Love until we bleed

R.I.P (one of my) calculators. Thank God I still have another.


Was sick the whole of today. And I hate being sick because I was so weak while I was still in primary and secondary school it made me feel useless. Felt weak and my hands trembled like mad (people who follow my Twitter should be able to tell cuz I was panicking and spamming). Couldn't walk past my bookshelf because my legs were weak, and I got scared.

Momszie stuffed me with EVERYTHING chocolate.

1. A damn sweet cup of Milo
2. I ate like 6 squares of dark chocolate (HEARTPAIN MY DARK CHOCO!!)
3. This really sweet custard puff

Felt slightly better but she tells me she wants me to take a blood test. I told her I'd rather have a car bang me/tree fall on me/lightning strike me before I would get a needle inside me. Thank goodness she changed her mind, with a "CHOI. Okay fine, bring you see Chinese doc soon. You sure you alone at home ok ah?"

Did a bit of Emath before falling asleep at around 3pm. Woke up around 9pm. Felt way better but now I feel really cold with a headache and sorethroat.

I feel old.

IKE IKE GO GO ORE GO GO!!

DON'T YOU JUST LOVE NAKATSU??
"Ike ike go go! Ore go go!!" and that face.... so cute!
Even Oguri Shun's cute here hahaha.

Singfest/Collecting/IKUTA TOMAAAAAA

I can't believe it. I don't think I'll be able to get the Singfest tix unless my parents are willing to pay for like a bit of it. But what are the chances when they've spent over $100 on me last week? UGH.

I can't bear to spend anymore moneyyyy.

At least Daomin wants to go too so I know I won't be alone?? Hate being moolah-less!

I've got like $503 left in my bank account, which is bad. As long as I see that the amount inside's like below $700 I'll freak. And now its 200bucks below $700 so of course I'm freaking out.

Which sucks because I really want a new pair of Converse sneaks and a new pair of Vans. Hahah its dumb but my dream's to own..

1. A display cabinet full of working vintage film cameras
2. A cupboard full of Vans and Converse shoes

And now I've got a new dream added, and that's to see Ikuta Toma in person one day, even if he's like 100 years old and ugly or something. And oh, Matsujun too! (I almost squealed amongst like a random crowd of people while waiting for the traffic light because I saw Jun's LARGER-THAN-LIFE-sized Fasio advertisement on the FRIGGIN'. DOUBLE. DECKER. BUS.

CAN YOU IMAGINE JUN'S HUGEASS FACE OVER LIKE THE WHOLE SIDE OF THE DOUBLE-DECKER BUS?!?)

Or to live in Japan, which has always been a dream by the way.

A really. Really. Expensive.... dream.

I just finished Hanakimi earlier and my gosh you should see how excited I get whenever Toma does something cutesy. Love him so so so so so much! I'm back to being a Jap fangirl. Sugoiiii. :)

Which MAY be a bad thing because I remember when I was crazy over Jun-kun (SEE?! I'M ALREADY DOING IT) I kept going :3 and ^-^ and ^_^ and "jya mata" and "oyasumiiiii" and "daijoubu des!" and "hai!" and jun and san and sama and........

OMG.


But I remembered how when the Japan students came to MFSS for a day (it was a Saturday, if you're wondering why the only Jap students you ever saw were those from the Japan Exchange Programme) and when Loic and I were emcees for the event, it was so fun! Back then I knew like a bit of casual conversational Jap from all the animes and Japanese drama I watched so it was an awesome experience.

And oh how when they used Arashi's song A.RA.SHI when they performed for our SLs.. heehee I squealed damn loudly backstage, "ARASHI????! SUGOIIIIIIIII NE!" and the girls all looked at me with their huge eyes that literally screamed YOU KNOW ARASHI??

I was all "MATSUJUN! kaokoii yo ne?" and, well, you know girls. Language is NEVER a barrier when it comes to fan-girling. They nodded in agreement and we all happily giggled amongst ourselves happily ever after.

-The End-

No I'm not kidding that's what really happened.


Okay since I can't sleep and I have nothing else to do on the laptop I should prolly tidy my study table and like, clear all my junk so I can actually use it??

And do a bit of Emath. My fingers are itching for the calculator. Oh how queer.

