Suddenly I feel that we're all growing up.
Like a few years back all that mattered were dolls and toys. Then a few months back all that mattered was feelings and studies. And suddenly, now, all that matters is getting a job o.o
It felt weird la, seeing me and Cia exchange friendster testimonials about jobs. Like we're actually talking about the JOBS we're gonna go for interviews for. Haha.
WOMAN, WE'RE GROWING UP! :D
And oh, being best friends is better than being a -sjhdaskhdwg- ei. Hahah. ;] (don't bother counting the number of letters and trying to fit in a word cuz its just a random number of letters)
Soooo, you're one of my besties!
I love my bestie! :D much loves boy.
Definitly feeling much better today than yesterday. Thanks Yokeching and Peckkhee for the tags! You guys are the best :D
For now, I shall look forward to a job and a suckish uniform and my new subjects for next year. Hopefully 3Endeavour's subjects. :D
These are the things I'll learn to part with as I grow up ;]
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Say It Right
Say It Right
>Nelly Furtado
In the day
In the night
Say it all
Say it right
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
Do you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me
I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show
You tonite you tonite
From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?
>Nelly Furtado
In the day
In the night
Say it all
Say it right
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
Do you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me
I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show
You tonite you tonite
From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?
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RANT, Gwen, RANT.
Y'know. I just wanna rant.
I just don't wanna be bothered with anything.
Maybe, outside I seem happy. Like super happy. But inside- its like I just wish I could let everything go. Every single shit I feel, everything I want to say, everything I wanna vent my anger on because.
Anyway,
I don't understand you at all. Why're you so SELF-CONTRADICTING? You're the one causing all this messy shit. If you feel this way why're you doing something to make me think you're not? Whats the use? You gonna tell me? What am I supposed to do. I thought I knew you better. Nothing's gonna be good, this whole narrated scene would just replay itself again and again. Go self-contradict yourself and get me out of this confusion. I'm tired.
AND,
I don't know what I should be thinking about you. Got influenced at the start of the year so I disliked you. Then it all got better but now.. I've really got nothing to say. Just, treasure those around you, stop taking them for granted, stop behaving in this way that makes me think that you think they've got no feelings at all. Watching this whole storyline sucks cuz everything just adds on to what impression I've got of you. You're a dear girl to me but please don't change that now. Be happy with what you've got, you can take a look at me and compare me with yourself and think, "who's more pathetic?". Everyone cares about you, everyone's concerned, and its just cuz you think too much and worry too much. I envy you. No one ever did bother about me. Please don't let your moodswings get in the way of how you feel and view people cuz when you let that happen, it sucks.
ANDDDD.
What to say about you. Hmm. Oh, right. I'm tired and sick of having to put up with you. Your moodswings is the problem. I feel that you take me for granted, I mean, as a good friend, you can show your true colors to me and shun them when it comes to being around other people. I'm tired of putting up with this. And when it comes to popularity, you can just dump me aside and forget me, leaving me all alone. Sometimes even the people I'm around are better than you. Whats the point of you always getting annoyed at me and when I see you and other people, you never seem to? You're making me feel all left out, all pangsehed. Last year I never did expect things to turn out this way. Yeah I might seem fine with you but you should really learn to stop venting your fustrations on people like that, y'know? Cuz it sucks. SUCKSSUCKSSUCKS!
YOUUUUU.
You've got your problems but I've got mine too. Infact I feel I have to deal with more, except its not too big a blow, or at least on the outside its not. You can go around taking pity on others but for me? You never did seem to care about how I feel. Its always about THEM. The other two? You can still label me a bestie or something. You confide in me, I've never did confide in you. But you've never understood how I feel about anything- relationships, life, etc. Go to her, she's more important. You never did know how I feel whenever you just ignore me like that, or suddenly just stand up and go somewhere else. I just stare ahead, sigh, and want to go to sleep. Oooooh yeah, I could NEVER have felt better.
Mehhhh. I think I should just buy a diary so I can scribble all my nonsense inside it.
Life sucks and its fucking up on me again. Why me? Why're you chosing me as a target you dumbass. Huh? All the problems have gotta bombard me at once. Luckily my family's fine or I'd really 'take a leap of faith' off the HDB flat.
Over and out.
p.s. And Audrey? Sorry if removing the confetti during the open house for the sailing booth seemed like it was removing all of your efforts. Everything was MY fault, yeayea and I still managed to say the booth seemed plain, just after we cleaned it up. Yuppppp. Everything was my fault from the start anyways. I don't make sense at all. I just kept reading that big, literally highlighted out paragraph over and over again, tryna see what faults I've got again and again and what I've done wrong to you, maybe. I'M SORRY THAT THE WORK THE GUYS AND GIRLS PUT IN WERE ALL REMOVED CUZ OF ME. Maybe I've always been such a doofus. Its no wonder if I hear that people dislike me. Sorry if I've offended you in anyway but yeah. I can't say I'm really happy with what I just read. Made me realise I'm at fault and that I'm dumb cuz I don't seem to make any fucking sense. Ahahahahaaaaaaaa- bitter laughers.
Anyways, if that was your point,
I'm happy to say I got it.
K. sorry. I really needed to rant everything I wanted to off in this post. If you got offended, please know, Gwen's PMS-ing or something.
But just know that she's really upset now and is gonna explode if she can't find anywhere to literally scream out. Thank you for understanding :]
And urgh. I should really stop letting my anger get in the way. If not I'm just gonna repeat pri5 life again and everyone's gonna hate me lalala.
I just don't wanna be bothered with anything.
Maybe, outside I seem happy. Like super happy. But inside- its like I just wish I could let everything go. Every single shit I feel, everything I want to say, everything I wanna vent my anger on because.
Anyway,
I don't understand you at all. Why're you so SELF-CONTRADICTING? You're the one causing all this messy shit. If you feel this way why're you doing something to make me think you're not? Whats the use? You gonna tell me? What am I supposed to do. I thought I knew you better. Nothing's gonna be good, this whole narrated scene would just replay itself again and again. Go self-contradict yourself and get me out of this confusion. I'm tired.
AND,
I don't know what I should be thinking about you. Got influenced at the start of the year so I disliked you. Then it all got better but now.. I've really got nothing to say. Just, treasure those around you, stop taking them for granted, stop behaving in this way that makes me think that you think they've got no feelings at all. Watching this whole storyline sucks cuz everything just adds on to what impression I've got of you. You're a dear girl to me but please don't change that now. Be happy with what you've got, you can take a look at me and compare me with yourself and think, "who's more pathetic?". Everyone cares about you, everyone's concerned, and its just cuz you think too much and worry too much. I envy you. No one ever did bother about me. Please don't let your moodswings get in the way of how you feel and view people cuz when you let that happen, it sucks.
