Penang

I suddenly feel like going to Penang to visit my grandma's friend and her grandchildren (my childhood friends) Tongtong, Xuanxuan and Yangyang. I'm suddenly missing a lot of people, wonder why. Recently I thought of the sailors, and now Zitong, Zixuan and Ziyang. I remember how Tongtong and I always wrote letters to each other in broken Chinese and English until we met again which would be a year later. I wonder how Xuanxuan's doing now- the last trip to Penang I hung out with him cuz Tongtong and Yangyang went to Singapore as I came to M'sia. He was such a nice person! Makes me wish I had an older brother like him.

Don't we all wish we could travel back in time to appreciate how carefree life used to be?

We were never meant to be, baby we just happened.

So you gotta take the good, the bad, happy and the sad.
But will you bring the better future then I had in the past?
Cause I don't want to make the same mistakes I did.
I don't wanna fall back on my face again.
Woah, woah.
I'll admit it, I was scared to answer loves call.
Woah, woah.
And if it hits, better make it worth the fall.

Hate to know I'm crashing, don't know how it happened.
But I know it feels so damn good.
Said if I could go back and make it happen faster,
Don't you know I would baby if I could?

Showed Alex this video last year. I love Cathy's voice here despite her lisp! (I wouldn't be able to tell she didn't write that in the information box) This video made me listen to the original song itself. Been listening to this song the whole day, and now its on replay on my iTunes. I love Ne-Yo's voice, kinda hate the fact that Kanye West is in this song cuz his rap lyrics in this song is bullshit, as it always is.

Anyway I feel compelled to do Math. Okay maybe that's cuz I AM supposed to do Math, but at 6AM in the morning? Ridiculous. I screwed my body clock again I think, and that sucks cuz it took like the whole of March to readjust it back to what it should be.

I myself am in a rut now. Oh well, who isn't at this point of time?

Like, seriously?

I wanted to blog initially because I just found out my hubby Samir Nasri isn't playing for France for World Cup 2010 and I'm not happy about it!

(Yes Leonard told me its old news but still.. The last time I checked everyone was saying he's in the line up for France so I took it for granted and thought that he'll be playing.)

Screw you, Raymond Domenech! I hate you! Because of you Nasri's doubting himself. I really hope this doesn't affect him when he plays for Arsenal for the next season. It'll be damn heartbreaking to see Arsenal get trashed again.


HAHA OMG READ THIS:

g says:
- i want to live, like a -something something something-
care-less and free
- i want to run through the jungle
the wind in my hair
and the efhjidfojifdjgoif through my feet

Ker says:
- ????????????

g says:
- the song i'm listening to now
hahahaha

Ker says:
HAHHAH
i'd liketo see how she/he pronounces hfpahfpiwnwfe

Ker, you do know how much I love you for random shit like this right. And yeah before I typed out The Animal Song (yes that is the name of the song, Quinnie would know), we were discussing World Cup '10.

From there we moved on to discussing watching a match or two overnight at McDonald's, and many other random things inbetween later, it became about her cooking 10 pots of red bean soup and finally to her being queen of the Red Bean Soup and bleeding red bean soup whenever she cuts herself. -_-

I SO cannot believe we just discussed all that.

The precious photos Cheryl got for me from the Emirates Stadium itself last year!
THESE FLEW TO SINGAPORE FROM EUROPE OKAY.

I still remember how she brought these along the day the O level results were released.
Then how as I sat there on the floor crying over my results, she whipped these two out and was like, "NAH! SURPRISE!"


Btw I spent a long time trying to draw the perfect heartshape over my darling's face on the webcam thing. HAHA.

Hm, to get my card-reader fixed, or not?

Easy-Peasy

Yay! Checked Youtube and found out that Kenny Wormald just uploaded a new video -- A compilation of all his dance stuff from MTV's Dancelife (I doubt they had it on MTVAsia) and Center Stage: Turn It Up (a movie I highly doubt was shown in Singapore).

I'm a huge fan of his and he used to be on my cell's wallpaper. I also have most of his Youtube dance videos on my iPod. If you didn't know, now you do!

