Cuz you and I both loved.

Talk about not getting a good sleep.

After smsing Jack till like 12plus yesterday especially about sailing stuffs (thanks so much for giving me a listening ear dude!), I couldn't sleep till 1AM? First time in a while that I cried so much. Haha. When I finally got to sleep, I woke up at 3AM, then 4AM, and 5.20AM when Ker smsed me. I was so energy-less that I found it tiring to walk from the kitchen to my room.

Worse still I was almost late for school (met Aaron on the way. You just HAD to tug my ponytail right D:) so we had to run. Ker asked me if I wanted to sit down halfway during the national anthem, cuz she said I was swaying back and forth or something? Didn't realise it.

Felt so lethargic during Chem that while Mr Lim talked to us, I slept. Starting to enjoy Chem lessons tho! Hahaha. Amazing no?

But I definitely felt much better during recess cuz of Eileen.


I didn't enjoy being at sailing.

No actually, I did, only cuz of my juniors. Feel that I'm much closer to them now? Love them!!! :D thanks guys for always cheering me up whenever you guys deem me as upset.

Infact, I feel like I'm only going to sailing cuz I HAVE to.

Can't take the fact that I'm faking how happy I am there. Geez.

Gone were the days I used to enjoy sailing because of the sec4s..

This is so much like in sec3, when I cried after most sailing sessions (how dramatic can I get?) cuz I hated being there due to conflicts. But naturally things got better and the our batch was still as close as ever.

Its weird that I'm saying this.. but I'm so envious of the sec4 drama people cuz they're now so close, especially before their SYF.

Walking back to class after getting food and Milo (which I spilled all over the floor) for Lit remedial, all the sailing juniors who met me on the way back were all saying "Hi", coming to disturb and talk to me.

How often do the sec4s do that when they see me now?

I hate being treated like I'm invisible, even by my own classmate who's a sailor. But no, I'm actually used to being treated as invisible by them, especially certain people. Last year AND this year.

Ker was like, "Your juniors are very nice and friendly to you hor."

I said, "I feel that I'm closer to my juniors this year."

"Its alright what. There's no problem in that."

Then I told her, "Well, you'd naturally want to enjoy the last year of being in your CCA with your batch, and be close to each other what."

Ah SUCKS. Now I feel like crying wth.

Very tempted to delete that folder. VERY.
But I still think I can't. Not yet, at least.


If I treasure and appreciate you, I will do things I hate doing.

So.. yeah. Don't take me for granted too. Or I will hate your ass for life.

I know I am, but what are YOU?

I still miss the days I used to sit with the sec4s last year everyday. Looking at us now I sometimes can't believe we used to be that close really. Juniors can even tell me during camp, "I really admire you guys last year lor.. so close.."

I really wanna spend recesses with them again. Kinda sucks to think that I'm not as close to them. Miss them but ah the heck.

Sucks to go to a CCA when the people you're close to are the people you talk to least now. I feel bad for losing my temper so often nowadays. I really don't know whats gotten into me, but my temper span is damn short now. But I knew I wasn't PMS-ing.


Mundane school days kill my brain cells.

Taking my Lit test with the absentees outside class was really comforting. We sat outside and I was at the corridor between 4I and 4E, so if I stared straight it was the nice cloud-ful blue sky. :)

Omg I've such a weakness for skies!
Especially starry and cloudy skies! :D


Think my social life is affecting me a lot towards how I am at home cuz I'm becoming like last year where I dread coming home cuz I just shut myself out but yet I dread going to school where I don't feel like talking to anyone.

Till now.

Library photos overdued by a TAD bit :x

Guess who?

Forgot what it says.. think its "I love Nino"?

SOMEONE. I NEED A CAMERA OR I'LL DIE REALLY SOON OMG.


I'm should be awarded like the Best (Online) Multitasker of the Day.

Jooked on BoA's Look Who's Talking and Eat You Up. Damn, I should be pro-Korean-songs when it comes to BoA. But oh well, fans will be fans! Have been one since pri4. :)

Ah my head's going nuts just hunting the webpage of that shop I found the pair of Acid Washed Shorts on! SHOULD'VE JUST PLACED THE ORDER WHEN I SAW IT! Saves me the trouble of finding it now. Its a backorder somemore! Well, lesson learnt.

Contemplating if I should wear an ankle guard to school.

At most.. shall wear it after sailing tomorrow? Damn, don't even know if I CAN sail. Doesn't really matter, interschools is in (wtf I don't know why but I suddenly typed "3 months!" out of nowhere. FAT HOPE, IF INTERSCHOOLS IS IN 3 MONTHS EVERYONE WILL REJOICE) 1 week!


I really don't know how much longer I can take this! Be it blood boiling, or just being plain wtf, I really can't lie to myself anymore.

Just don't know how I'm gonna put this across.

Maybe.. I should just stop thinking "What if-?" whenever I start to, and stop letting things I do remind me of anything.. anything at all.

My mind needs a break.. a freaking long break.....

But now's not the time.

Do I hear a tinge of jealousy in your voice?

I'm the stupidest person in the world! Hahaha.

