Ughhhh!

Found some older photos I never got around to editing and uploading.

Anywho, I've gained soooo much weight since I started studying/worrying about my O's.

Can't wait 'till O's are over so that I can spend more time at O School and exercising! I dropped 1.5kg today but knowing my body I can gain it back from just drinking water. I've been losing and gaining weight so easily it's ANNOYING.

See, I've gained so much weight I can't even see my cheekbones now. Can't believe I dropped like 5kg at the start of the year only to maintain it and then suddenly gain it all back. Hate all you people who lose weight cuz of stress. HATE YOUUUU.

I totally gave in on my raw food day. It was supposed to be today!

I keep procrastinating. Ugh!

Oh well, who cares. I'm gon' see my cheekbones after O's.

For now its study, study, study!!

Ze laziness..

It's funny how ambitious I can get.

My life thus far has been planned out like that: Pass Math, get into a course would enjoy so that I can work my ass off for without feeling like a slave to the education system, get a good GPA, attain a scholarship so that I can study in me (and Rachel's!) dream university -- New York University - if not at least an Aussie university -- without making my parents slog THEIR asses off to pay for my school fees.

Oh and let's not forget my single drive at the moment: Dance.

So yes to top off the whole Gwendolyn Life Plan, I still want to teach hip hop in future.

O's are like, roughly in a month's time.

I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I told myself I could do it, I thought I could I seriously did. When someone tells you time is of the essence they aren't kidding because at this point of my life I realise there's nothing more true than said statement.

"True dat!"

But I've not been making full use of my time. Now I know how people feel when they tell me how they regret the fact that they whiled away their time.. precious time that should've been used on doing something PRODUCTIVE.

Anywho, so many people have been telling me how envious they are of my life now. Question is, how can ANYONE be envious of the life I'm leading? I've never felt more dumb in my life, like failing Math (let's not forget it was EMath? And the 'E' actually stands for ELEMENTARY) was defo a turning point in my life.

This year made me grow so much. Not even figuratively, I'm talking mentally. I snapped out of my own stupidity, I realised how important my friends and family are.. and learnt to identify the friends/people that wouldn't be around for long.

Friends at work, my BFFs, Rachel, Celine.. ah words can never express how much I love them.

I learnt to prioritize, to express myself in a less offensive manner (I know, I know. I used to be so vulgar and feisty and all that..), and oh, learnt that my blog is never a place to rant out thoughts that should be kept to thyself.

I've grown to a point where guys can never hold a place in my heart as firmly as family and friends do. I mean, definitely not referring to BFFs -- They'll always be the dudes in my life.

.....well apart from my dad and male relatives. Hahaha.

I'm not saying I won't love again, but my expectations will be definitely higher ;) Which is weird because I myself am a girl with not much to offer in the first place.

Well I guess I'm not mature enough in the self-confidence department, that's for sure.

It may be childish, but Ker and I talked about our ideal guys, when's the best time to date etc. before. For me it all bowed down to dating around university?? When the guys are more responsible and more matured. (Matured enough to break a girl's heart and not avoid settling the problem.) Or when they're less egoistic. YES GUYS YOU ARE SO FULL OF EGO IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW IT YET. DUH.

DIGRESSING ASIDE, so yeah why do people envy my life? I can't help but find myself terribly useless. I'm not even working now because I'm trying my best to study for my O's, and recently I had to ask my dad for money to pay for my dance fees.

I'm no poor chap, but I feel obligated to pay for what I do/own/buy/eat/shit. And not working made my own finances tight. I have some rule about keeping no less than $600 in my bank so yeah. Not working's horrible, considering the fact I get $35 bucks a week. Thank goodness Dad increased it to $40 after much whining from yours truly. And this covers my meals (no maid = takeouts), the topping up of my Ez-Link card... the norm.

Must. Learn. How. To. Stop. Agreeing. To. Go. Out. With. Friends!!

Or only go out with friends when they agree to have our meal at some chipchip place. Unless it's a special occasion. Hahaha.

OKAY I MUST STOP DIGRESSING TOO.

So yeah I'd rather be studying in a school like everyone else. I'd rather be bombarded with massive piles of homework, only to go to school the next day with an apologetic look on my face, approaching the teacher to tell him/her the usual "I'm sorry but I can't hand up my assignment because-"

Why be envious of the school-less girl? I've yet to declare myself a dropout yet so....

Keep going keep going there's no stoppin'!!

Hello

Hello hello hello hello hello people. I'm wondering if it's just me, or are the images on my blog seemingly not loading?

Photobucket's been weird lately so I guess I'm just gonna have to upload my photos via Blogger. They're gonna be smaller definitely cuz I'm still sticking to the good ol' way of using templates on blogger rather than changing it to the new layout setting.

