Feeling Dope

Okay no I'm just kidding about the title. But yeah I'm feeling pretty good with my new cap! It's New Era but fake New Era, sadly. Then again, who wants to get an authentic New Era cap all stinky and dirty cuz you wear it to dance too often? Not me fo sure.

Still saving to get an authentic one though, which would be awesome cuz I've been wanting one since forever!

My life of late has been revolving around dance, and I'm not exactly sure if that's a good thing or not. Being someone who hasn't been able to sort out her priorities since young... I'd guess that it's definitely not a good thing. I'm starting to feel so much for dance that studying has become my second priority. What with all the competitions I'm taking part in coming up, training and sessions have doubled. And this is just for the two competitions I'm in.. can you imagine my life during Waves training? Or if I'm currently in a relationship. I have no idea how I would be able to handle all that.

I need to start finding a balance between schoolwork and dance.

It sucks because I know I have to snap out of this, yet I don't really want to. Sometimes I wonder why I never went on ahead to pursue dance, even if it wasn't hip hop. Then again, it seems that some seniors know how I feel so yeah, if they were able to pull through this, I don't see why I myself can't.

And oh, something Muto found out today that made me really weirded out: I'm older than majority of the '93 seniors in SDZ. Hahaha prolly the 3rd oldest or the 4th. It's only weird because I respect these people as my seniors and to find out that I'm actually older than them in terms of birthdate.. IT'S JUST FUNNY HAHAH.

3 Things..

..that I say WAY too often:

1. "True that."
2. "That is true." (with this weird higher tone when saying 'is')
3. "I'm not even kidding!"

Was discussing the topic of words that we use very often with Becca and Min when we had our break during ICP tutorial today.

Gone were the days where DMC/FT/1A/01 would come to class all fresh-faced and bubbly. We're all pretty dead in class now and it's only Tuesday. Our projects are draining us of our energy really. What with our deadlines for CA2 projects for DB, ICP and POM all coming up...

Can't wait for this to be over so that I can stop reporting to school all tired, groggy and cranky.

Last day of SDZ Camp and Whatnots

I realised that I've yet to upload the photos of the last day of SDZ Camp 2011 which was at Sentosa. Really should've brought my DSLR for the other days of camp too. Regret not doing that.

We were there to play mass games and to just enjoy each other's company. The chillax time we had on Vivo's rooftop during dinner (we all 'tabaoed' food up to eat since there were over 15 of us eating dinner together) was pretty awesome too.. the mini-krump session by Carel and the different genres doing their own thing.. heh dance in general is awesome.

Kiatseng was desperately trying to avoid the camera..

..and he obviously failed. ;)

With our GL Belicia from modern ;)

TRUTH OR DARE TIME!

We played Truth or Dare but we made everyone in Gutsy choose 'dare' instead of truth cuz it was more fun like that.

Thank goodness when it came to me my dare was just to go up to this guy GL (it was Mingyi I think?) and ask for a hug, and he gave me one which was pretty sweet! SDZ people are so 'on' I swear. Poyang had the worst dare -- "Go up to Inez and kiss her on the cheek!!"

Going up to Dorothy and asking her, "Honey if you love me will you give me a smile?"

POYANG'S KISS HAHA

This was taken immediately after he kissed her. Nez's face turned a bright red after and the only thing she was saying was:

"WHAT THE HELL WHAT THE HELL WHAT THE HELL!?!??!?!????"

Shihui was supposed to jump in the middle of the other group (since they were playing some game of their own) and do this dance.

The funny thing was they all just looked up at her for a second and continued with their game. Hahaha poor girl!

Belicia's dare was to go up to Sam, take his hat off his head and wear it.

SWAG

Ken's dare:

"Go up to Wilson and touch his face seductively using both your hands!!!!!"

Gutsy! Minus Harry and Alicia.

A "WAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZUP!!!?!?!?" photo while waiting for the monorail to Sentosa

Gutsy + Planet Boogie

(Oh I realised that Gutsy won 2nd for overall and Boogie won 1st. So this was like a 1st and 2nd placing photograph taken even before we got the results.. I guess.)

Chillaxing and practicing front + back flips and handstands on the beach.

See, dancers make the most out of everything. Go to Sentosa also must take the chance to practice bboy since it's better to practice those stuff there cuz of the soft(er) sand.

Okay bottom few photos taken by everyone but me haha!

Choonlong, Fiq and is that Zhenwei?????

I can't tell cuz he's a bit blur but yes that should be Zhenwei.

Back to the photos taken by me haha!

(I think Ben was trying to get everyone's attention cuz we were deciding on a dinner plan but he looked like he was doing the starting of the GP's item haha!)

WE TOOK UP ONE WHOLE CABIN YO.

It was as if we booked it hahah because when we boarded from Harbourfront MRT station it was completely empty and no one else boarded it so we just made ourselves at home.

The power of SDZ ;)

I really miss camp now! Really thankful for this experience though; it brought us all so much closer. I'm talking to the hip hop juniors that I see so often at training but wouldn't talk to just cuz we're all not that close.

And thanks to camp, the juniors from the 3 genres in SDZ -- modern, hip hop and bboy -- are close too! Before that we never saw the year 1 bboys nor did we see the year 1 moderners except those who were cross-genre (meaning they are in both bboy and hip hop/modern and hip hop). The seniors are closer to the juniors too I guess? So yeah all in all it was a pretty awesome camp.

Can't wait to be a GL next year when I have juniors! The year 1s were talking about it and we got all excited and giggly.

p.s. We've been Skyping almost every day since camp, I'm not even kidding.

Back to School

Can't believe my holidays are already over and that school starts in like, 7hrs for me?

It's weird though. I thought I spent my holidays pretty wisely in terms of doing what I wanted to and what I needed to (okay not really since I've yet to study), but yet here I am thinking otherwise. 3 weeks was definitely not enough.

Then again, I thought the holidays were.. kind of a turning point for me. I've found myself, found my love for dance yet again, and found some friends I think are worth keeping.

It's no longer about holding back, but rather, doing what I've been wanting to do. Not just for dance, but for life in general. I've come to realise that if I hold back, I wouldn't become the person I want to eventually be in future, and holding back is exactly what I've been doing so far since the start of school.

On the other hand, this 3-week holiday made me lose some. I lost my faith (not only in people but myself), lost some contacts..

..lost some things I thought were worth keeping by my side.

Well I wouldn't say that I would never be able to find it again. But it will be hard, considering the change I've been through. Imagine something so stable, something you thought you could fall back on, suddenly shattered.

Your safety net, everything... gone.

But such is life, innit?

Chan's 18th

Celebrated Channie's birthday on the 10th!

T'was a pretty awesome day. Glad she enjoyed it. First time I decorated a cake from The Icing Room! Weird thing is, the cake was kinda frozen hahaha. We had such a hard time cutting it. Had dinner at Sakae Sushi (salmon spammmm yum tum tum!) and then went drinking @ TGIFridays.

Well okay, now that I'm done posting up the photos I think I should go sleep now or something. Working tomorrow then I'm either going to support the SDZ seniors at NTU Funk Jam or I'm gonna be out with Cel and Rae.

Rae's having a stall at the *SCAPE flea tomorrow!

Oh okay anyone wants to session next Wednesday at *SCAPE? Geisel and I will be there fo sure ;)

Stoked to watch the seniors do their thing at the NTU Funk Jam tomorrow (if I can go down)!!

I have the urge to go drinking though. Even though one drink has like.. tons of calories. I need to get high, so much on my mind recently.