''You say, you dream of my face. But you don't like me, you just like the chase. To be real, it doesn't matter anyway. You know its just too little too late.''
Just woke up and ALREADY there are songs stuck in my head. First it was BoA's ''Listen to my Heart'' now its JoJo's ''Too Little Too Late''.
Anyways photos from yesterday will be up soon! I'm using my cellphone to blog now so I obviously can't upload the photos. Gotta go edit them too.
Had an awesome day! Even though Elie, Bern and I couldn't attend the flash mob cuz they changed the time to 5.20pm instead of 4pm (cuz some minister was late), going to Marina Barrage late at night with Alex and Gabriel totally made up for it.
Met them at 5.30 to have dinner and to play pool (now you know why I had to skip the FM. I was supposed to meet them at 5 actually). Don't know why but the past few times I played at AMK's KPool, I totally had no feel. Same goes for Gabriel and Alex.
In the end we left at 9pm to go to Cotton On. Bought this dress-like thing and a new shirt. I need to clear all my pri-sec school clothes from my wardrobe :\
Cabbed down to Marina Barrage after deciding between Haji for drinking (I don't drink tho so it'll only be the both of them drinking) or Marina Barrage for slacking. We reached there by 10.30pm thinking it'll be empty but nooo MORE PEOPLE CAME IN AS TIME PASSED. Surprise, surprise! -_-
Left at 12am+ and walked out only to realise there weren't gonna be any cabs coming in from MBS. Sat at a bus stop, debated where to go for supper since Gab didn't have dinner and was hungry. Decided on Thomson for Prata House and called a cab.
Shared 1 prata with Alex while Gabriel ate 3 plasters. Alex asked, ''Why is it called 'plaster' ah? I still don't get it.'' to which Gabriel replied, ''Because the egg on top look like a plaster to cover the prata, so they called it plaster lor.'' HAHAHA LAME.
Finished eating/talking at around 2am+, cabbed and asked them to drop me off at the Bishan Park area so I could cut in through the blocks to go home.
I realised I do the awesomest night-life things with Alex, Gabriel (and Darrell). The last time it was singing KBox until 4am and walking from Cine to Plaza Singapura cuz the 1st train didn't start yet and we had to kill time hahaha!
WAS AN AWESOME DAY, GUYS! We should do this more often. :)
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Starlight
Was so touched when I saw what Cheryl wrote on her blog, even though the entry's dated back to 25th April.
I'm happy with my life now. Infact, I'm more than "extremely contented". I'm studying, I passed my first half of the Emath test my tutor gave me, I'm enjoying the company of my friends and I'm starting to open up more again. I'm just like my old bubbly strong self and I'm happy to say I'm alright. But I feel empty. I wouldn't even say half full. Just.. empty. Whenever something exciting or something good happens to me, I pick up my cellphone wanting to tell someone, anyone. Then my heart sinks when I realise the person I used to tell everything to is just.. not there. I've been feeling that way for weeks on hand, and everytime I typed something related to how I felt on my blog, it'd go straight to my Drafts. I know he never reads my blog anymore but heck, I never published my thoughts anyway. Made it a point to keep personal stuff to myself and friends, and stuff I can publicise, well, publicised. Heard that your life now isn't exactly at its optimum point. As much as I want to stretch out my hand and let you pour out your woes to me, I have no idea how to go about doing that without the fear of being rejected; without the fear that my cellphone would mock me by staying silent. I hate knowing that while I'm happy, someone I used to care for so much is upset and yet I can't do anything to help.
Its hard to care for someone when you know that the person in question would never appreciate your gestures and may, infact, reject these gestures of yours. You want to help, but the line's always dead. It'll never be alive again, or so you perceive. Then again, at least you have your friends by your side so I'm more or less reassured you'll be fine. Pull through this moment and come out stronger, alright?
My friends ask me why I even bother caring about you when you're treating me like this. You don't appreciate me; you never did. Thing is, I don't care if you don't, and that's the problem with me. I'll still be concerned for someone regardless of whatever happened between us. Even if I act like I don't give a damn, deep down inside I actually still do. That's my nature.