Can't believe I thought school STARTS at 9.20AM today, cuz it ENDS at 9.20! So, so, so darn freakin' stupid! Thanks to that I missed 2 periods of Lit, wth?

But I've been feeling pretty light-headed. Ugh. Gonna study, study, study! later on.

I sprained my right ankle 3 times in less than 2 hours. Damn its like, I sprained it after Linjie's birthday BBQ. The next day it was fine so I went for the regatta, but when I squatted down to take my lifejacket there was a sudden sharp pain and I was screaming like mad. The guys were laughing and telling me, "Walao your ankle like that still wanna sail ah!" as I painfully limped on the bus :(:(:(

Getting off the bus, I sprained it one more time. Rigging up my boat, I sprained it another time! How awesome can I get.

And it was pure torture during the regatta omg. Every time I tacked and jybed, my ankles kept hurting like !#%$!@%Y^!!!!!!! when I have to reposition my legs. :(


Okay I must thank Mrs Sidhu for all her attitude talks during camps!

During the first race, I had a bad start. But just changing my mindset and thinking more positively, and asking myself questions like: "Gwen do you want to maintain or catch up?" and telling myself "Your only option is to catch up" and, "You must only maintain or catch up now!!" after I caught up worked!

It worked so well I caught up with more than 10 boats :D

Except at the finishing me and Dylan from TKSS went to the wrong mark, JASON LA. HIS POWERBOAT! He was trying to get this byte (with no one in it o___o) that was stuck to to mark out. So the blue mark couldn't be seen :(

The race with the light wind, same mindset except more positive and I remained so still my right leg cramped up, but I was 10th on the first lap/round :D just kept focusing on the red mark and nothing else. But the second upwind I lost my focus cuz Wenfeng kept distracting me on the downwind.. so yeah :(

BUT I STILL FINISHED 16TH!
In light wind thats a big feat to me ^_^ so.. YAY MEEE!!


Ending off with something..

FOR FOOTBALL FANS ONLY!
Or for people who want to see (ewww) Christiano Ronaldo kiss a ball.

This video listed so many Arsenal players! Nasri (in the video he was still a player for Marseille), Vela, Walcott, Fabregas, V. Persie, Denilson, don't know whether to be happy they listed Bendtner tho.

Nasri after Walcott, 3:34. Starts off with him praying before a match! Which he always does. He's Muslim and its so cool he doesn't mind showing that. 4:21- FABREGASSSSS

I'm starting to like Torres too. Its so cute that he tattooed the date he first met/kissed his girlfriend slash fiancee Olalla on his leg in roman numbers!! AHHHH SO CUTE.


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Wth just as I finished this post, I put down my laptop to watch Little People, Big World on Discovery Travel and Living, THEN THE SHOW ENDED. Unluckyyyyy!!

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Cuz I don't know about today.

Supposed to be over at Linjie's place now for his birthday BBQ. Honestly, it slipped my mind since I have visitors at home now. Bryan called and asked if I was already coming over and I was like OH SHIT. I haven't even gotten him a present yet! Wenfeng and his class already got him a present and Quinnie and Aaron didn't tell me so now I'm kinda stuck.


Tho I have a pretty good mind on what I wanna get him. Hmm.

Think I'll give Celine a ring and see if she wants to go down to AMK Hub with me. A little bit of walking does no harm, does it?

And my dad tried to 'compensate' for his mood yesterday. I hate it when he does that. Like whenever he flares up at me cuz he's moody, he'll make up for it by getting me something. Today he called me in the morning and suddenly asked about the Nike water bottle I wanted, which I never told him about, I only told Mom. He never gets me anything branded unless I literally beg him for it. Whatev. Can't be bothered.


Watched The Wow Factor with my mom just now and it suddenly occured to me that our first reaction was: "The woman is so much bigger sized than her husband!"

Then it occured to me that, most Singaporeans are like that, no?

Like, we descriminate by size. "You're so fat and so, you're ugly. You disgust meeee."

Credits to killerxkate on Devart.

I think girls go thru so much torture! Once you're too fat, you're a 'goner', and at least fat guys don't find it so much of a chore to shop for clothing cuz all they need to do is get a bigger size and they might not look fat. Girls? Totally not the case.

And see, fat girls get anorexia cuz people say they're fat, and they get affected by that sentence. Googled and got this: Karen Carpenter (musician): Went on a water diet to lose weight and, ... Ana Carolina Reston: Brazilian model, starved herself to death in 2006. ...

And a model (who was skinny) went on an apple and tomato diet and died!

Okay so girls have a problem too. Hmm.

I guess its okay to be big-sized, unless you're unhealthily fat. Like, some people are born big-sized. What do you expect them to do about that? Idiots are the guys who call girls fat. That's honeslty the last thing you'd wanna call a girl! So guys, don't go around calling your girlfriends fat, or you'll never know what will happen next.

*dramatic piano piece plays*


Love the silly footballer who flies whenever he scores a goal tho! x) and his cute hair which he used to have. Sadly.

SAMIR NASRI IS THE LURRRRRRRVE.

L to the max.

Wtf.