ANDDDD.
What to say about you. Hmm. Oh, right. I'm tired and sick of having to put up with you. Your moodswings is the problem. I feel that you take me for granted, I mean, as a good friend, you can show your true colors to me and shun them when it comes to being around other people. I'm tired of putting up with this. And when it comes to popularity, you can just dump me aside and forget me, leaving me all alone. Sometimes even the people I'm around are better than you. Whats the point of you always getting annoyed at me and when I see you and other people, you never seem to? You're making me feel all left out, all pangsehed. Last year I never did expect things to turn out this way. Yeah I might seem fine with you but you should really learn to stop venting your fustrations on people like that, y'know? Cuz it sucks. SUCKSSUCKSSUCKS!
YOUUUUU.
You've got your problems but I've got mine too. Infact I feel I have to deal with more, except its not too big a blow, or at least on the outside its not. You can go around taking pity on others but for me? You never did seem to care about how I feel. Its always about THEM. The other two? You can still label me a bestie or something. You confide in me, I've never did confide in you. But you've never understood how I feel about anything- relationships, life, etc. Go to her, she's more important. You never did know how I feel whenever you just ignore me like that, or suddenly just stand up and go somewhere else. I just stare ahead, sigh, and want to go to sleep. Oooooh yeah, I could NEVER have felt better.
Mehhhh. I think I should just buy a diary so I can scribble all my nonsense inside it.
Life sucks and its fucking up on me again. Why me? Why're you chosing me as a target you dumbass. Huh? All the problems have gotta bombard me at once. Luckily my family's fine or I'd really 'take a leap of faith' off the HDB flat.
Over and out.
p.s. And Audrey? Sorry if removing the confetti during the open house for the sailing booth seemed like it was removing all of your efforts. Everything was MY fault, yeayea and I still managed to say the booth seemed plain, just after we cleaned it up. Yuppppp. Everything was my fault from the start anyways. I don't make sense at all. I just kept reading that big, literally highlighted out paragraph over and over again, tryna see what faults I've got again and again and what I've done wrong to you, maybe. I'M SORRY THAT THE WORK THE GUYS AND GIRLS PUT IN WERE ALL REMOVED CUZ OF ME. Maybe I've always been such a doofus. Its no wonder if I hear that people dislike me. Sorry if I've offended you in anyway but yeah. I can't say I'm really happy with what I just read. Made me realise I'm at fault and that I'm dumb cuz I don't seem to make any fucking sense. Ahahahahaaaaaaaa- bitter laughers.
Anyways, if that was your point,
I'm happy to say I got it.
K. sorry. I really needed to rant everything I wanted to off in this post. If you got offended, please know, Gwen's PMS-ing or something.
But just know that she's really upset now and is gonna explode if she can't find anywhere to literally scream out. Thank you for understanding :]
And urgh. I should really stop letting my anger get in the way. If not I'm just gonna repeat pri5 life again and everyone's gonna hate me lalala.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Studio Wu...?
Ah bloody. So many comments on my tagboard ahha. But I'm too lazy to reply 'em :]
Its 5.06AM people! :D
Spent the whole day at home and rotted. 'Nuff said.
I'm sleepy but not sleepy enough to sleep. Argh. Played my Aquila maple char just now and met another late-nighter. People who don't wanna sleep ;] ahhah!
Tomorrow going aunt's place to eat lunch D: sigh. Told my mom got dance at 3.30pm she wants me to go till, just go ealier. I still need to buy my top and half-jacket for dance! Kukuheads :/ scared not enough time.
Ohmg why the hell is Christmas Party playing on my iTunes. o.o
And I finally got the song I need for dance from Elie :D thankyou dearrrr! xoxo. Oh shit. Forgot to ask my mom if I can go work at Yoshinoya with Elie and Jiaqi for the hols D: just hoping the pay's good.
Excited for dance tomorrow :D don't care la I get kor to be my partner- since he's going tomorrow anyways. :D
And oh, I wanna go take PURELY poppin' and lockin' lessons from STUDIO WU (its a dance school).
Jiaqi said Winteng'll pass to me this paper thing that gives me one whole free lesson for a whole day. The dancers from our school are going on Saturday, so Elie doesn't wanna go on Sat. And oh, the price of Studio Wu's lessons are cheaper, about 60bucks a month for students.
But then I bet its like those kinda bigbig classes with over 8 people! D: I dowannnnn! ) :
IDON'TCARE. I might even ask my mom to consider letting me take lessons from 2 dance schools. :] but it'll be like 140bucks per month D: don't think she'd allow. If I take it'd be on Fridays (Studio Wu's poppin/lockin lessons) and Sundays (Hiphop Kids'pore- Maqrius's hiphop lessons).
If Maqrius doesn't move on to more popping or locking stuffs, I might change to Studio Wu.
When I'm older I shall go to Korea and try out lessons in Winners Dance School! THE ONE HYOYEON'S FROM, AHHHHHHHH! :D
Okay blogging just killed my remaining brain cells, and its 5.17AM. Needa catch some Zzz's or I'd die tomorrow in dance for good :] then the world will rejoice yayness!
I wanna replay those moments and jump into the scenes all over again.
Its 5.06AM people! :D
Spent the whole day at home and rotted. 'Nuff said.
I'm sleepy but not sleepy enough to sleep. Argh. Played my Aquila maple char just now and met another late-nighter. People who don't wanna sleep ;] ahhah!
Tomorrow going aunt's place to eat lunch D: sigh. Told my mom got dance at 3.30pm she wants me to go till, just go ealier. I still need to buy my top and half-jacket for dance! Kukuheads :/ scared not enough time.
Ohmg why the hell is Christmas Party playing on my iTunes. o.o
And I finally got the song I need for dance from Elie :D thankyou dearrrr! xoxo. Oh shit. Forgot to ask my mom if I can go work at Yoshinoya with Elie and Jiaqi for the hols D: just hoping the pay's good.
Excited for dance tomorrow :D don't care la I get kor to be my partner- since he's going tomorrow anyways. :D
And oh, I wanna go take PURELY poppin' and lockin' lessons from STUDIO WU (its a dance school).
