After work today, I was so tired that the 20-minute nap on my dad's car wasn't enough. I came home, tried to keep my eyes open enough to watch Ned's Declassified School Survival Guide, but when I was waiting for iCarly to show, the advertisements were too much for my stripped-of-sleep body and I fell asleep.
I thought I had a dream that my dad woke me up to open my letter from NYP regarding my DAE application. I swear it felt so real yet so.. dream-ish. Maybe what was written in the letter made me want it to be a dream.
If you didn't already figure out, even NYP rejected me for DAE.
My 'dream' was so surreal that after waking up at 9.30pm, I just had to go to the letter pile and double-check. I know I shouldn't have been, but I was taken back. The letter's infront of me now and to be honest, all I feel is a bitter feeling and a bit of hatred.
I should've been prepared. Really, I was. Or at least, I thought I was.
Inside, I'm really scared. I can feel myself frown after re-reading that letter to confirm it wasn't a dream..
...I really don't know why I let myself screw this up.
Sigh Celine I really, really, really miss you! Hate you for watching Dear John without me. Okay I'm kidding. Give me a call if you read this! :)
How's it like to feel lonely? Well I know how it feels like.
On a side note, work's been better ever since I could talk to Sharifah, Darry, Judy etc. Less intimidating and awkward I guess?
Friday, March 05, 2010
Thursday, March 04, 2010
Nap Time
Its not even 5.30am and yet, here I am, awake and getting ready for work.
My bravery is to be commended.
Though.. Technically speaking, I AM still half asleep. As I stood infront of the washroom's mirror washing my face, I could feel myself drifting back into Lala Land, similar to what I'm doing now as I sit on my bed, eyes half-open due to the fan blowing directly in my face..
Sigh. Lesson learnt: The next time I agree to do opening, the 6am-2pm shift, I should really consider sleeping earlier.......
....... Zzz.
My bravery is to be commended.
Though.. Technically speaking, I AM still half asleep. As I stood infront of the washroom's mirror washing my face, I could feel myself drifting back into Lala Land, similar to what I'm doing now as I sit on my bed, eyes half-open due to the fan blowing directly in my face..
Sigh. Lesson learnt: The next time I agree to do opening, the 6am-2pm shift, I should really consider sleeping earlier.......
....... Zzz.
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
Dreams
Kerrie says this doesn't look like me:
I was so bored I ended up watching old videos of me dancing.
Found this at Bettina's Youtube channel and realised I still remember my first choreography.
I put so much effort into it, planning the moves and watching videos that would help 'till 3 in the morning or so? I always went to bed a bit sweaty because I danced infront of my very narrow mirror before sleeping. (As a matter of fact, I still do)
Yeah, I find myself scary at times like this.
It surprises me how much effort I can put into one thing, yet at the same time how little effort I can put into another. In this context it would be Dance vs. My Studies.
While showering just now, I took the time to reflect. It dawned on me that I have always been very shy to admit I have always wanted to be a well-known choreographer/dancer while singing for fun; as a hobby. I wanted to debut in Korea and.. Well, lets just say I'm very ambitious in my goals. (I'm still thinking twice about whether I should delete this before clicking on "Publish Post")
I wish I had the courage of, say, Alex and Syafiqah. They love singing and aren't afraid to do so infront of people. I, on the other hand, never sang infront of my parents before. Except for the time I was younger and very much into F.I.R. and ended up singing that at a karaoke session. That was the only time I opened up infront of my parents.
I never danced infront of them too.
Infact, how many of my friends have actually seen me dance are countable with a hand or two. Yes I would say a hand.
After reading Matthew Liu's blog and profile (he added me on Facebook. Am still in denial about how one event like this got me to be 'suddenly inspired'), it hit me, while I was showering, that life is too short to be 'shy' about everything.
My showers are deemed my "Thinking Time".
But how do I get over this shyness? I have no idea how to rid of being shy, much less do what I love infront of friends and family. I want to be like my cousin, teaching dance at a costly rate as a hobby. His name's Tze Yi (my aunt said he goes by the same Zee(?) online?) and he does salsa I believe. He was on newspapers, magazines, videos, competing in countries like Melbourne..
How I would love to be in his shoes.
We read this article which had him and other 'eligible bachelors' on CLEO or something. They nicknamed him Singapore's Rain (Rain as in the Korean star). My parents were impressed because they never saw this dressy side of him. Around us, he's in specs, jeans and a random tee.
Sigh.
Now to plan my first step into pursuing what I REALLY want to do: Mass Comm in Ngee Ann Poly.