Seriously la, I really wanna just scream my head off at you right now. I don't get you at all. Its like, you bad mood then bad mood la! Must come and take it out on me, is it? You're sleepy GO SLEEP LA. No one asked you to stay up till 3.37AM cuz you watch TV, then take it out on your daughter who doesn't stay up till 3AM everyday like you do!

Knew you'll do the usual check, and I thought you'll go to sleep after you realised that my doors were locked. Hell, I locked it so that I could change to sleep! Then you had to go get the bedroom keys from the cupboard. Wtf man. I wanna lock the doors also cannot ah? Thank God I changed my mind and decided to use the laptop a while longer before changing. I know I shouldn't stay up till so late, but at least give me some privacy la!

I HATE it when you scold me for nothing whenever you're in a bad mood. You may be my father, but I also am your DAUGHTER. If I can show you face, I don't see why you can't do the same for me. I can tell you're in a bad mood, you usually don't mind when I stay up late on weekends/holidays.

So fuck, if you're taking it out on me cuz you're groggy/had a bad day again, I'll just explode k.

Drunktard

I must admit- I can't hold my liquor very well.

Drank one glass of champagne and one glass of red wine and I felt like how I did at Uncle Collin's wedding! My mom said my face was damn red and yes, it was. :( no wonder I had a headache and felt damn warm. I hate the almost-drunk feeling.

Mel, I will NEVER go drinking with you. See ah-m opening a bottle of red wine and you're already going nuts. Hahaha.

Suddenly hit me that majority of my cousins I am closer to/see more often are in sporting CCAs, or we at least do sports. But the Neo family is super huge and I have like 15 cousins (plus me and bro) in my generation alone.

Tuition ended at 1, and after I ate my supposedly breakfast, I fell asleep till 5pm. Kept waking up, but when I went back to sleep my dreams continued! I found my dreams hilarious.

Even so, was so tempted to sleep at XYZ's (Jiaxuan, Jiaying, Jiawen) room while watching Tim, David, Gerald and Garian play Halo3. Hell tired.

Ate Turkish Delight! HAHAHA I remember in sec2 we used to tease this Opti sailor who had the words "turkish delight" on her boat. The way sailors recognise other sailors whom we don't know personally is funny. For example, "That SIN410 person ah, very-"

Went to Mel's place since the adults continued playing mahjong. Watched stupid Youtube vids and got tired so I came home at around 12.45AM.


7th APRIL = Linjie's birthday
8th APRIL = Gwen the Great's birthday
9th APRIL = Ms Balan and my awesome ge-pek's birthday

April is Awesome. ;)


THERE'S A FREAKING FLEA TOMORROW! But I can't go. And I got loads of work to do. Thought of going to get my Polaroid film tomorrow evening but no one's free.


Finally decided that I might get this phone.

Since I got no camera, might as well get a good camera phone, yes?

Or this one, its freaking pretty! With light effects and all. More of prettiness, less of good functions. Hmm.



NEVER GETTING TIRED OF THIS VIDEO!


11 April.

By now I would be penning down something and smiling like an idiot as I write it. Tradition? Not as much. I don't get what I'm feeling actually. Very mixed up, also very distracted from my studies. So I maintained for Jan and Feb, who cares?

Almost a month already and yet I'm like, HAHAHA CAN GO BANG A WALL AND DIE. I'm really damn tired of trying to get myself to hate, and showing how much I don't give a damn anymore on the outside.

But yet I'm kinda just keeping it in. Even my dreams!, like every week! I think I know why I've been so tired out already. Every time dream of something I don't wanna think about.. whatever I do reminds me of things we did.

If that isn't tiring, what is?

Told myself I'd get over it, just needed time. You're probably clean over it, and don't give a damn anymore. Good for you.

Question: Am I over it?

People who don't understand, just never will.

And why the hell am I writing all this in my blog? Ah whatev., see you people around. Kinda not in the mood to blog anymore. Happy sweet 16, G.


p.s. YC Lover, I really want time to give me the answers to my questions.

Love/Hate Situation

I feel so lifeless. No camera equals to HIGHLY no life.

Well, can't wait for after O's, my parents owe me my DSLR.

Oh, if anyone wants to sell me Polaroid 600 film or can inform me where to buy them, I'd love you like, forever! Seriously. Its so fun to have a polaroid, but a polaroid with no film makes you want to find a wall to bang.

(Polaroid camera's model: One Step Close Up)

Ran 2.4 today! Ugh bloody hot weather. Was the last person in 4E to finish. Embarassing much! Everyone was asking me what happened to my timing cuz I should have passed.

At least no one dissed me about my fitness, and Aaron had a nice way of asking.

Got grouped with Lipkoon again for English! Everytime we get grouped by Mdm Su., we always end up in the same group. Played Scrabble. English class my ass, Lipkoon got higher than me. Sadly Maruay wasn't in our group! He + Lipkoon = ULTIMATE CLOWNS.

Went down to NSC, rigged up my boat with the new sail. Apparently just as I was FINALLY done rigging up (the juniors didn't help me), I was happy and all when the CAT.1 signal sounded. Me and Nic Y. thought of launching, but when we saw rain coming towards us we ran to our sails to take them down.