I've been there for you once, I'll be there for you whenever. I will still care, you jolly well know that. I will be there if you need someone, but to what extent, I wouldn't be too sure.
I'm happy with my life now. Infact, I'm more than "extremely contented". I'm studying, I passed my first half of the Emath test my tutor gave me, I'm enjoying the company of my friends and I'm starting to open up more again. I'm just like my old bubbly strong self and I'm happy to say I'm alright. But I feel empty. I wouldn't even say half full. Just.. empty. Whenever something exciting or something good happens to me, I pick up my cellphone wanting to tell someone, anyone. Then my heart sinks when I realise the person I used to tell everything to is just.. not there. I've been feeling that way for weeks on hand, and everytime I typed something related to how I felt on my blog, it'd go straight to my Drafts. I know he never reads my blog anymore but heck, I never published my thoughts anyway. Made it a point to keep personal stuff to myself and friends, and stuff I can publicise, well, publicised. Heard that your life now isn't exactly at its optimum point. As much as I want to stretch out my hand and let you pour out your woes to me, I have no idea how to go about doing that without the fear of being rejected; without the fear that my cellphone would mock me by staying silent. I hate knowing that while I'm happy, someone I used to care for so much is upset and yet I can't do anything to help.
Its hard to care for someone when you know that the person in question would never appreciate your gestures and may, infact, reject these gestures of yours. You want to help, but the line's always dead. It'll never be alive again, or so you perceive. Then again, at least you have your friends by your side so I'm more or less reassured you'll be fine. Pull through this moment and come out stronger, alright?
My friends ask me why I even bother caring about you when you're treating me like this. You don't appreciate me; you never did. Thing is, I don't care if you don't, and that's the problem with me. I'll still be concerned for someone regardless of whatever happened between us. Even if I act like I don't give a damn, deep down inside I actually still do. That's my nature.
I've been there for you once, I'll be there for you whenever. I will still care, you jolly well know that. I will be there if you need someone, but to what extent, I wouldn't be too sure.
Friday, May 28, 2010
So I'm guessing
Doing the Karen Cheng. (Not exactly..)
Overdue photos!
Taken on Wednesday.
Yummy cai fan that me and Cel always tabao from this shop in Cuppage Plaza after going to her mom's shop! Heehee tofu + lemon chicken + long beans (I LOVE vege, believe it or not) + fried vege ball = Awesome lunch.
Yummy cai fan that me and Cel always tabao from this shop in Cuppage Plaza after going to her mom's shop! Heehee tofu + lemon chicken + long beans (I LOVE vege, believe it or not) + fried vege ball = Awesome lunch.
Gonna meet Ker and Beanie later at 6 for KBox. Sad that Alex can't make it.
Had lunch at Din Tai Fung @ J8 with the fam earlier and I can't rave enough about how much I love the food there especially the prawns. (Yes I'm a sucker for prawns)
I guess my parents can never tell how greatful I am for holidays like these where I can just sit down with them to eat. Yes I DO love my family even though I don't show them that lovey-dovey side of me. Hahaha.
My annoying brother kept pointing out how expensive everything was especially since my mom paid $4 more just to order this plate of shrimp fried rice which he and I shared. He kept harping on that and it kinda spoilt my appetite. The one without shrimp was $6.50 but yeah she knows how much I LUV prawns and so she ordered the shrimp one, which was $10.
Thank you Mom, you know I love you!
Hello there, the Angel from my Nightmare
Nyeh my head's hurting real bad and I've got a sorethroat and cough right now. The season of falling sick's back. Booo....
Or maybe its because I've been sleeping late recently. Hm.
The song Timothy let me hear at his place is awesome. I can't stop listening to it now and for some reason it feels calming. Its a song without lyrics by the way.
Today's dance lesson was just.. awesome + horrible.
