American Boy

I'm terribly confused.

I sound selfish.

I've got my criteria up too high.

They always say you shouldn't aim too high or you'll never find it.

So should I or should I not?

That is the question.

Snippets

Photos from Alex's surprise birthday celebration at MOS and pool + KBox with the guys on Monday. I love hanging out with these people. Ker, Lex, Darry and Frederick, I'm sorry you guys had to see my parents at their worst! Thanks for making the past two weeks fun. Love you all!

10 Random Habits and Facts

I've been wanting to do a post on Random Habits/Facts and My Ideal Future Boyfriend/Husband for the longest time ever, was just too lazy to do so.

Lets start with the Random Habits/Facts:

1. I can only drift off to sleep when the lights are on.
   
   
2. If the lights in my room are off, there must be at least a lamp in the living room on to let me know I'm 'safe', or I'll not be able to sleep.
   
   
3. My stuffed toys are named Doggone, Hippo, Winnie, Teddy and Tigger. No prizes for guessing what Hippo, Winnie, Teddy and Tigger are.
   
   
4. I have a tendency to start my text messages and MSN conversations with the word "haha". Go check your Inbox on your cell!
   
   
5. On my cupboards are posters of Cardcaptor Sakura (from my cousin. I LOVED CCS), Shaman King (anime) and Lyserg + X-Laws, also part of the Shaman King anime.
   
   
6. I never leave the house without these things: Cell, wallet, iPod and hair-tie. Now I'm starting to include house keys..
   
   
7. Almost all the songs on my iPod/iTunes have Album Artwork. If the song doesn't have album artwork, it tells you that I seldom listen to that song.
   
   
8. I'm very particular about having my iTunes Library in perfect order. I can spend hours on Wikipedia and Google just to edit the album names and artwork for my songs.
   
   
9. Its weird, but if I'm alone, I wouldn't walk on the same pathway as another stranger (if the stranger is coming from the opposite direction that I'm going in). I'll u-turn and take a longer route if I have to, just so that I can avoid using that pathway with that stranger.
   
   
10. One weakness I had as a kid: Not being able to stand it when my computer chair wasn't aligned with the keyboard's drawer. It was like some OCD and I would jump out of my chair to align it again if it wasn't aligned.
    

Okay, for now I guess 10 random habits and facts would be enough for one post. Might continue some other time with another theme! Will be more specific. Its fun realising certain things about myself.

2010 O Levels

I just successfully registered myself for the 2010 O Level Examinations.

This may sound stupid, but it was horrifying just scrolling through the different papers and the timetable and when my eyes focused on the words "Mathematics", my hands turned cold for a brief moment.

I pray hard that this year, now that I've experienced the bitter and horrific feeling (in Bold for that extra dramatic feel) of failing, I know what my focus is and what my future would be.

Repeatedly telling myself I WILL MAKE IT TO NP'S MASS COMM THIS YEAR! in my head won't work. I have to prove to myself that I can actually do this through sheer hard work and determination. Being rejected so many times made me feel bitter but the friends and family that stood by me via concerned phone calls, text messages and encouraging words of advice are part of the people I want to do well for. Thank you guys for all the care and concerned, I feel terribly loved!

And oh, I'm taking on more than the initial 3 subjects (Emath, English and Literature) that I planned to retake.

I would be retaking Emath, English, Literature, Combined Humanities and Geography. It'll be exactly like Sec4, minus the horrors of Combined Science. Why I say exactly like Sec4 is because I came from a triple humanities class, and I'll be retaking all 3 of my humanities again. Sigh, the nightmares of scribbling 'till my arm breaks off.. Oh the joy.

I can picture everything falling into place; I just need my studies to back up this little dream of mine and I'll be set on my way.


Wish me luck!

Imma Be

Happy 17th birthday Cia!

And to another babe I'm thankful you took the mini-talk in such a good way.

Sigh my cell's been quiet. Its gonna be weird to say this especially since I'm not one to be bothered with my social life-via-text-messaging but it felt empty today.

I'm contemplating taking up aggro skating for fun, but the price of the skates is one thing, the fact that I should be occupied with nothing but studies (and hip hop, once or twice a week I promised myself) at this point of time.

So.. What Happened?

Past few days have been awesome. Spent it with good company, doing awesome things I've never done before.

Yesterday I went out with Alex, Gabriel, Darrell and Ianlex. It was awesome (yes it seems to be the only word I can use at this point of time). It was awfully awkward at first, especially while the guys played pool and ate supper, I could only stick with Alex.

Cabbed down to Cineleisure after that for KBox. I only started warming up to them after Alex and I accompanied Ianlex down cuz he had to go home. Alex and I were buying alcohol but because we thought we didn't look the age, we decided not to try because it would've obviously proven to be futile.

Ian said before walking off, "I'll ask a taxi driver uncle to come help us buy la."

I thought he was joking and that that was his mean way of saying goodbye as he headed for a cab. Alex and I stared on, only to realise he was trying to pull a cab driver out of the cab, literally!!


Singing 'till about 4.30am in the morning, we all got bored.

Decided to walk around until the first train started. This meant 2 hours of walking. Starting from Cineleisure, we walked to Fort Canning and ended up at Dhoby Ghaut. Everywhere we walked past was deserted and quiet. Imagine the whole of 313 Somerset to yourself..