So recently I was done with my Hip Hop 2 course. The last lesson (like always) is the best because Xuehui breaks us up into groups to come up with our own blocking and like 2-8s of a choreo.

This time I got grouped with Inez again. Sadly no Anika, Jolyn or Ashley :(

But there was Tiffy! And we did group with people we last expected to be grouped with. Then again it was fun. Loads of fun actually.

So we celebrated by rushing off earlier to get our cuppa. Every week we fail to get our BBT with pearls! Either that or the shop would've already closed. This time it was open but no more pearls. Yet another time for the booing session.

Beloved Nika!

I'll miss you a lot babe. Can't help but feel sad whenever I realise I won't be seeing you in HH3. :(
Thanks for the Cadbury Rocky Road chocolate bar from Australia! I love chocolate from Aus.

I can't bear to eat it though!

Hahah you know what Inez said to me after I took this shot?

"Side view nice right!"

HAHAHA. This is why I love the people I hang out with from Hip Hop 2 seriously.

Ashley, Inez and I had a mini celebratory sushi picnic!

Jolyn!

There was Ted too, but all you can see are his hands and his laptop in the picture I took of Jolyn. Hahah. He rarely joins us but I couldn't snap a shot of him cuz he was so engrossed in whatever he was doing on his laptop (trying to access someone's WiFi, apparently. 313 sucks cuz there isn't Wireless@SG at the basement).

I'm quite sad though. Nika's not attending Hip Hop 3. First Grace now her. I kinda miss Grace. They were the first two friends I ever made in Hip Hop 1 and I enjoyed dance every week cuz of them even though it was just 3 of us.

Oh well.

Rae and Cel stayed over yesterday night to study overnight and surprisingly, it was more productive than usual. My stomach give me problems though. I hate having a stomach that bloats up, like it's just AIR.

And I couldn't flatulence.


p.s. Flatulence = fart

Tech Geek

Spent the whole of today (well, more or less) in the library with Kerrie Wee and Beanie Lee!

It was..... well, oddly comfortable for me. I never like spending way too much time studying in the library because 1) It bores me. 2) The chairs make your butt ache after a while.

And if you're wondering why my fringe in the photo above's not bangs.. well that's cuz it's an old photo.

I trim my own fringe/hair now. This prevents me from going to the salon only to get like inches snipped off. I always do that you know. Like, I'll go there reassuring myself I'm only there to get a TRIM, or to get my fringe trimmed. Useless I tell you, I end up coming out with like 1.5 inches less of hair (and it's not the fringe).

So much for a trim.

Okay so I got to the library at 10.15am. Ker and I left at around 8.25pm? Awesome. Suddenly, I'm feeling more studious than I actually am. Hah.

Things to be happy about:

1. Ah Twing called me and asked me to be her photographer for a blogshop she's intending to launch! Awesome. My first photoshoot job(?). I told her no need to pay me. *nice person aura looms around*
   
   Even if it isn't exactly one, A GIRL DESERVES TO FEEL HAPPY ONCE IN A WHILE RIGHT?!
   
   
2. I lost 1.5kg............... only to gain it back again to lose it again to gain it back again. And all in a span of 3 days?? My body bloats as easily as it de-bloats.
   
   I need Bloat-Be-Gone from Neopets.

Anywho. I won't be getting the art exhibition job my aunt recommended me to do. Feeling quite bummed about that because I was excited about helping out at an art exhibition really. Then again, my aunt said when I turn 18 next year I'll have loads of art exhibitions to help out with so I'm pretty much looking forward to that!

Singaporeans Shmizaporeans

I'm waiting for my tutor, I'm bored, I have nothing to do. Blah. Entertaining myself with Facebook games isn't doing much either so I guess I'll go do some Math later.

My tutor was supposed to be here at 12:30pm but it's already 2 and I doubt he's on his way yet!

Anyway, I just watched this video on YouTube. Something about Singlish.

I read through the comments and the funny thing was, apart from the foreigners making fun of our poor usage of English, or what we term 'Singlish', the Singaporeans themselves were making fun of Singlish.

That's not all. The Singaporeans who made fun of Singlish commented IN Singlish. Oh the irony.. One dude was like, "I only got one thing to say about Singlish (or did he say Singaporeans?). KAN NI NA"

Like, seriously??

No wonder the foreigners think it's alright to make fun of Singaporeans -- SINGAPOREANS ARE MAKING FUN OF THEMSELVES.

Don't know whether to go dig a hole in the ground to hide my face or something.


p.s. Whoop I can finally cash out my Nuffnang money! But I think I'll leave it there to accumulate. I know myself too well -- I can spend money like I drink water whenever I feel like it.