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Gwendolyn N.
26 years young, a dreamer struggling ever so slightly to not let the world's negativities consume her.


Saturday, June 17, 2006

More about yesterday...

My sailing session yesterday was absolutely WONDERFUL! =D It was like, at the start the wind was too strong, so I grumbled and cursed and kept trying to keep my boat in control.

Stupid MAINSHEET PULLEY. Kept twisting my mainsheet! And during one of the races I had problem sheeting in cos the mainsheet got all twisted up. So fustrating, it was so twisted that the mainsheet got sorta jammed. But I couldn't untwist it because the wind was so strong that when i tried stopping my boat to untwist it, i had to pull it in. And all sailors would know, when stopping your boat you have to ease out, then your boat would stop.

But when I ease out, my arms weren't long enough to reach out to untwist it. Only way I could do it was to either jump into the water and try jumping up while in water like a dolphin or if not pull in the mainsheet and turn the pulley to untwist it.

Of course I took the second option. Too paisei if i took the first option.

So I pulled my mainsheet towards me and my sail caught wind and POOF! I was off again, speeding away in the water. So cannot untwist my mainsheet. No choice but to carry on sailing with a stupid twisted mainsheet, thanks to the stupid pulley.

Anyway.
During the second last and last races, I got 1st and 2nd respectively among the sec 1s! Wen Feng got 2nd in the second last round, so I beat him by one position. Then for the last race the wind got a bit lighter for a while all of a sudden, and I'm not a light wind sailor [not enough skill]. So I sailed slower than him, and he got 1st for the last round while i got 2nd. haha. Shall high-five him one day for swapping positions. LOL.

I am like, totally glad. I feel so accomplised to actually be able to get 1st among the sec 1s!

During all the races the sec 1 byte sailors only needed to do course W1; Windward and Leeward course. While during the second last and last races the other byte sailors had to sail course W2, which is 1 round more than the sec 1 byte sailors!! WUAHAHA. I think Ning Xin thinks uncle thomas is a bit bias. LOL.

But at the start of the day on the bus, I was very sad. Felt like screaming when I saw the calculated results from Mrs Sidhu...

Among all the Byte and Optimist sailors....

I got..
Last in position.

My Discard marks were the most, and wait, WTH is discard marks? I dunno... shall ask Mrs Sidhu next sailing session, Tuesday.

I am such a looser. I totally stink in sailing. How could I get last? Well, actually I'm not last, Samantha is. But thats cos she didn't come for sailing camp. But I think she was supposed to come or something, but i guess she didn't. And I heard that during the last sailing camp she was in my group or something, and I assume that when you get into one group, you'd stay in that group until you leave sailing when you're sec 4. So most probably I'd be in Zach's group all my secondary school life. As in, group 1.

But Ryan and I got best newcomers.. Mrs Sidhu said while announcing the best newcomers that we were trying very hard, so they'd like to encourage us. Then she said "And best newcomers go to... GWEN and RYAN!" and everyone was like, wooting. As in, for Ryan lah. All the guys helped Ryan go hyper. LOL.

The prizes were a notebook and a swiss army knife [this small little long oval shaped thing with many different knives in it and all]. Mrs Sidhu said we choose among both of us. Ryan immediately took the knife, leaving me with the notebook. I grumbled and pestered him for the knife, but he refused to give it. He was so mean lah!!!

Then the group i was in, Turtle [Power] got 1st! Well, no thanks to me actually. I was surprised we got first. Actually, I sorta expected it too, because of Zach. He got 1st in the whole sailing team, and his discard points were VERY VERY little, so naturally he pulled up our points, while I pulled it down. Sigh...

Ms Cheng said it was encouraged for all sailors to go for weekend classes, as the school would pay for half or dunno how much of the fees. But its on Saturday and Sunday, and I don't have time, but I heard that when Zach was sec 2 he went for those lessons, with Siu Ngee, Tzu Ling, Luo Ling and Daryl. But only Zach remained there for a year. And after he went for the classes, he improved tremendesly. So I also wanna go, but it would be a bit paisei to see Zach there cos I'm like, a noob in sailing. and I can't afford to end up in the same class as him. I would totally be so paisei to keep loosing. LOL.

But I really should consider it, cos I really wanna improve in my sailing skills and all, and most importantly I wanna stop getting last at races. Ms Cheng said if I really wanna be commited then I can go.

Oh well, shall discuss with my parents when they come back from Bangkok.

This afternoon my computer was berserk. You know sometimes when you don't turn off your computer properly, they'd ask you whether you would like to start your computer in Safe Mode, Safe Mode with Network, Safe Mode with Command Settings or something, Last Known good settings or Start Windows Normally.

I tried all options, but my computer would not go into the like, the screen where you see all the usernames and when you click on your own you'd have to type in your pass if you set a pass or something.

But before it goes to that screen, it would restart itself and ask me all those options again. GRR. So I took a while, used my original Windows XP CD and started all the configurations and all and voila! My comp is okay! =D I love fixing up stuff. LOL.

Friday, June 16, 2006

If only you'd learn, To appreciate; To believe;
Especially in yourself.

Okay, really tired out now. For once in my life, I didn't drag myself to wake up to get to sailing training.

Actually, my dad did.

I was woken up early in the morning [its actually about 10:22am. LOL] by my dad, who came into my room asking if i needed any money for like, sailing training, and all. He gave me about 10 bucks at first, and about another 20 to bring my brother to buy this silly-sounding toy gun for play, or target practice. Another 20 was given to me in case I needed to buy food when I got there, for me and my brother.

Sometimes I ever wonder, why does my brother actually indulge himself in these.. these.. these JUNK!

Has anyone ever wondered, that as a kid, we all had fantasys and wild imagination? I remembered that my cousins and I used to make our stuff toys 'talk'. We were like *grabs a stuffed doll* "Oh hi my name is Blah Blah! Whats yours?" and the cousin will take another stuffed toy and go "Oh I am Blah Blah no. 2! Nice to meet you!" and all.

Actually, as kids, we always had cravings for a certain something..

Nope, not CHOCOLATE.

But TOYS!

Yes, please don't deny it. In everyones' heart, we all used to love toys. We'd want one everywhere we go. Like dolls, toy cars, Barbie Dolls.