Was dry actually, but it was raining so heavily. So I ran into the toilet, dumped my shoes there and ran outside to help the juniors. Good excuse to run out into the storm. I LOVE RAINY DAYS AND GETTING WET!

Can't wait till Ryan comes back for training. For some reason I can't fathom.

And to some; sec4 already, have some maturity. Just tahan for less than half a year. Don't think he's the root of all the problems in our sec4 group and he won't be.

BRYAN TAUGHT ME AND ZAKI HOW TO DO JUMPSTYLE! And in return I taught them how to do V-Variation for shuffling. Finally someone said I got style! :)

Bryan was like, "We can start our own Mayflower Sailing team dance group man. Got hiphop-er, jumpstyler, shuffler..".

Chatted the whole bus ride back with Quin, Linjie, Jack, Bryan and Zaki.

Me and Quin were like, reading this Chinese newspaper cutout that Jack passed to us. He was telling us some guy did more than him on the first try blah and we were like, "JACK!! JUST SAY OMG. SO YOU WIN OR NOT??"

Congrats! Hahaha now we know, just get pissed off if you wanna do more situps. And thanks for wanting to treat the sec4s to dinner! Haha.

Family brought me to eat chili crab, as my birthday dinner.

If theres one thing me and my mom have in common, its the love for seafood, especially crabs! Yummmm. Heehee. ;) my dad and bro absolutely dislike crab.


Okay shall update tomorrow. Need to catch some beauty Zzzs. Having tuition tomorrow before the family BBQ. Tiring shit.

seng il chukha hamnida Gee!

Its these little things that you notice-
these little things that make this person perfect.. to you.

Why do I still care? Yeah, great rhetorical question G.


I WANNA THANK SO MANY PEOPLE!

AGEK, sailors, Mel, Lover, Atiqah, Jiaqi, Manda, Sera, Jani, Alex, Qihua, Lianyi, Jingru, aiyah 4Endeavour in total!, Sally, Shanai, Eileen C., Joey T., Cass, Chuxian, Evelyn, Celine, Timothy, Dione, Xiaofen jiejie, Zahra jiejie, Carine, Loic, Kartini, Jonovan, Shirei, Cher Yee, Jacelyn, Gwen T., Yeongdeng, Hito, Kenkiong, Yining..

Okay I need time to recall. So many people wished me today!


I'm so sorry if you guys smsed me and I actually asked who are you! Gosh I feel so bad whenever I see an unknown number. Especially Eve! You wish me without fail every year, and I ask you every year without fail who are you cuz I always lose my phone! :(

AND MY MOM! For allowing me to cab to school cuz I was too tired today.

I don't know whats wrong with my body. Slept at like 10.30pm yesterday but my mom took so long to wake me up today.

AGEK, thanks for having dinner with me! And the lovely surprise in the canteen. Was so lonely waiting for you girls since I had Chinese period free, then suddenly a cake comes. Haha. Eileen, for missing like half of your pingpang qiu show @ 9PM just to have dinner with me. Hahaha. Its honestly been like forever since we had dinner on a school night. Can't wait till the O's are over, then we can have so much time together! LOVE YOU GIRLS LIKE HELL LOADS.

SAILORS! I can't tell you how much I'm beaming whenever I look at the polaroid camera on my table now k. Awesomeee. Belle you're awesome for even thinking of getting me a polaroid! :) hehe you guys finally saw my more crazy, screamish side when Belle passed it to me, ei? ;) I can't believe I freaking got a POLAROID for my birthday when I never actually asked for one. Okay besides blogging about how badly I wanted a polaroid, besides telling you guys "SOMEONE SPONSOR ME A DIGITAL CAMERA FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!" etc.. heh.

LOVE ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO WISHED ME TO BITS. BITTTTTTS!

Minus Ryan and Iggy! Ryan for not wishing me cuz he said I still owe him a present and cake, and Iggy for stealing bits of my cheesecake!


PT today was pure torture omg. 5 rounds outside school in the hot, scorching sun! Glad to say I came out of it alive.

Kept telling myself I wasn't as weak as SOMEONE made me out to be, couldn't let myself stop or he'll just have more things to pin-point me about, so I just kept going, "Mind over body" and "Pain is relative". :)

Never got stitches so badly before, so.. ouch.

But yeah never tortured myself so badly during my birthday. Thanks for the concern juniors! Sorry I forced myself to run. Hehehhhh.

Watching Ghost Hunters on Star World now and they just recorded a ghost talking! And they even made out what the ghost was saying. GHunters say, "Francis? Are you there? Can you say something?". Ghost says, "Hello? Is someone there? Of course I'm here! Where are you?"in this super old British slang. Okay thanks Dad, I can't sleep tonight.

And my stomach is hurting very badly now. Like, VERY.

TTFN. Thank you lovelies so much again for the lovely day!

I honestly thought my birthday would've been crap, but thanks to these special people, I was really, really happy today. Okay except for one.

Ah,

"Life sucks cuz of boys"



MANDA! This was what I was talking about. Members of 2PM and Wonder Girls tango to Nobody - the tango ver. Sohee and NichKhun are damn cute! Sohee is cute haha. He's the only one who actually felt up her waist la, the other guys got no chemistry with the girls.

