iPod

Decided to blog while waiting for my iPod to finish charging! I hate the fact that I don't have the charger that allows you to adapt from the USB cable to the wall socket.

I think I'll check AMK Hub for that thing later. No more excuses to use the laptop then!

Well okay, today I had Emath tuition and did more Emath. My parents are on their way back from badminton ("You and your brother shall make a sacrifice and not play for a few weeks till your major exams are over okay?") and are taking Gerald and I to eat at Aston's again.

The portions there are huge, seriously. For the chicken chop yes cuz the last time I ate there I could only finish half the thing and I gave the rest to YL.


Gonna go to Popular later to get MORE stationery and this Emath guidebook I saw yesterday when I was at Singpost's Popular after church. $24.90.. but it seems to be worth every penny. I hope.

AND the adaptor. If a shop at Hub has it.

Cheryl told me she saw the red version of the Arsenal Nike backpack yesterday at Orchard Central. Damn you sec 2s, getting to enjoy life huh! Can still go out to shop huh! EGAD *pulls out hair*

Anyways, Its like slightly cheaper than the blue one at Hub's Football Madness(?) so I think I'm gonna get it. Just.. let me save up more money before I talk, la la la.

I am very full now. Think I'll have to share dinner with momszie-ho!


"Lets go downnnn~!"

Bye all!

Mom

I think Laptop's going to die in a few years time. Oh well, then Dad can get me the Mac Book I've been wanting! Its so pretty.

You know what? I think life is like that piece of rainbow bread. Take the risk and just eat it! Outside dull and prolly not something you'd wanna eat cuz its JUST bread, inside a pretty rainbow.



Today, Aunty Esther called me to have a good long talk with me today and she ended off the phone call telling me something about my mom which pained me quite badly. Its nothing bad, really. About her feeling hurt that she can't do anything, that she could only watch me breakdown when I do cuz I feel hurt.

My mom is one heck of a strong woman. The only time I remember her crying openly was when my grandmother from my maternal side passed away. Being K2 at that time, I was screaming for my gran when she passed away cuz she's the first close relative of mine who did.

I went to ask her about it when she came out of her room after getting ready to go to my aunt's place. The moment she came out of the room she said, "My darling daughter." and hugged me. That never happens btw.

Of course, needless to say, being the water tap that I am, I started tearing while asking her, "Mom did you cry? I heard from someone you cried while talking about me."


You know, it pained me to watch her expression at that point of time. Eyes turning red and watery, she just said, "Aiyah, mommy cried while watching the show la!"

You know what show was on TV at that point of time?

SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS.

(Unless you're really some emotional wreck, Spongebob Squarepants would never make a person cry. Why do you think the cartoon's about a sponge anyway?)

She reassured me, "Don't worry, I didn't cry. Don't worry so much about it okay? I'm gonna go lao-gim's house to learn how to make the spongecake you like! She's been wanting to teach me and she said today MUST go."

With red, watery eyes, how can that scene be one that was.. well, assuring?

I've honestly never felt so hurt just cuz my mom was holding back tears. I felt so angry at myself, so pissed! Like I just wanted to bang a wall and die or something, and that's a line I usually use on people when I'm pissed at them.

A mother's love can never go wrong in situations like these, and I never really believed that till now. She's done so much for me and I've never done anything to honor her for the full glory that she deserves. Amazing cook, baker, ondeh-ondeh maker and whatever! Who loves seafood and any shellfish as much as I do and who loves bickering with me cuz we have the same personalities.

Shall end off with my favourite photo from my film camera.


Mom, if you read this,

I love you. :)

"Suck it up, you pansy,"

Went shopping with Celine, her mom and my mom.

Y'know, usually when your mother goes shopping with you, you're able to spend a lot? Well for some reason I didn't. I decided that from now on, if I wanna shop or something I'll have to save up and use my own money, instead of asking my parents for money.

Something Mom said yesterday just stuck me really hard and suddenly I was worried about spending. My family is not a rich one we are rather fine but it shocked me when she told me that. I felt.. moodless and curious. The shopping trip was ruined cuz the I didn't have the mood to buy stuff and when I saw something I wanted that was above 30bucks I would just put it back.

Planning to get the Arsenal Nike backpack I saw recently, and to get that River Island wallet. That'll mean I gotta save up for over a month.

