STEPUP2 THE STREETS!

Went to watch Step Up 2 The Streets with Quin, Iggy, Nicholas Wong and Mubarak after sailing pt today! ;D THE MOVIE IS AWESOME. Awful storyline (cuz there ain't any at all), but yeah the dances were totally aweeeeesome! ;}

I wanna go watch it again man. Hahah. Super nice can! ;D I really wanna go learn breakdancing man. :D Iggy wants to learn with me! YAY! Hahah. Gonna be super fun ;]

But damn sad la, I think they cut a lot of scenes cuz in the trailers I watched before the movie, there was this conversation between the character Cassie and Robert Hoffman was playing was supposed to have that supposedly talks about how Cassie hates "Andie" (Briana Evigan).. but I never heard that dialouge in the movie D:

P.S. DID YOU KNOW?! JABBAWOCKEEZ MADE AN APPEARANCE IN STEP UP 2 THE STREETS!!!

You can ask Iggy, I was SQUEALING when I saw the familiar white masks and white gloves. Then he was like "o__o what thing?" then I "AHHHHH JABBAWOCKEEZ OMG!! OMGOMG JABBAWOCKEEZ!!!!!!!" then he "Huhhhh? What thing?" "JABBAWOCKEEZ! Omg they made an appearance! NICE RIGHT THEIR DANCE? LIKE OMG. AHHHHHHHH JABBAWOCKEEZ!! *grins and smiles like I was given a lollipop*"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fxGKY6ECy8M

Walao can only give the link cuz for this video I found, embedding was disabled by the user. Freak la ITS LIKE HELL AWESOME CAN?


K theres this video but its like super lor-soh. So its like yeah.. just look out for the guys in red with white masks and gloves! :D and oh, I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT CUTE GUY THAT LOOKS LIKE SHIA LEBEOUF IS ONLY 15. Damnnit!

And from that video can show you how much they cut from the actual video. Damn saddening la! It looks much nicer with all those scenes can. :\

SMS Zoo Trail tomorrow! Gonna be fun ;D cuz I'm with the hyper lil' kiddo JIAQI! ;}

Super lots of pics tomorrow, thats for sure. Hahah.

Piggy sprained his ankle today when playing soccer with some of the guys before PT. =.= smart. Cuz I noticed he wasn't with the sailors after they ran and all. Nic wong told me when he fell there was this "brraaaaaak" sound. WAPIANG EH. Can imagine annot? Freaking gross la! Its like the bone tio crack dao... EEEEE! *shivers*

Take care la you, stupid piggy. ;D hahah. Always injuring your feet. And jiayou for tomorrow's Rubik's comp! Which I don't have to wish you cuz you'd own la please. =.= haiyo! Hahah.

Aiyah, I root for you can le la. LOL. Down there (silently) cheer for you! Teehee. Tada I'm supah nice! :D pleaseeeee la, take care of your stupid stinky medicated foot k. If not every step you take shall make a "brrrraaaaaaaaaaaaak!" sound. AND THAT'LL FREAK ME OUT LIKE NONSENSICAL SHITZ! D: hahaha.

And oh, not sailing tomorrow cuz of the SMS Zoo Trail thingy which ends around 6-ish? Yuuuup.

And I'm still wondering about the blood test. Celine says it doesn't hurt la but YEAH I BET IT DOES! D: & :((


I'M SO GONNA GET THE STEPUP2 THE STREETS SOUNDTRACK YO! ;D
Or I can get as my bday present to myself.

Okay not really cuz my wishlist's below! Hahah, ch-ch-check it out yo.

P.S. if you like Step Up 2 The Streets, check out the movie "How She Moves". But its not about hiphop la, its about Stepping, which is damn cool cuz stepping's looks super fun? Watched this show on MTV thats a series all about Stepping. :D quite fun la. And I read that How She Moves is much better than Step Up 2 cuz theres ACTUALLY a storyline and it tells why its important for education etc. ;]

bloooood test! D:

Nikon D40! ;D

The next on my wanted list of cameras. YAY!
I'm so greedy hahah. One camera after the other.

But this is an exception cuz I've been wanting an SLR camera since forever! Yay! Hahah.

Still thinking about the blood test. Walked to the kitchen earlier after watching "Tru Confessions" on Disney Channel (SHIA LEBEOUF ACTED IN IT! No wonder I found Tru's mentally challenged brother so familiar. This movie must've been years back la!) and it suddenly hit me I didn't wanna be sick. :(

My mom was telling me that we'll still have to wait for the blood test thing, it won't be confirmed whether I've got hyperthyroid until I take the blood test.

EEEEEW. :\

I'm bored.
(k, all my posts start out with that)

I find its really not hard to worry about blood tests. :\ my mom was talking to my dad about when I should take my blood test to confirm if I have Hyperthyroids, and I was like freaking out.

Its also hard to imagine that if those medicines/treatments etc don't work, how my neck would be like a frog's. :\ thats reaaal chio man. I saw the pics yesterday of this lady so yeah.

Wasn't feeling well today, so missed tuition and dance.
Coughing like anything now. Gah! D:

Btw, I leveled up in Maple! :D finally a lvl 44 assasin. ^^V accomplishment! Hahah!
Sorry about yesterday.
K no point in me saying I'm sorry, cuz thats all I've been saying.
Anyway, its not like you'll believe me anyways.
I really had a bad day. You're not my punching bag, I've never thought of you that way.


If you don't understand how I feel, just shut up.

Hmmm. I'm bored. :\ tuition in 2hrs and I don't feel like going, light-headed and all. :D
AND still sleepy. Hahah!

Oh yeah, did I mention? I FINALLY BOUGHT SHADES! that actually fit my face la.
See, changing partings has all the good outcomes man. I can finally fit long-awaited shades ;D

1. Wallet
2. Pencilcase
3. New totebag
4. Havianas slippers
5. Shorts
6. That cute shirt from The Art Box or whatever. ;]
7. Tanks, baggy pants, wristband, cap for hiphop @_@ (I really need to consult Be---whatever her name was)
8. MY NIKE WATERBOTTLE BACK! :(

Ah. My wishlist/needs list is either bloody long or bloody unaffordable. :\ oooohkays! Time to save up yo. Hahaha.

Anyway. I got my shades, bracelets (okay its actually called 'sexbands' =.=), Ripples slippers and white thick hairband all in a day! & almost bought the blue cute shirt la. :\ I feel so accomplished! Going back to Plaza Sing to shop soon I bet. Hoho.

I'm sorry but I need to vent my anger-

F**k.

I've had a bad day, had so much damned things to worry and ponder about.
I gotta worry about how I'm gonna sail now,
I gotta worry about the blood test cuz I hate needles,
I got all paranoid when I saw the pic of the woman with hyperthyroid cuz her neck was like a frog's.

I even have to worry about how we are now! GODDAMNNIT.

You have no idea how happy I was when you asked me to play k. Thought we were gonna talk. But one simple fucking mistake and its back to square one again?

Hello? Read above! I'VE HAD A FUCKING BAD DAY OKAY?!
And I can't even show my mom how sad I am cuz she's already worried like shit when I fainted.

I didn't even tell ANYONE how upset I was today. I just smiled and smiled to anything like an idiot!!

AND NOW I GOTTA PUT UP WITH THIS SHIT?
(sorry, hyperthyroids causes me to throw tantrums and impatientness)

You think I won't get all paranoid and think that you purposely camped there and waited till I found you and then you logged out on purpose cuz I made you pissed off? GOSH. I'm already jumping to conclusions about myself, much less about you, y'know?

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD?

I DON'T WANNA MUTHAFUCKING TURN 15.
ITS JUST IN A WEEK AND A BIT.
2008 IS THE WORST YEAR EVER!

CAN'T ANYONE JUST GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK ALREADY?!


You don't know how I feel towards you! YOU THINK I DON'T CARE.

OH, SO I AM THE SELFISH TYPE WHO DOESN'T CARE ABOUT THINGS/PEOPLE THAT ARE LIKE FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME, INCLUDING YOU?

MOTHERFUCKING SHIT.
(not refering to anyone)

I HAVEN'T BROKE DOWN IN A LONG TIME ALREADY AND TODAY DID IT. OKAY?

I HAD TO BE PULLED TO SEE THE GODAMNED DOCTOR WHO DIAGNOSED I WAS SICK,
I HAD TO FAINT INFRONT OF MY RELATIVES AND THEREFORE MY AUNT'S TELLING ME NOT TO SAIL,
I GOT MY MOM SO WORRIED ABOUT ME, I'M SO UPSET BUT I DON'T WANNA TELL ANYONE OR SHOW IT TO ANYONE,
I CAN'T EXERCISE CUZ OF HYPERTHYROID,
I CAN'T FUCKING DO ANYTHING!

I'm useless, I can't do anything, I can't even think of what can actually make you happy! YOU HAD TO TELL ME!