But now that we think of what we bought, all those toys, we feel that it has been a waste of money. How many people can actually tell me that they feel that they've not wasted their money on their toys? I could bet no one. Now that we actually bother to look back, things we've bought in a rush-decision [for example, you see already then beg your parents for it] are always the main 'waste of money' problem.

Stuff like these, I believe, I bought too. Yeah, like my Enzer Discman. HAH! Cheap, like about 90+ bucks? And oooh so flat! So compact. Yep, the DREAM discman!

But wait, as my dad and I have agreed that a discman shall be my reward for doing well in examinations, I wanted one so badly. Due to the fact that my older discman's cover broke into two. So I just told my dad to buy it. Sure, my dad did tell me to reconsider, but hasty as the person i am always known in my family to be, I just told my dad to buy it.

When he did, boy did I really regret. The quality sucks like hell! When you put the CD into the discman and close the cover and press the play button, you'd think nothing would go wrong with it. But wait! Theres a problem... try playing the CD when you're WALKING. HAH! You'd vomit blood I tell you first. The CD will keep jumping. So all you'd hear is this...

"Dance, *hic!* Dance. We're falling *hic!* apart to *hic!* half *hic!* time" or something. Okay, lyrics extracted from my favourite song of all time - Dance, Dance; Fall Out Boy. I think those are the lyrics cos i didn't bother searching them up.

Like, everytime you lift up your leg to walk, the CD jumps! Woah, what a good quality discman! We shall now CLAP for the quality.

Ever since then, Enzer has been my most hated brand for electronics. No matter how stylish, I'd still hate Enzer. Though the telephones are quite nice.. and even styli- oh what am I saying. I shall hate Enzer all my life for ruining my 'Do Well for Exam' prezzie. Geez.

I hate being hasty. But thats my personality. I've made my dad waste hundreds of dollars on my whims and fancies. I really hate myself for that. Why can't i be a good daughter when I was younger, and help my dad do stuff instead of asking him to buy me stuff all the time?

Well, this is life.

Life, with that many spoilt brats in the world. All the rich kids, spoilt kids.

I don't know why I suddenly brought up the rich kid topic. Just felt like it. I guess I hate spoilt brats. Who does?

Identification method of spoilt brats -

[mostly] Teenagers who ask their parents for many expensive items, even though they got something of the same function in their hands and its new, or hasn't even been used for past a year.

Teenagers who keep asking people to run errands for them. They don't bother doing it themselves.


Well, I don't know. Whats your method of identifying spoilt brats? I'm not sure what the methods are, but there are many. For some people, all you have to do is look at their faces and aha! You know their being spoilt badly by their parents. Seesh!

Shall blog more tomorrow, really tired now. 2 in the morning already, and happy birthday Eileen!

TTFN, tata for now huhuhu!

Thursday, June 15, 2006

YOYO! BACK FROM SAILING CAMP WOOHOO!

I love the MFSS sailing team YEAH! The camp was so fun, except the sailing part. I hate the wind! For all 3 days so strong. I feel like crying so much after sailing. It hurts to have so many bruises. We sailed for almost 5 hrs. And the worst thing?

I forgot to bring my WATERBOTTLE down to camp.


How could i be just so STUPID! Its sailing! Sailing we're talking about! Sailing needs waterbottle for sure!!!

Or maybe i brought it, but left it somewhere. haha.

Then me and David got a bit of scolding from Mrs Sidhu. LOL. He didn't bring his waterbottle either, so we both suffered.

So we went waterless for the whole time we sailed. and its for 3 days somemore. Only can taste SALT WATER. At SAFYC there never sell bottled drinks like at NSC, so we have no choice, must ren zhu!

The first day and third day's wind was damn strong, so strong i spent most of my time hiking out. Now my like, ankle area there is red, and it hurts like sunburn!

STUPID BEETLES IN THE STUPID ROOMS! I hate nights at SAFYC. All the beetles flying and crawling around our stuff that we're airing outside of the place! Its like, i think 100 plus beetles, or more! Then everyone kept killing so many beetles.

I heard Justin tell Zach, "Wah, see all the dead bodies!" and Zach said "Ya, I think I killed most of them." and they started laughing hysterically. I could only look at them and 'Dots.." its like, beetles everywhere! Even on the tables and all. All the girls [except Yi Xuan and some others] kept screaming when they saw the beetles around during dinner and all. Including me. I was the worst i think. LOL.

I shall key in the journal entry i wrote during the first day during the time when we all had to gather on 3 tables to do our holiday homeworks [with somethings added in]...

8:42pm ; Homeworking session, SAF Yatch Club

I totally injured myself today!

Firstly, when I got to school, everyone was there. Okay, not really. Chee Teng and Yi Xuan arrived at the same time as me! As in, when I got near the school i noticed two cars infront of my dad's car. I thought they were not going to turn into my school or anything, cos i thought that like, they don't even have a need to enter the school.

But they did. So, okay. Then when they stopped infront of my dad's car, the car doors from each car opened like, simutaniously [or however you spell it]. Then Chee Teng came out of his dad's car. Then Yi Xuan came out of her dad's car. Then it was my turn to come out of my dad's car. LOL.

Then when I got there, I just runned into the school's foyer and dumped my bag onto the ground near our usual gathering area before setting off for sailing. I ran cos everyone especially the boys were gathered at the railings at the ramp at the foyer, and I just cut my hair, so I damn paisei. As I rushed pass them, I heard someone [i think Lin Jie or Joeseph] say "wah you cut your hair!" as in, not a laugh-able way lah, almost sounded like a compliment.

Peck Khee brought me to the sailing corner to get a life jacket which is in the metal cupboard. Medium, orange, number 38. Then she passed to me my sailing camp tee, which design on was designed by Peck Khee, my design wasn't chosen. But I'm not sad, Peck Khee's design is so... nice! And detailed. So, no wonder. LOL.

The sailing camp tee sucks! okay, not really. But its like, blue, APPROVED! But there's also yellow, NOT APPROVED! A yellow stripe down the collar of the tee, and on many parts of the design of the sailing tee. Like, omg! Dark blue with yellow. And a weird shade of yellow somemore. GEEZ! Damn weird lah!

