Starz

The time now's 3:53AM. God knows why the hell I'm not asleep. My dad's gonna wake up soon and ugh if he finds out I'm still awake especially since I have work tomorrow, I'm screwed.

Tempted to bring this Fujitsu baby to work tomorrow but I'll get it from my supervisor haha!

Been more or less too moodless to text anyone the past few days. Sigh only after this episode THEN I stop smsing people.. What's wrong with me. I could've stopped smsing before this whole shit happened but oh well. Regrets are regrets. Blame myself for being an extremely socialable person who just HAS to reply friends when they text.

Ben/B&, if you ever read this, thanks for being here for me. I'd be glad to have you as an older brother man cuz yeah you're like the older brother I never had. Sorry you have to keep calling me the past few days while you're in your army camp just to check on me and ask, "How are you feeling Gw&?" and smsing me to check and be sure I'm not emo, even though I don't really reply you much now. Me, my itchy hands and my cellphone apparently caused this mess I can't seem to clear and well.. looking at that damned red Nokia phone now really irks me to no end sometimes.

I'm sorry Bugs Bunny, but you gotta go. Your presence on my bed as a huggable stuffed toy-slash-bolster hurts me too much. I luv you though, no matter what.

소녀시대 - Run Devil Run (런데빌런)

I've been replaying this non-stop on Youtube (because I changed laptops, so all my songs and iTunes program are in the old one). Like really NON-STOP. Addictive tune.

I've got so many things in my mind right now. As much as I would like to say them all out and as much as I would like to question and doubt how you feel, I decided not to. I know I still feel the same way, but.. lets just see how it goes. :)

Pain/braindead

I think I need to get a haircut real soon. Can't stand how screwed up my hair looks the past few days but I love the length! Luvluvluvvvv the length!

Anyway. Yesterday was.. painful. Alex would know. I was panicking like mad on MSN and left the house cuz I knew walls in my room = walls I can punch. Surprisingly it wasn't as bad as last year's.. somehow. I only know that this year, I can't afford to fail or go back into emo state. What happens always happens for a reason, doesn't it? Its called a break up because its broken.

Yet somehow deep down inside I'm hoping it isn't. Or that it can still be fixed.

Ugh time to go off to register for my English lessons at AMK central now. 2pm-4pm oh gosh. Its been so long since I last had tuition. :'(

Thanks Freddddddderick.

No Life

Wanted to go see the doctor today but I was too lazy to get off my bed this morning so I dropped the idea and went back to sleep instead.

Reading the blogs of my friends made me feel like I've really got no life as compared to them. They're always updating about school life while I'm updating about staying home. Even the JC peeps have a life! JC life doesn't seem that bad really. Like I told Alex when I met her for dinner + pool + L4D2 with Darry and Fred, "Better than staying home, seriously!"

I miss the people from 1Endeavour'06! Gosh. I hope we all can meet soon because it feels like its been too long :'(

Went back to Mayflower with Beanie to collect our cert and testimonials yesterday and guess what?

I'm suddenly from GRIFFIN house?? And oh, Mayflower sailing team 'C' div girls got 1st in Nationals! And in year 2007 too. So that means my batch and Belle's batch. Wow, since when really? We've been 4th since 2008. :\

Eileen's testimonials had some mistakes too, so we spent a good deal of time in the General Office editing our testimonials on a photocopied version. I was lacking too much info and there were quite a bit of mistakes in the CCA Achievements for my side, so I took it home to check through thoroughly. Had lunch with her at AMK Hub's Toastbox -- a first for me! Its always full and crowded every other day and I absolutely hate crowds :(


Anyway I've decided to either cab down to NSC from Tanah Merah MRT station or from Changi Airport's MRT station. I'm sure Changi Airport's nearer though. Heard the results for the 'B' div and so far so good! Keep it up today alright. You guys are gonna do good.

Can't wait to do some catching up today with the sailors! Hopefully there will be loads of photos to upload tonight because I've charged up my DSLR and its ready to FIARRRRRR!!

Head. Pain

I sleep with this thing everyday and surprisingly, the plastic wrapping hasn't been taken off yet. Might be going down to NSC to see the juniors sail. Can't wait! Heard the results for today's not bad. Keep it up for tomorrow, don't lose focus 'B' boys and girls! Huge hearts. Charging my DSLR to gear up for tomorrow's camwhore session because I heard the first day they used up the batteries for both DM and Eddy's DSLRs.