Awesome because I love dancing in general, and horrible because we used studio 3 and the aircon wasn't on and the reggae class used it before us.
The moment we stepped inside the foul stench of sweat, body odour and the likes of it hit our noses. And oh, try imagining yourself dancing in a sauna. We did IPP in sec1 and sec3, and I remember how when we opened the doors and ran outside, the hallways felt like it was air-conditioned. That was EXACTLY how I felt today! The moment Xiaohei told us to take a break, everyone rushed outside and my first comment was, "OMG THIS FEELS LIKE AIRCON!"
Oh btw I made two more friends today! Nadya and.. I forgot the other girl's name. :P
Anyway, I'm going to sleep with 2 (was 4) plasters covering a wound on the back of my leg.
Most girls get blisters from wearing heels. I, on the other hand, got abrasions from wearing my Reebok Reverse Jam Monopoly series shoes to dance.
Heehee does anyone remember them? My pair of hi-tops that I wore to emcee for MFSS's National Day celebration with Jiaqi! (I got the photos of my shoes off my blog post about that day.)
I wasn't even near the school when I started limping cuz it hurt so bad. Went to 7-11 and bought a pack of plasters.
Headed up to *Scape and was happy to see that a lot of popular shops/restaurants are gonna open there! Like Xin Wang Cafe, SAKAE Sushi, Stage, X-Zone.. it's gonna be awesome! After lessons we've got so much more to do now other than to just go down to Cine to chill.
After class, Grace, Anika and I went to 7-11 at Cine to buy drinks.
Sitting at the ledge outside 7-11 to chat, we saw this tranny. She was happily insulting the girls that walked past. Like, "You, you look STUPID. Wear this ugly dress for what!", "You UHHGLY LA."
Or, "OEI! You pregnant ah??" when a fat girl walks past. When handsome guys walked past she would pull down one side of her jacket to reveal her shoulders. Of course the guys only walked away laughing/frightened or just ignored her totally.
Yeah this person's actually a bit mentally ill I guess? So yeah even though it was funny watching her insult every girl that walks past (especially those with boyfriends), we all felt quite bad for her? Grace even said that she felt like going over to hug her, telling her that it's okay. So sweet of Grace!
Haha Grace said something damn funny as we listened to the songs blasting via the speakers around Cine:
"IF THEY PLAY MY CHICK BAD, I WILL CRY."
(The song My Chick Bad is the song to the choreo we're learning.)
Or maybe its because I've been sleeping late recently. Hm.
The song Timothy let me hear at his place is awesome. I can't stop listening to it now and for some reason it feels calming. Its a song without lyrics by the way.
Today's dance lesson was just.. awesome + horrible.
Awesome because I love dancing in general, and horrible because we used studio 3 and the aircon wasn't on and the reggae class used it before us.
The moment we stepped inside the foul stench of sweat, body odour and the likes of it hit our noses. And oh, try imagining yourself dancing in a sauna. We did IPP in sec1 and sec3, and I remember how when we opened the doors and ran outside, the hallways felt like it was air-conditioned. That was EXACTLY how I felt today! The moment Xiaohei told us to take a break, everyone rushed outside and my first comment was, "OMG THIS FEELS LIKE AIRCON!"
Oh btw I made two more friends today! Nadya and.. I forgot the other girl's name. :P
Anyway, I'm going to sleep with 2 (was 4) plasters covering a wound on the back of my leg.
Most girls get blisters from wearing heels. I, on the other hand, got abrasions from wearing my Reebok Reverse Jam Monopoly series shoes to dance.
Heehee does anyone remember them? My pair of hi-tops that I wore to emcee for MFSS's National Day celebration with Jiaqi! (I got the photos of my shoes off my blog post about that day.)
I wasn't even near the school when I started limping cuz it hurt so bad. Went to 7-11 and bought a pack of plasters.
Headed up to *Scape and was happy to see that a lot of popular shops/restaurants are gonna open there! Like Xin Wang Cafe, SAKAE Sushi, Stage, X-Zone.. it's gonna be awesome! After lessons we've got so much more to do now other than to just go down to Cine to chill.