Woah Gwen, smart much.
YOU'RE JUST A FUCKING DUMBASS WHO WORRIES YOUR PARENTS AND TEACHERS CUZ ALL YOU CAN DO IS FAIL AND FAIL AND FKING FAIL EVERY SUBJECT AND GET SUANNED FOR IT!

Even when you try, heaven makes fun of you and makes you fail by 2marks for a subject you've tried so hard to pass. Its THAT funny huh?

I'VE BEEN PUTTING SO MUCH EFFORT INTO TRAINING NOW AND I'M DETERMINDED TO DO ANYTHING FOR SAILING! BUT YET I GET THIS SHIT WHEN INTERSCHOOL'S SO NEAR! WHY?!

Then I get the heck-care attitude from you! Woah, that helps me a lot doesn't it?

Yeah, thats how it is. I get happy for a slight moment and after that the feeling's turned to anger and sadness cuz whatever you say just sinks into me.

Do I have to spell out who you are and what you mean to me?

Its only March, I've had a horrible year. A damned horrible year.

And I can only cry. Motherfking crybaby.
Don't get your mom worried about you Gwen.

I'M MAKING EVERYONE SO BLOODY PISSED OFF! WHY?!

I DON'T WANNA TURN 15.
-GET LOST 8TH APRIL.

Why aren't you here when I need you the most?
Instead you're just adding on to everything bad.

I want things to return to the way it was before, before all the quarrels and arguements started.
You have seriously no idea how much you mean to me.
Why can't you for once, lend me your shoulder to cry on?
Or your ears so that you can listen and not suan me for what I say?
I just wished you were here. I would've hugged you.
I'm just so tired of life. I'm getting the temptations again.

Oh god gwen please don't try slitting.. you promised yourself.

Thyroids, 'S' shaped back and maybe no more sailing. :(

Today was funnnnnn.

Cuz I found out how sick I REALLY am. (no, not sick in the *ahemahem* way)
And I FAINTED TODAY! (well, almost. I blacked out but got revived in less than god knows how long)

Fainted (okay, I ALMOST did) while doing accupuncture. The doctor called it "yun1 zhen1" fainting accupuncture/needle? o__o hahah whatever to shitty translations.

Me and Celine were like waiting till it was time for our needles to be taken out, then my mom was talking to her. My needles just went in less than 5mins ago. Thought I felt tired so I rested my head on the back of the chair, then felt like vomiting and started coughing in this "blearghhhhh. cough cough blearrrgh." way. Head started spinning and I felt like I was suaying backwards so I told my mom I felt like vomiting, then I told her again I felt like fainting.

Then my mom ran outside and told the doc that her daughter felt like fainting or something and after that my vision went blur and everything I heard was damn bloody muffled. :\ hahah.. {?} by the time the doc ran into the room she was all "aiyoh poor girl!" in Chinese. So she took out the needles and all my relatives rushed in going "Gwen fainted!" (Celine told me this. I already halfway thru K.O. liao)

THEY FORCED 1 COFFEE SWEET, 2 CUPS OF MILO, 1 LEMON FLAVOURED HI-CHEW, 1 CHOCOLATE COATED BISCUIT AND 2 CUPS OF WATER DOWN MY THROAT!

The doc made me drink it to get my sugar levels up cuz the blood didn't flow to my head cuz of my thyroids thing, which causes me to have short breath, easily impatient and always throwing tantrums. Of course, blood can't flow into my head well enough cuz of this illness thing so I tend to faint easily, get headaches more often and get sleepy easily. :\ weeeeird.

Cuz I have low blood pressure and I'm suspected of having this illness called thyroid disease or something. Its some illness/problem thats most probably heditary since my uncle and his sister or something has it too.

While most doctors and moms tell their kids not to eat sweets, the doc and my mom tells me to eat MORE sweets to get my sugar levels up. :\

And now I gotta bring sweets to school everyday to eat, just incase my head spins or something. D: aiyohhh!

After drinking and eating those stuffs I felt better and Celine said my lips turned from beige to pink. :\ omg I must have looked like a freak hahah. Then the doc helped me do qigong cuz I can't do accupuncture already. So I lay there for dunno how long as she rubbed my hands and head (also to prevent me from fainting)

After everyone did their checkups with the doc my mom told her my back hurts quite oftenly. And when she took a look at my back you know what?

MY BACK'S SLANTED. My mom, the doc and Celine all saw my back had this 'S' shape at the bone. Most prob cuz I sit in a slanted position with my body leaning to the front while sailing.

Then the doc pressed and pressed my back or something and it wasn't as slanted. But it still is quite la, so now I gotta do some of the exercises she recomended me.

And oh, people with thyroids can't exercise due to the fact they have short breath.

After the fainting thing, my aunt was persuading me to quit sailing. :((( "Aiyah don't sail liao la Gwendy! Just dance can liao what." :\ sighhhh I'M SO NEVER GONNA QUIT!

Finally told my mom I got giddy spells on the way to the bus stop to school quite a few times and she got damn worried o__o sorry mom! :((

But my mom's gonna talk to Mrs Sidhu on Tuesday after sailing. Most probably I won't be able to sail for a long time if my thyroids is like, there or something. D: WAKAO INTERSCHOOLS COMING LA DEY! I almost cried la.

The doc said that I can't stay under the sun for too long, most prob 30mins would kill me. Then me and Celine were like laughing and Celine told her that once I go under the sun I go under the sun for hours. Then the doc "huh zhe yang bu xing ne!" ("huh this won't do, cannot like that!")

:\ oh god. I really regret seeing the doc.

Now I gotta go take my blood test to confirm if I'm suffering from thyroids or something, then I gotta take medicines if thats the case. :(

And if that IS the case, no more sailing/sailing PT for a while. :( a loooong, long while.

Gawd, I'll kill myself if that's the case.

So if you see me eating sweets in class, yeah, I NEED it. :\

Oh well, on the brighter side, my Low Blood Pressure's 70 now! :D and my High Blood Pressure's 100. :D slightly better. Johnathan was the same as me LOL. Low blood pressure peeps. Hahah.


Don't need anymore problems.
Don't need to be degraded at this point of time.
Don't know why you don't ever notice.


Hyperthyroidism
Hyperthyroidism can cause nervousness, irritability, increased perspiration, intolerance to heat, fatigue, difficulty sleeping, a fast heartbeat, irregular menstrual periods in girls, and muscle weakness. People with this problem might lose weight even though they're eating more than usual. The eyes may feel irritated or look like they're staring. Sometimes the tissues around the eyes become inflamed and swollen, and the eyes appear to bulge out, but this is less common in teens than in adults with hyperthyroidism.

:\ my God.

JabbaWockeeZ

JABBAWOCKEEZ!

They're totally awesome right? :D FLARES ON THE HOOD OF A CAR LEH! Like omfg. ;] the last vid when they ended the dance and all the lights were back on the one who dumped himself in the dustbin was freaking cute la!

thy randomness.

Gonna hit 800 posts soon! Hahah. This is my uhm, 781th? :D

Didn't post yesterday night after pizzahut cuz I was supah tired. Went surfing around websites and found myself like this: x.x so I went to sleep. Hahah.

I'm like still supahdupah tired can? Yawning away. Think I slept at 11am plus la.

Going to aunt's place to see the chinese sensei again. :\ whatever la, see her, get more chinese medicines to drink, and maybe those accupunctures again. Which totally suck, btw.

Celine's coming along! And she can meet my cousincousins Timothy and Johnathan. :D but I kinda doubt they'll be at home cuz they're always either having softball training or at tuition. Damn smart k. I wanna ask Tim about the ACS(I) sailors. I BET there's one from his class man.

Then going SHOPSHOPSHOP! with Celine after that! And maybe my mom :D teehee walking ATM. OOOOOKAY joking much! Hahah. But yeah. Might meet Yokeching lover and Lianyi dear if Yokeching replies my sms. :\ wakeywakey lover!!

Btw, pizzahut yesterday was gooooood. :}
And for once, I ate so much but didn't get full (till my mom made me finish the remaining crust thingy)! ;D maybe cuz I skipped lunch and dinner.. so yeah. Okay technically I HAD the pizza as my dinner. Hoho.

& oh, Mr Tang's been PMS-ing in class on Thursday when I didn't come I think. Aaron said he was acting weirdly. He came into class, threw his file on the floor. Then he gostan (reversed) and picked up his file and placed it on the table o__o

And heard he was banging tables over and over again when the class wasn't quiet. But he didn't warn them or anything. Like he just snapped and started banging the table and wall I think. HAHHAA.

I hate English and Lit lessons now.

BUT I STILL LOVE THE SUBJECTS. Hoho.

Gonna chiong some of my homework now while the music's still on. Ciaos! ;]


Why'd you have to ask me that, when you most probably know the answer?
Its so damn obvious can.
-You.

Hungryhungry. Hahah.