Tried playing around with my hair's parting earlier today and realised it was annoying to have a thick bunch-o-hairz in your face. Just a few minutes ago I got rid of it ;)

I always trim my fringe on my own whenever I cannot stand it, but the past few times I actually got around to doing it, I ended up annoying myself even more. Even though I sit infront of my dustbin, hair still ends up on the floor. And by that I mean MANY strands of hair. Imagine clearing the shorter strands.. Ugh.

Might be going out of the country this June! I'm always a bit terrified of travelling because me being the worry-wart me, I would always think about the extreme ends of things. What happens if something happens to me? What if I die overseas? What if what if whdfughekjfgne!!!!!ERDK?!?!?!

I think watching the History Channel and Discovery Channel via cable TV with my dad and brother in the past really scared me shitless. Especially Air Crash Investigation etc.?


Anywho, my laogim and laogu are at my place playing mahjong with my parents now, and my room's terribly messy. Not like there's any link in THAT, Mom just hates it when people are over and my room's messy. I don't get it though, because when people are over my door's usually closed.

Oh well, at least it isn't as messy as my room during O's!

But it will soon be.

Can't wait for June 11th! 'Till then, its time to play some L4D2 via Garena. I wanna play it via Steam, dammit.

Math-a-rat-tat

Played around with the image yesterday and made that. I love playing with the words but I hate playing around with Gaussian Blur cuz I'm always so indecisive to the point that a radius of 4.0 and 5.0 pixels makes a huge difference to me.


Well I decided to come update my blog since my Math tutor's gonna be late by an hour and a half.

Gonna be meeting APhuaz to study later, and hopefully Alex's joining us. Was supposed to meet him by 4.15pm but cuz of my tutor I'll be going over later. Sigh. I really dread tuition now, but oh well, figures that I need more if not I'll never pass this year's O's and it'll be another month of desperation and depression for me after receiving a cert that tells me I can only go to ITE.

Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against going to ITE.

Contemplating asking my mom to get Vincent to tutor me again. I was more comfortable with Vincent's style of teaching and it was more relaxing? He was the one who got me to love Math just before O's, sadly just a tad bit too late. My new tutor's (named King Man. Yes he's from Hongkong so it's a canto name) alright partially because he's younger and more understanding, but somehow I'm not getting what I need to know. And I feel a bit intimidated during his lessons to the point that I feel pressurized. HE WATCHES ME WHILE I DO THE PRACTICE QUESTIONS and goes, "Mhmm.. Mm.. Uh...?" So it may be a good idea to get two tutors I guess?

I'll go hit the bottles of Mogu-Mogu in my fridge now. Toodles!

Trying to find that one thing..

Credits to someone on Photobucket??

Yes, I didn't take this.

So I'm bored. My eyelids are heavy and slowly closing down on me but I refuse to sleep because I just ate salmon sushi and I feel too fat/full to sleep.

I gained weight! Not awesome. Must cut down on the sweets and eating-because-I-got-nothing-to-do. All my effort to lose weight going down the drain, bit by bit.

Wondering if I should go back for service at HOGC this weekend. I feel ashamed that I backslided but Ingrid's telling me everyone would be excited to see me again rather than wondering why I'm back (in a negative way). Well of course they'll be nice! We're talking about people like Tock, Janice, and my long-time friends Ethel and ah-Foo the 半鸡半鸭。She will kill me if she sees that but as ex-classmates in Aitong School we must give each other nicknames, since I was her Gwendolflyn. Rudolf the red nosed reindeer? Gwendolf? See the link?

I know I most prolly posted this up on my blog before in 2008 but here it is again! I watched this at least 3-4 times just now.

I've been listening to Korean songs since 2003 (for BoA) and I used to like all the old Kpop bands. Blackbeat was one of them! But of course SM stopped promoting them that's why you never hear anymore news of them. They were my favourite cuz they dance really well. They taught DBSK's Yunho and Jaewon's now the choreographer for the new SM Entertainment boy/girl groups.

