Rain, rain, go away

Attended my cousin's wedding a few days back!

Was amazing seeing my cousins (and my Hongkong cousins) from my mom's side I'll admit. It's been so long! And of course I had to put my made-of-fail Chinese to the test cuz my HK relatives could only speak Canto or Chinese! Language barrier much.

In the car with the act-cool brother of mine.

Charmaine jiejie the pretty bride!

Relatives and friends getting up on stage to get ready for the toast.

Longest (and loudest) toast to the bride and groom I've ever heard. It went on....

and on...

and on......

and on.

Yeah I know I kept taking photos of the flower ornament (my family sat at the table with the bride and groom) but it was pretty and there wasn't anything else to take photos of!

Pretty momszie!

Yummy chicken + crackers we had.

Was so full from all the food that when it came to desert everyone couldn't eat it! So much for "saving stomach space for desert".

Dad and brother digging in.

Yup so that's that!

I'm so relieved that the EMath paper's finally over. To be honest I thought the paper was quite hard and NOTHING like what we did during the previous years. At least I completed both papers (of course I left some parts blank).

If I fail again I wouldn't be able to stomach that fact. Of course I'm hoping I pass at least so that I can get to poly but who would like JUST a pass?

I swear, the Singapore education system is such a pain in the ass. Why, Math? WHY???!

O's Day 1

Paper's starting in (less than) 3 hours!

Wish me luck luck loads of luck cuz I just had tuition and now I'm dead tired.

How I wish there was a paper at night so that I could sleep/study the whole day (I'm a night owl in terms of studying so I have the habit of studying till 2-3am).

Math is tomorrow so WISH ME EVEN MORE LUCK.

Time to go catch a 2hr nap. Buh-bye my eyes are a'closing.

And yes, stupid faces are all the rage.

Miss A

I'm slowly converting back into a crazy KPop fan thanks to my dance friends!

Anyway, Miss A's "Breathe" is currently stuck in my head. Thanks to Inez, I'm turning into their next biggest fan cuz I found out the Min whose dancing inspired me to dance more (my biggest inspirations for dance are BoA, Min and Hyoyeon), the Min I love very much...

....THE MIN WHO GOT DEBUTED IN USA BY JYP ONLY TO DISAPPEAR-

-Actually debuted in Miss A!

And I feel really dumb cuz every week after dance I'll stay back at 313@Somerset with my dance friends from HH3 to chat and our main topic's KPop. Last week we talked mainly about Miss A and I complained about how I hate JYP cuz of what he did to Lee Min Young.

Then I asked, "Oh I know this girl who looks exactly like the Miss A girl. The one with short black hair? What's her name?"

"You mean Min ah?"

"Min?? Oh okay... same name as Min Young what the hell."

NOW I FEEL SO STUPID. I thought this Min from Miss A had the same name as Lee Min Young.

Then I heard "Breathe", watched their LIVE performance (this week Min lost a shoe hahaha what a cutiepie!), went to Min's channel on YouTube and when I saw her Channel Comments, which consisted mainly of "MISS A ROCKS!", "Min you're the best dancer of Miss A you'll bring them further" and "Girl I love you on the MV!", my jaw literally dropped.

I CAN'T BELIEVE THE MIN FROM MISS A IS ACTUALLY MIN YOUNG! No wonder when Inez showed me their MVs I kept staring at Min's face wondering why she looked like Min Young. (Also partially cuz I know a girl who looks exactly like her.)

Now I think it's better that she debuted with Miss A. Min debuting as a solo act wouldn't have got her far so yerrrrp! Definitely excited for her and I can't wait for them to come up with more singles.

Khunnie was talking about them on too. Hahah.

p.s. Ashley said that I looked like Suzy when I had my bangs :o

Would you be my American Boy?

Amazingggg cover of one of my favourite English songs, Estelle's "American Boy".

Holy crap I wish I had a voice like that. If someone in Singapore Idol sang like that she's pwn all the other contestants and become the first female Singapore Idol winner.

Okay, just came online to rip a song off this Youtube video for dance. Can't find it anywhere but the quality's pretty good so heck. Shall continue doing this EMath paper by Whitley Sec. I've been doing so many papers recently it's sickening. Thank goodness Math is only 12 days away.

8th November marks freeeeedom

p.s. Britain's Next Top Model S2 is made of fail. The photographs are so ugly compared to ANTM's!

I Want..

It's been so long since I last checked my Blogger account that they made me log in again (which I've not done for months because I'm on my Blogger account every other day).

So anyways, I've not really been online the past few days -- except for Twitter. Thank God for Wireless LAN on cellphones -- and the moment I lay my hands on my laptop I go to Anarchy Street's webpage to check whether their OFF cardigan's sold out.