Anyway, now is study period. HAHA! Sailing camp, and everyone is crowded about 3 seperate tables. I noticed that seniors [sec 3s and 4s] are crowded about one table, while the sec 1s and 2s are gathered around the remaining two tables. Like, one table is full of upper sec people, while the other two tables are filled with lower sec people, and we didn't talk to any of the upper sec people, we only just did our homework among ourselves. While the upper sec people did their homework among themselves too.

[actually the journal entry ended here, with a "Shall say more later... supposed to study now LOL." but from this point i shall add in somemore, which i had no time to write in]

But of course, we spent most of our time talking lah. But when we asked questions, we only asked those from lower sec.

Peck Khee and Ning Xin kept asking Justin for Math help. Then Justin did a few simple sums for Peck Khee, on a fullscap paper. Then Ning Xin grabbed Peck Khee's paper and waved it in my face while i was calculating something and she cried "OH LOOK! Its Justin's handwriting! Admire it and stare at it all you want gal!"

Then Justin came over to our table to borrow calculator. Then when he asked if he could borrow one, Ning Xin immediately pushed mine to him, since I left it infront of me and i wasn't using it. Then she said "here, you can use this one -" and he walked off to his table. Then she said really softly, "And it belongs to Gwen!" and she was so glad he took my calculator without realising it was MINE!

Then when he returned it she was even more happy, and teased me about it. GRR! Ning Xin, you shall get it!

Well, at least now he isn't so cold to me. Unlike last time, he kept avoiding me while i avoided him, because of Aaron lah.


During one of the sailing sessions, when I sailed past him, he actually said "Ei uh Gwen! Help me block Liang Hong's wind, I pay you!" and i raised an eyebrow at him. Liang Hong was sailing like, right behind me. And I could easily block Liang Hong's wind. LOL.

The boys also kept saying "Brokeback" or something like that and somemore lame stuff, which means something like, gay. Not happy and gay that gay. haha!

Anyway, I'm really tired now, since I just came back from camp. Shall blog more tomorrow, if not when i have the mood to blog about the camp.
lol.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Tomorrow I'm going off for sailing camp! HAHA. I thought it was gonna be cool, you know, like, you spend 2 days sailing! That is so freaking cool lah! But I heard from Tzu Ling that its not all fun and games, but we're also going to have a real tough time... DOING PT!

[For those who don't know what PT is, it means Physical Training. Yups. *nods head furiously*]

3 days.. it will be over in a split sec? haha. okay fine, must ren zhu! And wait - I haven't even started packing! Die! Haha. Tomorrow, 8:45am must reach school. What are they trying to do to us? Make us die from waking up too early?!?!

Anyway.
I have so many things I wanna do now. haha. like, getting to eat ice cream in the middle of the night! =D

I don't have to pack much, its a 3 days 2 nights thing. But I hope I don't drown out at sea. haha. We're going to be staying over at a different location, a new clubhouse, i heard. Not staying at NSC! [National Sailing Center]

I heard some people may be using TOPPER.

oi,
TOPPER LEH!!!

I heard topper no fun. Hello? DUH! Bytes are the coolest, the best! No toppers, NO TOPPERS!!! If i kena topper i dunno what i will do. haha. I hope i don't get to be one of the person who will use topper. The way the seniors talk about Toppers? They make it sound like dirt in the ground.

I just got my hair cut yesterday, and hooh! now, and it is neater than before. haha! Boy, did I get nice comments. It was like after I got my hair cut, one of the lady working there told me i looked more lady-like.

Then when I went to Celine's place at 12+, her mom was like telling my mom i looked so much better, then Celine and Yan Qi said that my hairstyle was so nice and that they also wanted to get their hair cut asap. LOL.

Then today at ah mah's place, my gran's maid said my hair now so much nicer. Then Amanda saw me and went "Wah your hair so nice!". Then Melody saw me, she looked at me and said hi. Then she turned back to the TV and one sec later she quickly turned back her head again and went "WAH! YOU CUT YOUR HAIR?!?! SO NICEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!" and started talking about how nice my hair is, and how she wanted to cut her hair to like, my hair length liddat. Then I dunno how to tie up my hair now, so she experimented with my hair and told me how i tie my hair nice and how i should clip up my hair. LOL.

oh gosh, tomorrow got sailing. Aaron sure laugh his head off or something at me. haha. Quin will look at me a bit shocked, then say something stupid and look away. haha. No lah, just joking.

Shall go do some packing first.. tata! =D

"Don't you see baby asi es perfecto" ; Hips Don't Lie - Shakira.
I THINK I AM JUST GOING TO BREAK INTO ONE MILLION PIECES.

Firstly, my dad isn't happy, cos there is this boss who really likes him [as a like, he really likes my dad's attitude and passion for his job and stuff]. So this boss wants my dad to work in his company. The pay is about the same, but the things he may have to do might be different. From what my mom told me, this new boss is pretty nice. What my dad isn't sure about is that for his like, section in NTUC, he is getting a new boss. He doesn't know if this boss would be nice or not. And since the other boss is nice, he isn't sure whether to stay in NTUC or to go over to the other company...

so yesterday he was really troubled. And when he accidentally hit me when i ran past him [he stuck his hand out to take something just as i rushed past him], he scolded me like siao. I was really shocked. Then when walking to Celine's house, my mom told me why my dad was so troubled. I felt like crying. As a daughter, I couldn't be of any help when my dad feels like this.

Next, my gran sometimes isn't feeling well. I feel so worried for her. I think i ain't spending enough time with her. I feel so guilty of not being a good granddaughter, whom she loves so much. I'm very close to my grandmother, but yet, I don't know. I'm just not spending enough time with her. I feel so worried. If she leaves, I shall have a serious breakdown. Though she will NEVER leave this world. I assure myself... yeah.

This post isn't long... i'm in not much of a mood to post much. Heh, not practical of me right?

Okay, now leave me alone. I shall sit at a corner and scream like no one was home. The only way to relieve stress, right? I think i'm not gonna smile for another day or so... yeah. and yeah, now its raining.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Forgot to post about Ethel's birthday party. haha. was practically too lazy to do so, because i was doing up the one Endeavour blog.. haha. I have been having coding problems.. like whenever i put in the coding for the DIV ID="navi" thingy, the whole coding goes wrong.