Jiaqi said Winteng'll pass to me this paper thing that gives me one whole free lesson for a whole day. The dancers from our school are going on Saturday, so Elie doesn't wanna go on Sat. And oh, the price of Studio Wu's lessons are cheaper, about 60bucks a month for students.
But then I bet its like those kinda bigbig classes with over 8 people! D: I dowannnnn! ) :
IDON'TCARE. I might even ask my mom to consider letting me take lessons from 2 dance schools. :] but it'll be like 140bucks per month D: don't think she'd allow. If I take it'd be on Fridays (Studio Wu's poppin/lockin lessons) and Sundays (Hiphop Kids'pore- Maqrius's hiphop lessons).
If Maqrius doesn't move on to more popping or locking stuffs, I might change to Studio Wu.
When I'm older I shall go to Korea and try out lessons in Winners Dance School! THE ONE HYOYEON'S FROM, AHHHHHHHH! :D
Okay blogging just killed my remaining brain cells, and its 5.17AM. Needa catch some Zzz's or I'd die tomorrow in dance for good :] then the world will rejoice yayness!
I wanna replay those moments and jump into the scenes all over again.
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Friday, October 26, 2007
FAREAST PLAZAAAA & BAGGY CARGOS
YAYNESS!
FINALLY GOT THE PANTS I WANTED FOR HIPHOP! :]
Its at the shop Jiaqi showed me. The one where all the sec3 seniors got their pants. Infact I got the same one as them. o.o Wanted to get half jacket and a pink racerback shirt at the basement to match my pants but didn't. BO LUI!
Saw a lot of pretty NIKE DUNKS AND NIKE CORTEZ! Omg so pretty. I wanna drag my mom to Far East D: got a lot of things I want and need.
HAHAHAHA MAQRIUS! YOU HAVE NO REASON TO SCOLD ME FOR NOT DRESSING LIKE A HIPHOP DANCER! :D finallyyyyyy! But you CAN scold me for not bringing a partner for couple dance la. I still can't find one. Oh bummer.
And oh,
TODAY'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
D: AND :D
Got report books back. Hmm. Only an A. For ART. Hah I knew I could depend on art. But heck 72 for art is like chao lan D:
After school went to Elie's place and played with her piano-ish keyboard. She changed and stuffs and we left to meet Jiaqi at the bus stop. PAISEH QI DARLING! We were like 30mins late? Jiaqi said she almost fell asleep D:
Walked to the bus stop that has buses to Qi's house and waited. And Jiaqi gave Elie this card thingy for a free dance session the whole day! LIKE OMG. :D She said Winteng would pass to me one too. :] thanks Winteng darl! :D
Jiaqi got changed, wearing a KIDDY ATTIRE! :] RED MICKEY MOUSE TEE, WHITE PRI5-LIKE SHORTS WITH A FLOWER AND A BAG WITH TEDDIEBEAR PRINTS! :] and we took a bus to my place. Jiaqi was the kiddo! ;]
We spent a heckofa long time at my house la. Supposed to be I bathe and we go out for lunch. But end up my maid made SUSHI so we ate at my house, and I bathed at about 3pm when I should've at 1pm =.= JIAQI KEPT TAKING SNEAK PICS WHEN ME AND ELIE WERE TIDYING UP OUR HAIR ETC! xD
Took a bus to Far East. Got really sleepy- its like damn sian can. MRT would've been faster but Elie didn't wanna take MRT D: ahha.
Jiaqi fell asleep when we were almost there. And her head was like on my shoulder the whole time. So sweeeeet! :D got to Far East and woke her up. Bought bubbletea and went to shopppp! :D
The pants were okay for Medium but it was just nice, so I got L as it was wayyyyy baggier :] super chio pants. Infact, everything on Far East's fourth floor's SUPER CHIO! :D haha. First time I shopped in other levels than Far East's basement o.o
Elie loves boots! Jiaqi loves Little Miss tees! I love baggy cargos and chio Nike Cortez! :]
Jiaqi went home, so me and Elie walked around and around Far East for a while. Elie got this half jacket that I wanted, and then I saw this pink racerback that would've gone real nicely with the half jacket and the pants but the racerback shirt only came with a cashmiere or whatever D: and it was 30bucks together D:
Went to AMK's Sumo House for dinner. Bought the usual. NICE! And went to the arcade after that :] super long time since I went to Jubilee's arcade, since I was like studying for exams :]
And Elie might join my tuition! Yayness :]
Went home at around 10plus. When I got home I was all tired, and the moment I ploofed on my bed my parents came home. They saw the earrings I wore and the belt Elie lent me to go with the pants I wore out today and my dad was saying I've grown up. Like uhh, whatthe? LAMEEE.
Tired. The fan's blowing wind into my eyes.
Pics from the last day in 2INTEGRITY 2007 will be up soon :]
Will miss the guys. I wonder which class my fate would take me to.
Hopefully not 3D. I'd die taking POA.
FINALLY GOT THE PANTS I WANTED FOR HIPHOP! :]
Its at the shop Jiaqi showed me. The one where all the sec3 seniors got their pants. Infact I got the same one as them. o.o Wanted to get half jacket and a pink racerback shirt at the basement to match my pants but didn't. BO LUI!
Saw a lot of pretty NIKE DUNKS AND NIKE CORTEZ! Omg so pretty. I wanna drag my mom to Far East D: got a lot of things I want and need.
HAHAHAHA MAQRIUS! YOU HAVE NO REASON TO SCOLD ME FOR NOT DRESSING LIKE A HIPHOP DANCER! :D finallyyyyyy! But you CAN scold me for not bringing a partner for couple dance la. I still can't find one. Oh bummer.
And oh,
TODAY'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
D: AND :D
Got report books back. Hmm. Only an A. For ART. Hah I knew I could depend on art. But heck 72 for art is like chao lan D:
After school went to Elie's place and played with her piano-ish keyboard. She changed and stuffs and we left to meet Jiaqi at the bus stop. PAISEH QI DARLING! We were like 30mins late? Jiaqi said she almost fell asleep D:
Walked to the bus stop that has buses to Qi's house and waited. And Jiaqi gave Elie this card thingy for a free dance session the whole day! LIKE OMG. :D She said Winteng would pass to me one too. :] thanks Winteng darl! :D
Jiaqi got changed, wearing a KIDDY ATTIRE! :] RED MICKEY MOUSE TEE, WHITE PRI5-LIKE SHORTS WITH A FLOWER AND A BAG WITH TEDDIEBEAR PRINTS! :] and we took a bus to my place. Jiaqi was the kiddo! ;]
We spent a heckofa long time at my house la. Supposed to be I bathe and we go out for lunch. But end up my maid made SUSHI so we ate at my house, and I bathed at about 3pm when I should've at 1pm =.= JIAQI KEPT TAKING SNEAK PICS WHEN ME AND ELIE WERE TIDYING UP OUR HAIR ETC! xD
Took a bus to Far East. Got really sleepy- its like damn sian can. MRT would've been faster but Elie didn't wanna take MRT D: ahha.