(Okay fine the security guard was staring at us so we decided not to roam around)


Tired.. sweaty... we sat down in the middle of Dhoby Ghaut MRT Station. Caught the first train, slept on it. Though I doubt Gabriel did because when Alex poked me awake (I roughly remember her trying to wake me up 4 times. I kept going back to sleep, ignoring her), I noticed that his big eyes were still wide open, he didn't look tired at all.

Oh, I MET VIRGINIA AND NICHOLAS AT THE BUS TERMINAL! *hugs*

Camped and slept at McDonald's till 8.45am. Darrell wanted to wait for Virtualand's LAN and Goodspeed to open because we all wanted to play L4D2 without traveling down to Thomson to play at Downtime.

That resulted in walking around NTUC because Darrell was dead tired and having breakfast at Subway. No L4D2, we all died before that could happen.

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Met Alex and Gabriel after that for pool again at night. This time they made me try playing and though it was fun, it was mad embarassing. Lex and Gabriel had a lot to laugh about cuz I wasn't exactly.. a natural born player.

We ended up having a mini HTHT 'till almost 12am! How cool is that?

HTHT

Went to play beach volleyball with Alex, Kerrie, Aaron, Darren and Deyuan at Sentosa yesterday.

To me the beach volley was only alright. The awesomest part of the day was the HTHT (Heart-To-Heart-Talk) with Alex, Aaron, Darren and Deyuan on Vivo City's rooftop area after dinner! Alex suggested lying down and we all lay side-by-side, looking up at the stars and putting our feets in the water as we talked.

It was insightful yet funny. Insightful when Darren gives deep, matured answers to some thoughts we had and funny when Aaron would squat infront of him, look him in the face and say, "I. Disagree!", cutting Darren short of his.. 'deep moment'. I really appreciate true friends like them and somehow, I know we'll be friends for a long time because they are genuine people. I like people who are genuine, as opposed to people who are just.. come and go?

Alex and I concluded that girls are horrible people. We are backstabbers and total hypocrites. "Well, with the exception of one girl-friend." I told her.

"Who's that?"

"Celine! Haha. She never has any problems with anyone and is really THAT nice. So nice that no one actually finds any faults with her too. That's why I love her."

The day I saw on FB that she was considering doing foundation studies overseas, I cried. I didn't want her to go :( Thank goodness its only just a consideration. I have faith in you girl! Don't give up, its gonna be one more year and you'll be free!

Okay sorry about digressing.

Anyway, so yeah. The HTHT was really nice. We really asked them questions we never asked any guy before (like what they liked about girls, and if they could tell if girls were trying to flirt with them. To which they answered, "OF COURSE!! Its DAMN obvious when girls try to flirt." Tsk, girls, if you think guys didn't feel it, THINK AGAIN) and like what Alex said on her blog, we got to know what dudes think much better, and also things we.... um.. wouldn't wanna know about dudes.

With the things that have been happening around me and Alex, it was nice getting some guys opinions. :)

From having our backs on the ground, facing the sky, feets in the water, we moved on to having our feets still in the water while leaning over the barrier of the rooftop pond-thingy while chatting. That felt good too. At first it was Alex and I who did that as the dudes sat there talking. Suddenly they came over and Aaron was like, "You didn't think you could run away from us, DID YOU?"

We talked 'till pretty late in the night, around 11.30pm. Darren went to catch the last train while the rest of us cabbed home, continuing the whole 'BFF *heartz*' thing on the cab.

Deyuan received a call that made him go "What. The. F***?????!" at least 5-7 times and he later revealed that Darren missed his train when he was at Outram. (He had to change trains)

Aaron persuaded him to take a taxi home instead of walking home from Outram ("I'LL PAY FOR YOUR CAB FARE LA. MONEY NO MATTER!! JUST. TAKE. A TAXI. HOME!") and a long while later Darren called back. Guess what?

He took a cab to the MRT station after Outram, and caught the train he missed.

"NANI?!?!!" (That's Japanese, btw)

Haji, again

How much is that kitty by the window? ("Meow! Meow!")
The one with the.. um, really long taaaaail~

There were 3 cats in this shop and they reminded me a lot of Lingling, my aunt's cats.

I didn't dare enter the shop because at least one of the three would've seated its butt down right infront of the door like in the photos and I was too scared to open it cuz it looked like it's paws could get hit by the door or something.

Outside Soon Lee..

I really look tired.

Sigh look at my tired eyes!

DO YOU FEEL YOURSELF SALIVATING YET??!

Awesome, awesome banana crumble (yes, it literally crumbled as we savoured or should I say devoured it) paired with Strawberry Shortcake ice-cream. Made such a huge mess with the crumbs on the table!

Heehee messy hair.

My (not so awesome) Aglio Olio with mushroom and bacon spaghetti!

It was good but me and spicy food don't go well together, that's why the "(not so awesome)".

We were all doing stupid krumping moves to the songs played in the restaurant when I snapped this shot of her. I thought it was pretty cute! That's what candid photos are all about.

That was our trip to Haji Lane. It was rather boring cuz many shops closed down/under renovation and the shops we went to were not the ones I saw when I was there with Zahra jiejie or AGEK.

I regret not buying the film camera I was debating almost 20mins about to myself! Terrible, terrible, terrible.

I need to get started on my Emath now!

Motivation being Ngee Ann Poly's FMS. MASS COMM., HERE I COME (next year)!