Food at the Japanese-themed foodcourt was not something I'd go gaga over. Nevertheless good enough to satisfy my stomach but the rice wasn't Japanese rice but normal ones and there wasn't anything with sashimi. Everything was cooked. I'm so going back to Suki Sushi when I gots'em Japanese cravings, mhmm.


My right eyebag swelled up again and hurt. The momsters said I was heaty. Bought this aloe vera and honey water from those herb shops and it was good.

I bought a skirt. S.K.I.R.T. Skirt. Believe it or not. Momszie said she can borrow it from me. Never, Mother, never! (Just kidding)

I ain't some girly-girl but that skirt was so pretty it caught my eyes and I'M IN LURRRRRVE baby. Alright exaggerating much but yes, it is pretty.


I saw the dark chocolate version of Ferrero Rocher. People who don't like the hazelnut in the middle and who love dark chocolate should try it. Expensive but worth every friggin' cent.


Nothing I do is good enough for you.


p.s. Flash mob, Hottests style!

Years, to Months, to Days, to pure precious Minutes -- COUNTDOWN

We only have a few days more to O levels.

Imagine what life would be like without the stress that a major examination is coming up. Freedom much?

I've always wondered what our lives would be like if we lived like, say, villagers. Y'know, maybe even just existing instead of living. Or rather, life would be simple. Then again, the simple can complain about being simple while the complex complain about being TOO complex (we).

Weeks -- or in this case days -- are inching away and by the time the O's come we would've marched ourselves a couple of years nearer to our deathbeds, you know? Its like living a life while being a dead.

Wait, that came out wrong.

I'm just living life day by day.

On a side note, I am anything but a perfect being. Everyone knows that. We all have to admit that no one can be perfect. Cliche really, but as true as can be.

I don't blame myself for being imperfect but rather, I'd choose to embrace myself for that. I am who I am. I like myself for being me and not to become what others would like me to become, what they'd perceive me to be. I will admit that I am childish and a water tap most of the time and keeping my mouth shut or strapping me to a chair just wouldn't work cuz I'm one heck of a noisy 16-year-old kid, but what would humans be if everyone were the same? Being what other people want them to be?

Earth would have no nerds, no jocks, no populars, no sadists, emos, scene, goth... whatever, you name them.

We are all unique for a reason. If everyone was to be what everyone else is like, what's there to be unique about? I'm talking about personalities, dumbasses. I'm not gonna be a conformist who conforms to what's given. Everybody's like that, no?

I enjoy having other people around for the qualities they possess, for who they are and not what they are/seem to be. Its no shit if someone's different.

Different is.. good.


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Just watched a hell lot of Kevjumba videos on Youtube like what Y.C. Lover said to and it really got me cracked up. He's farrrrrrnie, so faaaaaaarrrrrnie! HAHA.

But no. I am being serious. He really is funny.

No balls?! for basketball!

Whoa, Jaebeom's not returning to Korea after all. Upsetting but yeah, nothing anyone can do about it. Hottests worldwide are being damn stupid for boycotting 2PM :\ seriously! Nothing good will come out of boycotting them.

Going to Colors Award tomorrow. The juniors were like, "Gwen you BETTER go! Go leh walao." I miss Vir, she's so damn sweet la okay. Haha its good that the whole situation is over! Good for you :) haha I miss you too! Can't wait to finally REALLY catch up with you juniors cuz its been so damn long hahaha :P

Went to play basketball with Cheryl today and walked around AMK Hub. DAMN EPIC FAIL LA HAHA. Can't play basketball for nuts and she was trying to teach me. Did a 3-pointer, yay? :\

But hey, finally exercised! Going to swim or something later this week I hope. But damn lazy. I realised I can't swim with people cuz I like swimming continuously non-stop for like 35 laps before I stop to slack around. Haha that time the girls were like so cold waiting for me but I didn't stop at all so they were like "GWENNNNN WE'RE DAMN COLDDDDDD!!!"

Anyway, Herd Mentality. Go wiki it LOL.

The towel touched the floor, dirty already?

p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Ah-SWEE!

Yes we're going shopping yes yes yes yes x1000000 yes??! Haha can't wait to celebrate your birthday with you but you'll be the one doing all the shopping I'll be watching you man.

Breathe

Finally, a day when we can just sleep and wake up later than our parents!

Its been so tiring, these few days, with all the mugging crap and all.

When I compare myself to others, I think I'm too darn laid back about the prelims which is a bad thing. I know I don't want to see my results either.