Again, I'll shyly admit that I only wanted to get into NP for dance at first. I was all gung ho about Junior College since forever. The NP dream started one fine day 2 years ago, when Jiaqi and Sera told me NP was known for its hip hop CCA -- NRA.
As of now, my dad's hoping I would get through the DAE application to Nanyang Poly. He just spoke to me and told me to appeal to Republic Poly as well. "Take whatever chance you have to get you somewhere instead of wasting one year."
Even so, I already plan to get a good GPA in whatever course DAE leads me to, and then transfer out for Mass Comm by the next year. It sounds mean, but I would do anything for me to get into my dream course. Dad, isn't that as good as wasting a year?
Then again, I AM only (going-to-be) 17! I still have many years ahead of me before I become old and rot in a bed, paralysed and urinating through a tube.
Ew..
Um.. Yeah. Ugh ew gross I really wouldn't want to die when I have to urinate through a tube. Ew, ew, ew! Oh great now being 90 years old really doesn't seem like a pretty sight for me. Thanks to this thought, I would NEVER look forward to growing old, retiring and admitting myself into a costly hospital so that my kids and husband would sit around me as my days go by.
I was so bored I ended up watching old videos of me dancing.
Found this at Bettina's Youtube channel and realised I still remember my first choreography.
I put so much effort into it, planning the moves and watching videos that would help 'till 3 in the morning or so? I always went to bed a bit sweaty because I danced infront of my very narrow mirror before sleeping. (As a matter of fact, I still do)
Yeah, I find myself scary at times like this.
It surprises me how much effort I can put into one thing, yet at the same time how little effort I can put into another. In this context it would be Dance vs. My Studies.
While showering just now, I took the time to reflect. It dawned on me that I have always been very shy to admit I have always wanted to be a well-known choreographer/dancer while singing for fun; as a hobby. I wanted to debut in Korea and.. Well, lets just say I'm very ambitious in my goals. (I'm still thinking twice about whether I should delete this before clicking on "Publish Post")
I wish I had the courage of, say, Alex and Syafiqah. They love singing and aren't afraid to do so infront of people. I, on the other hand, never sang infront of my parents before. Except for the time I was younger and very much into F.I.R. and ended up singing that at a karaoke session. That was the only time I opened up infront of my parents.
I never danced infront of them too.
Infact, how many of my friends have actually seen me dance are countable with a hand or two. Yes I would say a hand.
After reading Matthew Liu's blog and profile (he added me on Facebook. Am still in denial about how one event like this got me to be 'suddenly inspired'), it hit me, while I was showering, that life is too short to be 'shy' about everything.
My showers are deemed my "Thinking Time".
But how do I get over this shyness? I have no idea how to rid of being shy, much less do what I love infront of friends and family. I want to be like my cousin, teaching dance at a costly rate as a hobby. His name's Tze Yi (my aunt said he goes by the same Zee(?) online?) and he does salsa I believe. He was on newspapers, magazines, videos, competing in countries like Melbourne..
How I would love to be in his shoes.
We read this article which had him and other 'eligible bachelors' on CLEO or something. They nicknamed him Singapore's Rain (Rain as in the Korean star). My parents were impressed because they never saw this dressy side of him. Around us, he's in specs, jeans and a random tee.
Sigh.
Now to plan my first step into pursuing what I REALLY want to do: Mass Comm in Ngee Ann Poly.
Again, I'll shyly admit that I only wanted to get into NP for dance at first. I was all gung ho about Junior College since forever. The NP dream started one fine day 2 years ago, when Jiaqi and Sera told me NP was known for its hip hop CCA -- NRA.
As of now, my dad's hoping I would get through the DAE application to Nanyang Poly. He just spoke to me and told me to appeal to Republic Poly as well. "Take whatever chance you have to get you somewhere instead of wasting one year."
Even so, I already plan to get a good GPA in whatever course DAE leads me to, and then transfer out for Mass Comm by the next year. It sounds mean, but I would do anything for me to get into my dream course. Dad, isn't that as good as wasting a year?
Then again, I AM only (going-to-be) 17! I still have many years ahead of me before I become old and rot in a bed, paralysed and urinating through a tube.
Ew..
Um.. Yeah. Ugh ew gross I really wouldn't want to die when I have to urinate through a tube. Ew, ew, ew! Oh great now being 90 years old really doesn't seem like a pretty sight for me. Thanks to this thought, I would NEVER look forward to growing old, retiring and admitting myself into a costly hospital so that my kids and husband would sit around me as my days go by.
Monday, March 01, 2010
Jeremy Sumpter!, and a Rant on Movies
Not that I'm sidetracking from Nathan Kress (okay I'll admit, I am a little bit) after realising Jeremy Sumpter's now in another movie that I actually KNOW of.. But yes, I'm now obsessed with Jeremy Sumpter all over again!