NOTE: TAKE UP TANGO IN KOREA TO SEE SHUAIGE.

SOMEONE GET ME THIS SONG!

Currently learning this :)

Every Heart by BoA, used in the famous anime Inuyasha.

Was looking for LALALA LOVE SONG's (by BoA) piano sheets but I ended up finding Every Heart instead. And since I used to wanna learn this song.. why not?

This guy plays it so nicely too! Can't tell you how envious I am of him. Honestly, I can't stand it when guys play better than girls cuz guys are stereotyped as macho, manly, masculine! Playing the piano well doesn't count! :(

Oh well, I remember how when I was younger I always told myself my future husband must be able to play instruments well and yet isn't some sissy weeny, must be strong or something. HAHA.

Listened to him play so many times already. Damn nice :) I'VE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH A PIANO PLAYER OMG. :o


Some photos I took from mayflowersec.fotki:




Yay to sailing team 2 :) heh. I didn't post my stupid picture here cuz all the photos Mr Tan/Carlo took of me were hell unglam! :(

Photos taken using my bro's phone, which is the same one Dee lent me yet I let it get stolen from me. Ugh, shall hate Saturday trainings forever.

See the hugeass purplish/black bruise? It hurts whenever I just gently touch it wth.

Stupid flash made this photo purple. But yeah, I can't read piano notes just like *snap*. You should see the way I learn a score, damn pathetic. I press the keys one by one till the one on my keyboard matches the one on the score.

Just pasted those Post-Its on today, since I got too rusty already.

And see what my mom passed to me this morning!

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2GB USB CABLE! HAHAHA HOW CUTE IS THIS!

Getting a new phone on Thursday probably. Was thinking of getting a cheap one since I already have an iPod and a camera, but now that I don't have a camera I have to look for one that has a good camera. :(

And my parents are telling me to get a phone that's FOC with renewal of plan. No touch-screen phone fer me! :(

It seems like they're now very mindful with the way we spend our money. Dad says that tomorrow the automobile shop will call him to inform him if the car needs to be scraped or not. Mom said that if it needs to be, Dad will lose like $10k?

Thought of getting the same phone Dee lent me, but the camera quality sucks. So I just thought of getting the same one to replace it and give it to him as a way of apologizing cuz I still feel damn guilty that I lost his phone. Then I'll just stick to using the old passed-down phone.

Went to pray for gonggong and popo today afternoon.

Was contemplating whether to let my parents send me for sailing first, or send me after praying. Called Mr Yeo and told him I might go, depending on whether my body can take it.

Went down to the temple to lay out the offering. Burned joss sticks and stuff and prayed. Went inside the col-something to find my grandparent's ashes thing. Found them and I started tearing as I looked at their photo.

Can't say how much I miss them, words will never be enough.

My parents told me that me and Gerald were like the most doted on and that my grandparents would do ANYTHING for both of us, especially my gonggong, who would play with us whenever possible.

Sigh. I miss them so much.

At least now I remember my popo's departure date: 16/09/99. My gonggong's one is in.. start of year 2000.

After that it was too late to go down to NSC, didn't think the praying would take so long. And I was way too tired. So went down with my parents to buy the new taps and showerheads cuz all of those in my house spoilt. Went opposite school for dinner with them, then waited for the sailors.

Thought the first bus would only have juniors. Ah well. Went into school since my parents wanted to go off first. Mom went to NTUC cuz she wants to bake cheesecake with me later so that we can eat it tomorrow for my birthday :)

Saw the juniors come down. Iggy made fun of me again! Like how Wenfeng and Ryan did the night I talked to Lover. Haha.

The juniors remembered/know that my birthday's tomorrow! :D so honoured! Gladys gave me a hug awwww, and Shiting was damn nice too. Love them!

Mubarak and Weiming even said they wanted to give me a birthday bash on Thursday. And when sailors say birthday bash they mean hit you as many times as how old you are. But apparnetly I managed to miss their "birthday bashes" for the past few years :P

Just..

Looking forwards to a cheerful day tomorrow.

Hopefully nothing will get my mood down.

Parents wanna bring me to Airport's Terminal 3 for dinner, but I think I might be too tired after remedial+pt. :(

Well, looking forward to seeing my girls! :)

Watch it.

It took Aunty Tun 40mins to wake me up today.

I couldn't open my eyes, was too tired even tho I had what, 5hours of sleep in the afternoon and 6hours of sleep at night? I couldn't go back to sleep so I started thinking about - again, for God knows what reason why. Then I felt damn pathetic.

Tossed and turned, tried to get some shut eye but couldn't. I just started crying cuz I got all frustrated. Searched up some things on being mentally and emotionally drained, and for some reason I wanted to read my bible even tho I've not for a damn long time.

Went to search for it in my cupboard, where I usually put it.