MY FUTURE HUSBAND WILL DANCE LIKE JAEWON! HAHAH.

Kidding, kidding. My expectations aren't THAT high.

Iamsocoollike Charlieissocoollike

Sorry about the lack of photos! The card reader in my laptop's problematic now and I'm hell lazy to connect my SD Card via my external card reader :( And also cuz I got too many photos to edit I guess.

I'm listening to old songs now. Old, good songs that never die. Fred recently sent to me loads of songs including Highway to Hell (by AC/DC), Sweet Child o' Mine (Guns N' Roses), Addicted to That Rush (Mr. Big) and moreeee. And I downloaded Overture 1928 by Dream Theater, one of the first old rockish bands that I really like.

YES GO LISTEN TO OVERTURE 1928 NAOOOOO!!!
And Strange Deja Vu. Yes, yes! Strang Deja Vu by Dream Theater.


Oh by the way, I'm obsessed over this dude on Youtube now:

Charlieissocoollike

Must thank Ker for introducing me to Charlieissocoollike! He's the cutest thing on the web I swear. (That video above was in 2007 though)

Okay yeah just wanted to do a short update since I've not been updating regularly the past few days. Let anyone who's reading this out there know that I'm still alive.

I've got to go get my stuff for work now, so toodles!

2 little 2 late

''You say, you dream of my face. But you don't like me, you just like the chase. To be real, it doesn't matter anyway. You know its just too little too late.''

Just woke up and ALREADY there are songs stuck in my head. First it was BoA's ''Listen to my Heart'' now its JoJo's ''Too Little Too Late''.

Anyways photos from yesterday will be up soon! I'm using my cellphone to blog now so I obviously can't upload the photos. Gotta go edit them too.

Had an awesome day! Even though Elie, Bern and I couldn't attend the flash mob cuz they changed the time to 5.20pm instead of 4pm (cuz some minister was late), going to Marina Barrage late at night with Alex and Gabriel totally made up for it.

Met them at 5.30 to have dinner and to play pool (now you know why I had to skip the FM. I was supposed to meet them at 5 actually). Don't know why but the past few times I played at AMK's KPool, I totally had no feel. Same goes for Gabriel and Alex.

In the end we left at 9pm to go to Cotton On. Bought this dress-like thing and a new shirt. I need to clear all my pri-sec school clothes from my wardrobe :\

Cabbed down to Marina Barrage after deciding between Haji for drinking (I don't drink tho so it'll only be the both of them drinking) or Marina Barrage for slacking. We reached there by 10.30pm thinking it'll be empty but nooo MORE PEOPLE CAME IN AS TIME PASSED. Surprise, surprise! -_-

Left at 12am+ and walked out only to realise there weren't gonna be any cabs coming in from MBS. Sat at a bus stop, debated where to go for supper since Gab didn't have dinner and was hungry. Decided on Thomson for Prata House and called a cab.

Shared 1 prata with Alex while Gabriel ate 3 plasters. Alex asked, ''Why is it called 'plaster' ah? I still don't get it.'' to which Gabriel replied, ''Because the egg on top look like a plaster to cover the prata, so they called it plaster lor.'' HAHAHA LAME.

Finished eating/talking at around 2am+, cabbed and asked them to drop me off at the Bishan Park area so I could cut in through the blocks to go home.

I realised I do the awesomest night-life things with Alex, Gabriel (and Darrell). The last time it was singing KBox until 4am and walking from Cine to Plaza Singapura cuz the 1st train didn't start yet and we had to kill time hahaha!

WAS AN AWESOME DAY, GUYS! We should do this more often. :)

Starlight

Was so touched when I saw what Cheryl wrote on her blog, even though the entry's dated back to 25th April.