Jiaqi fell asleep when we were almost there. And her head was like on my shoulder the whole time. So sweeeeet! :D got to Far East and woke her up. Bought bubbletea and went to shopppp! :D
The pants were okay for Medium but it was just nice, so I got L as it was wayyyyy baggier :] super chio pants. Infact, everything on Far East's fourth floor's SUPER CHIO! :D haha. First time I shopped in other levels than Far East's basement o.o
Elie loves boots! Jiaqi loves Little Miss tees! I love baggy cargos and chio Nike Cortez! :]
Jiaqi went home, so me and Elie walked around and around Far East for a while. Elie got this half jacket that I wanted, and then I saw this pink racerback that would've gone real nicely with the half jacket and the pants but the racerback shirt only came with a cashmiere or whatever D: and it was 30bucks together D:
Went to AMK's Sumo House for dinner. Bought the usual. NICE! And went to the arcade after that :] super long time since I went to Jubilee's arcade, since I was like studying for exams :]
And Elie might join my tuition! Yayness :]
Went home at around 10plus. When I got home I was all tired, and the moment I ploofed on my bed my parents came home. They saw the earrings I wore and the belt Elie lent me to go with the pants I wore out today and my dad was saying I've grown up. Like uhh, whatthe? LAMEEE.
Tired. The fan's blowing wind into my eyes.
Pics from the last day in 2INTEGRITY 2007 will be up soon :]
Will miss the guys. I wonder which class my fate would take me to.
Hopefully not 3D. I'd die taking POA.
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Thursday, October 25, 2007
5HRS AT THE COFFEESHOP.
Sian. I'm super tired. Haha. Went to the coffee shop across school with sailors- David, Ryan, Aaron and Ningxin. :] we only wanted to go there for dinner but we ended up chatting till like 11 plus?
Infact, I JUST got home.
We kept laughing while eating dinner, thanks to Ryan and all his bangla talk =.= like wth, me and Ningxin had a hard time eating cuz we were laughing so hard.
And I took out Ryan's phone batt, and when you put the batt back in you have to key in the PIN thing, and I purposely anyohow key in till it tio PUK! Then he had to call the Singtel people for the code to unlock his phone :D
Stayed there from 7plus till 11plus. David cabbed back so me and Aaron followed him since it was on the way :] Ningxin sat on the road leh! :D hahaha. She dared me to but then I saw a few cars so I was like eeyer cannot try sitting on the road. xD
Okay I just showed the options form to my parents.
Didn't really say anything, just passed it to my mom, told her I got the streaming stuffs back yadayada and went back to my room. No time for her to say much. Apparently, THEY DON'T KNOW A SHIT ABOUT STREAMING. Like, THERE ARE INSTRUCTIONS THERE FOR YOU TO READ?
And I think my dad wants me to accept my fate, go to 3D. Thinking I've done only bad enough to go there huh. Must be, he always looks down on me. Infact, all he wants to see are my results. He thinks I've done really badly, or, he's indirectly implying that. Cuz all he asked for was my report book and that he wants to wait and see my results.
So yeah. He looks down on me. ITS OKAY DAD. There's still the brother. Place all your hopes on him then. He'll do MUCH better than me.
Anyway, I kinda expected this from my parents. Especially my dad, since he's always the one who thinks and complains I've not been studying. So whatever, I don't care. I don't talk to my parents anyway.
Hmmm today's training rocked! :D The wind was outrageously good today, but I doubt it was as strong as Tuesday's D: bummer. But I didn't sail on Tuesday so I don't know.
My positions for the practice races were- 7, 5, 6. :DD -BIG GRINS- okay the last one we sailed to Bedok buoy and then back to shore so I counted from there. Drey you PRO KIA! Sail so fast. Even Aunty Yvonne complimented you, saying the sailing to Bedok one you didn't have a good start but still WON ALL OF US :D gogo Drey! xoxo.
First time I complained about being tired hiking out during strong wind. Man, my stamina must have really dropped for me to complain DURING STRONG WIND.
Hello? I ADORE strong winds :D cuz I am "heavy enough to handle it" -Quin.
While heading back to shore, it was all the way from Bedok buoy leh. So we sailed downwind the whole way back. I heeled my boat a lil' too much and when I tried to flatten my boat, BAM! My left knee hit the front part of the boat, the black thing near the traveller.
D: I was like wtf! Reaching shore then I have to injure myself. Why not injure myself during the start of today's training? Then I won't seem so suay.
So the whole time I was unrigging I was baika. :]
And oh, a lot of people didn't come for training today. ALL BAIKA! :] Ningxin said its a trend for us sailors now to become baikas and to lose our stuffs. Lets see- Justin, Peckkhee, Agnes, Linjie, Jack, Darren and (I'm not sure if Mrs Sidhu counted her) Yuxuan didn't come.
Justin, Peckkhee, Linjie and Jack ALL BAIKA. Or at least we know, Linjie and Jack fake baika. :] but when Mrs Sidhu asked why they never come we all jokingly replied they baika :D
And oh! When going back to shore I was really near Weiming. Audrey and Cheeteng were 1st and 2nd. Cheeteng lost to Drey xD he was whatthehell-ing a lot while unrigging hahaha.
