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Gwendolyn N.
20 years young, a dreamer with a slight obsession for the lemniscate.

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

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One of my favourite shots from Waves16 of one of the items I was in.

Really missed the whole Waves thing a few days back, but right now? Not so much.

Swarmed with project after project, studies.. my own emotions aren't in check right now either. I feel so lost, so scared, so alone. I want to cry every moment and my heart beats real fast whenever I think about it and no, I'm not PMS-ing.

I blame myself for being weak, for being defensive. For being competitive and for being protective of myself because I never want to feel like how I did back then.

I blame myself for having such shitty, unacceptable attitude.

Tell me how to feel okay, how to feel normal?

Because right now that's far from how I feel.

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