Flower for you, m'dear?

I've never felt this.. this lost before.

I guess I need time to figure out how I really feel about certain things, people and issues. I need to figure out what I want because I can't let this affect me emotionally anymore. I need to stop brooding on this, really.

School, on the other hand, has been pleasant and I just found out yesterday that my video production module CA3's to do a short film, which makes me even happier. A dream come true?

In the meantime

Here's something to entertain you while I think of what to put in this ever-dying space.....

(Proceed with caution; this jingle has an addictive part to it)

Storyboarding

My workspace's currently a huge mess.

Stayed up till about 7am to draw more of my storyboard, and I still am working on it now.

Pretty proud of my side view sketch of the girl and the video camera. Well of course I had to Google for images as reference cuz dude I can't draw for nuts, I HAVE to use something as reference before I sketch.

Was already terribly shagged from training in the afternoon and attending SYDC's (Soka Youth Dance Crew) ONE Production - which I will blog about soon - in the night, to running for the last bus to Yishun, to running for the last train to AMK.

Life is peachy.

On a random side note, goodbye to my awful blonde streaks!

'til tonight..

Awfully chocolate is Awful

..just kidding!

This is the best cake I've ever had I swear. Mainly cuz it's chocolate. What's better than chocolate, seriously?? Mom bought another one just cuz I whined that my younger brother finished like 3/4 of the free one Elie gave me.

It's under Shermin's command that I deleted the line "It's no wonder I'm so fat" and am currently replacing it with "It's no wonder I'm so cute"..

It's no wonder I'm so cute.

Be a-tweakin'

Tweaking my blog around a lil'.

What do y'all think of the new banner and all? Still in progress of editing some things. Was thinking the banner was a tad bit odd. Oh now that I've mentioned odd, the link colour still looks odd in my opinion. Sigh I shall always remain The Perfectionist.

In the meantime, here's a video for you to enjoy.

This has to be my absolute favourite choreography right now, and it's by Apes! (April Rodriguez of Essence Ladies - which was founded??? by my inspiration Gigi Torres)

Watch in HD and get blown away by all the dancers from Japan and Poland!

Take note of Akane Miyoshi, the first girl on the left from the first half of the video. SHE'S A BEAST I TELL YOU, A BEAST!

Okay gotta go clean up mah crib right now cuz the ABCDEFG gang's coming over at 2! Can't wait. I hate not seeing them for like a day or two cuz we see each other EVERY SINGLE DAY regardless of whether there's training or not, and we're all so used to it so a day or two gone without seeing each other.. man it kills and makes me miss them so so so much.

Today's gonna be a mugging day which I doubt will be productive cuz with Bazinga, Jevin and Azrul around it's always full of nonsense. But hey who knows?

Can't tell y'all how thankful I am for the fact that they're in my life. The things and shit dancers go through together as, well, dancers.. there's this bond that others won't really get?

100% vetting for Waves 16 in 12 days! 12 frickin' days!!! Massive. Kinda excited but I have this feeling tears will be a-flowin'. Go #teamZulUnk and laoma's item (the items I'm in)! I know we'll do well. And to all the other items too, let's do this!

Well I'm definitely not forgetting all my BFFs and gals from primary-secondary school, duh. I owe them so much and without them my life would definitely be different. Heck, I would've grown up differently. The people in my life are all so real and so, so grounded.

Thankful for all the friends and family members in my life right now <3

School

School has been pretty mundane.

It's probably because I'm really exhausted from dancing almost everyday (let's not forget I've been going for my Poly 50 training last week - reppin' CASS Club yo!), but I seem to dread school more and more.

Doesn't help that our Video Production module takes up the most credit this sem, what with us having 2 4-hour tutorials per week, which just tells us how important this module is. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE video production and all that and am considering venturing into this in future but our CA1 for this module is just killing me and I feel very lost.

Also, there's been a bit of drama around me recently so........ it kinda drains energy out of me I guess?

Thankful for mah gurls and ABCDEFG dancers ;)

Shall return to doing my VPDP CA1!

#killmenow

Hope y'all are having a splendid week! Happy holidays, especially to my dear muslim friends and relatives! (If y'all are wondering, I have muslim relatives but I'm NOT Malay)

And oh, happy belated birthday to my dearest Nadya jiejie who's currently in Australia (and has been for such a long period of time). Really miss her so. She's the one older cousin I really look up to. Hope I'll have time to visit her at Aust soon!