'Tis the power of camera-deprived kids.

But now I'm having a headache powerful enough to keep me from sleeping. It bothers me as much as every other worry in the world does, really. Its not a big deal but somehow I just can't fall asleep to the little throbbing tempo in my head. I would most prolly see a doctor soon because I've been getting giddy spells like those in secondary school. When I stand I suddenly feel weak and all I see is black for a while. D refused to let me walk home alone the last time after pool with Fred and Alex. I didn't think it was that bad 'till I got home and saw my face.

Meeting Twin at NYP tomorrow at 12pm to collect my dance pants! FINALLY. That'll be another motivation of mine to tell Kim I don't want to work on Mondays so I can go back for dance. Nothing at SW's tempting me to go back at this point of time.. well except for Choonhui. Sigh. Feel like telling Darry to just collect it for me after his lecture tomorrow so that I can sleep in.. Gosh do I feel sick.

Like Darren said, "Flu season. Everyone's falling sick."

Ditto that.

Old School vs. New School

'Twas a bit of o' school Monopoly vs. new school PSPs, Gameboys and laptops last week at my aunt's. The two big ol' sisters of School-less and Secondary 2, head-to-head with the two youngsters of Primary 4, and what can we say but we trashed them and got filthy rich..

That is, in Monopoly World.

Amanda and I had a showdown after the kiddos left. Never in my wildest dreams could I imagine that Monopoly was this much fun. No sarcasm here because it really was.

D

I feel like banging my head against the table. I feel like banging it hard.

I'm sorry I'm such a miserable person to be around sometimes. I'm sorry I'm so sensitive.

And I'm awfully sorry that you're gonna have to tolerate this.

Fat and Ugly Week

Bought a webcam with Mel today at Hub! Told Ker and Lex and their replies were more or less implying the same thing: "Finally, about time!"

My complexion now's horrible. I've been having breakouts and my hands never seem to stop being attracted to my face. They just. Can't. Seem. To stop. Scratching my face! And now I think I've gained weight. Okay maybe not the weight because I still weigh the same, but I think I've been.. ballooning.

Ugly week, ugly week!

Anyway, everyone's starting school tomorrow and that kinda sucks for me. I hate being all alone, and now I officially will be. Ker, Lex, Cia, Mel, D.. everyone. Oh well I guess my turn will come next year and we'll see where the effort I put in for Math brings me to.

Somewhere good I hope.

Okay gotta go sleep now because I'm either 1) Gonna get a morning call from D, or 2) Gonna GIVE a morning call to D.

So TTFN!

Not..?

It's been damn annoying how I've had no fate with dance the past month. Agh Bern if you're reading this tell me your poly schedule so we can go back! I miss Choonhui. Best teacher ever.

On a side note, I hate working. Absolutely, positively, HATE working. Especially on an empty stomach. Darry was saying the next time I do this he'd just pack food for me. But I can't complain since I'm working in order to be able to dance. Sucks to have to pay my own fees but what to do? Need to ease my mom's burden and worries since her boss's a bitch, literally. Momzie's workplace is like high school all over again.

I suddenly realise I've been dancing since.. Primary 3. Officially dancing and outta self-learning since Primary 5/6. Awesome.

Anyway everyone's busy now. The BFFs -Rainbows and Hearts- postponed our Vivo Day cuz it rained but this week everyone's starting orientation. I especially miss Alex. Deary, deary me. And oh, everyone's starting school next week. Hallelujah.

Gw&, B&, Cheryl and Sylvia

Met Ben and Sylvia again after such a long time! Ben especially. I've not seen him since what, 2 years ago? Its been too long my fellow Wen, too long.

So now I'm Gw& (get it? Get it? Pronounce it out) cuz I adapted his B&. Coolio.

Neopets Birthday!

I logged on to Neopets wondering why the taskbars etc were blue. Then when the images loaded I realised it was a 'birthday template'! Aw. And while playing the games I realised I could send the score of every game 8 TIMES!!

So to anyone who plays Neopets, look out for the number of times you can send score on your birthday. Getting 300 NPs per send for Fashion Fever was damn shiok.