And oh, cuz I was near to Weiming I could see what he did to Ryan. Ryan asked him for water but he already finished drinking it I think. So he was like, "Ei Gwen, Gwen! Looklook, see what I do to the Ryan ah." then I was all confused. Then he said "He wants water right? I GIVE HIM water -evil grin-"
Then he filled up the bottle with seawater, called Ryan to come closer to his boat. Me and Nic were trying hard not to laugh la. Then I watched as Ryan opened the bottle, drank a bit, then he shouted "Oei! Weiming! This is SEAWATER RIGHT?! EI WALAO!" but he didn't drink it la. HAHA. Weiming said he saw Ryan sip a bit, then spat it out xD
Got back to shore and Justin Ong helped me take trolley! :D hahaha for once, the kind junior helped me :] haha. Then I told him why the trolley no air! So he go help me take another one and was complaining why all of us worry so much about the air in the wheels of the trolley. LOL. Then he was like "Hey I'm helping you over here lor.. never thank me still ask me what ah, go change trolley. D:" xD hahaha. I did thank him la. I'm a nice senior :]
Almost forgot to take my hat la! And I left it on another boat that was not put on the rack leh. Heng I remembered! If not it would've been gone D: so Ningxin said its a trend to lose things.
Infact, I JUST got home.
We kept laughing while eating dinner, thanks to Ryan and all his bangla talk =.= like wth, me and Ningxin had a hard time eating cuz we were laughing so hard.
And I took out Ryan's phone batt, and when you put the batt back in you have to key in the PIN thing, and I purposely anyohow key in till it tio PUK! Then he had to call the Singtel people for the code to unlock his phone :D
Stayed there from 7plus till 11plus. David cabbed back so me and Aaron followed him since it was on the way :] Ningxin sat on the road leh! :D hahaha. She dared me to but then I saw a few cars so I was like eeyer cannot try sitting on the road. xD
Okay I just showed the options form to my parents.
Didn't really say anything, just passed it to my mom, told her I got the streaming stuffs back yadayada and went back to my room. No time for her to say much. Apparently, THEY DON'T KNOW A SHIT ABOUT STREAMING. Like, THERE ARE INSTRUCTIONS THERE FOR YOU TO READ?
And I think my dad wants me to accept my fate, go to 3D. Thinking I've done only bad enough to go there huh. Must be, he always looks down on me. Infact, all he wants to see are my results. He thinks I've done really badly, or, he's indirectly implying that. Cuz all he asked for was my report book and that he wants to wait and see my results.
So yeah. He looks down on me. ITS OKAY DAD. There's still the brother. Place all your hopes on him then. He'll do MUCH better than me.
Anyway, I kinda expected this from my parents. Especially my dad, since he's always the one who thinks and complains I've not been studying. So whatever, I don't care. I don't talk to my parents anyway.
Hmmm today's training rocked! :D The wind was outrageously good today, but I doubt it was as strong as Tuesday's D: bummer. But I didn't sail on Tuesday so I don't know.
My positions for the practice races were- 7, 5, 6. :DD -BIG GRINS- okay the last one we sailed to Bedok buoy and then back to shore so I counted from there. Drey you PRO KIA! Sail so fast. Even Aunty Yvonne complimented you, saying the sailing to Bedok one you didn't have a good start but still WON ALL OF US :D gogo Drey! xoxo.
First time I complained about being tired hiking out during strong wind. Man, my stamina must have really dropped for me to complain DURING STRONG WIND.
Hello? I ADORE strong winds :D cuz I am "heavy enough to handle it" -Quin.
While heading back to shore, it was all the way from Bedok buoy leh. So we sailed downwind the whole way back. I heeled my boat a lil' too much and when I tried to flatten my boat, BAM! My left knee hit the front part of the boat, the black thing near the traveller.
D: I was like wtf! Reaching shore then I have to injure myself. Why not injure myself during the start of today's training? Then I won't seem so suay.
So the whole time I was unrigging I was baika. :]
And oh, a lot of people didn't come for training today. ALL BAIKA! :] Ningxin said its a trend for us sailors now to become baikas and to lose our stuffs. Lets see- Justin, Peckkhee, Agnes, Linjie, Jack, Darren and (I'm not sure if Mrs Sidhu counted her) Yuxuan didn't come.
Justin, Peckkhee, Linjie and Jack ALL BAIKA. Or at least we know, Linjie and Jack fake baika. :] but when Mrs Sidhu asked why they never come we all jokingly replied they baika :D
And oh! When going back to shore I was really near Weiming. Audrey and Cheeteng were 1st and 2nd. Cheeteng lost to Drey xD he was whatthehell-ing a lot while unrigging hahaha.
And oh, cuz I was near to Weiming I could see what he did to Ryan. Ryan asked him for water but he already finished drinking it I think. So he was like, "Ei Gwen, Gwen! Looklook, see what I do to the Ryan ah." then I was all confused. Then he said "He wants water right? I GIVE HIM water -evil grin-"
Then he filled up the bottle with seawater, called Ryan to come closer to his boat. Me and Nic were trying hard not to laugh la. Then I watched as Ryan opened the bottle, drank a bit, then he shouted "Oei! Weiming! This is SEAWATER RIGHT?! EI WALAO!" but he didn't drink it la. HAHA. Weiming said he saw Ryan sip a bit, then spat it out xD
Got back to shore and Justin Ong helped me take trolley! :D hahaha for once, the kind junior helped me :] haha. Then I told him why the trolley no air! So he go help me take another one and was complaining why all of us worry so much about the air in the wheels of the trolley. LOL. Then he was like "Hey I'm helping you over here lor.. never thank me still ask me what ah, go change trolley. D:" xD hahaha. I did thank him la. I'm a nice senior :]
Almost forgot to take my hat la! And I left it on another boat that was not put on the rack leh. Heng I remembered! If not it would've been gone D: so Ningxin said its a trend to lose things.
Shall do my usual blog spam. I'm really tired now and cried till my eyes are puffy but I don't really care.
Talking to Kerrie on MSN. Thanks babe, for comforting me and giving me suggestions. ♥
The best and still the best after these two long years, thanks for being there for me love!
I keep thinking again and again about what has happened recently three days back. Thinking of it makes me pissed off but I can't help it. I guess, if things are like that, I'll just leave it be. Its meant to be, maybe(?). How I feel would never change, tho.
Thinking back, maybe I am just stupid. Pure stupidity. Of Gwendolyn Neo Yuan Qi.
I have training tomorrow, and therefore pangsehing my lovables! D: Supposed to go to Lower Pierce Reservoir with AGEK but I last min decided not to go cuz I don't want to pon sailing, even tho many of us wanna.
During open house, I kept thinking. What if I had joined the other CCA that I wanted to join besides sailing? Modern dance o.o Yokeching asked me if I had joined modern dance instead of sailing, "Would you be one of them?"
Oh well. I'm happy with my current lessons now so yeah. Jiaqi forced me to dance today! So paiseh. At the "bowling alley" during open house. Haha. The dance seniors were in the dance studio dancing so I refused, but Jiaqi wanted to see my dance moves real badly so she dragged me outside to dance. AH SO PAISEH.