I'm happy with my life now. Infact, I'm more than "extremely contented". I'm studying, I passed my first half of the Emath test my tutor gave me, I'm enjoying the company of my friends and I'm starting to open up more again. I'm just like my old bubbly strong self and I'm happy to say I'm alright. But I feel empty. I wouldn't even say half full. Just.. empty. Whenever something exciting or something good happens to me, I pick up my cellphone wanting to tell someone, anyone. Then my heart sinks when I realise the person I used to tell everything to is just.. not there. I've been feeling that way for weeks on hand, and everytime I typed something related to how I felt on my blog, it'd go straight to my Drafts. I know he never reads my blog anymore but heck, I never published my thoughts anyway. Made it a point to keep personal stuff to myself and friends, and stuff I can publicise, well, publicised. Heard that your life now isn't exactly at its optimum point. As much as I want to stretch out my hand and let you pour out your woes to me, I have no idea how to go about doing that without the fear of being rejected; without the fear that my cellphone would mock me by staying silent. I hate knowing that while I'm happy, someone I used to care for so much is upset and yet I can't do anything to help.

Its hard to care for someone when you know that the person in question would never appreciate your gestures and may, infact, reject these gestures of yours. You want to help, but the line's always dead. It'll never be alive again, or so you perceive. Then again, at least you have your friends by your side so I'm more or less reassured you'll be fine. Pull through this moment and come out stronger, alright?

My friends ask me why I even bother caring about you when you're treating me like this. You don't appreciate me; you never did. Thing is, I don't care if you don't, and that's the problem with me. I'll still be concerned for someone regardless of whatever happened between us. Even if I act like I don't give a damn, deep down inside I actually still do. That's my nature.

I've been there for you once, I'll be there for you whenever. I will still care, you jolly well know that. I will be there if you need someone, but to what extent, I wouldn't be too sure.

So I'm guessing

Doing the Karen Cheng. (Not exactly..)

Overdue photos!

Taken on Wednesday.

Yummy cai fan that me and Cel always tabao from this shop in Cuppage Plaza after going to her mom's shop! Heehee tofu + lemon chicken + long beans (I LOVE vege, believe it or not) + fried vege ball = Awesome lunch.

Gonna meet Ker and Beanie later at 6 for KBox. Sad that Alex can't make it.

Had lunch at Din Tai Fung @ J8 with the fam earlier and I can't rave enough about how much I love the food there especially the prawns. (Yes I'm a sucker for prawns)

I guess my parents can never tell how greatful I am for holidays like these where I can just sit down with them to eat. Yes I DO love my family even though I don't show them that lovey-dovey side of me. Hahaha.

My annoying brother kept pointing out how expensive everything was especially since my mom paid $4 more just to order this plate of shrimp fried rice which he and I shared. He kept harping on that and it kinda spoilt my appetite. The one without shrimp was $6.50 but yeah she knows how much I LUV prawns and so she ordered the shrimp one, which was $10.

Thank you Mom, you know I love you!

Hello there, the Angel from my Nightmare

Nyeh my head's hurting real bad and I've got a sorethroat and cough right now. The season of falling sick's back. Booo....

Or maybe its because I've been sleeping late recently. Hm.

The song Timothy let me hear at his place is awesome. I can't stop listening to it now and for some reason it feels calming. Its a song without lyrics by the way.


Today's dance lesson was just.. awesome + horrible.

Awesome because I love dancing in general, and horrible because we used studio 3 and the aircon wasn't on and the reggae class used it before us.

The moment we stepped inside the foul stench of sweat, body odour and the likes of it hit our noses. And oh, try imagining yourself dancing in a sauna. We did IPP in sec1 and sec3, and I remember how when we opened the doors and ran outside, the hallways felt like it was air-conditioned. That was EXACTLY how I felt today! The moment Xiaohei told us to take a break, everyone rushed outside and my first comment was, "OMG THIS FEELS LIKE AIRCON!"

Oh btw I made two more friends today! Nadya and.. I forgot the other girl's name. :P


Anyway, I'm going to sleep with 2 (was 4) plasters covering a wound on the back of my leg.

Most girls get blisters from wearing heels. I, on the other hand, got abrasions from wearing my Reebok Reverse Jam Monopoly series shoes to dance.




Heehee does anyone remember them? My pair of hi-tops that I wore to emcee for MFSS's National Day celebration with Jiaqi! (I got the photos of my shoes off my blog post about that day.)