Going with the fam for lunch @ IKEA hopefully! They went today cuz Mom couldn't wake me up. (I slept at about 11am?) So when Dad woke me up it was like, 8.30pm. I'm dying for salmon.
*slurp*

AND WHY DO I NOT HAVE A CREDIT CARD. DAMN. I see so many things I want from this particular online shop and when I glanced over the modes of payment.. 1. Paypal, 2. VISA, 3. Mastercard.

Oh well, time to do something I've never done before.......

MOMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~~

p.s. Gwendolyn Neo please stop visiting your own blog to listen to your blog's song. Download it already!

Wakey-wakey

Some photos from my road trip to Genting.

I'm really bored.


p.s. Tumblr is awesome because I got to know about a load of unknown bands that sound pretty much awesome.

Times Three

Cut layered bangs. Had an awesome week. Got guitar restringed. Met Mel for lunch. Had ice-cream. Enjoyed dance. Made plans to shop with Cheryl C. + Anika for hip hop stuff. Realised how a simple "Hi there!" and a smile while paying for bread would brighten up a cashier by 100%. Eating naan that doesn't taste like naan. Would say it tastes bad, but it doesn't. Just tastes like bread + spices + stuff you'd see in chicken pie. Mouth on fire. Had Yami Yoghurt with Fruity Pebbles. Read blogs. Reblogged awesome Tumblr stuff.

Did I mention I had an awesome week?

A Corner

A corner of my house I like very much.

When I take photos like these it makes me love the house I live in more and more. And I gotta thank Momszie for her "decorating skills". Plain simplicity.

Pigggggery

I realised something. I can't wink with my left eye (YES I AM ACTUALLY WINKING WITH MY LEFT EYE IN THE PHOTO) because my right eye does this thing where it can't open as wide when my left eye is closed.

I can wink with my right eye though! My left eye more or less remains the same when I wink with my right eye. Hah.


So I was supposed to meet Ker at 3pm at our usual studying cafe @ Thomson Plaza after having lunch with my relatives at my gran's. I woke up to my phone vibrating only to answer and hear Ker's voice on the other end asking, "Where are you?"

It was apparently 4.30pm? And I just woke up! Thank God she was at home and wasn't mad. If she were at Thomson I would gladly let her hack my head off. I still feel guilty talking about it goshhhh.

Anyways I ended up falling asleep again and my brother had to come wake me up.. apparently at 8pm. Went over to gran's for dinner (on Sundays all my relatives usually stay there till dinner) and felt sleepy at 10pm.

Its only been 2 hours and already I'm feeling tired. Hm. I think if Gerald didn't come and wake me up for dinner I could've slept 'till tomorrow morning.

Seventeen Forever (21 mini-haul!)

Okay I'm listening to the song Seventeen Forever by Metro Station, and I'm gonna do a mini-haul update for my finds at Forever21 today.

So.. Seventeen Forever 21 mini-haul guys!

(Veh funny right. Right?? RIGHT?? Ha ha ha. You guys aren't a humorous bunch, are you? :( )

Anyways yeah nothing much to this 'haul' because it wasn't really a haul. My friends would know how big a F21 fanatic I am. I believe I've spent over 600bucks in total on F21 stuff. My outfit every day consists of something F21.


I bought two necklaces and a red beanie.

Was THIS close to buying 3 tops -- 1 "Miami" pink + sheer v-neck, 1 sky-blue v-neck and one comfy size 'L' long-sleeved top! Would've spent like a total of 70bucks if I bought those 3 tops. But I decided that 29bucks for the Miami top wasn't worth it, and well, I regret not buying the long-sleeved top. Boo.

But I do love v-neck tops.


Anywho here's my stuff! (I've never bought necklaces from F21 so yeah, pretty ecstatic about my finds.) And again, I was close to spending an extra $11 on an owl necklace. But it was silver and I don't hit off so well with the colour.



I realised I'm a sucker when it comes to putting on necklaces on my own:


Red beanie!

Okay that's all. Just a short update because I was bored and decided to kill time by showing off what a Forever21 nerd I am.

Because my life so far has been..

Worst week of my life so far.

I have never used the term FML to describe my life before, but today while talking to Aaron, I was going, "Oh FML man, FML!" the whole time.