I have 0% confidence for my Geog papers, maybe a little more for my Human Geog paper. Ugh I'm just gonna die. Emath.. (speechless) Like whoa I felt the stress when Mr Chng walks past me in the examination hall and stops to look at my workings. Looking at his face I know my answer must be far from right but ah. I'm gonna get scolded by Vincent when the results are out, that's for sure.


Its Literature tomorrow. Don't know what to do cuz I don't know how to study for Lit besides reading the text. And tomorrow we can report to school at 10:30am or something! Whoohoo! No need to report at like what, 7:25am.

SLEEP.

p.s. 2PMSingapore will be doing a meetup soon. I forgot the date but it will be at Orchard. Making of tees and Yujia (or was it Fid?) said they want to give out masks that states Jae's name or something well I DON'T KNOW.

Anyway Jae wants to come back to Korea! I hope?

Geography

I'm so sleepy hence I'm using my cellphone to blog. So bored of Geog like why can't we just memorize stuff by banging our heads on the walls and recalling everything in an instant?

Today I had a loooooong chat with my parents, which seems to be happening more often cuz I realised my parents have very strong and wise points they always make sure I take note of.

You know what? As time progresses, I realise, too, that I'm not really the rebel I once was towards them.

Oh I remember how often I'd argue with my mom when I was in sec2.. Good times, good times! Not. I never realised how much my parents really care and when Mom explained why she and Dad are so naggy towards me its cuz they want me to do well in life by getting a higher education, I was like.. Whoa much.


H.I.J.K.

My dad told me to make good use of these letters to determine how I react towards things.

H - Happening. What happened?
I - I believe/feel. How do you feel about it?
J and K I'm not too sure but I know they stand for like the thoughts you have under 'I' would lead to how you react in the end.

For example, BIRDSHIT DROPPING ON YOU. Yes, everyone hates that but Dad told me when he was coaching his staff and used the birdshit example for applying HIJK to their lives, he asked for what they would think when the birdshit hits them.

He said some people went ''OMG UGH WHY SO SUAY ZHONG ME AH WAPIANG!'' while some went ''WAH BIRDSHIT ZHONG ME LEH WAHSEI DAMN LUCKY!! BEI BUAY PIO LIAO LO!''

Then he explained to me how their thoughts affected their reaction and how it ruins/makes their day/be neutral.

Like those who thought they sibei suay, they'll keep harping on it to themselves/friends, making them angrier and we all know this spoils a person's day no doubt.

Those who thought they damn lucky are more positive cuz they didn't think negatively about the issue. Therefore their reaction turns out much better and they just laugh it off even.

Thought I should just share that cuz I found it rather meaningful, even if I don't know what J and K means la.


Kenny Wormald has greatly been an inspiration to my dance life. Yes he is.

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If you're wondering who the cute girl in the photos are, she's Natalie, my neighbour's daughter. Isn't she cute? All of the pictures in this post (except those of her) are taken by her, even the last one with her face it in.

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Tomorrow is a Sunday (already?) and with every Sunday comes the reopening of school on the following Monday.

After the Adam Khoo workshop, I haven't been studying much I'll admit.
And I am SO not prepared for the Prelims.

But I'm really glad I went for the Adam Khoo workshop.

Besides knowing that there are trainers like Leroy, Gary and Andrea whom I can talk to now about not being able to study or if I need a reality-check knock on the head to wake me up, I got to know Amos who's been really nice during the 2 days, not finding me annoying for being like stickyish and a loner haha.

(No serious. I felt so awkward around everyone cuz they had their friends with them that I just became a serious loner. Except for Day 2 when I tried hanging out with Daoying etc.)

I really hope I'll be able to do well for O's.
But hey, Amos? If you ever do read this, thanks for being encouraging. Its nice knowing that someone actually understands how hard studying is and that someone is being supportive :)

Like Leroy said, the group that went for the Adam Khoo workshop has got to continue spurring each other on for their studies. Good luck to you all and

MUG HARD!


Leroy's talk at the end of day 2 (while scolding us in general, he just meant our attitudes sucked) made me cry so bad. He talked about parents and asking us when was the last time they mentioned that they were proud of us.

I ended up thinking about my gran and felt more motivated to do well for her.

AND my parents.



Anyway, service today at HOGC was awesome.

We had Pastor Kevin Loo, founder of City Harvest KL to come in today to conduct the service. Let me tell you this: His preaching was really inspiring and good!