IT'S SO PRETTY NO??

I've been dying to get this and I don't care about the fact that it costs USD68, excluding shipping fees! It's worth my money! I've been wanting to get it since a month+ ago and I'm still dreaming about the day I lay my hands on this baby.....

I just dropped my momma a hint by saying, "Mommy for my birthday next year you can consider getting me this-" and showing it to her.

Okay fine it wasn't 'dropping a hint'. More like 'making it very direct'.

Thing is, only size L is left. Yes I like wearing baggy stuff but I doubt a size L would fit me very snugly for a cardigan thank you very much.

Searching ebay for it now.

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS THING.

Bad Girl Good Girl

I think I look like a kid in the last photo, and I can't get over that fact. Hahaha but like I said, being 17 this year, I am associated with being MATURED. *tries desperately to look at the last photo with a different perspective*

Oh, I'm quite happy because I lost 2kg over the past week or so. Banzai to healthy eating! I lost my craving for sweets and snacks and it feels good. The only thing left to change is my sleeping habits - I have to start sleeping at around 12.30am max.

Ah. Blame the Channel U show that runs every night at 11.30pm.

Whoever told you eating healthier would benefit you ain't lying. But I also read that losing 2-4 pounds per week is the most ideal and that's the fastest the body go. Losing any more weight than that a week would mean the body's losing water weight, which I know I can gain back very easily because I'm terribly water-logged thanks to my sweet tooth and I bloat from eating anything unhealthy.

Digressing a bit, I'm blogging with Miss A's 'Bad Girl Good Girl' on replay on my iTunes. Inez got me hooked last week. I remember how around 3 people from HH2 thought I was Korean. Ashley was one of them and she said I looked very much like Suzy from Miss A.

Aaaaand.. I totally disagree.

Anywho, Daddykinz just left for Genting earlier today and will only be back on Thursday. I would very much like to be there too, or anywhere but HERE (meaning Singapore).

Gerald and I just had this talk with my parents over dinner about travelling to New York. It was like we were having a mini debate on why we should go to NY before we hit 50.

My brother even sided me. Amazingly, we've gotten very close and I find that I treat him way better than I did before. Now when he does his usual nonsense, it doesn't annoy me, it just entertains me.

I'm guessing that's a good thing.

And oh, my cousin's wedding is coming up -- just one day before my first written paper! My mom told him Gerald and I would be going, and he reserved seats at the VIP table for us so I'm thinking it's pretty mean to back out. I like going to weddings though. Oh well, I'm taking one day off to make a trip down to Sephora to get makeup because my concealer's finishing, funny cuz I don't wear makeup when I go out!

I realise I tend to blog a lot more often now that my exams are approaching. Hm.......

Yerrrrrprprprprprprp

Meh. Until now I'm still deciding whether to change my blogskin so that I don't have to use Photobucket to host my photos.

(Speaking of which, I'll post up photos the next post okay? I feel so deprived because my internet time now is very precious. Sigh I lead such a terribly mundane life)

Anyway hi it's 5th OCTOBER, which means my first paper is around 20 days away, and I'm feeling more vexed with each passing day. As much as I fear the fact that there's still a possibility I may fail, I'm kinda looking forward to getting this over and done with.

I've been spending almost every week with Cel and Rae, and I miss them so much now. They spend every Friday-Saturday at my place having a study-sleepover - which involves a lot of water, snacks, drinks and chocolate. Rae happily gives up after 2 in the morning to the comfort of my bed.

Ah. We're gonna be spending a lot of time shopping after their promos/my O's, I swear.

Monica Parales is 'osm'. (Hahaha learnt this abbreviation from my friend from Switzerland. Who says Facebook isn't good huh?)

And I'm very much looking forward to this week's class. I love all the people at HH3 and now that the Mean Girls are gone, class is so much more fun. Then again, half of the HH2 are gone now too, boo..... Especially Elsie and John's clique. They apparently abandoned GH and Darrell to go for lyrical. Wait or was it street jazz? OH I KNOW, IT WAS LYRICAL JAZZ EUHSDIFH.

After HH3 I think the whole of HH3's intending to go for popping then locking. Either that or locking THEN popping, which is gonna be so fun - can you imagine? We've been classmates for more than half a year now! So if we take 1 more course we're gonna be classmates for a grand total of at least 10 months.

Okay I just watched some O School Recital audition footage and MANNNNN, I'm excited to try out for next year's recital if there is one.

Ughhhh!

Found some older photos I never got around to editing and uploading.

Anywho, I've gained soooo much weight since I started studying/worrying about my O's.