If you didn't realise, the past few months my blog posts have only been photos and like a line or two to sum up my day/week. I've not used this to talk about my feelings for a very long time because I know how wrong and dumb it is to use a blog for personal ranting, also because there are people I know/don't know who would read this.

Its moronic when people say stuff like, "Oh this is MY blog, hence MY WORLD. Screw off if you don't like what you read because I can say whatever I wanna say."

Like seriously? GROW UP. A blog isn't private even if it had a password to it.

Initially, I typed out this really long post, but my parents are already embarrassed enough of me cuz of what "my friends" feedback to my mom? So I saved the initial post as a draft. I'm tired of my life being scrutinised, really. I know they (meaning a lot of people) only mean well but this 'act of caring' drives my parents nuts. When my parents gave me The Talk today, I could only get the impression that they were.. embarrassed of me? Because of feedback from people?

Infact, that's the only thing I've been feeling. From my dad especially. I'm sorry for bringing private stuff up here but I've been tolerating this since last year. I can't blame them, I feel embarrassed of myself too. Its tiring.. they think that I THINK my life is perfect. Do they never realise how far from the truth that is? Just because I do not talk about it, doesn't mean I live in my own world where my world is this.... this fantasy. Every day since I got my O's results back has been a struggle to me. People view me differently. My dad treats me differently. Sometimes its hard to compare up to people in my life because they are just that much better than me. When my mom talks about how well my cousins are doing, I can't help but zone out. I study with the hopes of ever getting that far in life but it drains me. I'm tired. I hate how society is; how different people are perceived differently. I love my friends, aunts, uncles.. well, relatives in general for being there to pull me up after I fell. The countless encouraging calls.. I can't thank them enough.


First my iPod, then one of the worst arguments with me mom. Now I just knocked my tripod down and broke off one of the levers. UGH I hope I can get that fixed cuz it was a clean break. And superglue can't fix it. So......

Yes I'm in a pretty bad mood now.

Screwed

I found out last week that Kenny Wormald deleted his Youtube.

Now I'm sad. No more worm727 dance videos oh noooo.

Anyways, my whole week has been screwed. I'm exhausted, I want to sleep in, but noooo I can't. Even now as I'm blogging. I'm actually supposed to be asleep at this moment cuz I have tuition in like prolly 2 hours time??

But yeah I have this problem now. I WAS exhausted. Like exhausted to the point I fell asleep on the sofa while watching Cruel Temptations on Channel U after showering and all that jazz after I came home with my parents, whom bought me these awesome Audio Technica earpieces I'm wearing now to listen to my music from my laptop.

(BTW if you're wondering, they bought me the new A.T. Key model. Yeah it costs like 48bucks and I think I bought the last brown one! The rest of the colours looked SUPER gu niang and I was all ew I'm not gonna get something so girly daaaamn.)

So yes I fell asleep for a good half hour or so? Then Dad ruined it by waking me up. The moment he did, I snapped wide awake. Lay on my bed for over an hour and decided to walk around. Didn't work.

Did Emath instead. Didn't work.
Practiced all my old Sec 2 hip hop routines. Didn't work.
Read a mag. Didn't work.
Went outside to eat my favourite biscuit (its not lao po bing but something similar??). Didn't work.
Used the laptop. Didn't work.

NOTHING WORKS. I CAN'T GET TIRED AGAIN AFTER WAKING UP FROM LIKE A HALF HOUR NAP. Which is ridiculous if you ask me.

My parents are awesome. Because these earpieces were meant to be my really, really belated birthday present, they offered to get me the 88bucks headphones I've been eyeing since I was like Secondary 3? Or even the 78bucks one. But I told them I'd just save up for the headphones myself since I'll most prolly use it at home since I'm like a music junkie and I hate listening to music from the laptop's speakers itself. Also cuz I won't be able to damage it since I'm definitely not bringing headphones out unless my bag's pretty empty.


Okay, digressing aside......

Yeah why I said I'm screwed's cuz I'm so friggin' worn out. I can't seem to find a SINGLE day I've not been out! Lets see.. yeah, nothing.

And tomorrow after tuition I'll be joining my new colleagues for lunch/whatnot after they book out from the company chalet, which I'm really not looking forward to unless Tim and Jip(?), my teammates, are there.