Izzy's (Izdihar) been hunting for JabbaWockeeZ videos! Hahah thanks dude. :D

Oh, btw, they're so my new idolized dance crew maan. Seriously la.
Let yourself be amaaaazed!
(k stupid Youtube's not loading on my internet..)

K forget it youtube doesn't wanna load the video EITHER.

Shall show you the video another time. Or go youtube search "JabbaWockeeZ episode 3" or something. Hahah.

Thought today was gonna be my "go home early" day but ended up I reached home at only 3-4plus?

Stayed back in class to complete EMath exercise 4.2, supah hard and I couldn't understand it at first. D:

RUIXING'S A LOUSY TEACHER!

Hahaha. Damn funny. He taught me over and over the method he and Qihua used to get the length of x or y or whatever. And I still couldn't understand. So I went to Mr Chng "Mr Chngggg!!! Can you teach me why this is like that? AND RUIXING'S A LOUSY TEACHER!" then Ruixing was laughing and giving me the "whaaaat???" look. "What! Hahah what lousy!" and My Chng taught me ANOTHER method. :\

Another question but same concept, then asked Jiaqi over for help. She taught me another method. Then Lianyi taught me another method too. Then Mr Chng came over, watch her explain and took over.

:\ dang math.

After that, had to stay back longer to complete my SS worksheet and hand in to Melooody. LOL she stand beside my table watching me write la. Then pei her go find Mdm Shanti, not in.

Went to canteen to find the girl who was meant to interview me on the sailing shit (wth man. Mr Yeo made my medal thingy sound too grand la). Not there.

So went to general office with Mel to put the papers in the pigeon hole. Then she zhao home while I went back to canteen to find Ker and Cia. Then we went down to the chem lab straight cuz I was quite full from the aloe vera drink thing I brought up to class after recess.

Chem lab was totally dark la! But heard Mr Lim's voice and went in. They were watching vids on the experiments we were gonna do. :D super interesting!

All the 3A people were there too. Thanks ah Mr Lim, you totally made us sound dumb when they understood all those pure chem stuffs while we didn't. :\ thought we kinda wasted our time there when we felt so out.

First experiment was on this hydrogen + oxygen thing, only with soap. So the soap would turn to foam when this solution was added into the soap + water. The foam would just flow out of the flask (like what you'd see when bursting a HUUUUUGE pimple xD) and leak all over the table.

Some of them stained a few tables in the chem lab o__o BUT ME, KER, CIA AND DAVID DIDN'T! Hahaha. Damn fun la. The foam would be very hot at first when the solution reacts. After a while it'll cool down and you can play with it.

Kinda smells funny, tho. :\

Second experiment! Was on the piece of paper we placed in the silver bromine solution thingy when we went into the lab. Thats why the lab was dark, cuz we couldn't expose the paper to light or it'll decompose. xD

When the papers were dried we had to put something to cover up a part of the paper. I put a coin. :D stood outside in the hot sun and after awhile the paper uncovered started decomposing or something? and the part the coin covers is fully white! :D

My hand tio stained, tho. :\ cuz I guess I didn't wash it properly after touching the silver bromine {correct me if its not} and when I exposed my hands to the light it stained my hand too D: my skirt too la omg!!

Louis's shirt tio a lot of stains! LOL. Atreya's hands looked like it was burnt. Hahah! I think the stain can't be washed off clothes leh! Cuz when Louis asked Mr Lim he was all, "I told you not to do that liao la Louis! I told you!! xD" o__o MY SKIRTTTTT!

And now I know, LOUIS IS AFRAID OF TICKLES! HAHAHA!
Now we're even, you stupid big-headed stupid idiot. Hahah. :D

Last experiment was AWEEESOME! I would totally put up the video of what Mr Lim did but I can't. :\ its damn cool.

Concentrated soap + Gas = Bubbles.
Stick + Fire = lighted stick.
LOADS of bubbles filled with gas + lighted stick = KABOOM!

K there was no KABOOM, but the bubbles would just light up in flames! :D damn amazing, but the flames last less than 2seconds? Yup.. sad D:

The folder thingy holding the paper with instructions on the lab was melted at one corner la. Hahaha. Orh-hor Mr Lim! xD

He refused to let us try it tho. D: cuz he was afraid we'd hurt ourselves. But he let some of them do it with very little bubbles, so the fire's like, TEENYWEENY! :\ hahaha.

3Endeavourians (or just, anyone) who wants to see the vid can come and ask me to show you :D Atreya almost filmed it down but he missed it. LOL.

Went home after that with Ker cuz Cia had training. Wanted to go J8 initially but after that we were damn nehneh one and decided not to go. Hahah.

I'm beginning to find chem a lil' more interesting now thanks to this. :D

Pizzahut in a lil'. :D and maybe a little bittsa window shopping.
I'm so desperate to shop now la! Saw this awesome hoodie on Tracyeinny.livejournal. Wondering if mom would let me buy it tho :\ the grey and maroon's still in stock! :D happyhappy!!

I need nicer/new clothes. :(((
Anyone wanna shop? And watch movies like STEP UP 2 THE STREETS & SKY OF LOVE? :D please say yes-o! ;}


Don't copy me!
I know I'm always like that, but thats the "Gwen disease"
{copyrighted Alicia and Kerrie ;D}
You're really not helping me make you less pissed off y'know. :\
I really don't know what to do to make you happy.
I don't want this between us anymore la. Its so freaking hard.
I hate it when we're like that. :(
Do you not get the message?
Why can't I set my mind in peace for once
and forget that we're arguing or something again? :((
I'd do anything to make you happy again pig. :(
{maybe not literally anything. but somewhere there}
I know if you read this you'd be all "Ahh whatever. I'm still not talking to her."
But yeah. I REALLY REALLY WNA TALK TO YOU UHS!
woaini.

sickslack day.

Gonna sleep soon!

Didn't go to school today cuz of massive headaches and giddyness. :\ okay the low blood pressure thing's gone too far. D: roaaaar. I even had diahorrea this morning! (k so not related to LBP)

Slacked home the whole day. Boring much.

A lot of people didn't go to school today! :
Ciping, Kerrie, Eleanor, Iggy. o__o plusplusplus me!

3 from 3Endeavour already can. Hahah.

Took loads of photos while it rained and camped at my window (it was open y'know) and waited for the lightning as I increased my ISO Speed to ISO 3600! Hahah aweeeesome! Totally got pics of raindrops.

There's a lot of noise in the pictures tho. :\ so now I know, high ISO = too much noise in the pic.

After it rained the clouds were pretty and all, so I decreased my ISO to be less sensitive and put my EV (its like the brightness of the picture) to -0.3 to -o.1 and all. Super nice pics of the clouds yo.

Taken by me :D submitted to my deviant art acc. GO SHOW SOME SUPPORT YO! ;D

taken but not submitted. Not that nice la.. so yeah.

I LOVE MACRO! You can totally see the raindrops on my window! :D

my hobby! ;D Teehee. I remember when I was sec2 someone used to think I was retarded for loving to play in the rain at this age cuz he saw me playing in the rain during lower sec recess. o__o

And yeaaah. High ISO rockees! You can see the raindrops right? But see the pic.. not that clear and on my camera it had loads of noise. :\

Whoo! Just earned my first million on Mob Waaaaaars!
This is gonna be fun. ^^V

My com's supah slow today. :((((


What'd you expect me to do?
I mean, seriously.
How would I know exactly?
I'm dumb enough not to be able to think of anything that you'd want.
Even dumber since I've known you for so long.
You're confusing me.
I've got a suckish imagination and blah so there.
Grr Gwen, grrrrr.
I love you.

Hi. Bye.

Fuck. I give up. I give up on everything okay?

And my stomach's hurting like crap and I'm still giddy tho I slept for like less than 30mins.

Today's not been a good day. Rawr. I wanna laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh! right now. But idk why I can't. I'm just crying.

How long's it been?

Fuck.

Freaking tired now. Been feeling fcking giddy the whole day since morning but I had no choice. :(

Really really disappointed. In everything.
Yeaaah, EVERYTHING.

I can't believe Mr Lim would think its someone from our class who posted that shit on the class blog's tagboard about him. I mean, "I've asked the other classes and they and 3D wouldn't have a grudge against me only your class would so its definitly from your class" or something like that.
Really nice to hear such things from your form teacher right? You're doubting your own form class.

And Justin is too. He was like bloody pissed off that you (Mr Lim) immediately suspected him. He was telling me and Nicolette. :( you owe him an apology.So what if Justin dislikes you or something? Don't always have to suspect him, cuz I think the person who did it already confessed (or so we overheard you scolding him after Chem remedial..)

Just cuz other classes said it wasn't them who did it, doesn't mean you have to doubt us when we say we didn't do it. What for believe other classes then doubt your FORM CLASS? Freaking disappointed yeah.

Nevermind, on to happier stuffs!

(NOT. Nothing happy's happened to me today.)