Can't wait 'till O's are over so that I can spend more time at O School and exercising! I dropped 1.5kg today but knowing my body I can gain it back from just drinking water. I've been losing and gaining weight so easily it's ANNOYING.

See, I've gained so much weight I can't even see my cheekbones now. Can't believe I dropped like 5kg at the start of the year only to maintain it and then suddenly gain it all back. Hate all you people who lose weight cuz of stress. HATE YOUUUU.

I totally gave in on my raw food day. It was supposed to be today!

I keep procrastinating. Ugh!

Oh well, who cares. I'm gon' see my cheekbones after O's.

For now its study, study, study!!

Ze laziness..

It's funny how ambitious I can get.

My life thus far has been planned out like that: Pass Math, get into a course would enjoy so that I can work my ass off for without feeling like a slave to the education system, get a good GPA, attain a scholarship so that I can study in me (and Rachel's!) dream university -- New York University - if not at least an Aussie university -- without making my parents slog THEIR asses off to pay for my school fees.

Oh and let's not forget my single drive at the moment: Dance.

So yes to top off the whole Gwendolyn Life Plan, I still want to teach hip hop in future.

O's are like, roughly in a month's time.

I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I told myself I could do it, I thought I could I seriously did. When someone tells you time is of the essence they aren't kidding because at this point of my life I realise there's nothing more true than said statement.

"True dat!"

But I've not been making full use of my time. Now I know how people feel when they tell me how they regret the fact that they whiled away their time.. precious time that should've been used on doing something PRODUCTIVE.

Anywho, so many people have been telling me how envious they are of my life now. Question is, how can ANYONE be envious of the life I'm leading? I've never felt more dumb in my life, like failing Math (let's not forget it was EMath? And the 'E' actually stands for ELEMENTARY) was defo a turning point in my life.

This year made me grow so much. Not even figuratively, I'm talking mentally. I snapped out of my own stupidity, I realised how important my friends and family are.. and learnt to identify the friends/people that wouldn't be around for long.

Friends at work, my BFFs, Rachel, Celine.. ah words can never express how much I love them.

I learnt to prioritize, to express myself in a less offensive manner (I know, I know. I used to be so vulgar and feisty and all that..), and oh, learnt that my blog is never a place to rant out thoughts that should be kept to thyself.

I've grown to a point where guys can never hold a place in my heart as firmly as family and friends do. I mean, definitely not referring to BFFs -- They'll always be the dudes in my life.

.....well apart from my dad and male relatives. Hahaha.

I'm not saying I won't love again, but my expectations will be definitely higher ;) Which is weird because I myself am a girl with not much to offer in the first place.

Well I guess I'm not mature enough in the self-confidence department, that's for sure.

It may be childish, but Ker and I talked about our ideal guys, when's the best time to date etc. before. For me it all bowed down to dating around university?? When the guys are more responsible and more matured. (Matured enough to break a girl's heart and not avoid settling the problem.) Or when they're less egoistic. YES GUYS YOU ARE SO FULL OF EGO IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW IT YET. DUH.

DIGRESSING ASIDE, so yeah why do people envy my life? I can't help but find myself terribly useless. I'm not even working now because I'm trying my best to study for my O's, and recently I had to ask my dad for money to pay for my dance fees.

I'm no poor chap, but I feel obligated to pay for what I do/own/buy/eat/shit. And not working made my own finances tight. I have some rule about keeping no less than $600 in my bank so yeah. Not working's horrible, considering the fact I get $35 bucks a week. Thank goodness Dad increased it to $40 after much whining from yours truly. And this covers my meals (no maid = takeouts), the topping up of my Ez-Link card... the norm.

Must. Learn. How. To. Stop. Agreeing. To. Go. Out. With. Friends!!

Or only go out with friends when they agree to have our meal at some chipchip place. Unless it's a special occasion. Hahaha.

OKAY I MUST STOP DIGRESSING TOO.

So yeah I'd rather be studying in a school like everyone else. I'd rather be bombarded with massive piles of homework, only to go to school the next day with an apologetic look on my face, approaching the teacher to tell him/her the usual "I'm sorry but I can't hand up my assignment because-"

Why be envious of the school-less girl? I've yet to declare myself a dropout yet so....

Keep going keep going there's no stoppin'!!

Hello

Hello hello hello hello hello people. I'm wondering if it's just me, or are the images on my blog seemingly not loading?

Photobucket's been weird lately so I guess I'm just gonna have to upload my photos via Blogger. They're gonna be smaller definitely cuz I'm still sticking to the good ol' way of using templates on blogger rather than changing it to the new layout setting.

