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Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Wednesday, November 14, 2012

The Diary of an Insomniac


G'evening folks.

It's currently 4:25am and I'm finding it extremely hard to fall asleep even though I've successfully managed to switch my body clock back to the point where I'd start getting sleepy by 11pm.

I guess it's also because my right eye hurts quite bad now.

Not a 10/10 kind of pain, more like the pain that annoys you and I'm tearing nonstop because of the pain in my eye. It's as if something's pressing down on it and I can't afford to miss a whole day tomorrow really (but at this rate I see myself missing the only morning class we have) because 

1) my group has CA consultation at 12:30pm
2) Poly 50 and I'm running for CASS Club

I'm feeling really insecure about my weight.

I've gotten comments saying I look like I've lost weight? Which might be true because I am eating clean now and I train whenever I feel up to it.

Of course I still indulge and the past two weeks have been cheat weeks. Totally binged throughout and gave in to my cravings!

Oh wait, did you hear that? Yeah, that's my effort going down the damned drain.

Gwen, it's time to be more disciplined!

Body's not on my side now. Its repeatedly screaming "REST! REST! I NEED REST!"

Sorry body, I would love to treat you to some TLC because it's after Waves.. but right now I have so much to catch up on and I can't afford to rest even though I would love to.

Time to try getting some shut eye before TA consultation later on.


Laters, baby.

xx

Monday, November 12, 2012

Waves 17

...... is over. 
A huge thank you to my friends and family that came down to watch the production - I hope it wasn't a letdown!

Out of the two Waves I've been a part of, this was definitely the most trying and tiring. Well I guess I can't say for sure because I've only been a part of two Waves production and not more? But I can dare say I'll never struggle this hard again for other events I'll be a part of.

Broke down so many times, lost myself in the process.

I fought an internal war with myself. All everyone saw were smiles and joy slapped over my face but I died inside with each and every practice, every rehearsal. I isolated myself, made myself more lonely, becoming this person I am totally the opposite of. I was depressed everyday, and nothing I did could make me feel better about myself or my situation.

I hated myself for being this weak.

But I'm thankful I have good friends that brought me back - or rather, slapped me back (not literally) - to reality.

Just in time, too. I worked my ass off for the shirt and the booklet, even though I'd say 90% of the work was all Geisel. She stayed strong when her pub partner crumbled, so thank you. No one else but her saw the struggle I went through but she stuck by me through it all.

A huge thank you to my fellow main comm members, whom I can never thank enough for being such an awesome committee.

I am thankful to be in this batch, this committee.



x

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

Anything could happen, anything could happen..



Ellie Goulding LIVE in Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!

The day I've been waiting for is finally here - ELLIE GOULDING IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!

3 years.. and my wish is finally coming true. So excited! Can't wait seriously. I honestly feel like I'm about to cry as I type this and I can imagine myself doing the same when I actually get to see her LIVE in person.

I wouldn't even mind paying extra to see her backstage or something if they have VIP passes and all.

Help I think I'm gonna faint from excitement hahaha oh my.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Little Mix



Currently in love with this song!

Gonna become a Mixer, slowly but surely. Which is weird, because I haven't fangirl-ed over any group for quite a while (back then I went gaga over the likes of 2PM and SHINee so.......)

I know I'm a little slow (oh dear I actually subconciously typed "I know I'm a little mix" at first) but I think this song's really good. Picked me up at the right moment and it was on replay for about 4 hours straight while I did my work until I went out of the house, and I never got bored of it.

So yay to me because I have a horrible day ahead of me tomorrow. Meh.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Sunday, October 21, 2012

So..

So, my Media Psychology lecturer decided to show my blog (only because I volunteered my blog's URL) to the class and my stupid face with my finger gun showed up on the screen.

For that period of time he had my blog shown on the board through the projector, scrolling up and down the length of my blog, my head could only be kept down because I was too embarrassed. Meh.

So hi to my classmates who never knew I had a blog then but know now!


What I've been up to for the first week of school:


1) Sleeping in class when I sit right infront of the screen (can you see the black reflective surface to the left of my MacBook? That's the screen) during mass lectures.


2) Was greeted by this during our first mass lecture on Monday.

Thank you to the people at CASS Club for this lovely welcome back pack (hey that's a tongue twister right derrrr)!

I've got three packs for myself heheh but of course I didn't consume all the lollipops.