To my ultimate horrors of horrors, I COULDN'T FIND IT. Omg it really meant a lot to me, especially since it was a gift from shepherd Yining! :( I DON'T LIKE PEOPLE MOVING MY STUFFS AROUND!!

http://realityworks.blogspot.com/2006_07_01_archive.html

Read on how it was like for me during interschools when I was sec1. The part where I chipped Tzuling's daggerboard and tiller extensions was hell funny. As I read my posts I remembered how horrible and guilty I felt, even tho it chipped off when Wenfeng (?) or someone helped me to recover my boat. Me, Ryan and David chipping our daggerboards together was the worst yet funniest part! Haha.

Some part of me is eagerly awaiting interschools..

2 more weeks guys!

To the sec4s:
Lets give it our best shot! For these two weeks, its time to chiong. Take charge of PT and show the juniors what we're really made of! 4 years of training and disicipline. :) you guys are like THE most awesome people I've ever met (besides AGEK), taking care of me like a little sister since there are only 2 girls and I'm like the most baby/weak one in our batch (Quinnie's tougher). Love you guys to the max!


Think I'll be going down to sail later even tho I'm still feverish now.

At least someone won't be able to diss me for my fitness. Cuz for your information, if theres one thing I don't like, its someone talking about me for my fitness level. And no Nic W., it wasn't you, and Ryan, it wasn't Jack.

Try almost-having something (I refuse to take my blood test to confirm it D:) that makes your blood pressure low, and makes you feel faint easily and have difficulty breathing. I'm already pushing myself a lot for sailing. I don't give two hoots about what you say but trying to diss every thing I pointed out? That's low.


If I really was the person you were trying to make me sound like during that so-called 'level bonding time', I would've gone home on the first afternoon of camp. You had NO IDEA how fucking pain my head felt, how many times I cried before you came cuz it hurt so badly, or how drained out I was cuz of Sports Day. You didn't see me when I suddenly stopped running and just sat down on the pavement outside school to grab my head while crying. Only Amanda and Wenfeng did, and she had to help me back inside school, where I cried even more cuz I felt so useless.

Besides the juniors, Wenfeng was really caring, telling me to skip the stations thing we did on the first day even tho I insisted on doing it, which I eventually did.

The whole "Some people were already sitting down after the first round of running" part of your little pointing-out talk. Think I didn't realise that I was the only sec4 sitting down after one round of running with the group?

Talking to WF during the 'bonding session' after Mrs Sidhu's mental preparation really helped. Even tho I cried infront of him, I didn't feel bad. Thats where I say, YOU have no freaking idea how bad I was feeling since day 1 of the camp; I'm sec4 yet my juniors are more fit than me! What kind of a useless senior am I?

So sometimes, before dissing me and pointing out my flaws in fitness, you should really consider how what you say affects me.

Thanks a lot ah, you should've just put Drey's name in the list of people running for Intercca relay so that you could've subbed in someone else instead of putting down my name when its confirmed I'll be there. I know I suck in running etc. It really made me feel damn bad and guilty for not enabling us to get 1st or something ya.

I know you hate me to the core, but sometimes you could chose better words. :)

And to the other, I'm really tired. Point said, point taken.

Okay enough of ranting. :):):)

Can't wait for interschools. Even tho I'll miss people like Ryan, Wenfeng, Nic W. and Linjie very much, still. I won't have to see or put up with some things anymore.

I love those guys!

But I don't like their scaring me on the last day of camp. Stupid Ryan!

p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINJIE, 1-DAY-OLDER-THAN-ME 'BRO'!



LOVEEEEEES. He plays LALALA LOVE SONG so nicely!

Hungry.

Never have a chocolate+custard-filled croissant thing 2 hours before dinner or you'll not eat dinner. And now I'm hungry for something soupy.

My body is pretty weird.

Did I mention I have a hugeass bruise on my left upper arm?

When I bathed this morning, I stared at it in the mirror cuz I thought it was a freaking fugly tanline! One closer look and I realised it was an ugly purple bruise. Mel, your favourite color.

Hallelujah.

Dad wants to bring us to the airport for dinner on my birthday! Memories of the place, haha funny. I wanna take a bus home from there again! Nice excuse for a nap.

Actually all I want now for my birthday is just a better phone and a CAMERA, omg just found out I can't live without one! And an Arsenal jersey with NASRI #8! MY DAD OWES ME THE LAST ONE.

I'm not looking forward to my birthday, obviously.

I forgot today was 6th April, 2 more days.

Can't recall the last time I forgot the date when it was 2 days before my birthday. Infact, by 5th April I'd be quite hyped up about my birthday coming. Which, I am NOT?

Maybe cuz I'm not expecting anything, and at the start of this year I was kinda hoping I'd be celebrating with a more special bunch of people/person, like -, AGEK, sailors etc like last year. But noooo, this year I can't/am unable to.

Can't celebrate with AGEK cuz we're all busy! Eileen and Ker has CCA? So a good lunch in school with them would suffice for it cuz I got PT after that. Sec4s promised we'd take on a more united front or something to taking charge of this CCA..

Well, we'll see about that.

NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO ANYTHING.

How pathetic can I get.

Who freaking wants to turn 16?
Well, not me.

Happy be-earlied birthday, Gwennie.


p.s.

HAHAHA Ryan. Now we can agree on your self-proclaimed cuteness.
Okay maybe not.

