Needs

Need to improve on popping. Need to improve on bboying. Need more ab strength. Need to improve on my control and hold for my moves. Need to stop throwing my head and shoulders. Need to improve on my up-bounce.

I need new kickz, I need my red Supra Vaiders which Boards & Stuff does not have because they carry size 7s while I'm a size 8. I need more clothes. I need my HIMYM/Scrubs DVDs.

I need everything.

Off-Day and Work Stuff

Finally had a day to myself! No work, no going out, no leaving the house for anything.

Relaxing? Yes. Kinda boring? Yes. Cuz there honestly isn't anything else to do on the internet. Facebook's getting boring and no one's Twittering much today. Hm..

Been sooooo busy with work recently it's ridiculous. Thank God my colleagues are a bunch of fun people so I enjoy working. Hate working on weekdays though cuz there's no crowd at all at the airport! Like act一个ghost town.

The random nonsense we did at work yesterday:

Emo Sing-A-Long doll!

We love playing with these dolls that sing when you press on their tummies. And it occured to us that among all the different dolls, the pink one has HAIR.

So we started styling them!

HAHAHA ALEX'S TWIN

We arranged the dolls like that on purpose. Symmetrical much!

Kim getting us to calculate percentages for her. And since my "Maths fail one" I passed the task to Alex.

And today:

Was sucking on an apple while watching some dance videos on YouTube and this was the result haha!

Clearing the old pile of bags in my room..

The discard pile. Look at that huge Blossom (Powerpuff Girls) tote bag omg hahaha.

Euuuuuuurgh look at my awful complexion.

Lack of sleep + itchy fingers + dry face = horrid complexion with ginormous eyebags!

Bruise on my arm. I have absolutely no idea how that got there after bboying.. it just did.

Hahaha very act cute I know. Was playing around with the digital camera (my DSLR's with Elie :( ) and realised that on Auto mode, if you take a photo of a person it'll change to another mode (okay duh everyone knows that).

The point is that this mode makes me look damn white! And my hair colour looks nice here. ;)

Okay shall continue packing my room! Won't have time to do it any other day thanks to dancing after work and all that.

Interview

Going to Singapore Poly later at 2pm for a written test + interview. Got shortlisted for my JPSAE application so hopefully all goes well and I'd become an SP Media and Communications student this year!

Time flies really. Been dancing a lot, and working almost every day's killing me slowly because I'm getting enough sleep. Yeah, blame the fact I insist on dancing after work.

But if there were a list of what made me happy, it'd look a lot like this:

• Dance
• Friends
• Family
• Chocolates
• Food
• Bubble tea

So dance is definitely something I love too much to not do. Can't imagining not dancing for like months or years.. if that ever happened I'd be dead or something.

I'm still very keen on trying out aggro! Was searching through some of my old posts when I came across the one on Cia's 17th birthday surprise last year..

"I'm contemplating taking up aggro skating for fun, but the price of the skates is one thing, the fact that I should be occupied with nothing but studies (and hip hop, once or twice a week I promised myself) at this point of time."

I've been contemplating taking up aggro since the December from two years back! While I was working at the YOG merch store with the babes Alex and Cel.

Well.. my new (or now I guess he's not new to me anymore la hor) colleague's an aggro-skater! So hm prolly would get some tips from him because it's not like dance where noobs could just go attend a hip hop course to learn the basics of a style and move on from there no??

JAE??

That was the first thing I did when I came back from dance.

Yeah I know that's the 2010 JAE booklet.. but close enough. I didn't get the 2011 JAE booklet.

Gonna submit everything only tomorrow morning over breakfast though.

Damn, I think I'm physically exhausted from working almost the whole week (either 9am-5pm or 11am-7pm shifts).

After lugging along my dance stuff to work for the past 3 or so days I finally put them to use because I finally met the girlies today for a quick sess. Felt like puking after doing a round of 6-step for some reason, but I danced a bit more and the feeling went away.

But when I was walking home from AMK MRT station I was literally trudging along. Terribly exhausted.

Too lazy to shower but of course I must. I'm the type that can't sleep unless I'm clean or something. And I'm currently the total opposite because while practising breakdancing earlier, the construction workers decided to, of all times, take out their brooms to sweep the dust + dirt off the floors and temporary carpeted walkways.

