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Haha, my cute little junior was telling me that I don't miss her and the sailors. Well yes Vir I'll miss the sailors too, don't worry ;)

Anyway, I'm updating this with my phone. Decided to give you guys a brief update of whats going on.

Firstly, O Levels have been stressful. I'm particularly pissed off at myself for Emath. So pissed that I don't wanna look at my question paper cuz I feel so ''xin tia''. I fear I'll fail, then where would I go? My mom and dad told me from the start that they just want me to do my best. They keep telling me stuff like they don't mind me retaking cuz they know I'm capable of more than what I'm doing now, and I find it very true. To be honest, its not that I don't know/get how to do this and that, but its just that I ain't putting in the effort to study.

I talked to Mom recently about all this, and she said even if they don't support what I wanna do as a profession, a basic education is mandatory. Its cool that now she wants me to study in a Poly and do arts as a part-time course, but heck I told her the fees for both Poly AND an arts school would cost a bomb.

Beanie was telling me last week, ''Gwennie you wanna go to Australia to study with me?''

Haha I wish I could do that too B, IF I could afford it. But hey I promise I'll visit!

I can't believe how life after O's would be. Not the enjoying part, but the whole missing-everybody part.

Secondly, I can't wait for O's to be over! Get my exercising life back, my freedom, and learning loads of stuff. And working. :/

Like I said, I'll be learning maybe Korean. Elizabeth wants me to learn German with her. Tokio Hotel awesomeness. Then going back for hip hop is definitely a confirmed thing. Learning with Alex, Afiqah and Bern! Gonna be loads of fun. Working with Beanie and/or Alex too at where my dad works -- Airport's T3!

I'll most likely (re)pick up guitar again with Celine. Something for leisure so that I can play for fun, but also jam with Tim and Johnathan in future.

TOM KAULITZ HAS INSPIRED ME!!

No seriously. I love Tokio Hotel for that womanizer of a Tom. But hey he's cute. Haha. Bern said he looks like a girl :(

I wanted to progress to elec. guitar and told Timothy the other time over dinner and he was telling me how ex it is just to get a basic elec guitar set. Not just the amps but everything else like the thing that gives you effects etc. Basic set will cost around 10k if I really become serious about it. Whoa.

Okay I think I'll stick to acoustic until I earn enough to afford me an elec. guitar. Like Tim's new (even tho its 2nd hand) one with a hard case. That one's damn pretty I tell you, costed him about 1.2k? Somewhere there.

Imagine how much Gibson guitars cost man!

Thirdly, prom night! Lianyi told me to think about how prom will be one day nearer after the end of every paper. I haven't even gotten my stuff yet. I'm going to Pulau Ubin with my family, YL's family and Uncle KK + Aunty Hongling the weekend after O's, which gives me limited time to get my stuff so B was telling me to stay over at her place instead so that we have like 3 days to shop for our stuff together. Sounds like fun :) I've been dying to see Haley! She's so much cuter now the last time me, Ker and Bern played with her when Beanie's mom came to fetch her. Alex's dog was the one I saw after that and my goodness Fluffy's just as cute! You two make me wanna have a dog, daaaaamn!

Well, the day my mom doesn't jump up when she sees a dog will be the day I get one. Which, means NEVER. Duh.

Lastly, I'll be getting a DSLR (FINALLY! After like 2 years of wanting one!). It'll most prolly be Nikon D3k. The price specs look pretty good for a newly released model, but Dad told me yesterday to compare with other models and their prices. Pretty keen on D3k (meaning 3000) tho. ClubSnap has a growing thread of D3k users and some of my friends there tell me its a pretty good one.

Just can't wait to become better at it and upgrade to a better model in future!


There's so much going on in my mind that its overwhelming. I don't know what to do, whether to do it, or whether I should even make up my mind.

You know what? I really don't.