Never give up, on us.

I used to love sailing because of the people in it.

Well now, maybe not so much.

Thanks to people like the graduated seniors, Wenfeng, Ryan and Nic W., and some juniors, I actually enjoyed the camp a bit lesser than half.

I really disliked being there.

(Daomin, Chiaee, Trina etc: I'm so sorry I walked out of the toilet in a huff like that. I was really upset (NOT AT/WITH YOU GIRLS!), and I didn't wanna stay there and emo or something. Needed to be alone. You guys were being concerned and I just brushed you guys off like that, so I'm really, REALLY sorry.)

Talked to Lover at night after coming back from boat-washing. Miss talking to her like that! Its been so long. We're both so busy.. gosh. Was talking about how upset I was cuz ever since that incident, I never talked to the sec4 guys anymore.

The funny thing was, a while after I said that, some of the sec4 guys (minus 1) (like Wenfeng, Ryan, Nic Wong) came over to disturb me by saying it was so dark and they couldn't see who was sitting beside YC, and I threw my shoebag at them. Hahaha! Funny idiots. Love these guys loads. Thanks for always being there for me to cheer me up!

Who are your fair-weathered friends and who are your true friends?

OH THERE WAS A FIRE AT NSC. HAHAHA. Me and Jiabin spotted it. At first it was like this really, rilly small flame near the generators. We were getting stuffs from the cage. Then we stared at the small fire..

"Is that a fire?"
"Eh, looks pretty small. Its not those incense thing right."
"That thing beside it is the power generator, isn't it?"
"o___o omg."

-both slowly walks towards the generator and stares underneath it..-

*sees that the underneath of the generator is on fire. Like, BIG FLAMES GUSHING OUT FROM THE GREEN METAL THINGY*

"OH MY GOD."
"GWEN, ITS ON FIRE!!!!!"

And I ran out and shouted to the rest of the sailors, "FIREEEEEE!!!" and went to tell Mrs Sidhu.

No photos cuz even tho I brought a camera, I spent the mornings and nights manually deleting the hundreds of photos I took, so long that the batt I charged went from 145+mins to 15mins when I returned it.

Took 2 photos from Farhana's Facebook. Shall look for more later when my internet decides not to cock up on me.

Zach Poon, Wenfeng, Jack, Nic W., Quin, me, Linjie and Ryan.
Loveeee these people.

Btw, thanks Older Bro for the talk that night.
For once, I was looking at a side of you I've never really seen.
Thanks for being there. :)

Sleepy heads Trina, (not sure who), Marilyn, Daomin and me. HAHA.

Was so good to see Tzuling, Luoling, Ning and Peckkhee again!


After sailing the (new) boats from NSC to SAFYC Changi (Jhing towed us there, if not it would've taken like 2 hours to sail there), we derigged, showered and headed back for school.

Slept the whole bus ride and woke up with my right leg and left arm numb cuz I slept till my arm was sticking out and dangling.

Saw some band people coming down while we dried our CRISPY NEW sails, but didn't see Yokeching. :(

Felt feverish and wanted to cab back, but decided not to waste money so I took a bus. Finally ate spaghetti for dinner and fell asleep after watching TV/laptop.

Was supposedly meant to meet Celine and her mom to look at a new phone, but was too tired. Sorry girl! Meeting you on Thursday, yes?

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Aunty Tun had to call me up a few times this morning. I had like, 9 hours of sleep and yet I was still so tired I couldn't wake up.

Trudged my way to school, literally.

Felt damn giddy during the singing of the national anthem and had no energy to say the pledge. Thought I was gonna faint, and Ker kept asking me to go home. Informed Ms Balan after morning assemb.

It was too cold in the office, so I went outside to sit.

Thanks Ker, for running around to find Mdm Loh to sign the form! :)

Called my mom to come down to pick me up. She had a tinge of what the hell in her voice.

I was like, feverish and giddy. Waited outside the G.O. from around 7.50AM to 9.20. Saw Marilyn headed to get her bandage changed so I accompanied her.

Was damn upset with some stuffs my mom said, very insensitive.


Maybe I fall sick so often its nothing new to her. But doesn't it occur to you that if your daughter calls you to pick her up from school, she must be really quite sick?


Had my breakfast and fell asleep till 3.40pm. Still felt damn tired when I woke up. Dad bought me something from the airport's Crystal Jade! :D Seems like whenever I'm sick, I get a lot of food to eat. FAT.


p.s. Pictures of Nasri for you to ogle at since I've not been blogging about him..

Nasri why you never fly with him :(

CUTIE PIEEEE OMG.

I'm gonna cut out the article on Sunday's newspaper and highlight Nasri's name cuz the writer put him under his (opinion) skilled players of Arsenal list.

EPL 2010, WATCH OUT FOR THE GUNNERS MAN.

(I'm very sad that Nasri didn't play for Saturday's match tho. Shall look forward to tomorrow's match! ARSENAL vs. VILLARREAL!)

Just realised I liked Nasri since quite a while back!
http://realityworks.blogspot.com/2008/10/wakey-wakey.html

HAHA to you people who thought I just started liking him!

