by the fact she couldn't play the PSP. Hahaha. Cuteness/spoilt-bratness. Then Jiawen came in and joined in the talk. She's finally talking so much! (to me duh.)

Was talking to Jiaying about our age difference of 8 years (she managed to count it faster than me, and she's 7) and Jiawen jumped between me on the bed going "I'm twoooooo! I'm two!!" and I told her to count with me how big our age diff was. Damn cute thing!


Pictures I took from the Interschools days will be up soon I swear.


Someone send me PATAPON!! MELODY NEOOOO DO YOU ALREADY HAVE IT? Hahaha.

I'm so dying with the PSP lacking of fun games. Gerald la, removed my DJ Max for his Grand Theft Auto (Vice City)!!! ROARGH with exclaimation marks!

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

Teardrops On My Guitar

Teardrops on My Guitar
> Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I need everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

My love.

Lets just return to the past. I'd prefer not talking.


B div girls got 4th for interschools! First time I ever got something for interschools, happy duh.

Sorry Ning, Peckkhee. Cuz of my bad ranking for the last race we didn't manage to beat Katong Convent tho we were only a few points behind them. :(

Cried the moment I crossed the finishing line all the way till I got back to shore and unrigged my boat. Edward kept comforting me. Sorry! But then again, thanks. You're right- at least we won something.


Dinner at Seoul Garden was fun. Sat with David, Ryan, Nic Wong and Jhing, our beloved coach! It was awesome to talk about our nursery to primary school lives. Hahah.

Played tic tac toe with Weiming, cuz my table's people mixed all the random foods together into the soup, making it real disgusting. I lost 3 times, and had to drink the concoction thrice. D: TASTED LIKE CHILI AND COLESLAW! Awwmans!

When we left the place, a few gangsters banged into us when they walked past. Like effing rude much. One of them banged into my shoulders real hard.

Iggy said "fuck you" when they went up, and they heard. So they came back down, and wanted to confront us. They didn't dare la.

When we left they shouted at us from the top floor and some of the sailors went back up to wait for them. But the gangsters didn't dare to come down. LOL.

So the whole issue was over when Mubarak went into 7-11 to confront them and talk it out, but they didn't dare to talk tho they started this whole problem. Bak said they went all the way inside 7-11 when they saw him and Iggy! HAHAHAA.

Its so annoying. And I had to keep telling the sailors not to cause trouble cuz Mrs Sidhu just treated us, how would she feel if they got into trouble after treating us to a celebrating meal?


Homed and used the laptop. Felt sleepy by 1am and slept.


And now I gotta rush out a choreography for tomorrow's hip hop or Crystal will slaughter me.

4 out of 8 counts.. easy. If only I would stop freestyling. Its difficult to choreograph when all you know how to do is freestyle!! Ugh.


I love you, but I'd rather not suffer when I feel you're only making facade.

Quizzes

WHATS-
1. what song are you listening to now?
Rompe by Daddy Yankee.
2. what did you do today?
Woke up, read Eclipse, ate breakfast (see, I'm so hooked to Eclipse I read it before anything!), watched Spongebob, carried on with my choreography and now I'm doing this.
3. what's for lunch, yesterday?
Didn't really have lunch. Beef horfun from Uncle Raymond's shop.

(spits.) bleah.

4. what always make you smile?
Funny people!
5. what if you were to die in 1 month's time?
I'd tell anyone/someone important how important she/he is to me and how much I love them and I'd mend all my broken friendships and love everyone more and more.
WHENS-
6. when was your last movie?
Looooong ago please.
7. when did you last cried?
Yesterday, over screwing up my race during interschools. I cried from the time I crossed the finish line till I unrigged my boat! LOL.
8. when did you last read a book?
Today morning. Refer to above please. *grins*
9. when are you going to watch tv?
Uh, now that I'm using the laptop, never?

Or tonight, maybe.

10. when was your last kiss?
Never kissed someone before. Unless its my family and thats like, in primary 2 maybe.
WHOS-
11. who last made you laughed?
Weiming, Ning, Belle.. aiyah all the sailors!
12. who last made you curse?
Weiming. *grimaces*
13. who goes home with you?
No one. But most of the time David's nice enough to walk me home before he cabs home. *grins*
14. who owes you money?
IGNAAAAATIUS THIAM! Hahaaa.
15. who would you give the world up for?
Someone.

(why should I tell you?)

WHERES-
16. where would you go for a one month holiday?
Coppenhagen. I've been telling everyone this for like, years ever since the Music Awards in Coppenhagen!
17. where do you find happiness?
In my favourite people.
18. where is the best place to have dinner at?
Newyork Newyork. Hahahaa.
19. where can you usually be found?
At home, or hanging out around AMK.
20. where do you wish you were right now?
Some place with someone I could cry and talk my heart out to.
HOWS-
21. how can you love somebody?
I just can.
22. how tall are you?
165cm. I gotta do more skipping -- I'm short!
23. how would you kill somebody you hate?
I won't kill them. I'd kill myself.
24. how often do you eat ice cream?
Too often to be true, but its fattening so I put it off.
25. how many times have you said hi to your crush today?
None.
RANDOM-
26. will you sing in front of your school? why/why not?
I only sang infront of my school once- in pri5.

And no I will only sing to my room- pillows, computer, Rubik's Cube. Definitly not you.

27. have you ever been hugged by somebody you dunno?
Uh, no.
28. do you believe in horoscopes?
Sometimes. Hahaa.
29. will you hug somebody you dunno?
Depends..
30. comforted a friend today?
Yeah. I guess.