3) Finally decided to give in to my must-save-money-and-calories ways for once, and tried something new at Starbucks with Shiying and Razis after getting materials for our costumes.

Ever since I started drinking Starbucks I only drank Dark Mocha with low fat milk. Green tea latte is now on my to-order list :)


And yesterday..


Went over to Ben's place with Sheri, Johnny, Azrul and Jevin to play with Ben's PS3 and Wii. Apparently the guys relived the kid in them as they played with Ben's nephew's toys such as this one called Dragon Snooker? (Photo above)

Is there a cartoon on that or something?


Oh btw check out his cute baby rabbits:






Sheri and I - the only girls present - decided to stay in the kitchen to cook for the guys while they enjoyed themselves. Ben was the only other person who helped cook quite a bit.

I guess with that we can go overseas as a group because we wouldn't have to worry about whether any one of us could cook! We present to you our awesome dinner.....


... of scrambled eggs, fried eggs with onion, pan-fried hotdogs and hash browns, mashed potatoes with butter, salt and pepper, and steamed pre-made yam rice which was really yummy.

No veggies because Ben hates vegetables though I really wanted to cook the carrots and tomatoes I saw in the fridge :(


Aaaand this was today's lunch of roti prata (from NTUC - about 202 calories, pan-fried with no oil/butter) with lettuce and hotdog in the middle.

Alvin called it an Indian burrito.

Anyway, dad made it for me earlier this afternoon and slobbered it with mayonnaise. I didn't notice at first and asked if he did add mayo in it and he replied with "A bit only!"

Knowing him and how "healthy" he is, I decided to check the inside and realised he covered the whole thing with mayo! That really upset me because my mom would never put mayo (if she did it would really be a bit) in food that she prepares for me.

I really miss her, she's been in Hong Kong for the past 5 days or so and she'll be back this coming Tuesday! Can't wait to see her.

Till next time!

Saturday, October 06, 2012

Woes

Sometimes I don't know whether my hair is actually growing out or not and I'm like:


Okay really unglam shot of me from my Mac at like 5 in the morning but I don't really care because all I'm thinking about is my hair and why it doesn't seem to be growing out.

(In my hair's defense it's actually below my shoulders when it's wet! It's /that/ long for now but when dry it curls up like crazy - you're not a squirrel's tail, hair! - and goes above my shoulders)

I think I'll never get my hair to go back to being like this:


I really have no idea what I was doing right to get my hair to be like that in the past.

Oh why oh why did I decide to highlight it (which led to) > hair spoiling > me chopping off the lower half of my hair > growing it out > only to chop it off to be this super short, almost pixie-cut hairstyle?

Not to mention how if I want to look like that again in terms of weight-wise I'll have to lose the 10kg I gained since coming into poly. It's like I had the "Freshman 15" (more on that HERE) happen to me - only difference being me entering a polytechnic and not college.

Well all in all it's the same because food's suddenly even more readily available to you, what when you have breaks every hour or so to grab something/a drink or to freshen up yourself.

Food sold at FC6 (FoodCourt 6, the nearest foodcourt to where I sit all day to study/listen to lectures/work on projects) isn't exactly what I'd label healthy. Hello? We have fried doughnuts, a stall that sells loads of fried finger food like sausages, cheese balls, samosa......

Woes of life, woes of life :(

Friday, October 05, 2012

Thursday, October 04, 2012

SDZ Presents Waves 17: The Queen: An Untold Fairytale



Singapore Polytechnic's SDZ (Strictly Dance Zone) proudly presents Waves 17: The Queen: An Untold Fairytale.

Giving a twist to the classic fairytale of Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, SDZ is bent on telling the world the untold tale that revolves around the common misconception that everyone has of the infamous Queen.

You thought she was the bad guy?


Think again.


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Date: 9 November 2012
Venue: Kallang Theatre
Time: 7pm
Ticket Prices: $16 (circle) / $20 (stall)

For ticketing information, please contact Alison at 9877 8397, or Alicia at 9817 3571. Feel free to check with any SDZ member for more information.

Hope to see you there!

http://strictlydancezone.blogspot.sg/p/waves-17-queen-untold-fairytale.html
http://twitter.com/SDZ_Waves17
http://twitter.com/spsdz

A little Irony

Funny how having too much time on your hands leaves you with nothing to do.