After class, Grace, Anika and I went to 7-11 at Cine to buy drinks.
Sitting at the ledge outside 7-11 to chat, we saw this tranny. She was happily insulting the girls that walked past. Like, "You, you look STUPID. Wear this ugly dress for what!", "You UHHGLY LA."
Or, "OEI! You pregnant ah??" when a fat girl walks past. When handsome guys walked past she would pull down one side of her jacket to reveal her shoulders. Of course the guys only walked away laughing/frightened or just ignored her totally.
Yeah this person's actually a bit mentally ill I guess? So yeah even though it was funny watching her insult every girl that walks past (especially those with boyfriends), we all felt quite bad for her? Grace even said that she felt like going over to hug her, telling her that it's okay. So sweet of Grace!
Haha Grace said something damn funny as we listened to the songs blasting via the speakers around Cine:
"IF THEY PLAY MY CHICK BAD, I WILL CRY."
(The song My Chick Bad is the song to the choreo we're learning.)
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Got this from Ker. Its been a while since I ever did any quizzes so.. Heehee.
LAYER 1: BASICS
Name: Gwen Neo
Birth Date: April 8th
Current Location: Dining area in my house
Hair Color: Dark brown
Righty/Lefty: Righty
LAYER 1: BASICS
Name: Gwen Neo
Birth Date: April 8th
Current Location: Dining area in my house
Hair Color: Dark brown
Righty/Lefty: Righty
LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE. LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH. LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
Your fears: Feeling alone?
Your dream of the perfect date: Just sitting around chilling out and sharing things with each other.
LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: WHERE IS THAT DAMNED ALARM CLOCK WHY'D YOU HAVE TO WAKE ME UP?!
What you miss most: Hm.. this one's hard to answer.
LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: None
McDonald’s or Burger King: Burger King. Actually I don't really eat fast food now.
Single or Group Dates: Group. Could be more fun at times :)
Adidas or Nike: Both
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate!!
Cappuccino or Coffee: None
LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: Noeps.
Cuss: A hell lot.
Take showers: Yeah LIKE DUH
Have a crush: Yeah?
Like school: I don't have school. I MISS HAVING school though, does that count?
Believe in yourself: Depends. I'm quite the pessimist, you see.
Believe what goes around comes around: Karma, bitches!
Believe everything happens for a reason: Yeah
Think you’re a health freak: Not.. really.
Gone to the mall: This is Singapore, so DUH.
Been on stage: Noeps.
Eaten sushi: Of course ;) Yum tum tum!
Been hurt: Yes of course.
Dyed your hair: Noeps.
LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: No!
Kissed the same sex: No!
Gotten beaten up: Haha of course not. Almost did though.
Changed who you were to fit in: Nope.
LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: 25..?
Number of kids you’re planning on having: 2 or none.
LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: Earthly light-blue. That's the kind of eyes that make me melt and spazz.
Hair color: Brown, I guess.
Short or long hair: Short.
Fat or fit: Fit.
Looks or personality: Personality.
Fun or serious: Fun but serious when the time calls to be.
LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: Yawning.
1 HOUR AGO: Reading my new Seventeen mag.
1 WEEK AGO: Exactly one week ago at this time I would've been sleeping.
1 YEAR AGO: In school mugging for O's.
I FEEL: Moodless
I HATE: Being confused and wondering what to do next
I HIDE: Things you wouldn't wanna know.. JUST KIDDING! ;)
Celine Xie!
I'm bored. So here I am, blogging again!
Sorry for the lack of photos. I know my blog's extremely dull because of that, but what to do when the blogger herself is leading a mundane life?
Well actually I'm just terribly excited to meet Celine again tomorrow for our movie + shopping + mom's shop trip! I met her on the way to work this afternoon. Must talk about this!
I decided to take the MRT instead of the bus down to Changi since Nana Wifey asked me to go down earlier, and I was kinda "late" for early. (Get it?)