I sound like the K-Pop fangirl I once was again.
Do you not recall who Jeremy Sumpter is?
Try remembering Peter Pan, shown in Singapore back then when we were maybe primary 4 or 5. I remember watching it in Junction 8's cinemas and finding him cute that he was my wallpaper on my desktop. My dad saw it and was like, "Why is there a guy on your wallpaper? And so many of it somemore??" (It was a small photo of him taken off his website, so I had to put it on repeat to cover the whole screen)
But YES!
He's acting in this new movie You're So Cupid. Doubt its showing in cinemas or at least, not in Singapore's cinemas, but I found it while watching this video of Jennette McCurdy's new movie- Minor Details!
Was about to come here and tell you guys to go check it out and support her by buying the movie on iTunes (yes, its only available on iTunes) if you're able to because she is awesome!
Then I saw a comment about You're So Cupid and the person said Jeremy Sumpter was acting in it so I immediately went to check it out and I'm glad to say HE'S JUST AS CUTE AS HE WAS IN PETER PAN! Only.. taller, bigger, and with a deeper voice that I'm not really used to.
Aahhhhhhh, he's so cute! What a heartthrob.
Okay so here's the trailer for You're So Cupid:
And THEN I found out he was on CSI: Miami!
SYAFIQAH I KNOW YOU LOVE CSI! I wonder if you ever watched this episode:
Is he cute or WHAT?!
I was reading the uploader's info about the video and I laughed when I read this part: "btw if u r below 13 and u love jeremy...well here's a warning: zach griffith is not exactly..peter pan.... but jeremy is a good boy,i bet :p"
Haha, "Zach Griffith is not exactly.. Peter Pan". That was hilarious.
Yesssssssss I'm in love with Jeremy Sumpter all over again!
I squealed at this. Fangirl much. But who can help it? He's such a cutie!
Okay sorry about digressing. As I said, I was originally here to support Jennette McCurdy (of iCarly. She plays Sam).
She's a favourite of mine, besides Jamie Lynn Spears (Zoey on Zoey 101), Emma Roberts and Victoria Justice for the actresses.
Then I realised, via Youtube AGAIN, that she was on CSI: Crime Scene Investigation too. How awesome is that?
By the way, for all the Avatar: Legend of Aang fans out there, don't you agree that the real-life movie that is based on the cartoon spoiled the cartoon itself?
Celine, Angie, Anthony and I caught the trailer at Genting's cinema's ticketing booth. We all felt that it was nonsense. The graphics are good but who cares about the graphics when Aang looks like a weirdo with an arrow on his head??
Don't you think its like Dragonball Z? The anime was alright to me, awesome to the fans. But when it came out as a live action movie, it completely ruined my image of the anime.
Tell me how this guy
Looks like this Chinese/Japanese-looking character?!
Gosh the guy who picks the cast must be blind or something.
I sound like the K-Pop fangirl I once was again.
Do you not recall who Jeremy Sumpter is?
Try remembering Peter Pan, shown in Singapore back then when we were maybe primary 4 or 5. I remember watching it in Junction 8's cinemas and finding him cute that he was my wallpaper on my desktop. My dad saw it and was like, "Why is there a guy on your wallpaper? And so many of it somemore??" (It was a small photo of him taken off his website, so I had to put it on repeat to cover the whole screen)
But YES!
He's acting in this new movie You're So Cupid. Doubt its showing in cinemas or at least, not in Singapore's cinemas, but I found it while watching this video of Jennette McCurdy's new movie- Minor Details!
Was about to come here and tell you guys to go check it out and support her by buying the movie on iTunes (yes, its only available on iTunes) if you're able to because she is awesome!
Then I saw a comment about You're So Cupid and the person said Jeremy Sumpter was acting in it so I immediately went to check it out and I'm glad to say HE'S JUST AS CUTE AS HE WAS IN PETER PAN! Only.. taller, bigger, and with a deeper voice that I'm not really used to.
Aahhhhhhh, he's so cute! What a heartthrob.
Okay so here's the trailer for You're So Cupid:
And THEN I found out he was on CSI: Miami!
SYAFIQAH I KNOW YOU LOVE CSI! I wonder if you ever watched this episode:
Is he cute or WHAT?!
I was reading the uploader's info about the video and I laughed when I read this part: "btw if u r below 13 and u love jeremy...well here's a warning: zach griffith is not exactly..peter pan.... but jeremy is a good boy,i bet :p"
Haha, "Zach Griffith is not exactly.. Peter Pan". That was hilarious.