I swear, the cloud of dust that rose up stopped some from dancing. I did too haha.

Met Lazzie and his friend Darren today! He was walking past and said he recognised me from my blue sweatpants even though he was pretty far away hahahaha my signature thing maybe.

Darren's Lazzie's shifu, and Lazzie's my shifu. So Darren's now officially my "shifu x2" LOL self-proclaimed tu di-ness.

But okay at least I got a few pointers from both the Shifu and Shifu x2. T'was a fun day. Can't wait to session with them again cuz I wanna improve on my bboy so bad!

Which reminds me.. I might be going for O School's Bboy 1 course! Honestly I can't like, not-go because I really love bboying now for some reason. I'm gradually becoming more funk style rather than groovish.

Hope this won't make me lose my groove man ;)

Oh! Will be calling (and hopefully, meeting) my uncle's lecturer friend to talk about the course admission to SP.

I honestly can't wait for my Poly life to start. It's been a whole year.. when I saw my results I was so thankful. The hours (almost 8 or so per day, right?) I spent studying at the library and at home everyday paid off and for once people were telling me how PROUD they were of me.. something I've not heard in a while.

I can't believe I'm actually able to highlight the courses I wanna put down among my 12 choices. I honestly can't believe it.. surreal. I was kinda close to tears as I did that cuz for once I have TOO MANY choices to choose from that 12 is more than enough! I only wanna write down 4, but better to be safe than sorry no??

Terribly grateful for my friends and family that've helped me through this period man.. seriously. Without them I prolly wouldn't bother about studying hard. Saw some messages from my relatives to my mom. My grandaunt even said it was good news for the family. So yes, I'm very thankful for this tight family I've got here. Wouldn't want it any other way.

For those who didn't do well for O's (I totally don't mean this in a demoralising way).. I still love/like y'all and who cares about results man that's just a piece of paper. Can't help but think that some others think there's this barrier between us just because they didn't score as 'well' as me??

Like I said, I don't give a damn about how well/badly you do for examinations man cuz seriously man if that mattered so much why am I still your friend?

I'm far from being a snob please. Your personality is all that matters. I love y'all regardless.

On that note, I think I've blogged enough tonight! So see y'all real soon okay? I've gotta go shower and catch myself some Z's.

Nervous

I had the weirdest dream today. Dreamt that I collected my results and scored A1 for English and A2 for EMath. No idea why I never glanced about at the other subjects I took. Was happygurl93 until I woke up and realised I was still hours away from collecting it.

I hope that's not a sign that I'll do bad in my ACTUAL results.

D-day

Can't believe I'll be getting my "O" Level results back tomorrow at 2pm!

Pray hard that I pass EMath. My ticket to Poly!! But seriously, times flies. It feels like I just took my last paper a week ago.

Anyways, photos from today (or in this case, yesterday's) sess. Used the Canon Ixus camera that Dad bought from Perennial hahahaha. Oh the irony. He buys it but I still get to use it! And I got $50 in the process.

Then again he said I have to ask for permission first before using it, because it's HIS camera. Boo.....

Suina brought the extra jelly that she made for her company dinner!

Had a mini-picnic the moment we reached *SCAPE.

And look what my love for dance has done to my arms!!!

I feel like a man now ugh. I think I'm more muscular than the average Singaporean dude???!

If you think it looks big from this photo.. well I think it looks bigger in real life. But I kinda like my right arm now because it's slightly more toned than my left (which is in this photo) so it looks kinda nice.

I know I aim to train until I get the arms of a typical hip hopper but this is ridiculous. I mean have you seen the arms of the female teachers in O School? They're muscular but nice. Time to cut down on the bboying practice during sessions I guess..

SO YES IF YOU WANT TO BE BUFF PLEASE DO BBOY.

Trying to upload a video of Inez dancing to SHINee's "Replay" to Facebook but it's taking forever!

"2 hours, 25 minutes remaining"

Dude, it's been stuck there since an hour ago.

