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Gwen,
You're such a stupid pig.

Can't even make it to 3E. Only can go 3D. Only got one option. Only can go to the class with the subjects you didn't want to take.

What a sucker.

Not saying 3D is bad. 3D is not bad a class. Its just I don't wanna go there.

Can't believe how much I cried today. Even missed sailing, just sat at the canteen at the sailing center while the wind was super strong and watching how some people were capsizing, wishing I was out there. ) :

Its like, while walking up the bus, I walked past Justin Ong and Edward. Then I heard Justin say "Ya, she's depressed alright." its that easy to see when I'm upset?

Cried till I got so tired that while reading Aaron's Chicken Soup for the Teenagers Soul II, I fell asleep with Quin beside me. Aaron also slept. My eyes hurt like shit.

After debreifing for open house day 1, they had an announcement for all sec 2EXP classes to go to the theatrette. Then when everyone was there they gave out the options.

I sat beside Bernice, and both of us were like damn nervous. Deyuan and Darren were sitting behind me. Almost tore the paper about the school's history that we needed to remember for the open house cuz I was so nervous. Then I broke down. Deyuan was like "Omg is she crying?" sorry Bernice and thanks for your shoulder and comforting me.

Then Bernice went "Omg her paper here le." Then she glanced at it and kinda reluctantly passed it to me. And I cried even louder and harder.

Cuz I only got Option A.

Which is to go to 3D. Which is the class I told myself I should never go cuz all the subjects I don't want are there. Which is one of the classes which a lot of people got for their option.

Which makes me wanna die.

Cried all the way till we reached NSC. From like 1.11pm to 2.30pm plus? Kept crying. Weiming, Ningxin and Peckkhee were busy telling me that what they state on the paper might not be what you get.

But who knows? I might get into 3D. Since its like, MY ONLY OPTION.

Told Mr Yeo I didn't have the mood to sail, and he was asking me if I thought of appealing and all. Then I cried a bit. After that Mr Lee asked me why I never change out then I told him why. Then he tried psyco-ing me to sail but I insisted I didn't want to. And I cried more D: so paiseh can.

Stayed on shore with Aaron and Quin. The 1E'06 sailors. Everyone was calling us emo cuz we just sat there crying, except Aaron la. Poor Quin! D: DON'T WORRY DARLING I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU.

Peckkhee named us Emo One, Emo Two and Emo Three.

Now I don't know how to tell my parents. Sigh.

I should just gotohell.


Who doesn't long for someone to hold; who knows how to love you without being told.
I want to cry. I'm sorry.