Someone Save me from Myself

Pretty stoked for SDZ camp tomorrow. One thing I really hate is the fact that it's not gonna be an overnight camp cuz SP banned overnight camps.

I hope it won't be awkward though cuz we'll be mixing with the moderners and the bboys. Which is pretty cool considering the fact that we've never met before. I guess that's why this is more of a bonding camp and not a training camp? I hope I get a few hip hoppers in the same group as me though, and I hope I get a bboy as my GL heehee it'll be so much fun seeing what they can do!

To digress a bit, I'm sick and tired of myself.

It's the same old problem, the same old story. I'm so tired of hearing it myself and I'm tired of telling it. People around me are getting rather tired of hearing it too so what's the point?

I have a feeling I made my mom's birthday one of the worst cuz of my random outburst after dinner on how I just wanted to induce myself to puke all my food out because I didn't wanna eat in the first place but the 'rents kinda made me. I was so mad that I had to eat after jogging, but it was my mom's birthday dinner so yeah. I don't think anything will make things better.

Can I just... just pass this phase ASAP?? It took me such a long time to get over it the last time and after that I was so comfortable in my own skin. I loved that feeling. You're just confident no matter what. I'm losing the battle with myself.

I feel so miserable I don't even.

Happy birthdayssss

Heehee bought a wing ring from the *Scape weekend flea (after we celebrated Channie's birthday) to go with my favourite necklace.

Oh on a side-note, happy belated birthdays to Wee and Channie!

To my dearest Chan, I remember how awkward it was the first time I met you (and Suina) when we were waiting outside O School for our first Hip Hop 3 course to start. I didn't talk to you at all, only Inez and Kailing did cuz y'all were talking about some KPop concert and also cuz they sorta knew you through Jolyn?? Never expected that I'd be so close to you now!

You've always been there to listen to my rants, always making me feel less shitty.. you always try so hard to cheer me up everytime I'm down (which has been pretty often of late). I'm so terribly thankful that O School and dance as a whole has brought us together, as cliche as that sounds. You, Nez, Kailing, Jolyn, Muto, Tiffy, Lazzie, Daryl, Guohui.. all of y'all. Love how our passion for one thing has brought us all closer as friends. Dance makes me happy, and the people I dance with make me even happier :)

I LOVE YOU CHAN. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

To Weetzeeee, it's funny how the guy I expected to talk to the least from CASS camp (cuz you annoyed me when you told me "Good morning!" only to tell me "Not you la!" when I turned back. I STILL REMEMBER YOU DOUCHE) is now one of my closest friends. Its only been what, 3 months since I knew you?? But we're already quite tight. I'm sorry I always do stupid things like ignore you. As in, when I REALLY ignore you. I know that must've hurt you quite a bit. Didn't do it on purpose, you know that right? I wouldn't wanna hurt you on purpose. :)

Thanks for wanting to fight for me. What you've done for me as a friend.. is something no one else has really done for me? Well with the exception of a few of my best friends. But yeah, your rants on Twitter, your anon questions on Tumblr.. I'll remember them no matter what.

I hope you know that if something ever happened to you, I'll fight for you too, regardless. Because you're a friend worth fighting for. Aw am I sweet or what hahaha.

Just know that if you're ever wondering, don't ever change your annoying self. Love you! ♥♥♥

I would love to blog about their birthday celebrations now but my iPhoto's being a bitch. It keeps hanging whenever I try to import mah foutous. UGH.

And oh, happy 48th birthday Mom.

Whoops, did I just expose your birthday on my blog? ;)

Thanks for being my pillar, my super woman. Thanks for always being there for me no matter what, even though I'm such a stubborn person. Well okay fine we both are, that's why Dad says I get my stubbornness from you. I guess that isn't a bad thing. :) But yes, thank you.. for being my mother. I appreciate having you around even though we have our differences and we argue a lot from time to time. I know you mean well.

People say you should do things for yourself and not for others but.. You make me wanna pursue dance for you, just cuz of that one moment when you came down to support Perennial for teenSupreme and I saw for myself how proud you were of me when I came down the stage. I actually managed to catch a glimpse of your face.. and until now that's still the best I've ever felt since.. ever.

What I would like to tell you can't really be expressed in words. Just know that I love you Mom, I don't know what I'd do or who I'd be without you.

(But note that your daughter's already 18 so lax on the rules a bit, pleeeeeeease? :))

p.s. The photos are done uploading! But it's now 5.44am and someone has to get up at 7.30am to get ready for work so.. yes.