So any soul kind enough to help me or something, please do! Will appreciate it.. haha.

As usual, I went to Ethel's place late. very. I was late to meet Felicia and Shanice, so they waited for me for about half an hour at J8... sorry! But i was late cos i didn't even know Felicia and Shanice were meeting me. I called Felicia beforehand and she said "See first." so i automatically assumed that they weren't meeting me. Never was I to know... haha

Then when we got up bus 55 [what celine told us], we realised that the bus was headed for AMK region. Wait wait, Ethel's condo is at Bishan, not AMK! So I told them, then they said better hurry get off, and we found ourselves in the middle of Bishan Park. So sucky lah! Then we called Ethel, then she told us its bus 56 and not 55!!!

But Shanice showed me the sms that it stated there "Take bus 55 can reach le" and we were like, so mad at Ethel, but later found out that it was Celine who used Ethel's hp to sms Shanice. LOL! So we took taxi there instead of taking another bus, cos we might have to wait a longer time, and we might stop off at the wrong stop.

Okay, so nevermind about that. When we got to Ethel's party, it was a BBQ lah, then we saw like, the BOYS there. Derrick, Max, PeiWen, Garey, Arthur, Jun Liang, YI MING?!?! and Chnia Gee, and somemore but i totally forgot.

They look so totally different lah! As in, Pei Wen's voice was much deeper, that when he spoke I couldn't recognise it was his voice, then Chnia Gee spiked his hair and stopped wearing glasses, Derrick - still the same, Max also seemed to spike his hair a little, Garey also spike his hair, the rest practically remained unchanged.

Then wah lao, Ethel too rich liao lah! She actually had like, crabs to be barbecued!!! OMG LAH! CRAB LEH! and like, not only one crab, but about 5 or i think more! Then we played Bingo, and dodgeball, and football, and more Bingo. For one of the rounds for Bingo, the winner who Bingo-ed 2 rows can win a BILLABONG JACKET OR PUMA JACKET!!! omg lah!!! But Jia Ying won it T_T. I only had like, 3 numbers i missed before i bingo. 3 numbers on each line i meant. So sway right! I could bingo like, 4 or 5 times. But just missed one number for each row i could bingo. SWAY!

Okay, post more later... going to go out to have my hair cut... T_T
Will miss my super-long fringe. hahah!

Friday, June 09, 2006

oh and i forgot to post this little note to myself here, just in case i forget.

"He who shall be a leader, must first be a bridge."
- Welish Saying
JUST LOVE THIS SAYING SO MUCH! It has so much meaning in it, and i just am so inspired [by the meaning of this saying] to be a leader! yeah!

"If one wants to serve, he first must have the attitude to serve first [???]..... [or something...] [GOSH I FORGOT THIS PHRASE FROM YESTERDAY'S CAMP! THERES A WHOLE LOAD MORE FOR THIS PHRASE!]"
- ??? [and i forgot who said it...]
Shucks, i just loved this phrase cos it had so much meaning! How could i forget it! Must ask Cia if not Wen Yi, cos I saw her copying down notes during the workshop which was on the first day of camp.. or maybe i can use the internet to search. TECHNOLOGY my dears.

MFSS Student Leader's motto:
-To Serve, To Lead and To Grow
Must post this motto here, just in case i forget. They asked us this during camp, and everyone in the group didn't know! haha!!! And notice that i used a different font for that.. Trebuchet.
Missed sailing training this morning. Cos I was SICK.
Stupid SL selection camp made me feel so sick this morning. Until now I still do. and I think I can't really speak for a moment or two...

This morning after eating my panadol I went back to sleep, and was later awoken by my brother telling me that my hp was ringing. He passed to me my hp and I saw -
Ms Cheng;
[her tel no. below]

And i was like, gosh! How to say I sick? Later I die. Then when I answered the call it turned out to be Mrs Sidhu. She asked me if i was going for the training or not. Then I said no, because I was sick. Then I think she must be pretty shocked, cos the rest of my sec 1 sailing friends who went for the camp were there at the training. Joeseph and Nicolas. Even the ICs Siu Ngee and Tzu Ling were there at the training too, and so was the night mentor Zachery. Wah, I the only one who went for the camp not there.

But Mrs Sidhu heard my explanation and asked me more questions like if my mom was bringing me to see the docs' and i said my mom will if i become more sick later in the day. Then Mrs Sidhu kept asking me to drink more water, and she told me that for like, dunno how many times. "Make sure you drink more water, thats why yesterday during the camp i kept asking you all to drink more water is because of this, if not later you all fall sick." she told me.

I guessed that she kept asking me to drink more water cos I sounded DEAD HORRIBLE. I like, couldn't even speak lah! Like going no voice liao lor... and i kept coughing while i was speaking. haha, so irritating to cough while you're speaking. Then she asked me if anyone knew where i stayed, or if anyone stayed near me, and i said no for both. And then she said then how i get the packing list for sailing? Cos next week is our sailing camp, and people [especially people like me who always gong gong dunno what to pack] need the packing list. And cos i wasn't there for training this morning, I couldn't get the list cos no one can pass it to me, because everyone stays far from me.

EXCEPT BRYAN! OMGOSH WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF HIM!!! He stays at like, across the road diagonally down from me, and its like, so near!!! GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But nvm, i told her maybe i could get Aaron to scan it in for me and send it to me. haha!

Omgosh i think i cannot talk liao... ahhh i sound so horrible now... don't call me please my dear friends. you'd think it isn't me on the line, if not it may be the case where i can't talk at all. HAHA.

Shall go eat my breakfast now... hungry liao. haha. Staying at home is not fun, and futhermore later still got Ethel's party at 4, and i haven't bought for her the birthday present and i dunno if i can go annot... gosh, die liao...

And Ben kept asking me to change my blog's blogskin. LOL. okay i shall change it if i'm not lazy or something... haha! Or maybe in a million years, yeah.

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Finally back from SL selection camp! haha! Feels so great to be back home. Anyone missed me? hehe. Hope no one did. =)

Guess what?
We only had about 2 hrs and 40 mins of sleep! Well, for me, that is.