Yesssssssss I'm in love with Jeremy Sumpter all over again!
I squealed at this. Fangirl much. But who can help it? He's such a cutie!
Okay sorry about digressing. As I said, I was originally here to support Jennette McCurdy (of iCarly. She plays Sam).
She's a favourite of mine, besides Jamie Lynn Spears (Zoey on Zoey 101), Emma Roberts and Victoria Justice for the actresses.
Then I realised, via Youtube AGAIN, that she was on CSI: Crime Scene Investigation too. How awesome is that?
By the way, for all the Avatar: Legend of Aang fans out there, don't you agree that the real-life movie that is based on the cartoon spoiled the cartoon itself?
Celine, Angie, Anthony and I caught the trailer at Genting's cinema's ticketing booth. We all felt that it was nonsense. The graphics are good but who cares about the graphics when Aang looks like a weirdo with an arrow on his head??
Don't you think its like Dragonball Z? The anime was alright to me, awesome to the fans. But when it came out as a live action movie, it completely ruined my image of the anime.
Tell me how this guy
Looks like this Chinese/Japanese-looking character?!
Gosh the guy who picks the cast must be blind or something.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Ker
Sigh I really meant "Zebra print-loving". But what came to mind was Ker's reaction whenever she sees Zebra stuff she didn't have, "ZEBRAAAA! ZEBRA!"
So I typed "zebra" and not "zebra print".
Then again, that was in the past. Now her reaction to zebra things would be:
"I already have that!"
Teehee :)
Teehee :)
Ker jokingly requested this special post for her, but I still went ahead and did it anyway. Hope you like it! Also decided to test out these wording images I've been planning to do every once in a while to put up on my blog. They came out nice :)
Aw now I feel like doing more for my friends!
Aw now I feel like doing more for my friends!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Sunrise
Sonia's such a beautiful kid.I think all the sailors who visited Mrs Sidhu's house for Chinese New Year that day loved playing with her. She's just full of bubbly cuteness!
I finally got to see this girl again yesterday! Felt like forever since I last seen her. We might be catching Dear John this Friday. I can't wait!
Short/Long??
I need help! Here I am, at 4.15am, listening to SHINee's 'Senorita' and 'Love Like Oxygen' (their old album never gets old)while wondering if I should snip off my precious long hair!!
The hair dresser ruined my long hair by snipping off too much of the top, making it too poofed up on top and the shape doesn't flow to the bottom. It looks like I tried to do a layered mushroom head WITH LONG HAIR! Something like MVP Qing Ren's lead actress? That Angella girl? While she was acting in it, but worse, worse, worse!!
After sitting infront of the mirror for like half an hour tying up my hair to make it look like its short and comparing it to my long hair, I thought the short looked better.
But I spent about 5 years growing this damned hair out! Blame Aitong School for not allowing us to keep our hair long! I had a short tomboy bob for 4 years? 2 years before that I had a short bob/cutesie haircut with bangish fringe. How awesome.
I've had (AHEM) Rihanna's hair long before she had it! But.. it was the uncool version of her hair. Ahem.
Decisions, decisions, decisions!!
Nothing's stopping me now except the fact I'll feel empty without my long hair! Like how we girls always put our hair to the front especially when we wear low-cut tops or sleeveless dresses so as to ''cover up'' and not feel so bare?
Ugh..!
The hair dresser ruined my long hair by snipping off too much of the top, making it too poofed up on top and the shape doesn't flow to the bottom. It looks like I tried to do a layered mushroom head WITH LONG HAIR! Something like MVP Qing Ren's lead actress? That Angella girl? While she was acting in it, but worse, worse, worse!!
After sitting infront of the mirror for like half an hour tying up my hair to make it look like its short and comparing it to my long hair, I thought the short looked better.
But I spent about 5 years growing this damned hair out! Blame Aitong School for not allowing us to keep our hair long! I had a short tomboy bob for 4 years? 2 years before that I had a short bob/cutesie haircut with bangish fringe. How awesome.
I've had (AHEM) Rihanna's hair long before she had it! But.. it was the uncool version of her hair. Ahem.
Decisions, decisions, decisions!!
Nothing's stopping me now except the fact I'll feel empty without my long hair! Like how we girls always put our hair to the front especially when we wear low-cut tops or sleeveless dresses so as to ''cover up'' and not feel so bare?
Ugh..!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
That song you Softly Sing is keeping you from Breaking
Life's good when you're just able to lounge around on your bed, listening to your favourite playlist, renamed ''#1'' instead of the old ''For my Daily Listens'' (yes, all my playlists have these really redundant names like 'Boogie!', 'To hustle!', 'For when I'm a Crazy Wreck' and 'Momentarily, it'll pass')
I apologise for the lack of photos. Honestly I've taken many pretty shots and would like to show 'em, but my laptop (named Laptop) has been failing me. Too many songs and photos I presume?
