I'm sorry but I need to vent my anger-

F**k.

I've had a bad day, had so much damned things to worry and ponder about.
I gotta worry about how I'm gonna sail now,
I gotta worry about the blood test cuz I hate needles,
I got all paranoid when I saw the pic of the woman with hyperthyroid cuz her neck was like a frog's.

I even have to worry about how we are now! GODDAMNNIT.

You have no idea how happy I was when you asked me to play k. Thought we were gonna talk. But one simple fucking mistake and its back to square one again?

Hello? Read above! I'VE HAD A FUCKING BAD DAY OKAY?!
And I can't even show my mom how sad I am cuz she's already worried like shit when I fainted.

I didn't even tell ANYONE how upset I was today. I just smiled and smiled to anything like an idiot!!

AND NOW I GOTTA PUT UP WITH THIS SHIT?
(sorry, hyperthyroids causes me to throw tantrums and impatientness)

You think I won't get all paranoid and think that you purposely camped there and waited till I found you and then you logged out on purpose cuz I made you pissed off? GOSH. I'm already jumping to conclusions about myself, much less about you, y'know?

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD?

I DON'T WANNA MUTHAFUCKING TURN 15.
ITS JUST IN A WEEK AND A BIT.
2008 IS THE WORST YEAR EVER!

CAN'T ANYONE JUST GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK ALREADY?!


You don't know how I feel towards you! YOU THINK I DON'T CARE.

OH, SO I AM THE SELFISH TYPE WHO DOESN'T CARE ABOUT THINGS/PEOPLE THAT ARE LIKE FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME, INCLUDING YOU?

MOTHERFUCKING SHIT.
(not refering to anyone)

I HAVEN'T BROKE DOWN IN A LONG TIME ALREADY AND TODAY DID IT. OKAY?

I HAD TO BE PULLED TO SEE THE GODAMNED DOCTOR WHO DIAGNOSED I WAS SICK,
I HAD TO FAINT INFRONT OF MY RELATIVES AND THEREFORE MY AUNT'S TELLING ME NOT TO SAIL,
I GOT MY MOM SO WORRIED ABOUT ME, I'M SO UPSET BUT I DON'T WANNA TELL ANYONE OR SHOW IT TO ANYONE,
I CAN'T EXERCISE CUZ OF HYPERTHYROID,
I CAN'T FUCKING DO ANYTHING!

I'm useless, I can't do anything, I can't even think of what can actually make you happy! YOU HAD TO TELL ME!

Woah Gwen, smart much.
YOU'RE JUST A FUCKING DUMBASS WHO WORRIES YOUR PARENTS AND TEACHERS CUZ ALL YOU CAN DO IS FAIL AND FAIL AND FKING FAIL EVERY SUBJECT AND GET SUANNED FOR IT!

Even when you try, heaven makes fun of you and makes you fail by 2marks for a subject you've tried so hard to pass. Its THAT funny huh?

I'VE BEEN PUTTING SO MUCH EFFORT INTO TRAINING NOW AND I'M DETERMINDED TO DO ANYTHING FOR SAILING! BUT YET I GET THIS SHIT WHEN INTERSCHOOL'S SO NEAR! WHY?!

Then I get the heck-care attitude from you! Woah, that helps me a lot doesn't it?

Yeah, thats how it is. I get happy for a slight moment and after that the feeling's turned to anger and sadness cuz whatever you say just sinks into me.

Do I have to spell out who you are and what you mean to me?

Its only March, I've had a horrible year. A damned horrible year.

And I can only cry. Motherfking crybaby.
Don't get your mom worried about you Gwen.

I'M MAKING EVERYONE SO BLOODY PISSED OFF! WHY?!

I DON'T WANNA TURN 15.
-GET LOST 8TH APRIL.

Why aren't you here when I need you the most?
Instead you're just adding on to everything bad.

I want things to return to the way it was before, before all the quarrels and arguements started.
You have seriously no idea how much you mean to me.
Why can't you for once, lend me your shoulder to cry on?
Or your ears so that you can listen and not suan me for what I say?
I just wished you were here. I would've hugged you.
I'm just so tired of life. I'm getting the temptations again.

Oh god gwen please don't try slitting.. you promised yourself.