When I was near the overhead bridge I saw this girl carrying a purple bag which seemed all too familiar to me. I thought, "Oh. Celine has that bag too.. Sigh." But then I noticed the shoes the girl was wearing.. Celine and I have the same pair of Adidas school shoes except hers is blue while mine's reddish-pink. So when I saw that girl's school shoes I immediately started sprinting in her direction. "CELINE!!! CELINE XIE!!" She stopped walking, gave me a blur look and was like, "EY GWENDY!!! OMG HI GWEN!!!" Heehee.
Then she walked me to the train station and it started to drizzle/rain while we waited for the traffic light -_-
Oh we have the same school bag too! We bought it together.
HAHA that day during O's as I was walking to the central bus stop to take a bus down to school, I saw Cel walking to school (she's from AMKSS so she can walk there) and when I caught up with her we realised we were both carrying the school bag we bought together, and were wearing the same Adidas school shoes!
We were both laughing and going nuts about that, wishing we had our cameras to capture the moment. Haha I'm smiling as I type this :)
Goes to show she's one of my best friends! :)
Oh, and that friends can wear and carry the same things without feeling embarassed or feeling like XMMs (Xiao MeiMeis).
I miss you so much, you know?! Even though you live a few blocks away, we never seem to meet or cross paths. Gosh I should meet you for dinner at the coffeeshop near your house everyday.
Anyway, I'm really tired right now. I slept throughout the bus ride from Changi to AMK. I woke up as the uncle turned into the interchange, phew! But when I did, my head started hurting and spinning real bad and I was so exhausted I wanted to find a place to sit and continue sleeping.
I hate walking home after work. At 12am+, the blocks and areas I walk past become.. weirdly creepy. Especially the coffeeshop near Cel's house! All the uncles sitting there drinking beer make me feel damn uncomfortable. Looking for volunteers to call me next Monday and Tuesday at 12am+ to accompany me as I walk home! Hahaha.
Its strange, how when I'm with the right person/people, that route I walk down to home doesn't seem creepy at all.
Yet without that person/group of people.. I never want to walk down that path again.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Sleepy..
G'afternoon all!
Its such a warm day and it just rained just now. The now-humid weather's perfect for sleeping.
Sad to say I got Emath tuition at 1:30pm. My tutor's giving me a paper to do. So gonna fail it.
And cuz of tuition I'll be late for work! Praying that my tutor comes on time if not I'll tell him I can't take the test today. Tuition ends at 3:30pm and if I leave the house later than 3:45pm I'll be late for at least 15mins or more.
Shouldn't have slept at 4am yesterday. Fred and his Counter Strike/Bejeweled... I'm so sleepy now.
Hey Soul Sister
Hey best friend,
I know things have not been good between us for like a week or so already. I just hope that you know I'll always love you no matter what.
I miss the little moments, like the times we have cold wars for like 2 days in school and suddenly while walking out of school with Cia, Jon Ha etc. from the back staircase beside 4I we'd just hug and say, "Omg I'm so sorry!!" and suddenly it'll be as if the cold war never happened.
And the time when I couldn't get over J. You knew that after I had a HTHT with Quin while having powerball during PE that something was wrong even though I didn't say it, and suddenly during recess you asked me if I wanted to go back to class with you cuz I was so close to crying. The moment I sat down at my seat I put my head on the table and cried and you just sat there telling me its alright.
Oh and Aaron and Ruixing looking over in the dark classroom (in MFSS we're not allowed to go back to class until the bell rings to signal the end of recess) and wondering what happened.. hahaha I remember everything about that day.
Speaking of which, Aaron just talked to me on MSN hahaha telepathy!
I MISS 4E OMG. Those I used to sit with (Manda Mel Syafiqah Cia Qah) and my familyyyy (Bryan Cho Lianyi a.k.a. Ah-Lian or Ah-Yi).
Oh well, time to go get my brunch (Mom toasted up for me cheeken pie! Awesome!) and eat Panadol before my Emath tutor comes.