The past few days have been awesome.
Monday will always be the day I'll look forward to because I'll be attending Choonhui's lessons.
She's such an inspirational teacher that I'm talking about her here!
Have you ever had a teacher so fun, wonderful and encouraging that you'd wanna pass/excel just for her? So as not to let her down?
Choonhui makes me feel this way. Two dance lessons and a short conversation made me aspire to be like her. She's the perfect example of who I would like to be. Sigh, I was so awed by her as we had a little chat with her today after class that I heard myself going ''WOOOOW!'' and ''Aah~'' and ''Oh really? Ah that's so cool!'' every few seconds.
So far at SW, Choonhui and Maybelle are my favourite teachers. Though I've not talked much to Maybelle and Glady, I can tell they're pretty friendly teachers. For some reason Glady doesn't seem to be very fond of us. Oops. :(
Digressing from the main topic, I really should stop playing LAN soon (that goes to Ker and Lex too!). I'm not addicted to the game of L4D2, neither am I eager to play it, but the thought of playing with friends always makes it 10 times more fun.
Actually I'm pretty sick of anything to do with online gaming cuz I used to game with the sailors pretty often.. Hm.
Sigh.
I love heart-to-heart sessions with Alex! We had another one today over bubble gum and camwhoring under my block after we played L4D2 at Raiders 'till 10.
For now, life seems good. With good friends, a stronger bond with my family and a poorer luck at anything to do with gambling, I shall conclude that 2010 WILL be a good year.
There is one particular friend of mine I terribly miss though..
Celine, how are you?
I apologise for the lack of photos. Honestly I've taken many pretty shots and would like to show 'em, but my laptop (named Laptop) has been failing me. Too many songs and photos I presume?
The past few days have been awesome.
Monday will always be the day I'll look forward to because I'll be attending Choonhui's lessons.
She's such an inspirational teacher that I'm talking about her here!
Have you ever had a teacher so fun, wonderful and encouraging that you'd wanna pass/excel just for her? So as not to let her down?
Choonhui makes me feel this way. Two dance lessons and a short conversation made me aspire to be like her. She's the perfect example of who I would like to be. Sigh, I was so awed by her as we had a little chat with her today after class that I heard myself going ''WOOOOW!'' and ''Aah~'' and ''Oh really? Ah that's so cool!'' every few seconds.
So far at SW, Choonhui and Maybelle are my favourite teachers. Though I've not talked much to Maybelle and Glady, I can tell they're pretty friendly teachers. For some reason Glady doesn't seem to be very fond of us. Oops. :(
Digressing from the main topic, I really should stop playing LAN soon (that goes to Ker and Lex too!). I'm not addicted to the game of L4D2, neither am I eager to play it, but the thought of playing with friends always makes it 10 times more fun.
Actually I'm pretty sick of anything to do with online gaming cuz I used to game with the sailors pretty often.. Hm.
Sigh.
I love heart-to-heart sessions with Alex! We had another one today over bubble gum and camwhoring under my block after we played L4D2 at Raiders 'till 10.
For now, life seems good. With good friends, a stronger bond with my family and a poorer luck at anything to do with gambling, I shall conclude that 2010 WILL be a good year.
There is one particular friend of mine I terribly miss though..
Celine, how are you?
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Nathan Kress
If you can't tell from my post a few days back, Nathan Kress is my latest eye-candy:
No, not the fat dude. The cute guy in the red shirt!
Yes, I know, I know. I'm 16-going-on-17 and I watch iCarly. But hey, I see a lot of teenagers and adults on the Facebook fanpage for Nathan Kress and they all watch iCarly! HAHA. I came across a photo of this woman who took a self-portrait of her with a piece of paper and it wrote:
Or something like that. Too cute!
My favourite photos of Nathan Kress:
I LOVE LOVE LOVE this photo of him and Fred (from Youtube)!
The shirts are too cute. 'Freddie' and 'Fred'.
That's what the person who edited the photo meant by "We're tight, literally."
DOES HE LOOK GOOD IN THIS PHOTO OR WHAT??!
Can't wait to catch this iCarly episode!
Its iSaved Your Life.
This is THE smile his fangirls swoon over..
*Melts*
Him trying out his new hairstyle.
Believe he's tired of the Fredward Benson hair of fringe-standing-up.
Okay fine in this photo he doesn't look that good in this photo but its my MSN display picture so I don't care I just want to put it up here. Hmph.