On another side note,

I've been listening to the songs by A Rocket to the Moon:

On Film: Konica C35

Doubt anyone remembers my post last year about my new Konica C35.

Well technically it isn't new cuz it's a vintage camera from 1968?? Made in 1968 with 38mm f2.8 four-element Hexanon lens BUT YEAH since I bought it and got a roll of film for it I've never really brought it out to play.

It just sat there on my table and the only shots I took were in my house.. the poor thing.

A few weeks prior to the holidays I got around to finishing up the remaining shots. Though the subject of the photos were crap (not referring to Cel and Rae), the photographs turned out rather interesting.

Loved the light leaks. Was so happy (even though my heart sank when the lady told me my photographs + CD amounted to a grand total of $21.75) when I was going through the photographs to see that most of them have leaks, and it's not as if I did it on purpose!

Momszie who was beside me watching me the whole time could only say, "Why the quality like that? Why so blur? Why the photo turn out like that?????"

Oh Mom.. ;)

School's Out! + DMCConnect 2011

It's the second day of the school holidays, which is pretty awesome. School has been mad tiring so far and everyone was REALLY looking forward to the hols. Especially DMC students. Goodness, our projects were all due around the same time and I must say I'm not exactly used to poly life yet.

I've yet to blog about DMCConnect 2011. Since the event, I've been tied up with school work, CA projects, CCAs.. so I decided that I really should blog about it now since I'm free.

This year's DMCConnect had every class picking a movie to have like, a theme to, and my class picked the theme "Grease".

Photos!

My dearest, pretty Becca checking herself out in the "mirror" before we settled down in the lecture theatre.

Thai food for lunch break that day!

This wasn't candid at all I swear.

Karen saw me and my DSLR and posed for this shot.

Just some of DMC/FT/1A/01 having lunch together.

I love my class so much it's hard to describe it in words. ;)

The few Staircase Hobos for the lecture-

Having Ms Trudy's lecture. MCA I presume?

(I'm always mixing up MCA and ICP, so yeah)

IMW mock-test after lecture! :(:(:(

Manda Panda <3

DMC/FT/1A/01 girls getting ready for DMCConnect in the toilet! ;)

And the guys were waiting outside for us at the staircase the whole time. Pretty sweet of them huh? I think the guys in 01 are the sweetest :)

Outfit photos! Shermin's outfit for the day ;)

Karen's outfit for the day

Liyi, Amanda and Filzah <3

Walking down the much talked-about "hill".

I swear, climbing up and down the hill everyday isn't our idea of fun, especially when you're carrying a MacBook Pro.

(Worse still, I'm carrying a MBP 15". Le sigh!)

So we headed down to the hall for the event only to find out that we were the earliest class. We were prolly 30mins too early??

Dexdexdexdex!

Similar outfits for the day

Liyi's outfit!

And since we were too early, we decided to head to FC3 for a light meal......

..of cheese fries, milkshakes, fruit juice and salad!

Heehee jealous annot? My school has awesome food in every foodcourt. :)

Well, ALMOST every foodcourt. I've never been to FC1 and 2 so I can't judge.

First time we saw Arynah without her headgear.

Pretty or what!?

DMC/FT/1A/03!

You can spot Alvin like right away cuz of his pink shirt ;)

The boys of DMC01!

"Oei I think we should take a cool photo la.."

(Trying very hard to act cool, but obviously failing very badly.)

This was candid! Damn cute right?????

Can you spot the mindfuck??

Psst.. it's all in Daniel's "hand" that's on Manda's shoulder!

Figured it out yet? ;)

Shermin's actually standing between them. HAHAHA.

We were mimicking this photo we saw on Manda's Tumblr of a black woman standing inbetween a lot of white girls during prom and no one could actually spot the black girl!

Not trying to be racist here really, but it was hell funny (and kinda freaky) when Manda pointed it out in class.

Lex baby!

Alvin and Angelina performing for us during the event.

Pink-wigged guy from Alex's class

More about the event here at Heard@DMC!

Went to find the wakeboarders after the event. Had to miss my very first training with them cuz of DMCConnect but I didn't mind! Had dinner at the usual prata place at Clementi.

Speaking of which, I really wonder how I'm gonna cope with two CCAs, especially with WAVES16 training coming up. I'll be dancing almost every day, but I don't want to quit SPWB. :(:(:(

Dilemas, dilemas, dilemas..