And AFTER tuition I'll be coming back to AMK to buy flowers and chocolates for Rach's ACJC performance at the Esplanade. I've not seen her since ever and it'll be nice seeing her again. Re-wearing the outfit I wore today to meet Ker to mug cuz I can't be bothered to pick another outfit so hurrah for the laziness in me.

AND after Rach's performance (or even before. Might just attend like half an hour of it) I'll be rushing down to dance. Doubt I'll be able to make it though but I feel fat and I really wanna dance instead of wasting money since I paid for the course.

But yes like I said I doubt I can make it.

Just when I thought Friday might be my only "off" day, I may be having tuition with Rei cuz we're thinking of getting Vincent back as our tutor.

Saturday? Don't get me started. I would definitely enjoy whatever's going on on Saturday, but I really cannot take it I'm gonna crash and burn soon. Every time I go out people say I look tired, haggard.. exhausted.


Ker gave me this huge reminder. I read through my saved texts and cried cuz I stumbled across the text from MOE telling I got into ITE's Visual Merchandising course.. and hell no I don't want to experience that friggin' roller coaster ride of emotions again.

God has no idea how thankful I am to have such a friend as one of my best friends. No idea.

I need to get a f*ing scheduler. Or just reject any invitation to go out.




Oh well.

Life isn't fair now, is it?

Lazy

This week has been a tiring week.

Notice how my most recent blog posts have no photos? Yeah I'm exhausted. I'm too lazy to go to my room, get CamCam, take out the memory stick and connect it to my laptop to edit photos. And to upload them onto Photobucket only to reupload them here.

Too lazy.

I really, REALLY wish I had a whole week to myself. To do nothing but eat sleep snore the day away. I hate waking myself up now. I literally drag myself out of bed... this.. this routine I have everyday. I want to sleep 'till 8pm I swear if there was a day I'm not expected to be anywhere but home I'd gladly do that.

Today I set my alarm for 12pm. It rang, followed by phonecalls. I woke up and went back to sleep. Phone call for my house phone.. nah I slept through that. Another phone call at 1pm. I woke up, glanced at my cell's screen, went back to sleep with my phone still vibrating on the floor beside me. 2pm Mom called the house. Dragged myself from bed to answer it, voice literally screaming "OHAI I JUST WOKE UP."

2.30pm Dad called the house. The moment he said come down soon I snapped awake, like FINALLY.

I feel like having a bit of them yoghurt now. YUMMMMZ TUM TUM. The whole day I've had nothing but like 6/8 of my char siew rice for lunch...... and like a mouthful of water cuz I forgot to bring my waterbottle to work and the moment I clocked in my colleague was like, "Today Uncle (a nickname we gave my supervisor) in bad mood liao leh you still slowly come hahaha quai dian quai dian HORRRRRR." and I ran up from our shop at the transit area to T3's public area. Like, RAN.

She does the horrrrr thing because my supervisor does that.

A lot.


p.s. PLEASE CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG ADS LIKE 5BUCKS MORE 'TILL I GET PAID I NEED MOOLAH NOW PLZ KTHXBYE LUV YOU GUYS!

Viva la ESPANYOL!

(Hey look! SHAOLIN SOCCER!)

So after 116mins of heart-stopping action, my expression says all. Unlike the match between Germany and Spain, this time I joined Casillas in crying happy tears. :')


The best 116mins of my soccer-watching life.... ever.

Was very disappointed in Netherlands. Not cuz I support the team, but because my beloved RVP (Spencer asked what's RVP. Robin van Persie. DOH) was playing dirty the whole time! I've never wished an Arsenal player to get red-carded, but yeah throughout the whole match I was there secretly hoping that RVP would get a red card.

Such foul play from Netherlands. So foul it made the pitch stink.

Bert van Mijk, what ON EARTH are you teaching your players? That playing dirty would lead to a championship win?


Next thing to look forward to for me:


C'MON ARSENAL FC, ITS TIME TO PREPARE FOR WAR MAN! And see, Arsenal loves Fabregas so much that Arsenal's official Twitter tweeted about Fabregas claiming the assist to Iniesta's goal against Netherlands. Fabregas, tell me why you would leave a team that adores you so?