I have like a gazillion icons of him, taken off Livejournal Communities. The Groovy Smoothie especially! Can't wait to start making my own icons of him.
On days like this, I love putting my iTunes on shuffle mode.
Love 'rediscovering' some of my 1299 songs. Alex told me that must be why my laptop runs slowly. 1299 songs.. Pfft. I can't help it! I'm a darned music junkie who enjoys quality music.... :\
Dad offered to pay $500 for my MacBook today. I don't know if I should accept the offer. I'm sooooo stubborn that I annoy myself sometimes. Anyway, I'm still waiting 'till March to see if I'm gonna be accepted into NYP before thinking about my MacBook because if I get into their school, I might buy a MBP (MacBook Pro) instead of a MacBook, you see.
Hito says I don't need a MBP for now since I'm just getting it for the basics and the high quality graphics, mainly for photography. Unless I'm doing digital animation or design.
And I persuaded him to get me and Gerald a desktop to share! He was saying, "Huh?? Plus your MacBook and our current Lenovo, you need one more desktop for what?"
Eh, our Lenovo is bullshit now, so of course we need a desktop!
Then you know what he suggests? A second-hand one. Either that OR a $600 desktop. Um..?
Okay I'll admit I just want the desktop cuz it has more space, so I can play Sims and Neopets without the computer lagging on me like my *ahem* Awesome Laptop. Its so Awesome that even NEOPET GAMES make my FireFox lag. How Awesome is THAT!
(Sarcasm totally intended.)
Ah. My mind's blank now. Shall update tomorrow cuz its TIME FOR DINNER!
I'll leave you guys with two photos of Eileen's Haley. I kept forgetting to upload it after editing. Took it the last time Lex and I were at her place.
No, not the fat dude. The cute guy in the red shirt!Yes, I know, I know. I'm 16-going-on-17 and I watch iCarly. But hey, I see a lot of teenagers and adults on the Facebook fanpage for Nathan Kress and they all watch iCarly! HAHA. I came across a photo of this woman who took a self-portrait of her with a piece of paper and it wrote:
"If this makes you feel better, I'm 23 and I still watch iCarly."
Or something like that. Too cute!
My favourite photos of Nathan Kress:
I LOVE LOVE LOVE this photo of him and Fred (from Youtube)!The shirts are too cute. 'Freddie' and 'Fred'.
That's what the person who edited the photo meant by "We're tight, literally."
DOES HE LOOK GOOD IN THIS PHOTO OR WHAT??!Can't wait to catch this iCarly episode!
Its iSaved Your Life.
This is THE smile his fangirls swoon over..*Melts*
Him trying out his new hairstyle.Believe he's tired of the Fredward Benson hair of fringe-standing-up.
Okay fine in this photo he doesn't look that good in this photo but its my MSN display picture so I don't care I just want to put it up here. Hmph.
I have like a gazillion icons of him, taken off Livejournal Communities. The Groovy Smoothie especially! Can't wait to start making my own icons of him.
On days like this, I love putting my iTunes on shuffle mode.
Love 'rediscovering' some of my 1299 songs. Alex told me that must be why my laptop runs slowly. 1299 songs.. Pfft. I can't help it! I'm a darned music junkie who enjoys quality music.... :\
Dad offered to pay $500 for my MacBook today. I don't know if I should accept the offer. I'm sooooo stubborn that I annoy myself sometimes. Anyway, I'm still waiting 'till March to see if I'm gonna be accepted into NYP before thinking about my MacBook because if I get into their school, I might buy a MBP (MacBook Pro) instead of a MacBook, you see.
Hito says I don't need a MBP for now since I'm just getting it for the basics and the high quality graphics, mainly for photography. Unless I'm doing digital animation or design.
And I persuaded him to get me and Gerald a desktop to share! He was saying, "Huh?? Plus your MacBook and our current Lenovo, you need one more desktop for what?"
Eh, our Lenovo is bullshit now, so of course we need a desktop!
Then you know what he suggests? A second-hand one. Either that OR a $600 desktop. Um..?
Okay I'll admit I just want the desktop cuz it has more space, so I can play Sims and Neopets without the computer lagging on me like my *ahem* Awesome Laptop. Its so Awesome that even NEOPET GAMES make my FireFox lag. How Awesome is THAT!
(Sarcasm totally intended.)
Ah. My mind's blank now. Shall update tomorrow cuz its TIME FOR DINNER!
I'll leave you guys with two photos of Eileen's Haley. I kept forgetting to upload it after editing. Took it the last time Lex and I were at her place.