Thats cos when they told us to sleep at about 1am+, Dorothy and I just kept talking and talking non-stop. HAHA! Then when we were talking halfway, a whole bunch of Mentors came in and kept going "Drill! Drill! Drill! Drill!" and so on. Saying that its a fire drill lah!

Then cos the girls were sleeping in the hall and we were gathering in the hall, it was easy for us. The boys had to walk from the other end of the school grounds on lvl 2 to the hall. LOL.

Then it was really SIAO lah! I tell you - at 2am in the morning we were playing weird games.
Like for example, blindfolding everyone in every group and making us hold a rope. The mentors would then shout for what shape they want us to make with the rope, and everyone has to move until they think they've got the shape. Then the mentors ask us to remove our blindfold to see whether we got it right.

First time my night mentors wanted a triangle, and we made a trapezoid or something.

Second time, my night mentors wanted a square. We made a rectangle with weird angles.

So sian lah! Then after that we can go back to sleep. Already about 2.40am liao...
Suddenly after i went into my lala land [i actually slept after that cos i was really tired], i was awoken at about 4am, with the gang of mentors shouting the same thing.

So i dragged myself to the front of the hall to settle down with my group, and at 4am+ we started playing another game. Which is, of course, SIAO LAH! 4am in the morning playing a game where they turn off all the lights in the compounds where they hid some puzzle pieces! Like the classrooms and the hall. Then we're only allowed to use one torchlight to find all the puzzle pieces.

My group couldn't find any of the pieces, so i found it werid. Can't be that all the difficult stuff they give US?!

Then when we went to the stage while making a round, we found Lian Yi from another group shouting "Got a piece from group 7 [my group]!!!" and we took it from her. Then we shouted "Any pieces for group 7????" and we find Shriram's group passing to us like, half of the puzzle. CRAP HIM LAH! We were so pissed off, cos later we didn't finish the puzzle cos we were missing 3 pieces. CRAP!

Group name ;- SHARPEN SAW [a.k.a. Sharpen the Saw or S.S.]
The members in my group were Alicia, Pheadra, Atikah, Wen Yi, Hui Xian, Lim Yen, Hian Wee, Thomas, Spencer and Kian Loong. All of which in the group i only know Alicia, Pheadra and Atikah. So pathetic. Those people weren't at all the enthu type. All so sian sian one. Especially the boys, but what to do?

My mentors were Jesie, Nurul and YeeKang. THEY ROCK!
Night mentors were dunno who and dunno who. Both are CCA leaders from CO.


The worst thing that happened to me during the camp was that I surrendered my handphone. SHIT LOR! I brought a hp cos after the camp my dad wanted me to contact him, and maybe he could fetch me home.

Then on the first night, Mr Prim talk to us about being responsible, and honest and stuff like that. Then he talked about knowing that surely some people never surrender their hps and snacks and electronic devices and having improper grooming. I listen until I felt so guilty that when he asked those who had anything to surrender, or confess to your teacher, for example handphones, having coloured hair, having nail polish on etc, I went to tell my Jesie that I had a hp to surrender.

She rolled her eyes and i was like "oh shit.."

Then when i went up to take my hp and went down, Nurul asked me for my hp. Then I gave it to her and it was passed to ms sim! I was like so dead, or at least i thought i was.

Then Ms Sim took my hp and put it in her pocket. Then i heard my name being mentioned and then one of the CCA leaders [heard from Wen Yi that they're CCA leaders for CO] come ask me what my hp model is and all these.

For the rest of the night i felt very down and guilty, and didn't dare look at the teachers. I mean, i know! I should have surrendered my hp in the first place, but i didn't cos i was afraid Mrs Sidhu would do something to me.

Its very bad having a teacher who is in charge of your CCA in the disipline section of the school. Yups. *nods head*

Oh em gee! [omg. LOL] I think i'm going to fall sick soon. Stupid camp's fault. Now I'm having sore throat and cough and blocked nose! Wonder what i'll have next... argh. And I'm SUPER TIRED lah! 2 hr 40 mins sleep is not enough okay. But now I'm still energised enough to be able to type this. lol.

But when I woke up at 6.15am this morning i was so sleepy still... I just wanted to go back to sleep lah! Wanted to go sleep~! But then after that got PT! OMG! we did more than 20 pumping [i did the boys style as usual. gosh, i was the only girl doing boys style], we ran about 5 rounds around the 3 basketball courts in our school... etc. Damn tiring. Wanted to die after running the 4th round cos Tzu Ling made us stop there and do PUMPING. 20!


Everyone was damn freaking tired after PT. All like wanna die wanna die half dead half dead kind. haha. But what to do? WE WANNA BE FUTURE LEADERS OF MAYFLOWER!

Mayflower~
Our dearest school...~
Together we aspire, together we strive~

Ahh. What crap LOL.
So damn tired now lah! Even the fan blow my face then i wanna sleep.... Gundam Seed music ain't working! GOSH!!!

I am such a pig, I feel. haha! Because just now when I came home, I used the computer for a while, then go sleep at about 5 or 6 or 7 plus. Then I slept till about 10.15pm. HAHA. But now I'm tired again, which proves I'm a pig. haha


SHARPEN SAW! [clap x2]
SHARPEN SAW! [clap x2]
WE CAN SCREAM! WE CAN SHOUT! WE CAN CHEER OUT LOUD!
S.S OOH! S.S AHH! S.S WHEE~HA!

Okay peeps, believe it or not, this is my groups' cheer. I felt so guilty when i suggested this cheer to my group members because it was what my group thought of during the sec 1 camp, its a original from 1E okay! So i kept trying to get Atikah to use another cheer instead of what i suggested, but she insisted that the cheer she suggested and the cheer i suggested is very nice, and we should use it.

What i was afraid of is that my classmates will ham-tum me! Cos its our original idea, and yet i was teaching it to outsiders [as in, outsiders of our class]. I feel so guilty. Guys, shoot me! I deserve it!!!

But then again, when I realised that Shriram's group also used this cheer, all the more I insisted on using it. But Shriram's group got edit the cheer one leh.... dots!

I LOVE THE AMAZING RACE! WUAHAHA!