WELCOME BACK, FABREGAS!

We all love Youtube.

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Yes, we all LUV youtube.

I am.. upside down.

April Fool's!

My day started off with me walking into 4E, seeing a kinda depressed Manda sitting at her seat.

I put down my bag, turned to her and said "Good morning Manda!" and sat down while preparing for Chem. She turned to me looking very gloomy and said, "Gwen.. I got bad news for you.... My family is migrating to Australia in December.."

Immediately Ker and Mel's head turned behind and we were all staring at a depressed Manda, looking like she was close to tears. Ker said, "You going with your family?"

"To join your sister is it?" was all I could say actually.

"Yes.."

After a while of silence.. Ker's facial expression started to change to one that looked suspicious.

"You're bluffing us, aren't you?"

"April Fool's!"

As usual, in Gwen-slowness, I looked at Manda and went, "So are you migrating?" and all 3 of them were like, "OMG GWEN!!! HAHAHA SLOWWWW."

=.=


During Chemistry, Mr Lim started by giving us a pop quiz. Structural equations.. I stared at my foolscap paper dumbfounded for the whole 30mins plus. "20 pumping per wrong answer!"

I was like, very frustrated cuz everyone was writing at least SOMETHING, but I was just staring at my paper. And I was having a headache.

"Times up! Okay exchange your papers."

"Who got 15?" (if I remembered correctly full marks is 15).. "Who got 14?" and so on. When he hit the "who got 5?" he decided to stop counting down cuz he didn't expect someone to get lower than 5.

"20 per wrong answer ah!" and the whole class made noise.

Thru the noise, I shouted, "Eh Mr Lim!! Get 0 marks do how many?"

Suddenly the whole class went quiet and turned to look at me. QH was like, "WELL DONE GWEN! LOL OMG."

Then the whole class made noise that 20 was too much and he cut it down to 10 per wrong answer. So we did ours, and naturally I was slowest cuz I had 140 pushups to do, and I could only do boy's style since we never do girl's style in sailing. "Wah, Gwen, boy's style ah! Power leh.."

"Gwen, how much already?"

"93!!!"

"Okay nevermind, go back to your seat la, haha."

When I walked past him, "April Fool's!! HAHAHA, when did I EVER make you guys do pumping for wrong answers in a pop quiz!!! HAHAHAHAAA."

o____o

Me no likey April Fool's.

(psssst, Mr Lim! You DID make us do pumping once in sec3 for a pop quiz. "10 pumping per wrong answer hor!" I remembered I did 70 pumping.)

During English you could hear this boy screaming "APRIL FOOL'S!! HAHAHAHA APRILLLL FOOLSSSSS!!!!! AHHHH HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"

And oh, we got the old man replacement during Chinese again! Oh goodness. Xuanming kept disturbing me while me and Alex kept talking! Funny idiot.


Didn't run during PT today cuz my flu was back. I really need to start sleeping earlier. I didn't eat breakfast this morning cuz dad was giving Gerald a ride to school in his temporary replacement car (his car is still at the workshop) so I rushed.

Started to feel the effects of sleeping late + skipping breakfast again. You get horribly whoozy, and you can't think straight. Plus the fact I'm bleeding (yes, monthly thing), its just horrible to skip breakfast.

Nevertheless, only ate a proper meal during Lit remedial.

Settling the jersey nonsense with the sailors is hard work!

While Iggy, Belle and Yeow camped in 4E doing their debate script while I helped out with the hamster, Iggy got a call.

He told me, "Eh you know, the shop called me. I thought it was an April Fool's prank you know! Almost said 'FUCK YOU!' into the phone leh. Then I listen and listened, they told me all the sizes and I realised it was real. -.-"

HAHAHA.

So they'll be getting our jerseys ASAP. :\

Jack suggested that the sec4s make a jacket like Zac Poon's year did. Actually, not a bad idea cuz Nic Wong also suggested that. But Ryan and Iggy had a good time dissing his (Jack's) idea the moment it came out of his mouth..

Surprisingly I didn't join in.

Walked to the bus stop with Ryan and we were like talking as randomly as we were! He OFFERED to calculate the total amount of money I collect for the jerseys, which would be like 600bucks?

Thanks so much Takyongggg! :):):) good to have a friend who is good in Math, and offers to help you calculate MONEY. I would've died calculating that big sum.

So, people who are making the jerseys,

OWE MONEY, PAY MONEY!!!
Whoohooooo, I love being treasurer sometimes.


And those who haven't paid the sailing funds..
OWE MONEY, PAY MONEY TO YOU TOO!


My dad's coming home with Burger King for me and Gerald to share. :) I'm awaiting it eagerly. And I'm not very sure what is up with my weird appetite recently. I never get hungry till 9pm plus, which is bad cuz you get fat eating around that time.

Okay, back to my long-awaited research on Autism I've been owing Ms Balan since forever! Plus my research on the book Heart of Darkness, which appeared in our Lit text.


p.s. I spent 2 hours plus trying to fix my printer, when the only problem was THE USB CABLE WAS LOOSE AT THE PRINTER! UGHHHHH for the household's tech-savvy person, I AM kinda stupid.