Emath was pretty fun today cuz we were doing congruency and similarity or something. And we've learnt that in pri school or something. VERY SIMPLE! All angles! No wonder I found it simple. Angles are like the only part of Math I hardly go wrong in. :D

Totally didn't pay attention in SS. :S was reading on the Protestants and Catholics conflicts. I can like totally tell a story on whats going on in Northern Ireland and Britain! HAHAHA.

PE was HELL. Freaking, burning, hot, HELL!

Bloody hell, it was damn hot there. No clouds covering the sun. We were all sweating and shit while doing WARMUPS. Even before that we were sweating just sitting there waiting for the two classes (3D joined us today since Mrs Leong didn't come) to get ready.

Played rounders again. MS CHEW SAID ITS THE LAST WEEK WE'RE GONNA PLAY IT! :D the grass was muddy and disgusting today. D: my shoes got bloody muuuuuddy and dirty. AND grassy. :\

When clearing the stuffs we used I noticed Justin's shirt was all muddy. MUD! Hahaha. He was asking "Ei, just now I slid and fell that time got style right? Hahah." sorry but I wasn't in groups 1 & 2 for rounders, Jusitn! So I didn't see. Hahaha. Jiaqi was telling me while buying food that he should've brought his Nike Air. Siao ah Jiaqi! LOL Justin would cry if his Nike tio mud. Okay la, he brought it for camp and got it all muddy.... so.. yeah! Haha.

During recess Justin's shirt was wet. But not as muddy. So I was laughing when he told me he washed it. LOL. Was feeling damn tired during recess la.

During geog Mrs Koh said we're gonna be having our lessons in the humanities room from now onwards! :D so the classroom would be empty cuz the Amath peeps go to 3D. LOL.

So gonna fail my geog class test. And Mrs Koh said the school targets our class to get at least 90% distinction. What the..? :\ riiiiight. Oh well. I was literally falling asleep while doing the test la! The room was so cooling and small and cosy and the fan was right ontop of me.... OF COURSE CAN SLEEP LA! And I was feeling so sleepy from PE already la.

Chem was the disappointing part. And we were all discussing how disappointed we were about what he said before lessons started in the hall while having the SMS Zoo Trail thing. I'm gonna be in Jiaqi's (or, the dancer's) group. And the Bitch clique's gonna be one group since its 5 people.

Not like I'm feeling left out. I totally don't mind being with them since they're so hyper and that I love Jiaqi, Sera and Winteng sososo much! ;D

But I just feel damn pangsehed. I feel that Alicia and Ker have forgotten about AGEK la. Maybe even forgotten me sometimes. Even Eileen's not eating recess with us anymore. Cuz I think she doesn't like the fact that ____'s eating with us now. :( EILEEN! PLEASEPLEASE join us for recess soon k. Miss you like anything.

I hate how I am with my friends now.

I'm always fucking jumping the groups I go with cuz I can't permanantly remain in one. No Ker, its not good to be jumping groups of friends. Its not that I'm mixing around or anything. (cuz thats what you thought when I told you about the jumping friendship groups thing during camp)

I just don't belong. I have no friends that actually WANT me.
(Fuck. Feels like when I was pri5 again. Fuck. I hate the feeling.)

I mean, everything's about your new found clique right now. I'm thinking, what would've happened if I hadn't done council duty on the first day of school and sat with Melody instead of Atiqah doing so? Since she asked me to sit with her.

Maybe I won't be so left out in class now. Fat hope.

Maybe I've just got no real friends. You have her, she has you. She has her, she has her. I'm not even that close to Melody in school now, only during family gatherings. Kinda sucks right? Even your cousin isn't as close to you now.

Maybe my real friends are people like Celine whom I'm still as close to even tho we're in different schools.

Can't say the same for Rach tho. I mean, its not like me and Celine are pangseh-ing you y'know Rae? But yet you go around on your blog saying "friends I THOUGHT I was close to". Hey, I read your livejournal still ya.

I'm sorry I'm ranting. But I can't take all these friendship problems (I self-declared them MY friendship problems) I've been trying not to face. I've always wanted to rant, just no one to rant to.


F**k this hurts, I won't lie.
Doesn't matter how hard I try.
Half the words don't mean a thing,
And I know that I won't be satisfied.
So why, try ignoring him.
Make it a dirt dance floor again.
Say your prayers and stomp it out,
When they bring that chorus in.

I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.

I'm sorry.

I would never backstab you, you should know that.
You mean so much to me. Definitly not someone I would play with.
If that was the case I wouldn't bother about you at all.
But I still do.
I wouldn't just do any random shit that I KNOW would hurt you.
I'm hurt too. But what can I say?
I guess I understand how you feel.
I guess I don't say what I always want to say.
I love you okay?
(no added laughter behind this time..)


..We only do things to regret them so much later.


I'm glad I like laughing all the time. Kinda masks me when I'm mad, huh?
Cuz I realised everytime I'm pissed off at anyone or anything, I laugh even while scolding them.
No wonder my mom didn't take me seriously when I told her I didn't like the way she was nagging and treating me. Cuz I was laughing like a mad clown while saying it.

Oh well. I'll only cry, inside. :D
Cuz cuz cuz I'M SUPAH STRONG!

Butbutbut something's breaking me down. :(

Just nicely this song's gotta play on my iTunes when I'm feeling sad. DEMORALISING!
Today's not my day.

I know I'm bound to fail Lit cuz we're being taught nonsense by a PMS-ing teacher who is off-center himself, I know I'm bound to fail Chem cuz I'm never catching up with what's taught. Oh well, no one understands! Hah.. I'm actually troubled by something I MUST ace or I'd really be at the bottom of the class. Hahahaaaaa. (sarcastic laughter)


Losing My Way
>Justin Timberlake

Yeah... Hum... Yeah... Uh... Excuse me

Hi my name is Bob and I work at my job
I make forty-something dollars a day
I used to be the man in my hometown
Until I started to lose my way
It all goes back to when I dropped out at school
Having fun, I was living the life
But now I got a problem with that little white rock
See I can't put down the pipe

And...

It is breaking me down
Watching the world spin round
While my dreams fall down
Is anybody out there?

It is breaking me down
No more friends around...
And my dreams fall down...
Is anybody out there?

Can anybody out there hear me?
'Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
'Cause I can't seem to see myself...
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell?
Can anybody out there feel me?
'Cause I can't seem to feel myself

Losing my way
Keep losing my way...
Keep losing my way...
Can you help me find my way?
Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way...
Can you help me find my way?

Now you gotta understand I was a family man
I would have done anything for my own
But I couldn't get a grip on my new found itch
So I ended up all alone
I remember where I was when I got my first buzz
See I thought I was living the life
And the craziest thing is I'll probably never know the color of my daughter's eyes

And it is breaking me down
Watching the world spin round
While my dreams fall down
Is anybody out there?

It is breaking me down
No more friends around...
And my dreams fall down...
Is anybody out there?

Can anybody out there hear me?
'Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
'Cause I can't seem to see myself
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell?
Can anybody out there feel me?
'Cause I can't seem to feel myself.

Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help find my way?
Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help me find my way?

Oh my God please forgive me (Father hear my prayer)
'Cause I know I've done some wrong in this life
If I could do it all again
Have just one more chance
To take all those wrongs and make them right

Can anybody out there hear me?
'Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
'Cause I can't seem to see myself
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell?
Can anybody out there feel me?
'Cause I can't seem to feel myself.

Can anybody out there hear me?
'Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
'Cause I can't seem to see myself
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell?
Can anybody out there feel me?
'Cause I can't seem to feel myself

Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help me find my way?
Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help me find my way?

Deleted all the songs in my PSP just to fit in AuditionKOR. D:

Better be worth my songs! I've been waiting since forever to get the game. And it wasted my time la. Could've slept at 11.30pm.

Thank you! Uh, I kinda forgot your name. The guy from 4B who's my guardian angel! Hahaha. Thanks for helping me DL audi ;D

I get the hunch mom's gna nag again cuz she's so worried about my low blood pressure. :\ aiyoh. I just get giddy spells more easily than anyone. Nothing much yo! :D except teens aren't supposed to have their blood pressures so low..

I think Mrs Sidhu didn't come to school today cuz no one saw her! Mrs Sidhu, must take care of yourself ah! :]

I feel dead. AND a giddy spell coming.

Sailing tomorrow, really bad day to sail.
Guys are SOOOOO lucky, they get all the luck.

CIAOS! (before my brain complains to me so much I hafta skip school tomorrow.)


Love.
I want it to stay this way. Maybe even better.
;D thankyou pig!

When you look me in the eyes.

My computer's freaking slow now. Idk why but after disconnecting my camera it decided to snail on me. D:

Got a new BIO teacher today. Ugh.
5words:
I'M SO GONNA FAIL BIOLOGY.