Jiaqi and Sera, I LOVE YOU! :]
And I love you too.
I shall leave this all behind me. For now.
Talking to Kerrie on MSN. Thanks babe, for comforting me and giving me suggestions. ♥
The best and still the best after these two long years, thanks for being there for me love!
I keep thinking again and again about what has happened recently three days back. Thinking of it makes me pissed off but I can't help it. I guess, if things are like that, I'll just leave it be. Its meant to be, maybe(?). How I feel would never change, tho.
Thinking back, maybe I am just stupid. Pure stupidity. Of Gwendolyn Neo Yuan Qi.
I have training tomorrow, and therefore pangsehing my lovables! D: Supposed to go to Lower Pierce Reservoir with AGEK but I last min decided not to go cuz I don't want to pon sailing, even tho many of us wanna.
During open house, I kept thinking. What if I had joined the other CCA that I wanted to join besides sailing? Modern dance o.o Yokeching asked me if I had joined modern dance instead of sailing, "Would you be one of them?"
Oh well. I'm happy with my current lessons now so yeah. Jiaqi forced me to dance today! So paiseh. At the "bowling alley" during open house. Haha. The dance seniors were in the dance studio dancing so I refused, but Jiaqi wanted to see my dance moves real badly so she dragged me outside to dance. AH SO PAISEH.
Jiaqi and Sera, I LOVE YOU! :]
And I love you too.
I shall leave this all behind me. For now.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Is it hard understanding.
When I say parents don't understand a shit about their kids, I mean it.
Its like, my dad just nagged a whole storybook full of crap to me about my attitude towards my family. Like wtf, STOP THE FUCKING NAGGING ALREADY. EVERYTIME you only know how to scold me and nag at me. WHAT ABOUT THE BROTHER?
"Easily said than done"- many people know this phrase. But how many actually really applies it to situations in life?
My parents tell me about studying and results as if its so easy to achieve. I'm not the studious sort and I know that. The standards in the past could have been a hell lot freggin easier than mine. So yeah, DON'T COMPARE.
He told me to find him or my mom when I have problems.
AND HOW THE HELL DO YOU WANT ME TO DO THAT? YEAH I'VE GOT A MILLION AND ONE PROBLEMS. TALKING TO YOU WON'T SOLVE IT, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU TRY TO FORCE OUT WHAT PROBLEMS I HAVE, THEN SCOLD ME WHEN I START TO CRY OVER IT. HOW OFTEN HAVE YOU ACTUALLY UNDERSTOOD ME? WHEN I PUSHED MYSELF TO STUDY, YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO SAY I'M NOT STUDYING ENOUGH. YOU TELL ME THAT IF I TRIED MY BEST ITS ALRIGHT. BUT WHEN I SHOW YOU THE RESULTS AND SAY I'VE TRIED MY BEST, WHEN HAVE YOU ACTUALLY UDNERSTOOD ME AND UNDERSTAND HOW STRESSED UP I AM?
YOU THINK TOO OLD. YOUR GENERATION IS YOUR GENERATION. I HAVE PROBLEMS, AND THE PROBLEMS START WITH YOU. EVEN TALKING TO MY AUNT IS BETTER THAN TALKING TO YOU. WHY? CUZ THEY UNDERSTAND, THEY KNOW HOW TO COMFORT ME, THEY KNOW HOW TO REPLY WHAT I SAY. BUT YOU DON'T.
ALL YOU KNOW HOW TO DO IS COMPARE AND COMPARE. ITS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THAT SINCE YOUNG. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN COMPARED TO MY COUSINS, and you tell me, how am I supposed to be like them?
Everything's been about the brother. EVERYTHING. Just because he plays badminton well, he shares the same passion as you two, he's just like you two. I'm different, I love sailing and dance, and what, IS THAT A FUCKING DISGRACE TO YOU?
You've never supported me in sailing or dance. I'm always limited to what I can do. I feel lousy about my sailing skills, and when I tell you how badly I've done for competitions, you add salt to the wound. You only know how to go, "Huh? Do so badly AGAIN? Aiyah you might as well quit sailing la. Always like that." you're ALWAYS telling me to quit sailing.
When I want to tell you my results, the brother starts to sing and I tell him not to sing cuz I'm really nervous and don't know where to start about the results, then you scold me and tell me not to treat my brother like this, that I'm not flexible enough.
I've got so many problems. I'm really tired. I really, really wanna give up. Wanderer: I may be a fighter to you, but I'm a tired one. A really, really tired one.
And letting out big sighs never did help me.
But thats all I'm doing for now.
Someone tell me the number of times I've kept my problems to myself instead of telling my parents- countless.
Its like, my dad just nagged a whole storybook full of crap to me about my attitude towards my family. Like wtf, STOP THE FUCKING NAGGING ALREADY. EVERYTIME you only know how to scold me and nag at me. WHAT ABOUT THE BROTHER?
"Easily said than done"- many people know this phrase. But how many actually really applies it to situations in life?
My parents tell me about studying and results as if its so easy to achieve. I'm not the studious sort and I know that. The standards in the past could have been a hell lot freggin easier than mine. So yeah, DON'T COMPARE.
He told me to find him or my mom when I have problems.
AND HOW THE HELL DO YOU WANT ME TO DO THAT? YEAH I'VE GOT A MILLION AND ONE PROBLEMS. TALKING TO YOU WON'T SOLVE IT, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU TRY TO FORCE OUT WHAT PROBLEMS I HAVE, THEN SCOLD ME WHEN I START TO CRY OVER IT. HOW OFTEN HAVE YOU ACTUALLY UNDERSTOOD ME? WHEN I PUSHED MYSELF TO STUDY, YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO SAY I'M NOT STUDYING ENOUGH. YOU TELL ME THAT IF I TRIED MY BEST ITS ALRIGHT. BUT WHEN I SHOW YOU THE RESULTS AND SAY I'VE TRIED MY BEST, WHEN HAVE YOU ACTUALLY UDNERSTOOD ME AND UNDERSTAND HOW STRESSED UP I AM?
YOU THINK TOO OLD. YOUR GENERATION IS YOUR GENERATION. I HAVE PROBLEMS, AND THE PROBLEMS START WITH YOU. EVEN TALKING TO MY AUNT IS BETTER THAN TALKING TO YOU. WHY? CUZ THEY UNDERSTAND, THEY KNOW HOW TO COMFORT ME, THEY KNOW HOW TO REPLY WHAT I SAY. BUT YOU DON'T.
