Timbre Old School

Smoked salmon pizza!

Yum tum tum I love ;)

Trying on Bev Yap's shades

Bev Goh's sexy face. HAHAHA

My virgin trip to Timbre Old School.

What a noob right? Yes I know. And someone tell me why my girls are so pretty haha jealoussss.

Anywho, new banner! Do y'all like it? Supposed to be temporary but oh well I think I like it!

Can't get enough of solar systems/stars. ;)

Time to get ready to meet Cia and Beanie for XLB buffet at NEX's Crystal Jade! Then hopefully I can go dance after but since they booked the buffet at 8pm I highly doubt I'll have enough time to go to *SCAPE but I miss my dancers! :'(

Been feeling a bit more insecure than usual about my weight.

I know it's stupid but sometimes comments get to ya, ya know??

Alicia's 18th

Met the girls to celebrate Cia's 18th birthday at Vivo!

It's been forever since I last saw them, and meeting AGEK again definitely felt good! As usual, spending time on Vivo's rooftop meant more chill-and-chat sessions, and this time they defo made me miss secondary school and the drama that came packaged with it.

I always took my time in secondary school for granted. I thought it was the best yet worst time of my life. I felt that studying was a hassle and that the work given was a form of torture.

I never thought that after graduating I'd think otherwise.

You haven't seen torture 'till you've seen the work from JC. You've never felt horrible until you've tried studying on your own, you'll never understand how studying's actually a luxury until you've started working.

I even took the bus fare for granted! I swear, the adult fare kills your wallet, bleeding it dry of cash. Then again, I never understood why poly students have to pay the adult fare (concession, I know. But still..) while JC students could take full advantage of the system by paying less than 60 cents for travel.

Oh well.

I would very much like to return back to being a secondary 1 kid again -- no worries, no burden.. nothing. Okay fine I know I was the class chairperson but still my burden wasn't considered a burden at all! I love 1Endeavour'06 like that.

Speaking of which, 1E'06 class chalet at Aloha Loyang at the end of the year, anyone?

It all started with "You Will Always be my Boo"

I wanna blog about Inez's birthday but at 4am I'm too lazy to upload all the photos so I'm just gonna blog about it later in the day when I'm chillin'.

Had a blazin' 39.5 degrees fever yesterday. Goodness, I've not gotten myself this sick for a long time and it sure felt horrible. I never wanna fall sick again really. I could only stay in bed the whole day and wake up in cold sweat thinking my temperature has gone down, only to take it again to realise that it went up instead.

Thanks to that I had to miss a wonderful night with Ker, Bev and Alex! :(:(:(

Anyways okay girlies correct me if I'm wrong with the title! For Suina and Channie though it started with boom-a-nigga. I'm not trying to be racist but those were what the lyrics sounded like in the song "Soul by the Pound" that Xuehui used for Hip Hop III and the whole HH3 class called it that.

Chan dedicated a blog post to us and I teared after reading it cuz it was so touching! So I decided to dedicate a post to them too. ;)

Joining O School for Hip Hop courses has been the best decision made in my life so far. Can't thank God enough for having met Inez, Chan, Kailing, Suina and Jolyn. Even though we've only known each other for a short period of time, spending almost everyday together -- not to mention hours every time we do -- has brought us like 10000000 times closer. These girls are amazing, really. And having them in my life.. made everything better. I love how Kailing's terribly protective of us, and everytime someone/something upsets either one of us she'll go full out to make sure that person/people/thing doesn't have a pleasant day.. or week. Heehee love her so much for that. Would defo do the same for her if someone dares make my dearest KL upset!! Am terribly blessed to have these girls by my side.

It's wonderful having people around you who share the same level of passion as you do for a certain hobby. This includes Tiffy and gang too. I really admire how they all got so close due to sharing a passion for dance because most of them met at work! Dance does wonders really.

Saw this on Chan's post:

"Like what Kl said, 'Although we are not the best, we do not have the cleanest moves, we are having fun. Thats the most important.' Never imagined how much joy dancing can bring, esp when you guys are ard."

Can't agree enough.

Thanks for being the sunshine in my life, and my motivation in dance. Thanks for being my family away from family, just like how *SCAPE has become my home away from home ;)

(This doesn't mean I've forgotten all my other friends and my colleagues. Love y'all too!)

Sigh I wish I could meet all of my friends for dinner like everyday. AGEK, Reunion Gang, sailors, 1Endeavourians, BFFs.... Sucks to be me.. busy busy bee. Which reminds me, lunch tomorrow at Seoul Garden with Bev and Alex! Can't wait cuz I miss these girls so much. I fell sick at the wrong time seriously.