Only when we lose Mdm Loh then we realise how much better a bio teacher she is. :\ we had to get some teacher that spends 45MINS on ONE QUESTION. (like 1a, 1b). So she spent 2 periods going thru Q1 and chionged thru 2 and 3.

I don't like Ms Lee (the new cher). She's like, cannot take jokes can? Justin (Ong) completed her sentence for her and she was all "Do not complete my sentences for me." with a strict face. Whatever. At least Mdm Loh knew how to laugh when Justin joked/made comments.

And she hardly explains anything to us! So we were all falling asleep. Oh boy, 3Endeavour just got all the sucky teachers man! (not all la)

Oh yeah. Changed my hair parting! It had this huge reaction when I got to the hall. "Gwen your hair today's different!" "Gwen you seem more.. beautiful today leh! Your hair liddat nicer!" "Wei? NI BIAN MEI LE GWENNN!"

I rememeber Eileen's one the best: "Gwenny! You look more NIANG today! I liiiiiiike it. :D"
o__o

I had Amanda and Sinhui staring at me when I was talking to Bev and Jani in the hall. Then they look at each other say something and was giving the "no la" face. Asked them what they're talking about Amanda "Hahaha we're trying to figure out what else you did to your hair! xD" oh well, Jani was doing that too the moment I sat down.. o__o

Even Ryan and David were like, "Gwen your hair's chaaaanged!" in Ryan's usual tone. :\ LOL.

And oh! A lot of people cut their hair! xD

Izdihar and Justin cut their hair. I changed my hair's parting. :D

Most of the girls were staring at Izdihar and Justin in the hall cuz they cut their hair! And Daniel, Ruixing etc were staring back at us wondering why we're staring at them. Then we all broke out in laughter. xD Justin looks like a squarehead (he almost kicked me for saying that HAHAHA) and Izzy's fringe is literally straight or something. But they two look cute la! Hahaha. xD

Investiture rehearsal was boooooring. Like what the hell. One person tell us this, the other person tells us that. Even worse, there's one point of time the same person was giving us different instructions but all at the same time. And when we screwed up cuz we didn't know which one to follow, ___ flared up.

But oh well, at least we didn't spend 2hrs staring at the floor like what the rest told me.

But what I'm upset with is that the exco doesn't even KNOW whether my badge's here yet. OH WOW THATS HOT. So Lianyi was like "Ya la thats the thing. They DON'T EVEN KNOW."
:\

Didn't go to PT cuz of the rehearsal thing. Piggy said that the music was nice. The one near when we were almost finished. (the Star Wars song thing) of course being sarcastic.

We're all wondering who wrote the storyline. Cuz that person has the same storywriting talent of a 3THREE YEAR OLD. Whats with the Darkie lord or whatever and Guardians of Light? When we heard the storyline we were like "o__o we ARE in secondary school right?"

Uhhhhh. Shall be SUPAH NICE and say a message here!

THANK YOU PIGGY FOR HELPING ME WITH MY PHONE (for the millionth time I'm saying this uh)! THANK YOU ____! *anyohow fill in a word yourself DOOF since I'm oldskool. :D

But you made me waste time in Maple today! D: thanks ah. :( but thanks also for always calling first, you very nice la okay? :D teehee. SUPAH NICE YEAH! ;D & you better not anyohow go photoshop the pics k. Or you're so dead Liu Tingting (you make fun of my Liang Yuan Qi, I make fun of yours. Cute name la hor :D). I still wanna know what they're for. D:


See? Ain't I nice? LIU JIETING! Hahaha. :D
(paiseh but I like calling your chinese name! xD)


Mom's forcing me to drink the medicine the Chinese sensei prescribed, starting tomorrow since lao-gim got the medicine from the shop already. Mine's super ex!

ALL JUST FOR THE BLOODY LOW BLOOD PRESSURE. Oh boy.

I don't wanna be sick. I wanna be healthy! That was one of my goals I wrote down during camp (besides getting bigger handwriting and not allowing my bro to grow taller than me). But its not gonna come true. D:

Maybe one day I'll die cuz I'm so sick/in pain. And no one will wanna care :D cuz, no one will miss me! :]


I find my paradise when you look me in the eyes.

Peektures!

Cutiepie! :D

Mel asked me to put up this pic. I look like a retard. :O

I freaking hate this doll. Its damn eerie but Mel wants me to put up this pic too D:

CUTEST! (till she cries..)

First you see this.. (Neo Jiaying! :D)
...Then you see THIS! ;D (bearbear!)

Melody's SPONGEBOB PSP game. Hahah supah lame but the loading part is cute.

My favourite belt's pretty much a goner. Anyone wanna go shopping? Heeren so I can buy back the same belt. Hahah.

Really sleepy now so I won't blog too much.

MAQRIUS MADE US DO SPLITS TODAY OMFG.

My legs were like damn close to dying. And my right knee kept hitting the ground and it got bruised. D:

It took him 3weeks to get a proper split, so I must try hard too! Cuz he said we're gonna do locking in future, then we're just gonna jump into the air and land on the ground in a half-split, which we obviously can do la. (watch the Little Winners vid! They did that move. Hahah)

I must keep forcing down and tahan-ing the pain everyday. Yup..

My hair auto changed parting when I was bathing LOL. I'm gonna leave it that way for a while and see how. Hahah.

FREAK LA CAN MY MOM STOP NAGGING. WTF MAN.

She can't just close my door and NOT open it again FOR ONCE?!

Super pekchek with her today already can. And everytime she nags finish and is about to close my door, she swings it open again and nags somemore. UGH! She's been nagging at me THE WHOLE DAY AH!

So what if I have low blood pressure? Doesn't make a diff. She's just suddenly making me eat more vitamins and drink more barley and yadayada. BUEY TAHAN AH!

I'm off to sleep before she nags somemore.

Realised how hard life is without my phone. GLAD THAT PIGGY'S PASSING IT BACK TO ME TOMORROW! xie xie ni for helping me keep it from the whole camp till now. ;D MUAAAAHS!

There's investiture rehearsal tomorrow. Wah finally, after I've missed every single rehearsal. LOL. Oh well.. its like the sec3s don't care about SC now. :(

14DAYS 23HRS 50MINS MORE! ;D

(to you-know-what)

& 140days 23hrs more!

Wheeeeee. I wish, I wish..
Hmm. I love you.

PARENTS ARE SUCH A NAGGGGGGGG UHS! D:
Feeling super pissed off at my mom. But its like when I telling her to stop nagging at me, I was FREAKHOGING LAUGHING. Damn. How to take me seriously liddat? :\

3pm liao! Having dance till 5pm plus. Then theres a makeup lesson cuz we missed 2 lessons already ah. Sian. I'm feeling really tired/lazy today leh.. :( & confirm today is help CY and Weesin with THEIR presentations. :\\ me, Pam and Pris didn't have help with ours leh.. D:

No phone = I bang wall la.
So hard to contact people. Thank God I can remember Ker and Melody's number.

Not going for the S-Pop concert thing later with Mel already D: cuz it ends at 11.

THERE'S A NEW SEASON OF TOTALLY SPIES. Ahhaha. Sorry la, I'm a kid at heart hoho ;D

K, gotta go. CHAOSSS! xoxo. :D
3.04pm alreadyyyyyy. Gonna be late.

WOAINIMEN! (k I don't know who I'm talking about since its a random thing.)

A quickie cuz I woke up so damn bloody late since I reached home at like 2am yesterday (thanks to my parents..)

Did accupuncture (SP?) yesterday at ahpeh's place. Wakao the part where the needle was on my left hand's totally swollen now and it hurts D: okay la my fault cuz I was holding the phone the whole 20mins. Hahah.

Uh why I had to do it?

My low blood pressure is seriously low. As in, DANGEROUSLY low. My high blood pressure is ALSO dangerously low. =.= oh boy. So now I know why I keep getting giddy spells and headaches ah.

The chinese senseh said what, "di xue ya chong 90-50 tong chang hui hen rong yi yun dao de!" (people with low blood pressures of 90-50 can faint very easily). And my blood pressure? 60.

Zai right? Then high blood pressure for normal people should be 120-110 or something. Mine? 100. =.=

So the doc made me drink milo before doing accupuncture or she's afraid I might faint suddenly. And my dad teased me when he found out ("now we know why you can't focus in class ah! Hahaha"). Ooooh boy..

K. Pictures later when I come back.

I needa go and eat breakfast and bathe or I'll be super late for tuition. Hohoho.

More on yesterday later! :D

Mannequins ;D

Went to meet David and Darren at Macs yesterday :D

And Darren brought along this supah cute thing! xD

MANNEQUUUUUUIN! LOL.

Damn cute right. His class is using it for their art project thingy. And someone vandalised it before. Hahah.

Played with some of the water babies Darren brought for David. Its like damn nice to play can. xD we put them inbetween two ice cubes and watched them grow. I lost the green one by accident T_T

Wanted to go buy one whole packet of it at AMKHub but then we kinda got distracted with the arcade at Jub. D: I wanna go buy it later! Teehee. Its like damn cute laaaaa please.