Damn fun lah, must take bus that kind somemore. But only in Ang Mo Kio region, SO SAD LAH!
But cos i got no ez-link card and only got 10 bucks in a single $10 note, I had to change with the drinks stall uncle from my school. lol. So many coins lah! Then we went to this HDB flat near my primary school, and it was shaped like a... CLOVER!

OMG LAH! I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT WAS SHAPED LIKE A CLOVER EVEN THOUGH I USED TO SEE IT EVERYDAY WHEN I WAS PRI 1-4 [i think]! But still, I see it all the time lah! And i don't even know... what a disgrace! WORSE STILL, I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS THE HIGHEST HDB FLAT IN AMK!!! 25 STORIES HIGH! omg so cool lah those people living on the 25th storey.

Then that was our first station, and the one of the tasks we had to do when we was go up to the 25th storey [highest storey] and look for a like... a number. haha. The mentors were supposed to show us a picture, but we took turns to go up mah, then the mentor that went up with us [the first batch to go up] was Nurul and she didn't have the picture so she just told me the answer secretly. haha! Supposed to write down the number engraved on the water meter thingy. haha

Then the view there was simply BREATHTAKING! OH MY GAWD YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE! The view was so cool, can see one of the reserviors. But I don't know which one, but its just pretty lah. I saw Siu Ngee [the camerman aka my sailing senior] taking some pictures of the view, so i shall post them here when its uploaded into the MFSS gallery. =D

oh and lemme tell you this, when you reach up to the 25th storey, your eardrums would be able to feel the pressure for a moment or two. haha! But even so, those people living on the 25th storey are SOSOSOSOSOOOOOOO lucky! Can see such a beautiful view everyday. I will not get sian of it one lor.

Then after that, when everyone in the group has assembled on the last storey, we took turns to go downstairs by lift [of course, DUH] and when the lift door closes, we have to take the timing of how long it takes for us to reach the ground floor.

1:01 mins... OMGAWD LAH! SO LONG! The lift is lao pok pok one, so damn slow. Their lift all the like older, slower types lor. haha. So those people living on the last storey got advantage and disadvantage - Nice view/scenery to see everyday, but take very long to go from the first floor to their house [last floor] or the other way round. haha!

Then we go other places also..

I AM SO EMBARASSED, I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHERE PATHLIGHT SCHOOL [a special school for i think special kids lah, you know.... those kind of kids with slower learning ability] WAS! SO DISGRACEFUL! I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW PATHLIGHT SCHOOL WAS IN ANG MO KIO! HAHA! Wah lao, their school damn big lah! NO FAIR! MFSS already quite small lor, then pathlight school so big. I think almost MFSS's size or slightly bigger, and its definitly A MILLION times bigger than Ai Tong School lah! [my pri school]

Ahhh hands tired. Shall stop here for the day. If you didn't know, i typed like 1/3 of this post, published it and went to sleep, came back, typed another 1/3 of the post, then publish it, then turn of the comp and sleep till 10+ then i ate 'dinner' and bathe and came into my room, turned on the comp and typed finish the post. LOL.

I'm damn tired now.. I think i should sleep. Tomorrow got sailing training, and I dowan to sleep while during training or something haha. Hope it rains or have no wind tomorrow. THEN NO NEED SAIL! haha whee!!! and now its just nicely 1am =D

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Today's the day..

The day where we all get.....

TORTURED!


YES! Its SL SELECTION CAMP '06! a total killer camp, as seniors in the Student Leaders' league continue the harmful sins of TORTURING their little juniors in-the-making.

Woah, what crap. haha!
Later at 7, I shall wake up, AFRESH, thinking its just a BRAND NEW DAY.

No conclusions to jump to, nothing to worry about. LOL. I shall just HEAD TO SCHOOL with another heavy heart and sigh with each step i take.

Wondering if i'll be thinking WHY i even chose the road to LEADERSHIP. Gosh, I'm "well-off" enough as a chairperson....

My heart's feeling heavy, I'm feeling down. I don't feel right, I don't seem right.


"You took your love away, too fast
Love, no chance to say look back
And now I know the truth,
It make, its easier
Maybe when time goes by,
I’ll understand

Let’s pretend, that I’ve moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.
Open my eyes, Look deep inside.
I run away.
I run away.
I run away.

You threw it all away
So blind
You pushed me far from you,
In your life.
Now I know the tears,
Won’t lead to loneliness
Maybe when time goes by,
I’ll understand

Let’s pretend, that I’ve moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.
Open my eyes, Look deep inside.
I run away.
I run away.
I run away.
I run away.

Let’s pretend, that I’ve moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.
Open my eyes, Look deep inside.
I run away.
I run away.
I run away.

Let’s pretend, that I’ve moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.
Open my eyes, Look deep inside.
I run away.
I run away.
I run away...."

- I Run Away; Britney Spears

I just love this song, loads of meaning in the words =)
But it sounds very sad too, huh.

Ouch, my stomach's feeling weird.... gosh... don't tell me i'm having gastrics or something. haha!

But who would care? Really, my parents would think its just another small case since i've been having gastrics since about 6 and when i was pri 5 it happened almost every week; no one in here cares.

who cares. All i want to do now is enter my slumber world, my world filled with dreams, not nightmares like what happens in my reality. Gosh, its almost 1am.

Tata; and good night to whoever is reading this now.
YOU OUGHTTA BE SLEEPING TOO YOU KNOW!
I have been blogging for 1 year and 11 days. LOL.

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why not 911??? HAHA; LAME!
Totally bored now.. nothing to do!

I still haven't tried asking my mom about me going to the BBQ again, grr.

Initially this morning when i woke up she already left for work, and so did my dad... soooo... *shrugs*

anyway, Ethel just called and asked me if i was free on the 8th to go to her birthday party.. I said most probably I was free... until now i realise...

I have sailing training on that day! What the..

Tomorrow is the SL selection camp. I am so scared about what will happen and GOSH! i haven't packed my stuff yet. Opps! hehehe.... anyway, sailing camp is also quite soon. and YES! COS TOMORROW IS THE SL SELECTION CAMP, I DON'T HAVE TO GO FOR SAILING TRAINING! WOOTSIES!

haha. omg I'm so mad. David agreed, sailing now has become utterly boring. And at the start of the year, everyone felt like they would never wanna miss a sailing training.