Some things I would like to share:

1. Be slow to judge, but quick to love.
2. Leadership is not about knowing everything, but its about trying and trying again, even if you don't know.
3. God is obsessed with you and can't wait to hug and praise you (like a parent) because we are his children.
4. Serve and follow God from our heart.
5. When people see the way we live, the way we carry ourselves, THEN they would know, "Ah, that's how a Christian would live his/her life!"

To point 5., I think he really has got a point there.


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I don't know why, but suddenly I'm thinking about Best Friends. Maybe cuz Eve added me on FB recently, oh well.

On that, I really don't think I have one. While most people making BFFs in secondary school, I'm easily finding that most of my closest friends are from primary school. I'm not able to be myself around secondary school people.


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Oh, been kind of upset that Arsenal lost today's match to Man. City, 4-2.

Dad was kind of shocked too.
"HUH ARE YOU SERIOUS? Arsenal lost that badly??!"

Yeah, says the man who inspired me to love Arsenal more than him.
("The boys right? Its GOT to be for the boys, isn't it ah, Gwen? Nasri is good looking to you? IS HE? Are you sure? Sure bo..??! Aiyah in this case you'll start liking Arshavin in a bit also la..")

I need Dad to subscribe to the football channel again soon. Not getting my football perks!

I love Arsenal unconditionally.

I'm proud to be a Gooner Girl. :)


In my eyes,

THE GLORY WILL ALWAYS BE ARSENAL'S

I need more $$$ to shop, pronto.

But after I say I need the $$$, I'll say I need the time.

Been spending so much time doing anything BUT studying. Hello G, O's are in like what, 45 or so days and you don't wanna study? Are you nuts?

I feel like chopping off my Pony Tail

Quote Janice:

"Gwen is like blended into the surroundings"

Actually, quite true. I think she was the only one who managed to spot me.
Alright from now onwards its wearing white time!

Celine and Tock have the same expression don't they?

How to make kids smile so brightly?

Tickle them the moment the cameraman says "THREE!"

Yanwen, me and Ethel (plus Celine).
Proud to be from Aitong School 6E'05

D4!

After this shot Ethel was like, "WHERE THE HELL IS THAT CELINE XIE?! I call her she never pick up." and ran to the toilet to pull Celine out.

And I mean RAN.

Once Yanwen is in the Safe zone while we played "zhong ji mi ma", she starts piling up food for the people after her who will obviously get the number..

YOU CAN'T SEE MY PHONE! Hahaha.

Those sparkly things are water droplets.
Jasmin exclaimed that this shot was really pretty and she kept taking photos of us splashing water..

Me: "OH CRAP I SPLASHED WATER UPWARDS (a lot of times at that) AND NOW MY HAIR AND FBTs ARE WET!"

Kind of dead already

Celine was talking about something and I was saying, "EW YOU'RE GROSS!"

Winning group shot with Niu Niu (who looks like a teddy bear here) and Yanwen's tube of pink icing in Esther's hand to end the day. Hm..

My hair is like a huge mess of, well, mess in these photos. Ugh. Really makes me feel like cutting my hair short. My hair is just a gone case! Frizzy fur ball.

Went to Ethel's place yesterday to sit around and have potluck with the D4 girls. Thought it was gonna be a small gathering so I was afraid 2 tubs of ice cream would be too much but so many girls were there so thank goodness.

Was also supposed to play tennis and volleyball with Ethel but everyone stayed downstairs and I did so too. Oh well Ethel, we're gonna swim/play tennis/basketball/whatever real soon. Gotta exercise more, staying home to study so often causes the death of my brain cells!

Ended the night by playing "zhong ji mi ma" to clear off all the left over food, which btw is A LOT. There was pasta, caramel corn, Tim Tams, doughnuts.. yup. I got the number 2 times and Ah Foo was piling up the food like mad! Didn't intend to eat so much (when we ate my pasta only filled less than half the plate) but.. AH FOO YANWEN! I know you're skinny haha.

We didn't eat the ice cream by the way. There was too much food.

Gonna go studying now with Celine and Rach at the Coffeebean/Starbucks(?) @ Wheelock. Or maybe not. Rae wants to go hunt for prom dresses. If all fails we'll study on Saturday morning or something.

But yeah Celine's going to City Harvest with her mom tomorrow morning prolly and I'm going to HOGC at night? So it prolly won't work out hm.

I NEED A STUDY BUDDY.