FML

I hate being broke. I hate being asked out. I hate the fact that I always have a tendency to say yes even though I very much wanna say no. I hate going out just cuz people make me feel guilty for not agreeing to go out, I hate having to spend money when I'm out, and I hate having to spend money WHILE AT WORK.

The whole point of working is to earn money right? But my money goes to the airport for my meals ugh.

I hate having to worry about putting aside money to buy my dance shoes/jeans/etc. I hate having to work for dance.

But above all that, I hate having to ask my parents for more money.

So what else to do but to be a good kid and to work for dance? Sometimes I wish my parents would stop seeing me as a spoilt kid. Because I try so hard to just live with it whenever I'm short on cash. I NEVER ask them for extra unless I really need it, but now I HAVE to find out that my dad complains to my colleagues about me taking extra money from him.

Hi, $40 for having basically all three meals outside + buying things I need + transportation fees isn't enough. Especially when I spend about $4 a day travelling from AMK to Changi and back when I work. And I work about 3-4 times a week??

I wish I could be a professional dancer and join competitions to win it and earn money man but truth is I'm not good enough.

I think I'm just tired. Frustrated that things aren't going my way in dance. I hate the fact that I'm trying so hard to get my basics right BUT I CAN'T. I have no power in my moves, I have no hold, no control.

I try so hard at practice to get it right but somehow I can't because I was dumb enough to go self-learn dance using videos without attending classes. I've learnt everything the wrong way and thanks to this thing we call "muscle memory", I'm doing everything wrong because my muscles have gotten used to doing up/down-bounce with my shoulders. Why do I use my shoulders when doing down-bounce?

Why do I stop breathing when trying to co-ordinate everything? Yes I am THAT bad at multitasking to the point that I stop breathing while Inez tells me what I'm doing wrong when I get slightly-more-intensive training from her.

Why am I so weak??

My home away from home; my family away from family.

At times like these I can't help but to think of y'all and hey what do you know I feel so much better. Love y'all so much!

Thanks for being my everything away from everything. If you even get what that means HAHA

"And I'm black y'all!"

An old video but entertaining nonetheless.

I listened to this on repeat today, no joke.

My back's hurting again. Not good. And it has been for the past.. I dunno say about 3-4 days?

Dad keeps blaming it on dance. Not like I'm gonna care, but this problem's costing my mom a lot of kachingggg. Been visiting the Chinese doctor at AMK marketplace more often than usual. During my last visit there the doctor said I had this joint/ligament #11 popping out?? The shit.

Sigh old problem from sailing.

Okay it's currently 6.18am. Gonna go out with cuzzie Mel tomorrow after her school ends so I better sleep now. Gotta think of where to go too - was thinking of Nex but it's all food I heard? And I've been feeling fat and bloated today since I've not really danced this whole week apart from Tuesday so yeah not in the right state to gobble up as much food as I deem fit.

Then Danzation with the girlies after! Ngee Ann Poly's NRA dance production hollerrrrrrrrr

I need new kickz, pronto.

(Those are my Reebok Monopoly Reverse Jam Mids by the way. The Monopoly money series pair that I hardly wear to dance now because I spotted a few scratches.. :( )

Din-dins and supper @ Upp Thomson

I shall tell you me and Kailing's little January 1st story..

I brought my laptop + speakers to yesterday's sess, but my 3-way plug was really loose and no matter which outlet I plugged it into it would sag down. In other words, we had no power. Either we used my laptop, or we use the speakers. We couldn't use both.

Oh I found a photo from Suina's camera showing y'all why my plug couldn't work..

That's me adjusting the plug (Chan's bag is damn bright omgah). See how it's 'sagging' downwards'?

YES THAT'S WHY I COULDN'T USE IT. DAMN.

So Kailing and I went down to Cheers to check if they sold a better plug. Nope.

Went down to Cine cuz she suggested Sol Market might sell electrical appliances. Highly doubted it but we still went to check. Nope.

It was drizzling so we went to Fairprice Finest @ Tripleone (opposite *SCAPE). And common sense would tell you that NTUC sells all sorts of nonsense including electrical plugs right? WRONG. I was telling Kailing while crossing the road, "FML if NTUC doesn't sell it. Seriously, FML a million times." AND THEY DIDN'T.