Because its weird when you Don't Know Where
Being in such a quiet room (with Alex's snoring in the background.. *cough* Teehee) gives me the 'space' I need to think.
Today wasn't a particularly awesome day for me, apart from the fact that me, Ker and Lex cooked a hearty dinner for ourselves. What with that two power shortages and the whole house suddenly turning pitch black every time I flipped the switch for that damned oven and the point of time where I didn't want to turn on the other stove thingy for them to boil water for our mashed potatoes because I was too afraid?
What an experience.
I need to start my daily jogging plus workout routine again. Been slacking a week before Chinese New Year. Oh the joy of the lovely food swirling around in your stomach and slowly digesting to turn into fats... Oh the joy.
Anywho, its annoying when people can't see things from your perspective and give in to you once in a while. They may have all the right to worry, I can't stop that. But there is a limit to what I can take, be it sarcastic or not.
I've been tolerating their (and by 'their', I don't mean my friends) nonsense by looking at the situation from another perspective, telling myself they are right and I am wrong. Why can't they, for once, give in and see how I feel? What I might be going through that they can't sense because I am not telling?
Not something to joke about here- I can only take this much shit.
I'm not used to what's going on around the house and I need to adjust. I would love to take their place any day to let them see how lonely it feels when you're suddenly forced to be alone everyday because someone you were attached to had to go back to her own home, yet expectations are heightened because of such an event.
Yes it may be true that when she was around, all I wished for was to be home alone more often, and if possible, forever. Now that I got my wish, I truly regret it. It sucks to be alone, big time.
The grass is greener on the other side.
But as Ker says, "That is not the case.
We just have to learn to appreciate our own grass."
Today wasn't a particularly awesome day for me, apart from the fact that me, Ker and Lex cooked a hearty dinner for ourselves. What with that two power shortages and the whole house suddenly turning pitch black every time I flipped the switch for that damned oven and the point of time where I didn't want to turn on the other stove thingy for them to boil water for our mashed potatoes because I was too afraid?
What an experience.
I need to start my daily jogging plus workout routine again. Been slacking a week before Chinese New Year. Oh the joy of the lovely food swirling around in your stomach and slowly digesting to turn into fats... Oh the joy.
Anywho, its annoying when people can't see things from your perspective and give in to you once in a while. They may have all the right to worry, I can't stop that. But there is a limit to what I can take, be it sarcastic or not.
I've been tolerating their (and by 'their', I don't mean my friends) nonsense by looking at the situation from another perspective, telling myself they are right and I am wrong. Why can't they, for once, give in and see how I feel? What I might be going through that they can't sense because I am not telling?
Not something to joke about here- I can only take this much shit.
I'm not used to what's going on around the house and I need to adjust. I would love to take their place any day to let them see how lonely it feels when you're suddenly forced to be alone everyday because someone you were attached to had to go back to her own home, yet expectations are heightened because of such an event.
Yes it may be true that when she was around, all I wished for was to be home alone more often, and if possible, forever. Now that I got my wish, I truly regret it. It sucks to be alone, big time.
The grass is greener on the other side.
But as Ker says, "That is not the case.
We just have to learn to appreciate our own grass."
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
F is for Friends who do things Together
Recently had a sleepover at Alex's house with Ker.
Unsurprisingly, we stayed up the whole night playing L4D2 at a LAN shop, watching half (or less than half) of My Sister's Keeper, watching Friends, playing Neopets and eating roti prata for breakfast at a shop nearby at around 6 in the morning.
While we watched Friends, Kerrie slowly drifted off to sleep only to be awakened by us to play Neopets together. Every time I laughed at a joke cracked on the show, Alex will crack up and laugh along. I thought she found the jokes funny too when she revealed that she laughed cuz my laughter was really funny.
Typing that out just made me laugh. Aw!
We had an awesome breakfast. I ordered Milo Dinosaur while Kerrie ordered tea(?). Surprisingly, all of us had the same 'Usual' of one kosong and one egg prata!
I've not had such a breakfast in a long time. I love having roti prata for breakfast early in the morning because my dad used to bring me out to eat roti prata whenever I missed the school bus in primary 1. He would offer to drive me to school and as we walked out, he'd suggest bringing me to the roti prata stall just a few blocks behind mine.
Besides that, my gran used to bring me, Mel and Amanda (Neo) for roti prata after we accompanied her for her morning walk/jog. Well okay, MY GRAN would do the exercising. We kids just planted our butts on the swings and modernised versions of sea-saws at the playground.
Cliche as it sounds, eating roti prata at an inhumanely hour (I can use 'inhumanely' for this sentence, right?) makes me feel good inside, bringing back the fond memories I had as a kid.