Viva la Espanyol!

Die Mannschaft

Would love to try that!
(Though I must say I cringe at the sight of octopus sushi)
But I can't, cuz Paul's prediction for Germany to win the 3rd-placing match was right.. so......

Goodbye grilled octopus :'(

I HAZ SHORT HAIR!!

NAW JUST KIDDING.

Bet I gotcha there!

I would never cut my hair short. Not for now anyway. I know I contemplated hair of that length like a few months back (Qah was like, "GO FOR IT BABE JUST CUT JUST CUT!!" and Ker was all "Noooo when the weather gets warm you can't tie your hair!!")




Yeah enough of camwhoring pics. My hair's (slightly) straighter, no? Heehee I straightened it using my straightener which Mom and I have not touched for a little over a year now.



The aftermath (with my fringe pushed a lil' more to the side)

Okay yeah I do stupid stuff like straightening my hair at 5AM. Yes WE'VE ALL ESTABLISHED THAT FACT. (I realised this is the 3rd time I'm saying "We've established that fact")

Family's going on a food-feasting Malaysia trip tomorrow. That'll include that awesome durian place at Tangkak! I really really wanna go there but ugh I've been scared shitless of the amount of calories one seed of durian has! Much less the whole damned thing.

And that awesome beehoon place! I used to hate beehoon as a kid but started to eat it since sec1 I think. Believe me when I say I love the beehoon there because I've never tasted such yummy beehoon! Then again, all delicious food's fattening.. foodies, lets just admit that.

And because all delicious food's fattening, I've opted out of tomorrow's trip!

Besides, I've got better things to do like stay home and rot.

So I'm prolly going for this job interview/orientation tomorrow. A tad bit dubious but Momszie called back the dude and was alright with it. Imagine her trash-talking to the dude at 11pm. Okay she's not that fierce, just saying..

Ker might accompany me there too. Meeting Alex after her her project meeting to go to *SCAPE to support my dearest Twinnie Tang Mingwei and his stall! His friend's, actually. Can show Alex how cool O School is at the same time. Yes I love O School now!

Then we're heading back to her place or mine (hopefully buying a tub of Ben & Jerry's on the way!) to sleepover or just to chill, depending on what time my parents get back.

Scrubs marathon, anyone?

I am Hip Hop I no more!

I can't believe this is an ACTUAL movie and not one of the countless parodies found on Youtube. I'm definitely gonna catch this. Fo' shizzle yo.





Yours truly is now officially done with O School's Hip Hop I course.

AND I MET HOK OF SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE SEASON 3 up close and personal today before and after class! Was gushing like a little girl getting candy throughout and I even forgot his name because I was so excited. He's teaching one of the Master Classes that his crew Quest Crew taught tonight.

He's shorter than what I thought he'd be, though. BUT I LOVE HIS HAIR.

I love everything about today. Xuehui breaking us up into groups to do blocking and one-eight of a choreography was the best thing that ever happened in this class (besides having known Grace and Anika).

Thanks to this, the group of people I kinda disliked are now people I find really fun. Finally understood how the Chinese phrase ren bu ke mao xiang applies in life. I now have more than 7 friends from this dance class. Even though our group was the worst (we did really easy formations and didn't add in our own choreo at all), we laughed it off and enjoyed the rest of the groups' mini-performance.

And thanks to this, I went home via train with one of my new buddies. Hi Cheryl Y.! Please take note that I am a Facebook homepage mini-feeds flooder.

Can't wait to introduce her and Fitzgerald to Anika next week! WE'RE OFFICIALLY HIP HOP II STUDENTS, BABY! I may have been dancing since primary 6, but I've never gotten a cert from anything hip hop related so this is one thing I'll keep properly.

(Oops, its actually.. well, on the floor now.......)

Sadly I'll never see Grace in anymore cuz she's joining Street Jazz.

Events of the day aside..

... it seems like yours truly won't be sleeping on her bed tonight/tomorning..

Germany..

Cried. First time I ever cried over a team getting kicked out of World Cup.

The bitter-sweet feeling I got.. whoa. I smiled when the ref blew his whistle to end the 2nd half but the moment the cameras focused on Germany's side I started crying. Been supporting them since last World Cup (which was pretty sad for them as well) so yeah its heart-wrenching.