So recently I was done with my Hip Hop 2 course. The last lesson (like always) is the best because Xuehui breaks us up into groups to come up with our own blocking and like 2-8s of a choreo.

This time I got grouped with Inez again. Sadly no Anika, Jolyn or Ashley :(

But there was Tiffy! And we did group with people we last expected to be grouped with. Then again it was fun. Loads of fun actually.

So we celebrated by rushing off earlier to get our cuppa. Every week we fail to get our BBT with pearls! Either that or the shop would've already closed. This time it was open but no more pearls. Yet another time for the booing session.

Beloved Nika!

I'll miss you a lot babe. Can't help but feel sad whenever I realise I won't be seeing you in HH3. :(
Thanks for the Cadbury Rocky Road chocolate bar from Australia! I love chocolate from Aus.

I can't bear to eat it though!

Hahah you know what Inez said to me after I took this shot?

"Side view nice right!"

HAHAHA. This is why I love the people I hang out with from Hip Hop 2 seriously.

Ashley, Inez and I had a mini celebratory sushi picnic!

Jolyn!

There was Ted too, but all you can see are his hands and his laptop in the picture I took of Jolyn. Hahah. He rarely joins us but I couldn't snap a shot of him cuz he was so engrossed in whatever he was doing on his laptop (trying to access someone's WiFi, apparently. 313 sucks cuz there isn't Wireless@SG at the basement).

I'm quite sad though. Nika's not attending Hip Hop 3. First Grace now her. I kinda miss Grace. They were the first two friends I ever made in Hip Hop 1 and I enjoyed dance every week cuz of them even though it was just 3 of us.

Oh well.

Rae and Cel stayed over yesterday night to study overnight and surprisingly, it was more productive than usual. My stomach give me problems though. I hate having a stomach that bloats up, like it's just AIR.

And I couldn't flatulence.


p.s. Flatulence = fart

Tech Geek

Spent the whole of today (well, more or less) in the library with Kerrie Wee and Beanie Lee!

It was..... well, oddly comfortable for me. I never like spending way too much time studying in the library because 1) It bores me. 2) The chairs make your butt ache after a while.

And if you're wondering why my fringe in the photo above's not bangs.. well that's cuz it's an old photo.

I trim my own fringe/hair now. This prevents me from going to the salon only to get like inches snipped off. I always do that you know. Like, I'll go there reassuring myself I'm only there to get a TRIM, or to get my fringe trimmed. Useless I tell you, I end up coming out with like 1.5 inches less of hair (and it's not the fringe).

So much for a trim.

Okay so I got to the library at 10.15am. Ker and I left at around 8.25pm? Awesome. Suddenly, I'm feeling more studious than I actually am. Hah.

Things to be happy about:

1. Ah Twing called me and asked me to be her photographer for a blogshop she's intending to launch! Awesome. My first photoshoot job(?). I told her no need to pay me. *nice person aura looms around*
   
   Even if it isn't exactly one, A GIRL DESERVES TO FEEL HAPPY ONCE IN A WHILE RIGHT?!
   
   
2. I lost 1.5kg............... only to gain it back again to lose it again to gain it back again. And all in a span of 3 days?? My body bloats as easily as it de-bloats.
   
   I need Bloat-Be-Gone from Neopets.

Anywho. I won't be getting the art exhibition job my aunt recommended me to do. Feeling quite bummed about that because I was excited about helping out at an art exhibition really. Then again, my aunt said when I turn 18 next year I'll have loads of art exhibitions to help out with so I'm pretty much looking forward to that!

Singaporeans Shmizaporeans

I'm waiting for my tutor, I'm bored, I have nothing to do. Blah. Entertaining myself with Facebook games isn't doing much either so I guess I'll go do some Math later.

My tutor was supposed to be here at 12:30pm but it's already 2 and I doubt he's on his way yet!

Anyway, I just watched this video on YouTube. Something about Singlish.

I read through the comments and the funny thing was, apart from the foreigners making fun of our poor usage of English, or what we term 'Singlish', the Singaporeans themselves were making fun of Singlish.

That's not all. The Singaporeans who made fun of Singlish commented IN Singlish. Oh the irony.. One dude was like, "I only got one thing to say about Singlish (or did he say Singaporeans?). KAN NI NA"

Like, seriously??

No wonder the foreigners think it's alright to make fun of Singaporeans -- SINGAPOREANS ARE MAKING FUN OF THEMSELVES.

Don't know whether to go dig a hole in the ground to hide my face or something.


p.s. Whoop I can finally cash out my Nuffnang money! But I think I'll leave it there to accumulate. I know myself too well -- I can spend money like I drink water whenever I feel like it.