It feels like my head's gonna explode!
I know things have not been good between us for like a week or so already. I just hope that you know I'll always love you no matter what.
I miss the little moments, like the times we have cold wars for like 2 days in school and suddenly while walking out of school with Cia, Jon Ha etc. from the back staircase beside 4I we'd just hug and say, "Omg I'm so sorry!!" and suddenly it'll be as if the cold war never happened.
And the time when I couldn't get over J. You knew that after I had a HTHT with Quin while having powerball during PE that something was wrong even though I didn't say it, and suddenly during recess you asked me if I wanted to go back to class with you cuz I was so close to crying. The moment I sat down at my seat I put my head on the table and cried and you just sat there telling me its alright.
Oh and Aaron and Ruixing looking over in the dark classroom (in MFSS we're not allowed to go back to class until the bell rings to signal the end of recess) and wondering what happened.. hahaha I remember everything about that day.
Speaking of which, Aaron just talked to me on MSN hahaha telepathy!
I MISS 4E OMG. Those I used to sit with (Manda Mel Syafiqah Cia Qah) and my familyyyy (Bryan Cho Lianyi a.k.a. Ah-Lian or Ah-Yi).
Oh well, time to go get my brunch (Mom toasted up for me cheeken pie! Awesome!) and eat Panadol before my Emath tutor comes.
It feels like my head's gonna explode!
Please don't stop the Rain
Taking a break from Emath. I'm bored out of my wits after 45mins of studying. Proves what a short attention span I have.
Oh, today I caught the best episode of Monk on Star World and I believe it's the last. I've never watched Monk before but this episode (Season 8, so I believe its the last episode?) was so touching (SPOILERS -- Mr. Monk found his wife's killer and met his wife's daughter. Really beautiful episode) that I may consider adding to my list of TV dramas to finish watching.
So I've got..:
1. Scrubs (BEST! I LOVE Zach Braff)
2. 90210
3. The Hills
4. Taking the Stage
5. CSI: Crime Scene Investigation
6. CSI: MIAMI
Are Zoey101 and iCarly counted? Hahaha.
And reality shows would be Teen Mom, 16 and Pregnant, Made, Jersey Shore and Paris Hilton's My New BFF.
Yeah they're all MTV's bimbo series of reality TV but I gotta say I didn't expect Jersey Shore to be this interesting. Caught it for the first time on MTVAsia today. No wonder Cheryl told me she loved it. I thought she was damn silly for saying that HAHA.
Oh, today I caught the best episode of Monk on Star World and I believe it's the last. I've never watched Monk before but this episode (Season 8, so I believe its the last episode?) was so touching (SPOILERS -- Mr. Monk found his wife's killer and met his wife's daughter. Really beautiful episode) that I may consider adding to my list of TV dramas to finish watching.
So I've got..:
1. Scrubs (BEST! I LOVE Zach Braff)
2. 90210
3. The Hills
4. Taking the Stage
5. CSI: Crime Scene Investigation
6. CSI: MIAMI
Are Zoey101 and iCarly counted? Hahaha.
And reality shows would be Teen Mom, 16 and Pregnant, Made, Jersey Shore and Paris Hilton's My New BFF.
Yeah they're all MTV's bimbo series of reality TV but I gotta say I didn't expect Jersey Shore to be this interesting. Caught it for the first time on MTVAsia today. No wonder Cheryl told me she loved it. I thought she was damn silly for saying that HAHA.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Who are you referring to?
Excited! Celine just messaged me and we're meeting this Wednesday to go to her mom's shop, then shopping and to catch a movie! AND we're planning a trip overseas prolly to Thailand/Malaysia for the June hols!
I can't wait! So happy to receive a text from her because its been forever since I last saw her! Even though she lives just 8mins away from my house, I've not seen her since I went to her house a few months back and I miss her like hell :(
Babe I can't wait to see you this Wednesday I really can't!