I wasn't even near the school when I started limping cuz it hurt so bad. Went to 7-11 and bought a pack of plasters.

Headed up to *Scape and was happy to see that a lot of popular shops/restaurants are gonna open there! Like Xin Wang Cafe, SAKAE Sushi, Stage, X-Zone.. it's gonna be awesome! After lessons we've got so much more to do now other than to just go down to Cine to chill.

After class, Grace, Anika and I went to 7-11 at Cine to buy drinks.

Sitting at the ledge outside 7-11 to chat, we saw this tranny. She was happily insulting the girls that walked past. Like, "You, you look STUPID. Wear this ugly dress for what!", "You UHHGLY LA."

Or, "OEI! You pregnant ah??" when a fat girl walks past. When handsome guys walked past she would pull down one side of her jacket to reveal her shoulders. Of course the guys only walked away laughing/frightened or just ignored her totally.

Yeah this person's actually a bit mentally ill I guess? So yeah even though it was funny watching her insult every girl that walks past (especially those with boyfriends), we all felt quite bad for her? Grace even said that she felt like going over to hug her, telling her that it's okay. So sweet of Grace!

Haha Grace said something damn funny as we listened to the songs blasting via the speakers around Cine:

"IF THEY PLAY MY CHICK BAD, I WILL CRY."

(The song My Chick Bad is the song to the choreo we're learning.)

Got this from Ker. Its been a while since I ever did any quizzes so.. Heehee.

LAYER 1: BASICS
Name: Gwen Neo
Birth Date: April 8th
Current Location: Dining area in my house
Hair Color: Dark brown
Righty/Lefty: Righty

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fears: Feeling alone?
Your dream of the perfect date: Just sitting around chilling out and sharing things with each other.

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: WHERE IS THAT DAMNED ALARM CLOCK WHY'D YOU HAVE TO WAKE ME UP?!
What you miss most: Hm.. this one's hard to answer.

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: None
McDonald’s or Burger King: Burger King. Actually I don't really eat fast food now.
Single or Group Dates: Group. Could be more fun at times :)
Adidas or Nike: Both
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate!!
Cappuccino or Coffee: None

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: Noeps.
Cuss: A hell lot.
Take showers: Yeah LIKE DUH
Have a crush: Yeah?
Like school: I don't have school. I MISS HAVING school though, does that count?
Believe in yourself: Depends. I'm quite the pessimist, you see.
Believe what goes around comes around: Karma, bitches!
Believe everything happens for a reason: Yeah
Think you’re a health freak: Not.. really.

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: This is Singapore, so DUH.
Been on stage: Noeps.
Eaten sushi: Of course ;) Yum tum tum!
Been hurt: Yes of course.
Dyed your hair: Noeps.

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: No!
Kissed the same sex: No!
Gotten beaten up: Haha of course not. Almost did though.
Changed who you were to fit in: Nope.

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: 25..?
Number of kids you’re planning on having: 2 or none.


LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: Earthly light-blue. That's the kind of eyes that make me melt and spazz.
Hair color: Brown, I guess.
Short or long hair: Short.
Fat or fit: Fit.
Looks or personality: Personality.
Fun or serious: Fun but serious when the time calls to be.



LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: Yawning.
1 HOUR AGO: Reading my new Seventeen mag.
1 WEEK AGO: Exactly one week ago at this time I would've been sleeping.
1 YEAR AGO: In school mugging for O's.

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I FEEL: Moodless
I HATE: Being confused and wondering what to do next
I HIDE: Things you wouldn't wanna know.. JUST KIDDING! ;)

Celine Xie!

I'm bored. So here I am, blogging again!

Sorry for the lack of photos. I know my blog's extremely dull because of that, but what to do when the blogger herself is leading a mundane life?


Well actually I'm just terribly excited to meet Celine again tomorrow for our movie + shopping + mom's shop trip! I met her on the way to work this afternoon. Must talk about this!

I decided to take the MRT instead of the bus down to Changi since Nana Wifey asked me to go down earlier, and I was kinda "late" for early. (Get it?)