When we left NTUC, the rain got heavier but it was still alright. The moment we crossed the zebra crossing from Botak Jones IT POURED. I took out my jacket (was still in my uniform from work so I had my jacket on) and used it to shelter both of us. But I still got drenched ugh.

Lucky for me I didn't change into my sweatpants, shirt and dance shoes cuz if I did I wouldn't be dancing when we got back to *SCAPE I'd be airing myself dry.

My poor Converse got soaked. :(

Speaking of which, this pair's terribly worn out. I've had this pair since I was.. primary 5? Can't believe a pair of Converse has lasted me so long. It's been 6years my dear purple pair of Converse!

And to think on Christmas Eve I bumped into a dude who was wearing the exact same pair, except his only had the red shoelaces. I have 2 on mine -- red and white -- because it was given.

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Had dinner + supper with who else but two of my favourite girls earlier on (yes I know I have a lot of favourite girls/bros but I love them all so hi!) Rae and Cel at Upp Thomson.

We were supposed to meet at 8pm. Then Rae said 8.30pm. A while later she texted us saying she was stuck at a dinner so we'll meet at 9. At 9pm she said she was still there so she'll meet us at about 9.30pm.

In the end she met us only at about 10.30pm?? Hahaha.

Had prata at Prata House.

The standard of the food there now isn't as good as compared to when they first opened here about 10years or so back. Cel ordered tehbing but it tasted like CRAP.

I love prata but I've never been a fan of theirs since the beginning. But since Cel and I were both craving for prata..

1 egg + kosong (plain) for me

1 plain paper + cheese prata for her.

The place was crowded as usual.

When Rae came I wanted to order the sotong masala so badly!

Hm when I was a kid I HATED sotong. Whenever I ate horfun or anything with sotong I'd plaster on an absolutely disgusted face and dump all the sotong on my parents' plates.

But I love sotong now!

In the end Rae helped me to order it since I couldn't make up my mind. I mean, 3bucks for a small plate ain't worth it, but I was craving for sotong!! In the end the sotong tasted horrid. You know how sotong's supposed to be bouncy and all that?

Well this sotong was.. mushy. Ew right yes I know.

So in the end we didn't pay for it :) Heehee first time I did something like this. When we went to pay for the bill the uncle asked us what we ate since we had no bill, and we mentioned everything BUT the sotong masala. Whoops :P

Then we went for Rocher tauhuay, Upp Thomson style. Well that's cuz the one at Upp Thomson's a franchise.

Of course you can't compare the original to the Upp Thomson one! The original Rocher tauhuay was reeeeeeeeally good.

Grass jelly drink + cold tauhuay

It's the norm for me to order these two whenever I'm there.

Yum tum tum!

I can't believe I have to work at 6am tomorrow, starting the shift with my dad and Jackson. It's gonna be 2am yet I'm still awake oh damn. 2hrs of sleep here I come.

Okay I think I better go catch some Z's before I die at work tomorrow or something. I highly doubt I can survive on the 2hrs of sleep tomorrow cuz I'm heading to Rae's place after work to slack/exercise before heading to *SCAPE for a funk session with our 'shifu' Malcolm!

So yes before I die of exhaustion tomorrow at sess -- which I can't afford to -- see y'all!

Sleeeep

Camwhoring shots -- the result of bringing lappy to sess yesterday.

My poor aching shoulders had to carry my heavy Adidas bag to work. Inside was a laptop, a pair of speakers, waterbottle, sweatpants, dance shirt.... crazy. Mom said I looked like I was going on a camping trip hahaha!

On the way home after sess I couldn't close my bag and the girlies were like, "Gwen you damn poor thing WHY YOUR EVERYTHING CANNOT CLOSE HAHAHAHA! Wallet cannot close, bag cannot close, shoebag so hard to close wuahahahahhahahaa!"

Oh, I've learnt how to do a shoulder freeze! YAY ME HEEHEE. Hoi don't make fun of me, I've been wanting to do another freeze other than baby freeze okay.

Even then I realise I've been taught to do baby freeze on the wrong side. I've been doing it on my left side for years when I'm supposed to be doing it on my right, since I'm right-handed. Damn. Thanks a lot Lazarus for being so patient with your new 'student'! Hahaha. I'm now trying to get the hang of doing a 6-step then switching it to a baby freeze. He said I would be able to correct my baby freeze easier that way but doing that transition's hard :(

Need. More. Wrist. Strength!!