BOHZOH! now everyone wants to skip sailing training. LOL. That was how i initially thought at the first place, I kept telling myself never to skip one sailing training, even if i was sick.

And that reminds me, now I am feeling sick.. geez. how unlucky. But still, I'm excited about tomorrow. hahaha! But I hope that if i make it in, the speech i give would be alright. Or i would so totally kill myself if i make a blooper outta it.

It would be so totally scary, you know, you're just standing there at the podium, and everyone's just staring at you?

Ya, not only that, but if your speech is utterly boring, they would so totally give you the "GONER, LOOSER!" kinda look, and you can tell if they're bored.

Look at their faces, some of them would be sleeping already!

I understand, cause I've been an audience of talks too. But not about leadership talks where you have to vote for them. I've only listened to.. you know, principal talks and stuff during assemblies. Those were the boring days of my life.

like, HAHA!

anyway i have nothing much to post about, since now it's still only 12:47pm... nothing interesting has happened in my life, yet. heh!

I realised that I've been blogging for about a year and 5 days! WOOT! haha. later shall go check exactly how long i have been blogging. hehehe.

Monday, June 05, 2006

my mom seems reluctant to lemme attend the blogskinner's BBQ thingy... omg lah! So sad.... she said what "The people there you dunno, so i bu fang xin lah!"

what the... being a sec 1 isn't good at all! haha. not as much freedom as the older kids... like, 3 QUARTERS OF THE REST OF THE PEOPLE ATTENDING THE OUTING ARE OLDER THAN ME?! i think i might be the only one who is 13... dots.

hence, i'm looking for anyone [my friends, duh] who can accompany me to the outing! please please please? pretty please? haha.

OH SHIT. I DUNNO HOW TO GET FROM EAST COAST PARK TO HOME! GOSH, SOMEONE TELL ME A WAY TO GET BACK TO AMK!!! or else i can so totally forget about going, since my parents are going away to Bangkok on the day of the outing. GRR!
wah!!! just reached home from J8. okay, shall try to make this post AWFULLY short. =)

Actually I didn't JUST reach home.. but a while ago. lol! just that i keep listening to music and stuff until i kept forgetting that i wanted to blog -_- I told myself to stop listening to I Miss You by Blink 182... haha. But that song is just uber nice lah! hehe... I listened to it about 114 times since i downloaded it. LOL! It hit the "Top 25 Most Played" list in my iTunes. haha

But top is still Believe Me by Fort Minor! yeah!

Today I'm not in the right of moods, AGAIN. Gah... feel sorta heartbroken i guess. I think I'm hallucinating, imagining too much. I just don't wanna feel the same way when.. ahh. nvm. Shall not say that. Just say I was rejected when AGEEK helped me to call last time... haha.

was so damn sad that time lah.. LOL. WHAT CRAP. Well, just hope that I don't feel the same way.. after that i was sad for like a few days. haha! crap, as usual. Gosh...

I'm so sorry Jing Yi! I was late today... to meet Jing Yi and Janisha and Seraphina at the Toa Payoh MRT today... I overslept again, as usual. Thanks to reaching home at 2am sharp yesterday cos my parents were playing MAHJONG. LAME LAH!

Then this morning i got up at about 8:39am or something, but was too tired to drag myself out of bed. So i just carried on sleeping. Until the time i got up it was 12:17pm or something. And i totally forgot that i was supposed to meet Jing Yi and the rest at the MRT station for study group at 11am. I thought it was 1! haha!

Then after checked my handphone for messages, I saw that I had 7 missed calls. From Janisha and Seraphina. Then when i turned on my com, totally forgetting about the arranged meeting, Janisha called.

When I answered it, she immediately asked me where i was. Of course i replied at home lah! Then she told the rest that i was still at home [ can hear them talking in the background one mah ] and i heard Jing Yi gasp and shouted "WHAT?!" in her usual over-hyperness tone.

And i was like... opps..

Then Jing Yi told me to come down immediately. They were still waiting for me at the MRT station leh!!! OMG! For about an hour plus liao leh!!! Then I told them to go up to her house first, then when my parents get back I will ask my dad to send me to her place. So i rushed a bit, and went online for a while. Then after i got ready to leave [ it was almost 1! ] then my dad and mom told me to eat lunch first, since my mom bought cha siew rice, again, as usual. haha. Then they jokingly said i don't eat, i don't go. Then I was like "huh!!!" so i just eat lor. wah lao... haha.

So my dad and mom sent me to Toa Payoh.. then dropped me off at Jing Yi's block. Then the other 3 came downstairs when i was downstairs the block waiting for them.. my mom was with me. Then when they saw me and said hi to each other, Jing Yi ran round the curb and almost banged into my mom!!! I was like omg. haha. Cause she didn't see my mom there. Then my mom nagged a bit, telling us to be sure to be doing our work and stuff [omg lah.. so naggy! haha]

then we went upstairs to Jing Yi's place, and when we reached that floor Jing Yi told Sera and Jani not to tell me where her house was.

And since Janisha was the sort who liked to provoke Jing Yi, she told me that Jing Yi's place was right at the end of the corridor and Jing Yi squealed "JANISHA!!" and started poking Jani. Seraphina and i stood there laughing.

We sat at the dining table [i think it was, she had another small dining table in the kitchen] and I took out my Math textbook and homework assignments and fullscap paper [SCREAM CITY! yeah! haha] and my hp. Then Jing Yi saw my hp and went "hi-5 gwen!!!!" and she took out her hp. SAME AS MINE!!!! LOL!!! Then Janisha told me that Seraphina and her also had the same hp as each other!!! LOL!!!!!! Janisha had the same hp as Seraphina, and I had the same hp as Jing Yi!!! So cool lah!

So as usual, where ever i went i had my family camera [which only I use most of the time] and started going hyper and taking photos =D


our phones!!! haha. the owners' names are on top of their phones =)

After we settled down, Jing Yi's mom called us to the kitchen to eat lunch. I was like, OMG! die die die... cos i ate lunch at home!!! Jing Yi didn't tell us that we were gonna be eating lunch at her place! So I forced some pasta down my throat... then was damn full. So was Janisha. She also ate a bit of lunch at home. which is better than me! I ate a whole packet of CHA SIEW RICE lah! Bleh... still feeling bloated lah!