Sucks to love both teams.

Well at least I feel good knowing that at least one of my favourite teams are gonna be in the finals. C'mon Espanyol, we can do this!

Tumblr, people!

Hi guys!

Yes, I've succumbed to the Tumblr trend, I'll admit.

And no, I'm not moving there, and I never will. But its like a side-blog for me? I post photos, quotes and reblog random shizz there. So yeah do follow me if you like my works here on Realityworks and all that nonsense!

I don't blog there, the blogging's done here. :) I've been blogging on Realityworks since.. well like primary 6 (before that I had another blog. No infact I have like 4 other blogs that I use for blogging (I have a total of 12 blogs linked to my Blogger account, the rest meant for Blogskins and class stuff) -- 3 that I don't blog on anymore since I created RW in primary 6, and 1 I use for personal stuff).

So yeah I'll never abandon or change Realitywork's URL.

So after all that nonsense.. CLICK CLICK CLICK here for my Tumblr and +follow!

Let me introduce you..

I believe you guys have yet to meet.

Everyone, this is (uh.. I'VE NOT NAMED THIS CAMERA YET! HOW HOW HOW?!). Camera, this is everyone.

Can I just rave about this little thing of mine for a bit? Heehee.

A Konica C35. Made in 1968 with 38mm f2.8 four-element Hexanon lens, this camera was one of Konica's more successful models back in the days, and I can't be happier sharing my find -- my best yet! Welcome to the family!

So lets see..

I have a 1968 Konica C35, a (I have no idea what year it was manufactured since this was my dad's. But he has been using it like even before he got married to Mom??) Praktica with MC Carl Zeiss Jena lens, and a 1998 OneStep CloseUp Polaroid camera, which, sadly, I'm not able to use now because PX films cost a bomb, like SGD$47 per pack of 10 shots?

Meaning one Polaroid photo would cost $4.70. HELLO YOU CAN PAY ME $5 TO SELL 'EM MAN.

And I don't like it when people call a Fujifilm Instax a Polaroid omggggg there's a difference my friends. Yeah I know its dumb to get worked up over names but there really is a difference! Polaroid is a brand name itself, and an established one at that. So I guess calling an Instax a Polaroid is kind of an insult to the brand. Hm..

But yeah I'm wondering if I should get an Instax. Not Mini or the Mini 25, but the Instax 210. The hugeass one which would prolly be rather heavy to carry around?

(On a side note, SHINee used it on their reality show Yunhanam)

Main reasons being I would NEVER be able to afford shooting with my Polaroid anymore. Even when I met Jaye at Orchard Central's Open Bazaar (he's the owner of the website I often visit for sales of vintage cameras/Polaroids/photography accessories), he told me he could sell me the film but it would be better if I saved up and bought myself film cameras.

I hate the fact that photography is such an expensive hobby :(

Next time, I'll marry a husband whom is rich enough to support my hobby!! *evil laughter*

So my life has been..

There. Just a bit to sum it up for you.

So it was Eclipse, Suki Sushi (the Cine's outlet's WAY better than AMK's one. Should've established that fact ages ago) and my new baby vintage camera (I've yet to name it) with Bern.

Then off to Sentosa Resort World with Cel for Voyage de La Vie.

If you've ever watched Entertainment on 5, Sylvester Sim and this bald causasian guy were on it to promote this musical.

It was good, but nothing special. Maybe I think its good cuz Sylvester Sim stared me straight in the eye when he walked past the area I was sitting at. I uncrossed and crossed my legs, and I swear he actually looked at my legs as I crossed and uncrossed them while he was singing halfway and gave me this "Why'd you just do that?" look as he then looked up to look at me. Hahaha.

And oh, one of the angmoh performers who like came off the stage to get the crowd hyped up for this musical's finale was standing like at the row behind mine, back facing me. I was talking to Cel and noticed he turned back to look at us, so I looked at him and it was awkward for like one moment? Then I smiled and he nodded his head in a "Oh hey there!" fashion and flashed a smile. *melts*

Yes I know. I can't believe I just smiled at a performer like that. I would usually turn away, yes i know, I know.