And I can't wait for the June hols to come. Hope I'll see Joey/Cass/Shanai/Eileen C. then for lunch and kite flying. :)
I can't wait! So happy to receive a text from her because its been forever since I last saw her! Even though she lives just 8mins away from my house, I've not seen her since I went to her house a few months back and I miss her like hell :(
Babe I can't wait to see you this Wednesday I really can't!
And I can't wait for the June hols to come. Hope I'll see Joey/Cass/Shanai/Eileen C. then for lunch and kite flying. :)
CAMWHORE
I love my cousins, I love my relatives.
Oh, my little cousins are bigger camwhores than me. Hahah! But then again, they ARE prettier.
Oh, my little cousins are bigger camwhores than me. Hahah! But then again, they ARE prettier.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Breathe
''I can't help it that you're the one running away while I'm left to face reality. Its not fair, but that's life. Life is never fair. What else to do but take it with a pinch of salt?''
So I'm staring at my Emath homework now.
Graphs.
Oh the joy.
No wonder my cellphone became my best friend within the next 5mins of staring at it. My piano's next.. Its just sitting there... Waiting to be played. Especially since I've moved the stuffed toys off it.. Hm.
I feel like Yui-chan now T.T I can't concentrate on Math just like her :3
So I'm staring at my Emath homework now.
Graphs.
Oh the joy.
No wonder my cellphone became my best friend within the next 5mins of staring at it. My piano's next.. Its just sitting there... Waiting to be played. Especially since I've moved the stuffed toys off it.. Hm.
I feel like Yui-chan now T.T I can't concentrate on Math just like her :3
You break a promise, you break a heart.
(Photos above taken by Mel. Editing done by me. Thanks Mel! Love the fact you were just playing around yet the results were lovely.)Sometimes the best thing in life is to not have any aims, expectations or goals.
I would like to live life freely, doing whatever I please without having to bear the consequences, without feeling anything even if what I did was wrong. But reality never pats you gently on the shoulders, humming you a sweet, soft melody to slowly put you to sleep.
It whacks you hard in the head, telling you: "WORK HARDER. YOU STUDY, YOU EARN MONEY, YOU HAVE KIDS, GROW OLD AND DIE. SO WHAT? WORK YOUR ASS OFF I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!"
When you have time alone, you can do nothing but let your mind wander.
I never like it when my mind does that. I really detest that.
Have you ever wondered why you're.. say, a Literature student? Trained to do nothing but infer until it becomes automatic to you, until the first thing you do when a situation arises is to infer, make a guess and come to your own conclusion without concrete, solid proof/answers?
That's the difference between Humanities students and Science/Math students.
All that inferring shit may score you marks in your exam, but have you ever wondered how it affects your relationships with both friends and the opposite gender alike?
I hate the fact that I can only infer. That's all I do. I panic, I infer. I am calm, I infer until I panic. Then the cycle starts all over again. There is never once my brain stops to calm down.
Perhaps I'm only feeling this way because my knee's making me freak out. I honestly have nothing else on my mind. I've never had my kneecaps hurting for over a week before and it gets worse after dance. I practiced for freestyle earlier (as someone once said, "If only Gwen was as excited about her studies as she is for sailing and dance.. -.-") and I ended up walking in a really awkward position after.
Sitting down doesn't make it better. I'm worried to go to a doctor like what Nurul suggested because if there's one thing I'm absolutely HORRIFIED of, its needles, (being able to see) bones, blood tests and anything of the likes.
Oh goodness I'm shuddering inside as I type this.
Oh well, no matter. I think I should catch some shut eye and worry about my knees tomorrow instead.
OR, I could catch K-On!! Season 2. That's my latest obsession and its making me want to play my guitar again. First I gotta change my rusty strings and bring it for maintenance I guess.
Friday, May 21, 2010
You make me Happy, when skies are Grey
Photos from the dance prac a few days back with Elie and Bern:
My favourite lines are these:
Meaningful lines, no?