ALL YOU KNOW HOW TO DO IS COMPARE AND COMPARE. ITS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THAT SINCE YOUNG. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN COMPARED TO MY COUSINS, and you tell me, how am I supposed to be like them?
Everything's been about the brother. EVERYTHING. Just because he plays badminton well, he shares the same passion as you two, he's just like you two. I'm different, I love sailing and dance, and what, IS THAT A FUCKING DISGRACE TO YOU?
You've never supported me in sailing or dance. I'm always limited to what I can do. I feel lousy about my sailing skills, and when I tell you how badly I've done for competitions, you add salt to the wound. You only know how to go, "Huh? Do so badly AGAIN? Aiyah you might as well quit sailing la. Always like that." you're ALWAYS telling me to quit sailing.
When I want to tell you my results, the brother starts to sing and I tell him not to sing cuz I'm really nervous and don't know where to start about the results, then you scold me and tell me not to treat my brother like this, that I'm not flexible enough.
I've got so many problems. I'm really tired. I really, really wanna give up. Wanderer: I may be a fighter to you, but I'm a tired one. A really, really tired one.
And letting out big sighs never did help me.
But thats all I'm doing for now.
Someone tell me the number of times I've kept my problems to myself instead of telling my parents- countless.
PRISCHOOL KIDS.
TIRED.
From the open house. Its like, the kiddos were OVERWHELMING. Its like, THEY KILLED ME- literally.
Went to ATS with Sarah, Adora, Donald, Jiamin, and dunno two other sec3 guys. LOL. Me and Adora were the only sec2s in the group and the sec3s were all talking about their batch's students in ATS at the time. So I was like, "Oh ADORA, those people behind us talking about their batch la. We SO LEFT OUT. Nevermind, WE TALK ABOUT OUR BATCH! -randomly lists a name-"
We walked there okay. Then Sarah and Jiamin they all damn slow. Me, Adora, Donald and this guy who's name starts with J were walking damn fast.
Got the *ahem* lousier classes for open house D: ATS really think so lowly of us izzit? Hello, I bet Mayflower's standards are better than ATS, thanks to Mr Ng. Bleah. We got like, 6G, 6H, 6J, 6K and I think 6K1. All the worse few classes, and EM3 classes. D:
Mr Tan was the form teacher of 6G! :D then I was like, "MR TAN MR TAN! You remember me?" and he was all "Yeah I taught you in pri4." then I asked "Whats my name?" then he "o.o nono don't ask me for names! I know I teach you before can already! Remember your face can already!" lol.
Saw Mr Low, and me and Donald went to say hi. I ran to Mr Low when he was buying food la. Haha. He was like "O.O Gwen! Oh hihi! What are you doing here?" then when he shook hands with Donald then he told me Donald was from AVA. Like o.o NOT EXPECTED!
Sarah and I kept looking for our bros. But nah we left just as it was the pri4 recess D:
I had to say the bus guide's speech thing on the bus and I didn't bother asking for the mic and Mr Tan kept asking me to move to the center of the bus lol. Then dunno why but the kids liked laughing at what I said cuz I made it sound funny. Then Shermaine was in my group!
But sadly, cuz she knew me, she thought she didn't really have to listen to my instructions when we gave them the tour. And ya, that killed me.
WHEN MY GROUP MEMBERS TOLD ME IN MY FACE THAT SAILING SUCKED WHEN I TOLD THEM 4857329142 TIMES THAT I WAS FROM SAILING, I was like damn pissed off.
And oh, CHUN HONG and SHITING were my group's other mentors :D Chun Hong and I were like damn tired when we reached the music room la. He had his head on the table and I was squatting on the floor like wanna sleep.
I decided to buy that pants that the dancers had. The 36bucks one? Cuz I really can't find any nice ones D: and the one they had are the EXACT ones I want, except the one I want is like brown. Except for I'll tie up the string till my knee length there.
Wanling told me to find online. o.o lazy to haha.
And oh, Sera got bullied by someone. Wtf. She cried and cried in the dance studio cuz she was so scared la. On Friday I shall ask how it went. Hopefully she's fine. D: It pains me a lot to see her crying so much just cuz she's afraid la ) :
Was talking with the sec2 dancers in the dance studio and they were busy cursing the bully. LOL. When Jiaqi and Sera and Nicolette hugged me Shermaine Chia thought it was weird. She was all "Err, your friend just hugged you?". =.=''' PRISCHOOL KIDS.
Still haven't told my parents.
Shall let them do the finding out then. Hah. And Edward thinks I'm doubly depressed, still. D: I'M NOT SOME DEPRESSED SOUL, DUDE!
But heck, who really cares? Two can play this game baby.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
I'm just doing my blog spam thang again.
Tomorrow there's open house, and I'm MENTORING some young lil' ATS kiddos who're gonna join Mayflower sec cuz I'm so gonna be the nicest/best/most bhb/jfhsauhfsdh mentor they'll have ever seen!
And I wanna get 6C- Ranice, Weisze and Nicole's class! Yupppp.
Really tired. Haven't showered. Just ate finish my DARS Chocolate and its like 11.28pm. Okay thats like really fattening.
My eyes still feel sore, and tomorrow I'm gonna have a hard time moving about cuz my muscles are aching like they've never did before. Which kinda sucks cuz I've got lots of walking to do tomorrow. :/ hmm.
Can't even sit down on any surface today without going "Owwwch." and wincing a bit. My butt muscles thingy hurts. Haha. Even my right shoulder and both leg muscles hurt. A lot.
Oh well. Looking forward to tomorrow.
Shall leave my parents to do the finding-out themselves.
They always do, anyway.
Tomorrow there's open house, and I'm MENTORING some young lil' ATS kiddos who're gonna join Mayflower sec cuz I'm so gonna be the nicest/best/most bhb/jfhsauhfsdh mentor they'll have ever seen!
And I wanna get 6C- Ranice, Weisze and Nicole's class! Yupppp.
Really tired. Haven't showered. Just ate finish my DARS Chocolate and its like 11.28pm. Okay thats like really fattening.
My eyes still feel sore, and tomorrow I'm gonna have a hard time moving about cuz my muscles are aching like they've never did before. Which kinda sucks cuz I've got lots of walking to do tomorrow. :/ hmm.