Went to arcade and watched David play Tekken 5. The graphics are like uber cool la. Super nice can. o__o then Darren zhao-ed and dumped a whole lot of tokens with David and he played against some other people.

Then while waiting for Drummania we went to play TAIKO NO TATSUJIN (the drumming machine beside Drummania)! :D damn funny la, cuz we didn't know how to pick the songs as its all in Jap then the first song David picked was a killer cuz he accidentally chose like the SUPER HARD version of the song xD

Then we chionged like 6 rounds of Drummania. SHIOK CAN. Damn long never play DM le so I was like eeeeeehhhs gonna screw up la! But not bad I found another Extreme mode song I could play: MONSTER TREE! ;D supah cute song aites!

Left at about 10pm then pei David to the bus stop since he was nice enough to take bus from my house there. Hahah. Talked about camp and the bitch PM that didn't wanna let my class win anything during The Great Raid. Hohohooo. xD

Went home like a zombie. Hahah. And I didn't eat dinner! But nevermind I wasn't hungry LOL. Cuz by the time I went home Aunty Toon was sleeping so uhh yeah. Didn't have dinner. (did get hungry while playing Maple, tho. Hawhaw)

See la PIGGY. I'm so nice to train with you and help you transfer things right? Yes? Yes. Hahaha.

I realise that my com can't take Maple screenshots cuz its using Scroll Lock to take. Freak laaa. Stupid laptop. And stupid Maple cuz they made it Scroll Lock to take ss. Hahah. D:

Wanted to post the screenie I took in Maple of his CHAODAR CHARACTERR. Cuz, okay la I admit, its pretty cute when it does the F4/crying thingy. Chaodar de then eyes there whitewhite with the tears. CUTE LAAA. xD

Played Maple till like 1plus then when The Pig went off I did too. o__o supah zombie after that. LOL. Damn tired la I also dunno why. And oh! I'm now back in the BlockHead guild since Xeno and Ramen know I'm still alive. Hahaha damn stupid/funny la when they saw me online. "You're still alive??" o__o

LOL LAME. Played around with Windows Movie Maker since I was bored and decided to combine the vids we took of Darren playing the Mannequin. Hahah.

And my mouse ran out of batt again. :sigh:

Time to hunt for two more triple A batteries! OFF TO O2JAM! WHEEEE! ;D

My voice is still bad. D: wakao keep zhao xia-ing! :( but today it sounds much better.

Mom wanted to drag me to the Chinese doc since my appointment was like, on the Saturday we had the regatta. But I was lazy to go so I told her next week or something I'll go by myself. :D (which is quite impossible cuz I hate being a loner, even tho my alter-ego's personality is like that..)

GOING TO MY DARLING TWIN'S PLACE LATERR. Mom-o was saying Jiaxuan expects me to be there. Hahah. :D gonna be lots of photos of the two of them later kays! ;D

♥
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

Annoyinggg.

Argh.

So annoying having my bro's friend over. Keep wanting to use the com. :(

And guess what? His name's Justin ONG. Again! Another Justin Ong. I now know 3 Justin Ongs. =.= its a small world after aaaall... itssss a smaaaaall world aaaaafter all.

Ooooookay. He just came into my room and asked me if I wanted some doughnuts. :\ how uh, nice. Only that he didn't knock my door so I tio shocked. HAHAH.

THIS Justin Ong even looks somewhat like the other 2 JO's I know.. short, hair shortshort and a bit spiky de, the eyes make them look like they're sleepy, and well, SHORT. Hahahahaaa.

And they got this "Justin Ong" face. o__o weeeeird.

I hate having a lil' brother. Rahhhhhhh! D:
Save me save me save meeeee ah!

I should just go meet David earlier for dinner with Darren. Hawhaw. Get me out of this house which is infested by pri5 kiddos. HAHAHA.

When You Look Me In The Eyes

Just woke up. And its 7.25am. Hahah. I actually woke up at 6plus and tried to go back to sleep but its uhh, kinda hard? Idk why either hahah.

Slept with the lappy on again :S opps. LOL. I think I was so tired and wasn't feeling well. Hahah.

Oh well. I think I might be catching a movie with Quin and David..

And I think I kinda lost my voice. Cuz it'll just suddenly go so high o__o can't hit the middle notes! Ahhah.

Notes I got on the last day! ;D

Stupid "Don't Act!" (3E insider joke based on our jersey numbers) notes I got from Justin. (either both are from him or the left one's from Qihua). Behind the right one its the "Y I never receive anything de?" note from Justin. Hahah!

Random stuffs I found around facebook. Hahah!

I'm reaaaaally sorry piggy. :(



I just realised my birthday's in 18days! o__o woah thats fast. YAY! xD looking forward to it I guess. =.=


When You Look Me In The Eyes
> Jonas Brothers

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

Is it so hard sometimes?


I'm really sorry. :(
I don't want us to be like last time anymore cuz thats really hard.
&i really really don't like that feeling at all.
Please please don't! :(((
I really wanna tell you sososooo much.
But I can only tell you THIS much.

Reaaaaally tired now.
My internet's fureaking out on me. :\ its not allowing me to type this post.
WAS talking to Belle on MSN, till she suddenly went offline in a jiffy.

I feel like I'm gonna fall asleep soon.. any time soon.. :S oh siannnn.

Bev and Alex etc can't make it tomorrow for the Swensens and movie (Sky of Love) outing I think! D: omg damn sad la. :(( cuz we were so excited about it during camp.

I REALLY WANNA WATCH A MOVIE TOMORROW, ESPECIALLY SKY OF LOVE / STEP UP 2 THE STREETS!
So if anyone wanna watch these, mustmustmust tell me aites.

I can't believe Mr Lim goes to Studio Wu! I tio shocked man when he said "oh its at Raffles Place.. Kengseng Tower..." then I immediately knew, Studio Wu..

Skipping dinner.

I don't care if I get gastrics, which I felt I did just now even tho I ate lunch. I think I'm falling sick from Tuesday since we all got wet and didn't change to dry stuffs till late at night and from getting caught in the rain yesterday. Encik -forgot your name!- even splashed water on us.

I really just have no appetite to eat! Rahhhhh.

And my throat's feeling horrid now.

Oh yeah, Yokeching, Aaron and Eleanore! GET WELL SOON!
Yokeching didn't even come for the camp. D: Aaron went home on the first day and Eleanore on the 2nd day cuz she had fever.

:(((((( I don't wanna be the next to fall sick!

LIVE! OPERATION CAMP.

BACK FROM CAMP! :D

I MISS PLATOON MENTORS TANYA & JIEYU! :(((
And I suddenly miss falling in and listening to all the commands etc. Its actually quite fun you know. Hahah.

Sec3 camp was like a military camp. Pretty fun cuz Adam Khoo Learning Technologies Group isn't like Camelot, Saints or whatever cuz those use the same cheers etc over and over. Learnt a lot of new cheers which I've never heard before. Haha!

The enciks were really funny. :] esp Captain Ridtz!

First day was pretty much sian and whatever. :\

Activities were AWEEESOME!

Did lots of stuffs. The best activities on the first day was the Bomb thing and the Slippery Slope! We had to stand on this slope in two rows and pass down this huge empty water barrell. Last person had to roll the barrell from the bottom to the top and then we'll pass it down again. :D had to compete with each other. DRAW! :D

Slippery Slope- we had to go up this steep slope which was covered with a hugeeee long groundsheet. Then we had to walk up while we werewe had to walk down it once the whole class was up. xD sprayed with water from the hose on top. Actually soap was meant to be poured down the groundsheet to make it more slippery but our PM Jieyu said it was slippery enough. NO FUN! D: then


Day 2

We had a day full of walking la. Did PT in the morning and we did 1400 success claps each. Success claps are when we raise our hands over our heads and clap, keeping our hands straight. DAMN TIRED OKAY. This PM kept giving us more and more cuz we usually don't follow each other's counting. :\ the other half of the cohaught can.

Breakfast: Choco biscuits and a fruit bar which I saved up for lunch.

Did the hunt thingy to go to 6 stations. 2hrs seemed like a lot but it passed quickly and we only did one D: went back cuz there wasn't enough time as we had to make it back to HQ by 12 to eat lunch and get ready for the 10km Victory March.

Lunch: COMBAT RATIONS. They're like, randomly flavoured food packed into these uhh plastic bags. You just had to tear the top open and squeeze the food into your mouth. Guys will eat this during army lol.

Not even halfway thru the 10km Victory March, it rained! We all walked in the rain and chatted. xD fun. But cuz it was raining, we couldn't finish the whole 10km and had to cut it short. We then walked past a cemetery. :\ scary siol! A lot of people refused to look.