It may be weird to say this, but K-On! makes me want to pick up guitar again. I've always wanted to play the electric guitar but my dad always forbid me to because the guitar itself's too expensive. He always tells me to borrow from Timothy but I'm like why should I borrow an electric guitar from him? Its his baby.
I'm trying to learn more scores on the keyboard. My days of playing it 'till 4am might just be slowly coming back.
Life has actually been getting better and better for me. I'm quite happy with everything now actually! Like I'm my old positive self again, which is really good. The first dance session at O School was good, I made two new friends -- Anika and Grace! They make me more excited for dance because when I was at Studio Wu it was just me and Bern, so if Bern didn't go I would naturally feel lazy to go.
But I'm worried. My knees have really been giving me hell and I'm quite upset about it. That's the only problem I have now in my life really, and I can't help but to think it'll affect me in dance in the long run.
Especially since today Xuehui used a lot of knee movement?
Thank God next week we're gonna go more chest movements. Less on the knees please T_T
This is damn retarded. The dance might've been a tad bit silly and weird at first, but on this dance prac day, this dude from the YOG side observed us and changed EVERYTHING.
My mood on that day was already like shit because I was annoyed since morning, and when this guy treated us like little kids and all that I just became really guailan. Couldn't help it, everyone was pissed off and when the session ended Jae called us together and told us Thursday's performance at Raffles City was cancelled.
At least we still get paid, but wtf right?
Max was quite pissed off about the changed dance too. It became like some moronic cheer and flash mobs are supposed to be spontaneous, not planned and rigid. The fun of the dance was totally stripped off.
Max said as we all walked out together, "Don't care la on that day itself we just dance the old way! Don't care, not like he'll come and watch us also right?! HAHAHA."
Sigh no wonder they say anything Singapore-related just isn't fun..
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I'm hooked onto K-On! season 1's OP. Just started watching today after catching another episode on Animax. Pure awesomeness! :3
My mood on that day was already like shit because I was annoyed since morning, and when this guy treated us like little kids and all that I just became really guailan. Couldn't help it, everyone was pissed off and when the session ended Jae called us together and told us Thursday's performance at Raffles City was cancelled.
At least we still get paid, but wtf right?
Max was quite pissed off about the changed dance too. It became like some moronic cheer and flash mobs are supposed to be spontaneous, not planned and rigid. The fun of the dance was totally stripped off.
Max said as we all walked out together, "Don't care la on that day itself we just dance the old way! Don't care, not like he'll come and watch us also right?! HAHAHA."
Sigh no wonder they say anything Singapore-related just isn't fun..
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I'm hooked onto K-On! season 1's OP. Just started watching today after catching another episode on Animax. Pure awesomeness! :3
My favourite lines are these:
A bright future is offered to me...
that's why I take a break once in a while.
With these eyes I'll confirm
my destination and Mark it on my map!
The important thing is to love oneself,
if you don't love yourself, you won't love other people.
The important thing is to accept oneself,
if you don't forgive yourself, you won't be able to forgive other people!
Meaningful lines, no?
It may be weird to say this, but K-On! makes me want to pick up guitar again. I've always wanted to play the electric guitar but my dad always forbid me to because the guitar itself's too expensive. He always tells me to borrow from Timothy but I'm like why should I borrow an electric guitar from him? Its his baby.
I'm trying to learn more scores on the keyboard. My days of playing it 'till 4am might just be slowly coming back.
Life has actually been getting better and better for me. I'm quite happy with everything now actually! Like I'm my old positive self again, which is really good. The first dance session at O School was good, I made two new friends -- Anika and Grace! They make me more excited for dance because when I was at Studio Wu it was just me and Bern, so if Bern didn't go I would naturally feel lazy to go.
But I'm worried. My knees have really been giving me hell and I'm quite upset about it. That's the only problem I have now in my life really, and I can't help but to think it'll affect me in dance in the long run.
Especially since today Xuehui used a lot of knee movement?
Thank God next week we're gonna go more chest movements. Less on the knees please T_T
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