For the past 2 days I've been home sick so absolutely no dancing (surprise, surprise!) and all I've been doing was to lie in bed and read - before you judge me I must say it's a good book but the kinky sex parts do make me squirmish - 50 Shades of Grey.

Hey it's a good book and like I said the kinky parts make me feel really uncomfortable but I would love to read on and uncover Christian's past.

Recently - okay I'd be lying if I used the word 'recently' - I discovered I've been single for what, almost 2 years? Meh makes me depressed haha but oh well gives me a drama-free life in the relationship department so I guess all's good.

I just hate reading stories of romance and all, makes me feel really lonely and not to mention, envious.

Who has time to date when you date dance every other day? Hm?

If you don't follow me on Instagram (@gwendee), here's what I've been up to!



1) My GPA has jumped from a measly 2.7 to a 3.2!

To some with perfect GPAs and such it may not be a lot, but for me this was massive.

It jumped a holy 0.5, and I can't help but to show off and be happy about it because I know I worked my ass off this term juggling dance AND school, which meant I was in school for most of my waking hours. Literally 8am-11pm I was in school every bloody day.

Really thank God for such amazing groupmates. Arynah told me that she and Steffi agreed at the start of the school year to pull my grades up, and they did. Thank you both so, so much! Of course I love Sica bb just as much too! And Lyrenna!




2) Did you guess? I've officially taken up a job offer as a part-time amateur tailor.

Just kidding.

I hastily picked up sewing because we have to sew our own costumes for Waves 17 since it's more of a.. musical? rather than a full-out-dance concert.

My neighbour who used to own her own shop selling clothes she sewed told me that for someone who has never properly sewn an outfit before in my entire life, I actually have a talent and a gift for it because I managed to work out how to put together an outfit (I sewed a skirt, a hooded cape and am now working on a tulle skirt to wear as a petticoat) without help and she was impressed. My sewing skills though.. not much. It was embarrassing when I went down to ask for her help and there she was, picking at my thread because I sewed some parts wrongly.

Whoops.

And that massive contraption in the middle is my grandma's sewing machine which, unfortunately, failed on me when I needed it to work. Had my neighbour come up to help me thread it and all but it refused to sew me a decent line so I gave up.

Who needs an old Singer model when you have a crazy - and not to mention, intimidating - professional sewing machine at your neighbour's house? HM?????????????


Anyways, I just checked my page views to find that people are actually still checking up on my blog! Well done, I really have no idea what's interesting about my blog anymore so to the people who still linger around, thank you.

I promise RealityWorks will be a more lively space when I become an alumni or when I have lesser dance commitments...... whichever.

Friday, August 17, 2012

#me



Day 1 of the plan starts tomorrow.

A bit bummed out because some of the exercises listed needs equipment like weights and all and I only have one type of them. Plus there's the problem with my knee, so I'm gonna have to find alternatives to the exercises I can't do.

I already had McDonald's today for dinner ugh because I told mom to get me "anything" for dinner and my bro wanted McDee's so out came McDee's. Bleugh I feel like there's a Fillet-O-Fish monster in my tummy now haha but at least mom was smart enough to know which burger from there is under the OK category.

Because it's a total of 90 days I hope I can stick to it really.

I'm never one to stick to my dieting or exercising habits but with this guide I WILL be able to stick to it.

90 days to a better, slimmer, fitter, healthier me?

#teamleggo??


Sorry for the sudden influx of posts.

The blogging bug hit me and I decided there's only one thing to do.. BLOG

Thursday, August 16, 2012

You Say It Best


The DMC kids have finally slayed the giant of year 2: MMR

Dun dun dunnnn

Glad to have gotten that done and over with! 2 more projects and I am a free girl once again.

How was your week?

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

In Love with SeGa

I am officially hooked onto Secret Garden.

Rushed through watching the whole series in a matter of days as a break inbetween my project work and I can't tell you how hooked I am. It's weird because I haven't fangirl-ed over anyone/thing for a while now and I am crazy about Hyun Bin. Hyun Bin sshi ah...

"Kim Soo Han Moo, geo bukgi wa doo roo mi, Sam Cheon Gab Sa Dong Bang Sark, chi chi ka po sa ri sa ri sen ta. Weo ri weo ri se bbu ri ka.."


Watch this and tell me which girl doesn't want such a moment with her boyfriend?