Can't even sit down on any surface today without going "Owwwch." and wincing a bit. My butt muscles thingy hurts. Haha. Even my right shoulder and both leg muscles hurt. A lot.
Oh well. Looking forward to tomorrow.
Shall leave my parents to do the finding-out themselves.
They always do, anyway.
Cuz no one would.
Ya, who was I to think that they'd understand?
I don't intend to tell them now. Not now. They'd never understand how upset I am over this, they'd just blame me for not doing well enough. Yeah, I'm a lousy daughter. So what. I'm not as smart as my many cousins who get top few percent in Singapore and get to go overseas to study.
I need someone besides my parents to talk to. Cuz they'd never understand.
Everything's about my brother. Nothing was ever about me. Yup.
But I guess I just have to keep going on. Cuz no matter what, I'm not gonna admit defeat.
When I need you the most.
I don't intend to tell them now. Not now. They'd never understand how upset I am over this, they'd just blame me for not doing well enough. Yeah, I'm a lousy daughter. So what. I'm not as smart as my many cousins who get top few percent in Singapore and get to go overseas to study.
I need someone besides my parents to talk to. Cuz they'd never understand.
Everything's about my brother. Nothing was ever about me. Yup.
But I guess I just have to keep going on. Cuz no matter what, I'm not gonna admit defeat.
When I need you the most.
Gwen,
You're such a stupid pig.
Can't even make it to 3E. Only can go 3D. Only got one option. Only can go to the class with the subjects you didn't want to take.
What a sucker.
Not saying 3D is bad. 3D is not bad a class. Its just I don't wanna go there.
Can't believe how much I cried today. Even missed sailing, just sat at the canteen at the sailing center while the wind was super strong and watching how some people were capsizing, wishing I was out there. ) :
Its like, while walking up the bus, I walked past Justin Ong and Edward. Then I heard Justin say "Ya, she's depressed alright." its that easy to see when I'm upset?
Cried till I got so tired that while reading Aaron's Chicken Soup for the Teenagers Soul II, I fell asleep with Quin beside me. Aaron also slept. My eyes hurt like shit.
After debreifing for open house day 1, they had an announcement for all sec 2EXP classes to go to the theatrette. Then when everyone was there they gave out the options.
I sat beside Bernice, and both of us were like damn nervous. Deyuan and Darren were sitting behind me. Almost tore the paper about the school's history that we needed to remember for the open house cuz I was so nervous. Then I broke down. Deyuan was like "Omg is she crying?" sorry Bernice and thanks for your shoulder and comforting me.
Then Bernice went "Omg her paper here le." Then she glanced at it and kinda reluctantly passed it to me. And I cried even louder and harder.
Cuz I only got Option A.
Which is to go to 3D. Which is the class I told myself I should never go cuz all the subjects I don't want are there. Which is one of the classes which a lot of people got for their option.
Which makes me wanna die.
Cried all the way till we reached NSC. From like 1.11pm to 2.30pm plus? Kept crying. Weiming, Ningxin and Peckkhee were busy telling me that what they state on the paper might not be what you get.
But who knows? I might get into 3D. Since its like, MY ONLY OPTION.
Told Mr Yeo I didn't have the mood to sail, and he was asking me if I thought of appealing and all. Then I cried a bit. After that Mr Lee asked me why I never change out then I told him why. Then he tried psyco-ing me to sail but I insisted I didn't want to. And I cried more D: so paiseh can.
Stayed on shore with Aaron and Quin. The 1E'06 sailors. Everyone was calling us emo cuz we just sat there crying, except Aaron la. Poor Quin! D: DON'T WORRY DARLING I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU.
Peckkhee named us Emo One, Emo Two and Emo Three.
Now I don't know how to tell my parents. Sigh.
I should just gotohell.
Who doesn't long for someone to hold; who knows how to love you without being told.
I want to cry. I'm sorry.
You're such a stupid pig.
Can't even make it to 3E. Only can go 3D. Only got one option. Only can go to the class with the subjects you didn't want to take.
What a sucker.
Not saying 3D is bad. 3D is not bad a class. Its just I don't wanna go there.
Can't believe how much I cried today. Even missed sailing, just sat at the canteen at the sailing center while the wind was super strong and watching how some people were capsizing, wishing I was out there. ) :
Its like, while walking up the bus, I walked past Justin Ong and Edward. Then I heard Justin say "Ya, she's depressed alright." its that easy to see when I'm upset?
Cried till I got so tired that while reading Aaron's Chicken Soup for the Teenagers Soul II, I fell asleep with Quin beside me. Aaron also slept. My eyes hurt like shit.
After debreifing for open house day 1, they had an announcement for all sec 2EXP classes to go to the theatrette. Then when everyone was there they gave out the options.
I sat beside Bernice, and both of us were like damn nervous. Deyuan and Darren were sitting behind me. Almost tore the paper about the school's history that we needed to remember for the open house cuz I was so nervous. Then I broke down. Deyuan was like "Omg is she crying?" sorry Bernice and thanks for your shoulder and comforting me.
Then Bernice went "Omg her paper here le." Then she glanced at it and kinda reluctantly passed it to me. And I cried even louder and harder.
Cuz I only got Option A.
Which is to go to 3D. Which is the class I told myself I should never go cuz all the subjects I don't want are there. Which is one of the classes which a lot of people got for their option.
Which makes me wanna die.
Cried all the way till we reached NSC. From like 1.11pm to 2.30pm plus? Kept crying. Weiming, Ningxin and Peckkhee were busy telling me that what they state on the paper might not be what you get.
But who knows? I might get into 3D. Since its like, MY ONLY OPTION.
Told Mr Yeo I didn't have the mood to sail, and he was asking me if I thought of appealing and all. Then I cried a bit. After that Mr Lee asked me why I never change out then I told him why. Then he tried psyco-ing me to sail but I insisted I didn't want to. And I cried more D: so paiseh can.
Stayed on shore with Aaron and Quin. The 1E'06 sailors. Everyone was calling us emo cuz we just sat there crying, except Aaron la. Poor Quin! D: DON'T WORRY DARLING I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU.
Peckkhee named us Emo One, Emo Two and Emo Three.
Now I don't know how to tell my parents. Sigh.
I should just gotohell.
Who doesn't long for someone to hold; who knows how to love you without being told.
I want to cry. I'm sorry.
Soulmate
>Natasha Bedingfield
>Natasha Bedingfield
Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find
Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find
Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
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