Went back to HQ and dried off. Slacked, then planned our CO Nite item. Then played THE GREAT RAID. Which was fun but unfair cuz there's this PM that obviously didn't wanna let my class win any of the challenges on purpose. HATE HER! D:

We had to use bamboo poles as ships and each class had 2 islands marked out. We had to use the ships to attack other group's ships/islands. xD if we lost our boat, we had to go to the Dead Man's Chest and buy one. Either using our hard-earned tokens or doing Consequences. We did consequences duh.

Had to do stuffs like 100 success claps as a group and pumping and crunches and jumping jacks and lying on the wet, dirty, sandy, muddy, grassy floor before we could get our boat xD fun!

Stupid PM of the other group (I think 3I's PM) spoiled the game for 3E. Whateverrrrrr.

Then me, Lianyi, Atiqah and Quin got called out. Apparently we later found out we were the so-called best of the class, with spotted potential. And along with the 4 picked out from each class, we were the Mayflower Leaders o__o

Apparently, not so easy having that title. We had to do this special programme/training.

We wrote our goals/dreams we wanted to achieve and we had to stand up. Holding the paper in our hands, we had to stretch out our hands 90degrees straight and hold it there for 55mins.

If we bend our arms or put down our hands, we're giving up on our life's dreams. And we'll be asked to sit down if spotted. So a lot of us didn't. David was the first to sit down. Then Ryan sat down too.

Then ran continuously for 1hr, or so they told us. We didn't realise we ran that long! I stretched myself too far and injured my back. But I told myself not to give up or to say never and carried on. :D proud of myself.

When we got back, we did a grand entrance in the middle of the CO Nite :D and we stood in attention when given the command and sang the school song. LOL.

Thanks Marcus, Aishah and Atiqah for helping me when my back hurt so bad I couldn't really stand up straight. :D esp Marcus! :D

Ate dinner and bathed later than anyone else lol. xD Our item was funny cuz Lianyi kept messing up what she was meant to say. She'd be like, "-looks at me (narrator) and Ker (helping me cuz I didn't go thru the script)- huh? Say what? Oh. Okay. -turns to Atiqah- You dare disrespectful me?" then "Lianyi, say "-random lines here-" then "-turns to me and Ker- ohh okay. Atiqah! You've not been blahblahblah. -turns to us again- what does that word mean ah?"

LOL.

I LOVE 3ENDEAVOUR FOREVER! :D


Day 3 (today)

Woke up in the morning and it was freaking cold. Then we did the usual and then went for breakfast after PT.

Mayflower Sec sec3s '08 set the record in the AKLTG (Adam Khoo Learning blahblahblah) by doing the most number of SUCCESSFUL CLAPS thruout the camp! :D YAY MF! :D

We did 2500 in total. The prev school holding the record did 1500 I think. ^^V YAYNESS! teehee super proud. We actually did 2350 but we did 150 more just to make it harder to break our record when the PM told us we set it :D hahaha.

Breakfast was nasi lemak!

Then went thru the rehearsal for the Passing Out Parade. :D I love the bandana for my group that was tied around our hands to signify we graduated as Privates in the camp! :D purpleeee. Melody Neoneo's fav color. Hahah.

And at the end, we got paper to write messages to people we appreciated. When I wrote to PM Tanya and was writing PM Jieyu's, Captain Ridtz said "And now to show how much we really appreciate you, we will do something for you. This time, you won't be asking us for permission to recover. We will be the ones."

And THEY GOT DOWN INTO PUMPING POSITION AND DID PUMPING FOR US!

I looked up halfway while doing PM J's note and cried. VERY XIN TIA (xin tong) TO SEE THEM LIKE THAT! A lot of us were like screaming "NOOOO! STOP IT! DON'T DO LIAO!!!" but they carried on.

Then they ASKED US FOR PERMISSION TO RECOVER! I was crying like crazy when I saw that. TT_TT VERY XIN TONG OKAY!!! We all screamed "RECOVER PLEASE RECOVER NOW!!! PLEASE PLEASEEEE!" and they did.

One glance around and I noticed a lot of girls were crying already. Its like, heartache when we see our beloved PMs doing pumping for us!

It was so bloody touching. I cried all the way till when we got dismissed and boarded the bus. PM J and PM Tanya followed us back to school cuz we had to do a evaluation form. I was still crying on the bus. PM Tanya came to the back and "Ohhh are you still crying? Omg stop crying la I'm crying too liao!! T_T"

Me and Mel are the WATERTAP COUSINS. Hahaha.

When we told PM Jieyu and PM Tanya we were cousins they both don't believe. PM Jieyu said "You too orhorh liao lor!" D: WHAT ORHORH!!! Being tanned is a good thing k. Hmphhh.

And oh, PM Jieyu looks like Siungee tho he's a guy o__o the eyes esp okay!!

liveatmayflower.wordpress.com for all the stuff we did during camp & pics! :D


CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES-
I chose to win.


When life doesn't go as expected, I just gotta smile and smile and laugh my spongebob laughter all the way. Its my only remedy. &it keeps me going when you're not.

Done!

Finally done packing for camp.

See y'all in a few days! :D (for all levels except sec3, since I'll be seeing them at camp)
I'll miss you, and you, and YOU.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEXANDRA BABE!
:D

Love by lalafairie

I think this piece is awesome! And really really sweet ^^ All credits go to lalafairie @ deviantart.com. :D

Camp's tomorrow.
Hmm. I'll miss you A LOT Piggy! :((
(see, you didn't believe me so I posted it here. ^^)

For once, I'd rather go for sailing rather than go for camp. I'm serious aites. I don't think camp this time would be damn fun cuz my hopes of going to MOE Dairy Farm is dashed! D:

I'll miss all my sec4 seniors man. Not seeing them for 2 training sessions. Hawhaw. :(

RELAYS TODAY WERE GOOD! ;D
I ran so fast that Mubarak complimented me after SWIMMING PT today! And he WASN'T being sarcastic. ^^ teehee!

Unicorn 4x100 B girls : 1ST FIRST!
Sailing 4x100 interCCA relay : 1ST FIRST!!! :D

The intercca thing was funny. Cuz when Ning passed the baton to Wenfeng, she was 4th. Then when Wenfeng passed it to me, he was 3rd (meaning he caught up with someone). When I passed it to David, I was 2nd (caught up with someone! :D) and when David ran to the finishing line, he was FIRST!

Well done! :D really happy. ^^

And well done to SYLVIA, JACELYN AND RACHEL DARLINGS from Unicorn B girls! :D yayyyyy we got first! So happy that we were hugging each other and squeeling like little girls being given lollipops. :]

Went for SWIMMING PT straight after that with the sailors while Ning and Peckkhee ran their 2nd heats for 4x100 B girls.

Got there and changed out with Drey. Wore our PE shirts over for fun! Hahah. Also wanted to see how long it would take the lifeguard to notice and tell us we couldn't wear it. Which, they eventually did. LOL.

Took out our shirts and jumped back into the pool! :D then Mr Nara and Mr Yeo dismissed them =.= wahkao. We just came then they tell us can go bathe and go home. PIANG EH! D:

Stayed in the pool a while longer with some other sailors. Kept challenging Aaron and Nic Wong/Yeow.

Took loads of underwater pics with Drey using Mrs Sidhu's waterproof camera. :D super fun! Kept laughing hahahaha! Then went for dinner with David, Iggy, Quin, Darren and Mubarak. :] played Guitar Hero III at the Sony shop after that. SUPER FUN! ;D sorry piggy cuz I stayed out so long and didn't call you back! :(

And oh! I wore specs in the hall this morning and Mr Lim was controlling himself from laughing! RAWR! How could you man! D: lol. Then everyone from 3E was all "GWEN YOU GOT NEW SPECS AH! SO CUTEEEEE! OMGOMG!" and stuffs. I was all "o__o *takes out specs*" hahah.

Got my medal with Iggy on stage today! :D thanks 3E. cuz they screaming when Mr Yeo announced my name position yadayada. ^^

Mr Tang's our new co-form! LOL. A bit surprised but oh well. :\ lol.

Told the class during CME today that my passion is for dance and Mr Lim said he wanted to learn breakdance from me! o__o please, I only know like what, 2 types of it la. :\ "I'll be the one breaking your bones instead la Mr Lim, cuz I learnt the moves I know by myself from youtube ^^" was the reply. :D


I'LL MISS YOU A FREAKING LOT PIGGY! :(((((((
Don't miss me, okay? :D MUAAAAAHS! (o__o LOL)
And I still haven't decided whether to let you keep it for the whole camp. Hawhaw!


Took these two pics of my Rubik's Cube a while back. :D submitted the first one to my deviantart account gwend-n. Its pretty awesome right! :D I love my new camera. I didn't edit the color (or the softness of the pic) or the lighting of the pictures. :]

In the first pic you can even see the dust specks on my cube. :\ oh well!


And oh, idk why but suddenly people are talking about my birthday. Hoho! Its so damn far away yeah. :]]

school school nyuuuuuu dont want!