If only Ker could join us tomorrow :( Nevermind I swear to make more time to meet her when she's back from her trip! AND CIA AND BEANIE TOO I MISS MY EILEENY BEANIE SO MUCH.

p.s. Elie's sleeping soundly at my place now and she keeps covering her face with the pillow HAHAH. See la Shirei why didn't you stay over too?? :(

p.p.s. The moment I updated my blog I went to Twitter and saw that Kailing just updated hers too and she also blogged about us due to Chan's post! TELEPATHY OR WHAT.

Exhausted much?

I don't know what I've just gotten myself into.

I feel as if my freedom just got taken away from me.. as if I weren't already busy enough. Already lost count of the number of friends I had to turn down due to having work/dance commitments.

It really sucks when your friends can't understand when something's really important to you. Like as if you can't breathe without it can't sleep without it can't nothing without it.

Okay I'm just exaggerating. But you get my point.

But it also sucks when you have to disappoint a friend or two (in my case it's 'too many') just cuz of your passion because for me it works both ways -- if I don't work I can't dance. If I don't dance there won't be a need to work.

In addition to my crazy schedule I have yet another commitment! Hallelujah shall we praise how smart I am?? "Whoohoo Gwen, well done. What a smartass. You never fail to do things without thinking."

Yep.

Funny thing is, I got myself into this predicament. So technically I should stop complaining and suck it up, shouldn't I?

And thanks to that particular additional commitment, I feel this burden really. But I've not gone all out for it yet so I guess I'll have to see how it goes. Who knows, I might end up liking it and it may not be as strict as I thought it would be. After talking to Inez and KL about it on the way back from *SCAPE I ended up crying on the way home because it hit me that I'm never gonna have any time for myself.

"Because only dancers understand dancers." I never really got it when Inez told me this. We were talking about how dancers usually date dancers because no one else would ever understand why they literally dedicate themselves to dance.

I guess I do now. People think I'm crazy, slogging my life away working everyday when I can actually use the time to relax and play. I trudge to work in the morning, skip to dance in the early evening and trudge yet again back home at midnight. It's a grueling routine I do everyday.

My typical schedule goes like this: Work from 10am-3pm, have lunch and relax till 5, take a train down to Somerset for sess at *SCAPE, dance till 11pm and train back. I usually reach home at 12.30am or so.

But y'all don't understand the fact that dancing isn't cheap. Not if you want to better yourself. I've never been this passionate about something before. I've never had such a strong urge to support something I like doing..... okay pardon me I meant love. For anything and everything I've done, I stopped halfway.

Like the Chinese saying goes, "ban tu er fei". I never completed anything -- Wushu, volleyball, badminton, sailing.. Okay no sailing doesn't count cuz I still love it.

So it's a miracle for me to love something and still love it after like years of doing it really. That's prolly why my parents don't question me on dance since they complain I never finish anything I start.

I really hope y'all will understand it when I can't meet y'all or when I have to push back dates.

And honestly, I've not had a day to myself since like 3 months ago. I'm so so so so so so so terribly tired I can't describe it in words. I'm mentally awake and alert but physically I'm drained and worn out.

If I'm not working or dancing I'm out meeting friends who arranged dates with me. Well since I can't devote my work-days to them I have to devote my off-days instead.

Again, I got myself into this so I guess I can only suck it up and move on. I'm tolerating my horrible life for now just so that I can improve in dance.

Just hoping this isn't gonna eventually kill me and backfire.

Carling Cup

(Click on the video to open it in Dailymotion if you can't view it here)

I have absolutely no idea how Szczensy and Koscielny managed to screw up. At the worst time too. Hello trophy cabinet drought. Couldn't help but feel pissed at the fact that we were this close to maintaining at least a draw.

The pride and joy of Arsenal you guys are.

Honest!

Second Thoughts/Back Brace?!

Finally some photos to save my blog with!

Took these around the house today since I was bored. Woke up to a really stiff back. It hurt like hell to the point that I swear I couldn't really sit up in the morning. After a while I managed to sit up (loads of groans in the process) but I found that I couldn't twist around without feeling the pain.

I don't wanna have to wear a back brace seriously.

Skipped work and wanted to go for Zaihar's.. but my back didn't agree and my stomach had to join in the party. Well done body, well done. Ganging up against the brain I see?

And oh I got both my packages from NYP and SP yesterday! Hello hell.

Aaron was telling me how troublesome it'd be.. and after going through just ONE part of the registration I agree 100%.

..... I wonder if signing up for primary/secondary school took my parents this much effort?

Kaba Modern Legacy dancing at the Louvre

Mmm I may be a bigger fan of Jap-style hip hop now (thanks to the likes of Inez and videos of WOC), but I still love watching people dance American hip hop. Kenny Wormald, Gigi Torres, Tony Tran and Mike Song in particular. ;)

And yessss from this video you can tell that Tony Tran's choreography and solo is PURELY for himself. Himself and himself only. Somewhat like O School's Zaihar..... distinctively unique style.

Oh great Dome Piece just started playing on my iTunes. Sick trackkkk, honest!