End of the Road

Hi guys! I'm making an effort to update this space <:

So here I am at 1:48AM, wet towel around my neck, waiting for my hair to dry so that I can catch some of them Zzz's before class at 8.20am tomorrow morning.

School's been a chore. A VERY BIG chore. I can probably put the blame on the fact that the modules we're taking this semester are rather.. dry. OR I could put the blame on the fact I'm taking economics.. every econs lecture leaves me sitting there, clueless.

If it weren't for my dance life in SDZ I'd prolly be skipping classes a lot more.

Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm a delinquent, I'm just - very - worn out. Running on 4-6 hours of sleep a day is not exactly acceptable especially since what I'm doing is pushing my body to the limit every single day, what with school from morning to afternoon and dance from late afternoon to night, and the cycle repeats.

I feel like I'll collapse every time I close my eyes.

*crosses fingers and prays that the SDZ clubhouse is open tomorrow during her 2-hour break so that she can go there to get some sleep*

Let's not forget how the weather is nowadays.

The sky's always.......

..meh.

(Took these shots on Becca's birthday)

Apart from the lack of sleep/rest, the weather's definitely one of the main culprits as to why I'm feeling very horrible most of the time. My face looks horrible and everytime I see my dearest bro Cong he'll tell me, "Your face very shag sia today."

Life in SP isn't bad, it's just me.

AND I signed up to be a video editor and graphics designer for SPACE today, although I really wanted to be their radio deejay it would prolly take up more time and hi guys I'm not exactly the most-free person on Earth??

Alright I think I'll go to bed with wet hair again. I can't take how exhausted I am, and let's not forget the runners representing CASS Club for this year's Poly 50 are gonna try the full 50 rounds in school tomorrow during training, and Poly 50 training's from 5-8pm, ending just before #teamZulUnk's Waves training at 8-10pm tomorrow...

..Good luck to me.

p.s. I have no idea how I'm supposed to feel anymore. Enough is enough, Gwen.

Birthdays

Celebrated Becca's birthday last week!

Shermin and I had to rush to get her a cake, initially wanted to get one from Polar but since our Gen Ed classroom was all the way at T8 and we just came from CASS block (in Singapore Poly our Polar Cafe is all the way at Hilltop Haven a.k.a. up the hill @ CASS) we were too lazy and tired to get our asses up there.. Sorry Becca!

Minz getting da cake ready

Then we forgot the most important thing when it comes to birthday cakes..

THE LIGHTER.

"Let's wait for someone with the smoker face to walk past! Then we ask okay?"

Poor Min and I were sitting outside FC5 waiting......

Waiting............

And waiting......................

So many guys with the typical smoker face walked past us but we didn't dare ask them. Boo.......

:(

Thank God my dear bro Ben Bazinga was upstairs at the SDZ clubhouse, called him and asked him to come down and help us light the cake.

#shamelessShermin

Birthday girl <3 p="">

With some of DMC01 <3 p="">

Hahaha Syark looks so pissed.

Or something.

Best thing evarrrr in FC3 (that we packed back to FC5 to eat due to the air-con): BAN MIAN. Yumzzzz

Celebrated Jacob's (Jacobeeeeee) birthday on the same day!

Started out super awkward cuz when we came out from our 'hiding spot' at the back of MPH, the boys came out singing happy birthday in a.. very non-comprehensible way. No one actually understood what they were saying cuz all they were like:

"BLAHBLSHIHBLAHBODJFBLAHBIRTHDAYYYY-"

And then everyone in MPH -- tired, worn out, shagged from training -- gave us this ._____. face until the boys started singing happy birthday properly.

We all laughed hard when we saw this photo!

Weird lighting + epic face + (possibly) lethargic face = Lao tikopeh photo

First ABCDEFG IDK WHAT TO NAME THIS GROUP/STOP CHANGING THE GRP NAME photo!

Love them all to bits. My poly and dance life would be so much more mundane without them. Really thankful that I have them in my life.

#epicAzrulface

#epicJacobface

And that was my October 24th (well duh apart from that I had to attend classes and dance training too).

Okay I don't know what else to type cuz #shamelessShermin's trolling on my screen right now and I'm having IPRA (Introduction to Public Relations and Advertising) class right now and it's pretty interesting so buaibuaixx.