SCHOOL TOMORROW!
nyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...!

I haven't even enjoyed my holidays! D: cuz of the race. Wheeeewoots! :]

And there's gonna be SWIMMING PT tomorrow. So not what I'm looking forward to.

BASTARDDDD's (yeah I'm doing this on purpose LOL xD) hoping I'm not going. Well, not like I wanna go and see you also HAHAHAHAHAAAAA. :\ besides, I've got the inter-CCA and interhouse relays! :D GOGO UNICORN YEAHS! ;D

Mom's making me drink the barley aunty tun made cuz I've been coughing like mad since the race and my voice was like shit, and also knowing I always leave it there so they'd eventually forget its for me so I don't drink it! xD

Haiyoh. Just realised there's something going on between the juniors.
Seriously la. There's no point in hating each other in sailing. Furthermore you guys have just started out! C'mon, be nice to each other D: (and maybe stop picking on her ye..)

But oh well, not like I'll interfere in what they think also. Hah.

Playing 7 HAND POKER with Justin's so demoralising! Tells me I suck at card games hawhaw. Cuz I get trashed in dai di with the sec4 guys too :\
But playing with Kenkiong's like teeheeeee. Cuz I'm winning him! xD hahah sorry XIAOBAITU! ;D


.. I love you. You love me. Lalala la la la laaaa. :D
(BARNEY ROCKS!)

Btw,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEVERLYGOH SWEETIEDAR! :D
(tomorrow)

Don't want school! D:

Wah. Really give up on chem. Its like, chemical bonding alone is already so difficult to understand okay!! D:

Derick asked me to be in his comm for sec1 selection camp! :D really excited. ^^ thanks Derick! All the fun people are inside too :D like Lianyi, Meiting, Welly, Sally, Wanling, Jacelyn! :D super fun. :] esp since most people are in the TEHBING GANG.

School's reopening tomorrow. Sadly. D:

And I've got the uhhh, relays tomorrow after school. So I most probably won't be going to the swimming PT at Bishan swimming complex tho Mrs Sidhu asked the runners to bring our gear. LOL. :\ will be damn funny la.

Loads of subjects tomorrow. AND OH. THE STUPID GEOG CLASS TEST! Oh faaaag. D: I haven't studied shit. :\

I realised the whole hols I didn't sleep in like I wanted to, AT ALL. Thanks to the regatta. LOL. Oh well.. :((

Mr Phua was SUPER shocked during Emath tuition this morning when I took out my specs to wear. :\ he was like, staring at me. Then I looked at him, "Whaaat...? :\ shang guang only la Mr Phua! No degree. Hahah." "No no its good that you're wearing specs cuz shang guang will only make your eyes worse if you don't wear specs." then the whole class turned behind (I'm sitting at the last row) and stared at me o__o

Riiiiiiiiiiiiiight..

Yesyes I'm awake at 8am plus when I expected myself to sleep till like 10plus. Hahah dumb.


I tried going back to sleep cuz I have tuition later but oh well, I can't. :\

SLEEPY AH.

I don't feel like going for tuition at all. I bet I'll sleep or something. LOL. And dance's cancelled later. :\ ah crap. Andre should reallyreally remove this whole rule thing that if one person can't make it should try to cancel the class. Cuz ever since he said that, we've missed 2 lessons already thanks to CY and this week thanks to Weesin. :\ not good aites.

Feel like going to AMK Hub to watch movies later after tuition. Anyone? Hahah.

And oh I've not told my parents I actually got something out of sailing in a regatta (beside the MMRs, which is super easy to get the throphy, which me and Ryan believe this regatta is like an MMR to Fendi since he gets 1st every regatta). Bet they'll be like "oh really!" then, "finally." =.=

ahemahem

Ahem. Really sleepy. But I'm so bored I'll post again.
(k bad habit cuz I'm just gonna keep flooding my blog with random stuff.)

Its so damn freaking hard to touch anywhere NEAR my nose/mouth without feeling how dried up/crackish-like it is. D: and feeling the pain from the sunburn. Omg I hate sunburns! I'm not supposed to feel it k. I'm supposed to get BLACK instead. Hawhaw! :\

Listing down the top 4movies I wanna catch!:

1. STEP UP 2 THE STREETS! (OMGOMGGG I bet I'll be able to watch this over and over!)
2. Sky Of Love
3. Death Note Spin-off: L Change The World
4. The Water Horse: Legend Of The Deep

So yeaaah. If anyone wants to watch ANY of the movies must tell me hor! :D ESPECIALLY STEP UP 2 THE STREETS. I think its gonna be so effing cool la! :D teehee.

Idk why but I'm suddenly looking forward to my birthday..
Except its on a sailing day. :\ oh well, no going out then. Hahah!

Piggy just reminded me I'm having camp next week. So uhhh. How come I'm the only blur one who DOESN'T know our camp's next week? Even he knows can. :\ OMG BLUR QUEEN.

Btw, THANKS FOR MAKING ME LAUGH WHEN I WAS SO PISSED OFF OUT AT SEA!
(duh I know you can do a proper jybe. Thats why I was wondering why you capped ^^ hahaha CAPSIZE FOR ME RIGHT! (hahah BHB)) thanks cuz I was reaaaaally pissed. :]

(Stupid SIN3190..)

I'm thankful you're around :D teehee. thankyou Piggy/my Bastard! :] HAHAHA.

Shall summarise today:

Winds were strong! :D
Improved a hell lot from yesterday. Best race: 17th position! :D
Got 2nd for silver fleet! xD (Iggy got 3rd :D and Charlotte from KC got 1st)

:D:D:D happy. Hahah. But super tired.

And burnt. Like seriously. Been a bloody long time since I got sunburnt! Its RARE that I do k.

Got SUPER MOFO-INGLY PISSED OFF with SIN3190! From Tanjong Katong sec!

super pissed off okay. He screwed up my last race cuz he didn't give way to me, his rudder went under my bow after his boat pushed mine to head directly in the wind, and I lost like 8-10 positions? Was infront of Wenfeng, Weiming and Ryan.

Then Ryan and Weiming zoooooomed infront and when I caught up with them and Ning, that asshole had to do that! And my ranking would've been super good k. Cuz after that, all the people who were behind me all went infront. "Can you like, point up?" "Nooooo. Cannot, cannot." wtf is this?! WHAT CANNOT?! Omg you sissy weeny. :\ really, he said it like some sissy!

Super pekchek on the run down. Finished, stopped by boat beside Ryan's and Wenfeng's and complained to them. Justin came (xD 3 out of 4! Hahah) and after jybing he capsized xD k fine thats the only thing that made me laugh cuz I was damn effing pissed off la. And I capsized after that. ZAI. ): he must've cursed me hahaha!

My prize for getting 2nd in silver fleet? A medal and a Timeout chocolate wrapper scrunched ontop of my burnt head thanks to Mubarak. AND a FLYING MUSELI BAR hitting me right in the sunburnt-face thanks to Justin LIU JIETING. D: but I had my sweet revenge by doing the same :D teehee.

Ning's dad sent me home again. Hahah. Damn nice la :D thankyou thankyou! :] hahah.

Hmm I need better skills for dai di man. Cuz I got trashed on the bus to NSC today by Weiming, Mubarak and Justin. D: thanks a lot guys. LOL. I became their shuffler. Say what, training me to work in the casino somemore. WTH. Hahah.

Belle didn't come again! D: she's got the fever and some other sicknesses. ): get well soon m'dear junior! ): miss you man. hahah.

BRUISES ON MY LEFT KNEE FROM BANGING AGAINST MY BOAT (and the mast clip) DURING DOWNWINDS ETC WHEN THE WIND WAS STRONG AND FROM KNEELING IN MY BOAT! D: ouchhhhhs!

YESTERDAY:

The bus was supersuper quiet without the two (ahem) noise-makers Justin and Mubarak! Hahah. And for once no one to disturb me but Weiming. LOL. And oh, no Mubarak = NO NASI LEMAK! xD everyone who ordered was complaining la. I was like, "Oh well. FRIED RICE from the shop again lor." Me and Ning were spotting eye candy out at sea! xD

The guy she told me was so much like an A.B.C.! But hoho not bad ah. xD damn fun la during that time. We kept "oh that guy not bad leh!" "YOU SURE?! Oh yucks he's a total loser" yadayada. After pointing out the guy I thought was not too bad (SIN3**3 HAHAHA), she concluded the guys I go for are skinny, tanned and has this face. LOL. Riiiiiiiight.

The other guys were total losers tho. ;D hahah. Tried to beat them during the race. The other one I spotted was easy-peasy to win la please. The other one she spotted? Won him once I think! Hahah. Maybe more..

Went home super late cuz the last race started at like what, 5pm? Reach shore 6.10pm, unrig bathe etc 7.45plus already. D: board the bus 8.10pm. OH WELL. Damned race comm! D: we were all suffering! :(((