Mike Song I pray that you and your amazing choreographies to dubstep doesn't turn this genre into something mainstream. I PRAY.

p.s. Speaking of dubstep.....


...HOW CUTE IS THIS BABY!? Dubstep baby. Hell to the yeah.

On Replay

Tribute to my old, healthier hair that I miss so much :'(

And oh, my way better complexion.

Yeah my hair's shorter now. 'Nuff said.

(And my complexion shittier too thanks to all my scars. Itchy hands + bouts of skin becoming really, REALLY dry = awful scars)

I miss my old hair (the one in the first photo, before I decided to become some rebellious shiat and highlighted my hair.. ugh worst decision ever it changed me so much) and old fringe sigh. Really thinking of redyeing my hair to dark brown or black to get rid of the highlights!

Okay but whatev, my hair dries so much faster now so I'm thankful for that especially since I like to sleep after showering.

Da girlies are auditioning for the CJ Crew tomorrow via Project Up! Good luck to my dear babiessss I hope y'all do well and become a part of CJ Crew ;)

I didn't wanna audition initially. The hastle of remembering and editing my old sec2 choreo was too tiring for me to even think of....... okay no that's pure crap because I was just LAZY.

But yeah in the end I decided to just give it a shot since all my lovely dance girlies are too! Since I have work again tomorrow I'll have to audition alone next Sunday. Like really alone-alone because no one else is auditioning next week!

Was at Cass's belated 18th birthday BBQ earlier after work. YES MY LIFE REVOLVES AROUND WORK NOW, I SEE THAT TOO UGH :'(

Missed the girls so much!

Anyways a while back there was something that bothered them... and right here right now I would like to tell y'all that I love my beloved girls which are Joey Tan, Cassandra Wong, Chia Shanai and Eileen Chua-the-muogutou!

I hope y'all know that regardless of what goes on around me I'll never forget you guys and that you'll always have a special place in my heart because I love you that much. Thanks for being around when no one else was, and thanks for believing in me and helping me fix my self-esteem and whatnot when I needed it the most. Y'all will never understand how truly thankful I am for a group of friends like you girls. This space would never be enough for me to express my love and gratitude for you all, and the fact that I'll always have your back(s) and vice versa(s). MUAHHHH.

Meh.

Whoa I've not been online for the longest time ever (using my laptop I mean) I swear.

My life has one word to sum it up. No okay, actually, 2. That'll be BORING and MUNDANE.

Yes, all I do everyday is report to work and then rush for dance later. I feel like a grown adult because now I understand how tiring it is for my parents -- or any adult, for this matter -- to have to go to work everyday whether they like it or not.

I used to complain about the days I had too MUCH time to do whatever I want and those were the days I could go out every single day and the only thing I had to worry about was whether I had enough money in my bank account.

I thought that sucked.

..Well I never expected this.

So yeah here I am, only able to use the computer because I woke up early to bake brownies for my beloved co-workers who are as equally tired as me. Meh. I don't even have time to bring my beloved Camcam out to take fouuuutous. Photos.

Whatever.

And oh, on a random side note I haz 35 questions to answer on Formspring.me. THANKS GAISE I LUV Y'ALL SO VERY MUCH FOR SPAMMING MY FS INBOX *gives teary face*

As much as I love answering questions on my Formspring.. 35 is a lot man really. But anywho fire away ASK MORE QUESTIONS PEOPLE.

Perennial

Haven't really blogged for a long time. Have been a real lazy kid tryna juggle work, dancing and whatnot.

T'was a happy day yesterday after meeting the dancers yesterday to sess. Inez taught me AnAn's choreo and I'm honestly quite shocked that I could catch up. Sappy as it sounds, dance has been my passion since ever. Hur corny much.

Someday I'll be as good as Tony Tran and Kenny Wormald. HAHAHA

Anywho. On the way to work now so yes I'm blogging from my iPhone say whut! And yeah it's 10am and I'm still at Tanah Merah. Ugh. Either I need to stop dilly-dallying, or I should just find another job no?? I don't know.. I guess I'm sick of working somewhere like REAL far.

To digress (yet again), I have to choose between meeting the bros for dinner and CNY at Yingpeng's house or meeting my girlies to sess at *SCAPE again after work. I'd call YP by his English name but saying Jack + place = Jack's Place haha the sailors couldn't get over that when we first figured. I miss them all so much really. But I guess that's what's amazing about this CCA cuz thanks to it I had a family away from family.

And oh, to digress one last time, I can't figure what to do to my hair. I'm already bored of my hair. Was thinking of snippin it slightly below shoulder length but I'll prolly miss my highlights and my red + copper brown + ash blonde hair and highlights. This hair colour was a total coincidence cuz after all the dyeing it just faded to this colour. Oh well..

/digression

Ugh I'm late for work c'mon trainnnn let's go let's go PALI PALI