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ergh. rushing through some book reviews.

DAMN.

Its either me, or life AIN'T HAPPY WITH ME.
Life seems wrong.
I feel like i'm at the end of the road.
Either way out - a waterfall leading deep into the river it flows down and a bridge which is still halfway under construction.

Either ways, LIFE SEEMS WRONG.

I thought my "TABOO DAYS!" were long over. heh. i was super wrong man!

my results - like SHIT
my life = DOOMED.

okay. shall post my currently shitty results here. damn, i need a life boost man.

Chinese
Oral - 24/40
Letter Writing - 14.5/20
Paper 2 - 44.5/90

D&T
33/50

New South Wales
a stinking PARTICIPATION

English
Oral - 13.5/20
Letter Writing - 28/30 [:D]
Composition - 18/30
Paper 2 - 58/80

Literature
52/80

damn. i hate my results. worse, my English, Literature and D&T results. I placed super high hopes on them as they are my strong subjects. Especially English. Hello? I'm in an English class here?

Even though for my English paper 2 me and Nicolette and Eleanore got top 3 in class [they also got same as me], i still feel upset. i pushed myself to do better. after the exams i was kinda contented i studied and pushed myself. yet the results pull down my liveliness.

For literature, i aimed for a nice 60-70/80 for it. But i got a 52! wah. i feel so depressed. my strongest subject somemore! argh. 52/80... AHHHHH

For Enlgish, i aimed 15/20 for oral and 60/80 for my english. but the results i got, was of course, not higher than my expectations. it didn't even meet my expectations! instead it was a 13.5 and a 58!!!

For D&T, i was hoping for at least 40-45/50. argh. but i got a 33. RAHRAHRAHRAHRAH!!! i think i'm gonna fall into depression soon. RWAR! i wanna cry, but i can't.

But i don't know why, when i got my chinese, i didn't feel like crying. instead of the usual tears-after-getting-paper tradition that i have, i smiled. i mean, i REALLY smiled. i was kinda shocked. Nicolette was like, "Ehh Gwen??? don't cry! Doooonnnn't cry!!!" and i was not even close to tears. heh. but later, i couldn't even fight for 0.5 marks to PASS?! omg i felt so helpless towards my chinese. i'm a failure for chinese can!

For Science too, i was infact smiling away. I think Bev thought I scored really well. so did jing yi and nicolette too i think. then i told them my marks and they were like, "gwen, are you having a fever?" i mean, they didn't say that. but their expressions tell me so. i mean, i got a nice 51/100, and i sat there smiling. heh. maybe i'm contented cos i know, i tried my best, i already pushed myself very far to go memories many stuff for science. so i'm contented with my results for science and chinese. (:

oh well. i guess its back to my book reviews. lets hope my math and art [art is another one of my beloved subjects] won't meet with my taboo days. heh.

if my bad results continue coming, i fear i won't get to play my baby. meaning, my guitar :D <3!