More on my birthday on another post! Cuz I've got photos to edit and my laptop's a bit laggy today.

Thanks AGEK + Alex + Darry + Frederick for the dinner, presents and that unexpected standing-on-chair surprise at Fish & Co.!

And thanks to all who wished me on FB and via text. Really appreciated it especially those who wished by text! Was really touching receiving messages throughout the day.

Will be meeting The BFFs -Rainbows and Hearts- tonight at Vivo! Can't wait. I terribly missed hanging out on Vivo's rooftop with them.

Yesterday Morning

Woke up early yesterday morning (which reminds me, I woke up around the same time this morning too). The sight outside my window was pretty but my DSLR couldn't capture it. Such a pity. The orange Topman jacket felt comforting; it was nice to sleep in especially after a day like that. Kept trying to snap pictures of the aliens in the hood because it was just too cute!

[R]Apture...Darren says:
hi
タユタマ says:
gdbye
so long
adieu
[R]Apture...Darren says:
O_o
タユタマ says:
chances are she'll reply in an hour
so you should leave a msg
[R]Apture...Darren says:
yes
タユタマ says:
gogo
g says:
?
タユタマ says:
oh
g says:
WHYAT LEAVE A MESSAGE
タユタマ says:
i was wrong

The BFFs are too cute for words! Hahaha. Thanks guys for organising the Vivo thing again this Friday, because I've been talking about it since ever but never got around to deciding on a date.

I'm hungry now and I have to scoot my butt off to work like now. Sigh. I dread work today. Hope I take over the upstairs shift because that way I can slack off.. just for today, please? I've got Darry's iTouch (he left it in my bag after we went to the library + L4D2 after.. silly) so I won't be bored!

Birthday?

Everyone's starting school and going for camps soon. Sigh, now I know what it feels like to be school-less while everyone else is doing their thing in school.

Was just messaging Darry while he was in NYP for his physics lesson. After telling me to meet him on Thursday morning to study in the library, he ends off the message with "and wear nice nice". I stared at that for a moment and wondered why, so I asked. A moment later I checked my cell's calendar and realised my birthday's this Thursday. So much for birthdays being the most important occasion of the year for some people, huh?

Since a few years back, for some unfathomable reason, my birthday seems to be.. the most insignificant thing to me. Yet.

Kate Gosselin? Dancing with the Stars?!

I really used to like Kate Gosselin on Jon & Kate Plus 8 cuz she was like, the awesome mom; the strong mom; the I-have-8-kids-and-I-can-handle-it! mom.

Now she's more of a joke and a laughing stock. Sigh.

This is what being on reality TV for too does to you. Reminds me of Spencer and Heidi from The Hills. JOKES.

Webcam-less

When I webcammed with Darry, it reminded me of the webcam session Alex and I had with Bev when I was over at Alex's place! Cuz Bev's house was pitch-black too and it was like you couldn't really see her face. Hahaha.

Yessss I need a webcam! MSN and Skype life's boring without one. What's the point of having a laptop with a mic but no webcam? Sigh. Lenovo designers, you guys were brilliant.

Blogging Bug

I've lost my blogging bug again! I think my blog would pretty much be dead soon until I get that 'bug' of mine back.

There are reasons why I've not been blogging, even if I would very much like to.

Anyway, I'm lacking photos to put up! And I'm the type that must blog with photos or I'll feel like I'm more of a bore than anything else. Haven't found the time to go down to Clarke Quay to shoot photos of bridges for Belle's O Level Art thing. Hopefully I would do so soon! My camera's collecting dust :(

On a side note, FB has been a little laggy, no? I can't get it to run properly and I believe I won't be bothered to in a while because I'M GETTING BORED OF FACEBOOK. How unbelievable is that? But its a very doh thing cuz my laptop is shitty enough to the extent that I can't run games like Cafe World and Farmville.

My crops are dying.. or dead.

I think I'll leave the next post for my birthday, even though I wouldn't exactly be celebrating it as I intended to cuz of my parents. Sigh. The day I planned to use meeting up old friends is now the day I won't be doing exactly that, or rather, I'd be using that day to study. How fun.

Alrighty-mighty! Time to go check my Neopets Stock Market! I've earned about 15k NPs from one particular stock already so I'm gonna go monitor it first. Bye!