So her mom came in and helped us to clear the plates and told Jing Yi not to force us to eat cos we were damn full. Me and Janisha lah. Seraphina complained she was full but she ended up eating the whole plate. LOL! I think her mom heard us grumbling lah... opps! cos through the whole lunch we were grumbling about not being able to finish it and Jing Yi was trying to spoon feed us. haha.

Then we got back to the study table.. and chat, talk about some stuff, and tried to pull the rubberband off Jing Yi's hair cos we've never seen her let down her hair, except during camp. But that was night lah! Of course cannot see clearly. haha.

We studied some shitty crappy math. Grr... I was trying to chiong the Math crap asignment lah, but they kept talking after like, a few mins of doing some sums. Only Seraphina was doing History as she was done with her Math asignments DONKEY YEARS ago. Good lor, so hardworking.

Okay, so in total, i have only done like, FOUR QUESTIONS?!?! like, not four questions at Jing Yi's place. Four questions in total from going to AMK Macs with Celine and the study group with Jing Yi, Seraphina and Janisha. And when i was with Celine, I did 3 questions, up to 3(e). Then now at Jing Yi's place, I did up to 4(b). GOSH!

Went to the library after that, cos there was a problem with the Literature asignment info that Mr Lee gave us... the website link he gave us was wrong so we went to Toa Payoh library to check... me and Jani were reluctant to go.. but the other two dragged us along. HAHA. then we realised that must have a .sg at the back of the link. How stupid! After that Sera and JY wanted to borrow books, but Jani and i didn't want to. So we go KFC cos Sera and Jani wanted to eat cheese fries.

Seraphina went to buy the cheese fries. When she came back to the seat, we found out that it was a freaking 3 BUCKS! Ripper lah!

Then Jing Yi went to meet her mom or dad or both of them at the library again. So we finished up the fries and Janisha, Seraphina and I went to think of another place to study, as no one was studying at KFC at the time, so paisei to be the only ones to study there.

Walked to Burger King to find no one there studying either, and it was quite packed. So okay, we stood there thinking of where to go to study. They didn't wanna go Mac...

So we go to the MRT station and headed for Bishan. Go J8 mac and wanted to study. But no one was studying there, AGAIN. And it was so damn crowded. no seats.

Then Janisha suggested taking neos. LOL!!! So we went to take neos lor. 10 bucks gone lol. and i looked shitty in those neoprints lah! ahah.

Then went home lor... since it was 6 plus. haha.

OH GOSH. I realised that this post is not short at all lah! so long!!! hahaa. sorry to those reading, yah. hehe...

Sunday, June 04, 2006

now i'm so totally bored.

as in, really bored.. can tell from how lame this post might be turning out to be.

i'm at my parent's friend's place, the one they always play badminton with. and what to say? i guess this place is not 'teenager'-ish enough for me. its too...

adulty.

all the adult stuff... like..
mahjong, tv, etc.

no computers, only a laptop [which i am using now]... gosh. how...

boring.

and its totally true. my brother's gathered on the couch with the other few of our childhood pals... which, btw, are younger than me. haha, nothing in common to chat with about lah... all they know about is playing maple, cd-rom games, gameboys, and television.

nothing about blogging, blogskins, html, stuff like these. so its totally boring for me. the only one who is 13.

SIAN!

even the tv's not helping me by showing some utterly boring shows on channel 8. like, omg i thought they were always the sort to show nice programmes.. and now i know, on saturdays, theres nothing much for peeps to watch. woah, the hosts of this stupid gameshow is earning bucks without any much of an audience.

well, maybe not any audiences in this household. but still, you get the point.

I'm totally sorry for not having updated the past few days. i was too lazy to do so. you know, after all that training, the laziness kicks in... argh. it always happens!

worse still, this is a laptop... like, lame! i always liked laptops. but this one is a total goner kind of laptop.. with all the many kind of problems. like internet not being able to work properly, and always disconnecting from MSN messenger!!! haha

I was informed by Ben that there would be this blogskinners of SG [singapore] gathering.. and i've seen the forums... nice man! the last time i visited that forums for updates, there was a current overwhelming number of 31 people, including me, that are going for the gathering!

omg i'm so excited! whee! and the last time i checked was in the afternoon! so now that its 9 plus, there mght be another huge number of 50 people maybe? haha

that forum might be flooded now, for all i know. i think that i should check it out later... just to count the number of people attending. =)

so many people! i will be able to meet so many blogskinners if i go. lol!

i feel like sleeping, and its only 9:07. gosh, it must be really boring lah! i wish someone can call me right now so that i can chat and chat. hehe. that is, after i finish this post. haha!

wah got jelly with longan [the fruit] !!! nice... lol.

so sian... now all the kiddos are playing something like play-fighting. lol....

the eldest one besides me is a pri 5 kid, yeowloong. actually i've known all these kids since i was like, 6?? i guess so... hah

and yeowloong's playing my bro's gameboy.

how can they actually STICK THEIR EYES ON THE GAMEBOY SCREEN?! i mean like, its so boring.... the same game all over and over. well, if its RPG its okay lah, but its hard for me to like, stare at the screen for so long.

omg someone outside just dropped a wine glass... i heard the glass shattering sounds...

now the outside of this bungalow [a private house lah, one storey high only, but its a nice house.] is a cordoned off area for the kiddos, whee!

but i even doubt that they'd go outside. i mean, this place is AIR-CONDITIONED! and they're going mad kicking each other and generating special powers.. like Dragon Ball Z!! oooo i still remember that series! so nice, but a bit lame and the fighting is so fast, how do they expect people to be able to watch with all that high-speed kicking of theirs.

lame!

and my bro's lame too, and he is pri 3! an age where you become more matured... but he only seems to either remain the same,

or become more childish!

like, omg. how... scary.

haha... lame..

shall blog later... the adults keep coming in and out of the house... and looking at the laptop screen.. NO PRIVACY LAH! haha

ahh! gosh..... really missing ya......... =)