Slowly but surely. Yep. Slowly but surely I'm working my way up to a flare.

OH some Supras and Nikes recently caught my eye!

Hello, the Nikes were RED. I loveeee! Just that my next paycheck would prolly only be enough to cover my dance jeans.. can't even get those shoetures. So I guess my dance jeans and everything else would have to wait till my next paycheck.

Woke up today at about 2.45pm hahaha shiok maxxxx.

For once I don't have to set my alarm early for something like work or for dance sess.. or even for going out. Okay fine our sessions are hardly early in the afternoon, mostly late but you get what I mean.

I WANT SHOETURES. Mike Song thank you very much for making me green with envy. You have da skillz and you have da shoeturez.

I need to improve on my hold, control and strength. AND UP-BOUNCE YES MY UPBEAT'S SO WEAK. Cannot be lazy when it comes to fundamentals in dance.

My hair does not look red AT ALL.

Oh well but the lady said after a few washes so....... pray hard.

2011

Happy New Year guys! And yes, that's my messy room in the photo!

I honestly can't believe it's 2011 already. 2010 flew by in the blink of an eye, or at least most of it did.

On a random side note, happy birthday to my beloved baby (well not so baby anymore, aren't they?) cousins Jiaxuan and Jiaying! You two are so big now. Feels just like yesterday when you two were small and carry-able.

2010 in a nutshell..

1. I found out I failed "O" Levels
   
   
2. Became less naive in the process. Also found out that my friends and family were there to support me no matter what. I thank God for them.
   
   
3. Decided to go back to hip hop and this time, at O School. Best decision I've ever made because dance is now such a big part of my life. Will never regret taking HH1-HH3.
   
   
4. Met the best crew members ever! I've had a few bumps here and there dance-wise before I met Perennial. So when I met them I expected them to just pack up and go but thank God they didn't. Love y'all so much, thanks for everything awesome that has happened thus far.
   
   
5. Had to learn to live without a maid. I'm not someone who is completely reliant on a maid, but when Aunty Tun left I felt really odd because I woke up to being all alone in an empty home and not having anyone to talk to. She was like the one person I would come home to really talk to and cliche as it sounds, she was like an older sister to me. It really took me some time to get used to her leaving but I eventually got the hang of it.
   
   
6. Realised who the best friends I'll ever know in life were. Thanks for being there by my side, you guys! You know who y'all are, AGEK, BFFs, Elie + Swee, dancers all included hahaha now ain't that super obvious. ;)
   
   
7. Went for my first hip hop competition and had a blast at it! I never understood how people in the dance community all knew each other. teenSupreme made me realise how and why. Made so many new dance friends at this competition! Defo hope to see them around soon. :)
   
   
8. Completed "O" Levels for the 2nd time
   
   
9. Had one of the best Christmases ever with Perennial at Inez's house.

My pre-New Year celebration was pretty boring, but I got to meet up with Elie and Ah Swee for sushi!!

We expected it to be crowded so we arranged to meet really early. Particularly also because Mom was bringing me to do my hair so I had to leave at around 2.30pm. It felt soooo good to meet them again, really.

After doing my hair, Mom and I went to NTUC to shop for groceries. For some reason, I feel that Mommy and I got closer this year and I'm terribly thankful for that. She's like the best friend that I often get annoyed at haha!

Got home and cooked a New Year's meal with the family!

And oh, my old (okay I know, 3 weeks isn't old) hair with blonde highlights is now gone!

I redyed my hair today, got a treatment done and all the dead ends snipped off. My hair looks so much healthier and thank God for that or my mom would've wasted another $110.

Then again it IS much shorter so I'm not used to it, especially my fringe. But well as I've heard from Inez, Kailing, Jolyn, "Aiyah nevermind, hair will grow back!"

Doubt you can see it, but it's actually red. I didn't get rid of my highlights, so the lady said after a few washes the red would be more obvious and my blonde highlights would become red highlights.

Oh well, time to send out my New Year text messages!