Okay, back to the main point of this post.
While we om-nom-nomed (QuinTM) our breakfast, we talked about stuff.
One of them being the fact that the number of friends we could tell absolutely ANYTHING and EVERYTHING to without the fear of being judged or bitched about afterwards are countable by the fingers on our hands.
Me being me, I thought, "Oh hey, the number of friends I could do that to are countable by the fingers on my hand, not hands."
Which is rather true.
They always say, "You graduate from secondary school with the best friends you'll ever make in this lifetime."
Which is also true.
Then again, that statement applies differently for different people.
It sounds sad to be able to count these friends with only one hand, but for me, I'd say I did graduate with some of the best friends I'll ever make in secondary school. The best-est was from primary school. I'm happy to have them as my friends and these are the people I'll make the effort to ask out.
They may be countable with 5 fingers or less, but the thing is I'm thankful for these people and I hope I have impacted their lives the way they impacted mine.
Unsurprisingly, we stayed up the whole night playing L4D2 at a LAN shop, watching half (or less than half) of My Sister's Keeper, watching Friends, playing Neopets and eating roti prata for breakfast at a shop nearby at around 6 in the morning.
While we watched Friends, Kerrie slowly drifted off to sleep only to be awakened by us to play Neopets together. Every time I laughed at a joke cracked on the show, Alex will crack up and laugh along. I thought she found the jokes funny too when she revealed that she laughed cuz my laughter was really funny.
Typing that out just made me laugh. Aw!
We had an awesome breakfast. I ordered Milo Dinosaur while Kerrie ordered tea(?). Surprisingly, all of us had the same 'Usual' of one kosong and one egg prata!
I've not had such a breakfast in a long time. I love having roti prata for breakfast early in the morning because my dad used to bring me out to eat roti prata whenever I missed the school bus in primary 1. He would offer to drive me to school and as we walked out, he'd suggest bringing me to the roti prata stall just a few blocks behind mine.
Besides that, my gran used to bring me, Mel and Amanda (Neo) for roti prata after we accompanied her for her morning walk/jog. Well okay, MY GRAN would do the exercising. We kids just planted our butts on the swings and modernised versions of sea-saws at the playground.
Cliche as it sounds, eating roti prata at an inhumanely hour (I can use 'inhumanely' for this sentence, right?) makes me feel good inside, bringing back the fond memories I had as a kid.
Okay, back to the main point of this post.
While we om-nom-nomed (QuinTM) our breakfast, we talked about stuff.
One of them being the fact that the number of friends we could tell absolutely ANYTHING and EVERYTHING to without the fear of being judged or bitched about afterwards are countable by the fingers on our hands.
Me being me, I thought, "Oh hey, the number of friends I could do that to are countable by the fingers on my hand, not hands."
Which is rather true.
They always say, "You graduate from secondary school with the best friends you'll ever make in this lifetime."
Which is also true.
Then again, that statement applies differently for different people.
It sounds sad to be able to count these friends with only one hand, but for me, I'd say I did graduate with some of the best friends I'll ever make in secondary school. The best-est was from primary school. I'm happy to have them as my friends and these are the people I'll make the effort to ask out.
They may be countable with 5 fingers or less, but the thing is I'm thankful for these people and I hope I have impacted their lives the way they impacted mine.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Caleb
Polaroids capture priceless moments.
Sigh this is why I want more. Could the Polaroid 600 & SX-70 Film – Paul Giambarba Edition not cost $37 and $43 respectively?
My Polaroid shots are so precious that I keep them in a photo album. I never touch the picture part of the film and store them away so that they don't get scratched or bent.
Actually, after I start working again next week, I really wouldn't mind blowing off $37 for my film. I'm still wondering if I should buy the Instax Ethel's been trying to sell to me! Pink version I believe? I'm sad that Caleb has been under my shelf for months now.
When I pulled out my Polaroid during Interschools, Bianca and Whatshername from TKGS sailing were telling me the Instax would be worth my money.. But theirs is the Mini. I want the older model, the one that uses the really wide film. SHINee used that on their reality TV show!
More Nathan!
Oh my goodness this was so funny I replayed it like 7 or 8 times.
Nathan Kress I LOVE YOU!
Nonchalant
Nonchalance hitting me like a wave coming towards shore.
(Too much Geography in my head.)
Le sigh, I'm sorry Alex and Ker.
I don't know what's wrong with me. A moment ago I was all smiles while chatting with people via MSN and a moment later, my face was like :| If you look at my face now all you'd see is an expressionless.. expression?
I feel like canceling everything I have on hand tomorrow. I just want to lie down on my bed, read a good book and enjoy music while I do so.
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