When I was near the overhead bridge I saw this girl carrying a purple bag which seemed all too familiar to me. I thought, "Oh. Celine has that bag too.. Sigh." But then I noticed the shoes the girl was wearing.. Celine and I have the same pair of Adidas school shoes except hers is blue while mine's reddish-pink. So when I saw that girl's school shoes I immediately started sprinting in her direction. "CELINE!!! CELINE XIE!!" She stopped walking, gave me a blur look and was like, "EY GWENDY!!! OMG HI GWEN!!!" Heehee.

Then she walked me to the train station and it started to drizzle/rain while we waited for the traffic light -_-


Oh we have the same school bag too! We bought it together.

HAHA that day during O's as I was walking to the central bus stop to take a bus down to school, I saw Cel walking to school (she's from AMKSS so she can walk there) and when I caught up with her we realised we were both carrying the school bag we bought together, and were wearing the same Adidas school shoes!

We were both laughing and going nuts about that, wishing we had our cameras to capture the moment. Haha I'm smiling as I type this :)

Goes to show she's one of my best friends! :)

Oh, and that friends can wear and carry the same things without feeling embarassed or feeling like XMMs (Xiao MeiMeis).

I miss you so much, you know?! Even though you live a few blocks away, we never seem to meet or cross paths. Gosh I should meet you for dinner at the coffeeshop near your house everyday.



Anyway, I'm really tired right now. I slept throughout the bus ride from Changi to AMK. I woke up as the uncle turned into the interchange, phew! But when I did, my head started hurting and spinning real bad and I was so exhausted I wanted to find a place to sit and continue sleeping.

I hate walking home after work. At 12am+, the blocks and areas I walk past become.. weirdly creepy. Especially the coffeeshop near Cel's house! All the uncles sitting there drinking beer make me feel damn uncomfortable. Looking for volunteers to call me next Monday and Tuesday at 12am+ to accompany me as I walk home! Hahaha.

Its strange, how when I'm with the right person/people, that route I walk down to home doesn't seem creepy at all.

Yet without that person/group of people.. I never want to walk down that path again.

Sleepy..

G'afternoon all!

Its such a warm day and it just rained just now. The now-humid weather's perfect for sleeping.

Sad to say I got Emath tuition at 1:30pm. My tutor's giving me a paper to do. So gonna fail it.

And cuz of tuition I'll be late for work! Praying that my tutor comes on time if not I'll tell him I can't take the test today. Tuition ends at 3:30pm and if I leave the house later than 3:45pm I'll be late for at least 15mins or more.

Shouldn't have slept at 4am yesterday. Fred and his Counter Strike/Bejeweled... I'm so sleepy now.

Hey Soul Sister

Hey best friend,

I know things have not been good between us for like a week or so already. I just hope that you know I'll always love you no matter what.

I miss the little moments, like the times we have cold wars for like 2 days in school and suddenly while walking out of school with Cia, Jon Ha etc. from the back staircase beside 4I we'd just hug and say, "Omg I'm so sorry!!" and suddenly it'll be as if the cold war never happened.

And the time when I couldn't get over J. You knew that after I had a HTHT with Quin while having powerball during PE that something was wrong even though I didn't say it, and suddenly during recess you asked me if I wanted to go back to class with you cuz I was so close to crying. The moment I sat down at my seat I put my head on the table and cried and you just sat there telling me its alright.

Oh and Aaron and Ruixing looking over in the dark classroom (in MFSS we're not allowed to go back to class until the bell rings to signal the end of recess) and wondering what happened.. hahaha I remember everything about that day.

Speaking of which, Aaron just talked to me on MSN hahaha telepathy!

I MISS 4E OMG. Those I used to sit with (Manda Mel Syafiqah Cia Qah) and my familyyyy (Bryan Cho Lianyi a.k.a. Ah-Lian or Ah-Yi).


Oh well, time to go get my brunch (Mom toasted up for me cheeken pie! Awesome!) and eat Panadol before my Emath tutor comes.

It feels like my head's gonna explode!